#brb gonna write a very lovely letter

[iwantflyingpigs]

gojover? check. dazaiover? check. skkover? check.

so... what's next? since apparently we getting all of em in one week. anyone wants to raise?

like plz take me back to haikyuu and blue lock. please. i can't do this. i won't ever make fun of sport animes again i swear.

[spaceprincessem]

💌 sending a (very late) love letter because you have all my love and all my heart and you are so inspiring and talented and wonderful and fun and funny and you always make my day bright and i wouldn't have gotten through this past year, or been able to write anything, if it weren't for you <3 muah, ilysm!

RYAN IM KISSING YOU ON THE MOUTH HI ILYSM 💗💗💗💗

gonna go cry brb. i wouldn't have written like any of my recent fics without you and your support. suffer shame buddys for life 🩵💜❤️ sorry you're stuck with me forever. talking with you, brainrotting with you, and enabling with you is truly the highlight of my day and my life is all the better for it.

thanks for writing the fantasy au for me to become obsessed with so that we could become friends 💖💖💖

[chasingpj]

𝐞𝐱𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬

pairing: leo valdez x gn reader

summary: five ways he says i love you through his actions

warnings: implied nudity and s*x, discusses food and eating and nothing else, i think. oh, and maybe some typos

category: headcanons

love letters/notes

leo is a busy boy

he's always picking up new projects so he can spend all day in his workshop or the forges with his siblings

when you guys live together, he leaves small notes on the refrigerator for you

they're always short, saying simple things like "i love you" and "i miss you already"

for the love letters, he'll leave them in random places for you to find

if you're a big reader, i can see him hiding it between the pages of your book

one day, you pick up your book to read, and the note falls on your lap

it's a love letter written on a piece of blueprint paper; there’s a little bit of oil smudged on the side of it

he got distracted while he was working on something because you were the only thing he could think about

his love letters never fail to make your heart flutter

sometimes they make you cry

he's quite sentimental

leo always tells you he does better writing down his feelings than he is saying it out loud because he can organize his thoughts better

you know that leo has a hard time with that because of how he grew up

when you guys have an argument, which isn't very often, he writes his feelings down on paper

he's always quick to apologize if he did something wrong, and the notes help him form the apology that you deserve, and you're quick to forgive him

once, you were super angry after an argument, so you locked yourself in your shared bedroom

you needed to calm yourself down

the both of you much too angry and stubborn to make a compromise

as your recollecting yourself, 40 minutes in, a folded piece of paper slips from under the door

the letter has teardrop stains, and the ink is slightly smudged

on the paper, it's all his thoughts written out in the best way he can explain them

after reading what he wrote, you quickly deemed that whatever you were fighting about was silly, and you guys made up

you love his spontaneous notes so much that you do them back

you guys have a game of who can find the most creative hiding spot for your notes

one time you found one tapped to the inside of the toilet cover

you found it hilarious

you throw folded post-its with messages in his tool belt

he finds them during the day while he's working on something

after you joined in on the fun, he scatters notes in random places, and every few days, you find a new message hidden somewhere randomly

they're just so sweet; there’s never a time where they don't make you smile

gifts

this is a given

it's not a leo headcanon if gift-giving isn't included

he would make you things like roses from scrap metal to literal furniture

if you have a lot of jewelry, he will make you a cute jewelry box

if you're a big book reader, he'll make you bookcases to support your book collection

he's always giving you little trinkets that he made with leftover materials from projects

he loves making things for you and gets upset when you decide to buy something from ikea instead of asking him

"babe, why would you buy that? I could have just made it for you!"

when he's on his way from returning on his quest, sometimes he'll find something that reminds him of you in a store, and he'll buy it

when he has the money for it, he'd buy you a star :(

says that he spent even more money to buy an extra bright star

because "you're the sun in my universe"

brb gonna cry

also, he'd gift you a bond bracelet

you know, those bracelets where every time you tap on it, it makes the other person's bracelet vibrate

the both of you get anxious when one of you goes on quests, so the bracelets bring the other person who's at home comfort

because when you tap back, at least he knows you're alive and vice versa

one of the best gifts you've ever received from him was your engagement ring

he made it himself

he took so much care and effort into making it

imagine leo forging your wedding ring himself??? i'm in spain with no s

he was so nervous that you wouldn't like the style, so he had piper casually bring it up to you

piper was so nonchalant about it that you didn't even think twice about the question

the ring has the prettiest gemstone or diamond (whatever you prefer)

you cried so hard when he told you he made it himself that you couldn't even say yes to his proposal clearly

he makes both of your wedding bands too

he carves a saying that's dear to the both of you on the inside

this is nothing to do with anything but imagine when you guys have kids, he makes animals out of pipe cleaners for them i'm gonna cry, brb pt 2

overall, whether he makes the present himself or not, he puts a lot of effort and care into it

