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suzanne collins fascinates me as a person. i wanna study her
like. did she approve how this movie came out? or the previous ones? does she think its funny? or just sees it as bringing more readers to her books????
as a novelist, if my story got misconstrued by the masses so hard i would. idek what i'd do
but maybe she saw it coming when she made the movie deal. idk!!!!
i liked the movies as a kid (had an excuse not to be media literate. was a kid. read the books the first time as like a 12 year old LOL) but now im just…… the actor did katniss so dirty
shes angry and petty and unlikable and sharp and. shes just SO MUCH MORE of an interesting person in the books
very flawed. arguably collins tries to make her unlikable. VERY different from your typical YA female protagonist™️
SPEAKING OF WHICH. its very weird to me that suzanne wrote it as a YA book. its honestly pretty adult. in the sense of the big themes its tackling. but, of course, i dislike when people imply that books for younger folks cant do that successfully. i always point to animorphs as a fantastic example.
i honestly wonder if her publishing agency pushed that angle
cuz like yeah katniss is 17. but still
if you have any interest at all in dystopia and HAVENT read the hunger games please give it a shot. even if you didnt like the movies (or did. or didnt see them. whatever)
theres a reason it kicked off the popularity of dystopia in pop culture. almost nothing made in the few years after is nearly as good
#to be clear i havent seen the ballad movie yet i plan on pirating it#but first i want to reread the book bc its been a couple years#i LOVED it tho#anyway. some ramblings from discord#the hunger games#ig#suzanne collins#corvi caws#the ballad of songbirds and snakes
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fanart of the speed ev trainer because i'll do anything besides ev train my damn pokemon
#pokemon rejuvenation#aevis pokemon rejuvenation#jazzart#should i ev train my chandelure in special attack & speed#or invest in like. some defense#im thinkin of making her my new dedicated fuck you pokemon rejuvenation bosses guy since shes replacing my previous toxic mon#and she gets curse [and toxic in the future via tm if thats available?]#much to think about. i think ill do toxic + hex + defenses if toxic is available in not a million years#jazz ramble over. time to not ev train and do something else anyways#tag update from 2 minutes later: guy on discord said toxic is not available as a tm at all. FAWK!
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Me when doing my environmental science homework, at every available opportunity:
#wish there were a class discord or a chill teacher so i could share it#fr though I'm like “oh we're talking about freshwater? hey did you know that agricultural runoff is causing accelerated eutrophication?”#and that a lot of the runoff is bc of erosion caused by the destruction of ecosystems and their vegetation that would've kept soil in place#and the runoff is mostly compromised of fertilizer and bacteria and pesticides from the agriculture and sediment from the eroded land#and that crop irrigation is so inefficient that literally 40% of irrigation water never reaches the crops#and don't even get me started on the FUCKING CORN SUBSIDIES#god those fucking corn subsidies#“hey boudicca what's the worst policy choice the us government made in the 1930s–40s?”#“was it American isolationism? maybe increased militarization? the garbage treatment of women and minorities?”#wrong! it was not stopping those fucking corn subsidies#(this is a joke obviously those other things were worse)#(I'm not actually saying this silly little agricultural practice was worse than Japanese internment don't worry)#but i AM saying that at some point they should've fucking phased out those goddamn corn subsidies#do you wanna know why California grows so much corn even though it's an incredibly water intensive crop and California is dry as shit?#I'll give you three guesses#anyway sorry for rambling my point is fuck industrial agriculture#agriculture#described
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i'm adverse to doing my writing (or even plotting) by hand bc i know i'm more than likely just going to end up typing everything out on docs or discord but after busting out two and a half pages of plotting shit on paper maybe actually writing things down physically is the move....
#my hangup comes more with the lack of organization that doing smthin like. plotting out an entire story on paper entails#bc that involves a LOT of retroactive sifting whereas if i do it digitally i can organize everything from the start#which is why the idea of having a story notebook or smthin is daunting#i'm also cautious abt doing this bc i've done it before with projects i ended up dropping#but the important thing is. is that i feel like things are happening and that i have more plot direction for honeybee#anyways. love me some chapter headers. love me an organized discord server#the discord server is a personal thing where i can write down shit that only makes sense to me it is not like. a server with ppl in it#rambles
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i cant believe fontaine finally cleaned up its archon quest writing and learned to Actually Proper Balance its npc screentime with its playable character screentime. and yet. AND YET!!! THIS is the nation where i end up hyperfixating on the historical figures with no official designs.
