#anyways im tired and just glad that my shit wont change bc i was literally praying ab that shit sgdgdggdgdgd

[bunnyb34r]

Lmao so all of us floor workers are getting shuffled around in an effort to actually make us productive/see how hard we are actually working (which really means: the people who actually work are making their areas decent and we want other areas decent. Don't matter that those previous areas will be bad now. Nope not at all)

And people are SO MAD

But 😏 guess who is the one person who doesn't have to change lmaooo 🥰 meeeee

And he wants the clothing folded a specific way now and everyone is like this is so stupid I don't get it!! And I'm like "oh that? You mean what I've been doing for the past two months? The thing that my coworkers cannot figure out how to replicate and will 'fix' thinking a customer did it? That? Hahaaaaa bitch yesssss"

And [RC] had told BratBoy that with these changes he just can't piss me off bc she has to deal with that and he was like "so um I was SPECIFICALLY told by [relative coworker] to not make you mad... bc you'll get really angry... so I don't wanna get yelled at 😬... by any of you!!! 😟"

Agsgdgdg like he is already at least a little afraid of me bc I've gotten "mad" and bitched ab NewLady and it's like hahahaha bitch you haven't seen me mad. You've seen me irritated. Me being actually mad is worse. :)

Anyway irritating but not upsetting bc we "unofficially officially" have sections now and he's like "nothing will change for you it's fine" sgdgdggd

[ryncorrect]

university!au: day6 sungjin

i’ve abandoned this au for so long istg my life is a mess yall please forgive but anyway im back with my bullshit and ready to spread my cringe-worthy stuff to the world again

name: park sungjin

major: practical music and arts

other activities: leader, guitarist, and vocalist of university band, president of music club, member of cooking club

park sungjin is the embodiment of leadership

i mean he’s the band leader, the club president, also the president of his class since year one, like he’s so trustworthy and responsible, literally nothing can go wrong under his sight

and even when things do go wrong (life is a bitch) he’ll still make sure everyone is fine and having the time of their lives pun intended

anyone who meets sungjin for the first time will probs say he has this tough man aura, cold,,, tsundere-ish idk

but as someone who have known each other for so long, you never understand when anyone says sungjin looks cold

you know damn well the moment sungjin opens his mouth he gonna throw dad jokes with his satoori dialect

dad jokes are fucking funny fight me

you once said sungjin should start his own comedy club

......he’s currently considering it

oh right he also talks about food all. the. time.

he joined cooking club for a reason okay

no, he can’t and doesn’t really cook he’s only there to taste food and people let him there because he’s nice and he knows how to appreciate the cooks

uh we love a man with manners

so, who is sungjin for you exactly?

he lives next door, one year older than you, was a leader even when you were little ayeee childhood friend cliche

can you imagine little sungjin leading his friends in game its so pure brb crying

you told him everything you couldn’t tell ur parents because they were busy, you asked for his advises, he made sure you were safe and happy

you still depend on him even after you two have grown up

you enrolled to the same university, took the same major with him, and even joined the clubs he’s a member of

this isn’t because you’re indecisive, it’s just that you spent so much of your childhood with sungjin that you two became similar to each other, up to your hobbies and interests and even palate lmao

that’s why he loves to eat with you because you two never argue about the menu

the only club you can’t join is the band, and that’s because jae rejected your application

reason: extremely close personal relationship with sungjin, therefore sungjin will take your side if we ever had an argument

you denied that; no, sungjin wont take anyone’s side based on feelings bc he’s a logical person and he always listens carefully to every side of the parties before he makes a decision..... but jae wont listen

brat

"you only rejected me because im a better guitarist”

“lalalalala cant hear you over my authority as the important band member”

“fuck you”