every gift has a meaning and a place dear to your heart

cooking for you

leo is canoningly a good cook

he loves cooking for you

and you love eating what he makes

he's usually busy on the weekdays, so he cooks on the weekends

you guys always joke that he'd be the cutest househusband

you got him an apron for Christmas as a joke gift one year, and he wears it all the time

there's something so charming about him wearing an apron with a funny saying like "Mr. Good Lookin is Cookin" or with like a ripped out shirtless guy in front of it

you giggle every time you see him wearing it

oh, no matter how many times you've seen it, it's still so bizarre when he takes out hot trays from the oven with his BARE hands

everything he makes tastes amazing

he makes all kinds of food and is always trying something new

if you tell him what you’re craving, he’ll cook it for you

once he woke you up to ask if you wanted ribs… it was 3 am but like, of course, you wanted some

unless you're vegetarian or vegan, sorry, HAHA

often though, he does make Mexican food

it reminds him of when his mom was alive

he always has some story to share

every time he makes caldo de pollo (chicken soup), he always talks about how his mother would make it in the summer and that when he was little, he would always complain about eating hot soup in hot weather

you know he doesn't notice his constant telling of this story, but you don't mind

it's so bittersweet when he talks about his mom

through the cooking of his traditional food, you feel closer to him and his late mother

the memories he shares with you makes your eyes sting with tears

especially when leo says how much he wishes that esperanza could have met you

sorry, that was a little emo

also, leo usually wakes up earlier than you

he knows you're a sleepyhead, so he'll cook breakfast for you

so that when you're running around in the morning trying to get dressed and your things together

you never leave the house hungry because there's always a tupperware filled with breakfast, and if he has enough time, he'll fix you something to take for lunch too

if you come home late from work or school, he'll make dinner even if he's tired to surprise you

so many times you've come home from a shitty day at work or school, and the small table where you guys eat your meals is all set up with your favorite food

leo greets you by peeking his head into the hallway from the kitchen, tossed curls, cheerful brown eyes, and a bright grin

"I hope you're hungry," he says, despite knowing that you are hungry

and then you guys talk and laugh together over a delicious meal

compliments

leo's really observant

he notices when you’re in a bad mood, even if you try not to show it

he also notices when you change little things about your appearance

if you get a haircut or you get your nails done, he'll comment on it right away

especially outfits

if you buy something new, he'll complement it

imagine standing in front of the mirror, looking at yourself in your new outfit

leo comes behind you, his hands coming around your waist

he'll pepper kisses on your neck, a soft hum leaving his lips as he meets your eyes in the mirror

"is this new, mi amor?" he asks, hands running up your sides

once you affirm that it is a new dress or shirt, he'll smile and tell you how beautiful you look in it

maybe says he'd rather see it off of you wink wink

there's never a day where he doesn't compliment you

he thinks you're the prettiest person in the world

you've caught him staring at you lovingly plenty of times

he's just asking himself how did he manage to get someone as beautiful and amazing as you

you always squirm under his gaze and playfully ask what is he looking at

"you're so pretty, mi amor. I can't help it."

AHHH!!!!

alongside the endearment of mi amor, he'd always call you bonita and hermosa

you're so sweet to him, and he can't help but tell you how much you mean to him every chance he gets

surprises

leo is an acts of service kind of guy

i think he'll spontaneously do things to make you happy

if you've been busy studying for finals or just beat up from a day at work

he'll draw you a bath

or he'll cut up some fruit for you and leave it at your desk

he randomly buys you flowers

he never needs an occasion to buy your flowers

it'll be a regular tuesday, leo just happened to walk past a store with flowers displayed in the front, and he thought about how bright your smile would be if he showed up with a bouquet

I feel like he's pretty introverted, enjoys being at home with you

the both of you are pretty broke for a while, so a lot of dates were at home

leo made the most of it

you guys will have nice dinners at home

he'll set the table nicely, set the mood with candles

he'll redecorate the space so well you feel like you're at an actual restaurant

and of course, his food is amazing

breakfast in bed is another thing he'd do for you unsolicited

especially if you guys had a looong night wink wink

you're woken up by his still groggy voice, fluttering kisses on your cheeks

you open your eyes to see he's set a tray with your favorite breakfast on top of the bed

the two of you will eat breakfast together, which usually leads to you staying in bed for the rest of the day

just enjoying the warm cocoon your sheets create around the both of you

overall, he's super observant and caring, and he goes the extra mile to make sure you're happy because he knows you do the same

anyways, does anyone know where I can get a leo?

