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“I-I killed him”

Inej stood there, eyes fixed on the bloody knife in her hands, hands trembling.

Kaz knew he had to do something. Move toward her, lay a comforting hand on her shoulder, tell her it was going to be alright. But that was not who he was, that was not who they were. 

If it were a trick, I’d promise you safety. I’d offer you happiness. I don’t know if that exists in the Barrel, but you’ll find none of it with me. 

One of the first things he’d said to her when he’d offered her this job. She knew what she was getting into, she knew she would have to use her knives eventually, but still, he couldn’t help but feel sorrow for her. Inej was brave and defiant, never faltering in her beliefs. As much as he scoffed and mocked her for her faith, although he hated to admit it, he admired her for it. Despite everything she had been through she still believed. Long ago perhaps there had been a chance of that for him too. But no, in his darkest hours, it was not the hand of any saint that reached out to him, but the dark promise of vengeance that pulled him from those murky waters. Inej though, she had resisted that voice at every turn, even with the sharpest set of knives in Ketterdam strapped to her chest she had never brought down the hand of judgment to make the killing cut. I won’t betray my faith She had told him. But tonight she had, in a church, under the eyes of the saints she held so dear, she had turned from them, for him. Any second later he would have been dead, head smashed against the cold stone tiles. With the choice between his life and eternal damnation, she had chosen him. He stared at her hands, they were loose on the blade, ready to fall from her hands at any moment, the last thing they needed was more noise to draw the Stadwatch to their location. 

“Inej listen to me.”

She did not look up. Eyes wide like a deer caught in the headlights. He wanted to take his hand and move her face towards his, force her out of this spell, make her look into his eyes and let her know she was safe. But that was an impossibility he was not ready to challenge. Instead, he repeated her name, insistently this time “Inej.” 

Her eyes finally broke free and met his own. Brown irises shining in the candlelight. His mouth went dry.

“You saved me life.” He managed to get out, stressing every single word to make her know that whatever guilt she was feeling right now, she did not need to ask her saints for forgiveness, and that… He didn’t know what this feeling was? Was he grateful, indebted? He felt the warm glow of something inside his chest. He pushed it away. 

He looked at her hands again, still shaking. They were so small, so soft. He wondered for the first time what it would feel like to hold them in his own. He reached out a gloved hand, it hovered there, just above hers, one more step, his mind went blank. What did he want to do? What was meant to happen now? He was so close he could feel her stuttering breaths on his neck, could feel her eyes looking up at him through her lashes. She was waiting too, a silent understanding. His hand brushed the tops of her knuckles, the waves rushed in. He couldn’t breathe. He was drowning. It was no use.  He could never be that person. Never be the man she deserved. Instead, he carefully took the hilt of the blade, and coaxed the knife from her frightened fingertips. It was better this way.

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Hello!

No time no see! 1 day till season 2 of shadow and bone!! I'm going to leave social media for a bit so that I can enjoy the new season spoiler free. But before that I thought I'd share with you something I did back in december! I see this pic of Yuzuka Rei and Hana Yuuki in Augustus the other day and thought "That's so kanej core" and decided to draw it but with kaz and inej instead! And then after finishing it i was so wrapped up in kanej feelings that I word vomitted this up at 2am, don't think I've written fanfic in 10 years! Thats the kanej power... The scene is inspired by the classic scene in the tv show mixed with my feelings from the books. Ahhh I love them so much! Can't wait for season 2! See you all on the other side!

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Doing something a little different! Don't know where this style came from! I haven't done any nighttime sketching in so long and it feels so good, but my brain is buzzing right now, how do I get to sleep? 😂

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I'm Lauragreenbeans again. Hehehe. Sorry if i confused many of you guys. :x

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Yuzuka Rei as Ijuin Shinobu from Haikara-san

watercolour and fineliner on sketchbook paper, layered digitally

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“Please, my darling Inej, treasure of my heart, won’t you do me the honour of aquiring me a new hat?” - Six of Crows by Leigh Bardugo

Drew the QUEEN herself Inej Ghafa from The Six of Crows and the Shadow and Bone TV Series. Had a lot of fun with this one, originally just a pose practice this turned into a full art piece! I created it part traditionally, with promarker pen to draw and colour Inej, and then I used digital layering for the background!

Hope you like it!

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The sister portrait to my previous one of Shinobu! Hana Yuuki as Hanamura Benio in Haikara san

watercolour and fineliner on sketchbook and watercolour paper, images layered digitally

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“Oh let me sleep, embraced by death, to that distant land where all sins reach their end”- The Golden Desert, Ueda Kumiko

My homage to one of my favourite Takarazuka plays, Ueda Kumiko’s the Golden Desert

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Once again, I have drawn this dance

watercolour and pencil on sketchbook paper

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This dance from Cool Beast tho

Pastels, watercolour, fine liner, pencil on paper

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Really got into Shadow and Bone recently and have just finished Six of Crows! Kaz Brekker has become my absolute favourite, just want the best for this boy

watercolour, fineliner, pencil on paper

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Did a little quick Alina study the other day! Tried a bit of a different style with it!

watercolour, pencil and fineliner on paper

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I realise I haven’t uploaded any art on here in forever! I’m so sorry! I upload to instagram first and then forget to re-upload here! (insta: blah_art_)

So i’m gonna start with a recent one! 

It’s Hana Yuuki’s last show! Can’t believe she’s leaving! 

The visual for her music salon is so gorgeous I just had to draw it!

fineliner, pencil and watercolour of sketchbook paper

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Some art studies of Rei Yuzuka from her latest shoot for Joseph 

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「自分の事だけ考えて」/ “Thinking of No One But Me” from Me and My Girl 2016

Gotta pay tribute to everyone's favourite gold-digger!

Like everyone else I fell in love with Rei’s Jackie

promarkers and fineliner on promarker paper