#anyyyway thank you for the names!!

[cicadagaze]

you asked for Warrior cat names?

Pigeonclaw

Squirrelclimb

Rumblepuddle

Alleyshadow

Cobblepatch

Brightfur

okay i decided i AM gonna respond. one handed typing let's GO

i am ABSOLUTELY using alleyshadow. i have a cat named fencestalker and that name absolutely gives me the vibe that they're its sibling. weird sibling duo that just stares at you threateningly

cobblepatch i am also super in love with. old guy vibes to me. elder or old medic perhaps?

[theintrovertbean]

WHAT IF what if Nadia cheated on the mc

BEFORE YOU SAY ANYTHING o know you don't see it happening but it ain't cost nothing to ask

But she was super mega drunk because of the stress of being a countess and she haven't seen mc lately so she got too drunky yk

She was black out drunk she just woke up with that person in bed and was like 😦

Anyyyways

I know it depends on the mc and and all but I'd like to know what you think about it like if the mc forgives her or what if they break up

-🦭

Oooooo that means drinking a shit ton of alcohol because Nadia definitely built up a huge tolerance during her first marriage.

Also, it seems like drunk af Nadia might do stupid stuff? Like, Nadia married Lucio when she was hella drunk, and I don't think she would have done it if she was sober. So, maybe, just maybe, this Nadia cheating on MC thing would be possible. If she had a crazy amount of alcohol, of course.

Idk if any of you have read/watched The Scarlet Letter. I've recently read the very beginning of the novel for a literature class, and it gave me an idea. So, in that novel, Hester (I feel weird because my name is pronounced similarly) had the letter "A" on her chest because she committed adultery. Well, let's just say, this character feels quite the opposite of how Nadia would. I don't want to spoil anything. Still, I think Nadia would feel like she has "adulteress" written all over her skin.

Anyway, let's get into it now. I wrote a whole oneshot, not headcanons like I usually do. This isn't what I had planned, but I do like how it turned out, and I hope that you will too.

Thank you for the request, Anon! It was so much fun to write!

The Pain Behind Her Eyes (Cheater Nadia x MC)

The whole night was a blur, and the raging headache made Nadia groan in pain. When she moved her arm, she felt someone beside her. The Countess thought that maybe her beloved MC came home while she was having fun with a few bottles of wine, and then they somehow ended up in bed, which would explain the absence of her sleepwear.

What a wonderful night it must have been. It's such a pity that she couldn't remember any of it, but finally, she could be in her lover's arms. She spent the last few weeks with the apprentice constantly on her mind, and she often found herself thinking of more lustful images. 

The Countess would often lay awake at night, thinking of her beloved. Their sweet smile that made Nadia's heart melt. Their laugh that could light up her heart even in her deepest sadness. And their body, their gorgeous, desirable body that Nadia so often wanted. 

But when Nadia tried to touch the person next to her, they didn't quite feel right. Perhaps MC changed their skincare routine while they were away. Either way, it was time for the Countess to open her eyes and finally take a good look at her beloved. 

The most horrible sight awaited her. The initial happiness immediately faded away as she glanced at the stranger tangled in her sheets. She hurriedly grabbed her blanket, pulled it up, and covered her body with it, desperately clutching it against her pounding chest. It stirred the stranger awake, and when they attempted to kiss her, she pulled away and got out of bed while still covering herself. Nadia couldn't look at them. Not without disgust.

Nadia wasn't disgusted by the stranger, no. It was her own body and actions that made her feel such a terrible way. She hurriedly sent the stranger away, but not without making sure they wouldn't tell anyone.

The Countess felt like she was going to throw up. How could she do something so horrible? The filth of the previous night was still lingering on her body, in her bed, in their shared bed. She felt so dirty. She wanted to tear off her skin, but even that wouldn't rid her of the shame and her mistake.

With the blanket still around her naked form, Nadia collapsed onto the floor, the sorrow drowning her heart as she cried.

