#because my brain is a sieve

[sitkowski]

apparently I cannot read my own taglist form correctly and have been missing a few people when tagging works.....my bad guys, I'll make sure everyone's added to the list and will be tagged correctly in the next thing!

[psalacanthea]

sneaking in a reblog because I remembered @thedomesticanthropologist wanted a tag when I finished this :D

Scarlet Petals

Durge x Abdirak (in the goblin camp), 8k Words, Explicit.

CW: blood, torture, knife play, smut. Extreme daddy issues.

A small fic of my Durge Belladonna and Abdirak. Even when u don't remember daddy, sometimes the daddy issues stick around. Alas.

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“This is the one you want,” he said, a statement and not a question.  Abdirak never even looked at her, but she saw the faintest edge of a subtle smile.  “I can hear your breathing.  It catches in your throat.  It escapes with a…shiver.  I wonder, sweet child, why are you nervous?  You bear pain like a true believer.”

“I never know when I might have the urge to hurt someone,” she confessed, eyes darting away as he approached, voice lowering.  “I do things.  I don’t remember…anything.  Just flashes of madness and gore.  It’s like there is a yawning, terrifying pit in my soul.”

“Ah.  An emptiness inside of you,” he surmised, a cruel curve to his lips as she nervously glanced back again.  “A hollow, hungry place.  Yes, dear one, I know it well.”

As he stepped in to her, so close that she had to tilt her chin to meet his eyes, that uneasiness faded away.  His eyes were knowing, calm, but warm– a kind of warmth she had never felt before.  As if he believed her entirely.

He pressed the back of a hand to her cheek, a touch she instinctively leaned into.  “We will fill this empty vessel with agony, to keep the hunger at bay. Come.”

Dropping his hand, he gestured past her with a flourish of his long fingers, to the alcove at the back of the room.  Belladonna inclined her head, a gesture Abdirak returned with the slightest hint of a smile at the corner of his lips, a hint of condescending affection.  Lifting her chin, she turned on her heel to approach the bloodied place of flagellation, the brief moment of communion and warmth fading.

As the scent of blood sank into her nostrils, the cold piercing her toes, that otherworldly sense of solemnity returned, weighing on her shoulders.

“You have so many splendid scars already.  Such a shame you do not remember them.  Rare to see the signs of vivisection on living flesh. Fascinating…and exquisite.”

Turning away from the bloody wall, Belladonna pressed fingers to the massive, ridged scar that ran down the center of her chest and stomach, finding some comfort in the appreciation of it.  “I…it is good that someone finds them beautiful.  They are too meaningless to me for that.  Could you…give me new memories on my body?” she asked hopefully, following the strange impulse that had brought her here.

“Do you ask for new scars, or the old to be rewritten upon your flesh by my hand?”

“Yes?” she said the need so confused and incomprehensible it was laughable.  Not that she laughed.  “I don’t know.  What I want…”  There she stalled, choked by the enormity of wanting.  How much she desired.  She wanted to remember, to be quiet, to be content, but none of those things seemed achievable.

Maybe at least she could feel something.

“Come, child, and tell me what you truly desire.”

“I don’t know.”  There was no answer, was there?  How could she possibly know what she wanted when all of her memories were meaningless and her mind was so fractured? 

“Do whatever you want to me.  Just make it beautiful.”

[claypigeonpottery]

sold

four views of Mount St Helens, on an urn

and here's the lid

[hzdtrees]

Out of the Embrace

[rickybaby]

He’s deleting/archiving again and definitely some more recent ones bc the grid shifted from earlier 🤔

Another 33 posts are gone …

[werewolfsone]

Since the end of February (when I became a Terrorist) I've been logging all the fanfic I read in this silly little spreadsheet. 1,638,994 words across 332 fics and 158 unique authors. Unique ships is borked because I don't remember to be consistent between Crozier/Jopson and Jopson/Crozier, for example.

Absolutely nothing useful to learn from this. It's just fun to log things.

[momotonescreaming]

Guess who just spent 15 minutes walking from the office to her car - which included cutting through an entire mall and walking across a bridge - only to realise at the last minute that she didn't park on the other side of the bridge and had to spend another 15 minutes walking all the way back to the office because she actually parked in the car park right by work.

If you guessed me you'd be right.

[soupforsoup]

I've tried THREE. TIMES. to upload my mediocre robby edit that I finally made after it's been rotting in my brain like one of cassandra's visions for two weeks but tumblr wants to stomp me to the curb and spit on my dying corpse my beloathed ihateyouihateyouihateyou

[mischieftomake]

@what-the-stark continued from x

"Hm, perhaps. But only when the recipient is foolish enough to give me too much leeway. And you're no fool, are you?" In a shimmer of green light, he conjured a thumb drive and a pair of devices that could have been mistaken for smartphones had they not been so un-Midgardian. "Just a little data decryption. Nothing you'll find too taxing, I'm sure."

[blueish-bird]

sorry if I don’t remember your name or conversations/experiences or basic things about myself, every few weeks my brain gets factory reset and I have to relearn how to be alive

[bat-connoisseur]

I open a document to write a little ficlet. I immediately forget the name of the POV character.

[codgod-archive]

pfft chip #1 jay/lizzie supporter i guess??

[caeca-iustitia]

Laundry List (mostly for my dumb ass)

Vincent Scar Headcanons/Masterlist/Something

Small Vincent Headcanons

Annika and Cassidy Headcanons

Something about various Vincent eras (such as them as a kid, adult, in the far future, etc.)

A couple more starter calls whenever the mood strikes me

Random asks here and there for ✨fun✨

Funny little shitposts

Vincent Aesthetic Playlist (Youtube)

Possible Munday stuff (???)