“i don’t accept offers”

anywayssss you did fail to join the band, but you’re friends with them, theyre literally so used to your company that sometimes they forgot youre not actually in the band

you and the guys teamed up for sungjin’s surprise birthday party

the surprise failed because dowoon accidentally added sungjin to the group chat

sungjin being nice and playing along anyway because he didnt want to disappoint you

and then its sungjin’s turn to ask the guys for help for your birthday party

failed again because dowoon AGAIN accidentally invited you, in person, to your own birthday party

dowoon what the heck?????

yeah its all cute and sweet but thats all of your relationship with sungjin, you treat him like a dependable brother and he treats you like his own little sister

thats what you tell to your friends too when they ask if you two are dating

they’re glad thats the case

because they have a crush on sungjin LMAOOOOO PLOT TWIST

they’re hoping they can get to sungjin through you yanno like asking you to send him snacks and letters or to tell him they say hi

you dont mind i mean you know sungjin is one admirable person ofc everyone likes him

sungjin never rejects nor accepts it hes just like “yay snacks!”

“god damn it sungjin just date any of them im tired of being a matchmaker”

“then dont?? literally no one asked you to”

little did you know that sungjin had the same problem

some of his classmates are interested in you but whenever they come to him he just says, “dont ask me i dont know anything and if i do i wont tell you”

this one sandeul guy has started asking you out and stuff

“ehhh youre so nice i’ll think about it!!”

you, immediately texting sungjin: ur friend sandeul ask me out what should i do

sungjin: do you like him tho

you: not really idk him yet

sungjin: just tell him your mom said no

you: damn nice

but this guy is so persistent and you gotta admit hes kinda cute and after a few tries you finally said yes to him

so you two went together and it was pretty fun

sungjin isnt too happy when he hears about it from sandeul

he asked you, “why didnt you tell me first?”

“well i dont think its a big deal. it was just a date anyway”

but you always told him everything

sungjin never speaks about it again

you go on another date with sandeul the week after

you tell sungjin later and he doesnt ask how it went

hes just “oh”

idk he’s kinda distant now, he rarely talks nor replies to your texts

he doesn't visit music club nor cooking club either so you don't see him often

have i told you im uncreative and all my aus are lame???

you think its probably because hes focusing for the finals, but even after it’s over sungjin doesnt really hang out with you or the band anymore like he only comes for practices and leaves right after

weirdly no one says anything about sungjin’s absence

but you cant stay quiet any longer and decide to ask dowoon whats wrong with sungjin

you shouldve known dowoon cant help much

“honestly i dont know either, maybe you should ask wonpil he’s sungjin’s roommate”

“but what if wonpil told sungjin”

“told sungjin what?”

“that i asked about him”

“asked him what?”

“...nevermind”

you asked younghyun

younghyun doesnt help either

“i dont know, just ask him yourself. i thought you were the closest to him??” why you so salty man

okay fine lets ask jae

“i’ll tell you for fifty bucks”

“dude im broke”

“then deal with it yourself”

you had no choice but to ask wonpil

“he’s just tired”

you know wonpil lied but this little shit refuses to tell anything

“please dont force me to answer i will cry really loudly and it’ll be embarrassing for the both of us”

why do you befriend them in the first place smh

oh youre right about wonpil telling sungjin that youre worried, and he does tell him to talk to you if he got something in mind

sungjins hesitant but in the end he only says, “no... its just that i didnt realize until recently that my little sister has grown up a lot”

“dear god wtf you sound like her grandma”

skip the boring part so uh a few more days passed awkwardly between you two and after your failed attempt at asking around you decide to confront sungjin in person

youre in the band practice room, the others are present, sungjin’s about to leave early as usual, and you find yourself jumping up your seat, “whats your problem with me?”

you know sungjin hates confrontation but you cant stand it anymore. you tried giving him time but if theres anything you seem to be more of a stranger to him

“i dont know what i did wrong and i wont know if you dont tell me, so let me know. i’ll listen and i’ll apologize if its my fault, but dont give me silent treatment like this. its so unlikely of you"

you can see sungjin clences his jaw as he replies calmly, "people change"

"you don't change, youre being childish. if you're mad you should talk about it. if you don't want me here you should tell me to go. if you don't like ME dating your friend you should tell me not to!!!"

