#best and worst qualities

[copia]

endless ghifs 6/? ⛧ source — "So if you meet me, have some courtesy; have some sympathy, and some taste!"

[shithowdy]

ignoring every single ethical/environmental/philosophical/etc. argument about generative ai the fact that you can't do a simple google image search without either running a bloated script to exclude various websites OR outright excluding any image posted before 2022 without having to slog through unusable ugly bullshit like this in the results is... tiresome.

(before you say "just stop using google search": how about i walk to your house and chase you with a knife; you should be fine since you're so good at missing the point)

[villainii]

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[linterteatime]

Bunch of doodlez for y'all ✌︎︎

[raplinenthusiasts]

out of all people...

[boydarling]

trying to get back into drawing again after not rlly doing it for the past ~2 years with my blorbos

[deansmom]

The fact that the spn fandom is entirely incapable of a nuanced discussion involving Dean and the relationship with his mother shouldn’t surprise me as much as it did when I came back to fandom, and as much as it still does when I’m forced to see it with my own two eyeballs

Mary Winchester was a person before she was a mother, and I’m going to be so honest with you, I think by the time she died, John didn’t like who that person was. So I think when she died, he did what a lot of people do, which is put the person they lost on a pedestal. And that’s who Dean grew up hearing about, that’s what all of his memories of his mom were contextualized with, this person who didn’t exist. And so then his mom comes back and I think it’s very, very clear to Dean almost immediately that this isn’t the same person John told him about.

In the real world, we have no context to draw from and nothing to compare it to, the experience of getting a dead parent back and to be part of your life again. We can’t know how he felt beyond what we were shown in canon - So of course Dean is thrilled, but he’s also a Winchester and deeply traumatized, and tries so hard to make it seem normal and not internalize his complicated feelings about her and her being alive. He’s dealing with:

Grappling with losing the mother he was told she was and resenting mary for it because she’s standing in front of him

Realizing that John robbed so much from him by denying him the version of his mother who feels like looking in a mirror

The guilt of how and why mary is there

Trying to reconcile his feelings of resentment and anger that he knows should be directed at John, but John’s not there, so they end up getting directed at mary, and feeling bad about that

A deeply traumatized inner child who has his safe person back, and just wants his mom to hold him and tell him it’s going to be okay, but he knows that isn’t fair to ask of her

And meanwhile mary was dealing with

✨trauma✨ from being brought back to life

Having to confront her own failures as a parent (which is silly it’s not her fault she died but y’know, feelings tend to be silly)

Having to reconcile her toddler with the man in front of her who’s older than her being her son

Seeing so much of John’s worst qualities in both of them and recognizing the trauma of a shitty dad

The fact that they had this idea of who she was, and it’s nothing like her at all, and trying to understand why John would lie to them while also probably coming to terms with what looks like confirmation of her own worst fears about who she was as a parent

I cannot stress this enough: the last time her feet touched the ground, she had been married, with a new baby, and a 4 year old, she wasn’t a hunter, John barely knew about hunting, and it was the 80’s. She woke up in what, 2017 and her husband’s dead, her babies are grown men (again: older than her!!!) and the most prolific hunters in the world. Oh, also, angels? God? The afterlife?? Funny story! Like I’m sorry, you wanted her to have well-adjusted coping skills for that????

The Mary hate just gets me because she’s Dean in a different font, and so many of y’all hate her for such superficial bullshit that you could let go of if you took 5 seconds to think about the situation critically for both of them. The only bad guy here is, was and will always be John Winchester. John was there, but Mary tried her best. Mary tried to do what was best for them when she left, because she didn’t want to damage their idea of who she was anymore than she had. Mary literally died trying to save Sam from the destiny that heaven had written for him - John couldn’t be bothered to think about his kids.

And if you think that Dean ever genuinely hated Mary, your critical thinking skills need some work. The thing that prompts his speech in 12.22 is Mary saying to his younger self, “I only want good things for you, Dean. I'll never let anything bad happen to you.” So he says

I hate you. And I love you. 'Cause I can't – I can't help it. You're my Mom. And I understand...'cause I have made deals to save the ones I love more than once.

I forgive you. I forgive you. For all of it. Everything. On the other side of this, we can start over, okay? You, me, Sam. We can get it right this time. But I need you to fight. Right now, I need you to fight. I need you – I need you to look at me, Mom. I need you to really look at me and see me. Mom, I need you to see me. Please.

Translation: “you’re right. I resent you for not being the person I was sold, I resent you for your death being the thing that ruined dad, I resent you for being the touchstone for so many of heaven’s plans for us. I resent you because you’re here, and John isn’t, and it’s easier to hate someone tangible than someone dead. And if I hate you, it’s only because I can see so much of myself in you, and I’m so incredibly angry that John treated us the way he did. My whole world, my whole identity revolves around you being someone that you never were, and wrapping my head around that is scary, but when I pull my head out of my ass and look around, you were just a kid. And you did your best, you’ve always tried to do what’s best for me and Sam, and I don’t hate you. I don’t know if I like you right now because you’re a stranger, which is scary - but I love you. So please, mom, I’m sorry that I’ve been taking my bullshit out on you. Just… try. For me. Please.”

