Camisado (Your Emo Andreil AU)
[This started as a Morning AU on Twitter, warning: we're going very 00s]
Andrew and Neil meet in a chat room age 13.
Andrew's handle is @/phantom!attheopera
Neil's is @/isayshotgun
Andrew initially hangs around because he finds it hilarious how Neil roasts people he likes and trolls people he doesn't.
They also both have things in common - starting with but limited to their love of PATD and pretty much all emo music they can get their barely-teenage hands on. Andrew likes it a little heavier than Neil - but they both rave about Brendan Urie, Gerard Way and the Maddens.
They strike up a penpal style relationship - moving first from the chatroom to private messages, then the msn and email.
They confide in each other. Neil moves around a lot because 'my dad's a bad man, he's after me and my mom'.
Andrew tells him about Cass and Drake.
isayshotgun: he shdnt do dat 2 u
phantom!attheopera: i know
isayshotgun: id get u out
phantom!attheopera: how
isayshotgun: im gd w/ knives
phantom!attheopera: maybe you can teach me.
phantom!attheopera: and I'll teach you to spell, honestly.
isayshotgun: *eyeroll*
Neil doesn't come to get Andrew because Aaron happens first.
And then Andrew's in juvie and playing exy and the only way he can stay in touch with Neil is email. He shouldn't even be allowed email, but he's willing to get on his knees to have computer access, access to Neil.
Something about email makes their friendship even deeper.
Actually, Andrew's fairly certain that he's half way in love and that if they were different people they'd have already talked about this. Still, it's because of email that he notices something is wrong with Neil.
His emails, which were long and rambling, have suddenly become short - no less full of feeling and affection, but syntactically different.
He tries to ask about it.
From: phantom!attheopera
To: isayshotgun
Subject: what's wrong with you?
Neil is cagey at first but Andrew gets it out of him in the end.
From: isayshotgun
To: phantom!attheopera
Re:Re:Re:Re:Subject: what's wrong with you?
Being shot really sucks. That's all. N
All Andrew wants to do then is cross the country, gather Neil close and keep him safe. They're fifteen now and he'll be leaving juvie next month.
"Can you keep safe until then?" Andrew types.
"U cant save me. We talked about this." Neil's reply is not what he wants to read.
Andrew's released to Tilda. He finds out his brother is hooked on painkillers and his birth mother is an abuser.
phantom!attheopera: she hits him. I need to stop her.
isayshotgun: ... ...
phantom!attheopera: what?
isayshotgun: is that weird? for moms 2 hit u?
phantom!attheopera: your mom hits you too?
isayshotgun: 2 teach me not 2 be stupid.
isayshotgun: keepin me alive
phantom!attheopera: that's not how it works, no one hits you for your own good. that's...
phantom!attheopera: my therapist calls it emotional abuse and controlling behaviours.
Neil ends up sharing a lot more than he was probably initially intending - about the one time a girl kissed him and he couldn't walk properly for a week; about the way his mom pinched him and made him recite their rules back; about how he wasn't allowed to be sick, ever.
phantom!attheopera: one of these days I'll find you and we'll run away together. We'll go anywhere you want. Settle somewhere safe.
isayshotgun: do u think ud like me irl?
phantom!attheopera: well I can't see your spelling if you're talking
isayshotgun: rofl lmao
Andrew tells Neil about Aaron.
phantom!attheopera: he's a total prick
isayshotgun: hv u tried talkin 2 him about smthing easy? like exy?
phantom!attheopera: just because you like stickball
isayshotgun: no i mean maybe u need a bridge 2 talk. common grnd.
phantom!attheopera: ...maybe
Neil is the one who gives him the idea about crashing the car with Tilda in it too. He sends Andrew all the instructions on a floppy disk that he posts to Andrew's therapist. On the front of the disk, Neil has scrawled their usernames. Andrew smiles.
Their relationship is a strange one - they are always there on the other end of the computer to each other, but they've never swapped photos and never heard each other's voices.
When Andrew gets a phone, he asks Neil if he has one and Neil says no, only his mom has a burner.
Still Andrew gives Neil his number and on his birthday, November 4th, he gets a call from a Seattle phonebox.
"Hey," Neil says. Andrew can hear him shivering, the chatter in his teeth.
"Happy Birthday, Drew."
They talk and talk. It's the best birthday Andrew's ever had.
Right up until the gunfire.
Neil vanishes.
There's no emails. No MSN messages. No highly irritating nudges. He's not in any of their usual chatrooms.
Andrew doesn't get another phone call.
Weeks go by. First one then another then another.
Andrew leaves messages. He sends emails. He really really hopes Neil isn't dead.
Aaron and Andrew go to live with Nicky.
They're approached by The Ravens. Andrew turns down the infamous Riko Moriyama and his absurdly pretty Number 2, Kevin Day.
David Wymack shows up. The deal extends to Aaron and Nicky if he wants it. Andrew says yes.
Sometimes Andrew thinks about Neil and tries to make an effort with Aaron, but Aaron is angry and a recovering addict and nothing Andrew says or does is ever enough. He still tries.