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[kaebedom-me]

okokok i knowww!! i just requested!! but,, am bacc with two more request!! one! crhistmass umu,, chaeya mistletoe hcs,, could be soft,, could be spicy???? who knows?? second! not so important or festive but! im a slut for the trope 😔👉👈 this chaeya with reader uwu,, reader gets kidnapped and the rest is up to you because!! ilysm and i want you to go ham and write what you wanna write 🥺💞💖💕 anyways,, drimk water, sleeb well,, eat three times a day✨ luv u🥺💞💖💕💞💖💕💞💞💕 -⭐

Star nonnie 👉🏻👈🏻 would you be angy if you find out i eat like 2 meals a day 😔 but you're the best best bestest ok ily smsmsmsm 🥺 you take care of yourself too ogei ily mwah!! And myur kremsas

This is request number 2!! I'll do request 1 on a different post uwu

Reader gets kidnapped

All hell boutta break loose ok the people who kidnapped you will not survive

For the kidnappers sake, it's best that they took you while you weren't around Childe and/or Kaeya

Cuz if it happened in front of them and the kidnappers escaped with you then Childe's gonna lose it

All logic and thoughts go out of his brain, his only thought is getting you back safe

Unlikely it'll happen though, because criminals do be cowardly and if anyone's bold enough to try to capture you in front of them surely don't mind dying in the most painful way

And they'll make sure you're ok ya know uwu you won't get taken while you're with them

Also cuz Kaeya's so smart and observant, he'd like know immediately before someone even tries

Secretly tells Childe and he's gonna go like "oh I'll just buy this one thing I'll brb" and get rid of all of them rip uwu

You know even know there was a kidnapping attempt

But anyways

So, you went ahead and got yourself kidnapped while they were away

Mostly probably while the two of them were busy with their own assignments and you've just been hanging on your own for awhile now

They prolly had personal vendettas against Childe and/or Kaeya? Otherwise they wouldn't go for you

But it do be a little dangerous for you because you are dating a Fatui Harbinger AND Calvary Captain of the Knights of Favonius

They come back to any empty house and they just know

Contacts the other partner immediately because its just a better move than hunting you down on their own

Also cuz the other person needs to know umu

I say contact like they'll give each other a call or letter or smth. No, i mean them just barging into each other's workplace/ area confusing the rest of the people there

It's urgent man the love of their life is gone

When the two of them are dead serious they could prolly figure out the culprit within a day or even a couple of hours even if there's no clue left behind for them

Let the man hunt begin!!! ✨

Wastes no time, everything is calculated to get you back in their arms safe as quickly as possible

They're just kskfg worried ok? They don't know what the kidnappers have done to you or are planning to do to you and it stresses them out big time

Childe just unleashes all his stress and anger on the people who kidnapped you the moment they step into enemy territory

Let's Kaeya to the thinking about where they could be hiding you

Kaeya doesn't even need to worry about security, he just needs to figure out the fastest way in because Childe: Unhinged is a whole threat

When they do get to you Kaeya immediately has you in his arms; asking if you're ok and checking for any external injuries

Childe is off murdering the rest of the people in the room if there are people watching you

They don't even need to know why what they the kidnappers wanted from them, only thing that matters is you're alive and they're not

If the kidnappers have you like at hostage like knife to your throat type beat they'd be seething

But the fights going to be so anticlimactic because they're both so strong? And their synergy is so good they just have everyone in the room frozen and dead in 7 seconds flat

But if y'all are here for the drama then uwu i imagine Kaeya's super good at negotiating terms

Very calm and collected, he's angry, you can see it in his eyes but he won't let his emotions betray him and will trick the kidnappers to let you go in exchange for something more valuable

The second they do, the millisecond you're away from their grasp Childe's already committing mass murder

Like have you seen him in foul legacy? 8 seconds flat dudes, all gone. It'll take a miracle for him to leave any soul that's involved alive

Comforts you the Most™ you must've been so scared and what not

Zoomer reader to the kidnappers like "ooo y'all are gonna die so hard, when my bfs find me it'll be all over for you" or "kill me i have nothing to live for lmao" HAHAHA

Promises to never leave you alone again cuz they don't want your life to be threatened in any way

At some point, when you get over your Trauma, you'd have to reassure them a whole bunch because they're just that overprotective

They're just worried you know they know how dangerous their line of work is and for something bad like that to happen will really break them

They'll set up like a whole system where one of them is with you if the other is gone for long periods of time? But jskf it can get a lil overbearing so you gotta reassure them you're ok and you'll be more careful

[saeyoungs-sunflower]

(HC) RFA + MC in Quarantine

Listen lads, this is just a silly I wrote this the other day (I may have been a little but tipsy but shh) and I thought I might as well share it. I hope this cheers some of you up during such a scary time <3

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Yoosung:

★ okay this is gonna sound obvious

★ but bare with

★ G A M E S

★ but!!! not just LOLOL!! oh no no!

★ i’m talking board games, PC games, active games like tag and hide and seek

★ you guys basically act like children how are you surviving on your own

★ you guys also do LOADS of cooking

★ like so much

★ you’re baking like one cake a day pls slow down

★ ngl you guys are thriving staying home all the time lol

★ if Yoosung has online classes, you set up a study club!

