omg i was telling a friend about some formative long-lost canadian shows that i have never been able to find again. there was this mini-series on canadian tv called "artscape" where these two kids got sucked into a painting at a museum, and they had to learn and apply art theory to escape from these sometimes scary fantasy realms (the depths of perspective!!) to find their way out. i NEVER saw the last episode, and so in some background browser tab in my head these children have been stuck inside a painting forever.
of course i looked for this at some point online, and at the time there was no record of it, so i assumed that it was lost to the era where masters weren't always preserved.
BUT since i last looked, someone has uploaded the entire series on youtube!! i just listened to the first 5 notes of the opening tune and have been transported. i am four years old with a blankie and my thumb in my mouth sitting way too close to the television.
the internet is great actually. i'm about to learn what lines are. i'm so excited.
"Mandela: A More Human Face" by Bulelwa Basse Services and Lyrical Base Project at the Artscape Theatre. #MeetSouthAfrica #LoveCapeTown #Artscape #Mandela #NelsonMandela #Madiba #BulelwaBasse #LyricalBaseProject #SpokenWords #LiveMusic #Music #Performance #Poetry #Songs #Theatre #Musical https://www.instagram.com/p/CjAdHxdKxfv/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
Hair held down by a red cloth
Sweat beading on her forehead
Eyes filling up with light and tears
Nostrils flaring
Words and sounds spilling over her lips
Dripping down her chin
Encircling her neck
And draping her shoulders
Arms held high, strong
Hands flowing through the air, unhindered
Breasts, alive, engorged
Covering a pumping heart ready to burst
Skin expanding and contracting over the drum…
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Ah, I see it now. I see why a mother can not love her daughter as much as her son. It makes me sad. Because I deserve to be loved.
So does my mother. She deserves to be loved too. She deserves all the love of universe, but she can never feel it. She never will. Because she never learned to love herself. She only saw her self from others perspective. May be from her mother's perspective. May be her mother was also not capable of loving my mother the way she deserved.
My mother might have been told that some part of her self was not lovable. That she needs to change and she was may be never allowed to be herself. May be that's why when she sees herself in me, she couldn't love me. It must be heartbreaking, to see yourself in someone else and not love it. It must be painful to get reminder of all the things that others hated and make it known to you so much that you started hating it too.
She did same thing to me. Made me hate those same thing in myself too. For the longest time of my life I had this voice telling me that certain part of myself was not lovable. That I shouldn't be certain way. Which at the end made me believe I am not worthy of love. What a painful thing to say to yourself. Oh how many years of hating myself and how many toxic encounters I went through because of that belief. I can't even remember how many nights I cried to sleep, because I felt useless and unlovable. I couldn't even look myself in mirror without insulting myself. Everyday I felt like I should not exist.
When you are used to existing like this, it takes so much time and courage to see yourself from your eyes rather than someone else's. It takes time and I will give time to myself. I will learn to love myself. Because I deserve to be loved, especially from myself. I should love, respect and honour myself. I will try to do that now. So I can love the parts of every female ancestor of my bloodline that couldn't love herself. I will love myself so when may be in future, when I see myself in someone else, I could love that, and so can she. Because we all deserve that.
"Mandela: A More Human Face" by Bulelwa Basse Services and Lyrical Base Project at the Artscape Theatre. #MeetSouthAfrica #LoveCapeTown #Artscape #Mandela #NelsonMandela #Madiba #BulelwaBasse #LyricalBaseProject #SpokenWords #LiveMusic #Music #Performance #Poetry #Songs #Theatre #Musical (at Artscape) https://www.instagram.com/p/CjAhBA8K3ub/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=