#anyway talking myself into a spiral

[communistkenobi]

having gone through (and still in the process of going through) the thousand different processes for changing my legal name and gender marker in every conceivable place those things could come up, one thing I’ve noticed is that being trans wreaks administrative havoc. the particular process of changing your name because you’re transgender isn’t strictly unique, because people change their legal name(s) for lots of different reasons, but there is a systemic unpreparedness for dealing with the scenario of a user or client or patient whose name and gender has changed simultaneously. the most common response I get when I ask somebody at a front desk if I can change my name and/or gender in their system is “huh, this has never happened before!” and then they go talk to their manager. and so to get anything done you have to continually assert that it’s possible, you have to explain that you’ve changed it elsewhere, you have to carry around legal documentation to prove that it’s happened, and you effectively become a perpetual edge case for any given administrative system you exist in. I know, intimately, how my university’s IT systems work in terms of field input because it’s so decentralised that changing information one place doesn’t change it in a lot of other places, and the act of having to be registered at a university with two conflicting legal names means I have to have an ongoing relationship with their IT help desk. People talk a lot about how we have to become medical experts in order to assert our own identity, but you also have to become a fucking IT expert too

[moonkhao]

hi.

[cordeliawhohung]

i've officially decided i deserve none of you.

[lazzarella]

I'd have to rewatch to be more confident, and also wait until the end, but right now, Yak and Dee's love story feels like it's been written as a spiral to me. So, it's not a line from point A (FWB) to point B (boyfriends). And while they do keep coming back to the same issues and themes, it's not a circle either (at least not yet, and I don't think it will be). In a circular narrative, the protagonists end where they start. In a spiral, like I said, they come back to the same things more than once, but each time they've moved further along the spiral, so when they come back to the same point, it's with new experiences or perspectives or whatever. And that’s what I see here, and why I’m enjoying all the mirrored scenes, etc.

And, while I know many people don't see any progress being made, I definitely do. They're kissing now, for one, and the Dee of a few episodes ago wouldn't have made that speech in front of Ter, not to mention Yak no longer has lingering doubts about Taem vs Dee and has said that he loves Dee. 

So, yeah. I could be wrong about the spiral thing, but that's how I'm seeing it right now, and I’m very much enjoying it

[running-in-the-dark]

can't sleep (despite new meds + melatonin, boo), so I'm thinking about random shit. like: it's insane to me that I'm totally fine living on the ground floor now. it used to really freak me out. I hated being downstairs when we lived in a house. I always felt watched when I had my room on the ground floor. and every time I visited my dad at his ground floor apartment - where I was on my own except for maybe an hour a day - I had what I now know were panic attacks several times a day. so like, that's pretty crazy.

[laylakeating]

KARMA IS A QUEEN! @thetroubletones, i love you!

[tartarusknight]

So supernatural au for Stranger things. Well, it's a more unnatural version. Still with the Upside Down, just a different version!

Season 1--->

The Wheelers were human, and Nancy was shown how to protect herself at a young age. But she befriends a banshee Barbara Holland and keeps to herself for the most part. But she falls for Steve Harrington, who was a siren. People warn her away, tell her that it's just because he's spelling her to love him.

Barb is the most protective. So she goes with Nancy to Steve's. Even though she's been feeling off since the youngest of the Byers pack went missing. And when she goes up with Steve, she swears she can hear Barb's scream.

Afterward, Nancy talks to Jonathan Byers from the Byers' pack, and they go looking for their friends/family. Only when they go looking, Nancy finds a weird portal. When she goes in, she's sees a creature she doesn't know. Before Jonathan's able to get her out there, it bites her.

And that night, she feels her body change. Jonathan is with her as Demagorgan's bite changes Nancy. The small scars form on her face, letting her face open up. Her nails are able to lengthen into talons. Jonathan walks her through dealing with the transformations, and Nancy develops a close bond to him.