From: phantom!attheopera
To: isayshotgun
Subject: 9 ways I'm trying to befriend my twin
From: phantom!attheopera
To: isayshotgun
Re: Subject: make that 11 ways
From: phantom!attheopera
To: isayshotgun
Re:Re:Re: Subject: none of these are working
From: phantom!attheopera
To: isayshotgun
Re:Re:Re:Re:Re: Subject: you'd hate him too
From: phantom!attheopera
To: isayshotgun
Re:Re:Re:Re:Re:Re:Re:Re: Subject: ok fine, I don't hate him
From: phantom!attheopera
To: isayshotgun
Subject: Happy New Year
From: phantom!attheopera
To: isayshotgun
Re: Subject: And Happy Birthday I guess
From: phantom!attheopera
To: isayshotgun
Subject: I miss you
From: phantom!attheopera
To: isayshotgun
Re: Subject: I still miss you
From: phantom!attheopera
To: isayshotgun
Subject: Panic! are play in Columbia next month !!!
From: isayshotgun
To: phantom!attheopera
Re: Subject: Panic! are play in Columbia next month !!!
got u a ticket c u there @ 7pm
Andrew blinks. He stares at his inbox. The 1 new message. Neil's username. Neil is alive. Neil is coming to Columbia. Neil is coming to a Panic! At The Disco gig. He bashes out a hasty message.
phantom!attheopera: Are you serious?
isayshotgun: yeh
The month vanishes under Andrew's feet. He's nervous. He's excited. Nicky is exuberant.
"My cousin has a date!"
"Not a date, Nicky."
Nicky just slides a knowing look his way and when Andrew takes the car keys, tells him to drive safe and stay out of fights. Andrew scoffs.
They haven't been talking much, Neil and Andrew.
But Neil promised that Andrew wouldn't be able to miss him.
Neil was telling the truth. He's standing there, a too-skinny teenager with badly cut hair flopping into his eyes, with a giant sign saying "phantom!attheopera".
Approaching, Andrew sees that Neil is gaunt, there's shadows under his eyes, which are blue as the sky on a clear, cold day.
"You ready to scream your crooked heart out?" Andrew asks.
Neil looks up with a slow smile. It wobbles as if his face is out of practice.
"Hey."
"Hi."
They will - in fact - scream their crooked hearts out that night. They will hold each other upright and throw themselves through the mosh pit, feeling the press of elation and anger and frustration and hope. Neil will trip a stranger who gets too close for Andrew's comfort. Andrew will deliberately spill a drink over a girl who won't stop eyeballing Neil with hearts in her eyes.
"My hero," Neil laughs. His laugh is rusty too.
Andrew wants to hear it again and again. He wants to hear it every fucking day for the rest of his stupid emo life.
When the music fades and the crowds disperse, Andrew and Neil are left in the carpark, sitting on the bonnet of Andrew's car.
He asks Neil where he's going tonight.
Neil shrugs.
He asks Neil if his mom is nearby but he already knows the answer. Mary Hatford is dead.
They don't leave for hours. Neil explains everything that night - who his dad is, what he's running from. Andrew doesn't care.
When they're both cold, they sit in the car and turn the heating up. Andrew offers his hand to Neil and Neil curls their fingers together.
Neil is tired. Neil is so so so tired.
"Come home with me." Andrew says. "Stay."
Neil slumps against the seats, his head tilted so Andrew can see every sharp angle of his face. There's no fight, no bargaining.
Just a sweet, fluttering feeling neither of them know to call hope.
The end.
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Hey, im looking for a fic where Neil and Andrew meet online on a P!ATD group chat. They eventually meet up at a P!ATD concert. Thanks:)
We found the fic you’re looking for and added an Andrew makes Neil a playlist headcanon, plus some emo art and Andreil playlists of various genres! Enjoy! - A
The Morning AUs - A Compilation by scribbleb_red [Collection Rated E/Chapter T, Less than 1k, Complete Work in Ongoing Collection, Last Updated 2020]
Chapter 9: Camisado - An Emo Alternative Meeting AU
Andrew and Neil meet in a chat room age 13.
Andrew’s handle is @/phantom!attheopera.
Neil’s is @/isayshotgun
It’s a friendship born on the internet and driven by a mutual love of emo music. An alternative meeting, friends to lovers AU.
tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: implied/referenced csa, tw: implied/referenced rape/non con, tw: implied/referenced drug use, tw: minor character death
So you can’t tell me that Andrew wouldn’t make a Neil Josten playlist. Headcanons by @honorary-josten [Tumblr, Not Rated, 2018]
We already know that Andrew has at least one song that makes him think of Neil. (Phone ringtone, anyone?) So it really isn’t a stretch to think that Andrew might hear other songs that makes him think about his junkie runaway boyfriend. Because Andrew doesn’t have a smartphone, he obviously doesn’t use any music apps. So I’d like to think he uses Kevin’s ITunes account to burn his favorite songs onto different CDs.
Art
Emo Kid Andrew art by @lovesickcrowley
Andrew is so emo art by @angelus-bellator
I hate you by @babeyghost
Andrew’s armbands hc by @robertdenirowap
my favorite emo boy art by @misscorns
Andreil Playlists
NB: There are many more andreil playlists on tumblr; here’s just a taste
Andreil playlist with art by @coppakee, “Those who stay together slay together” andreil art and playlist by @jensuisdraws, pipedream playlist by @wherepoetsdie, Andreil Playlist by @savage-asshole-king-minyard, and i want to go back for you - an andreil playlist by @foxesjostens
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