aro/ace combo flag!! 💚💜
[Plain text: aro/ace combo flag!! (green heart emoji) (purple heart emoji). End PT.]
[Image description: A flag with four equal horizontal stripes. From top to bottom the colours are the medium and light green stripes from the aromantic flag, then white, then the deep purple stripe from the asexual flag. End ID.]
made this combination of the aro and ace flags for two main reasons:
the sunset aroace flag is beautiful, but green and purple are my fave colours.
labelling myself as aroace gets the point of being both aro and ace across, my aromanticism and asexuality feel like very different experiences for me, and can feel more separate than intertwined, whilst still being a joint identity.
i know other green and purple aroace flags exist, but personally they're not for me - the 9 stripe green/purple aroace flag isn't aesthetically pleasing to me with it's grey and black stripes in the middle, and 5 stripe green/purple aroace flags aren't really my thing either.
apologies if anyone's already done this aro/ace combo, the closest i could find is this aroace flag - which is the same as the combo flag i made, but with white, grey, and black diagonal stripes and an ace of spades symbol as well.
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Little Freak: An unsent love letter
I just really fucking love this song man. Here's me crying about it.
TL;DR/summary of sorts
If I had to use one word to summarise this song, it would be "close". Close, because it's close to the heart, it's about how close he is/was with that person. And close, because to me, its closure, the song closes a chapter, but still keeps the person close to his heart.
Verse 1:
Little freak, you jezebel,
You sit high atop the kitchen counter
Now I'm gonna be honest, I don't really know what 'Jezebel' might actually mean here, because from what I know, Jezebel could be a biblical reference meaning "shamless" or an "imprudent woman". It feels a little detached from the rest of the song, but he sings about how this person is a "little freak", and very plainly, how they sit on the kitchen counter.
Stay green a little while,
You bring blue lights to dreams
Saying something is "green" means it's new, fresh, young. He's asking the person to be green, just for a little while longer. In the rest of the song, he sings about how he's just thinking about this person, nothing beyond. He loves this person, and regardless of everything, he wants them to occupy his thoughts but in a love-filled, "young" or an in manner that isn't tainted by hatred because this person never actually loved him the way he did, because he's not worried about that. And then, he goes on to sing about how this person made him feel, how they were. How they made everything seem special, how they brought "blue lights" or just something special to his regular dreams.
Starry haze, crystal ball
Somehow, you've become some paranoia
A wet dream just dangling
But your gift is wasted on me
Crystal balls are associated with the future, looking into the future, which seems like a "starry haze" with this person. A hazy future, or an uncertain future is usually worrying, but this person makes that hazy, uncertain future seem starry, which to him, makes he person a "paranoia", because they make a uncertain future, a "dangling" wet dream, something he wants because he loves it so deeply but not knowing where it is going to lead to, a starry prospect. But he also sings how their "gift" is wasted on him, how he thinks he isn't worthy of the starry prospect, whatever it would be.
Chorus:
I was thinking about who you are
Your delicate point of view
I was thinking about you
I'm not worried about where you are
Or who you will go home to
I'm just thinking about you
Just thinking about you
I'm like pretty sure I'm gonna get one of these lyrics tattooed at some point because you can literally hear it: It comes from somewhere deep in his heart. He's thinking about this person, how they were, and funnily, how they would see things. In a delicate point of view, in great detail, in a gentle way. In ways he could never. Now this part, is what brought the "unsent letter" vibes to me. He's speaking to this person, but not directly. Not to their face, because time has seemed to have passed, and they may not feel the same way anymore, but he still loves them. This person could be anywhere but with him, but he isn't letting hate or spite or the fact that his dream of having this person in his future in a certain way remained unfulfilled taint the love he did feel for them. He is not worried about where they are, who they are with, or who's in his place, he's just thinking about this person, letting them occupy his thoughts, because albeit one-sided, what he did feel for them was deep, and for them only.
Verse 2:
Did you dress up for Halloween?
I spilled beer on your friend, I'm not sorry
A golf swing and a trampoline
Maybe we'll do this again
Tracksuit and a ponytail
You hide the body all that yoga gave you
Red wine and a ginger ale,
But you would make fun of me, for sure
He doesn't know what the other person had "dressed up for halloween" once again, this indicates that it has been a while, and he doesn't know what they have been up to, they aren't in touch. They had mutual friends, and he's singing about how he met one of them. He's secretly hoping, the mutual friend talked to them about him, even if it was a complain that he spilled his beer on them. He's craving to be back in that person's life the way he was before. He wants to go golfing and go on trampolines, he wants to spend time with them like they did before (we had some good times didn't we?) and he says, he hopes they will do it again someday (it's not the end I'll see your face again). He sings certain details about this person, things only someone close would know, like how this person would hide their figure, or do regular yoga, how they mostly wore tracksuits and kept their hair in a ponytail.