[blazewatergem]

Special kind of hell trying to relate something in class to your everyday life. Which was this week’s cognitive psych assignment.

I finally picked the idea of memory, which just led to me describing how my memory is…kind of bad lol.

And even that, I’m not sure if I “used” the idea correctly because most of the post was me describing how my memory will pick and choose what it wants to remember, and I can’t control that or make it stronger.

Like how do you explain to a whole class “Yeah I can tell you the entire lore of a video game but no I can’t study for a test correctly no matter what I do” and…try to relate that to something from the text? Especially when you CAN’T REMEMBER how it can relate to the text???

I hate my brain sometimes. Some days it’s great, other days though…

I want a refund.

[bugjail]

social experiment. where im gonna block all mention of horses online and run away irl when I see or hear horses to make myself forget they exist

[musette22]

Speaking of a “dead” fandom. Do you have a list of Stucky blogs to follow? I need to follow more and go through my followers list for fandoms I’m not in anymore but… also maybe that would help some people who are new to the fandom as well? 🎉

Mandy, my love! Great idea, thanks for asking! ❤️ It's been a really long time since I did a blog rec list, because I am genuinely terrified of missing anyone out and potentially making someone feel bad 🙈 That would never be my intention, obviously!

But I swear, from the bottom of my heart: if you're not on this list and you feel like you should have been, it was most likely just one of those brain = sieve things and nothing personal at ALL. Which is also why I want to wholeheartedly encourage anyone who also considers themselves a Stucky-centric blog and would like to be added to this list to let me know/drop a comment in the notes/reblog with a note etc. etc. The more of us the merrier!!

Also, if you're included in this list but you would rather not be, for whatever reason, let me know and I'll remove you! No hard feelings. I also think there are a couple of blogs that are no longer super active / mainly Stucky blogs, but I did check that they all posted at least in the last couple of weeks, so most of them should still be active!

The Tumblr tag limit per post is sadly 50, so not all @'s on the list will be clickable and not everyone will get a notification of this, so I'm going to try to tag the blogs that aren't tagged under the cut in the notes instead, in order to notify them (so those added there by me are the same ones as on the list below)

Stucky blog recs under the cut, in no particular order!

@fandomfluffandfuck

@rillils

@buckvrogers

@sparkagrace

@voylitscope

@gloromeien

@metalbvcky

@dharmasharks

@leihaddock

@amarriageoftrueminds

@lavenderbuckyy

@steviesmarigold

@randomfandompenguin

@writeyourdarlings

@scriggle-scraggle

@wewringmagicfromtheordinary

@beardoesdoodles

@stuckydrewx

@yourbuckies

@smerfols

@incorrectstevebucky

@steveandbvcky

@riricitaa

@bluesimplicity

@dreadlockholiday

@stuckytogether

@hereforhappystucky

@stevebuckythyla

@luna-rainbow

@caps-boo-bear

@howdoyousleep3

@estelior

@stoveandhisbucket

@im-just-a-random-fandom-girl

@godmerlin

@capibuck

@fenrir-flamekeeper

@bucky-boychik-barnes

@ace-bucket

@shkretart

@smlmsworld

@hipsterdiva

@mentalmeles

@airybmore

@stevefightmerogerss

@guiltypleasureisfun

@twomisplacedsouls

@zenaidamacrouras1

@ace-in-reserve

@msilverstar

@gfawkesphoenixchokingonashes

@thevampireazula

@booksandabeer

@xoxobuckybarnes

@bromcommie

@burberrycanary

@partofthefandom

@fsbc-librarian

@fsbc-stucky-library

@cinnamoncascadian

@wintershield-always

@evenwhenihadnothingihad-stucky

@aimmyarrowshigh

@dienaziscum

@lilyinthesnow

@thestuckynation

@kaiya3333

@son-justdont

@stuckytoyoulikeglue

@norelationtoatticus

@transstuckywriter

@steverogersnotebook

@onecontinuoussigh

@fizz-pop-thwip

@whiteglovemanor

@arctic-turtle-cassiopeia

@artwinx

@behindthesehazeleyes27

@haz-n-boo-world

@steebling

@montyc

@forwritingwork

@steevbuckk

@its-tortle

@raven-writes-fanfic

@sarahowritesostucky

@burnin-brighter

@stevebvck

@geekinthefuschiahair

@innerslumber

@postmodernmulticoloredcloak

@sebastian-lips

@not-withoutyou

@circaclementine

@vincentvanh03

@bisxualbucky

@thesocietyporg

@aciremii

@ywecanthavenicethingsanymore

@turtle-steverogers

@steviesunrises

@somanywords

@karrieharrie

@between-a-ship-and-a-hard-place

@supersoldiercore

@livingoutload

@winterbaebucky

@reducedemtasketch

@preyasi

@bittersweet-in-boston

@stucky-just-stucky

@rachelica9

@kiu-k

@stucky-in-love-with-you

@fishyandclintbarton

@hey-rissyroo

@possibleplatypus

@ariane-giudice

@backonefish

@martelldoran

@schoolyardtobattlefield

@kalee60

@chubbiedumpling

@cat-ws

@greyhoundsgirl

@winterofthedarkestlight

@deadto27

@petite-madame

@kijrbds

@deusv-ult

@weeklybuckydoodles

@stjohn27

@glittery-koi

@buckysbud

@hettolandija

@lucidasidera

@barnestags

@waverleyrogers

@whoastitchywoman

@duckinatruck

@murkycrush

@thewintersoldier3

@whendidyou-leaveheaven

@faeriecap

@captain-dorito-is-a-snack

@princeofbadassery

@timetopanic34

@16woodsequ