★ he does his college work whilst you do whatever work you gotta do boo love that tEAMWORK

★ honestly you guys have never been so productive oop

Zen:

❤︎ oh boy

❤︎ be prepared to be SMOTHERED in love

❤︎ zen i love you too but pls i have stuff to do

❤︎ m o v i e  n i g h t s

❤︎ f a c e  m a s k s

❤︎ there are so many movies/tv series that you guys have been waiting to watch together but haven't had time to bc of zen’s work

❤︎ big sad :(

❤︎ BUT GUESS WHAT FAM

❤︎ WORK IS CANCELLED TIME TO SNUGGLE DOWN AND WATCH SOME DAMN CINEMA

❤︎ it usually turns into make out sessions but shh nobody has to know

❤︎ Zen kinda discovered that you guys c a n n o t cook

❤︎ so!!! you learn!!!

❤︎ it’s MESSY y’all

❤︎ “aw mc you look so cute with flour on your nose” throws flour at your face “zen i sWeaR tO GoD I just wanna make b r e ad leave me ALONE”

 ❤︎ quality couple time <3

Jaehee:

☞  lets get down to business

☞ to defeat

☞ THE H A N

☞ lol JK

☞ seriously the house has never been cleaner

☞ obvs your cafe isn't open so y’all have some time on your hands

☞ one day Jaehee suggests gardening

☞ oh man

☞ it escalated

☞ gardening has now become an OBSESSION

☞ honestly you couldn't find a prettier garden on pinterest swear down

☞ you also decided to renovate the house you’ve been meaning to do it but have never had the time

☞ your house is now a work of art wow proud of you guys <333

☞ tbh, Jaehee actually has a small fear of getting sick/you getting sick so you guys are only leaving the house if it is a b s o l u t e l y necessary

Jumin:

♚ nobody talk about the bad ending

♚ i said don’t…

♚ he’s be waiting for this moment who needs a cage when you have a national lockdown

♚ all jokes aside though this man still has to work from home

♚ poor bby

♚ let us all shed a tear for Jumin Han

♚ you love to bring him tea and homemade baked goods whilst he works and guess what??? so does he lol

♚ it is time

♚ to D A N C E

♚ this man is so extra oml

♚ insists on taking online ballroom dance lessons bc why not MC hmmm???

♚ he is actually a very good dancer

♚ once you guys get good enough it turns into spontaneous ballroom dancing in the kitchen whilst you clean up after dinner

♚ wine??? wine did you say??? W I N E???

♚ oh b o y

♚ you've seen each other tipsy before, and lemme tell ya it takes a lot to get this man drunk

♚ his tolerance is so high from all the w i n e

♚ but one night you two get absolutely HAMMERED like oh my God guys calm down pls

♚ rip your liver lmao

♚ it makes for a v e r y funny evening though you guys have literal tears in your eyes and its so nice to see the mighty Jumin Han loosen up a little aw bless

Saeyoung:

☀︎ okay

☀︎ listen

☀︎ this man is absolutely out of control i can’t

☀︎ you thought he was a prankster before???? oh man i am so sorry

☀︎ “saeyoung why is there a balloon above saeran’s door” “don’t worry bout it babe” “i am WORRYING SAEYOUNG”

☀︎ on a serious note though being stuck in the house does sometimes bring back some bad memories for him

☀︎ there are some bad days where he just n e e d s to get out

☀︎ so you sometimes go out for a quick drive in some desert place ya know let’s be sensible

☀︎ you guys have also made a habit of climbing to the roof and watching the stars aw

☀︎ you’ve also both fallen a sleep there a few times oopsy daisy

☀︎ the memes are the only thing getting you guys through at this point it’s a problem

☀︎ but you are loving the quality time with your choi boys so it’s not all bad <3

☀︎ family snuggles are a must

☀︎ a M U S T

☀︎ the desired s n u g g l e position is you sat on Saeyoung’s lap, your legs draped over Saeran’s lap and Saeran’s head resting on Saeyoung’s shoulder AW

☀︎ sometimes you hold Saeran’s hand whilst he’s asleep bc your edgy boi needs love but wont ask for it ever

V:

❁ first of all

❁ a w

❁ this man is the sweetest peach

❁ he makes so many cute things for you whilst you guys are in lockdown

❁ i mean he’s writing letters, knitting you scarves, painting you pictures the whole shebang

❁ he even made you a pyjamas

❁ he’s sewing guys he’s out of control

❁ if your working/reading/just having a quiet moment he will sketch you

❁ you wouldn't know it though bc he’s a s n e a k y bastard

❁ he’s never filled a sketchbook so fast and it’s his most treasured possession

❁ a book!!! filled with YOU!!!!! amazing!!!!!!

❁ wait, did you hear that????

