#both my parents thought it was okay which is upsetting cos my girlfriend and i both love it

[silhouettecrow]

365 Days of Writing Prompts: Day 365

Adjective: Gentle

Noun: Reaper

Definitions for those who need/want them:

Gentle: having or showing a mild, kind, or tender temperament or character; moderate in action, effect, or degree, or not harsh or severe; (of a slope) gradual; (archaic) (of a person) noble or having the qualities attributed to noble birth, or courteous and chivalrous

Reaper: a person or machine that harvests a crop; short for Grim Reaper

[libraryofloveletters]

and the memories of you never wash away

Eddie x Buck, Eddie x Shannon (co-parents/platonic) 

wc: 1.9k 

[AO3 Link]

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“Eddie! Have you seen the sunscreen?” Shannon's voice carried through the hallway before she found him.

“Did you check the bathroom ?” he glances over his shoulder as he digs through a bin in the closet looking for Christopher's beach ball.

“I found it!” Buck shouts, coming down the hallway.

The 3 of them had decided to take Chris to the beach to start off the summer break. Eddie was still bent over looking for the beach ball when Buck arrived where the two were, his eyes instantly found their way to Eddie’s ass which just happened to look amazing -per usual as Buck happened to think.

Shannon has noticed Buck’s gaze and where it was directed. She nudged him, making a smacking motion with her hand and nodded towards Eddie.

Buck had a mischievous look on his face, taking a step towards Eddie before his hand came down and hit Eddie's ass.

Eddie stood up so fast that Buck didn’t even have time to move from behind him.

“Seriously ?” Eddie’s arms folded, giving his boyfriend an unamused look.

Buck smiling innocently with hands raised, “wasn’t me.”

Eddie shook his head at the blonde before pulling him towards him and pressing a kiss to his lips.

“Okay, can you two stop being in love for a moment so we can get going ?” Shannon calls, bringing the two men back to reality.

Just as she did, the sound of Christopher coming down the hall caught their attention. There were 3 adults in the house and they had all disappeared on him.

“Can we go ?” the boy peered at them from around the corner. “Yeah, come on,” Shannon made her way over to him, leaving the two men in the hallway.

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The smile on his face was nothing compared to the warmth of the sun. The pure happiness on Christopher’s face was enough to make all 3 of them happy.

Buck and Shannon sat on the blanket, the sun beating down on them- surely enough, they’d both have crazy tan lines by the time they left because of course, no one listens when Eddie says to put on sunscreen.

Eddie, on the other hand, had lathered Chris in sunscreen and managed to rub some on himself before Buck and Shannon had run off with Christopher.

The Diaz boys were now standing in front of the water, Eddie’s arms looped under Christopher’s. The two of them laughed as the water hit their feet. Eddie picked up Chris, swinging him around for a second before putting him back down right as the water rushed up to his feet.

Shannon’s head rested on Buck’s shoulder, smiling at the boys by the water. Buck glances over at her before turning his attention back to the boys, he too had a smile on his face.

“Thank you”

The words came out barely above a whisper, truthfully he had said it internally but somehow it sort of slipped out.

Shannon looks at him, a smile on her face but brows furrowed. “For what ?”

“For being okay with us,” he glances at Eddie.

“Buck, you don’t need to thank me. You make Eddie happy, Christopher too and that’s all I could never hope for.”

Shannon reaches for his hands, smiling at him. “I should be thanking you” the two of them laugh.

Buck gets up, pulling Shannon up with him and the two of them head down to the water where Eddie and Chris are.

“Why are you two all giggly ?” Eddie turns to them, they just smile and shake their heads.

“Nothing babe, just having fun that’s all.”

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The sun was starting to set, Christopher was getting tired. His eyes drooping, his head on his mother’s lap. Her fingers combed through his brown curls, smiling as he eyes shut.

“Hey,” she whispers, nudging Eddie who was talking to Buck. Both men turned to see the boy asleep. Buck gets up first, taking the keys from Eddie and then leaning down to pick up Chris before making his way to the car.

Both Shannon and Eddie follow him, the blanket in hand. Eddie’s arm is over her shoulder and Shannon’s arm snakes around his waist, the two of them had always been comfortable with one another despite the divorce.

Christopher had woken up when Buck picked him up, he’s now laughing at something Buck said to him.

“I swear, that kid was born happy”

“I have no idea where he gets it from.”

Eddie turns, slightly offended with his brows furrowed. “From me,” his finger gestured towards himself.

“Oh ? From you ? Mr. Broody ?” she jokes, a loud laugh erupting from her.

Eddie pouts, rolling his eyes playfully. “Yeah well hopefully he gets your brains, he can’t get by on my good looks alone” Eddie smiles proudly.

Shannon snorts, she can’t help the laughter. “Good looks my ass, who’s been lying to you, Diaz ?”  

“Oh yeah ?” Eddie’s brows raised, a look of amusement on his face.

“Yeah”

“Isn’t that what attracted you to me?” he asks her, picking her up and tossing her over his shoulder. Her hand smacked his back, “put me down!”

“Answer the question” he keeps walking.

Shannon’s hand reaches down, grabbing his ass and squeezing it. “Nah, it was this ass in those jeans” she laughs once more and Eddie puts her down in front of the car.

“Squeeze my ass again and I’ll fight you.” his finger in her face and Shannon rolls her eyes, sticking her tongue out at him.

Next thing he knew, there was another hand on his ass. Eddie turned so fast, he probably gave himself whiplash. Buck was sitting in the car, the door opened and a smile on his face- proud of the fact that he just grabbed his boyfriend’s ass.

“Again ? Seriously ?”

“Couldn’t help myself. She’s right, your ass does look good in those jeans.”

Eddie shook his head, he could not believe that these were the two he had to deal with on a daily basis but despite all the shit they pulled and the constant bickering, he wouldn’t have it any other way.

When the 4 of them were together, it felt like home. The laughter, the random trips to get ice cream, the 4 of them attempting to all fit into one tent in the backyard- it was moments like that they would treasure forever.

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He barely heard Buck step into the room, his eyes focused on something in front of him. The footsteps became louder with each step, Buck’s hand on his shoulder.

“Eds?” He glances over his boyfriend's shoulder, the red picture frame from the dresser in his hand.

They had stopped at the gift shop right by the beach during their last trip to the beach. Christopher had picked up the frame and said they should get it, so they did. Eddie and Buck had one in their room, Christopher had one in his and Shannon had the other. It was all the same red frame with seashells and starfish.

They all had the same picture of the 4 of them in it.  

Eddie’s arms were over Christopher’s shoulders while he leant back against his father, Shannon and Buck to either side of him, their arms around him. They were all laughing because a huge wave had come up and hit them right before the photo was taken, resulting in the 4 of them dreached in seawater while smiling for the camera.

It also happened to be the last photo the 4 of them had together before she passed.

Today was the first trip back to the beach since then.

Buck steps from behind Eddie to beside him, it didn’t take long for him to notice the tears welling up in his eyes. He didn’t wait for Eddie to say anything and pulled him into a hug.

“We don’t have to go-” “No, Chris wants too, I'm fine.”

The drive to the beach was quiet. It was already midafternoon, it wasn’t overly warm but it was still kind of sunny out. It was more of a spur of the moment trip rather than a planned one. Christopher was rambling away in the back seat, telling Buck about his plans to build a huge spaceship out of sand and Eddie drove in silence, the occasional smile when Chris was talking but that was about it.

Once they arrive, Eddie follows behind the two boys. They had gotten out first, Chris practically dragged Buck with him to look for a spot to build his spaceship, he shouts for his dad to hurry up who jogs over to them.

Christopher finds a spot a few feet from the water, Buck beside him and Eddie to the other side. Christopher had tasked Buck with digging a hole for the ship to rest in while he started to shovel some into a bucket.

Eddie shifted on the sand, something in his pocket was causing him to sit to one side. Reaching back, he pulls his wallet from his pocket and it somehow opens from the way he pulls it out of his pocket. The two pictures he kept in his wallet were sticking out, before tucking it back in, he decided to pull them out.

The first one was of Christopher, Buck and him from before they started dating. It was the day he officially became part of the 118 - Eddie is standing behind the chair Buck was sitting on and Christopher is standing beside Eddie, the 3 of them laughing at something Chimney was saying when Maddie took the picture.  

The second one, he had forgotten he had because that’s how long it had been in there. A picture from Christopher’s first Christmas - one of those wallet sized ones from the Santa’s workshops they had during the holidays. Chris was wrapped up in a little white blanket with blue snowflakes on it, Shannon was holding him and was sitting beside the guy who was supposedly Santa for the day. Eddie stood beside her, his arm over her shoulder.

His finger rubs across the picture, a smile on his face.

“Dad!” Chris’s voice broke his thoughts, “what are you doing ?” the boy asks his father.

Eddie hands the photo over to Chris, moving a little closer towards him. Chris smiles and looks over at his dad, “is that me?” pointing towards the baby wrapped up in a blanket.

“Yeah, you were so little. Mom insisted on taking you to see Santa.”

Christopher leans over to show Buck, Eddie glances over at his boyfriend who's smiling at his son.

Buck had never been upset about the relationship Shannon and Eddie had. In the past, girlfriends from previous relationships didn’t quite understand her random pop up visits or the fact that she was practically living there at times but it was never like that, Buck and Shannon had become friends and he loved her just as the two boys loved her.

Buck looks up from Chris who was still looking at the picture, he smiles at Eddie.

Buck knew Eddie like the back of his hand and Eddie knew that. Eddie had this idea in his head that he needed to hold himself together and not show any emotions because that’s what dads do, he had to hold himself together for Chris.

So when he saw Eddie on the verge of tears, he didn’t question him, he just comforted him the best way he knew. Eddie would talk when he was ready.

“Dad?”

“Yeah ?”

“Do you miss her ?” the boy set the picture back on his father’s hand. Eddie looked down at the picture once more, he hummed.

“Everyday.”

[adenei]

My deepest desire is to know what happened next in the Prefects' bathroom.

Ask and you shall receive! I had two ideas originally in my mind, and neither of them came to fruition here, but I’m perfectly okay with that.

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The first couple of weeks spent with Lavender had been great, but things felt like they were changing abruptly in their relationship already, and Ron was coming to the realization that he didn’t like it as much as he thought he would. All she wanted to do was be with him all the time, which wouldn’t have been so bad if he could get his homework done and do other things he was interested in. But Lavender constantly had to have body contact. Whether she was clinging to his arm, trying to hold his hand, or snog him. If he was being honest, he wasn’t sure how he felt about all of that. Maybe it was just because he wasn’t used to it, but then again he’d never seen any other couple be that all over each other all the time. Seamus even sniggered and mentioned something about how Lavender was never all over him like that when they were together.

If only that was what had sent Ron running that evening. He’d been trying to accomplish some of his homework load with Harry when Lavender had sidled up next to him. She’d been pulling the whole touchy feely bit again, and Ron wasn’t feeling it. He really needed to focus. Apparently Lavender had taken offense to him declining her wishes, and huffed about it. Parvati had joined them to try and calm Lavender, but then his so-called girlfriend had gone and started bashing Hermione.

It was one thing for Ron to be upset at Hermione. Not that he still was, but she hadn’t spoken to him since the canary incident when he’d gotten with Lavender. There was a weird emptiness where her friendship should be, and Lavender had done a decent job of filling that hole, but little reminders here and there were starting to weigh on him.

He tried to avoid the nagging thoughts that said he missed her, but every time he’d question an answer on his homework, or he’d walk into class and the seat beside him remained empty because she’d chosen somewhere else, he realized the effect of her absence. Even the smallest bit about eating meals in the Great Hall had bothered him. Lavender always insisted on Ron eating porridge, even though he’d told her numerous times he didn’t like it. Hermione never would have fixed him a bowl of porridge, let alone make him eat it. Hell, half the time she’d have a plate ready for him if she made it to breakfast before him. 

Ron had had enough of Lavender’s unkind words, so he told her as much. “Don’t talk about her like that,” he’d said.

Lavender laughed derisively back at him. “You aren’t honestly defending her, are you? You’re not even speaking!”

Ron stared at her. “Of course I’m defending her! She’s not here to defend herself, is she?” He felt the heat rising up his neck as anger began to creep into his veins. How could she talk about her dorm mate like that? 

He watched as Lavender’s face turned from a mocking, superior tone, to one of anger and something else. “Excuse me, but I’m your girlfriend now, and when you have a girlfriend, you’re supposed to side with them!” Lavender explained haughtily.

“That’s bollocks!” Ron had said without thinking.

“Oh, is it?” Lavender had said as she stared at him with a piercing look in her eye. “Well, maybe I should make it clearer for you. You need to choose. Me or her? You’d do well to remember who’s talking to you and who’s not.” Lavender smirked triumphantly, thinking that he’d undoubtedly choose her. 

Instead, Ron stood up and said, “Yeah, I can’t do this.”

Lavender’s smugness immediately turned into shock as she sputtered, “You aren’t...breaking up with me, are you?” Her plan had clearly backfired to pit him even further against his best friend.

“Looks like it,” Ron said as he disappeared through the portrait hole, leaving his stuff out without a second glance.

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Ron was getting dressed after a long, hot shower when he heard the door open. It was always awkward when another person made their way into the Prefect’s bathroom, especially if they were opting for a bath. Thankfully both Percy and Bill had given Ron a heads up to wear swim trunks if he ever chose that option. 

The bathroom was co-ed, so Ron always made sure he had what he needed in the stall he was in. He was glad the water had already been shut off, and Ron figured he’d towel off and get dressed as silently as possible before he slipped out unnoticed by the newest occupant. He exited out of the shower stall, but as he was making his way to the door, he heard someone crying. But no, it wasn’t just someone. Ron froze as he listened, not sure of what to do.

“...stupid to think that I could be good enough,” he heard through escaped sobs. “Why? Why did that mirror have to show me everything I wanted and will never have?”

Mirror? Ron thought to himself. Had Hermione found the same mirror he and Harry had peered into back in first year? And if so, what did she see?

“I hate you, Ronald Weasley. Just when I thought I was getting over you. I’m never going back there,” she said.

Did she see me in that mirror? Me and her? His heart fluttered in the same way it had when she’d sort of asked him to Slughorn’s party. He’d certainly never felt that any time he was snogging Lavender in their now short two week stint. The only thing that felt anything was his...well, he was a sixteen year old boy, could anyone blame him?

But now this changed everything. Did she really fancy him? Ron sat down on the bench. He couldn’t leave her. He had to say something. He had to know.

“Her-Hermione,” he heard his voice say raspily, working of its own accord.

He heard a high pitched gasp before she let a long, “Fuuuuuck,” in a whimpered way. “Go away! What are you even doing here?” She asked from the other side of the stall. It was more words than they’d exchanged since before his falling out with Ginny, and she’d sworn. Hermione never swore.

“I was having a shower, and I was here before you so….”

“Why aren’t you with Lavender?” she asked viciously.

“We broke up.”

There was silence on the other side of the stall. He waited, not daring to move, and then the door to the stall opened. “You what?”

“You heard me.”

“Why? I thought she was everything you wanted,” Hermione couldn’t help the hurt and anger in her voice.

“She’s not. Especially not after saying rubbish about my best friend when she wasn’t even there to defend herself.” Ron waited for Hermione to process what he’d said.

Finally, she looked at him. Her beauty hit him like a ton of bricks. Everything he’d been trying to talk himself out of came flooding back, and he didn’t try to stop it this time. Even through tear stained cheeks and puffy eyes, she was beautiful to him. “Why would you do that?”

“Do what?” He wanted her to say it.

“Defend me. We haven’t spoken in weeks,” she said through a scowl.

“You’re still my best friend, and I refuse to let anyone talk about you like the way she was. I don’t know how you live with her if she’s that mean.”

Hermione shrugged it off. “I just ignore it.”

They both stood awkwardly silent with each other until Ron finally asked the real question that was burning inside of him. “Hermione, did you see the Mirror of Erised?”

“The what?”

“Do you remember the mirror I told you about from first year? Where Harry saw his parents alive, and I saw me holding the Quidditch Cup, and as Head Boy? The mirror that shows your deepest desires.”

“Yes…” she said slowly.

“Is that the mirror you were talking about?”

“I-” Hermione looked up at him in an expression of shocked realization.

“Slughorn’s party,” Ron quickly changed the subject, not sure why.

“What about it?” Hermione said. 

“Were you really asking me?”

“Does it actually matter now?”

“Yeah.”

“Yes.”

“As a friend, or…” Ron couldn’t bring himself to say the word ‘date’.

“More,” Hermione said, staring at her feet.

Fuck. Ron’s brain stopped working at that moment. He felt his feet move underneath him. He was walking toward her now. She looked up, slightly startled by him. “Ron, what are you-” he cut her off as his lips found hers. One hand cupped her face as the other pulled her closer by the waist.

He felt her sink into his embrace. It took a moment, but then she kissed him back. Right there in the Prefect’s bathroom, they were sharing their first kiss. Her lips were soft against his, and she tasted like...Hermione, with maybe a hint of spearmint. Not any of that disgusting sticky, fruity stuff Lavender insisted on putting on.

It wasn’t perfect, but it felt so right. What started as a tight-lipped kiss loosened into something so much more. He felt her mouth open ever so slightly against his, and he used the opening to brush his tongue over her bottom lip. Ron never wanted the moment to end, but eventually they broke apart. 

“Do you still need a date to Slughorn’s party?” Ron asked her awkwardly. What else were you supposed to say after you just snogged your best friend?

“I- yes,” Hermione said. 

“Well, I’m available,” Ron said, dropping what he hoped was a hint for her to ask him again.

“I’ll think about it,” Hermione said seriously. He almost missed the tiniest smile across her lips as she abruptly brushed past him and headed for the door.

Ron turned and watched her walk away, unsure of what just happened and where he stood. Then, she turned around and flashed him a smile that could only have said ‘are you coming or what?’ And Ron didn’t hesitate as he chased after her.

[madlilsongbird]

Watching The Amazing Spidernan movies so that I’m all caught up before No Way Home. Will add my thoughts as I have them. Note I am not some big Spider-Man fan nor have I read the comics so if my thoughts sound kinda stupid they probably are.

First movie:

That’s a good trick with the broom. Making a mental note as we speak.

Actually seeing Peter say goodbye to his parents is horrible and I would like to never experience it again

SALLY FIELD IS AUNT MAY?! Why does this one have the good cast? (not good as in better but good as in more well known)

The sexual tension in “good morning flash…good morning Peter” (this is a joke I’m not shipping him with his bully)

Jesus roid rage much?

Shut your blinds! I don’t know who would be looking in your window at this exact moment but close them anyway!

First careful, you never know who is watching what you search (when did I become this person)

Second…curt connors is ableist.

Poor Rodrigo Guevara

Oh internalised ableism. And that is the only comment I will make going forward because my disabilities do not include limb difference and I dont want to overstep.

Stop following the man, you are not subtle…wait wtf how’d he do that?!

This is where he gets his powers right?

Okay but when would 5 men make that much of a fuss over a woman that only 1 of them seems to know?

Same. (This is in reference to smashing the alarm clock)

Oh my god is it really necessary to show all the different kinds of spider bites.

Actually just going back to the internalised ableism thing…he is allowed to feel whatever type of way about his own disability that is his right. But insinuating that all disabled people are weak and wanting to breed out the weakness is eugenics and just kinda gross. THIS is the final comment I will make on the matter.

No but seriously he is way more aggressive than regular teen boy aggressive so either he’s on something or he’s overcompensating for something

The way he looks at him doe (again all jokes am not shipping flash and Peter)

Why is this so awkward? And not like teens navigating a crush awkward just genuinely awkward. I feel no chemistry between them.

I like the song, it’s an interesting choice for this scene but I like it.

Stop does uncle Ben die now? Like I know uncle Ben dies at some point but I was really kinda hoping he just wouldn’t in this iteration. I was going for a ninth doctor moment “just this once everybody lives”

MOTHERFUCKER

God Sally is incredible

Don’t show me moments of Flash being human I might accidentally start shipping them for real and that simply can’t happen.

Oooh he’s a fashion designer

I just really enjoy how he takes the piss out of his victims? Arrests?

Is Gwen aware that the school nurse can’t cure everything? Both legally and just like generally doesn’t have the knowledge to cure everything. She suggests going to the nurse a lot.

This family gives me bad vibes

This is a long movie…it’s not even half way through

Well that’s one way to tell her

NOT GEORGE FOYET!

I think with what I remember of SpiderTobey and what I know of SpiderTom, Andrews Spider-Man is definitely better with the people he’s rescuing. Smoother, good bedside manner.

His sons name is Jack. Why does that make me angry?

So he’s just not gonna rescue the other people hanging off the bridge?

It’s almost poetic that the son of the man tried to stop him the first time will be the one to stop him now

Now how is he getting enough power in the sewer

No means no Peter

Does she die in this one or the next one? I don’t imagine her dying will help captain stacey see him as a good guy

Stan 🥺

This movie is exhausting and I don’t know if I mean that in a good way or a bad way.

MoThEr HuBbArD aRe YoU sErIoUs

He managed to get three whole words out and you didn’t think to ease up on the trigger a little to hear what those words might be?

She’s very clever and I will be sad to see her go

That wasn’t her scream. Or it was but from a different take.