How? Why? She couldn't understand. MC gave her all their love, and they trusted them. Why did she have to do this to them? Even in her drunken state, how could she betray the person she had sworn to love? 

The servants all noticed. They didn't know what she did, even though Nadia always felt like they knew. The Countess' staff saw that she was deeply troubled, and they all whispered among themselves that their mistress must be terribly missing her MC. 

She was. She really was. 

But she was also dreading the day of their arrival.

MC came too soon because Nadia wished to bury herself in her sin forever. And too late because this might not have happened if they had come home earlier.

The moment MC entered the room, they wore a smile on their face. They walked to the Countess with open arms and wrapped her in a hug filled with love. MC pulled back just enough to look at Nadia's face and saw there was pain behind her eyes. "Are you alright?"

She reassured them with a forced smile, "I am fine, my love." But even a fool could see past her lie. Still, MC didn't force her to tell the truth. If Nadia wanted to tell them, they knew that she would. 

An adulteress. That is what you are. Nadia couldn't stop these thoughts from haunting her mind. And the way MC looked at her. She felt as if she had her sin engraved into her skin, and Nadia was desperate to get rid of the burden. 

She knew that she had to tell them.

So she did. Nadia told MC that one night she had too much to drink. She couldn't remember how much she had or how it happened and as the story progressed, Nadia saw all emotions leaving MC. With their body shaking, the apprentice took a step back, keeping their distance from the cheating Countess.

"You cheated on me," MC whispered. Nadia didn't have to tell them the whole story. The look in her eyes gave it away. 

"I'm so sorry, my love," The Countess said as tears began to roll down her face. "I'm so sorry, MC. I was drunk, and I didn't know what I was doing. It was a mistake! Please, forgive me!" She sounded so weak, desperately sobbing, as she got down on her knees and grasped onto MC's hand. "MC, please!"

But MC pulled away. Shaking and with their own voice giving up, they let go of Nadia's hand. "I need to go." 

They were hurt. Of course, they were, and Nadia couldn't blame them. She didn't expect this conversation to go any better. But it was a stupid mistake. Nadia never wanted it to happen, and MC knew that too. She hoped for their forgiveness, but in her heart, Nadia knew that what she did was unforgivable.

When Nadia lost MC, she lost everything.

Her days no longer contained any joy. Each night she went to sleep, she did it knowing she would lie in the bed of her sin. And each time she woke up, her heart ached because of the reminder of that cursed morning. 

Her bed was her grave, and she was being buried alive. 

She often woke up in cold sweat, troubled by frequent nightmares that made sure she would never forget what she had done. The staff also asked her why MC was no longer in the palace, but Nadia couldn't bring herself to tell them the truth. 

One lonely afternoon, the Countess was getting some fresh air on her balcony. Being inside the palace suffocated her, and she often found herself longing to spend time outdoors. Nadia was leaning over the railing, her eyes gazing at the garden that she once happily walked with MC. She would never find love like that again in anyone else. 

She sighed to herself. The loneliness was consuming her. She felt like a fool for hoping that MC would forgive her. But, at least she had known how love felt like, even if only for a while. 

There was another sigh, but not Nadia's. Perhaps an assassin had come to plunge a dagger into her heart and rid her of the pain. She turned around, expecting a scared servant waiting for their mistress to give them a crumb of attention. 

But it was MC, looking at her with the same expression as when she told them of her crime. 

"Do you love me?" MC murmured under their breath, and perhaps it was only the wind that carried their voice to Nadia's ears so that she could hear it. 

"With all my heart," Nadia answered while anxiously clutching her dress.

Neither of them said anything else. For a moment, they both just stood there. Nadia could see that MC was battling their own thoughts and emotions while they stared intensely into her eyes. Whatever they were to do, Nadia would accept it.