❁ oh yeah

❁ ITS ARTS AND CRAFTS TIME

❁ actual children

❁ even if what you make is terrible its just so fun because you're doing it together

❁ brb just crying my eyes out i love this man so much

❁ you guys also make care packages and do the grocery shopping for the elderly/at risk people in your area and deliver it for them AND sewing scrubs/masks for doctors

❁ “I don’t want to stay inside doing nothing all the time when there are people who need help” THIS MAN IS TOO MUCH

Saeran:

☽ i hope you're ready for this grumpy motherfucker

☽ he never went outside anyway but now that he cant go out it sounds like the best thing in the world saeran pls

☽ ah yes it is time to wake up

☽ oh it’s 4pm?????

☽ HA who needs a sleep schedule anyway

☽ also Saeyoung is not the only twin with the Mischief Gene™

☽ oh no no no

☽ you two team up and absolutely destroy him

☽ i am so sorry Saeyoung but you had this coming

☽ when Saeran says that he wants to learn an instrument you are GOBSMACKED

☽ HELL Y E S

☽ he orders a keyboard and omg he’s such a fast learner

☽ probs from all the years of hacking ouch

☽ do i smell??? A FAMILY BAND?????

☽ you and Saeyoung play kazoo

☽ Saeran has left the chat

☽ seriously though his piano playing is so pretty and it calms him down so much ughhh PRECIOUS TOMATO BOI

***

This is so chaotic hahahah I hope you enjoyed though. If people liked it I’ll do some more silly things like this. It was a nice break from...the other stuff I’m writing...hint hint watch this space ;)

Masterlist

[bubonickitten]

Literally no one asked, but I compiled a list of all the times someone suggests or commits arson in TMA

...up to MAG 162, anyway. [Spoilers ahead, obviously.]

MAG 004 – Gerry buys Ex Altiora for £5,000, then immediately slam-dunks it in the seller’s wastepaper bin, sets it on fire, and then just leaves. With the smoldering wastepaper bin. Patently refuses to explain himself, as is his way.  

MAG 006 – Timothy Hodge sets his flat on fire because worms.

MAG 008 – Does an incorporeal Raymond Fielding leaving scorch marks on the floor count as attempted arson? Probably not, but eh. Hill Top Road and arson are sort of inseparable.

MAG 010 – Trevor Herbert sets two (2) vampires on fire.

MAG 012 – Diego Molina and Gerry have some sort of fire-based showdown at a construction site and both end up in the hospital.

MAG 014 – Lee Rentoul sets a box (once containing his own soon-to-be-severed finger) on fire in a fit of petulant rage.

MAG 016 – Carlos Vittery puts his foot through his TV screen to kill a spider and then just straight up burns his shoe afterwards for good measure.

MAG 034 – Dr. Lionel Elliott burns the note that his anatomy students left with the tooth apple. He probably should have also burned the tooth apple.

MAG 036 – Trevor and Julia burn Ivy Meadows Care Home to the ground.

MAG 037 – Jason North fucks around and finds out at a spooky ritual circle in the woods and then his whole life goes up in flames. Literally.

MAG 043 – Diego Molina sets his own house on fire for personal (Desolation-related) reasons.

MAG 055 – Jordan Kennedy sets John Amherst’s sleeve on fire (valid). Then Arthur Nolan sets both his flat and himself on fire for personal (Desolation-related) reasons.

MAG 056 – Trevor Herbert discovers that human corpses aren’t as flammable as vampires.

MAG 059 – Statement giver Ronald Sinclair, like most reasonable people, strongly supports the incineration of Hill Top Road.

MAG 060 – Rosa Meyer wanted to flood the Magnus Institute with petrol and drop a match long before it was cool.  

MAG 061 – Daisy talks about vampire cremation.  

MAG 067 – I mean… Agnes. She is kind of the incarnation of arson. Also she casually incinerates some cobwebs, just to be petty. The Web knows what it did.

MAG 068 – Joseph Russo sets garbage on fire and calls it art.

MAG 070 – Masato Murray tries to burn the evil book of the dead. It does not work, because it’s an evil book of the dead.

MAG 072 – Not intentional arson, but the abandoned takeaway does go up in flames after some candles fall on a stack of bibles.

MAG 087 – Jude Perry burns down Gwydir Forest because an evil clown asked her very nicely.

MAG 089 – Jude Perry’s treatise on arson and self-immolation as a form of self-care.

MAG 100 – Does a ghost on fire count as arson?

MAG 102 – Gerry recommended setting Benoît Maçon’s house on fire but Gertrude said no.  

MAG 107 – Does a ghost train on fire count as arson?  

MAG 110 – Alexia Crawley burns a Leitner. And: “If I ever track down the man who used to own it, I might just burn him too.” #mood, Alexia.  paypal.com/IFuckingHateJurgenLeitner

MAG 111 – Gerry talks about his book burning hobby.  

MAG 117 – Jon burns Gerry’s page. Also, Martin gets really excited about the fact that he’s gonna get to do a little arson, as a treat.