Foyet about to be coming in clutch

I’m going to cry.

He’s so ugly. Some lizards are really cute but lizard + human, kinda gross looking.

Well shit. I didn’t know that happened. I guess what I said about him being upset with Peter about Gwen is irrelevant. Unless it isn’t, like if you believe in the afterlife, imagine how pissed he’s gonna be when Gwen arrives.

He finally got the eggs 🥺

As someone who’s boyfriend at the time didn’t go to her fathers funeral I feel ya Gwen. I mean I don’t care now but at the time it sucked.

Dr Connors was just in a silly goofy mood. He seems to show genuine care for the boy (this is mostly sarcasm).

Second movie

Oh we’re going back to peters dad.

How do they have access to a private jet?

Miss Honey is badass

Ngl I’m actually quite relieved they both died before the plane crashed. Stil devastating though.

Okay so this is first up on the list of potential mystery villains in No Way Home…he looks like a tool.

HeLLo PeDeStRiAnS

He really just let Spider-Man put his hand on his tongue. Sir do you know where his hand has been? Not to mention just in general the feeling of spandex on your tongue. I feel ill.

No respect for the proper care of plutonium.

Please don’t ever say “come to daddy” again 😂

I’m kinda sad Jamie Fox becomes a villain, his character seems kinda sweet so far from the 2 seconds I’ve seen of him

You mean to tell me he missed his girlfriend’s fathers funeral AND her valedictorian speech?!

Stan x2 🥺

Because you can’t lose me you’re going to lose me? 😂

I love her jacket

Why are they still pretending like she doesn’t know?

I may have spoken to soon about Max

See I would be speeding up daddy’s death if he told me he’d passed down a genetic disease and just decided not to tell me.

Friendship.

Okay max is still a little bit nutty but you gotta feel bad for the guy. He must’ve been so scared.

Don’t smile that’s not cute, if he was a regular boy you’d file a restraining order.

Oh I see Spider-Man is gonna fight him which will make him turn and become the “bad guy” whether he will actually be a bad guy is still unknown.

This scene is actually kinda just making me angry (the time square scene)

Cops suck man. Peter was talking him down just fine.

Did nobody teach these people not to touch metal when there’s electricity about.

Interesting that I didn’t pick up any chemistry from them in the first movie weren’t they an actual couple for a while?

Another good song with an interesting placement

I’m sorry did the caller ID not say Mary Parker? How was it Harry on the phone?

Run Gwen!

This version of Harry is kinda creepy I’m sure the actor is swell but the character is terrifying. Original version Harry was swell whereas the actor is…

“Maybe everyone has a part of themselves they hide” gives him the eye

This movies shorter or at least it feels shorter

An excellent show of what happens when you tell a rich daddy’s boy no for the first time.

This makes me very sad. She’s so excited for the possibility of Oxford.

As much as Harry disturbs me, I want him to burn his entire team.

His daddy really did love him!

I think it’s mostly his eyes, his behaviour can be explained by trauma (why I find Harry creepy)

Okay most of his behaviour. The taking joy in killing people that’s just him being nutty and not a trauma response.

This is fucked up. And where is Peter? he is off chasing a girl who has broken up with him twice now.

PLANES NEED THE POWER!

I really like SpiderAndrew, the movies are fine but as a character I thoroughly enjoy him

Sorcerers apprentice who?

Captain Stacy can’t blame him! She’s clearly stubborn as hell and her own free woman

I quite literally stopped breathing (in reference to the almost plane crash)

Is this why they made it Gwen and not MJ so that he could kill her and be an actual bad guy? From my little knowledge of the comics and what I’ve seen from the movies Harry would never hurt MJ so it had to be someone else important to Peter but not super important to him for him to a real bad guy

I like that Harry actually looks like a goblin.

What was the disease he’s supposed to have?

This poor family. I know I said they gave me bad vibes in the first movie but nobody deserves this.

He looks less like a tool with his suit on…but only slightly less

Baby you better get back behind that baracade!

Nobody talk to me I’m very emotional. This child looks very much like a magical mix of all 3 of my brothers put together and seeing him stand there so brave but so scared is doing something to me.

Final thoughts:

So I think SpiderAndrew might be a close second favourite for me. I like the relationships of the original the most, the comedy of the mcu version the most but this one was like a nice in between. Im a little disappointed there won’t be a third not cos I think I would have enjoyed it just cos the original had 3 movies, the mcu version will have at least 3 movies and this one is left out with 2. Don’t think I would have loved Shailene Woodley as MJ though so I dunno. I think the only thing I would have wanted from a third movie is to know who fedora guy is…and for Peter and May to acknowledge that they both know that he is Spider-Man. Apart from that it was fine and I now feel fully prepared for No Way Home.

[hydroponicjj]

let go

pairing: ricky bowen x reader

word count: 1.7k

warnings: angst (i’ve never written any angst before so, sorry if it sucks)

a/n: this was inspired by the song let go by ark patrol. it’s really popular on tiktok right now so, maybe you’ve heard it. this idea was just something that stumbled in my head while i was trying to sleep. anyway, i hope you like it!

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TO SAY THAT RICKY BOWEN is dealing with a lot right now would be an understatement. His family drama has skyrocketed through the roof in the course of a couple months with his mother moving to Chicago and the shocking news that his parents are getting a divorce. 

That alone could break someone's spirit but, Ricky also had the stress of being the lead in East High’s production of High School Musical. The countless amount of rehearsals after school and the drama that comes with having your ex-girlfriend as your co-star leaves him exhausted when he comes home.

And shit just went from bad to worse.

Over Thanksgiving break, he got into a horrible fight with his ex-girlfriend, Nini while his current girlfriend, (y/n) was just mere feet away. There was no way that she didn’t see the interaction. Ricky feared that she noticed the feelings that the two still inhabited for each other. 

Then, it was revealed that a fire occurred at the school, damaging the theatre. Nothing was left untouched. Costumes, props, everything. So, the musical was canceled.

All of the time, hard work, and energy that was devoted to this production had been thrown away in a matter of seconds.

When he got home that night, Ricky went straight to his room and cried himself to sleep. 

What was he supposed to do? Sure, he could try and convince the others to search for another theatre but nothing good would come out of it. They’d get their hearts shattered and Ricky didn’t know if he could take it.

It felt like someone threw his thoughts in a blender, scrambled them all up, and then poured them back into his head.

His family is falling apart right before his eyes and there is nothing he can do about it. He has the best girlfriend that anyone could ask for. (Y/N) is beautiful, kind, intelligent, and she makes him very happy. But for some reason, she doesn’t plague his mind like Nini does. Last but not least, something he was so passionate about was ripped away from him.

His heart was slowly falling out of his chest and everyone around him doesn’t even know.

                                [ ₊˚.༄ ]

“Hey, Ricky,” You paused, inhaling deeply.

“I’m calling because I know that you’re really sad about everything with the musical and I just want to make sure you’re okay since we haven’t talked in a little bit. I’m at the store picking up a few things but, I was gonna stop by your place after. You don’t have to call me back or anything. I love you.” You finished, shoving your phone into your back pocket.

You watched as the person in front of you paid for their items and exited the store. Inching forward, you began to place the items that lay in your cart on the conveyer belt. A plethora of snacks, board games, and movies for Ricky. 

You were buying all of these things with only one intention. So you could watch as his eyes lit up and see that big smile that you know and love appear on his face. 

It hurt your heart to know that he was upset. All you wanted to do was make him feel better and you would spend your entire paycheck on him if that’s what it took.

“Ma’am, your total will be 47.68,” The female on the other side of the counter smiled at you.

You reached into your pocket and handed her your credit card, watching as she swiped it and then proceeded to give it back to you, along with your receipt.

“Have a great rest of your afternoon,” You said as you retrieved your bags and exited the store.

Once you reached your car, you could faintly hear someone calling your name off in the distance. Stopping, you turned around and you saw Nini making her way towards you.

“Hey, (y/n).” She greeted, fidgeting with her fingers.

“Hey, Nini.” You replied, raising your eyebrows. Obviously, it was going to be awkward talking to your boyfriend's ex-girlfriend, even if the two of you didn’t have any bad blood.

“I know this might be a little inappropriate but, I think you should check on Ricky. I called him about an hour ago and he didn’t seem like he was doing too well.” An awkward silence instantly crept between the two of you.

“Wait, you’ve talked to Ricky today?” You asked. You could feel your eyebrows touch your hairline.

“Yeah,” Nini replied, confusion covered her face. 

Of course, she didn’t know what was going on but, you felt like she was taunting you. Like she was rubbing it into your face that he’d answer her calls but not yours.

“I’ve gotta go,” You whispered as you got into your car and drove off, leaving Nini all by herself with no explanation as to why you left as quickly as you did.

You didn’t wanna see Ricky right now but for some reason, you found yourself driving towards his house as if your brain were in autopilot.

What were you gonna say to him? I mean, you couldn’t just scream at him without having some context as to why he wouldn’t answer your calls. You weren’t even mad, just worried about him.

He would always tell you that he didn’t like talking to Nini outside of rehearsal because all she did was remind him of the things he didn’t do right in their relationship so, why was he taking her calls all of a sudden? 

Something was clearly wrong.

When you arrived at his house, you grabbed the groceries from the backseat then trotted up the stairs that lead to his front door. For a second, you contemplating doing this.

What if Ricky told you to go away or that he’d rather be around Nini than you? What if he said the reason that he and Nini were fighting at Thanksgiving was because he didn’t have the guts to break up with you so that he could get back together with her.

This was a terrible idea. What was I thinking? Ricky obviously doesn’t want to talk to you so, don’t bother him.

“(Y/N), what are you doing here?” Speak of the devil.

“Have you uh, have you checked your voicemail?” You stuttered, looking down at the wooden porch that you were currently standing on.

“I haven’t been on my phone all day.” He sighed, fidgeting with the strings of the yellow hoodie he was wearing.

Everything about this interaction felt off. Ricky was standing partially inside while you were on the top step. The physical distance between the two of you didn’t compare to how distant you were emotionally.

Not only that but, Ricky just lied to your face with ease which made you wonder if he had done it before.

“Really?” You paused, “Because I ran into Nini while I was at the grocery store and she said she had talked to you.”

“Yeah, we were just talking about how much it sucks that the musical is off and all of that stuff.” He explained.

“Oh, okay.” You whispered, feeling somewhat guilty for putting him on the spot like that.

“I think you should go home, (y/n). I’m not feeling up for any company today.” He sighed, looking down at the palm of his hands.

“I bought you all of this stuff though. Your favorite snacks, movies and a shit-ton of board games.” You smiled, holding up the bags in your hand.

“Thank you. Maybe you can come over sometime next week but for right now, I just wanna be by myself.” He pushed, starting to grow annoyed with you.

“Hey, what’s going on? You can talk to me.” You said, making your way towards him.

“(Y/N), just go home!” He snapped, causing you to flinch. In your entire 6 months of being together, he had never raised his voice at you. In fact, you two had never gotten into an argument.

“Ricky, I-I don’t understand. We were just fine last week and now, you’re acting as if I’m some leper and you can’t stand to be around me.” You jabbed, getting tired of the games.

“But that’s the thing, (y/n). We weren’t fine last week or the week before that. We were never fine!” He grumbled.

“You act as if we were perfect as if the both of us were happy being in a relationship that was so boring, so dull,” Ricky admitted, you watched as the weight was lifted off of his shoulders.

“You say “was” like we aren’t still in a relationship, Ricky.” You blinked back tears because you knew as soon as one of them fell, you wouldn’t be able to control them. 

“God, you didn't even listen to what I said, (y/n).” He sighed, rubbing his forehead.

"I heard you. As much as I wish I didn’t, I did.” You whispered.

“Let me ask you this,” You paused, “Did you feel this way when you were with Nini?”

“What?” He lifted his head from his hands.

“Did you feel this way when you dated Nini? Would you tell her that you took your relationship as a joke? Everything that you just said to me, would you say it to her?” You deadpanned, making direct eye contact with Ricky.

“(Y/N), I’m sorry. I really am but, I don’t know what to tell you.” Ricky shrugged, “I was in love with Nini, she meant everything to me-”

“And I don’t?” You interrupted, fire burning inside of your chest.

“I-I never said that.” He stuttered, inhaling deeply.

“You didn’t have too.” You sighed, breaking eye contact with Ricky.

“You know what, here’s the groceries that I bought for you. Call Nini, eat the snacks, watch the movies, play the board games, I don’t even fucking care.” You scoff, throwing the bags at his feet, turning around and marching towards your car.

Ricky watched from his porch as you sped off. You didn’t even take a second to look back at him.

He thought that breaking up with you would bring him a sense of relief but, what he was experiencing now was definitely not that.

His heart felt ten pounds heavier, his throat stung and his insides felt empty.

Turns out Ricky had it all backwards, he didn’t need to cut you of of his life, he needed assurance that you’d always be in it.

And he just ruined his one and only chance of that happening.

[mythicaldemigoddess-of-deltarune]

FINALLY Someone Besides Myself (And A Few Other Fans) Stands UP For Steven!

first I want to say that I have decided while I’m talking

my words will be like this.....but when Flowey is talking it be like

This, This Is ME talking.

(Note: of course having Flowey being my Co-Writing with this is for fun too but also talks about something serious too.)

so yeah, so we are gonna share thoughts about the whole Steven Universe Future being hated by some fans, but they don’t have to like it and no one should force them to. 

but this video right here

I had just watched this for the first time today, and I think I will watch part 1 sometime when I can.

but the video is by KiwiQueen 13 over on Youtube.

I'm not sure if they have a tumblr here

BUT here is the name of  the video that has clips of the first series of Steven Universe (with some clips of Steven Universe Future too.)

Scenes That Hit Different After SU: Future.

you realize while watching the video that show clips of Steven’s childhood

that the problem that happens in Steven Universe Future,

ALL STARTED AT THE VERY BEGINNING.

yes there were some good positive sides on how Pearl, Garnet and Amethyst brought him up....but there were obviously some bad sides too.

like it turning out it wasn’t just Greg who neglected Steven.

Amethyst isn’t really like the “Mom” but just seems more like the Older Sister to Steven, who at first started out not being the very comforting type....

like when it shows in the video that she didn’t comfort him when he needed it when he was scared and thought gem-monsters would attack him while he is trying to sleep.  

but over time she did start to be more comforting to him,

and we could see their fusion Smokey Quartz as a Platonic Fusion.

same with his fusions with his Dad, Pearl and Garnet...

or like when it’s just Him, Amethyst, Garnet and Pearl fused as Obsidian.

 the only fusion that Steven had that was NOT just Platonic Love,

was when he fused with Connie and became Stevonnie.  

plus after watching that video, I can see that Connie was in the wrong with how she acted when Steven came home after the trauma he went through with his “Aunts” and with the whole Lars dying and being brought back to life.

even if Steven did act like he was okay and everything was fine,

it wasn’t and it wasn’t fair of Connie to act the way she did....even if she does have a right to her feelings and expressing them.

but she couldn’t see that Steven was hurting and was trying to act like EVERYTHING was fine.

trying to act like everything is fine when it isn’t, can do more harm than good.

instead of asking Steven if he truly was okay, and instead of seeing through his act, she instead took Lion and left.

yes it is good that they ended up making up, but it might not of been 100% the right way....Steven went on a guilt trip and had been waiting for her call and everyone thought it was just the experience he had when he was taken by Homeworld.

if you do watch the video, you will have to pause most of it to read what was wrote that points out some very important stuff.

like the fact that Steven’s Dad and Future Girlfriend were being insensitive by excluding him from the Humans Clubs....

correct, but even if they did do that. they might of not realized how it would effect how Steven would view himself.

like if your Mom makes you feel like your so easy to replace.

 this isn’t really about Toriel (from Undertale)

but I get her actions can be questionable.

but even if Toriel did have her moments where she couldn’t see how bad her ex-husband was hurting, and he might of not truly meant the things he said and was just so angry and sad after what happen to their son and adoptive child.

but the one who might take the rank of worse Mother,

would have to be Rose....

not just to Steven, but also to Spinel too.

yes Rose was doing the whole rebellion thing to save the life that was already living and growing on Earth.

but we have to remember that she wasn’t always going to do that,

not until both Pearl and herself took the walk outside of the Moon Base,

to check out her colony more closely. 

in a way, Rose....back then as “Pink Diamond” and was poofed and then permanently reformed as “Rose Quartz” and it no longer was a disguise.

that time when she realized what was happening,

and wanted to stop it, that was part of her redemption.

yes most of her life as Pink Diamond, she did do some good.

like treating other gems more than just servants and actually treating them equally.

but we have to remember that Pink did have her bad moments too.

and she had destructive powers, and when she wasn’t being unfairly punished by being placed in that tower.

the other times the punishments were justified.

the reason why Homeworld is Broken, like something cracked it.

that was obviously Pink who did that, which might of been from one of her biggest and most dangerous tantrums of all time.

and when Yellow & Blue told her NO, when she asked for a colony....

of course she would still be upset about it....

but when she went to White, we all know how that turned out....

Homeworld might of started to be in it’s current broken form

after Pink got upset when White told her No.

and it was around the same time when Pink Pearl aka Volleyball

but I’m just gonna call her “Lily”, same with me wanting to call Yellow Pearl "Tulip" and Blue Pearl "Violet"  

but yeah, Lily got hurt....really badly.

not just her form but also it caused her trauma and she tried to justify Pink’s actions, saying she didn’t mean to.

but that might only be partly true...

we know that Pink/Rose was both good and bad.

and we know that her actions, as well as Greg, Pearl, Garnet and Amethyst’s actions....had harmed Steven during the start of the series BEFORE Steven Universe Future.

Steven believed that it was his fault that Ruby and Sapphire had split.

you know, un-fused  from Garnet.

but it was never Steven who caused this....

it was his Mom, Rose who caused it.

the first time it happen, Ruby and Sapphire did end up making up.

but only when they started to see how bad it was effecting Steven.

when Parents fight, they don’t know how bad it can effect their child and it might be possible it can make them believe it is them that is the cause of the fighting.

I don’t like it when Ruby and Sapphire are called “Children”

when really they are full grown Gem-Adults and are Married.

I know that some fans do make that mistake at times....but maybe have learned from it.

in a way, Ruby and Sapphire both are Steven’s Moms.

even if he wasn’t born from their gems, they and Garnet

formed a Mother/Son Bond with him and even if she did make some mistakes in the past, she does try her best to be there for him and was there when Steven needed to be shown he wasn’t a Monster and those who love him are sorry for putting him through such a ordeal.

yes Connie was the first to point this out to Greg and every other gem who was present.

but maybe the reason why she finally realized what Steven needed right now,

was because of what happen in the past when he came back from homeworld after being taken and how she acted when he got back, was wrong.

yes she had a right to be upset, but she couldn’t see that he was already hurting and was just trying to act like everything was fine.

the violence and let’s say semi-neglect, that became normalized to Steven.

so much so, when he got older and the negativity became too much,

he had his Pink Out Bursts.

because of how things were in Steven Universe Future,

most fans just gave up watching it.

but they don’t have to start watching it, because that is their choice.

but those who have stuck through all the episodes of Steven Universe Future.

can see that what Steven was going through, was the negative stuff breaking through.

he realized what his Dad did and didn’t do, was wrong.

and I know that some fans started to realize that too.

it was wrong for Greg to not take Steven’s human half into account.

that Greg could of used the Money from the car wash

to pay for Steven’s schooling, like either having him go to school

or get a tutor to teach him at home.

as well as going to the doctor.

but if he didn’t make enough money from the car wash,

he could of did all that when Sourcream’s Bio-Dad came to give him the money he owed him.

but instead of using the money for helping Steven a tutor or for a doctor.

Greg just “treats himself” while still treating his son and Pearl.

even if the episode was still good and it had Greg and Pearl bond.

it can show that what was going on with Greg’s spending the money for just fun, wasn’t right.

yeah you can do that too, but what Greg didn’t do with the money wasn’t right.

Steven was semi-neglected and I don’t think I am the only fan of the show that has come to this realization.

yes some fans have pointed out how Steven was acting in Steven Universe Future was terrible.

but like how that video points out, it all started in the very beginning before Steven Universe Future.

it might be possible through Steven’s life he never fully realized that he was in fact being semi-neglected by not just his own Dad, but by Pearl, Garnet and Amethyst as well.

it might be possible to go throughout your whole life without realizing you have been semi-neglected.

even if you are taken care of, like given food and a home by those who brought you into this world.

there can be different ways you can end up finding out you have been semi-neglected throughout your childhood, even if the ones responsible might of not mean to do that.

  like with my parents....or rather, Asriel’s parents....

I know I am still TECHNICALLY him, but at the same time I’m not.

