is god kind to you?
That depends on what you mean by "God".
I came into faith with my birth, and later in life denounced it, as I felt was my duty as a man of science. A man, now separate from my previous life, leaving it all behind. And I returned to it thoroughly humbled, pleading for forgiveness that I knew I had no right to. No, He did not hear me, did not save my soul – but there was nothing left to save. Is it kind to leave your child to his misery, to punish him with indifference for his hubris? I suppose not. But I do not think He is wrong for that either.
One of the commandments says clearly and plainly: you shall make no idols. But how do you know the difference between an idol and God? How can you not let yourself be fooled if a look upon his face fills you with warmth that you've never felt before, that you never were and never will be worthy of, that, no doubt, must be holy? Halos and streetlights shine the same way to the unenlightened – I disregarded both to gaze at the stars. I was treated kindly, but with the very same kindness that the shepherd shows to the lamb before slaughtering it, before... sacrificing it to the God that he worships. But there was kindness. For better or for worse.
I heard some acolytes calling the Dread Powers Gods, and if you are asking if the one that claimed me is kind to me, I have to cut you short – there can be no feelings. It is a purely transactional, mostly blind relationship. It has no virtues to speak of. Just all-encompassing, overwhelming hunger, a black hole at the back of my mind. It cannot be kind, but I doubt It would be kind to me even if it could. I neglect Its call way too often.
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Thinking about the very particular culture i grew up in, on the fringes of la county—wildly different from the one i live in now, here in misery—and how that would play into battery city culture
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Today, in Lyria's delulu state: Still thinking about the striking resemblances between the Unknown God and Dain, the deliberation between different color palettes but not so different when looking at the stellar cape. Gnostic Chorus story be right back in full swing with the sibs being actually them, mayhaps Asmoday being the Shade of Space / Void and Dain having the stars / black holy imagery attached to him—
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Fun fact! Calliope has really bad lower back pain. I mean like bad, bad. She has a heating pad that she lays on when it’s really hurting. She hates it, of course. She always has some type of pain meds on her, since it usually helps the soreness/pain in general until she can flop down on her precious heating pad.
The woman’s had two children and has been in more than a few compromising situations. Let her lay on her little heating pad and eat chips and watch soap operas and sip her rosé 😭
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Y’all the Weird Al movie is curing my depression, clearing my skin, AND watering my crops. All while wearing a Hawaiian button down shirt and playing an accordion.
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so basically larrys star trek verse is that x many years after the end of the series, [your ship here] discovers the larry rama sun, and keeg decides it’s time for them to rejoin a society that can help them, so he brings them back to a corporeal form and he goes on your ship
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anyway i will never get over how in the whale scene in fontaine you can literally watch as childe's foul legacy form is falling apart and burning. he's lost a whole horn and little pieces are chipping off as the scene moves around him .
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officially home from the convention, and I am EXHAUSTED. probably won’t get to any writing tonight, but as promised, I’m here to show off the goodies I got.
for those who can’t tell, here’s everything listed below.
-Illumi figure, first thing I bought.
-Eeveelution blind box figure. I got Espeon in mine.
-Kabru keychain + Kabumisu stickers from an artist.
-Dottore keychain.
-Hua Cheng wall scroll. He’s gonna be put up eventually, but he’s too big to show off, so I’ll show you all when he’s been officially hung up.
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