#rambling#genshin#i am DANGEROUSLY close to speedrunning the “hyperfixated on a blorbo > loosely based in canon headcanons > 'thats just your oc'” pipeline#with the narzissenkreuz institute kids#im dying so much to see what happens next that im just making up shit in my mind functionally 😭#if they wont give me more quest for like another month then i will do it myself 💥💥#but actually they should take their time with the quests. my impatience is my own fault and should not be the basis for a rushed story#anyways. i cant believe they finally got solid playable character writing in the archon quests#and instead of hyperfixating on lyney who checks like. almost EVERY blorbo preference box of mine.#im obsessed with an oceanid world quest 😭 and some random journals#something something tragedy something something#i think i just really loved the intrigue and mystery of it all. slowly finding all the notebooks and piecing together#who did what and wtf went down#was SO satisfying. it was so cool to figure out#i was live reacting to the oceanid quest in a discord channel with some friends and you could literally SEE my thought process go from#“this quest boring as shit idc about oceanid roleplay” to “oh wait they're actually commenting on the nostalgia themes now” to#“HEY WAIT A FUCKING MINUTE THE NAMES CONNECT?!?!”#especially since when i started doing all that the wiki didn't have character pages for most of the narzissenkreus institute kids#beyond like one to two sentences#and so the moment i saw that rene's page was like an actual paragraph and mentioned the kvarnah quest i was like HOLY FUCK#anyways!!!! genshin's writing has been surprisingly good recently#but still. i cant believe they finally managed to get me attached to a random npc! a random HISTORICAL npc for that matter!!!!#inazuma and sumeru wishes they had that#i think another part of it is that fontaine has been good about giving its historical figures consistent personality and character voices#and also character drama! like there's a LOT to latch onto here especially since they're letting you see it firsthand instead of only notes#and since they've tied it back to the present in a couple of very obvious ways it makes the connections easier to latch onto#and also since there's less people to worry about#i still don't understand inazuma history tbh. there were too many damn people and they all blended together in my mind...#they all had like overlapping jobs too ueghhjk#“this guy was a master of [weapon] and died in the catacylsm” describes like at least 3 people who are only ever mentioned in artifact sets
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thsc fans made me a kinder person wowie
#was talking with my gf some days ago and i have gotten less violent in my head HELPDGF#no bc personal rambles if ur not interested idm but#last year fucked me up so bad everyday i used to get strikes on insta for my private posts to vent it out#its the funniest shit to look back on tbh Help but i genuinely look back on some posts and go wow this motherfucker rly made me a violent-#person and he acted like all that happened to me was my fault#i seriously do not want another message from that fuck on ny birthday again i will make his life living fucking hell#this december will be full of copperright and thsc . i have not felt so emotionally vulnerable in so long LMAO#thanks to these little fucks i want to throw them around i love yhem#it took some silly gentle people of this fandom for me to realize perhaps i should tone down the violent humor#bc a friend in another friend group lately also opened up that hayy i think im. not ok with playful bullying anymore and i felt bad even#though i dont talk much there Fuck you timezones#i will admit the excessive usage of tone indicators in sticktwt seems too much to me but not a huge issue overall#i am but a reserved fucked up aunt of the thsc fandom that ppl seem to rly enjoy the reactions of when they post copperrifht HSGSSGD#i commissioned 5 people to draw copperright i think that's enough to tell the damage done to me by thsc#coping mechanism for when ur sick for a literal month without a day's break 👍#anyway erm maybe i love u guys what are u gonna do about it#i cannot for the life of me talk in dms without being anxious but tumblr and discord servers are what save my life#i am here but hiding behind a pole cartoon style#gootbye
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#so. just a lil ramble#since giffing has been a lil sporadic for me since like the past month#and they're usually bursts of sudden motivation#so if u requested a set from me and haven't gotten it yet i will get to it eventually i promise <3#and if i haven't been on the dms a lot it's sometimes bc i can't and mostly bc of tumblr's dms being a total ass#if u have discord pls tell me though so we can talk there without the messages getting delayed#also. the maniac tour stop in my country's happening on the weekend and guess what!!!!!! i can't go. fun#i rlly thought i could though but life happened and i had to leave some place#the city is also like far away and. i hate it#i hate it but i will try to get my shit together and i hope this weekend won't be too bad#imagine skz being in your country and you're anywhere else but there. lmao why does that just suck#anyway!!!!!!!!!#i'm just tired but i hope everything gets more manageable 4 me bc i hate being miserable