drama much ryn

"youre your own person and you make your own choice, its your life and i cant keep telling you what to do or what not," and the end part kinda slips, "i don't hate you dating my friend or anyone, okay? im just not used yet to be a second person for you and im afraid youll get hurt"

"youre never?? a second person sungjin where does this idea even come from youre the only one for me i dont want anyone else???"

and suddenly there's a train of awkward coughs and you come back to your senses and you realize you're being watched

jae pretends to make a phone call, "mom pick me up im scared"

lame jae lame

dowoon mumbles, "can we,,, make an exit first before you two declare your undying love bc its privacy yanno"

you feel the heat spreading across your face as you open your mouth the same time as sungjin, both want to deny dowoon, but younghyun beats yall to it, "yeah you two are in love with each other we been know"

you and sungjin stares at each other, confused, "we don't???"

"oh honey,,, my dear,,, ive read enough sappy shit in writing club to see where this is going"

the conversation was cut there and neither of you bring it up again,

because the idea of you loving sungjin or sungjin loving you is so weird that you refuse to think about it, and so is for sungjin

but ever since that, sungjin has drastically come back to normal its almost hilarious, he spends a lot of time hanging out in the music club, practicing with the band, visiting the cooking club, making a joke here and there

sungjin is himself again with you, a caring dependable brother whom you come to whenever you need to talk or just hang out with and he always makes sure he has time for you

sap

you know hes always been like that but why does it feel different now??? the way he smiles or pulls your hand so youre walking on the inner side of the road,,, how he neatly places your spoon and chopsticks on a napkin when you two go out to eat together,,,, why

tender love baby chICKEN TENDER

mydayexol follow me

andddd so one day, someone asked you out. again.

wow ur so popular i cant Relate

you, texting sungjin: sandeuls friend jinyoung something invited me to a party next saturday should i come

sungjin, replying to you: hmm

you: ???

sungjin: i think its up to you

for some reason youre disappointed by his reply,,, but he’s right tho its your call if you wanna go then you go its not about what sungjin says

right?

right???

but suddenly you got another text: but if you ask for my opinion i would say don't go

you: actually i dont want to either lol so what should i say

sungjin: tell him you already have a date

you: nice

sungjin: with me

you: ayyeee

you: wait what

sungjin: i mean its just a suggestion

sungjin: which you can accept

sungin: or reject

for some reason you can imagine sungjin’s cheeky smile through his texts and it makes your inside tingles and you wanna giggle

so yea you thought it was a joke but he actually did take you out for a movie and dinner

it was really nice

so yanno the weird thing is that neither of you ask the other to be “official” but you just. are dating.

ur friends are mad like “bUT YOU SAID YOU TWO WERENT A THING”

“lol sry i changed my mind”

“fuck you”

“no thanks sungjin can do that... bUT DONT TELL SUNGJIN I SAID THAT hes gonna kill me”

“is he ur mom”

“basically yeah”

this sucks real bad but who cares

not me obviously

ill be back soon (or not) with dowoon’s one lets hope i can do better than this dnsjfsndfj lnjajnfdjs lmAO I LOVE YALL AND HAPPY NEW YEAR IN ADVANCE

[juni-ravenhall]

im rly tired.... irl stuff Stressful i dont like whats happening in my irl rn and i feel rly bad and just wanna lay down and pretend im not here 

escapism: browsing horse selling sites, fantasising about just buying a cheap horse and giving up life 