I’m like.......half of his components. I don’t have his soul, that makes up the very core of his heart.....I only have his memories, which weren’t even mine to begin with.....it’s like part of me is Asriel, while the other part is just Flowey....it’s like-

fusion, yeah I think so too.

this might be a crazy theory, but what if it turned out the tapes that we find in the True Lab hint something.

like what if Papyrus calling Toriel, Asgore’s Clone was true.

and there might be more to the story of the past than we know.

and the Toriel in Deltarune might really be from Undertale Timeline,

and the Toriel who we meet in the start of the Undertale Game,

is really a Clone of Asgore, who was recreated to look a little like his first wife who took their son Asriel to the other world.

this was thanks to Gaster’s machine, it might be possible that Asgore and Toriel did originally come from the Deltarune Timeline.

and went with Gaster to the Undertale Timeline.

and Asriel was born in the Deltarune Timeline.

and at some point in time after Asgore’s Clone Wife Left him....

his original wife, the Original Toriel, came back for him because she missed him and wanted to try to make things work.

this would then have Asgore have the current Royal Scientist

to create another clone, but this time one that looks 100% like him

and would be the King in his place, while he returns to his original home world with his wife.

yeah at first I wanted to talk about Steven Universe, and how I’m happy that someone else had pointed out the obvious about why Steven ends up acting the way he does in Steven Universe Future.

I also want to say, that I’m not sure if it’s just me...

but while re-watching the playthrough trailer for Chapter 2 of Deltarune.

I notice that Toriel looks like a off-white purple type color.

like her fur not seeming as white as it appears in Undertale.

but it just seem like a off-white purple when she entered Kris’s room (well Asriel & Kris’s Room)

I don’t know if the same will be for Asgore in the game,

that his fur might appear a off-white type of color too.

like one it could turn out to be a off-white to yellow or maybe orange...?

I don’t know, but if it stays just white it could hint that the Toriel from Undertale could really be Asgore’s Clone, well maybe.

I mean it turn out the Pie theory was canon.

if you seen that animation on youtube, where Kris said they were gonna eat the whole pie, and then see the trailer for Chapter 2.

you will be happy as I and others, to find out that the Pie Is Canon.

it might be possible that Sans and his brother, are from a Geno-Timeline of Undertale, where it never got a Pacifist or Neutral Run.

and after fixing the machine (that was never meant to be fixed in the first place)

Sans took his brother and anyone else who survived, and left their home alternate universe to go live at the Deltarune Timeline.

while another version of Sans, while at times goes through the Geno Routes,

also went through Pacifist and Neutral Routes.

and never truly went through just the infinity Genocide Runs like the Deltarune-Sans did before moving himself and his brother to the Deltarune Universe.

the Sans that moved to the Deltarune Universe, is perhaps a version that NEVER met Toriel, or at least the Original Her.

he met the Clone, and even befriended the Clone.

but him befriending Kris’s Mom, was the first they ever met.

to some fans, Sans fell in love with Asgore’s Clone who was named after the True-Toriel.

it might be possible that the Asriel that died in the Undertale Timeline,

was a defective clone that Gaster created for the two clones,

who at first couldn’t have children at first.

Gaster perhaps went to the Deltarune Timeline,

and got a piece of Asriel’s fur and went back to the Undertale Timeline

to make the Clone-King & Queen a biological child.

at some point when hearing about Kris,

and seeing how the young Prince was becoming lonely.

Gaster created a Clone of Kris, who would later be named “Frisk”

Gaster then had the human child fall to the underground,

where the Clone-Asriel would then meet them.

this could of been how the original timeline went,

at least until Chara came into the picture.

Chara, might turn out to be the Player inside the game.

when the Players, finish killing everyone in the Underground.

we end up meeting Chara or whoever we name them

if we don’t use the default name.

we think where we are meeting Chara is a empty dark void.

but it turns out, where we are really meeting them.

might really be inside Frisk’s Head.

there can be different theories about who both Frisk and Chara truly are.

like for one, it could of been those two that Gaster was speaking to,

and not Sans and Papyrus. or Sans and Alphys.

the red soul that powers the True Lab, might be the soul of the Original Human Child that fell into the Underground, and when Asriel (who was originally born in Deltarune) was living in Undertale until moving back to Deltarune.

that human child is who he befriends, and those memories are then carried by the Clone-Asriel, and can be tampered with if we rename them.

it might be possible that Asriel and “Chara” didn’t make it too far,

and could of ended up not going through the barrier.

because Clone-Asriel was a unstable clone, he died before even leaving with Chara’s Soul.

it might be possible that everyone’s memories in the Undertale World,

was rewritten by Gaster.

making it so that no one finds out that the Dreemurr Family that was acting rulers, were really clones of the ones who left to go back to their original world.

the Red Soul that was place in Kris’s body, might really be Chara.

and it could turn out that Frisk isn’t a clone of Kris, but could still hold a dark side that ended up corrupting Chara.

in a way, we the Players are Chara too, but at the same time we aren’t.

when Kris throws the red soul in that birdcage, we can still move around....

but only the red soul and not Kris.

this means that the Red Soul (which the trait of is Unknown, and the Determination is only Fanon.)

was us the players the whole time, or at least Chara.

it is possible that Frisk in the Canon and in the Fanon, can be really different from each other.

one, Frisk in most of the Fanon, comes off not just flirty but also a good friend and loving child of Undertale-Toriel.

on the other if we think about it, without us the players and Chara,

Frisk in the Canon of Undertale, is just soulless.

Frisk might of been one of the discarded vessels, like what happens in Deltarune.

I mean that is a possibility.

so if that is true, that would mean that the Frisk that the monsters in the Underground befriend, is really the Player and Chara.

there might be a reason why we are able to name the fallen child from the start of the game, but it turning out we aren’t naming Frisk, we are naming Chara.

Chara is the true hero of the story, the one who truly befriends the Monsters in the Underground.

and it is us the players who help on the outside, who can end up corrupting Chara and even end up letting Frisk get more control with each LV we get.

we can see it like this, when Chara is in full control of Frisk’s body.

they can choose not to kill and choose not to let Frisk take over.

Chara could end up living as “Frisk” if they choose to let everyone be happy on the surface.

even though some of the theories I had talked about that involves Undertale and Deltarune might be wrong.

but at least the whole Pie theory turned out to be canon in Deltarune.

also if you go to the Deltarune.com

and see the countdown until Chapter 2.

you can see that the numbers are shaking.

here is the site

https://deltarune.com/

I’m keeping the tab up and have been keeping it up since last night.

it wont be until tonight, but it will be worth it in the end.

this will be one of the good things to happen this year.

cause ya know with what happen with FNAF....and the two faced humans that Scott trusted with his money, and if he had known that they weren’t as they seemed, I don’t think he would of done it and yet he did get hurt by not just them....but also some journalist who twisted everything.

but I hope the ones who had a hand in making that FNAF Help Wanted,

will be FNAF’s new adoptive owners.

and I think I want to try to keep a eye out on any new news about the FNAF Security Breach.

hopefully it is true that it will still come out.

even after that hot mess.

well we do need some good news in our lives.

and Chapter 2 of Deltarune is the Hero of good news.

it be nice if the fan game that is a AU of a AU

was canon, or maybe like Semi-Canon that takes place in a different timeline to the main one.

I love playing Five Nights Of Flirting, and it took me a few tries to finally romance Chris, cause I didn’t bother to go get the ring first.

I know there is something else I will have to do in order to get the romance ending with Fritz.

it keeps going to the Friend ending.

but I want to try to get all romance endings if I can.

before I go to the true ending.

I can’t help but see Vincent as not being William Afton,

but maybe being his son, and the father of Vincent that appears in the AU-AU FNOF fan game.

is William, and it could be possible that Vincent is the crying child in that world.

that was the first to get into that accident before Mike.

or Vincent could of been the brother of the Crying Child and the Other Brother,

and went to get William before his younger brother got hurt by their shared older brother and his friends.

even if Vincent was originally suppose to be William, before the true name of the purple man was revealed.

Vincent had in a way, became his own person and in the Five Nights Of Flirting Game, ends up being I guess redeemed and shows a gentle side to him.

even if there is that pervy side too.

we can see Vincent’s Father as William Afton,

who had became worse after the death of his daughter, and became a Monster.

or it could turn out that Vincent’s Father could be a Brother of William Afton,

and Vincent could be seen as the Cousin of William’s Three Children.

we can take a different look on how Vincent can be related to William and his three children.

it could turn out they are brothers, and Vincent was the younger brother of William.

but I think I like the idea that Vincent was the son of William Afton.

maybe being the middle child, being maybe a year younger than the older brother who ended up getting their younger brother hurt.

but anyway, back to the whole Steven Universe....

we know that there were some mix feelings about the Steven Universe Future.

some fans didn’t like it, but other fans stuck with it and still liked it even if it did end up showing some dark sides.

but it was necessary because it is linked to the first seasons of Steven Universe.

if you look up the video on Youtube that I had mention,

you will understand that the past of Steven connects to the Steven from the Steven Universe Future.

not everyone has to go watch it, and it is a choice.

but I wont pretend that the clues don’t exist.

just like I’m not gonna pretend that what happen with Cozy Glow, Chrysalis and Tirek was the correct call, I still love MLPFIM.

but I can’t agree with how those three were handled.

and they were made to be Discord’s scapegoats.

just like how the Magic from SVTFOE was made the scapegoats

for Star’s Mom, and I know from remembering how Moon’s face reacted when she made it seem like there was no other way to beat the Solarians.

but really I believe there was a way, but it might be possible that the writers didn’t let it be revealed because it was too dark.

that the only way to return the Solarians (minus Mina.) to normal.

is for the caster of the spell to be “taken out”

meaning in order to undo the Solarian transformation,

and save everyone’s life, and might of saved Quirky’s life if they done it sooner.

was to kill Moon Butterfly.

yes the Magic in the Realm did act as Alternate way to save everyone.

but it was still a scapegoat, because it wasn’t the magic that misused itself.

it was Star’s family that misused it.

and Moon deeply misused it when she not only used it to try to hurt Eclipsa’s daughter, and yet when she got amnesia and ended up lost in the realm of magic.....she made Eclipsa her scapegoat for what happen to her.

she also misused the magic when breaking her promise to Eclipsa

when she got the spell to destroy Toffee, but only end up taking his finger.

she also misused the magic when she created those new Solarian Warriors.

from what we seen of Solaria, it does appear that she had let go of any form of prejudice towards monsters, from how she bonded with Meteora.

we know so far that SVTFOE, MLPFIM and SU had Anti-Hero moments.

where it turn out that Pink Diamond/Rose was a Anti-Hero.

and even Star Butterfly ended up becoming a Anti-Hero.

we still love the shows and the characters, but we can see that there can be moments when the Heroes can end up being both the Heroes and the Villains.

ya know like Negaduck from the Ducktales Reboot.

I do have a theory that Discord, and maybe his family....

use to be the spirits of Harmony for the Original Tree of Harmony

in Equestria I, before the pony tribes cross from their broken disharmony broken icy home (that use to be connected to the hippogriff’s home before their home became a island.)

Discord was perhaps the Element of Magic, or at least the original element of magic.

but once the original tree was destroyed and all that was left was the seed,

which would then be found and taken to the Equestria II, by Starswirl.

Discord was “born”, born from the disharmony that the very pony tribes created when they destroyed their original home.

and took over the lands that belong to Tirek, The Buffalo, The Griffin and even the Changelings who once looked like their reformed selves and only look the way they did when we first see them, is because their Crystal Heart and Crystal Empire was taken over by Earth Ponies.

who would then either be transformed by magic to become Crystal Ponies

or the long exposure to the Changeling’s Crystal Heart, would then cause them to magically evolve from Earth Ponies to Crystal Ponies.

I believe that Canterlot might of been originally home to the Griffins,

during when Celestia and Luna still ruled together.

but after Luna was banished, Celestia took her army and took over the Griffins original home that would later be renamed Canterlot.

I mean why would Celestia have to rule so high up...?

why couldn’t Twilight rule from her new castle in Ponyville?

and why have artifacts that belong to the Dragons, Changelings, Yaks, Hippogriffs and Griffins....?

and remember what Celestia once said before,

that her and her sister are NO LONGER connected to the elements of harmony.

this would mean that she and her sister, wouldn’t be connected to the element of honesty, and while they can be truthful and honest at times when they need to be.

they could still hold lies that they refuse to tell Twilight and her friends.

Sci-Twi Is Best Sparkle-Girl!

yeah even though I still like Twilight, I can’t help but feel that Sci-Twi might be better than her.

plus if they let Cozy, Tirek and Chrysalis end up in the human world

instead of turning them to stone.

I believe that the ones who could of reformed them,

would be the Main 7, well or 10, if you count Vinyl, Wallflower and Trixie. 

Tirek might ended up forming a bond with Human-Fluttershy.

while Cozy forms a bond with Sci-Twi and Sunset, as the two could see her for who she was deep down, past the corrupted side to herself that was possibly born from certain bad influences.

like it could of first started when Discord had Cranky act as one of the substitute teachers....we know that Cranky got Cozy and some other students to wait on him front and back hoof.

plus part of the reasons why Cozy ended up the way she did,

might of been because of the pony versions of the Cutie Mark Crusaders.

who she truly did care for and did fail on purpose just so they could get in,

but seeing how that turned out, she had to go to Starlight to tell the truth and the real reason why she failed even after those three helped her out.

why would she just throw that all away, if it wasn’t Discord corruption of her

or if it was caused by the Cutie Mark Crusaders abandoning Cozy.

I think it is possible that Cozy wanting to get rid of magic, might be from how she was treated in her past like some form of abuse, that was caused by Unicorns misusing their power.

but it could come from Starlight, we know that Starlight has done far worse than Cozy, Chrysalis and Tirek....cause messing up the timelines would be a very big deal.

Midnight Sparkle trying to destroy her world just to get to the magic in Equestria, could be a second level of bad.

while what Starlight did comes in first, but it might be possible that those other timelines that Twilight and Spike went to, still exist.

and when Starlight was reformed, the three of them never truly went back to their original timeline, which is possibly the timeline Cozy Glow really came from.

and it could turn out that Cozy came from the future, and is the true daughter of Cadance and Shinning Armor.

and not being able to take the timeline she followed her Aunt, Uncle and Starlight into....she tried to fix it by not only trying to get rid of the magic,

but also trying to become the Empress.

it is possible that Flurry might really be a Alternate version of Cozy

or she was created from using the essence of Princess Amore,

and maybe even a piece of Shining Armor and Cadance DNA.

but it could turn out that Flurry, could just be her own pony

who might still be  Shining Armor and Cadance’s daughter.

and it could turn out that when they first tried for a child,

it ended up becoming a stillborn, and that is the version of Cozy Glow

that died in the timeline she would then move into and call “Home”

Cozy Glow could end up keeping secret that she came from the Original Timeline that Spike, Twilight and Starlight left behind for good.

Cozy learned about her Aunt from her parents,

who said that one day she was just gone, both her and Spike haven’t been seen since.

Cozy Glow would then end up finding Twilight and Spike in some point in the future, which they ended up going to their home’s future and not just a timeline and Cozy ends up following them.

we know that in a short, Twilight is shown to be scared of ladybugs.

but before her castle shows up, and during when she went to the Human World for the first time to get her crown back from Sunset.

she had showed no signs of being scared of ladybugs.

plus with how many days there are in a year, it is possible that 30 Moons

could be a very long time, while only three or 4 years have past in the world that Sunset now calls home.

it is possible that Sunset was around Apple Bloom, Sweetie Belle and Scootaloo’s ages when she left Equestria. 

we know that so far that while dealing with Equestrian magic,

not once has Sunset and her friends ever banished or turned the corrupted by magic, to stone.

Aria, Sonata and Adagio (who are canonically sisters.)

only got their medallions destroyed, not themselves.

which might of been a good thing, because it is clear that it was what ended up corrupted them....or the ponies that were giving them negative energy.

it is possible that those three were part of a Siren Pony Tribe,

but ended up corrupted because of other ponies negative energies, and they became addicted to it like a drug.

so the sea-dragon like forms they took before, were their corrupted forms.

while the Pony forms with “changeling like wings” were their true forms. 

I can’t wait until the My Little Pony New Generation.

the trailers were pretty good and even if it does have Twilight and her friends cameo as action figures.

it might do better than the last season of MLPFIM.

well the last episode with Luster Dawn was great.

I just can’t agree with the whole Discord getting away with what he did.

it didn’t seem right, and it does seem that Tirek, Chrysalis and Cozy

might suffer from trauma from friendship magic, or at least the Toxic side of it.

we only see them as just the bad guys, the villains.

but they might of never truly been that way at first if it wasn’t for some moment in their lives that caused the dramatic change.

and if things had turned out differently, and Sunset just took her opportunity

went back to Equestria after being beaten by Twilight.

she might of ended up teaming up with Chrysalis, Tirek and Cozy.

and being tricked by Discord and ended up being turned to stone as well.

that would mean that the element of empathy bearer, would be lost for a very long time.

the element of empathy might of only been born in the Human World,

and might not exist in Equestria.

and the element of empathy might be connect to Stygian too.

but anyway I know that not a lot of fans will agree about the whole what happen in Steven Universe Future, was caused by what happen in the original series of Steven Universe and how Steven was brought up.

it is possible it was meant to play out that way,

to show us a negative side that can happen in real life.

through the good and bad times, we had been there to watch it all in Steven Universe and then learn that his problems that started to happen in Steven Universe Future, is connected to the original series and maybe even the Movie.

and I believe it might be possible that Connie realized this when Steven was becoming worse and both she, and everyone needs to really be there for him.

and not act like everything is about them and act like he is always happy when really he’s not.

Steven is part gem, but he is still human.

what he went through in the first series, we should of seen it was gonna have really bad effects in his future when the Steven Universe Future happen.

I happen to like both Steven Universe and Steven Universe Future.

and even the Movie.

and just because we find flaws in the series we love,

doesn’t mean we stop caring and loving the series.

we just find some issues that we take notice of

that seem a bit twisted and notice how characters who are suppose to be on the side of good, can end up taking a dark path and doing more harm than good and not really getting to the root of what is causing the villain to act like a villain the first place.

we know that what Bradford did in Ducktales, was messed up.

but half of his actions were for good reasons.

and the one who made him a villain in the first place, was his own grandmother.

and the reason why he ended up transforming because of that sword,

was because he was hurt inside, and the sword was possibly feeding off his frustration and negativity and maybe starting to corrupt him the more he used it.

I don’t think Webby’s sisters were made from her feathers,

but were made from Scrooge’s and the reason why the Papyrus didn’t-

what does Papyrus have to do with this...? 

why the Papyrus didn’t work for those two, is because it had to be the eldest heir of Scrooge that had to get the Papyrus to appear.

why would Papyrus appear before them....?

is he a summon type monster or something?

remember, when Flowey is speaking the words become bold...

anyway Bradford became the way he is, because of his Grandmother.

of course Ludwig Von Drake would get it wrong and not see why he became the worse, was all because of his Grandmother.

some times there is more to one side, there will always be two sides and at times there can be reasons why villains in a series become villains in the first place.

some are too far gone to be saved or might of been dark from the very start.

while others are tragic villains and might even be Anti-Villians.

anyway even if I know it is possible not everyone will go check out that video that shows the clips of the first series of Steven Universe,

but I hope that some will check it out and if they watched Steven Universe Future too, they might make the connections that the first series was the beginning of it all before it got much worse for Steven in Steven Universe Future.

it will be a while before the new Chapter of Deltarune will be ready to be released.

from what I can tell we got some time to go before it happens, but it will be today or tonight when it does.

so I hope everyone has that site open up

and watching the countdown, or like watching it when they aren’t doing something else on the side.

it’s gonna be hours before it really gets started and I for one can’t wait.

but until it is time, I will do some other stuff too.

also not everyone has to agree about Steven Universe Future,

but I hope some can agree about the problems Steven went through,

all started in the first series and even into the Movie.

which both are still awesome, but if Steven is Sans too

cause the whole Steven Quartz Universe spelling out Sans,

and he might of been reborn as Sans, while Gaster could turn out to be Pink-Steven who then became Sans and Papyrus father, when he had Steven’s Human Soul reborn as a Monster or like split into two souls

that would become Sans and Papyrus.

why didn’t anyone else figure out that Steven Quartz Universe, spelled out Sans....? that is crazy, did no one figure that out first when the whole Steven and Sans being one and same theory first started?! 

anyway like my new tumblr name implies,

it will have Flowey taking some questions, and they are suppose to be living in Deltarune.

even if it isn’t canon, but I like the idea of Flowey ending up in that world.

anyway I at first wanted to share what I found out about Steven,

and that the problems he faced in Steven Universe Future,

was not the first problems he went through but was a breaking point to the problems becoming too much for him.

and it truly started in Steven Universe, the first series.

maybe sometime I can talk more about the whole Steven Universe and Steven Universe Future  another time.

I wonder what a fusion between Steven from Steven Universe Future

and Angel Dust from Hazbin Hotel would be like...? 

what would their fusion be called?

well their fusion might be the platonic.

it might be interesting if it was Sans and Angel fusing.

anyway I am gonna go now, there is a fan art I want to do later that has to do with one of the characters from Helluva Boss.

so see ya later and stay safe everyone.

and remember, it’s Meme or Be Memed.

is that whole Meme or Be Memed, even being used...?

it be interesting if it turns out it is.             

[storiesforallfandoms]

distance ~ cody fern

word count: 1829

request?: yes!

“#7 song prompt with Cody Fern. Or Xavier ?”

description: in which cody and his girlfriend battle a long distance relationship

pairing: cody fern x female!reader

warnings: none really

based on this song

if you’d like to check out my song prompt list thing that i’m doing click here!

masterlist

“This really isn't a relationship you know.”