Anyways!!! You guys don’t deserve Mary.

[chisaron]

charles and john fixing that wheel in camp

[abigail-pent]

things to repeat to self:

- it's just a cleaning. nobody has said anything about her needing extractions, just that she ought to have a cleaning.

- it's a cyst that needs removal, nothing more. it's close to the skin.

- she's had her bloodwork done and it's safe to be under anesthesia

- she's had anesthesia before and been fine. she was fine after the "ate half a hair tie" debacle of August 2022 and she's been spayed ffs which is a way more involved procedure. literally no reason to worry

- it is good fucking preventative care for her to have a cleaning. I am being good mom

but like even though all of this is true, MY teeth hurt because I'm like clenching my jaw all day worried about this. and I keep looking at her, sleeping so peacefully, and getting all worked up because she's so precious to me and what if what if what if

[ot3]

NARUMITSU PINING DEATH COUNT: arguably just 1 person

YOOHANKIM PINING DEATH COUNT: billions and billions of people over and over again forever

[cindernet-explorer]

Smoke Break ft. @prudentfolly

[taikk0]

I think there needs to be a scientific study on Mr. Leonardo Splinterson. His psychological effect on the masses is very alluring and I need answers.

[delirious-donna]

Ugh, I’m at that part where I don’t like anything I’ve written and I just want to close the doc and not look at it for a bit. I hate this part.

[gameyface46]

I’m sorry there’s not art but I can’t draw Niko, it’s a whole thing, sorry. But I just finished OneShot…

WHAT THE HELL?!

Uh… so… I’m not gonna spoil anything here, so click read more for my thoughts, but overall… good game. But… WHAT THE HELL?!

NIKO IS FUCKING DEAD?! Standing THAT CLOSE to the sun HAS TO HAVE KILLED THEM, RIGHT????? WHAT THE FUCK! I DIDN’T SIGN UP FOR THIS! I THOUGHT NIKO WOULD JUST LIVE WITH LIKE… CALAMUS AND ALULA OR SOMETHING!!!!

I… and… the room… the empty room… with the… the sunlight pouring in… oh my god I’m gonna cry… WHAT THE HELL, WRITERS??? WHERE’D MY KID GO? ARE THEY FUCKING DEAD? …

…

… they… said they’d be fine…. NIKOOOOOOOOO WHAT THE HELLLLLL! THEY NEVER EVEN GOT TO SAY GOODBYE TO THEIR MAMA WHAT THE HELL?!?!!

Listen, this is a good game based solely on the fact that it took me an hour to decide who do I want to save. Writers and character designers… uh… slayed? They really got me to care. It wasn’t an obvious decision.

SCREW THEM THOUGH. I HOPE THEY HAVE A MILLION FLOP ERAS. I HOPE THEIR KIDS GET SENT TO THE UNDERDEPTHS AND HAVE TO SAVE A CIVILIZATION OF PEOPLE ONLY TO FIND OUT THAT THEY EITHER RETURN HOME OR DIE. /j I FEEL DEAD NOW. I PICKED THE SAVIOR ENDING AND NOW NIKO’S DEAD! I THOUGHT THEY’D JUST GO DOWN THE TOWER BUT THAT ENDING SCENE VERY OBVIOUSLY SHOWED THEM STANDING IN FRONT OF THE SUN AS IT BURNED THEM ALIVE. Well… obviously it wouldn’t show them actually dying, BUT CONTEXT CLUES, MAN! IT’S SO CLEAR!

I get the ending is TECHNICALLY ambiguous… but be so real right now. Standing in front of the sun can’t be good for you.

…

SHIT!

… why……… SCREW YOU WRITERS! SCREW YOU FOR MAKING SUCH LIKABLE CHARACTERS THEN MAKING ME PICK WHICH ONES TO KILL! STOP WITH THE TROLLEY PROBLEMS ALREADY I WILL SACRIFICE MYSELF IF I HAVE TO JUST LET THEM LIVE PLEEEAAASSSEEEEEEE…

… I…. FUCK.

Uh… I’m playing the Solstice ending on stream eventually… maybe on tuesday or something… so… uh… join me at www.twitch.tv/gameyface_46. I stream at around 5 o’clock Los Angeles time.

NIKOOOOOOO……………. noooo….. why’d you have to die….

10/10.

[hollowsart]

me: oh hey that seems like a fun and/or interesting video topic to listen to, let's check it out--

video: ai text to speech or just regular text to speech

me: ah. never mind.

[dreamofstarlight]

Robert took some his father’s best qualities but made them his worst