also more random discourse pondering 

1. did... certain ppl in the fandom literally decide a bunch of things about me bc of some posts i made bc.... esp one reblog i got was apparently not even directed at me with the “ppl r nasty!” stuff (im glad bc fair), but just, it sounds like some ppl did make assumptions. who gave u the right to assume a bunch of stuff about me? like suddenly everyone who thinks Random Adults arent responsible for personally and individually protecting Random Minors also have all kinds of other “”immoral”” opinions and stuff that i never talked about in my posts.... (again, protecting minors is the parents’ job foremost, its great if we can keep minors safe but is the right way of doing that letting them hang out in unsafe spaces?? again most social media isnt safe for minors and if ur allowed to post adult content on it, then that is indeed the rule of the site, so minors shouldnt be on it if it can harm them... and again. i was an abused child and i saw nsfw stuff online, its not any sort of foreign experience to me, but when i was a minor i didnt push the failed responsibilites of my parents onto other adults bc its just not their responsibility. i care about protecting kids a lot as an abuse victim, but if ur gonna call ppl immoral for being adults who exist, i dont agree.) 

2. isnt part of this actually that, rather than adults invading teen spaces, teens are invading adult (mixed age) spaces and demanding other users (not the site staff itself!) that the space be changed for them? while playing sso, i follow all the rules and dont do anything unsuitable for it being a family-friendly space. however, on any social media space that allows adult content, if teens demand how adults should act or what they should post on this site (aside from obvs illegal or abusive matters and following the site rules! obvs!) then like.... isnt it weird? this whole moralism is just rly similar to jeh*vahs witnesses showing up telling u “actually u cant be gay. u need to stop living in sin and doing immoral things, follow our rules otherwise u r on satan’s side and u wont get to live in paradise” like.... check urself bc i rly dont think u wanna be that person. anyway, the point is that a fandom outside of the original game and official media abides by the rules of the site on which the fandom is located, thats how the world works...... like ive said many times, being able to mark posted content as mature and it being hidden from minors via the site functionality (ao3, da, youtube, twitter) + using warnings, is the safe and decent thing to do when nsfw content is allowed on a social media. 

3. sex is evil, a lot of the stuff is coming down to that too. rly backwards going... its scary reading so many ppl talking exactly like religious extremists but thinking theyre just “normal nice ppl” and not identifying as religious while theyre still saying all the same stuff. not to say nsfw content is safe for minors etc but its just like..... a lot of it doesnt sound like its about that its not phrased like “lets keep the minors away from social media” its phrased instead as “lets remove sexual content” (especially “immoral” content, which is heavily religious thing to be fighting about) 

thats just me rambling....... anyway..... irl rly shit right now and dunno how to handle everything, just want 10 horses

[theday]

tagged by @ikyh and @younghyuuns ill be doing both sets !! :D thank you both for tagging me!! this got long so yall dont hav 2 read <3

ru?? rushee’s set!! me: wow ru does not sound like rushee at all ? djsjdhhjd im dumb but i realize now

i. do u believe in astrology? whats ur sign and do u line up with the features usually attributed to it?

fucc... i guess i do ;-0...... and yeah i think?????? like they say capricorns are cold bitches and funny nd im like ya thats me... but they also say we’re hard workers and im like uh.. dont know abt that karen !

ii. what’s ur favorite pair of socks?

bbbbbbb..... socks huh...... i guess my ankle ones? there are also socks that have actual designs on them and those r usually thicker.. keep my feets safe! most of them have pkmn designs bc.. yeah... love the poke mans

iii. what’s a food that reminds you of a specific moment/memory?

i could think of anythiing and get reminded of one situation if that makes sense.. but i thought of pineapple..pizza... anyway the memory isnt anythngn special its just me staring at my delicious hawaiian pizza..... at my favourite pizza place.... love that shit

iv. what’s the longest you’ve gone without sleeping?

i dont have the actual hours but the latest ive stayed up.. like willingly would be until 2am

v. how has ur taste in music changed throughout ur life?

went from 1d to 5so/s + other bands to utaite.... they cover vocaloid songs ig i never kno how2 explain what utaites r then 2 kpop.. but i still listen 2 bands + kpop and utaites.... so nothing much has changed ive just gone broader.. wider... expanded my tastes... 

vi. who’s ur fashion icon?

oh definitely kim wonpil

vii. what’s the dumbest thing you’ve ever done without realizing?