I turned to glare at my best friend. She simply shrugged at me. “I’m just saying. Waiting around all day for him to call isn’t a relationship.”

“What am I supposed to do, (Y/F/N)?” I asked her. “Just end things with him because his career is taking off? That’s so shitty of me. And I’m not about to ask him to start turning down the roles that Ryan Murphy is offering him? These are the roles of a lifetime, he’s really starting to take off.”

(Y/F/N) shook her head, but knew there was no use talking to me. She was right, there was no use in talking to me. I wasn't about to give up a half a decade relationship because my boyfriend was achieving his dream job in acting.

Cody and I started dating around the time he started getting bigger film and television roles. He had been so excited when he was offered the role in American Crime Story, and I was excited for him. It was a show that already had one really successful season that was produced by Ryan Murphy, who was essentially known for producing some of the most popular shows on television, not to mention paving the way for so many actors to become huge in Hollywood.

After American Crime Story, Cody was cast as the leading role in the eighth season of American Horror Story, and a smaller role in the ninth season, and then a role in the final season of House of Cards. Cody was so happy, and I was happy for him. The only downside was how often he was away from home, which was like 11 months of the year.

I wasn’t famous. Far from it, actually. I had no talents in acting or singing or anything that would make me famous. I was just your normal girl who lived in a normal home and worked a normal job to afford my house, although Cody offered on numerous occasions to pay for our rent fully but I’d never let him do that. With me being stuck at home all the time and Cody gone so often, it put a bit of a strain on our relationship. We only really got to talk twice a day, in the morning and before bed. Sometimes Cody was able to call on his breaks but his breaks usually happened when I was working so I wasn’t able to answer. Our texts were also few and far between, which sucked even more.

But no matter how much the distance sucked, I’d never let that come between us. I loved Cody no matter what, and he loved me. I’d be lost without him.

“I just don’t think it’s fair for you to be here, sitting around all the time waiting for his texts or calls,” (Y/F/N) continued.

I threw my head back and groaned. “Can you give it a rest? You always talk like this. Why can’t you just accept that I’m happy no matter what mine and Cody’s situation is?”

“I just think you deserve a relationship with someone who can be here with you.”

“I’d rather be in a relationship with someone who loves me and who I love than be with someone who the only thing they can give me that Cody can’t is being here with me.” I stood from my spot on her couch. “I’m gonna go home.”

“(Y/N), I’m sorry - ” she started. I held a hand up to cut her off.

“It’s fine. I understand your concern, but I love Cody. I just want people to accept that.”

(Y/F/N) gave me an awkward smile, which I awkwardly returned before saying goodbye and leaving. As I drove home, I couldn’t help but think about how she wasn’t the only one who has made comments about mine and Cody’s long distance. I had heard it a lot from different people in my life; my parents, other friends, even people online - both fans of Cody and just normal people.

I understood that people were worried about me. I had read stories before about people who were cheated on by a significant other due to long distance relationships. But I knew Cody wasn’t like that. We had been together for so long, before he was even famous. He’d never do that to me, I was sure of it.

But it does suck that you essentially spend your days waiting for him to call, something in my mind pointed out as I parked my car.

That’s not all I do, I reminded myself. I work, I relax when I’m not working, I hang out with friends and family. Sure, part of me is waiting for Cody to call, but that’s not all I do.

I sighed heavily. I really needed to stop thinking this way. Everyone was getting to my head. I just wished they’d all stop.

As if he knew I was thinking about him, my phone played Cody’s ringtone. I balanced the phone between my shoulder and my ear as I opened our friend door. “Hey baby.”

“Hello love!” Cody’s excited voice answered. “I can’t talk for long, I’m on a short break. How are you?”

I tried to put on the best fake happy voice as I responded, “I’m great! How are you honey?”

Of course, Cody knew better. “Are you okay, (Y/N)? You don’t sound great.”

I sighed again. “It’s nothing, Co, really. How’s your day? Are you filming the new season of AHS?”

“No, we’re not filming anything right now,” Cody responded. “Something is up, baby, why won’t you tell me?”

I debated on actually telling him. Maybe I should, he’d be able to ease my mind. But what if he didn’t? What if he broke up with me because of it, because he felt the same way or because he thought that’s what I wanted to do? It was such a stupid thing to worry about, why was I even considering it?

Suddenly, Cody said, “Put a pin in it, baby, I gotta go. I’ll call you as soon as I can. I really wanna know what’s wrong.”