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Haha whoops what........ She/They now....... Thank u all kindly for ur cooperation
#ramblings of an arrow#if I come out on tumblr I dont have to go through the mortifying ordeal of doing it in the discord groupchats#hello friends and loved ones I know some of you will question this and think it is not in line with my faith#I politely request that you respect this change anyways and trust that I have done a LARGE amount of research and reflection#and do not believe that this does in any way actually conflict with it#also maybe have fun with the knowledge that this is most likely temporary and transitional with an eventual inevitable switch to they/them#somewhere down the line#once again it is not something I think conflicts with my faith I would not do it if I did#please kindly respect my decision in this matter its something I have been thinking about for a long ass time#thanks dears#I feel like I am ripping a band aid off oof#I want this to be like fun and good and celebratory and gosh heck the euphoria I get from it is hard to beat#its difficult not to be really anxious about how ppl will react tho#pls be happy for me even if you are confused
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sometimes i think "oh this post is not vibing w/ me but idrc so ill just tell my friends a bit about it and why i don't agree" then they wake up to a 10 paragraph easay on why it wouldnt work or is shortsighted imo and i realize i have mental issues
#i am very opinionated i cant lie#rose rambles#anyway who wants my eassy on why the Hyrulean royal family r terrifying but not bc of just like. misogyny#the og posts weren't even! that bad!!! it was a cool interpretation i just didn't think it fit well w/ older lore#and ppl in their notes were bringing up twilight princess and they brought up ocarina of time and i was like 🤨#like it COULD work but i feel like its definitely robbing a lot of zeldas their agency just bc botw!zelda was robbed of her childhood lol#alsp tetra i didnt touch on but she was NOT some random orphan her family came from the direct line from the last princess#if she had some cousins or siblings sure id agree the power can go to anyone randomly#but it was literally a plot point she was always destined to finish what the last princess started??? it wasnt random chance???#anyway anyway not trying to rant on main lol thays what my private fandom discord server is for
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I was thinking “haha it’s so weird and silly i got soOOO into this one very specific part/arc/related minor-ish character group of a franchise, i haven’t done that before have i? this is a new weirdness for me isn’t it?”
and then suddenly vividly remembered my inconvenient and untenable and frankly quite extreme obsession with the romulan star empire all throughout middle school, with such force and clarity that i had to put a hand to my face
#i would absolutely have made a Discord For Romulan Likers#that was still a bit different though since a portion of that came from an instinct to subvert#bc i felt like what some of TNG era canon did with Romulans basically being pre programmed to Do Betrayal was silly needed deconstructing#(and at the same time was intrigued by how a society of people like that COULD function if taken at face value)#whereas my hangup on the village arc and Ganja is bc i rly rly rly like the story + characters (also feel Longing (tm) instilled by tragedy#and wanted to talk about them a lot and nearly all english language spaces for MiAbyss were just crammed with the s1/movie parts/characters#and not my Special Sillies#like obviously theres no ‘hey ONLY talk about season two of the show’ rule on the server. that would be unhinged#but i made it because the rest is always getting discussed everywhere else so i hope that focus is ok with everyone and hopefully that’s no#uncouth of me to acknowledge that i personally made it for that specific reason. wait this got off topic. THE ROMULANS…. RIGHT#anyway i remember i was kinda grumpy at how much stuff Klingon Likers had in comparison#you can learn Klingon#you can’t learn Romulan!! (real ones know its called Rihan and not Romulan though)#(the Romulans call themselves the Rihannsu. i believe thi is 100% extracanonical material though)#(ebil did you really get tipsy on a tuesday night and start rambling about Romulans???? yes. yes i did. )#(look i had a difficult appointment today i deserve it)#anyway it’s actually insane that i never read Diane Duane’s series abt them#i didn’t really have internet purchasing power and was restricted to what was at the library and easily available online#i should read those books eventually#i still have a soft spot for them pointy eared maniacs
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Brain refuses to draw scales tonight so take an unhinged woman instead.