Then MC moved, storming towards the Countess, and before she knew it, the apprentice had her in their arms, nails digging into her back, promising to never let go of each other ever again. 

[heartstringsduet]

WIP Game

I was tagged by @welcometololaland (who I just had a fangirl moment about lol) so thanks a whole lot. Is it weird it means a lot? Anyyyway- I have a few unpublished fics, mostly Tarlos [LS] because it’s been a struggle to write on medication and it’s going glacially slow and yet all over the place. 

[Rules: post the names of all the files in your WIP folder regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them and then post a little snippet of it or  tell them something about it! And then tag as many people as you have wips.]

Labyrinth (Kurtbastian 100k+ that unpublished wtf) [Glee]

Careless Man’s Careless Son [LS]

Conflagrations (or “That’s My Man) [LS]

Unnamed D/S Fic [LS]

Danger Zone [LS] Would love to post / answer any question about any of them :) God I don’t really know many people who write . sorry. @noxsoulmate @miidnightraiin and anyone who wants to do it should just get to ittt !

[wh0lemilk0vich]

Love to talk more steve/Eddie chubs! Love to hear anything u have to say!

I am super curious your thoughts on chubby Steve? For aaaages chubby Steve has been my secret underfed (pun intended) fantasy.

Are you into any mutual gain scenarios? Or mainly into size diff kink?

I kinda like the idea of Eddie gaining a bit of weight in recovery but having a fussy palate/just generally smaller appetite, and Steve trying his best to spoil his boyf and living blissfully domestic &happy with eddies wg, but kinda oblivious of his own growing waistline - not realising he’s actually at some point become the plumper boyfriend, “Big boy” and all - nicknames stay the same so it goes over his head for soooo long

I’m honestly happy with any st/ed wg stories, chubby Eddie, chubby steve, chubby both, all I know is I want Steve fluuuustered and in love

Anyyyway, that’s my kink-dump for the day. Your thots?

Hey, thank you for this kink-dump and welcome to little hidey-hole blog for cute fat boys 🥰

The size diff kink is exactly it for me, never been very interested in mutual gain stuff, but that's not me knocking it for people who do like it. Follow your bliss.

I totally see Eddie as a bi/pan king and into people's vibes mostly and thinks all bodies are sexy. BUT I gotta say I also love the idea of chaser Eddie who just likes a big girl or boy in particular.

I definitely like your thoughts a lot. Oblivious boy happy his head banger boyf is finally getting to a healthy weight, doesn't notice he's having trouble with his Levi's and his Dockers. And you're absolutely right, I think in any Steddie scenario, but especially chubby Steve, Big Boy is just a *chef's kiss* name.

For something like this though man would I be interested in a more deliberate feeder!Eddie feeding his floppy haired prep into a nice soft curvy big boy.

I really have a soft spot for chubby stoner Eddie though. And chubby Eddie just entrancing Steve into exploring this sexuality.

I just need to think of some more fun ideas and wg scenarios for either of them. Been feeling kind of uninspired lately.

Something with them being camp counselors would be great...

[fpwrites]

Hi I just wanna say thank you for existing（╹◡╹）👉👈 anyyyway sorry if this request is kinda specific... maybe hawks at the hero gala and finds you and flirts with thinking nothing of it just to find out that when they call your name up to the stage as the next #2 pro hero not only 1 upping him but he’s just completely dumb founded because he literally thought you were just some cute guest? Thank you for putting up with me bb! Xoxo

Umm. Thank you for existing??? Wow god bless you. So I did this in headcanon form, but if you’d like it in the form of a lil scenario, please re-send it or send me a message! 

Hawks meeting reader at the hero gala

honestly...........when he first saw you, he was all *licks hand and slicks hair back* hehehhehe

totally flirted like HELL with you. you gave him a little play, but much but that just made him come at u harder.

boi likes a challenge.

then you’re invited up to the stage...and he’s confused. maybe you’re an announcer or something??

it wasn’t until they announced that you were the next #2 hero that it hit him.

you had just beat him out of the #2 spot.