As I heard the dial tone I realized that was why I was considering it.

~~~~~~

Hours later, the sun was starting to go down. I was laid on my couch, watching Netflix in the near pitch black. I was so tired I was having trouble keeping my eyes open. Part of me was wondering why I was even staying up, but I knew the answer was because I was waiting for Cody’s call.

I debated on just falling asleep. Staying up was just proving (Y/F/N)’s point, that I all I did was wait around for Cody to call when he wasn’t busy. But I also knew that if Cody called knowing that I was upset about something and I didn’t answer that he’d be worried, and the last thing I wanted to do was worry him too much.

Sleep was starting to win when my phone finally rang again. I picked it up and answered with a sheepish, “Hello?”

“Ah shit, did I wake you?” asked Cody. “I totally forgot how late it is.”

“No, I’ve been awake. Just watching TV,” I responded. “How was your day?”

“Long,” he said. “What’s bothering you, love? I can tell there’s something.”

I sighed heavily and ran my hand through my hair. "It’s nothing, just stupid stuff.”

“If something is bothering you it’s not nothing, and it’s especially not stupid. What’s going on honey?”

I couldn’t help but smile at Cody’s concern. “I was just thinking about...us...and this distance.”

There was a prolonged silence. I immediately regretted my decision in telling him. I was afraid of what his reaction would be - was he going to be upset that I was thinking it? Or angry? What if he was thinking the same thing? What if he breaks up with me right now?

He finally broke the silence when he asked, “Were you...thinking about ending our relationship because of it?”

“No!” I responded. “No, oh my God Cody. I’d never end this, especially not because of that.”

I could hear Cody breathe a sigh of relief. I decided to continue before he could say anything else, “It’s just...(Y/F/N) kinda got into my head today. And it’s not that I don’t want to continue this relationship because I’d never end what we have and I love you so much, but I do miss you a lot and it sucks so bad that I only get to hear from you maybe twice in a day and I see you so little.”

“I know,” Cody said. “I understand. I miss you so much, too. I wish I could be home more often with you.”

“But I don’t want you to give up acting or even take a break,” I continued. “Cause you’re blowing up right now and I’m so goddamn proud of you for it. I’d never ask for you to give any of that up. And I guess that’s just the sort of loop I’m in right now; I miss you but I’d rather you be achieving your dreams than to give them up for me.”

I realized then that I had started crying. I quickly wiped my eyes and tried to keep my voice even so Cody wouldn’t know.

“I get it, baby, I really do,” he told me. “There’s been times where I’ve wanted to invite you to come along on press tours or to set to watch me film for a month or so but I know that I can’t just take you away from your life and that it’s not that simple to just uproot you for months on end.”

I chuckled. “I guess we’re just sorta stuck in the middle then.”

“We are, but you know what? No matter what I’d never change that for the world.”

I smiled to myself. “Neither would I.”

“Hey baby?”

“Yeah Cody?”

“Come answer the door, would you?”

My eyes widened. Without evening hanging up the call, I dropped my phone and raced to our front door. I unlocked the door and swung it open to find Cody standing there, his phone still raised to his ear and his suitcase trailing behind him. He smiled brightly at me and I immediately jumped into his arms.

“What are you doing here?!” I asked.

“We finished filming the new season early and were allowed to come home,” he told me. “I wanted it to be a surprise.”

“Mission accomplished,” I laughed.

I stepped back to let Cody into the house. He closed the door and cupped my face, kissing me deeply. “I love you so much. I’m so happy to have you in my life.”

I giggled. “I love you, too, Cody. No matter how far we are from each other.”

[the-woundupbird]

Hello Dracula Recap 1/4

Okay I will try to organize all my translations and thoughts about the drama into this post so that I can stop info-dumping on my poor friend who has kindly let me go on and on about the show. I’ll post some links to videos so you can watch and understand as I go on with my review/thought dump. 

Essentially it’s three different stories nested into one but the central story is about Anna, an elementary school teacher who has been hiding her 8 year relationship with her girlfriend Sojung from her mother.  The relationship between Anna and her mother is the central source of conflict in the show, more so then the emotional fallout that happens when Sojung breaks up with Anna.

Personally I think the show had if not at least a lesbian writer than some queer women in charge of shaping the show.  People were saying on twitter that it felt too real, almost like a documentary of the painful reality for so many closeted women in South Korea.  To be honest, even as a Korean American I saw so much of my mother and my own relationship with her with regards to my sexuality in the exchanges Anna had with her mother.  

The show begins with Anna and her mother, shaping the major relationship with the show.  Her mother teases her that her face looks bloated and that men care about women’s skin.  Anna straightforwardly says she doesn’t like men and her mother tries to laugh it off but there’s a heaviness to the exchange that is examined later.

In the next scene Anna is at school working as an elementary school teacher.  During break she keeps checking her phone, even contemplating texting the recipient, “Are you busy?”  I was able to pause the show and read some of the earlier messages Anna had sent this person who is revealed to be her girlfriend Sojung and yikes:

Ah… Food? 

You ate and you’re working, right?

 It seems like you’re sleeping. 

Good night.

Busy? I saw you didn’t respond so I’m worried are you sick?

 Okay, I understand. Did you get home? You must be so tired. Get some rest. Sleep well. Did you sleep well?

Anna is stressed because her girlfriend is blowing her off pretty blatantly.  As someone who’s dated in Korea it’s mandatory to be texting every day and even do a phone call.  The level of hands off-ness is a cause for major concern from Anna.  Especially with her girlfriend of 8 years.

When Anna goes to a dinner with her co-workers from school she finally gets a text from Sojung: I have something to tell you.

Anna picks up the phone in an instant and zooms out of the room, ignoring the guy across from her who I totally think was flirting. 

The conversation with Sojung is painful in that it is so evident that Sojung is pulling away and Anna is holding on. 

“It’s me.”

It’s noisy.  Are you outside?

“Yeah I’m at a company dinner.”

Let’s talk later, then.

“No now is fine… I feel like lately I’m the only one chasing after you… I’m the only one trying to hear your voice.”

Did you drink a lot?

“What? No I didn’t drink.”

We said we were gonna meet on Saturday, right? I don’t think I can meet.  Sorry. 

“We haven’t met in almost a month.”

I’m sorry. 

“Why? Why can’t you?”

I’m doing a blind date. My mom is making me.

“With a guy?”

Of course.  With a guy.

“You’re not even gonna lie?”

Anna-ya. I don’t want to hide anymore. 

“Can’t you just lie?”

Let’s talk again tomorrow.

“Sojung-ah!”

Talk to you tomorrow.

And then Anna runs off to chase after her girl, even going to her girlfriend’s house. Quick comment her girlfriend definitely seems well-off.  It sort of makes me wonder how the two of them met.  One person on twitter was musing that maybe instead of being a cc or college couple they met through volunteering and fell in love that way.  Regardless the contrast from an apartment to a house intrigues me because there’s definitely a difference in socio-economic class here.  But I digress.

Anna grabs her phone, after hesitating to rush into Sojung’s house. 

I’m outside your house.  Come down for a sec.

Let’s talk when you’ve calmed down.

Also my parents are home right now.

It can be just for a little.  

Just show me your face.

But Sojung refuses and you have the image of Anna trudging back home.  She sees her mother hugging some man and even though she calls her mother, her call is put on silent and she storms off to go sob at the bus station in frustration.  I want to focus more on Anna but it’s important to note here that her mother sort of chases after men a lot but can’t seem to settle down which is a point of stress for Anna. 

Growing up, Anna struggled to pretend to be happy for her mother meeting new guys and feeling sort of neglected as a result.  All the while Anna puts on a brave face for her mom’s happiness because when she was little Anna’s mother had held her close and whispered “I don’t need anything but Anna. You’re the most precious thing to me.”  The loving words were both a deep compliment but also an unbearable weight on Anna.  It was something that she felt like she had to live by.

This burden only gets worse when Anna was in middle school and was caught presumably kissing or hooking up with her girl friend and got dragged by her gf’s mother to a Catholic church to repent.  

When Anna’s mother is able to pull her out of the church she tells her about how when she was young she also was super obsessed with a girl and she even wrote her letters and followed her around.  “It’ll pass,” she tells Anna. “You’re just young.  Remember when you liked that guy next door? You said you wanted to marry him! So that’s why I’m not even a little worried.”

“But what if it doesn’t pass? What if I stay like this forever?” Anna whispers, staring right at her mother. 

And a world of painful silence is Anna’s answer as her mother just walks away from the question, attempting to forget that the encounter ever happened.  

It flashes forward to high school Anna just watching her mother find a new man and she begins down a journey of hiding her true self to keep things safe for her mother. 

But then things come to a head when Sojung sends Anna a text to break off their relationship:

Actually I’ve been going through a lot lately. Our relationship isn’t like what it used to be. Anna-ya, I don’t want to hurt my parents.  I can’t win.  I can’t throw it away. Let’s end it like this. Thanks for everything. I’ll send your things to you through the mail. It’d be good if you did that too.

Ignoring how that’s probably the coldest thing I’ve ever witnessed in the history of breakups, Anna wonders to herself, will I be okay like this? Later on in episode 2 I think I understand better why Sojung did this but I’ll share my thoughts on the second ep review.

Anna comes home after that devastating day of having her girlfriend of 8 YEARS break up with her to her mother misunderstanding Anna as being upset with her, setting up a ton of Christmas decorations. 

“It’s nice right? My kind daughter, what’s wrong? I don’t like when you’re like this.”

“It’s pretty.” (Yikes at Anna pretending like she isn’t absolutely gutted for the benefit of her mother as per usual in the dynamic)

“I’m going to head in.”

“Are you still mad? You should tell your mom.”

“I’m going to head in.”

“You ah, you were like this when you were little. You were always sulking after it’d all passed.”

“Mom.”

“Isn’t it better to just say it right away and let it all out?”

“Mom.”

“I did this all for you to see! You said you wanted a tree when you were little.”

“Mom, when I was little, when? When I was little, when? And what passed? Nothing’s changed!”

“What didn’t pass?”

… “Christmas didn’t pass.  I’m so tired today.” 

And Anna closes the door and leaves her mother to stare at a picture of her and her daughter together under a Christmas tree.  Personally here I adore the dynamic of Anna just almost barely teasing at the secret the two of them know, her sexuality. But her mother doesn’t quite push her because she’s a little afraid to know.  I’ve had a similar conversation with my own mother and that line between ambiguous and crystal clear is so much harder to parse out than people think.

Anyway I’ll continue this if you guys want but hopefully you like the translation and commentary. Let me know in the replies or my messages if you’d like me to just do straight translation with the clips or continue this style!

[kuuipolove05]

This is a blog entry (that was leaked publicly) posted way back in 2007 or 2008 by someone who had a double date with Zac and Vanessa. Hopefully it’s okay to repost!

Dana is bugging me to post. I'll try my best to write down everything that happened (mostly for you Dana!) As for everyone else who knows nothing about Zac and Vanessa you can enjoy reading my visit. Where do I start?

Jason has mentioned on and off about an old friend that called him. Zac was the name but I never knew it was "the" Zac! Jason has told me that I've seen him before and I'd just ignore the remake because I thought he was teasing me. Later, to find out I have seen him before-- in a movie called "High School Musical." I was able to talk to Jason's mom and she confirmed they use to live around the corner from Zac's family. While talking to my parents about wedding plans, I told them about Jason's old friend. They had never heard of Zac Efron or any of his movies. My little brother on the other hand knew who they were--- the teen "it" couple of Hollywood. Though, he didn't seem interested either. Then I was talking to Dana and she exploded with excitement and told me everything there was about Zac and even more about his girlfriend Vanessa Hudgens.

I was at work when Jason gave me a call and left me a quick message about meeting up at a friend's house for dinner at 7:00. I left work and drove home around 6:00. Right when I got home I saw Jas in the parking lot with a cake and tons of snacks in his hands. We got into his car and drove off. I asked him if we were going to Kel's house. He told me no we're going to Zac's. I laughed and said yeah right! With a smile on his face he told me to wait and see when we get there. My face went blank, I was going to meet a movie star and I was still in my professional work clothes. I demanded that we go back to the house and change. Jas was stubborn and didn't want to turn back around. I was pretty upset at him.

We arrived at an apartment complex that looked more like mini houses or condos. I told Jas I was nervous meeting people I don't know. He told me not to be, Zac was an old friend. They wouldn't want that. I asked him what he meant by they? Vanessa and Zac is what Jas said. He held my hand and we walked toward Zac's place.

Zac opened the door, said "Hey man! how are you?" and gave Jas a big hug. I stood there with a nervous smile. Jas introduced me and I said hi while giving Zac a hug. We walked into his place and I could see Vanessa in the kitchen. She stood there while giving us a nervous smile and wave. Zac introduced everyone. Vanessa seemed really shy and was surprised when I gave her a hug.

Jas asked Zac about a video game and not before long I saw them playing in the living room like kids. I sat there at the dining room table and didn't know what to do. Vanessa talking through the kitchen tried to make conversation with me by asking me if I liked chicken and rice? and I said yes, I love it. She smiled and told me good because that's what we were having for dinner. Jas had put the food that we bought

on the table and I ask Vanessa if I could put the cake and drinks in the fridge. She told me yeah and helped me unload everything. I'll have to admit in a non-gayish way---she is drop-dead gorgeous! A really petty girl. I didn't know anything about her other than the things Dana had told me. I remembered Dana saying something about her album--- to make conversation I lied and told Vanessa that I loved her album even though I've never even heard of it. She smiled and told me "thanks, which song did you like the most?" Quickly, I scrambled with another lie saying that I really liked her first single without even knowing which one it was. She replied by saying " yeah everyone liked that one." I was relieved.

She then wanted to know how Jason and I met and I told her the long story. We talked for awhile. Questions I asked her:

How did you and Zac meet?

She said: I met Zac while making HSM. Zac knew me before by name but not in person.

How long have you been going out?

She said: For awhile. She giggled and told me I don't remember an exact date that's how long it's been. I laughed and told her I don't know the exact day Jas and I started going out either.

I told her I really liked her place. She told me thanks and added that Zac was thinking about moving. I asked her why? she replied by saying that Zac wanted a bigger place. I teased her and said why are you pregnant? and she laughed and said "no! Zac wishes!" I laughed. It was even more funny when I heard Jas yelling from the living room--- Carliy your pregnant? I yelled back no, but Vanessa is! We could hear Zac asking Jason what we were saying and Jason said "Dude, your girl is pregnant." We heard Zac yell "what" That was really funny. Vanessa and I had a good laugh in the kitchen.

A couple of minutes later, we both walked into the living room to tell the guys to come and eat. Both of them acted like they didn't even hear us. They were concentrating on the video game they were playing and there was a lot of friendly cussing going on. The F word mention too many times to count. Vanessa and I stood there watching, waiting for them to finish. Zac grabbed Vanessa's waist making her sit on his lap. Not before long my honey did the same thing. Jas even showed me how to play the game. I'm a really bad player but Vanessa knew how to play it really well. She was beating me.

During dinner, Zac went and slided in a cd and then broke out singing along to K-Ci and JoJo's "All My

Life" song. Zac did a funny dance and then pointed to Vanessa and she joined in singing. They both goofed around with each other. Jas ended up joining in with his funny voice and I couldn't stop laughing. I love K-Ci and JoJo and even watched them in concert when they were really popular.

After dinner, I wanted to help Vanessa clean up. She being a good host told me no, but I insisted. While I was working on the dishes Vanessa left for a second to use the restroom. I felt an arm wrapped around my waist and I turned around and Jas wanted to tell me thank you for helping out. Isn't that cute? We stoled a couple of kisses from each other. Zac walked in asking why were doing dishes? He told us to let him do it later, but we did it anyway---then he told us to get a room. We laughed.

Jas decided to help me clean up while Zac walked out to find where Vanessa was. After we finish we went into the living room to see what was on TV. But then we were wondering what Zac and Vanessa were doing? Jas and I walked into one of the rooms and saw Zac and Vanessa cuddling and kissing each other in front of the closet. Jas yelled out, teasing them to get a room! Zac responded by telling Jas "we're already in a room!" I told Jas Aww--burn! We all laughed. I was amazed at how packed the closet was and I told Vanessa that she had a lot of clothes! Zac teased Vanessa by telling Jas and I, that we should go to Vanessa's house, she has ten thousand closets to hold the rest of her entire collection of clothes. Vanessa nudged Zac and said that it wasn't true. Jas asked Zac where his clothes were--- Zac opened the other side of his closet and he also had a lot of clothes.

We were getting ready to leave and call it a night but Zac mentioned that Jas and him hadn't played the other video game yet. Zac told us that we should just stay the night. Jas looked at me and asked me if I wanted to and I told him I didn't even bring clothes to sleep in. Vanessa told me that she'd lend me some sleeping clothes. We settled and Zac and Jas went out to play another video game. What is it with guys and video games?

Vanessa asked if I wanted to watch a movie with her in the room. I told her sure. We looked around the dvds they had and I noticed the HSM concert. I told her I wanted to watch it because I haven't seen it yet. She smiled and said "okay." While watching Vanessa mention to me that if I got bored we could read magazines or do something else. I looked over to the left of me and saw a table with a couple of magazines on the bottom and on the top of the table was a very cute picture of Zac and Vanessa together. The picture frame was engraved "I'll Love You Forever" and it was beautiful. I really wanted one for a wedding gift and asked her where they had got it. She told me that she didn't know and that Zac gave it to her for Christmas last year. She added that she got 2, the other one was at her house.

We ended up reading magazines. I saw a picture of Vanessa on one of them and told her that I loved her  

dress. They had a picture of her and Zac at the after party for Hairspray. More questions I asked her:

Did the whole HSM gang go?

She said: No, not everyone just me, Ash, and Zac

This magazine says Nikki and Zac are going out together---

She laughed and said: Zac gets linked to every one of his co-stars. It's not even believable if you read the article.

Don't you get mad over the rumors?

She said: No, I try to ignore it. Zac use to get upset but he's learned to ignore it too. None of them have been true.

Her nice iphone started ringing, but she didn't pick up. I later saw her texting and she told me it was one of her friends she met while on the set of HSM2, the person was from Utah or Idaho. One of those states, I couldn't remember which. Or maybe she said that they filmed in Utah but the person was from Idaho or the other way around.

Next, she wanted to know if I liked scary movies. I told her only if I am with someone, I get scared. She said there was this good one that I had to watch with her. We put it in and I was under the covers the whole time. The guys joined us in bed in the middle of the movie. We cuddle with our honeys. Then I fell asleep. I woke up next to Zac's back thinking it was Jason. I touched him and he pointed to where Jas was---he was sleeping on the ground next to the bed. The bed was not big enough for the 4 of us. I went down and cuddled with my hubby and we laid there talking quietly. Then we can heard Vanessa ask Zac if we were awake. Jas answered yes. Zac put on the TV and we were watching CNN.

Zac mentioned if we wanted food, but Jas mentioned that we should get going. We gave them hugs and said our thankyou's. Zac told Jas that it was nice seeing him again and also that I was a keeper. I smiled. Jas told Zac the same thing. Then Vanessa mentioned that she should get going too. Zac told her "I thought you said you were spending the day with me." She answered and said, " I thought you were picking me up later?" Jas and I stood there for a second waiting to see if Vanessa needed a ride home. We ended up taking her home. On the way out Zac and Vanessa hugged each other good bye. As we walked towards the door Zac grabbed Vanessa by the waist and teasing her again told her, "where the

heck is my goodbye kiss?" she giggled, give him a kiss and told him she loved him. He did the same back. Zac asked Vanessa to call him when she got home. Jas teased Zac by telling him that we weren't going to kidnap her or anything. Zac smiled and teased Jas by saying, "Dude if you do there might be a pillow on your face tomorrow." It was an inside joke between them. We all laughed.

On the way to Vanessa's house we heard her song on the radio. I knew it was her song because she yell " oh my gosh, that's my song!" I had heard it before but I didn't know she sung it. Now I know. Jas asked her about her second album and she said that it was in the making process. Jas convinced her to share one of her new songs. She sung a verse and we told her she had a great voice. Then she told us she's wasn't sure if the song was going to make it on her album. She mentioned Zac wrote some of it and she wanted to get it on the album, but at this stage she was unsure. She made Jas drop her off the next street over from her house, she wanted to walk the rest home. She didn't want us to experience paparazzi if there were any at her house. We understood and she gave us a hug and said thank you.

Overall, my thoughts about the Teen Hollywood "it" couple--- they are normal, funny, and really sweet.

[punkscowardschampions]

Gen 4.1 Planning

Libi: Okay, so my basic premise for who Libi is going to be at her core, WOO; I was thinking about how we said that she is Tess' second (lowkey third but I'll let you live gal) chance at 'getting it right' and raising a child well, which, OBVIOUSLY, she's never told or anything but there's an innate pressure in that that you'd know on some level, likewise her mum AND dad died so everyone would be quick with those comparisons always, this family and Liam's mum when that contact is made because her daughter died as well as; Then that made me think of the pressure Ro felt because you know, bad shit happened to Bea (Edie and Liam in this case) and then she got saved by McVickers and felt like she owed everyone to be great and do great things; so my vibe is that BUT COMING FROM A LESS SELFISH, WEIRD, PERFECTIONISM ANGLE soz not soz Ro, we know what you did; I see her being better behaved as she grows up, far more than her parents obviously but lowkey better behaved than any of the mcvickers or cali kids ever were because she thinks everyone deserves that, her not causing any more problems, but again UNLIKE Ro, she wouldn't be different to a degree of not fitting in because she'd make a massive effort to be there for everyone and every event, be likeable and get along with as much of the fam as possible, obviously some of that is natural charm but it's also putting in the time ahem Rosaline; like, she's a people pleaser, to a fault, and all she cares about is making everyone else, Tess, Fearghal, Ali, JJ etc etc, happy and making sure she's being what she thinks they want her to be/need her to be, and like that is what makes her happy because she is doing it out of love and respect not obligation but she doesn't know she's doing it, you know? Again, it's innate, how she is, but that's where the arc can come in, in realising that she goes with what makes everyone else happy, is who they need, but what does SHE want herself, and what does SHE need? A way I thought we could make this a Bobby/Libi storyline if we wanted (but we do not have to) is if she does have feelings for him, could be any point on his timeline gfs and kids wise whatever, but she lets him go and have whatever gf or do whatever thing because she's like that's what he wants he doesn't like me or want me like that etc, because she doesn't let herself want things selfishly or do anything just for herself Bobby: we should totally have them be together as little bubs because they are and it's like a running joke that they are gonna get together/get married like we've lowkey already said but more so but maybe the vibe is he is really shy how he is and lowkey it's like a my sister and me vibe where she does all the talking and socialising for him and like all their friends are joint friends Bobby: not in a creepy Ro and Ali way but Bobby: and we will let you outgrow that sir Libi: it makes sense because obviously we're learning sign language so simply Bobby can't communicate with most kids by himself, that's facts, and it's easier to have another kid help you than Jimmy always being there, or whoever he has helping him at school, you know Bobby: oh snap maybe I flip reverse what I said and Cammie's mum is the deaf one too and the vibe could be that like Libi pushes him to get some deaf friends as they become like tweens/teens so he can communicate himself so he does and does become more outgrowing that way but maybe he lowkey leans too hard into deaf culture for a while there and she feels like pushed out by it because it's something she can't be a part of Libi: ooh yeah, that makes a lot of sense Bobby: it adds something to Cammie's character as well being hearing but having two deaf parents so that's interesting Bobby: and also makes sense why JJ have to help them so much as well as them just being young Libi: right, there's a lot of shit Cammie would have to do from a young age if not for JJ lowkey 'cos it's just easier for a hearing kid than it is a deaf adult in this world Libi: her mum could maybe be more partial for ease but yes Bobby: and like it makes sense that Libi would push her feelings aside when those two grow closer/happen because she'd be like well they're both deaf that's something I can't give him and something I want him to have Libi: exactly, it'd feel really selfish to wreck that even if you didn't have all the ingrained shit she does around it Bobby: and obviously he actually wants to be with her as well but thinks she doesn't want that and before you now it there's baby Cammie so it's like well now I gotta try and make this work because don't wanna be a shit father like I had Libi: oh the drama of it all Libi: love it Libi: and we've not really got (that I can think of) a never mind I'll find someone like you type deal Libi: because usually it's like JUST SAY IT but it actually makes sense here to pine and long but let him go Libi: hence I'm here for it Libi: So, what I'm thinking right now is, that they're like never officially together, like it just keeps being an in-joke kinda vibe and like we're JUST best friends and then kind of like family, but obviously as they get into tween/teen years it's beyond a stage you can pretend you're just a kid playing at being girlfriend and boyfriend and as you said boo, that will coincide with JJ wedding and kids roughly so then it'd be more obvious like it's not going to happen seriously, then she can encourage him to get deaf friends etc, but I feel like he should only meet Cammie's mum just before or at uni (or whatever equivalent he's doing after school) so then it is quick and not like they were even mates before so it's less of a shock for all, you know? Bobby: I totally agree because I strongly pictured him being best man at the JJ wedding (soz Pete) and her being one of the bridesmaids and all the bants that go along with that and them both being SO 😳 Bobby: and yeah he could live the cliché that Jac was mocking and literally get with this girl freshers week I'd believe it Libi: Right? it then mirrors the Jameson/Cammie thing except they literally are just BFFs and there isn't anything going on Libi: there's actually weight to this but we're just like haha no don't be silly Bobby: and we've