And after everything goes down, she joins the Byers' pack. But other than that, nothing changes.

Season 2 --->

The next year, as the demodogs start acting up, Nancy, who's already struggling with Barb's death, snaps under it all. She yells at Steve and blames him for using his sirens call on her. How they couldn't really be in love and that it was all just bullshit. She goes to Jonathan, and it all stays the same.

Steve is stopped by Dustin Henderson, a young satyr. The boy had been trying to take care of a young creature, and it had escaped. Steve agreed and grabbed the trusty nail bat he had gotten from Jonathan.

They still go to the junk yard. Steve still protects them. Lucas, the young Gorgon and Max, the young Harpy. Before they head back to the Byers with the rest of the group.

And when Hopper, the human chief of police sees the young fae girl whom he had taken in, a new version of hell breaks loose. Steve, thankfully, is left in charge of the kids since a siren wasn't known for fighting (no matter how much Steve proved that he was strong).

And when Billy, the argogant werewolf, shows up, Steve protects them. He is doing his best, but Max still saves his ass. But he's brought into the younger kids' party/pack after that. Afterward, they headed into the tunnels, and Dustin was able to speak softly to Dart in his satyr speak.

Season 3--->

Has Steve with a witch Robin at Scoops. With Dustin pulling them into the Russian conspiracy. Then Erica joins as well later on. It has Steve trying to use his siren song on the Russians, but since Steve hadn't used a drip of it since Nancy, it comes out wrong and doesn't work. Robin is able to heal him a little, but without her herbs and books, she's trapped as well.

Little Gorgon Erica saves them by turning the doctor to stone, and Dustin gets them out.

Season --->

Eddie Munson is a known vampire. His dad had been one before he went feral from accidentally taking to much blood from his wife and killed himself in his greif.

That made Eddie half vampire, the other half human. But when Chrissy the sweet merfolk die in his living room, Eddie is quick to be blamed. He goes into hiding and is relieved when Dustin finds him.

And Steve, who had sworn off dating in fear of never being able to be with someone who truly loves him, falls for Eddie. And well, with Vampires' ability to charm others as well, he can't be charmed, and they can trust that they love each other for who they are.

That's it. That's my idea... all I got. Thoughts????

Steve - Siren

Nancy - Were-Demogorgan

Mike - human

Byers - Werewolves

Barb - Banshee

Sinclairs - Gorgon (think Medusa)

Dustin - Satyr or Cyclops

Max - Harpy

Billy - Werewolf

Eddie - Vampire

Robin - Witch

El - Fae who was experimented on and made more powerful.

Hopper - human

Jason - Minotaur

Chrissy - Merfolk

[sluttyten]

My afraid-of-romance ass has just been asked by another regular customer for my number and the stupid thing is that again I do think this guy is kinda cute and I really probably should say yes

[moonchild-in-blue]

Everyone clap, I actually went out with friends instead of being sad alone 👏👏

[alisoncooper]

made a mistake in my new job of two months and being so so so brave about it

[dinosauring130]

You know you have a problem when you start RELATING to the song Waving Through A Window

[spider-man-2o99]

people on here continue to be Wrong abt mig en masse and graphic design continues to be my Passion so. banner for when He Would Not Say That

[dogearedheart]

🏞🏞🏞

[jacksintention]

Still unwell about Rilke and PH

I love the dark hours of my being.

My mind deepens into them.

There I can find, as in old letters,

the days of my life, already lived,

and held like a legend, and understood.

Then the knowing comes: I can open

to another life that's wide and timeless.

So I am sometimes like a tree

rustling over a gravesite

and making real the dream

of the one its living roots

embrace:

a dream once lost

among sorrows and songs.

[l0rd-0f-c0ws]

I frequently feel completely isolated no matter how much I talk to people. So that's fun

[lifenconcepts]

if you don’t stay in constant touch and produce enough messages within a 2 minute time frame (preferably 2 messages) I will disappear under unknown reasons