YOU!

Hawks is a good sport, especially when it has to do with ladies.

so he doesn’t care. in fact, he’s proud. he’s happy that you, of all people, beat him out of the spot.

‘course, he’ll just flirt with you even harder now knowing that you’re the #2 pro hero.

still, he’s surprised that you weren’t just some guest. you certainly hadn’t put on pro-hero airs.

he can’t believe he read you wrong.

[strawberry--bride]

Hah... What to say, What to say. Errr… I know I haven’t known you for so long, but it seems I can’t help but adore you! I do wish you love yourself a little more and understand you're not alone in this world even though it seems like it. I meannn… Easy for me to say, but if do need a little reminder I wouldn’t mind saying it again and again!

You are a really kind person and you’re always willing to defend people! I do kind of envy your optimistic view sometimes , but I guess you’re the other side of the coin that makes my sort of cynical and blunt side to balance. Needless to say, you do put the dauntless in kind, even though deep down you can be scared that doesn’t stop you!

If you need a caring, and sometimes annoying sister you can all me all you want!~

Unless I’m watching my anime, then you might be dragged in to watch it with me. Lol

Anyyyways~ Love you Sharon! Hope the day goes wonderfully!

- from yours truly (Yes, I did Ayato I'm sorry)

Send my muse an anonymous note with your muse’s feelings towards them. My muse has to guess whom the note is from.

Thank you so much...All of you are far too kind to me. I don’t deserve it, really.

I will try my best to love myself a little more but it’s...difficult at times. I can name a million positive things about someone else, but I have a hard time doing the same for myself. It’s always the flaws which stand out instead.

[deeisace]

Because turnabout is fair play: the chariot, strength, wheel of fortune and temperance

ah, thanks!

the chariot: thoughts on astrology?

ehhh idk? idk much at all about it, tbh, but i don’t reckon i’d put much stock into it at all

strength: what is your dream occupation?

i’d love to be a proper genealogist! that’d be way cool. family trees are kinda like, my thing, y’know? which generally sounds kinda odd for someone under 50, i guess, but it’s dead interesting!! i’ve gone back to the 1780s in some places of my direct family lines! lots of farmers and sailors tbh, but a few interesting folks, i reckon. also, who tf calls their kid Redvers Madge, that’s a way odd name. Not surprised he went by Henry. anyyyway.

wheel of fortune: first three songs that come on shuffle?

so this is of my itunes

Trywydd Iawn - Al Lewis Band (and then several more al lewis songs from the same album, idk why it did like that)

Cigarettes and Chocolate Milk - Rufus Wainwright

Mess It Up - Flipron

temperance: can you describe a strange dream you’ve had?

I don’t seem to be remembering dreams very well recently, but one I had in September was that I was trying to explain to my staunchly christian gran how jesus was a proper rebel, of his time like, while we were eating chips (fries) sat on a park bench, and she wasn’t having any of it.

i’ve also had dreams about getting lost in trans-dimensional train stations wearing rollerskates and getting sucked into psychadelic adverts for McDonalds. And some awful nightmares about being eaten alive by bitey jumping worms while someone stands over me and does nothing while i scream. but that’s more of a horrifying nightmare than a strange dream, hey?

—

thanks for the qu’s!!

[nervouspearl]

I had a great Saturday at Birmingham Collectormania hanging out with @awesomelesbiansurgeon and @room-2o3, and meeting this special bean:

(no Jemma, holding the mic to your ear does not, in fact, help you hear the questions, but thanks for being so cute.)

Anyway, nothing special here but I’m just writing things down for my own benefit while I still remember something. This post is basically just me rambling for far too long.