MAG 118 – MARTIN GETS TO DO A LITTLE ARSON, AS A TREAT. (Get fucked, Elias.)

MAG 127 – Albrecht von Closen has his groundskeeper burn down a tree. In the rain. For some reason. Also, not arson, but Dr. Jonathan Fanshawe does make a point to basically end his letter with, “I had this guy’s body burned after the autopsy, seeing as he was FULL OF EYES. Eyes, Jonah, what the fuck. They blinked at me!! All of them!! In unison!! Don’t like that!! P.S. Don’t write me back.”

MAG 139 – Eugene “arson has always been my thing” Vanderstock suggests burning the Magnus Institute to the ground, because Jonny Sims (presumably) wants to hit us over the head with (what I assume is) foreshadowing as often as possible. Eugene also talks about how he and the rest of the Desolation squad burned down five acres of forest to create a pyre for Agnes’ birth, because they are nothing if not dramatic. 

MAG 145 – Arthur Nolan talks about how much he loves arson, as avatars of the Desolation are wont to do.

MAG 147 – This exchange that happens as the squad leaves Hill Top Road:

Jon: Are we burning it? Melanie: The statement or the building? Daisy: Both? Basira: Don’t tempt me.

MAG 154 – Gertrude burns Eric’s page.

MAG 157 – Adelard Dekker, who has never once half-assed anything in his entire life, builds his own funeral pyre so he can go out with a bang on his own terms – but only after he sits down and writes an email to Gertrude about how he totally pulled a Cask of Amontillado on Amherst and regrets nothing.

MAG 158 – Gertrude tries to burn down the Magnus Institute. Even stops to complain about how she “used to be able to torch a building in half the time.”

MAG 160 – Martin mentions that Basira managed to convince the police not to burn the Institute to the ground. (Pretty sure TMA is actually a podcast about failed attempts to torch an evil building that will probably end with a successful attempt to torch said evil building.)

MAG 162 – Gerry says “can I burn this book” and Gertrude says “knock yourself out” and Gerry says “excellent, I need to borrow your wastepaper bin and some lighter fluid, brb.” Also, Martin suggests getting some actual use out of that spider web lighter and burning the cozy cabin to the ground, but Jon says no -- you know, like a buzzkill. 

[fairybinie]

to my dear bestfren val <3

i specifically chose yellow soobs and hoseok because everytime i see you or think of you, i get reminded of the colour yellow. the colour yellow holds such a great meaning to me because everytime i see it, i get a sense of hope and positivity during hard times. almost as if it was an energy booster for me. and you remind me of the colour yellow val.

every time i see you on my feed, there was not one moment where i never smiled because you always seemed to make my day and everyone else’s day. like the colour yellow to me. you being you just puts a smile on my face so i hope that when you see this message and pictures, you would feel the same way that i feel whenever i see you on my feed/whenever i talk to you ok? i want you to look at your ults in yellow and try to think of them as your ‘yellow’ like you do to me and others. you can even look at me and think of me as your yellow, as long as you can have that beautiful smile. it’s okay to not feel okay, all yellows have their moments where they need reassurance. which is why i want you to look at them in yellow and be reassured — and to think this message that i typed

it’ll all be fine , you can do it. i’m here for you and everyone else here is <3

lots of love, your best fren jel :)

no bc wtf i'm in tears THAT VIDEO ANON SENT ME ALREADY FUCKED ME UP NOW IM GETTING A LETTER FROM JEL????? this post is gonna need a read more bc i just . there will be many caps and sad faces everywhere but we know this by now anyways time to simp for jel

THE YELLOWS IM ACTUALLY UNWELL . the first hobi pic :( and the last binie pic :( i am saving these pics they are now dear to me . TIME FOR THE LETTER

YOU YOU YOU i remind you of yellow :( i feel the same way about yellow so it's so nice that you say that :(

NO BC STOP EVERY TIME I SEE YOU ON MY FEED i always laugh and smile to myself :(( like you're sense of humor is Elite and there's never a dull moment !! and and and i am feeling that way :( and pls i do think of my ults as my yellows <3 however i don't think i have the song on their playlists brb adding it OKAY IM BACK

this deserves its own paragraph bc wtf . YOU ARE NOW MY YELLOW JEL NO ONE ELSE TAKES THE SPOT !! and yes i'm smiling very big rn :(( even tho my sad faces contradict BUT THEYRE GOOD SAD FACES :( every time i think of yellow or see any one of them wear it i'll be thinking of you :')

jeli :( can i call you jeli :( like this actually means the world to me i opened this message and i just sat crying to myself for 5 minutes bc this is so fucking sweet . like i was not expecting this at all :(

this is now our sign that WE NEED TO TALK MORE bc i do not deserve this from you . sliding into your asks every day until you get tired of me !!