Now the next lines make me wanna die a little on the inside. He sings about red wine and gingle ale, and it's not because it meant something between the both of them, nor did it remind him of them directly, it reminds him of how they would make fun of him for that. He didn't just know this person and loved them inside out he also knew how they were specifically with him and how even if he tried to, he could never hate or forget them because once again, intimacy.
Verse 3:
I disrespected you
Jumped in feet first, and I landed too hard
A broken ankle, Karma rules
You never saw my birthmark
EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS VERSE. EVERYTHING.
For the first time in the whole song he's not just reminiscing what they had, not just thinking about them, he's reminiscing what they don't have and why they don't. It's like the climax of a story, it's the build-up leads to the turning point, where he feels like the reason they don't have whatever the the starry-hazed future was is because he disrespected that person by rushing in. Almost as if he's saying he ruined thing because he loved them too much and it wasn't right because there wasn't the same amount of love, the same amount of need for the other person which threw things off. Imbalance, because he "landed too hard", and as a result, he "broke his ankle", hurting himself. He was the one who disrespected, landed too hard, he takes all the blame, how only he's the reason he's hurt, not the other person not feeling the same intensity of love. He doesn't blame the other person for not letting him in, he's not mad at them, nor does he feel like they were a bad person for doing so.
But what he does feel, for the slightest bit, in the deepest way possible, is regret. Seeing someone's birthmark is intimate. It's only between them, it's for no one else to see or know. It's letting someone in, it's letting them see every nook and cranny, every twist and turn, everything about you inside out. (Spreading you open is the only way of knowing you who?).
He saw everything about them, but they never saw his birthmark, and never will.
The whole song is intimate, something only the other person would understand, but feels like its being told to us even though it is addressed to the person. But this one line feels like we're being let in on a secret, because the other person doesn't know this. It's like a murmur to himself, the part of the letter he gets choked up because he regrets it, the part he doesn't en up putting on the letter because no matter how he says it, they will never see it the way he did, or they way he hoped they would.
Outro:
Just thinking about you
Just thinking about you
'Little Freak' is like a letter written to a person who once was everything, you knew everything about them, and you had let them in too, but they never did, never will, and it's long lost. It's written in great detail, it's bittersweet, it's mature, but most importantly, its loved-filled reminiscence. Neither of what it could have been, nor of what it was, it's just reminiscence of the person themself, of what they had left, how nothing could ever change what he felt for this person, even if they never see each other ever again.
It's everything spilled out, but it's an unsent letter- It never reaches the other person. It's just him, and the last of what they were etched into his mind. He's just thinking about them.
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fruit queer flag!! 🍏🍋🍊🍓🍇
[Plain text: fruit queer flag!! (green apple emoji) (lemon emoji) (orange/tangerine emoji) (strawberry emoji) (grape emoji). End PT.]
[Image description: A flag with five equal horizontal stripes. From top to bottom, the colours are apple green, lemon yellow, tangerine orange, berry red, and plum purple. End ID.]
i wanted to make my own version of a queer pride flag! for anyone who identifies as queer, whether in regards to gender, sexual/romantic/other orientation, or other aspects of identity.
i made this for fun bc while i do like both the black/rainbow and purple chevron queer flags, i didn't feel like they truly represented my queerness. plus i wanted a pride flag that felt sour and summery - the theme of "fruit" encapsulates this.
flag stripe colours are obviously inspired by fruit, but also have separate meanings which are:
green = people whose only label is "queer"
yellow = queer people with other/multiple labels
orange = solidarity throughout the community
red = reclaiming of "queer" as a slur
purple = queer history tied to the colour purple
the use of fruit to describe this flag isn't inherently referencing the slur, although if you do reclaim "fruit" as a slur you're welcome to use this flag in that way.
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Little Freak in itself is a very intimate song, talking about how this person is, their aura of sorts, how they bring "blue lights to dreams". How very specific things that wouldn't matter in general context, the "red wine and a ginger ale" remind him of them, not because they loved it or it held some memory, only because they would make fun of him for having that. Not some superficial memory, a very specific memory of them knowing his habits. He sings about the little things about that person, the smallest things they do, like wearing clothes that didn't highlight their figure. The verses are so specific, so in detail, it makes it seem like whatever they had/have is deep. A "delicate point of view".
But then we get to the™️ line, he sings "you never saw my birthmark". The whole song is so personal, like it were whispered in the middle of the night. The whole song is like a letter to the person, until the build-up to that line. They never saw his birthmark: They never saw him as deeply, as intimately, as lovingly as he did. It's like a letter that remained unsent, because at the end of the day, he's not worried about where they are, he's not spiteful they didn't love him as deeply he did, or saw him the way he saw them. He's not worried about who they go home to, he's just thinking about them.
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