literally not done that trope with childhood boy girl best friends before really because baze are probably the closest but they were always so clearly in love and refusing to fight it so it's fun Libi: exactly, because unknowingly or otherwise, we're fighting against all the cliches and tropes that come with this family Libi: like I'm going to not do any of those things that caused drama for everyone and this is clearly too close to home, even though I don't think anyone would actually be that bothered, we've just really internalized and gone with it Bobby: like how nobody cares Jac is gay except Jac herself Libi: right Libi: but obviously she's good at keeping this all internal because no one can or is gonna clock it and be like, babe, it's okay Libi: like JJ might be a bit like oop, keeping it in the family but as long as you're both happy they really don't care, and same for mcvickers even if Tess is suspish of everyone that comes into any gal's life 'cos trauma lol Bobby: Bobby wasn't trying to make deaf culture happen for himself but Libi would have been so excited for him to get out there and do it that he would've been excited too and then it is literally like a new world opening up because who has he ever interacted with that's deaf before Bobby: didn't mean to lowkey leave you behind gal but Libi: it's kinda her own fault, not to blame you but clearly literally what we do like okay he's happy now mission accomplished Bobby: and maybe Cammie's mum is like the deaf equivalent of those gays who make it their whole identity so she's really selling it and so he also thinks okay this is who I should be with Libi: we know the vibe, like it's more excusable but still, I get you Libi: I see it Libi: a bit of a baby gay equivalent like go too hard and you're like I need to calm this down Libi: UNRELATED BUT Libi: think it will please you Libi: Jay is born 32 like Bobby, I'm pretty sure, and I thought Libi and her would also make for interesting content because Jay obviously feels she owes a lot to the fam for not being stuck with Chloe etc etc and the very little we did with her gave off a similar energy to me Libi: and she has her commitment issues in relationships because of her mum situation so they can bond over the shit that holds 'em back even though it's different stuff Bobby: and her relationship with Ava being her mum but also not being is something I feel like Libi can relate to because of how she was raised and the Rio and Buster-ness of it all because they wanted to raise her and obvs they wanted to raise Jay for a while there too Bobby: plus all the travelling she does is something that Libi could potentially join her in doing if she needs an escape so that's nice Libi: 100% it makes for a strong friendship there's a lot of parallels if not total similarities Libi: it makes a lot of sense, it's coming together baby Bobby: if you need to get away from seeing Bobby literally playing happy families, I can offer you that gal because I'm gonna have her go to uni/live in new york probably now that Nancy isn't because her face actually did live there idk if they still do or what but Bobby: we know the vibe is that she goes everywhere and can't settle so you'll have lots of chances to run away in a way that won't upset anyone Bobby: and when she gets her man and it works out we could totally coincide that because she can be like if I can do it so can you Libi: a mood a moment Bobby: all I know is Bobby is gonna be more chatty because neither Jimothy or Jesse are so I must but not to Jude levels of !!! Libi: a nice middleground Libi: which is kind of what I see for her honestly Libi: less in your face than 1. we were as a little bub 2. a lot of the fam but still sociable enough that it jives well with most of 'em Bobby: I'm so happy about all of this and honestly Cammie's mum being deaf makes so much sense in terms of what we were already thinking about her being more distant and working a lot Libi: if she doesn't give up the fight, she could be some kind of advocate vibe Libi: 'cos then Cammie can't even call her out really Libi: like soz this is important, maam your child Bobby: exactly what I was thinking we're in sync rn boo Libi: because it all makes sense, you gotta follow one thread and then the story shows itself tbh Libi: because tying in Astrid too, obviously that makes sense because she loses her mum too, and she'd ultimately be a really good influence because after Ro dies Astrid is kind of freed to do whatever she wants for herself Libi: and how much happier it makes her, how much she improves...well Libi: sips tea Bobby: I LOVE THIS Libi: and who else is taking the autistic girl that seriously and letting her teach you things Libi: love that for you Libi: she's living her best life and we can see that Bobby: she can be in their friend group, I'm happy Libi: ALSO, I feel as if she couldn't lie to Astrid Libi: because she says how she sees it bluntly and we're not going to feel comfortable fobbing her off because of that insistence, so that'll be good for you even when we're hiding it from everyone else Libi: everyone else you've just got to be vaguely like oh no no and it's dropped and like okay Bobby: we're gonna get to show so many different sides of Libi, I'm always here for that Bobby: and however far we go down the Astrid and her gf eating disorder rabbit hole, we''ll have Libi not treating her like a kid which is great Libi: yeah, there's loads we can do with the end of gen 4 for them all it's a mood Bobby: okay so what or who would you like to throw Libi at first Libi: that is the question Bobby: just so we know Bobby is going to Trinity and studying Business, Economics and Social Studies (B.E.S.S.) which is business, economics, political science and sociology basically so he can end up working at that advertising place with Jimothy after he has done this 4 years Bobby: Cammie's mum is there doing deaf studies which is also 4 years Libi: do we wanna do a rough timeline for these people mentioned here Libi: Jay born 32, we find out about her when she's 7 in 39 Libi: Bobby is born 32 and comes into the story 38 Libi: Libi is born 34, Edam die 35, we know this situation, is 4 soon to be 5 when she meets Bobby vias JJ Libi: Astrid is born 35 and Ro dies in 44 when Astrid is 9 Libi: JJ can get married 46, so Libi is 12 and Bobby is 14 Libi: doesn't have to be when we intro the deaf friends to the point of exclusion obvs but it's timed so we never have the 'real' relationship chat of it all obvs Libi: so Bobby would go to uni in 50-51 and Camie is born 51 start of 2nd year Libi: that gives us this good 4 year period before uni to play with, then obviously we know the vibe of when she's born and making that work etc Libi: Hmm, I think it would make the most sense to do a gap year then stay local, like that's the ideal Libi: because I really think she'd struggle being away from the fam Libi: but I'm kinda thinking maybe to be cruel she DOES go away because it seems like something the fam are like yay about Libi: 'cos she'd try really, really hard to stay but they should at least notice that and she can transfer for a reprieve Bobby: that's really nice actually Libi: she should do her first year in Liverpool, the rest at Trinity Libi: okay, so film studies, it was only 3 years in Liverpool but we're changing to trinity and you do years 1 and 2 (aka whilst Bobby is still there at least for year 1 but I need to check anyway) there and years 3 and 4 at Columbia uni in new york, aka where Jay is Libi: **remind me to check the times but we need to give him a solid bday and I'm changing hers up too Libi: this is just roughly Libi: but this way we can be cruel with it lol

[theangriestpea]

The Killing Type | Five

Summary: Just when Lavender thought things were going great with Sweet Pea, a new girl comes back to turn to turn their entire relationship upside down. Now they have to navigate a world of drug dealers, rival gangs, and co-parenting. Sequel to Mercy Killing. (links now at the end of chapter)

Rating: Mature // Explicit

Pairings: Sweet Pea x OC // eventual Jughead Jones x OC

Warnings: Smut, restraints, cunnilingus, minor dirty talk, drug mentions, blackmail??

Word Count: 4.8k+

A/N: This shouldn't have taken me two weeks to write but it did. Between work and a bad bought of depression I just don't have much energy to do anything that's not mindless. But regardless I'm super happy with how this chapter came out. It was brought to my attention that links sometimes cause posts to not show up in the tags! Links will be at the bottom of chapters from now on to see if that solves the issue.

Chapter Five : The L Word

Lavender was rubbing her cheeks furiously in an attempt to dry them. She could hear Sweet Pea following her, but simply pretended that he didn’t exist for the moment. She didn’t want to be near him right now, not after everything that had happened since last night.

As soon as she got inside her trailer, she planned on calling Toni and asking if she could spend the night at Thistlehouse. Maybe some girl time would help her clear her head and mend her heart. Also being sandwiched between Toni and Cheryl meant that the likelihood of her having any nightmares was slim. She didn’t want to sleep with Sweet Pea or Fangs this time around, not since they both had spurned her.

She trudged up her front steps and quickly unlocked the door. Once inside, she attempted to slam the door shut but a large hand stopped it from closing. More anger and hurt welled inside of her. Why couldn’t he just give her some fucking space ?

“Sweet Pea, just leave me alo-” She began before he abruptly cut her off.

“I love you.” He said plainly, as if it were nothing. As if it were something he had said a million times before. Her heart twisted painfully in her chest, wrenching itself against her ribcage as it pounded with anxiety. Did he really just…?

She didn’t want to face him, not now. Not after what he had just said. He waited for her to verbally respond, however Lavender’s mouth and throat felt like they were so stuffed with cotton that she couldn’t say anything. Even her tongue felt like sandpaper, pressed against the hard palate of her mouth to keep herself from audibly sobbing again. Why after all this time did he say it? Why did he always pick the absolute worst moment to talk about his feelings? She wanted to scream.

If she had turned to look at him, she would have seen the scared and pained look on his face. The feeling of rejection creeping up his spine as he yearned for her to say something, anything to confirm that she felt the same way. That they meant more to one another than they had ever let on. That this went beyond acquaintanceship, beyond friendship, and beyond sex. There was more to it than that or so he thought…

“Shanna?” His voice cracked, making him flinch at how whiny it sounded. He dreaded for anyone to see or hear him like this. Already he was feeling tortured by showing so much soft emotion, even if it was to his girlfriend. If she had said something back then it wouldn’t be so bad, but her silence was more telling than not.

Lav finally turned to look up at him, her eyes watery again with more tears. She nodded her head and he finally realized she was unable to speak, whether it was due to the vitriol of emotion she was feeling or something else, he wasn’t entirely sure.

Finally after a few tense minutes, she found the ability to speak. “Do you mean that?” She probed, not quite trusting his utterance. Though Sweet Pea was honestly not one to lie about feelings, it was just so new to her to hear this from him. He had mentioned before how he had loved Lily, but he had never used such a word with her in regards to their relationship. It was a dream come true and for that she couldn’t trust the reality of it.

He stared at her, wondering if he could pull up the nerve to say it again. When he found that he couldn’t, he nodded his head numbly with his eyes never leaving hers to let her know that he was being sincere. Lav rubbed her eyes once more, smearing salty tears across her face for the dozenth time.

Should she say it back? She wondered, still finding it hard to even speak. Such a strange cacophony of emotions bundled up inside of her chest. “I…” She muttered, tripping over her own words, “I l-love…” She inhaled sharply, trying to power through it. “I love you too.”

They looked at one another wordlessly, Sweet Pea’s jaw set firmly as he clenched his teeth. All he wanted to do was sweep her up and kiss her, but he wasn’t sure if she would be up for that or not. He didn’t know how triggered she may have been by the Ghoulie from before. But Christ, he just needed to touch her.

Sweet Pea took two broad steps forward and grabbed her by the upper arm to pull her into his chest. Lavender didn’t even bother trying to resist him. She melted into his torso, taking a deep breath to inhale his intoxicating scent. Despite being upset with him, all she wanted to do now was just stay wrapped within his arms, enveloped in the illusion of safety.

She felt his nose nuzzle into the hair on the top of her head, the slow intake of air through his nostrils to take in the smell of her shampoo. He never felt more at home then he did when she was in his arms.

Lavender hadn’t realized how touch starved she was until this very moment. And she knew straight away that it would be difficult for her to let go of him any time soon. Not only that but she wanted more and while she knew he couldn’t resist her, she also wasn’t sure if she should give in to her own desires. He had been a raging asshole after all.

She heard him mumble something into her hair, but was unable to decipher it. “I can’t understand you,” She said, turning her head from out of his jacket so he could hear her.

He let out a small groan before lifting his face off of her scalp. “I said, I’m sorry for what I said at the Wyrm.” She didn’t have to see him to know that his face and neck were flushed red with embarrassment. He always seemed to have an allergic reaction to apologizing. Still, it was amazing that he even said he was sorry as usually he just acted like nothing had ever happened. Maybe he was starting to grow up, even if it was just the tiniest bit.

Her grip around his waist tightened a fraction, pressing her cheek into his sternum in an attempt to keep herself from crying again. The hurt was still so fresh in her mind that despite what she felt was a sincere apology, she still couldn’t help but think of his stinging words. Sweet Pea began to rub her back, sensing that she was on the verge of spilling more tears.

“You’re such an asshole to me.” She huffed out, managing to stop herself from crying. “I don’t understand how you can say you love me after acting like a total jerk.” She attempted to pull away, however Sweet Pea did not allow her to. His grip around her remained vice.

She felt him stiffen uncomfortably against her. “I don’t know how to do this.” He said quietly, almost so low that she didn’t even hear him. “I’ve never felt like this before, okay? I don’t know how to handle it.”

Lav looked up at him, wearing her confusion plainly on her face. “But didn’t you love Lily?” She didn’t understand how he could say he never felt this way when he had mentioned loving her before.

“That was different.” He admitted softly. “You drive me fucking crazy, you know that? I can’t ever stop thinking about you. When I was with Lily, I still thought about fucking other girls. I cared about her and I loved her as a friend, I guess but. The thought to cheat doesn’t even cross my mind with you. I get so freaked out by the way I feel around you that I just fuck it up. Because that’s what I do, Shanna, I fuck everything up. Just look at what I did to Lily.”      

Lavender clung to him, afraid that if she loosened her grip then he’d fall apart right before her eyes. It wasn’t fair that he always had to pick up her pieces when he had his own issues to take care of. Maybe that was one of the points Lily was trying to make during that first week. Lav had never really given him a chance to be vulnerable and at the moment she hated herself for that.

“It’s okay,” She muttered to him. He wouldn’t look directly at her, choosing to stare off at a wall instead. When he didn’t respond or move, she reached up and put a hand on his cheek to force him to look at her. “I mean it, Pea. It’s okay to not understand what you’re feeling. It’s new to me too. I don’t think I’ve ever cared so much about someone before. Not like this.”  

His eyes bore into hers for a tense moment as they stared in silence once again. He dared to lean down and press his lips against hers, which Lavender took in eagerly. She opened her mouth slightly, tongue prodding at his lips in desperation.

Sweet Pea opened his mouth for her, his own tongue reaching out to greet her. They collided, rolling and wrestling. Lav couldn’t help but let out a needy whine as she pressed herself flush against him, wanting more each second that passed.

He backed her up against the nearby wall, hoisting her upwards by grabbing the backs of her thighs. She wrapped her legs around his waist, securing herself against him as they continued their bruising kiss. His hands that were perched on her hips, pushed up her thin tank top. Their lips finally broke apart as he pulled it over her head.

Her bra was quickly discarded next as he wasted no time at all. They had both been wanting this for far too long now and it was all too easy to get caught up in the moment. Daisy wasn’t around,and if Lily dared to come by then Sweet Pea was going to give her a solid piece of his mind.

Sweet Pea was groping both her breasts, making her keen against the wall. His thumbs ran over her nipples, hardening them. Lav grabbed him by the back of the neck and pulled him in for yet another deep kiss, needing something to occupy her mouth to keep her from becoming a moaning broken record.

Lavender pushed off his leather jacket and he happily aided her in shedding it. She enthusiastically unbuttoned his flannel, making quick work of it. Why did he have to wear so many fucking layers?

Finally once his flannel was off, he tore off his undershirt. With his bare chest exposed, Lavender ran her fingernails across his pectorals. The pads of her fingers brushing past his nipples and down his semi-toned stomach. She rolled her hips against him, eager and wanting. He simply wasn’t moving fast enough for her.

Sweet Pea seemed to be ignoring her pleas for more as he continued to manipulate her nipples slowly as they kissed. Lav simply huffed, pulling her mouth away from him so he could see her pout.

“Can’t you let me enjoy getting you off first?” He asked in a threatening tone. “Or do you want my dick that badly?”

Lavender groaned, “You are the worst, stop teasing me!”

“No.” He responded, attacking her neck with his mouth as his hands jerked her skirt upwards so that it was bunched at her waist. His thick fingers caressed her clit through her cotton underwear, making her let out another needy whine.

He pinched the swelling bundle of nerves, earning himself another whimper from her mouth. Sweet Pea pulled away from the wall, causing her to grab onto his shoulders as he carried her into her bedroom.

“You’re not going to fuck me against the wall?” She asked playfully as he rubbed circles around her clit. Her words devolved into a moan towards the end.

“You’d like that, wouldn’t you? You little slut.” He hissed back. While other people absolutely could not call her that word, Sweet Pea definitely could. It was her own way of reclaiming it by telling him to use it. It sent a passionate thrill down her spine.

He dropped her onto the bed, causing her to yelp in surprise. She looked up at him, doe-eyed as he unbuckled his belt and ripped it free from his pants. In one swoop he grabbed both of her wrists, wrapping the leather around them before tying it to the headboard. Lavender was staring at him curiously, wondering where this had come from. He had never restrained her like this before, not that she minded. If she didn’t like it then she’d let him know, though he usually had a way of telling when something made her uncomfortable even more she verbalized it.

When she gave no outward sign of discomfort, he continued by ridding her of the rest of her clothing so that she was totally naked on the bed. He settled between her legs, kissing down her chest as she inhaled sharply with anticipation.

She had noticed that he only went down on her when he felt the occasion was particularly special. If it was a regular quickie then he usually didn’t bother. The action caused a warm feeling to wrap around her as she tried to squirm away from his fanning breath.

Sweet Pea shot her a look telling her to be still as he tightened his grip around her thighs. He attacked her clit with a series of licks and suckling kisses, a finger probing at the entrance to her core. Lav jerked in his grip, whimpering and whining for more as he was doing nothing but tease her with his mouth.

He latched on firmly, sucking hard as he swirled his tongue around her in a quick rhythm that had her quaking in his grip. Two fingers plunged into her wet pussy, curling inside of her before easing out. She couldn’t stop the mewls from coming out or the quiet begs for more. He worked her over, pumping his two digits at an incredibly fast pace as he continued to service her with his tongue. In minutes Lav was pushed over the edge, crying out for him as she pulled at her restraints.

Sweet Pea pulled away from her, pressing the two fingers that had been inside of her into her mouth for her to clean them off. She sucked on them, hollowing out her cheeks as she stared into his dark eyes. Once he was satisfied with her work, he pulled them out and wiped the excess saliva onto the bed sheets.

“Have I ever told you how great your pussy tastes?” He asked in a husky tone as he readied himself between her thighs. Lav shifted her hips to give him more room, spreading her legs as far as she could to get him ample space. There was a raging blush across her cheeks as she shook her head no.

Sweet Pea smirked, tip pressing into her folds but not quite entering her. “You look so pretty with your legs spread out like that, dripping for my cock.” She swallowed thickly, while enjoying the dirty talk she was unable to respond to it. It was still a new thing for her to hear as her other partners had never done it before. Being young and not nearly as experienced did have its downsides. Although if he were honest with her, he loved how flustered it made her.

“Do you want me to fuck you, princess?” He asked, still teasing her with his closeness. She moved her hips, trying to get him to enter her, however he simply pulled back a fraction just to spite her. “Tell me you want me to fuck you.” He growled.

Lavender whined at him pathetically, “Fuck me, Pea, please!” Her face grew a darker shade of red. Sweet Pea merely smirked as he slowly pushed into her, biting back a moan at how tight and slick she was.

She seemed to relax into the bed as he filled her, stretching her walls as he continued to plunge deeper inside of her. She let out a soft, breathy moan and her eyes slid shut so she could focus on the sole feeling of being completed by him.

He moved her legs so that they were flung over his shoulders haphazardly, leaning forward so that they were pressed into her chest. She pouted up at him, wanting him to move his hips to give her arousal some kind of relief. Sweet Pea was giving her a cocky look, knowing exactly what she wanted and purposefully not giving it to her.

“Pea,” She whimpered again, giving him the most desperate facial expression that she could muster. “Please? I love you-”

That seemed to be what he wanted to hear as he suddenly pulled his hips back and snapped them forward. He fell into a heavy rhythm, slamming against her as she moaned helplessly beneath him. Sweet Pea grunted as he bared his weight on his wrists, hands placed on either side of her shoulders.

He moved at a furious pace, pounding into her harder than he ever had before. Lavender couldn’t say anything coherently, simply falling apart as he reduced her into a shapeless mass of pleasure. She felt as if she was wound incredibly tight and he was yanking on the end of her string, daring her to unravel at any moment.

She let out a loud gasp as he adjusted the angle in which he drove into her, hitting deeper than before and making her toes curl with delight. Her stomach felt tense, clenching as she tried to keep herself from exploding too soon.

"Don't hold it back," he growled at her, knowing her body better than she did sometimes. "Come all over my dick, baby girl."

Lav cursed as he picked up speed again, throwing her mercilessly over the edge and into a sea of ecstasy.

Sweet Pea slacked his pace slightly, allowing his rhythm to become sloppy as he chased his own high. In minutes he was releasing inside of her, filling her to the brim with his load.

He gently lifted off of her, unfurling her legs so that she could lay normally. He crashed down beside her after undoing the belt that tied her wrists, pulling her into his chest as they both heaved for air. She nuzzled her nose against his sternum, inhaling the sensual mixture of sweat and sex as he rubbed her back soothingly.

“I love you too,” He mumbled back to her as he drifted into the twilight dimension of sleep.

There was a hard but tentative knock on the door to Sweet Pea’s trailer. Lily managed to gather herself up off the kitchen floor, having been crying there alone for the past ten minutes. Luckily Daisy had placated herself in the living room, playing with a few of the toys that Lavender had bought for her a few days prior.

Lily cleaned herself up the best she could in the time it took for her to open the door, finding the next in line for Serpent King standing there looking bashful. As if he knew something that he shouldn’t.

“Hey,” He said softly, scratching the back of his neck awkwardly, “can we talk?”

She bit into her lower lip hard to keep from crying again. She knew exactly what this was about and she really didn’t want to face up to it yet. Ever since she came back she found herself growing closer and closer to Jughead. Her heart seemed to thump loudly in her ears anytime they came into contact with one another. Even passing him in the hallway sometimes left her breathless. She absolutely hated this feeling, as she knew exactly what it meant. It had been similar to what she felt for Sweet Pea some time ago. Only this time it seemed so much worse, and she wasn’t sure why. Maybe it was just post pregnancy hormones raging.

Lily stepped to the side so he could walk in. He brushed past her, not meaning to touch her as he did so. Their arms touched for a split second, leaving a warm and tingling feeling in the joined flesh. Jughead quickly moved away, making a straight line to the couch in order to plop down on it as if he’d had a long and hard day.

He took his beanie off momentarily, running his fingers through his thick locks before roughly pulling it back over them. His hair resettled, framing his face perfectly. Lily gulped as she looked at him in an attempt to settle the uproar of nerves in the pit of her stomach.

She closed the door, locking it out of sheer habit and muscle memory before joining him. She chose to sit in the recliner adjacent to the couch, not wanting to risk visibly showing how much she needed the company right this very moment. Her teeth were clenched, hands balled up on her knees into tiny fists. She looked as if she may snap in two at any second.

“Are you dealing?” Jughead asked finally. The tension in the air seemed to throb painfully as Lily looked away from him and towards her little girl that was jangling  a ring of plastic keys. She really didn’t want to answer him, however she knew that she had no choice but to. She had been caught red handed by Sweet Pea and Lavender the night before. While Lavender had tried to save her, clearly her ex had no intention of just letting this slide. He could be such an insufferable asshole when he wanted to be.

“Yes.” Lily admitted to him, knowing that she’d be unable to lie even if she wanted to. Nausea swept over her and she felt like she may start to puke her feelings out at any moment. She fidgeted with the fraying edges of a hole in the knee of her beat up jeans, hoping the tiny thoughtless movements would keep her sane for just a minute longer.

Jughead let out a stressed sigh, “you know I have to tell my dad, right?” He asked and she nodded numbly. “He wants me to take over when I turn eighteen, says he’s too old to keep doing this shit. So he’s making me handle the younger Serpents for now to learn how to deal with issues like this.

He paused, wanting to ask her for her advice on the situation before realizing that it would be really dumb to do so. Lily was the one to show him around Southside High when he first got there. She taught him all the Serpent Laws and helped him through the trials. He’d be lost right now without her, and yet here he was having to find some kind of fitting punishment for her.

“Is it the money?” He asked quietly, not wanting to offend her. Babies were expensive, he knew that. Maybe he hadn’t been giving her enough jobs to work lately, and the thought of her struggling made him feel incredibly guilty. “Because I can get you more money, Lils-”

“No, Jug.” She replied in a voice that was equally as soft as his. “I’m not getting paid to do it, at least not cash.”

A perplexed look crossed his face, “then why?” He probed, needing to know why she was doing something so risky. If she were caught, then Daisy would likely be taken from her and no one in the gang wanted that.

Lily tensed even more so than she already was. “Please, Jug, just drop it.” She said, her tone becoming more urgent. “I really can’t tell you why. I’m not doing this by choice, alright? I can’t give you any details.”

His eyes darkened. “Is someone blackmailing you?” If someone was threatening to harm her in any way then he needed to know. Not only for her safety, but for Daisy and Sweet Pea’s as well. Although he would totally deny the sheer amount of worry of her being in any kind of danger gave him.

Her mouth turned into a desert. She wasn’t sure if blackmail was truly the right word for what was going on. It wasn’t that the person she was dealing for was threatening to release any information on her, no it wasn’t quite like that. They would just stop helping her with her father’s appeal to turn over the conviction that landed him in jail. She couldn’t afford a defense attorney on her own. The person footing the bill was the one making her do such a risky thing as sell drugs on Ghoulie territory.

