#because it doesent intrupt anything beyond my sleeping and ive come up with ways of dealing with it
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#so uh i had one really bad sensory-overload that nearly turned into a panic attack today and one full panic attack today. i think i need to#see someone#this is the first time ive had two in one day#and i kind of expect a third when i get into bed#becuase thats just the way my brain works#im gonna call my dad tomorrow and see what he thinks and who i should contact to see if there is anyone who takes our insurance nearby#because i cant keep haveing these#i do take them at night#when im in bed#because it doesent intrupt anything beyond my sleeping and ive come up with ways of dealing with it#but nearly haveing one in public is not great#and that the third time that thats happend in the past six months#i mean small nightly pannic attacks arent great but at least they arent imbaresssing and come with a loss of control#but i cannot have them in public#i know what they feel like when theyre comeing on so i can usually remove myself#but if i were to be in a place where i cannot remove the anxiety i dont know what i would do#the only way i can sleep is useing my hyperfocus anymore#i have to purposely fill my brain with it#or i will have a pannic attack laying in bed#gods i kind of wish i was hyper-depressed again because at least i didnt have to deal with this shit every night#not to say im going to do anything to myself!#i am in control of my actions rn#and actually i havent had any major suicidal thoughts for a couple of weeks now#i mean i probbaby had the usual drifting thoughts but nothing that actually raised any alarm bells recently#and while i was doing some bad stimming earlear today when i was overwhelmeled i do not self-harm or anything like that#that was because i was not in control but i was able to realize that and remove myself#and regaine control
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