#i don't tihnk this has quite the atmosphere i want it to but it's a sketch what do you want from me#anyways so i rambled about it in the discord but at some point in their lives gharan and Oswald are separated#gharan is sent to her family's estate for mental health related reasons and oswald is captured by the government#this essentially means that gharan is basically left to magic's devices and considering her mental state already wasn't good#she somehow gets worse#she kills a loooooot of people to feed her own soul in that time#and was high key considering dissecting oswald and taking his soul as well when he showed back up in her life#the conversation itself is probably from some point in recent time after the two are married#anyways.#yeah i'm very normal about her. veeeeery normal
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i LOVE stormblood (listening to some of the ost rn <3 i love all the expansions so very much. they all mean a lot to me <3)
#🌙.rambles#[ ffxiv. ]#i understand /why/ but it makes me really sad when i see ppl that don't appreciate stb :< it has its faults! yes. & a lot is preference but#it's still objectively good !!!! <3 on my behalf i love stb a lot though. help wait i realize how diverse my taste is from all the way from#traditional to. idk sci-fi and fantasy n music that also matches the vibe.... that said oh my god wait i love ffxiv's ost so much .#in stb i really love a father's pride :^) IT SOUNDS SO HOMEY.... & the ala mihgo ones r my favs too! salt & suffering. liberty or death#oh my god wait soken you genius i can;t do this. i love revolutions so much. i remember crying w the.. YEAH.... i love flowers :<#random but fun fact i used to go by the online alias of 'lily' way wayyy back. & then i've always been enthusiastic when it comes to#researching about things i'm interested about so. flower meanings !! i love that sm. idk why but that said i've always loved white flowers#the most. roses have always been my fave. & on the topic of roses i remember a lore i had for my wol with stormblood omg#apollo n i finally bought the game so we were out of free trial yeah? unlocks market board so i remember buying a lot of glams#i remember buying quite a lot of flowers but i. almost always just use the white rose (or the black one! or the hyacinths)#anyways i. i didn't have the rose on my wol for like the end of stormblood 😭 i was sad about that for a while bcs. lore.#i'm really specific about lore stuff !?! idk !?! but i had some ideas that oh! what if some blood got on it or wtvr. it's in my notes#i think hien had a part to do w it bcs i liked him a lot back then . why do i like leaders sm. alphi / aymeric / haurchefant / emet / herme#all of them have some sort of authority ???? & oh man i remember i've always loved the image of a white rose being tainted by red.#I DIDN'T MEAN TO RAMBLE SO MUCH BUT I LOVE FFXIV SO MUCH 🫶🏼#dude my discord profile looks so cool rn w my wol & my about me :] that line's from the description of the death summon gbf#nier. i like her honestly n oh god i love her song. vira too. another sky :< help i realize my faves are /often/ blue or red. purple too.#help wait stormblood orchestral music &. god i will never shut up about everything ffxiv it really has so much#azim steppe was sooo chill to go through. i love love it so much. temulun's lines too! ishikawa ily#& then with the patches :^) i started in ul'dah so. Emotional. yes. and then i love tsukuyomi. tsukuyomi....#i won't say anymore spoilers but sigh that tore me apart </3 i have sm more to write but oh my god TAGS but i love ffxiv so much damn#random & not in stormblood but i remember how hyped i was for ravana? the ost. THE OST. unbending steel's lyrics.... oh my god#I LOVE THE OST SO MUCH I WILL NEVER SHUT UP ABOUT IT AAAAAA i forgot abt that 3:13 part o hmy god HOLY FUCK#i feel alive again. overwhelmed with love. god i love this so fucking much thank you ffxiv i wna cry i love ffxiv so much 😭😭#thinking abt fordola :< & thinking of the wol's trauma gives me chills. & remembering as well of my own lore for my wol throughout this#the ost? the dialogue? the story? the characters? the pain oh my god i love how they express & do the storytelling so much#god this is what i mean when i say ffxiv naturally and immediately gives me inspiration. & motivation. i really really want to write#I'M EMOTIONAL. HFKJDAKFLSJLKDF the music n. oh my god everything just everything. ffxiv. ff. all of it
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man i’m kinda exhausted tbh. maybe. maybe. i sleep
also fun fact i think it is hilarious that. w/o context. i will say i screamed this birthday more than any other bday b4
