All right, I am losing my mind here, how on earth is Lucy's surname pronounced? I always thought it had the emphasis on "West," like Westenra, but with every new episode of re: Dracula she's in I start to feel like I just made that up when the credits roll.
The room spins. The dance, this cadence, a memory of pale but eager hands. The torchlight will live on, beyond the music of their carefree laughter. A choice. There always was a choice.
Wind tearing her hair across her face, her bloody mouth a snarl, “He was a great man; if not for you!”
The councilman closed his eyes. Weary of her. Inside his kid skin gloves, his clasped hands tightened. Then he inhaled deeply, and raised his hand, beckoning. One, then two, of his black clad brethren swept forward. Instinctively she drew back. Her arms tightened around him, clutching him…
my life has been chaos with birthdad back in my life... i mean, there's no way that i could've predicted the things that have happened over the past roughly two months.
he's married - to one of his exes, who's technically a lesbian.
he has a one year old son.
he doesn't live in chicago, he lives in richmond.
he owns a townhouse.
his marriage is on the rocks, but i'm not stepping in to be any kind of fix for that.
i told myself that wasn't going to fall back into old habits with him if he ever came back. yet here we are, essentially right back in our old habits...
i saw him for the first time last weekend in over two and a half years. met him at the dealership where his car was being serviced, and we went to the winery to pick up my quarterly bottles and just have some time together.
he gave me such an awkward hug when he got in the car at the dealer. at the winery, he didn't give me a hug until we were about to get in the car and leave. after I put my wine bottles in the trunk he just wrapped me in his arms and wouldn't let go lol.
after not seeing him for over two and a half years and silence from him for nineteen plus months, i wasn't sure how i was going to feel being back in his arms. when he gave me my first proper hug i was rather relieved to feel comfortable with it. it also reminded me what "safe" felt like, which i wasn't sure was possible again.
now that we're a week later, i'm craving that feeling again. i want to feel his arms around me, and his lips on mine again...