All she could do was shake her head at him, “That’s not-” She started before halting. The less he knew the better, or perhaps the less of the truth he knew the better. “Yes, Jug. Someone is blackmailing me and I have to do this, please.” She begged, allowing her eyes to go wide and desperate. “Please, I have to.”

“Law says I have to take your jacket, Lils...I can’t do that.” He admitted to her, unable to tear his blues away from her watery greens. “Do you know who is doing it? Or are they staying anonymous somehow?”

Did she lie again? Could she lie again? Would she just be digging herself into a deeper hole that may just collapse upon her one day and become her grave? “Jughead, I really can’t discuss this with you. Just know that it is not my choice but I have to do this. If I don’t then...then my dad may never get out.” The last part came out in a broken whisper as she choked back a cry for help.

Jughead’s gaze softened, hating seeing her so upset and wanting nothing more than to comfort her. However, he still had a job to do regardless of his feelings. “So they’re helping you get him out? I can help somehow, I’ll find a way, I promise I-”

“Jughead,” She said, shaking her head at him and letting out a small, tired laugh. “You don’t have the resources that this person does. They have money for a good lawyer, the Serpents don’t have that. If you have to take my jacket, then…” She hesitated, not liking what she was about to say, “then do it. My father never wanted this life for me anyway.”

The absolute last thing Jughead wanted to do on this Earth was to take her second skin from her. The thought alone seemed blasphemous. “If I do that, then you won’t be able to make money for Daisy. For now, we’ll keep this on the down low. The longer it takes for my dad to know, the longer I can stall. I don’t want to take away your livelihood, especially when you’re being forced into breaking the code.”

Lily heaved a heavy sigh, “When FP finds out, he’s going to murder you.”

A smile broke across his sullen face, “then who’d take over? Sweet Pea? Can you imagine?”

They both devolved into laughter, the air around them lightening. After a few moments, they stopped and fell into silence once more. At least this time it was less intense. “Promise me something, Lily.” Jughead said finally after he noticed her shoulders drop.

She looked up at him, eyes connecting once more. “What is it?” She asked, wondering what else he could possibly need from her. The seriousness on his face was causing her anxiety to ramp up again, the dial turning up all the way to eleven.

“If you’re ever in any danger, you’ll come to me and tell me?” He said gently, not wanting to further unnerve her. “I will do whatever in my power to help you. I won’t let anything happen to you. So please, it doesn’t matter what time of day it is or where I’m at, just tell me if you need my help. I’ll come running. Can you promise me that?”

A half dozen stray tears suddenly fell from her eyes, unable to hold them back at the sweet sentiment of him wanting to protect her. Even if it was just because he was her leader, even if it was just because they were such good friends, even if the reason wasn’t because he was infatuated with her as she so damn wished he was.

She wiped her cheeks with the palms of her hands, smearing the clear liquid across her soft skin. “I promise, Jug.” She mumbled, seemingly in pieces but somehow held together at the same time. “I promise.”

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Unrequited Love - Prologue

Topper Fan Fic

Author: I am so excited to post this! This story is written by me and my very good friend Sara ( @sguymon21 )! This is the first time I have ever co-written, and I am so happy that I can write this and post it for you guys to read! We haven’t really established how each chapter is going to work, but I will update you ASAP when we do. For this story, I am writing in Topper’s POV and Sara is writing in Aspen Jane Maybank’s POV. I hope you enjoy and just let me or Sara know if you want to be added to the taglist!

Authors: me and sguymon21

Summary: Topper is in a sturdy relationship with Sarah Cameron, a fellow Kook, or so he thinks. When there is more proof becoming clear that she may be with the Pogue, John B, Topper is left distraught. That is, until he meets Aspen Maybank properly at Midsummer's. They talk for hours, and he feels different around her, comfortable. Is it possible she is the key to fixing his problems?

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Topper’s POV:

Midsummer’s was an annual event that I was more than used to. It’s where my family and our fellow Kooks have a party (except it’s more of an old person’s party, they just stand around and drink wine.) Growing up on Figure Eight, I am used to this sort of thing. I love hanging out with my friends, even more so my girlfriend, Sarah Cameron. 

Sarah was someone who I could trust. I told her everything, and I hoped she told me everything too. I was falling for her, and there was no stopping. I knew I loved her about 2 weeks of us being together, but I never wanted to force her to say it back. I knew that this event was big for our parents and us going together would be a big thing. We were growing up, and starting to decide who we wanted to be with. I knew I wanted to be with Sarah. 

This year, I wore a beige suit with a blue tie and a white shirt to Midsummers. Sarah matched, wearing a while dress, which suited her perfectly, and a flower crown that made her hair look even more soft and comforting. 

I knew something was up immediately when Sarah didn’t come with me to enter the event. It was something we were meant to do together, and she decided to ditch on it. When we were in, though, I noticed Aspen Maybank was there. I always assumed her to be similar to her older brother, JJ. He was idiotic, and started fights all the time. It was annoying, but I did enjoy punching the hell out of him. She wasn’t like him one bit though. She was protective, but never violent. She was the only Pogue I didn’t hate, I don’t know why. 

When she entered, everyone’s eyes were on her. She was wearing a blush pink dress, it was flowing at the bottom. It had flowers sewn on, it was beautiful. Aspen was… 

Everyone seemed to go back to enjoying their time after staring at her. I had just spoken to Sarah about where she was yet she seemed distant. Something was going on, I just couldn’t tell what it was exactly. Aspen was with her friends, but she seemed like the odd one out. I noticed it straight away. 

I walked around, looking for Sarah, looking at all the teens and adults dancing when all of a sudden, I walked into something, actually, someone. I hear them mutter an apology and look down and see Aspen Maybank standing in front of me. She looked like she was lost, sort of upset, I couldn’t tell. I smiled at her. 

“It’s okay.” I say it softly so she knows I’m not trying to cause any trouble. She looks around, I don’t know what for, but then she looks at me sympathetically. 

“Are you okay?” I don’t know why she was so nice to me. 

“I’m fine, don’t worry.” She looks behind me, I think about looking but decide I don’t want to in case she’s looking at one of the Pogues. I don’t want to start anything, not tonight. She motions behind her. 

“If you’re looking for Sarah, I think you just found her.” I turn around and my face drops. Sarah is standing with someone else out by the gazebo. From where I am standing, I can tell that they are extremely close. I turn back around to Aspen and I see her walking off. 

“Aspen.” She looks over her shoulder. 

“Thanks.” I mumble to her. She nods and walks off. I decide to confront Sarah. I immediately thought of when Wheezie told me about John B.

“If you say something, it’ll be like you’re trying to tell her what to do, and then you’ll end up like Denny.” I give Wheezie a confused look. 

“Wait, Denny? What are you talking about? What happened with Denny?” I immediately questioned her. 

“She cheated on him. And the guy before that. You know what that means?” I look out on the water as I realise it. She says it anyway. 

“You're next. You're the next sucker up.” She looks at me with a slight smirk before continuing. 

“You should have seen her flirting with John B this morning.” I snap my head to look at her.

“John- John B? The guy that works on the boat?” I can’t even get your words out because of how much I’m stuttering in shock. John B? Of all people? A dirty Pogue?

I walk over to Sarah and the unknown person at the gazebo. She looks at me and starts to walk towards me as the figure disappears. I met her on the way back in. 

“Hey.” She clears her throat as she speaks. I could tell by the look on her face that I had caught her up to something.

“Sarah, what ya doing out here?”I pull her closer to me by her wrist. I didn’t want her to lie to me. It killed me when she lied to me.

I notice her stuttering as she tries to explain her friend Scarlet had some vodka somewhere. She only ever stutters when she’s lying. I learnt this very early on, I don’t think she realises when she does it though, which means she isn’t aware that I know when she is lying. I can’t believe she would actually lie to me. I thought we told each other everything.

“Oh, really? Scarlet’s…” I can tell something’s wrong. I look at her, concerned, I can feel my eyebrows moving closer together. She fumbled over her words and tried to explain that she was looking, but couldn’t find it.I try to get the truth out of her. I knew she was lying. 

“Is that who you were talking to over there?” I point over at the gazebo. She looks behind her.

“I-I wasn’t talking to anyone.” 

“Was I just seeing things?” I start raising my voice a bit more. Not deliberately, but I am concerned because I can tell she is lying to me. She was acting as if I was crazy.She looks stressed. Wheezie’s words replay in my mind. 

“I saw her flirting with John B earlier.”

Was she talking to John B? 

She brushes her hair back as she claims she was talking to people from the party. She’s stuttering, but this time her breathing has changed. It’s more panicked, and faster. I grab both her wrists and pull her closer to me. I may be mad that she’s lying but I still want to make sure she’s okay. 

“Hey, what's-- what's goin' on? What's goin' on?” I hush my voice. She explains she feels ‘off’. I get this feeling in my stomach that she is lying to me, again so I continue to ask her if she is okay, hoping that she will give up and tell me. I reassure her I don’t want to make a scene and ask her to just tell me the truth. I can feel my blood starting to boil when she looks straight into my eyes and says she is telling the truth. I wish, for once, she would be honest with me. 

“No, cut the shit!” I say it a little bit louder than I had hoped. People were starting to stare and I could see she didn’t like it, but I didn’t care. She looks at me with wide eyes. Did I scare her? My mind fills with thoughts that she is going to break up with me for being like this with her. 

“I-I just can’t handle the constant interrogation, okay?” She speaks in a whisper, trying to make sure no one is able to hear her, or me. She pulls her wrists out from my grasp and walks towards the crowd. I stand there, speechless. I turn around and see there is something going on with the Pogues. I don’t even pay attention until I see Kiara, Pope and JJ run away laughing and screaming, without Aspen.

 I walk towards the front of the house to get air and I see Aspen sitting there on a bench, alone. I sit down next to her.

“Why didn’t you go with your friends?” I ask her and she looks at me. She looks lost, and upset, like she did earlier, but even more so. I assume she watched them leave. She pauses, and then starts talking, and tells me everything. About how she feels like they are all closer than she is, she feels like the odd one out. The whole time I just listen, and try to comfort her every time I see tears form in her eyes. We talk for what feels like forever, but in reality it was only an hour or two. I realized it is getting late, and her dad will probably want her home. 

I asked her if she wanted a ride home, even though deep down I hoped to talk a bit longer. It felt so natural with her, it felt...different. She nods at me and we walk to my car. 

We sit in silence on the ride back. She gives me directions when we are on The Cut, but that is about it. 

We reached her house. She looks at me, all I can do is smile. I had had such a relaxing time, being able to open up to her. I could’ve done it all night. She smiles back, then steps out of the car. I wait until I see her go in, even though I knew I couldn’t have done anything if she didn’t. I sit in the car for a minute before leaving the driveway. 

Why did it feel so different with her?

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Three of a Kind (1/3)

This is purely for fun, and not real in any way, shape, or form. Please do not post this anywhere else without my permission. If you want to post on your blog, please be cautious when tagging.

Summary: Ronen is polyamorous and in a relationship with his ex co-star Alberto. Then Ronen starts a relationship with his new co-star Rafael.

Rating: M (this part)

Warnings: polyamory, hand jobs, making out, falling in love, sex, threesomes

Note: I’ve been thinking of posting these stories on AO3. I can post anon and still get to see the comments and stuff from them, just my name won’t be attached to it. What do you all think? Keep it on tumblr only? Post on AO3 only? Post on both? Let me know!

Ronen’s always had a lot of love to give. When he was a kid he was hugging everyone; family, friends...strangers. Which is something his parents would frown upon and have to apologize to the person he hugged.

As he got older it turned into having multiple girlfriends. High school was a wild time and he was going from one girl to the next, or if he wasn’t careful he had two girlfriends at once, which never ended well.

When he got out of high school and really out in the world polyamory was thrown around and it kind of stuck. Ronen loved the idea of having multiple partners. He could have a girlfriend and a boyfriend or whatever and his partners were supportive for the most part. There were a couple that didn’t get it no matter how he explained it.

Which led him to dating his co-star, Alberto. They met on the set of Dead of Summer and clicked right away. They had fun on and off set Ronen had told Alberto about being polyamory, the man didn’t blink an eye and just said “Cool...me too.” The show was cancelled after one season they were sad but knew new shows and movies were being sent to them every day. Plus they had each other.

They had their relationship, but would go off into others. Ronen would go back to New York to visit his family and meet someone for the week or so he was there, but come home to Alberto. Alberto in turn had his flings and relationships but Ronen was his number one.

When Alberto started on Station 19 they drifted apart for a while. Ronen was wanting to spread his wings and trying to get a gig. He started dating some girl, who was great, but wasn’t what he wanted. Alberto was busy getting his new show off the ground. He was part of the Shrondaverse now so that meant he was a huge deal. He had ABC and Disney calling him all the time which made Ronen slightly jealous. He was happy for his boyfriend, but at the same time wanted to work as well.

Finally the call came that Ronen was cast in a new show. Ryan Murphy produced, no less. Ronen couldn’t believe he was going to be on a show playing Rob Lowe’s son. He and Alberto celebrated that night with a bottle of champagne. Alberto was so happy for him. 

The producers had him come in for chemistry reads to cast his love interest. There were a couple of guys that were good, but when the last guy walked in, Rafael something, his heart stopped. He was handsome, musicular, and his smile was bright.

They went through the two scenes together. And the police station scene was just...out of this world. Ronen felt something that he hadn’t felt with the others. There was something there. Rafael left after that and as soon as the door closed Ronen turned to the casting director and went, “That’s him.”

Thankfully the show agreed and they hired Rafael a week before shooting started. Ronen tells Alberto about Rafael while they’re having dinner that night. His whole face lights up when he talks about him.

“You really like him, huh?” Alberto asks.

“He’s great. New to acting but still. Oh my god, I wish you could’ve seen him,” Ronen replies.

Alberto smiles at his boyfriend, “He sounds wonderful.”

“I can’t wait for you to meet him,” Ronen replies, “Seriously he’s a great guy.”

“All that from a five minute chemistry read?” Alberto teases.

Ronen blushes, “It was really intense. Okay? I haven’t had something like that in a long time.”

“I’m only teasing, baby,” Alberto replies. He takes Ronen’s hand in his, “Also if he’s half as gorgeous as you say I can’t wait to see a photo.”

-----

Once filming starts Ronen doesn’t get to see Rafael for a week. They’re filming so many scenes out of order that it’s hard to get any time to see each other before it’s time to shoot the dance scene. They had a small rehearsal with everyone to learn to two step but Ronen was so caught up in trying to learn the dance they didn’t talk much. Plus Rafael was kind of quiet and stuck to himself while they rehearsed.

The whole cast is on set when Ronen finally gets to talk to Rafael. They’re setting up for the dance scene and the director has them go through the basics of what’s going to happen. Ronen mostly gets to watch before Rafael comes up to him asking to dance. 

“You ready?” Rafael asks.

Ronen looks over at him, “Yeah, hey man. Haven’t seen you since the chemistry read.”

Rafael smiles at him, “It’s been a wild experience. Can’t believe I’m filming with Liv Tyler! And Rob Lowe!” He makes a noise like his head is exploding which makes Ronen smile.

“I feel that,” Ronen replies, “How’s everything else?”

“Good, just taking it all in and learning a lot,” Rafael answers.

“Alright, everyone time to get rolling!” The AD says and everyone moves into their spots.

They film each individual part first first, Ronen and Rafael’s close ups are last. They have fun during the actual dancing part. Rafael gets Ronen to smile as they shimmy together. When the camera isn’t on them Ronen likes to make silly faces at Rafael to get him to laugh, which gets them dirty looks from the AD and tells them more than once to stop. Rafael gets red in the face and apologizes on their behalf.

“Dude,” Ronen whispers, “It’s okay. You don’t have to be all...whatever.”

“I don’t want to be fired before it even begins,” Rafael replies, “This is my first gig and I don’t want it to be my last.”

Ronen shakes his head, “You’re too pretty for it to be your only gig.”

Rafael blushes at the comment.

When they get through the scene and they’re allowed to leave for the night, Ronen throws his arm around Rafael’s shoulders as they walk back to their trailers.

“I can’t wait to film more with you,” Ronen says to the man.

Rafael nods, “I’m looking forward to it.”

“We should hang out sometime. Get to know each other better,’ Ronen says, testing the waters, “I mean we’re going to be on camera making out and stuff so might as well get used to each other.”

“I wouldn’t mind that,” Rafael agrees, “Um, do you want to hang out tonight? I don’t really have anywhere to be.”

Ronen’s about to answer when his phone rings. On the screen is a picture of Alberto, he almost lets it go to voicemail but if his boyfriend is calling him this late when he knows they’re both filming it must be something important.

“Uh, let me get back to you,” Ronen answers, “I need to take this call.”

“I’ll be at my trailer,” Rafael says but Ronen’s already turning his back and his phone is at his ear.

“Hey, baby,” Ronen greets, “How are you?”

“I...” Alberto trails off, “I don’t know. Are you almost done for the night?”

“Actually we wrapped up a few minutes ago. Are you okay? Shouldn’t you be filming?” Ronen asks back.

Alberto sniffs, “I...I’m being killed off. They just told me.”

“What? Baby, oh my god. Are you...do want me...” Ronen’s at a loss for words, “I’ll be home soon. Okay? Are you home? Do you need me to come get you at the studio?”

“I’m heading home now,” Alberto replies.

“Are you okay to drive?” Ronen asks.

Alberto sniffs again, “Y-yeah, I’ll be fine. I’ll see you at home.”

Ronen sighs, “I love you. I’ll be home as soon as I can.”

“I love you too,” Alberto replies.

Ronen rushes through getting undressed from his costume and into the clothes he came in. He grabs his keys and is rushing out the door of his trailer when he sees Rafael standing at the bottom of the steps.

“Shit,” Ronen exclaims, “I mean I’m sorry. My, uh, my boyfriend called. Can we reschedule?”

“B-boyfriend? Uh yeah, yeah sure. Is everything okay?” Rafael asks.

Ronen shakes his head, “I can’t say much because he works on another show but he got some bad news. He’s really upset.”

“I’m sorry,” Rafael lamely replies, “Um, I guess I’ll see you tomorrow then?”

Ronen nods, “Yeah, I guess. I am sorry. If he hadn't called...”

“Relationships come first,” Rafael says, “Go, go. I’ll see you in the morning.”

------

At home Ronen finds Alberto with a glass of whiskey in his hand and his face wet from crying. He pulls the man into a hug and lets him cry about how it’s all ending. They both knew it was coming, the way the storylines had been written but it was still hard to see it happen. How he was being shot and killed off. Ronen lets him rant and cry until he falls into a restless sleep.

The next day, Alberto wakes and is melancholy but gets up to start his day. Ronen gives him a blow job in the shower to try to cheer him up, but it does little to help his mood. Ronen says he can call out, see if they can reschedule his scenes but Alberto shakes his head telling him to go to set. There’s no point in making a bad impression when you just started filming. Ronen kisses him with a promise to call later.

On set, Ronen puts on a smile for everyone. Rafael asks about what happened but Ronen shakes his head and just tells him his boyfriend will be alright.

They go through the scene a couple of times, making sure Rafael and Ronen are comfortable with what’s to come. It’s the first sex scene for their characters and it’s hot. A little savage and at the end has them rolling off the couch. Ronen and Rafael work through the roll more than once making sure neither of them gets hurt when they roll onto the mat. Ronen may get a little hard at how close they are.

When action is called the door of the set slams open and they’re making out. Rafael pushes him against the wall and woah, it’s a little harder than Ronen thought but damn if it isn’t hot. They push and pull at each other’s clothes before Ronen’s shirtless and pushed onto the couch. Rafael throws his shirt off and fuck if Ronen wasn’t hard already he would’ve been now. Rafael is a beautiful man and his chest is just so hard.

Rafael moves on top of Ronen and kisses him and just as they’re about to roll onto the floor the director yells, “Cut.”

Rafael pulls his lips off of Ronen’s and with a smile pushes himself off the other man. Ronen smiles back, “That was good.”

“Can’t say I have any complaints myself,” Rafael replies.

“We’re going to go from when Rafael pulls his shirt off,” the AD says, “Ronen stay where you’re at. Rafael shirt back on please.”

Rafael moves off the couch and grabs his shirt from the floor. The wardrobe people come to put it back on to make sure the buttons are still there and it looks the same as before. When everyone is happy with the shot they clear the set and call action again.

Rafael’s shirt comes off again and Ronen’s breath is taken away. Even though he knows it’s coming it’s still a sight to see. Rafael gently falls on top of him and his arm comes up like they rehearsed so they can fall onto the floor. Ronen’s arm goes around the man as they tilt and they fall onto the map.

Ronen laughs once “cut” is called. 

“Oh man that was more fun than the rehearsals,” Ronen says from his position on top of Rafael.

Rafael smiles back up at him, “Can’t say I’m complaining either.”

They have to redo the whole scene a couple of more times before they’re given the okay for lunch. They make their way to the food truck and eat lunch together, laughing and joking. Ronen learns about Rafael immigrating from Brazil when he was a kid and how hard it was. Ronen was younger when he came over to the US from Israel but still knows what it’s like.

They find they have a lot in common and it makes it easier when it’s time to go back to filming. They finish in the early afternoon and have the rest of the day off, so Ronen suggests they hang out for a while.

Rafael agrees and soon both are dressed back into their street clothes and walking out to their cars.

“Wanna come back to my place?” Rafael asks.

“Sure,” Ronen replies without thinking.

Rafael gives him the address of an apartment complex not too far from the studio and Ronen plugs it into Apple Maps, “I’ll meet you there.”

“There’s guest parking,” Rafael replies, “Just follow me and I’ll show you were to go.”

Ronen smiles, “Sounds great. Parking in LA is the worst!”

Rafael laughs, “New York isn’t much better.”

-----

They end up hanging out at Rafael’s and he makes them dinner. Ronen checks in with Alberto a few times to make sure he’s okay and Alberto replies with emojis varying from happy to sad. Ronen asks multiple times if he wants him to come home, but Alberto tells him to have fun. And to use protection which gets an eye roll emoji from Ronen.

As the night winds down and Ronen looks at his phone for the hundredth time Rafael comments on it.

Ronen sighs, “I feel bad having all this fun while Alberto is at home, wallowing.”

Rafael looks at the time on his phone, “It is getting late and I have an early call time tomorrow...”

“I should go,” Ronen says, “I didn’t know you had to go in early.”

Rafael shakes his head and pulls at his wrist stopping the man, “It’s fine. I’m used to late nights and little sleep. All the joys of college life.”

Ronen looks down at Rafael from where he’s standing. Rafael hadn’t let go of his wrist once Ronen had stopped moving. Ronen doesn’t think before he moves into Rafael’s lap and kisses him. Rafael is taken off guard but gets with it pretty quickly.

Rafael pulls back first and pushes at Ronen, “Wait, you have a boyfriend.”

Ronen shrugs, “And?”

“And we shouldn’t be making out on my couch,” Rafael says and pushes Ronen off of him so he’s sat next to him on the couch.

“He won’t mind,” Ronen says, “Honestly, he’s cool with it.”

Rafael looks at him, confused, “He’s fine with you making out with other guys?”

Ronen shrugs, “Something like that. Seriously, he’s cool.”

“I’m not a side piece,” Rafael says, “I don’t do that shit. Ruin relationships or whatever.”

“You’re not,” Ronen replies, “I...I’m poly.”

“Wh-what?” Rafael questions back.

Ronen sighs, “I’m polyamorous. Alberto and I both are. We have our relationship but have other relationships as well. As long as we’re both honest with each other and don’t bring any of it home unless discussed we’re allowed other partners outside of our relationship.”

“Oh,” Rafael replied, “I, uh, I see. And making out with your co-stars is...”

Ronen blushes, “Not something I normally do.”

“And what if said co-star was actually really, really into it,” Rafael teases. His hand coming up to land on Ronen’s thigh.

Ronen smiles at him, “I would say that I can get with the program.”

Rafael moves and presses his mouth to Ronen’s taking the groan that came from the man into his mouth. Ronen’s arms wind their way back around Rafael and pull him down so they’re laying across the couch. Rafael’s hand trails up his thigh and over his hardening cock before moving under his shirt. 

Ronen’s hand trails down Rafael’s back and lands on his ass pushing them together. Rafael’s erection brushes with Ronen’s through their clothes and both moan into each other. Rafael’s hands explore more and he gets his hand down Ronen’s pants to pull at his hard cock. 

Ronen whines into his mouth and pulls away to catch his breath, “Keep doing that...and I’ll come in my pants.”

Rafael laughs into his neck, “That’s the plan.”

Ronen whines when Rafael’s hand twists at the head of his cock. They connect again in a kiss, Rafael dominating it. Ronen’s cries get shorter and shorter the closer he gets to coming and he warns Rafael when he’s about to. Rafael slows his hand making Ronen whine, “P-please, I’m s-so close.”

Rafael pushes Ronen’s pants down so his cock is freed and his hand wraps back around it. He pumps Ronen’s cock and Ronen bites down on his shoulder as he cries out when he comes. Rafael strokes him through it making Ronen whine when it’s too much.

Rafael’s hand moves away and his lips go to peak at Ronen’s. Ronen sighs into the kiss.

“That was...” Ronen says but stops.

Rafael kisses his cheek, “I’m glad you enjoyed it.”

“Give me a minute and I can return the favor,” Ronen says.

Rafael buries his face into Ronen’s neck and shakes his head, “Don’t.”

“What’s that?” Ronen asks.

“I said don’t,” Rafael replies.

“Oh...” Ronen trails off, “I, uh, I okay.”

Rafael kisses his cheek before whispering in his ear, “I already came.”

It takes Ronen a minute to get it, “Oh...OH, wow that’s, okay, wow.”

“I’m so embarrassed,” Rafael says.

Ronen’s hands come up to pull at Rafael’s head and he pulls the other man’s face to his, “It’s actually kind of hot.” And he pulls him down into another kiss.

-----

Ronen leaves Rafael’s with a kiss and a promise to go out again. On the way home, Ronen texts Alberto he’s on his way and Alberto responds with a smiley face and thumbs up emoji. Ronen feels guilty for making out and getting a hadnjob from Rafael when Alberto’s at home, still upset about being killed off. He can’t tell the man what happened without feeling like he failed in some way.

When he gets home he begs off saying he needs a shower before talking and Alberto let’s him go. He takes his time washing up and getting ready for bed before he can’t delay it any longer and he moves into the bedroom where Alberto is laying in their bed, the dogs laying at the foot.

Ronen crawls into his side of the bed and cuddles up to Alberto’s side, “How was your day?”

“Fine, how was work?” Alberto asks.

“We did the sex scene,” Ronen answers, “It was pretty hot.”

“Oh yeah, with your new hunky love interest,” Alberto teases, “What’s his name? Rafael?”