i breathe dumbass particles.. i cant think of one bc my brain probably blocked off all access to my horrifying past but ive been thinking abt how i used 2 send the boy i used 2 like 1d songs....................... 12 y/o old me rly thought. he’d listen.... 12 y/o me thought spamming him was a good idea glad ive learnt from that! 

viii. what’s something you want to brag about?

my grades but it didnt get me into psychology so nvm ! its still good though i didnt expect to get an A1 (hghest grade) for combined humanities since ive had a B my whole life without it i wouldnt be able to move on education wise lmao so thank god for that thanks cambridge thanks bell curve sunbaenim 

ix. when you imagine urself being happy in the future, where exactly are you (like the location!)?

oh definitely an apartment somewhere where its always windy and the curtains are always Moving and the sun just Shines in the room but its not that hot either its just full of warmth and yeah thats the dream maybe also walks in the park without having 2 worry abt sweating my pits out u kno! tldr anywhere but here

x. what’s something you’ve always wanted to own?

let me Think.... i dont need a lot/?? but id love hm.............. i want stability but realistically i want all the hh pcs from the code albums. 

xi. how’ve you been lately?

good good! i finished my *** fic and its. im proud of it though i know its not that good nd i can do better but its done ! and hm i could be going to see mx but asking my mum is stressing me out speaking of her she wont stop Coughing and she refuses to see the doctor ;-/ love those sleepless nights ! other than that i just want 2 get out and feel the sun ???/ wanna get out of this house yea but i need to be.. shady with my money i cant get a job because school is starting in a month and im going overseas again sometime next month so ! no ones gonna hire someone who can only work for 2 weeks at most dhzjhhs shouldve worked when i had the time dumbasses only

ok now falen

1. what’s been on your mind??

hm redacted feeling towards my mum but i cant say them bc itd be insensitive 

2. what are you looking forward to? 

mx? possibly but also finishing my enrolment papers

3. story time!: how and when did you get into day6!!!!!

fuck...... listen up LADS. 

ive told the same story like 10 times but im never gonna get tired of saying this shit bc i love miss boxy so much nd she deserves the appreciation anywy she introduced me 2 day6 after i saw this one (1) picture of brian in minion glasses and instantly i knew in that Fucking moment thatd id die for him. so i asked for the name of my murderer and was introduced to day6 whom frankly id never heard of b4 bdjhjh she sent me all their mvs and i still remember the night . i remember walking out of this japanese restaurant, twitter open, chat wiht boxy there and i was like.. interesting ill go listen when im home so i Did! and my mind was blown away bitch? i honest 2 god expected them to be a boy group,,, dancing and shit yknow? i didnt know k bands existed ! so as a previous 5/sos stan i was like wow. this??? this shit is 10/10 a fucking BANGER thats what i felt listening 2 i smile and just going :O over the fucking instruments so idk if how can i say was the last or second song but Damn. .. it made me scream thanks mister j** he rly dragged me by the collar of my shirt and threw me face first into Heaven so i watched everything i asked my friend for video recommendations and after boxy sent me a page with their face and names i was like this jae kid is 182 cm? wow gotta stan now im stupid and stupid for glasses and tall people so ! it happened bithc,, ugh i lov eday6 so much i remember binge watchng all their vlives after the july after party live (that being the first vlive i watched Ever in my entire life and i laghed so hard despite not understanding a damn thing) please id giv my heart and soul2 day6 im so happy with the way ive progressed as a myday :^( 

bonus when i first started stanning it was 26th june and shortly after i made a stan acc teasers were being dropped but i didnt kno why ppl were freaking out i remmeber seeing jae’s teaser nd going ? ok? its just a pic damn ;-/ and then eveeryone was like: dowoon! choker! me: wdhs? what

4. ????do you have any allergies????

did u think of jae and no i used to be allergic 2 dairy products but thats disappeared

5. a fond memory???