So, we got to the venue a bit before 10 and Jemma had already arrived so we decided to get the scary part over and done with right away. There was already a bit of a queue at the time even though it was well before the general admission time, and that remained the case throughout the day, at least every time we passed her table. There was never a time when there wasn’t a queue. I suppose partly because there were quite a lot of people who came to see her (also noticeable at the photoshoot) and partly because she was taking her time with people and just being generally lovely.

So, anyway, we brought her a gift (nothing fancy, just a couple of little things such as cute crochet cactus made by @monicagayes because she couldn’t come with us). She looked very touched to be given anything and kept repeating “Oh, you shouldn’t have” in a very a sweet way as if no one had ever brought her a present before. Then she noticed someone a little distance away taking pictures of her and she literally did something that kind of reminded me of this:

Like she just sort of did flaily hands and shook herself a little as if to say “oh no you shouldn’t be taking photos of me I look a fright" (she looked adorable and beautiful and there should have been like ten cameras pointed at her to catch all that cuteness).

Anyyyway, so she finally got to our names which were all a bit difficult to spell because we’re from all over the world but she did great and managed to get all our names written correctly, even mine, which is a first for me as a con experience (seriously, only Jemma and Catherine have managed to spell it correctly, both because they really took the time and effort to get it right). The thing is, she also said my name surprisingly well. Usually when I try to get a non-Finnish speaker to pronounce it the way it should be pronounced in Finnish it still just sounds like English. She actually got pretty close and managed to make it not sound like English, so I was impressed and it sounded super cute.

So yeah, I got this baby signed and she even wrote “five rounds rapid” on it after asking if I was a Who fan:

After that experience we went to recover and get something to eat and then @awesomelesbiansurgeon realised she wanted a Kate Stewart pic signed too (because let’s face it, who wouldn’t?) so we headed back to the signing area. I didn’t need to get anything else signed so I hung back a bit and tried to get a little video of the meeting. This time Jemma also opened the present and she loved the little cactus (”No watering required!”)

and when @awesomelesbiansurgeon said she liked her glasses she got super excited and said she got them -70% off. How she gets away with being so relentlessly cute is beyond me.

So, yeah, that happened and then we had some time to kill before the photoshoot, but boy was I not prepared for it. Like, she was already super cute and beautiful sitting at the table, but that did not prepare me for the full body shot. I mean, I had seen her before in Bath from head to toes, but apart from the trademark skinny jeans she was wearing kind of baggy clothes at the time, and now she’d had her hair and make up done for the photos and she had super skinny jeans and a form fitting jacket and a scarf (which actually was the same jacket she’d had in Bath but it had been just hanging loose and unbuttoned that day) and I was definitely not prepared for that look. She’s just gorgeous and tiny (apart from her height) and it was a lot to take in.

And then we actually had to walk up to her and have a photo taken. We had a single one each and then a group photo (including @monicagayes‘s head on a stick because we couldn’t leave her out - only the first time we almost forgot to hold it up which resulted in a lovely photo where everyone, including Jemma, is laughing, almost like an outtake photo). We thought we’d just pose for one group photo and then get three prints of the same photo, but it turned out we actually had to have three different photos taken for each of us to get one group photo, so back we went for two more photos (what a great sacrifice). They all turned out great in different ways. At one point Jemma patted my back and I nearly died and I also realised afterwards that she had her hand on my shoulder in the single photo, which I have no memory of but according to photographic evidence, it did happen:

After that wild ride it was back to waiting again because her talk was the last one of the day. At one point we sailed past the signing table again and I took a few photos from a distance because why not. :P

There were some cosplayers in awesome UNIT costumes and of course they got a selfie with Kate Stewart:

I feel like the talk probably would need its own recap unless someone has managed to record it, but to sum it up, it was one of my favourite comic con talks I’ve ever been to or watched online. Most of the questions were actually really good and they varied from Doctor Who to Bramwell to Holby and a few others subjects. Jemma was really funny and laid back but also very warm and sincere when it came to the more serious issues like the work of the NHS people (they are heroes) and lesbian representation on TV (there’s not enough of it). I could have sat there listening to her a lot longer.

