- its always been you -
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warnings: WLW ANGST, no happy ending, not v nice bf if u ask me, death
billie eilish x fem!reader
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- billies pov -
you're 13
45 girls are at soccer tryouts, you get nervous youre not going to make the cut, pacing back and forth
"hey, you okay" you hear a soft voice ask from behind you
you dont recognise the voice
"yea just a little nervous." you reply with a slight chuckle as you turn around
"me too, dont worry to much about it im sure youll do great" says a girl with the sparkliest eyes you've ever seen
you quickly became friends from only 2-3 hours of knowing eachother.
"bye bils!" she calls out as she runs over to her mums car
"no wait-" you yell, but she doesn't hear. what if you never see her again?
its been 3 weeks and you finally got the email youd been so excited for, you made the team!
first day of practice, you see her eyes in the crowd of girls and instantly feel yourself begin to smile
you guys turn into best friends so quickly, its as if you've been friends for years
"hey how old is your brother?" she asks one day after coming to your house
"16 why?" you reply, confused
"hes cute" she says with a faint smile
a strange nauseous feeling falls over you
"oh" you manage to mutter quietly
"haha sorry" she says as she begins to feel the awkward tension filling your bedroom
but it wasn't that she liked your brother. it was because she didn't like you.
you guys stopped talking when the soccer season ended, and you dont see her ever again.
now youre 18
its your senior soccer season, and at your first game you see her on the opposite team
your eyes widen as you see shes only became more beautiful now.
a guy runs over to her and wishes her luck before hugging her and running back to the bleaches
youre knocked out of you trance by your teammate pushing you over to start warm ups
during the game, you notice her gazing at you with a confused look on her face
after the game, she runs up to you and asks "oh my god billie is it really you?"
"yeah! its been a while huh" you reply, she asks you to catch up over coffee
coffee turns into lunch
then a movie
and now youre both in an empty parking lot at 8pm
its like you guys never stopped talking back when you were 13
as shes talking, you cant stop staring at that sparkle in her eyes that you have always been obsessed with,
now even brighter than the last time you saw her
you kiss her.
she kisses back.
she pulls back and after a short pause, speaks up
"i better get home.." she says with a shameful look on her face
"im sorry." you say as she starts to get out of your car
"no, i liked it. i just dont think my boyfriend would" she replies.
and there it is again, that funny nauseous feeling deep in her stomach
you dont see her again for almost 2 weeks and now its 3am and shes knocking on your window
you open it
"whats going on? are you okay?" you stutter as she crawls through your window
you notice she has a black eye, you heart drops
"i cant do it anymore.. i cant be with him i- i dont like him." she manages to say through her tears
"did he do this to you?" you step forward bringing you hand to her cheek
the silence and lack of eye contact is enough of an answer for you to know what happened.
"you can spend the night here, if you want" you say in hopes of keeping her away from her boyfriend
she faintly smiles and collapses into your bed
you lay down next to her and ask her if she needs anything, if theres anything you can do
she shakes her head and wraps her arm around you, snuggling into your chest, tears starting to soak your shirt
you softly draw shapes on her back trying to comfort her
"its always been you, you know.." she mumbles through her exhausted breathing
you smile and bring her tighter into your side
you wake up the next morning but shes gone, no longer in bed next to you. where is she?
'whered you go?' you text her
'she told me everything.'
your heart skips a beat, 'what?' you reply
no response.
3 days later you hear her name on the news while making yourself brunch
you feel your legs go weak, tears falling from your waterline, a loud sob escaping your mouth as you hear the words..
her body was found in her boyfriends back yard.
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FIRST BILLIE FIC YALL
SO SO sorry for being inactive and forgetting to post this but here you go🤷♀️
i got this idea from those sad wlw poems literally FILLING my fyp on tiktok so creds to them id put the user but i lost the video😔
as always feedback is appreciated<33
LOVE U HOES
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