bowling with friends and im just a disaster of a friend im always so loud with them and i thank god everyday that they handle my energy ? i would cheer for them even if they got a gutter or whatever and when they got a strike id go clap like crazy i love my friends i also went i have the power of god and anime on my side before flinging the ball and theyd laugh despite not knowing what vine that was from i love my friends... psg if ur out there yall are the best x i miss hanigng out with them as a trio.. three of us :( 

6. do you paint your nails?? if so, what are your fave colors to use?? if not, why??  

thats so.. tiresome.......... dont u have 2 wait for it 2 dry and shit ? my mums always worried abt ruining the colour or some sht nd im like !!! okY!!!!!!! tldr its a pain in the ass

7. what are your favorite colors?? what are your fave colors to wear??

i like hte colour of the sky... all the colours........ yeah love that bithc and lately ive been wearing a lot of black shirts finally went out of my embarrassing colourful phase ! 

8. what languages would you like to learn?? for what reason(s)??

japanese nd korean jp because i listen to a lot of things in japanese and korean for the same reason but my priority would be jp even tho id love to communicate with my faves i just... yeah although im not exactly making an effort 2 learn bc im lazy but if i Could.... itd be those two

9. when you get stickers, do you use them or do you keep them??

DHDGFHDHDGDSJHJSJAKSSJHFHS THIS FEELS LIKE A CALL OUT???? i keep them......... 

10. are there any groups that you might get into/want to get into?

hm... well theres knk ive learnt their names and im finally able to put name 2 face so thats nice svt too if htey didnt have such large numbers... thats all for now i think?? i love evry girl group though i love gIRLS... 

11. how are you???

idk im constantly just fine?? not the im sad but im fine kind of fine im literally just neutral half the time wjhddshs wild 

both of your questions were really unique and i loved answering them thank you so much for tagging me and if youve read until the end thank you i hope you have a good day!

[abcdosaka]

ok i finaaallyy got my vampire dude to achieve his ltw/get highest position in his career, he’s still got ~55 days of young adulthood left its crazy. his gf (brigit hemlock) wants to be like a master mixologist or something and all she has to do is master mixology + own a bar, and she literally mastered mixology before she even moved in so that’s basically in the bag.

kinda funny kinda sad: im always writing about like toxic beauty standards or whatever on here (or idk at least i think about it sometimes) but i i haddd to give her some plastic surgery. she wasnt even that ugly but her face was originally just so cartoonish and strange looking. ik shes a townie but....still. and i want cute kids. i didn’t completely change every aspect of her face, i just made her eyes smaller/got rid of the default creepy smile. i even kept her outfits for the most part bc i can tell someone put effort into her, like they colour matched all three pieces of her formal outfit (i wont even lie its a sexy ass outfit too so i didn’t really wanna change it) and her workout clothes are so cute even if she never works out

anyway the very next day i moved him and his gf to moonlight falls cuz as much as i like the aesthetic of bridgeport, first of all it takes forever to get anywhere bc elevators take a million years, plus the cab+subway system is so shitty. at least with vampire running they aren’t ridiculously slow but when they’re tired they just walk and take like 3 hours to walk one block. second of all, its so buggy. errortrap catches an unroutable sim/sims not aging every night, and it removes like btwn 6000 - 10000 cars every night!??!? like WHAT!?!?! why so many???? there’s been the same townies since the very beginning of the game and its literally been..idk....40 in game days?? you guys should be dead by now???

i haven’t really played a moonlight falls town and originally i wanted to move them to sunset valley but i’ve played the shit out of that so i think i should try something else...and riverview doesn’t feel right for a vampire couple...(neither does sunset valley but i just like sunset valley lmao. im just so used to that layout and those townies). apparently ppl think moonlight falls is boring but i don’t really want to stress my laptop out so a lowkey kinda boring town is good. plus i can always put some more lots in myself if its too empty

idk how long i plan on playing this save but i’d like it to last. tbh originally i was planning on having my dude cheat with like 20 different people but ngl at some point i got tired of debauchery. it was around the point he was getting to a higher level in his career and i had him going to lounges or parties every night. its sims so ofc it wasn’t like mad men or anything but it was kind of a family friendly version of that. kinda glad i settled with brigit cuz she has fairly good traits for a townie, even if she did start off homeless...