honestly i really am the type of person who needs reassurance a lot :/ like i get really insecure so easily and i really wasn't doing well the other day but this message just :( this is my favorite thing i've ever been sent :(( i really wish i could return the favor somehow (which is why after this i am sliding into ur asks with ur ults) and write to you just like you did for me but i ! am ! not ! good ! with ! words ! but i hope you know how much i appreciate this bc i really really do :(

you deserve the entire world jeli i hope you get nothing but good things in life <3

[reidingmelodies]

OMG I CANT BELIEVE I ALMOST MISSED YOUR CELEBRATION but congrats !!! you quite rightly deserve every follower and i would love to have🏅 🌻 🎧 (indie rock vibes maybeee) 🪐

ahh thank you so, so much india!! 💕

🏅: I’ll give you a cm fic rec

I know you like angst fics, and one of my faves is Champagne Problems by @reidyoulikeabook! Everything Amelia writes keeps me on the edge of my seat, and I find myself coming back to this one when I’m in the mood to break my own heart- it starts off so hopeful and then BAM the angst hits hard in the best way and I’m obsessed ✨

🎧: I’ll give you a song recommendation

Silhouettes- Colony House (this came out awhile ago, but I heard it for the first time recently and it’s quickly becoming a fave!)

🪐: I’ll share one of my favorite quotes

“Close some doors. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because they no longer lead somewhere” -Paulo Coelho

🌻: I’ll talk about my favorite fic of yours

it’s not a secret that I’m amazed by your talent on the daily- the way you’re able to create such intricate and captivating worlds never fails to impress me (seriously, teach me your ways!) It’s impossible to just pick one, so I’m gonna talk about the infinite amount of love I have for streets and be there for me under the cut!

I LOVE streets with my whole heart- the opening brings me so much comfort, and the way you word it feels like a cup of tea on a cold day. and the line ‘not one of them in the entire world had even compared to the gem that was spencer reid’?! it makes me wanna cry (in the very best way bc it’s so true- hey universe, where’s my spencer?)

and the repetition of the statistic as an introduction to his insecurities was absolutely brilliant and once again I wanna scream about your talent from the rooftops because WOW

I just adore how you set the stage for what’s to come (even though we don’t know it yet!) in this part and made the reader’s feelings so clear.

which made the next part even more painful bc WOW AGAIN my heart broke when he showed her the napkin

(but that didn’t compare to how much it broke when we found out spencer’s date stood him up 😭)

I love how derek is the one that comforted reader and he and penelope knew what was up the whole time- that’s just so in character for them!

“sometimes he just wanted to give the push you two clearly needed, but he was stopped with penelope telling himself constantly that you two needed to find one another in your own time, just like the tech analyst did with agent morgan” BRB SCREAMING THAT YOU INCLUDED MY BABIES IN LOVE

and then when spencer was insecure about the date and reader reassured him/ helped him get ready even though the last thing she wanted was for him to go on that date?? SHE LOVES HIM SO MUCH!

I adored the glimpse at morcia having the cutest Valentine’s Day ever omg ♥️♥️♥️ but when we learned about Spencer’s night?? 💔💔💔

gosh I felt so bad for him bc what the heck is up with that barista! how do you give someone your number and then just stand them up like 😭

(but also... thanks in a way because it allowed reader to open up and tell Spencer how she feels with the CUTEST letter!!! AND THE ROSES?! YES GIRL 👏🏽)

ugh then he went and held her hand and kissed her and I’m over here yelling about how in love they are and how they deserve all the love in the world (and ending it with “he’s in complete awe of you” WE LOVE A FULL CIRCLE TRANSITION)

and you KNOW that I’m in awe of be there for me. it’s such a flawlessly executed series and the way you were able to intertwine the topics of grief and love (which definitely isn’t an easy task) while simultaneously combining the perfect amounts of fluff and angst in your tale of falling in love in the shadow of grief is stunning.

when I first started reading it I had to force myself to put my phone down and take breaks in between. your writing is absolutely magical and I could 1000% get lost in it all day because every word leaves me in anticipation of what’s to come. and that’s exactly how this series is! every time a new chapter is posted I screech a little and stop what I’m doing so I can read it as soon as I possibly can.

oof this got long but I can’t help but gush over your writing! the fact that everything I read by you takes me on a rollercoaster of emotions and completely gets me lost in the wonderland you create is such a testament to your talent- thank you for sharing your work with us!! 💕

also I noticed there’s a few things on your masterlist that I haven’t read yet?! so don’t mind me spamming your notifications soon! 🤍

[gilbert-blythe-ruined-my-life]

Anna watches S03xE09 for the first time (warning: spoilers!)

I honestly cannot believe that this is the second to last ep guys.

It feels like yesterday that the first ep came out.

Also, my windsribe is about to run out, I hope I have enough to make it through this ep.

I’m so nervous about everything. I hope this ep takes off where the last one ended because I WANT TO SEE DIANA’S REACTION.