#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#haha. hahaha. No#anyways more rambles bcs i just REMEMBERED. holy shit#okay i will explain in tags now. the context#I WATCHED TRAIN TO BUSAN FOR THE FIRST TIME!!! watching scary movie on bday yeah haha#it is funny that the lil girl has a bday in the movie... and it was my bday when we were watching... LMFAO#speaking of which bayo3 and arknights anime and the new gbf event w kou uncap is here now. i will do that asap#i've barely checked any bday greetings from games save for a bit from lyria so far and those from marius ... >___<#anyways yeah i watched scary movie w friends this night. hilarious. i even teared up. and got so angry at those guys. they deserved that#<33 ^^ BUT YEAH this is the bday i've screamed the most. my throat hurts tbh. also the cake earlier was pretty sweet#but uh fun to play around w. yeah. yeah. GJHSDBJHG YEAH i kinda play w my food <//3 it is fun okay. also it's not too messy#just lil weird designs and uhh stuff. like splitting the cake layers and lune adding uhh the cake onto the icing of the cake (??) yeah??#yeah tho WHEEEEE !!! o man right... i was surprised to see who first greeted me hbd tbh. from my class#vv nice of them tho gdsbgjhsbd i wasn't expecting it from her tho. ALSO HOLY SHIT I NEED TO WATCH THE TXT VIDEOS#they preformed here in the ph on my bday and they are my favs. i love them#also i shld check out my favs like social media accts from games and kpop and see what are posts on my bday LMFAO#THE LIGHTS FUCKING WENT OFF WE HAD A VERY QUICK BROWNOUT HOOOOOLY SHIT#o man i was kinda scared to check some of my other discord servers bcs i forget them bcs i have. a lot of stuff and all#so only really focus on the ones i have energy for but I DIDNT HAVE TO WORRY MUCH ... SOBS ......... i am happy#I FORGOT THIS WAS HERE. oh my god#i stop ramlbing and now talk irl
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#my current mental state is exhausting#I'll feel good for a while but then some little thing changes that#and I'm crying and convinced that no one cares#in my main friend group on discord all but one of my friends stopped engaging with anything#unless it's from their one fandom#which feels miserable cause it seems like they don't care and there's no point in sharing#i just want friends who will talk to me and we can look at each others stuff#anyway I'm getting my meds reevaluated soon hopefully that helps#i just wanna have fun and enjoy things#balverine rambles
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unpopular opinion i don’t think we should be aggressive to people who are uneducated/have “bad” opinions i think we should try to understand their point of view and give them advice because being hostile only cements your side as the enemy in their mind and they will feel justified in not agreeing with you and will be hostile back and it’s not going to change their mind
“i am uncomfortable with [topic they are uneducated about]”
“ermmm i hope [bad thing] happens to you + you don’t deserve to live and-“
STOP !!!!!!! EDUCATE THEM!!!!! pisses me off so bad bro being aggressive is not going to do contribute anything useful to the conversation!!!! be kind and patient with everyone no matter how wrong you believe them to be!!!!!!!! (unless they absolutely cannot be reasoned with and it’s objectively funny and not physically harmful)
#thoughts#mostly copied and pasted from discord but i added some stuff so if ur in a server with me and it looks familiar that’s why#this was prompted by me un-homophobing someone in a youtube comment section or at least getting them to think about their views#by asking them to explain their side and then explaining mine and being respectful of them as a person while giving them helpful informatio#it is soooo much more productive to just be patient with people!! listen to them!!!!!#try to understand their perspective and prompt them to understand yours!!!#tag ramble sorry#anyway. love healthy discussions. we need more of those#i looooove healthy discussions
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Popping on to say sorry for the extended absence once again and that I'm not sure when I'll be back in full capacity. To paraphrase that one old newspaper clipping about life being one damned thing after another being an understatement, The Damned Things Are Overlapping, quite a lot right now. Miss you all and I hope to catch up at some point but I don't know when exactly. One would hope soon, but everything feels like shaky ground right now, so no promises. Love you though 💜
#my dearest friend is in a dismal situation at the moment and thus so am I because we may as well be joined at the hip#despite being on separate continents#I was so worried I was sure I would give myself stress hives the other day before I'd heard back. still worried now but#it was not knowing what was up that made it That bad#things at home are a little rocky atm too but that's peanuts in comparison to the other thing#also some hats I ordered after mulling over the decision all year hit Out For Delivery 3 days ago then entered some nebulous tracking state#been stuck on Alert - Awaiting Delivery Scan ever since. mysterious. are they in a limbo realm? lost? destroyed? no clue lol#and the gradual decline of twitter is a looming background radiation as well of course#my priv there used to be my comfy space where I could mournfully wail like an alley cat and feel a little less alone#and share my little project development art stuff for a pick me up. but it's a ghost town more than ever now#what's a man to do when he's too shy to original character art post in discords but too concerned with privacy to do it on tumblr#science has not yet found the answer#anyway ramble ramble this has gotten excessively long huh#thank you if you read it. and sorry for the downer#but considering what I've just said above about worrying myself sick from Not Knowing I figure maybe it's worth letting people know#puttin my money where my mouth is... eheh :')#I hope things start looking up soon. for me and you#personal pulse#maybe delete later etc
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