they’re pretty rich now too so i got a nice, 3br 3ba house. its kinda bright and i wanted a darker house so half the furniture is dark and a bit gothic while the kitchen counters are like baby blue but...whatever honestly i don’t really care about design that much. hope i don’t get bored but i like my vampire dude so much i don’t think i will

[hyyh2]

funny how that never happens with say french or swedish or w/e artists 🤔 they're basically saying : "you need to fit the exotic/indigenous image i associate you with so that i can continue looking down on you". As happy as i am abt bts being successful in such a huge market, i almost wish bts had never stepped foot in the us so i wouldn't have had to hear all the bullshit. Anyway, what happened with ur friends sis spill the tea (if u want to)

i would just like to emphasize

“you need to fit the exotic/indigenous  image i associate you with so that i can continue looking down on you”

points truly were made thank you nd god bles .

i wish all the success for bts— its the people that need to change. we cant avoid what bts achieves bc theyre literally so so talented and deserve every good thing coming their way, but we can just hope that ppl get their heads out of that automatic comparison to western/white artists. i hate how thats even the baseline for anything but it cant be avoided bc white ppl have centered shit around themselves for years🙄🙄hopefully with the growth of kpop and overall increasing poc representation we can finally throw away the …. what u could call…. The White Base 🤕.  

anywayshfdhsjghfhd that … “friend”…… lmao this is gnna be a long story idk if u care but if u wanna kno the shit going down in my life then . go ahead n read shdsjhfdjg

to give u some background, she’s always been that type of friend where i feel i have to be on my toes all the time and i have to be careful w what i do/say bc she will cut someone off for the tiniest things. ya so lol we got into a fight and it was her fault, but since i cherished her a lot i somehow apologized for it ???? idk anyways it took a toll on my mental health along with other things shes done such as make me wait at a restaurant for an hour by myself, “tested” me during the first year of uni to see if i would approach her first to ask if there was an issue (which was obviously stressful bc its first yr of uni and she was rly the only person i could rely on as a friend), and just ignore me in the group chat we had w one other friend. i also felt rly left out bc those 2 friends would do anything n everything n just talk about anything w each other and leave me out :// SO LMFAO my mental health got even Worse esp w the stress from uni and not knowing what i wanna do n fear of the future n shit. im the type of person to shut myself out when going thru things and i felt that was unfair and so i msged the group chat to let them know what was going on and i even let them know like what types of things they did that bothered me and affected my mental health. i made it clear that i just wanted to let them know what was bothering me and hoped that we could fix it together. the other friend replied and told me that it was okay and that i could take my time n tht she would always be there for me. as for the other “friend”, she left me on read, blocked me on ig, snapchat, fucking facebook too lol and then she left the group chat we were in.

this all happened around summer-fall of 2018 ?? and recently on my bday this year (apr 2019) i found out why she just stopped talking to me. she just assumed that after my message i didnt want to be friends anymore and just cut off all contact with me. she always said that she was “understanding” and she always makes an effort to fix things with friends but . obviously thats a lie lmaooo

what made me mad was that she had the audacity to tell my other friend “oh i see karyl at school sometimes, idk if she sees me but she doesnt say hi” LIKE BITCH HELLOO >???????? U IGNORED ME N BLOCKED ME ON EVERY FORM OF SOCIAL MEDIA OFC I WONT SAY FUCKINGN HELLO DJSFDKGHSGKJKSGHJSGFDHGHN 

ok thts all. im over it now and im glad im not friends with someone like her anymore since i realized how tiring it was to be around her and how negative she was overall. also she believes in reverse racism, doesnt believe in white privilege, n allows her crusty white ass bf to be racist to her bc “its just humour n hes only joking!!🤪🤪🤪”