#avoiding my emotions with this boy

[raayllum]

For Day Three of Snake Boi Callum Week: Magic / Mirrors Summary: Callum and Kpp'Ar have a conversation after he's released from the coin. Word Count: 2k

ORPHEUS: How will you remember? EURYDICE: That I love you? ORPHEUS: Yes. EURYDICE: That’s easy. I can’t help it.

—Eurydice, Sarah Ruhl

The initial confusion—the hazy gold imprisonment and bone-deep ache that had been equally familiar in death as it had been in life, the harrowing first few coughs as his lungs learned to work again, hand grasping for a cane that wasn’t there—had faded overall quickly, mostly because too much of his circumstances didn’t make sense.

The walls around him had been a shimmering white and purple, unlike anything he’d ever read of in the Pentarchy, loud elven voices echoing off of walls that didn’t seem to be able to make an echo arguing over something that didn’t make any sense. 

Only one thing truly stuck, in the aftermath: a young man looking over him with a shadowed face, swoopy hair, trimmings of a High Mage tunic fluttering round his knees, and the burst of emotion brought forth at the reality that Viren was here, that Viren had both trapped and freed him, and that Kpp’Ar still—

Throat hoarse, and lips cracking from disuse, parted to form his name. “Viren?”

But the mage reared back in disgust (still not unlike his protegé), throwing a younger, tanner face into the light, a fresh white lock of hair falling over glinting green—not gray—eyes.

“I am not Viren,” he said tersely, looking vaguely familiar for a different reason, hands shaky as he bent down to help Kpp’Ar up into a sitting position. He handed him a crystalline cup of water and then rose unsteadily to his feet.

[schmorpthe]

Me? Posting my own art? No way

Here is a wip of feenie. I haven't gotten up to adding it yet but he has just eaten the bottle. There will be blood

[im-smart-i-swear]

in my defense: i had fun drawing this

i know Nika is more mature than the other two but. shes still 15. of course she does dumb wacky shit sometimes!! 

yeah shes pretty girly(not a bad thing!!!) but also she lives alone. so she can eat her cheap-ass hawaiian pizza any way she wants with no one to judge her for it

[sovonight]

editing down my tob gameplay but only keeping the parts where i ramble about xan and radri and how they're each other's source of light and wonder but each only thinks that it goes one way

[wellenklavier]

WE BOTH WROTE CARDS FOR EACH OTHER ??!?!?!?!!??? big ol hug too…. ummm….. ummmmmmmmmm

[heyitsbumblebee]

waiting to see puss in boots with my animation friends from uni is slowly killing me actually

[bloodsoakeddoodles]

They’re sweet in their own ways

[guideaus]

ohhh my god, i forgot about this

[troglobite]

lol the dlc is glitching

i'm not about to complain, though, bc it meant that after every non-water type move that the reuniclus used on my vaporeon, her water absorb ability triggered and she gained hp lololol

[castielsparkle]

tlou was revolutionary for daughters with father issues and fathers with daughter issues

[avaetin]

You know, there was this particular line that was bugging me in the spoilers because of how it was phrased.

Just to be clear, I accepted long ago that Solangelo is canon. I ship what I ship without disrespecting other ships because hey, freedom and creativity.

Disregarding the word "stability" because it really is something Nico deserves, the fact that he mentioned Percy along with his family - at least for me - means that at a point in time, his feelings for Percy was that intense. And the line after that, that getting over Percy was easier than expected - because he became used to the idea that he wanted things he couldn't have - means that Blood of Olympus really downplayed his emotion big time with that infamous "You're not my type" dialogue. For me, it implied that he accepted that he had to let go of his feelings for Percy because he had come to terms that it was fruitless, not because it was just a passing crush.

I would just like to throw out, I accept the term "unrequited love" but not "crush", thank you very much-

[blueish-bird]

currently overcome by childhood memories because I decided to play an Owl City album I used to listen to on repeat

[chekovsphaser]

Thinking about emotional repression, gender, and parents who tried their best but failed.

My mother said she never taught her sons that boys shouldn't cry, so she doesn't understand their emotional repression. Speaking as her daughter-son, no, she did, indeed, never tell my brothers or myself that boys shouldn't cry. She did, however, yell at us if we got upset by things she didn't think should have upset us (which, with 2/3 autistic kids, turned out to be a lot of things). And huff and say "what now?" when we displayed most non-happiness emotions. This is utterly unrelated to gender or perceived gender of the child. So we learned that happy is the one acceptable emotion and all the other ones are annoying upsetting and embarrassing and should be nobody else's business.

She recognized a bad pattern (teaching men emotional repression through not allowing them to cry) and made a point never to invoke it with her own children. She was trying her best. But she didn't think about the other things that fed this pattern, not just the phrase "boys don't cry", and as a consequence, she effectively taught emotional repression to all of her children, not just the "boy" ones. She did a lot of things right- including a general genderless approach to parenting for most of my life - unfortunately, genderless parenting in this case ended up not as "all kids should be allowed to express their emotions, regardless of gender" and more as "no kids should be allowed to express their emotions, regardless of gender"

[linda-rose]

very excited to be back online and read so many of the insightful thoughts and jokes and reactions of ttpd on here and also scream about it myself as I continue to process it, but also, mostly logging off for the album release was literally the best decision I've ever made for me personally lmao

[misskamelie]

Never understimate my ability to turn questions around and avoid actually getting into the nitty-gritty of the topic :)

[blueseakelp]

i feel like nothing i do can ever just be fucking good enough for my mother jfc