“Yeah, Rafael Silva,” Ronen replies, “He’s great. Moved from Brazil when he was like thirteen or something.”

“Oh, a Brazilian man,” Alberto teases, “Now that’s something I can get behind...or in front of.”

Ronen blushes, “I may have gotten under him.”

“No shit,” Alberto replies, “Bagging another one of your co-stars?”

“Shut up...it’s nothing like that,” Ronen says pushing playfully at the man, “He’s a great guy. So smart. Like it’s mind blowing.”

“Mind Blowing, huh?”

“Oh my God, I hate you!”

Alberto pulls Ronen closer and kisses his cheek, “I’m sorry, babe, but it was right there. I had to say something...seriously though. You know the rules.”

Ronen kisses Alberto’s lips, “You’re the best, you know that?”

[mvllyii]

(  𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓿𝓲𝓼𝓲𝓸𝓷𝓪𝓻𝔂  )  they remind me of 𝒉𝒂𝒏𝒅-𝒌𝒏𝒊𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒔𝒘𝒆𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒔, 𝒂𝒅𝒅𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒉𝒐𝒕 𝒔𝒂𝒖𝒄𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒂𝒍𝒎𝒐𝒔𝒕 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈, 𝒅𝒊𝒓𝒕 & 𝒃𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒅 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒊𝒏𝒔 𝒐𝒏 𝒒𝒖𝒊𝒅𝒅𝒊𝒕𝒄𝒉 𝒖𝒏𝒊𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒎𝒔, 𝒈𝒍𝒂𝒔𝒔𝒆𝒔 & 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒔𝒆 𝒄𝒖𝒓𝒍𝒔 𝒇𝒓𝒂𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒇𝒂𝒄𝒆, 𝒃𝒐𝒕𝒕𝒍𝒆𝒅 𝒖𝒑 𝒆𝒎𝒐𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒉𝒐𝒍𝒅 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒔𝒐 𝒕𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕𝒍𝒚  (  𝒊𝒕’𝒔 𝒐𝒌𝒂𝒚 𝒕𝒐 𝒍𝒆𝒕 𝒈𝒐  )  , 𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒐𝒘𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒅 𝒃𝒂𝒄𝒌 𝒊𝒏 𝒍𝒂𝒖𝒈𝒉𝒕𝒆𝒓. ♛ 》MOLLY WEASLEY II, TWENTY-THREE, has been marked safe after the recent events. SHE/THEY are currently a PROFESSIONAL QUIDDITCH PLAYER (BEATER). to some, they are 𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒑𝒊𝒄𝒂𝒄𝒊𝒐𝒖𝒔 + 𝒛𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒐𝒖𝒔 . for others, 𝒊𝒎𝒑𝒆𝒕𝒖𝒐𝒖𝒔 + 𝒆𝒎𝒐𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒂𝒍. check out her pinterest HERE & her full stats HERE. 

triggers: war, death, anxiety  (  lmk if i missed something !!  )

𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐒 !

FULL NAME molly cassandra weasley  (  ii  ).

MEANING OF NAMES diminutive of mary ; possibly meaning “ sea of bitterness ”  & “ rebelliousness ” & “ wished for child. ” cassandra is greek meaning “ to excel, to shine. ” cassandra was a trojan princess who was given the gift of prophecy by apollo. 

NICKNAMES molls, moll, mo/moe, molly jr, young molly. 

BIRTHDATE + ZODIAC october 25, scorpio.

ETHNICITY iranian & mizrahi jewish, possibly some russian.

HOUSE slytherin  (  secondary being gryffindor???? unsure  )

JOB professional quidditch player.

GENDER IDENTITY + PRONOUNS non-binary + she / they.

SEXUAL/ROMANTIC ORIENTATION bisexual biromantic.

ABILITIES exceptionally gifted on a broom as well as in transfiguration & charms. became an anigmagus during her 5th year. 

GODLY PARENT athena  (  wisdom, warfare, strategy  ).

𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊𝐆𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃 !

sivan najjar and mirza leon were still grieving everyone they had lost, including themselves, when sivan found out she was pregnant. they had just barely survived the war and were still rebuilding themselves - or what was left of themselves when the war ended. sivan was a strong-willed and fierce gryffindor who fought tooth and nail and would rather die than not be part of the battle. mirza was a quiet yet lethal hufflepuff who would do anything for his girlfriend. they both fought in the war and stayed at hogwarts despite, well, everything that was going on. today, they’re in their 40′s, but they were just teenagers when they became pregnant. they went through with it - parts of them wanted to raise this child. a child that was a small amount of joy after the war they thought. but they couldn’t raise this child and especially not when they were still repairing themselves. once the two of them realized this, they quickly found a couple to adopt. maybe this family would be able to give their child everything.

the couple was percy weasley and audrey weasley. they hadn’t planned on adopting so close after the war. they had wanted to adopt, though. they knew that. they were going to wait a few more years once they were more settled, but after filling out paperwork and hearing about sivan and mirza’s story they were sold. 

percy and audrey named their first child molly cassandra weasley ii, after percy’s mother. cassandra is the greek form of KASSANDRA and means “to excel, to shine”. ( also in myth, cassandra was a trojan princess who was given the gift of prophecy. *wiggles eyebrows at lucy* )

molly was always a handful. she had an unlimited amount of energy and was always doing something that annoyed her parents. everytime her parents said something she’d counter with ‘ why? ‘ half because she wanted to know but also for fun. ‘ because i said so ‘ was never a good enough excuse for her either. 

when molly got to hogwarts, she was sorted into slytherin  (  technically the FIRST slytherin the weasley family has had in a long time since her name was called before roxanne’s  ). molly was incredibly proud of her sorting. she had always been overly ambitious and to the extreme, so it wasn’t a surprise that she wasn’t a gryffindor like her father. she truly could have been in any of the houses. she valued loyalty above a lot of things like a hufflepuff - though she was selective about her loyalty, she had a bright mind and would have fit in well with ravenclaw, she valued courage like everyone else in her family and was an incredibly courageous person, but after a minute of deliberation the sorting hat decided on slytherin. molly really excelled in slytherin. she had heard the horror stories about slytherins and how it was a  ‘  bad house  ‘  to be in. how could a house be completely bad? all they did was value ambition. molly was still a clever, creative, loyal + courageous person. 

molly made the quidditch team in her 3rd year as a (  reserve  )  chaser but switched to beater in her 4th year. little did she know that she’d end up with a career in quidditch. molly was never confident in her quidditch abilities, despite how BRILLIANT she was. like many things, quidditch came natural to her. the first time she got on a broom she was six years old and spending the weekend at her aunt ginny’s & uncle harry’s. it was just the two of them throwing apples between them as they flew through the air before anyone else woke up. 

she was also appointed as prefect during her fifth year, which made her parents INCREDIBLY PROUD. she was proud of herself, but not as much as they were. 

molly always wanted to know where she came from. it was a MOSTLY CLOSED ADOPTION. audrey and percy knew of sivan & mirza’s involvement in the war as well as the battle and knew that they had attended hogwarts, but that was all. molly didn’t know her blood status  (  that part wasn’t important  )  but she also didn’t know where her biological parents came from, what houses they were in, if they were as good at quidditch as she was... etc. she never hated them for giving her up, she knew that times were incredibly hard after the war and she was so grateful for her parents and family. molly found her parents at the end of her 7th year, thinking that it would be some kind of  “  healing  “  but it didn’t. she thought it would be this huge step for her and she’d learn who she was by the meeting alone, but it did nothing for her. 

at age sixteen, molly had what most would call a breakdown. she was overwhelmed with fear that the career path she was going towards wasn’t something that she’d like in the long term, or even in the short term. she was so TERRIFIED that she was choosing a simple and structured career because that’s what her parents did and the more she thought about it the more scared she became. molly burned all her internship papers and everything related to the career that she thought she wanted. she should’ve been grateful for the internship at such a young age, that’s what her father told her. he was the main reason why she was able to score the interview and internship so QUICKLY. 

it was like something in molly changed. she changed everything about herself, including her future. she had this sudden realization that everything she was doing and everything she had done was for HER PARENTS and what they expected from her. there wasn’t a single thing she did for herself except for quidditch. they weren’t as into it as she was and the main reason why she kept up with it for so long was because her aunt had always supported her and gave her confidence she needed to continue past the first few years. molly had NO IDEA what she was going to do with her life and she was completely okay with going with the flow and letting things happen. 

she pursued a career in quidditch, she was already one of the BEST on the slytherin quidditch team and was rumored to be taking over as captain, which was simply a rumor. she was more like a co-captain since she was always bugging the captain and had so many ideas of her own that they ended up using. she was simply a pain in the ass. and by her 6th year she was already being scouted by various quidditch teams across europe. she’d never play for someone out of the english league, but they tried. she was supposed to be THE quidditch player to get. the harpies wanted her, puddlmere... the list went on. she turned down the harpies almost right away. while she loved the team and she loved her aunt, she didn’t want to live in the shadow of the GINNY WEASLEY. not after living in her families shadow / legacy for most of her life. 

molly was made HEAD GIRL by mcgongall at the beginning of her 7th year and she couldn’t have been more proud of herself. just like her dad. she wanted to be separate from her father and do things for herself but she ended up being so much more like him. it’s why they’re always arguing, they’re just too similar and always think they’re right and can’t accept being wrong for once. 

molly graduated hogwarts, became a beater for one of the professional quidditch teams, 

𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐘 !

molly is filled with a lot of anger and aggression. she started doing quidditch because it was a good outlet for her to put all of that pent up aggression in. it’s what made her the lethal and terrifying beater she is now. she’s never really felt like she  “  fit in  “  with her family. they all knew who they were and where they came from and molly had no idea. comments about how she’s not technically a weasley made her sad, instead of angry or upset. nowadays, she’d probably punch someone if they said it but as a teen / child she’d just agree with them. and even when she found her birth parents it did nothing to help that hole in her chest. molly is the eldest of audrey & percy’s kids so she has that typical  “  i’m the older sibling so i have a lot on my shoulders and i have to be perfect and if you touch my sibling i’ll literally kill you  “  vibe. less of a perfectionist now but it’s still there. she’s incredibly ambitious, also clever, creative, loyal  (  to a select few  ), brave  (  at times  ). she’s quickly angered and will rely on her fists before her wand. she thinks a punch is more personal. she’s very kind, but again, to a select few. straight forward. doesn’t beat around the bush - unless you’re lucy. you wouldn’t think it but she’s actually quite insecure and doesn’t always or ever know what she’s doing so she’s got a lot of false confidence and always looks like she knows what she doing. she’s very much controlled by her feelings of self doubt as well as feeling like she’s not living up her potential and can always be doing a lot better at everything. 100% ? she’s going for 200%. lots of anxiety, too, because of course a percy kid isn’t complete without overwhelming anxiety and perfectionism. 

[sobdasha]

Speaking of clothing and timelines

I have, apparently, been misunderstanding Yuki's childhood for a long time lol.

(I assumed Akito like, literally painted a room black somewhere adjacent to Akito's rooms and just, y'know, kept Yuki in there, a Rat Room, and I couldn't figure out when or why Yuki at some point might have been moved back home???)

But hey now I know so much more all because I said "I don't even understand Yuki's clothes" and decided, "Takaya probably had it all figured out and I just need it written down to find the pattern."

Anyway here are the results of my research! I have divided Yuki's life into 4 distinct clothing periods.

Living with Akito

Yuki's mom dresses him in a suit to go meet Akito. After that, Yuki wears either kimono or what I'm choosing to call "Kyou clothes," on account of they look like the things Kyou (or young Haru) wears. I'm not sure there's a rhyme or reason for why Yuki is dressed traditional or western clothes on any given day. I also assume the Souma maids were responsible for acquiring Yuki's clothes, what else are maids for clearly.

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Isolation

This is the start of the "pitch dark room" which is, ah, more metaphorical than literal. When Yuki was Akito's live-in playmate, Akito talked about how they were both special and together and awesome. After the rooster hecked things up, when Akito snapped, Akito specifically talks about how Yuki is different and unimportant. Akito separates and isolates Yuki both with those words and also, I think, by literally kicking Yuki back home. I, uh, am now realizing that this is Akito's bedroom, Akito probably didn't do an entire redecorating job with a little pot of ink, and the darkness of Yuki's bedroom back in his parents' house is, y'know, less literal in nature. The reboot anime makes it pretty clear that the "pitch dark room" of Yuki's childhood is identical to Yuki's bedroom at his parents' house, so. Yeah.

(Hey, at least I'm not like the first anime who took one look at the black paint and said "that's a whip right????")

Anyway, this same time marks a shift in Yuki's clothing. He's still got a lot of the "Kyou clothes," and he still occasionally wears kimono, but his wardrobe also now contains more preppy, formal clothes that I'm sure his mom was picking out with Yuki's future status in mind.

Also, now that I'm writing these things down, I suspect this is why Yuki's mom slaps him so hard at New Year's for "embarrassing her" by ditching Akito. I mean, she's terrible, but it seemed a bit over the top for someone who was pretty content to ignore Yuki while things were going her way, and how does she know Akito didn't give Yuki permission to ditch??? But it would make sense if she's still absolutely pissed that Yuki's living with her again, clearly he fell out of favor with Akito, he fucked up his (and her) chances, Yuki should just be so lucky that at least Akito's still interested enough to visit on the regular (for verbal and emotional abuse) but that's not gonna continue if you ruin this by upsetting Akito even further!

I believe we don't really see Yuki in the years between 2nd grade and 9th grade, but all the stuff from 9th grade is the preppier, more formal clothes. I assume once he outgrew the "Kyou" things after being moved back home, he didn't get any more hoodies and cargo-pocket shorts and etc. No clue if Yuki still occasionally had kimono.

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Shigure's house

This is the only period that Yuki wears Chinese-style shirts, in addition to his nice dress shirts.

Also I'm so sad I had this idea in my head that Yuki didn't start wearing sweaters and sweater vests with his uniform until he started copying off Kakeru, but no, he wore them right in like the first or second volume, he just wears them when it's really cold. GDI I thought that was super cute...I'm so sad…

Also tangent like. I'm pretty sure there's a great fic in here somewhere about the time of moving Yuki into Shigure's house. At this point, as far as we know, the only place Yuki goes to is school. In elementary school we saw him get driven; I wouldn't put it past his mom (who wanted him in a better school district, where maybe he couldn't walk to like is supposed to be the norm) to have him be driven to school all the time, to better keep an eye on him. So here comes Yuki to Shigure's house, does that kid even have any furniture, this is a serious question, and he's going to determinedly go to a co-ed school when he doesn't even have practice walking down the street without running into women.

I'm sure it could only help Shigure's interests of ~emotionally distancing Yuki from Akito~ by being like "Haha okay school starts in like, 2 days, son it's time for a crash-course in existing in public and we'll kill two nailing-ur-girlfriend birds with one stone by shopping for furniture and clothes and whatever as well!"

The point being that Yuki, like Machi, presumably has no idea what he likes at this point but he sees some Chinese-style clothes and they are 1) not like what that jerkface Kyou wears and 2) not like the dress shirts his mom/the household staff buy him 3) probably good enough right?? While Shigure has to stand there with, like, a totally straight face, although if he slips up a bit it's probably fine because Yuki's not been exposed to him nearly enough yet to realize what Shigure's like. Because Yuki's seen Ayame like, a handful of times, while Shigure knows full-well that Chinese-inspired-style is Ayame's absolute personal fave, and he's dying. He's dying. This is exactly the sort of entertainment he hoped to be blessed with when he signed up for this. Everything's amazing. Eh yeah I'm sure it's fine, Shigure shrugs, not wanting to appear too eager so that Yuki realizes what's up.

(And then Shigure gives him a whirlwind schooling on pop culture, so that Yuki can be like "Ugh Kyou you uneducated peon, you don't even know who Jason is" while also being "…I've literally never heard of the Power Rangers, is that, like, a thing??")

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Kakeru

This period starts sometime after Sorta Cinderella, and is in play when the whole student council goes out together to that cafe. It's the time that Yuki begins to keep his nails shorter, his clothes change, and Machi notes that Yuki's somehow managed to get character development.

Yuki never wears his Chinese-style shirts again. Instead he wears things that are similar to his preppy/dressy clothes, but more casual. He starts leaving the top button undone. He wears a t shirt under a button front. Yuki used to wear preppy sweaters over dress shirts, but they were always crew neck--now, he wears v-neck sweaters over them. (He does once wear one of his old preppy sweaters one more time and I cringe every time I read that scene, it's so tight, it's so cringy the way the collar sticks out, it's so ill-fitting, I wonder if that's on purpose or if that's because I just don't fashion. It might be on purpose to show he's outgrown it. Oh snap, wait, was that right after the New Year's where he had another big character development?? Is that why??? SYMBOLISM?????)

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Anyway, that's our Takaya-sensei, folks.

[tiny-circus]

1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now? I am confused how someone has stolen my identity and has started making accounts in my name :( so shit.

2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone? No, mornings aren’t good haha

3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care? Yeah weed just makes people so unproductive. It would annoy me. If it was a social thing I wouldn’t mind buttttt would rather they didn’t. 

4: Do you find it easy to trust others? Yeah once the trust is earned or I’ve got to know someone well. Some people are very open and easy to trust 

5: What were you doing at 11PM last night? Watching the Hobbit

6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you?  Probably Steven lol 

7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on? Leave, block, delete and never talk to again. There’s not much you can do when you’ve been cheated on other than pick yourself back up again and have time alone.

8: Are you close with your dad? Not really.

9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right? I did not babes

10: What are you listening to? Just got peep show playing in the background :P

11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it? Tea

12: Do you like hickeys? Hate them. Ew.  

13: What time do you go to bed? Usually 11:30 - 12pm

14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down? No, I don’t tend to stick around when someone continuously does that

15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both? Who cares? XD

16: Do you always answer your texts? Yeah leaving them unread is so annoying

17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for? Nah, hate is a strong word and it happened a long time ago. All water under the bridge now.

18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? An hour or so ago

19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them? Yeeeeeah all my friends do 

20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? Probably something old like “my back still hurts”

21: Is anyone else in the room with you? Nah bare alonez right now

.22: Do you believe what goes around comes around? Yeah

23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now? I’m about the same

24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with? Not really

25: In the past week, have you cried? I shed a little tear reading Kingdom of Ash but I couldn’t have a full on cry in the middle of the train XD 26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing? Red

27: Do people ever call you by your last name? No its so rude when people call someone by their last name. I don’t like it

28: Is anyone ignoring you right now? I dunno?

29: Do you have a best friend? No I’m not 5 30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed? Wouldn’t be hard but I wouldn’t want to see it

31: Who was your last call from? EE - sorting out stupid identity theft shit

32: Are you mad at anyone? I’m a little annoyed. I have a friend that barely contacts me at all (which is fine, we’re all busy and have our lives) but when they do contact me its to talk about their problems that they don’t ever sort out over and over again.  I also don’t think it takes much of their time just to say “hey, what’s up, how’re you?” 

33. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? Yeah I think most people have been a little older

34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday? I don’t know, 29? 35: How many more days until your birthday? I am not counting, soz babe

36: Do you have any summer plans yet? Probably book a holiday to Greece, haven’t thought that far ahead 

37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex? Yes

38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now? I guess I’m keeping my feelings about the friend that barely messages me. I think I’ll have the conversation at some point but they get very anxious and upset whenever I voice a concern.

39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone? Not that I can think of

40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? Probably, some have been so bad XD

41: Do you think age matters in relationships? If you’re both consenting adults and there isn’t some weird power control then I guess its okay

42: Are you available? Available for? ;) 43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended?   Two people

44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get? Lip

45: Do you believe exes can be friends? Yeah I think they can. I think if nothing awful happened and it ends okay, you both need some time apart to get used to having that distance between each other and do your own thing. Once you’re both in the same space mentally it can work.

46: Do you regret anything? Not really

47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now? Thinking about what is on my mind xD

48: Did you ever lose a best friend? I’ve drifted from people, yeah

49: Was your last kiss a mistake? Not a mistake, I liked him at the time but it didn’t work out. Oh well.

50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like? I got over the person I liked cos he didn’t want anything serious. I’ve been single for a while so, I don’t really want to mess around

51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry? No

52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed? Yeah sometimes, mostly just send each other weird memes

53: What was the last thing you ate? Homemade bread

54: Did you get any compliments today? No

55: Where are you going on your next vacation? JAPAN AND SOUTH KOREA :D

56: Do you own anything from other countries? I mean my whole wardrobe is mostly from Japan xD

57: Are most of your friend guys or girls? Half and half, but I’ve always got on better with girls

58: Where have you lived most of your life? Good ol’ Billerz

59: When was the last time you took a long drive? I don’t know

60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle? No I don’t wanna kiss gross people xD

61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house? I’m not American so Idk what that is

62: Who do you text the most? Faun

63: What was the last movie you saw? The Hobbit

64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex? The fact that I don’t have a boyfriend/girlfriend right now xD

65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2010? 1

66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you? No

67: Do you curse around your parents? Yeah

68: Are you happy with where you live? S'ight, three stops from London so I ain’t complaining : P

69. Picture of yourself? Just check my profile lol

70. Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships? I’m 100% monogamous

71. Have you ever been dumped? Yeh

72. What do you most like about making out? It leads to spooning which leads to forking

73. Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with? Ye.

74. When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other? The other, I’ve noticed I’m really bad at initiating anything physical. I get kind of nervous? I’m not really a touchy person haha

75. What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive? The face and hair

76. Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed? Mum 

77. Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour? >___>

78. Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name? >____>

79. What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face? When someone messages me something really sweet, or take the time out of their day just to speak to me. I think a little effort goes a long way

80. Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already? Honestly depends on how strongly I feel about that person. I don’t want to say no because until I’m in the situation I don’t know

81. Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you? Yeah

82. Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush? Noooooooo I don’t tell anyone until I’m actually with that person. Idk I just have this paranoia that voicing my feelings to other people will ruin it or something will go wrong. So I just keep it to myself until things progress between me and the person I like

83. Do you miss your last sweetie? My what?

84. Last time you slow danced with someone? Never xD

85. Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met? No, how does that work?

86. How can I win your heart? Make an effort, sense of humour, be respectful and kind and sociable 

87. What is your astrological sign? Gemini

88. What were you doing last night at 12 AM? Watching peep show and using my massage machine. My back has been in a lot of pain lately. Getting old init xD

89. Do you cook? Yeah gotta to stay alive 8)

90. Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication? Yeah they got in contact with me. To be honest most guys end up getting back in touch, its either for a booty call, cos they’re feeling shit and lonely or they have a lot of apologising to do.

91. If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship? I don’t wish for it, but if it happens then okay :B

92. Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly? I’m not really into modern dating to be honest. I did it for a while and its a lot of effort and not much pay off. People stop talking for no reason or they don’t give a reason even though you get along. Then you need to build it back up again with someone else. I prefer to just get to know someone after time

93. What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest? Dark hair, baby face, nice fashion style, tattoos

94. Name four things that you wish you had: A long 3 month holiday My own house A cute guy to cuddle ;) Aaaand a million pounds yeah 

95. Are you a player? lol no, I’m very direct. Cba with wasting time

96. Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day? Yeah

97. Are you a tease? Again, I’m very direct so if I want something I’ll say

98. Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr? Yeah

99. Have you ever been deeply in love with someone? Yeash

100. Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with? Nah no one is on here lol

101. Hugs or Kisses? Both :'3

102. Are you too shy to ask someone out? Not really

103. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Cute face, dark hair dark eyes ;) 104. Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe? Everyone should be called babe

105. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it? No I wouldn’t even bother speaking to them

106. Do you flirt a lot? Not at all xD 107. Your last kiss? What about it?

108. Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2011? Up until now? Yeah xD

109. Have you kissed anyone in the past month? Yeah 110. If you could kiss anyone who would it be? TOP

111. Do you know who you’ll kiss next? Nope

112. Does someone like you currently? Nah

113. Do you currently have feelings for anyone? Nah

114. Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings? Serious, flings are a waste of time for me 115. Ever made out with just a friend? No thats weird

116. Are you happier single or in a relationship? If the relationship is right, i’ll be happy but Im also happy being single