#anyway i'm done being gay

[deadn30n]

hey hi hello so

ever since i made the first concept for Solstice's design, i've struggled to find something that actually accentuated how i felt they looked.

i liked the m!viera model for the facial structure and some of the broadness of the shoulders / torso, but have always preferred the f!viera model for everything else. but i really, really disliked the more feminine facial features on the f!viera model which is why i kind of just stuck with the male model, since i felt the facial features on that could better encapsulate the androgyny that Solstice encompasses

however. i've finally, finally found a happy medium thanks to some mods that my friend mugen pointed me in the direction of and i think it's safe to say that i have a completed concept of what Solstice would/should look like, if they were real

someone swapped the m!viera face that i use onto the f!viera face and when i tell you the fucking pure bliss i felt finally having the look i wanted for them -- that beautiful, alluring androgyny they're meant to have as both an angel & a cosmic machine i'm just.....

they FINALLY look like how they're meant to and i'm so so so so so very happy right now. it might seem silly but Solstice is my first ever oc i've made, and i've poured a lot of love into their concept as a whole. so having them finally look the way i've always wanted them to gives me such serotonin i'm sdflkjghd

the body they have, the face they should have........

granted i did have to sacrifice their makeup mod but that's fine bc honestly they look just as fucking hot w/o it and a bunch of people i've shown this to before posting it to have said they prefer it w/o the makeup so

yippie!!

expect me to be posting more photos of them and writing them actively again hehehe

[coraldonkey1102]

thinking about how if it was any other story, Wilson, on his deathbed, would give house the classic "don't die. live. for me. please" last words. but not in this one. Wilson wouldn't do that to house, he knows it would be a cruelty to give house that choice or to leave him alone in the world. and Wilson wouldn't do that. and deep down, Wilson knows that he's just selfish enough to want to know he's not dying by himself.

[b4kuch1n]

I actually for real feel like my phone's scanning quality has dropped monumentally while I was away on thing so that's a fun thing to figure out now. anyways

[anghraine]

I wanted to say "all of the above" on that one poll about annoying Strong Female Character tropes ... except one of the tropes was femme fatales and I just couldn't. I know there's all kind of baggage but I love them.

[horsemage]

I think we should bring back basic etiquette lessons such as shutting the fuck up when you’re watching a movie in a group that is not exclusively your friend group 🙂

[moregraceful]

someone cold emailed me to ask if i was going to a writer's conference in los angeles and was putting together a panel or caucus for queer poets or if i knew anyone who was...buddy you are severely overestimating how much i network with other poets (i don't) and how often i attend writer's conferences (never) 😭

[aaronstveit]

hiiii tumblr 💕

[the-tired-commander]

It's the end of the year so here are some of my favourite screens and edits I made this year!

I've had a bit of a rough year this year, and I wanna say thank you to everyone who has been so lovely as I've gradually stepped back into the game. You've all been absolute delights and I hope the next year is kind to you <3

Happy new year!

[torgawl]

someone's back but it's not nobara

[rotisseries]

I'll never be able to truly see the appeal of z*tara. like I understand from the objective standpoint. but also cannot and will never get it. they are like madwheeler to me

[bylertruther]

me saying will does not hate himself for being gay =/= me saying will is somehow magically not affected by homophobia or the abuse that he's endured his entire life because of it. nor is it me saying that he has never once had doubts or negative feelings/thoughts about his sexuality and what it's made of (and will make of) his life.

intrusive thoughts are normal. no marginalized person can go through life without ever experiencing them or any of the other things that come with being discriminated against. it's impossible, unless you live in a bubble in the middle of nowhere untouched by society.

will isn't a super confident character. we've seen that multiple times and it is literally a plot point more than once lol. i'd be shocked if there are people who have been in similar positions that haven't ever felt weird, different, or down in the dumps for how they're treated for things they can't control. we've watched will suffer with being different on-screen. i know that he's felt bad for being a freak that gets babied by everyone.

i still don't think that that is indicative of internalized homophobia.

internalized homophobia, as in self-hatred over being gay, as in actively believing the negative stereotypes about yourself and thinking that there is something wrong with you because of your sexuality.

not internalized homophobia, as in "wow, being gay is hard" or "wow, this aspect of myself means i have to be careful around other people" or "wow, being this way is making my upside down-related alienation even worse". those are normal things to experience and go through. he's some poor nerd in the middle of nowhere, midwest, usa, in the eighties. nowhere did i ever say he wouldn't feel those things.

but hating himself for being gay? actively hating himself? as is suggested by my post, where i state that multiple times? i just don't think so. i explain myself multiple times, but i don't think his actions suggest hatred. he wouldn't lean into it if he hated it.

i never said will was the happiest, most confident guy in the entire world and that he's 100% self-assured in his sexuality and never experiences anything negative because of it. i just said that i find the canonical evidence for self-hatred over his sexuality, aka internalized homophobia, to be lacking.

[toshidou]

these two together...

i'm gonna pass out

[undetectorist]

smug feeling of satisfaction + excitement when i show my friends pictures of the girl i am dating (my girlfriend? pending) and their immediate reaction being omg she's SO hot mixed with weird sadness and insecurity knowing that there is absolutely not going to be the same reaction if she shows her friends pictures of me

[bisexualamy]

coming out as a man who is also a butch

[jackgoodfellow]

MORE PROGRESS SHOTS BABYYYYY

[WIP]

[piedoesnotequalpi]

The theme of today's excerpts is: ✨bisexuality✨