All in all, it was an amazing day with amazing people and I know everyone always keeps saying how lovely Jemma is but experiencing it first hand is still something you can’t really prepare for because she really is that lovely. She just exudes loveliness and has a really great presence that kind of hard to put to words. 12/10 would recommend.

Oh, and also (btw congrats if anyone has made it this far. I kinda hope no one has because this rambling can’t possibly be interesting to anyone who wasn’t there) I think my favourite part was actually when we had finally left the con at the end of the day and were waiting for our train to go back to Birmingham centre, because suddenly we saw Jemma on the other side of the tracks, waiting for a train back to London. She walked across the platform to a spot where there were fewer people and then stopped and leaned against the wall. I don’t know what else to say except that it was the most epic lean I have ever witnessed with my own two eyes, brought to maximum effect by the glory of a pair of very skinny jeans and a perfectly figure hugging jacket. It looked glorious. I didn’t take a picture because I would have felt like a creep secretly sneaking photos of her while she was on her own and off duty, but if I had taken the photo it would have been the best photo I’ve ever taken - that’s how good it looked. Anyway, when she eventually stopped leaning for a moment and looked around a bit, she saw us, recognized us from the con, smiled (like not just a polite smile but a really sweet one) and when @awesomelesbiansurgeon waved, she waved back. And then our train came and we got on board and left her to her very important leaning, and it was the best way to end an already perfect day.

And now I’m going to shut up.

[ksjknj]

20 questions tag

i got tagged by @hoseokxx nd @rapnamu (thank you so much!! 💜)

rules: answer the 20 questions and tag blogs you would like to know better

nickname: i don’t really get called anything other than anja (except by bea, she gives me the cutest nicknames or calls me weird variations of my name 👀)

gender: female

star sign: aquarius

height: 179cm (i’m super curious if i’m actually as tall as taejin)

time right now: 22:09

last thing i googled: something in connection to archicad bc i was about to pull all of my hair out

favourite bands: bts, alt-j, young the giant, portugal the man, the neighbourhood, winner (i cri they’re gonna release more songs which i’m excited about but no taehyun)

favourite solo artists: i love so many ugh… the first that come to mind: jinsang, flamingosis, stromae, gaeko, two feet, vanilla

song stuck in your head: no role modelz by j cole

last movie i watched: in the mood for love

last tv show i watched: brooklyn nine nine

when did you create your blog: almost one year ago yooo

what kind of stuff do you post: purely bangtan, focused on namjin

when did your blog reach its peak: i don’t think it has really reached a peak?

do you have any other blogs: ye, i have a blog for fic inspiration, an old blog that i don’t really use anymore, and another one that’s aesthetics/ tv shows also not used much

do you get asks regularly: um.. i wouldn’t say regularly, but i do get them quite often!! (i love talking to everyone)

why did you choose your url: bc seokjin and namjoon. i don’t think i need to say anything more than that lmao

following: 135 wonderful people

posts: roughly 9700

pokemon team: i… don’t really play……. (listen it wasn’t avalible when i wanted to try it and now the excitement is gone lmao)

favourite colours: green/turquose, also black

average hours of sleep: 5

lucky numbers: 7

favourite manga characters: oh boy.. i don’t know? it’s been so long since i read anything, nd i can’t remember any characters at all?

how many blankets do you sleep with: right now three lmaoo but it depends on the season (it’s still pretty cold)

dream job: i don’t even know anymore..

dream trip: umm.. i would really like to go to japan, definitely tokyo for its architecture.. also denmark? never been, really want to go

anyyyway, @bfmoni, @jjilljj, @kthksj - i already know you guys pretty well, but you’re still getting tagged, in case you want to do this; @purplejoonie, @apgujeon, @faenam, @gotjimin, @jinpout, @yoonminnie, @namseok, if you guys want to do it!!