I’m scared about what’s going to happen with Ka’kwet, does the residential school try to get her back? Is that why Anne and Matthew have to help? Freaking out.

Let’s go!

Yikes, my windsribe is running out fast.

Ka’kwet, my baby. She’s tramatised.

I’m going to cry, this is horrible. My baby.

What she went through, she’ll never be the same.

OH LOOKY HERE. IT’S THE GIRL WHO’S IN LOVE WITH GILBERT BLYTHE.

YES, YOU FINALLY ADMITTED IT.

THERE’S NO GOING BACK NOW.

She just put the cutlery in the glass, I cannot.

OH MY. IS SHE GOING TO TELL MARILLA.

‘Why did he ask me so late? So sudden?’ ANNE. BABY GIRL. THE WHOLE FANDOM HAS BEEN ASKING THEMSELVES THAT FOR THE PAST WEEK.

SHE JUST ADMITTED IT TO MARILLA.

‘I love him’. 

THE WAY SHE SAID IT.

SO SOFT. I AM SQUEALING.

I CANNOT.

SHE’S TOLD MARILLA.

MARILLA.

‘Listen to me very carefully, Anne. Do not make the same mistake I did’. GUYS, IT’S HAPPENING.

OBVS SHE’S GOING TO MISS HIM.

THEY’RE REALLY DOING THIS TO US AREN’T THEY.

THE PARALLELS OF GILBERT GOING TO WINNIE AND ANNE TRYING TO CATCH HIM.

‘Gilbert. I love him! I have to tell him now!’ DID I WRITE THIS FANFICTION.

Minnie May.

GUYS MINNIE MAY.

SHE NEEDS TO TELL GILBERT.

HE’S GETTING DASHING WHITE SERGENT FLASHBACKS.

AND WE’RE GETTING SHOTS WE HAVEN’T SEEN BEFORE.

Anne’s meeting Hazel!

And she’s leaving Gilbert A NOTE!!!!!

SHE’S WRITING A NOTE AND TELLING HIM SHE LOVES HIM. THIS WHOLE THING IS SO SOFT.

P.S May I please have my pen back. GUYS. GUUUUUUUUUYS.

NO ANNE DON’T MOVE THE NOTE. HE’LL NEVER SEE IT.

DIANA STOP HIM. STOP HIM DIANA.

Diana is feeling so heartbroken for her bosom friend.

This ep keeps freezing. I don’t have time for this MY WINDSCRIBE IS RUNNING OUT.

My baby Ka’kwet is happy again.

NO THEY’VE FOUND HER.

I KNEW IT.

GUYS I’M SO SCARED.

PLEASE.

I’M SO SCARED RN.

NO.

NO.

NO. NO. NO. NO.

MY HEART.

THIS ISN’T GOOD FOR MY HEART.

THEY’RE GOING TO TAKE ALL THE CHILDREN.

NO.

NO, PLEASE NO.

NO.

DID THEY KILL HER FATHER.

DID THEY KILL HER MOTHER?

NO.

PLEASE NO.

Guys I feel sick, like physically sick.

Something’s going to happen to Anne’s note.

This ep KEEPS FREEZING.

Delly is the cutest baby ever.

‘Well if that’s love you must never think I loved you at all!’ AAAHHHHH.

NO HAZEL.

OH THIS ANGST.

WHY?

Please, please tell me they’re not going to make Bash and Miss Stacey happen?

It’s TOO SOON.

DON’T CRY MISS STACEY.

OKAY BUT PLEASE TELL ME THIS ISN’T GONNA HAPPEN. IT’S TOO SOON.

TOO SOON.

TOO SOON.

Gilbert’s found Anne’s signs!

EW Billy. EW EW EW EW EW EW.

‘Small town girls aren’t up to snuff’ LET ME STRANGLE HIM. LET ME. LET ME AT HIM.

LORD HAVE MERCY ON THE POOR CHARLOTTETOWN GIRL WHO ENDS UP WITH BILLY ANDREWS.

KA’KWET’S PARENTS ARE OKAY!

‘They took Ka’kwet. Stole her’. NO.

NO.NO. NO. NO. NO.

WE KNEW IT.

WE KNEW IT.

‘We’d be happy to help’. YES. 

YES, STAND UP TO MARILLA, MATTHEW!

‘Please help us. My children are my whole world. My heart.’ PLEASE STOP. THE PAIN IS UNBEARABLE.

PLEASE.

MY HEART.

‘You have your baby. She’s safe.’ STOP. THE PAIN. I CANNOT TAKE IT. PLEASE.

‘Where is my child? Without her, how can I live?’ STOP. PLEASE. OH THE PAIN. THE PAIN.

YES.

SHE’S AGREED.

‘I expect we’ll be back in two days time’.

WHAT.

TWO DAYS. WHAT.

I mean, of course, they’re going to Nova Scotia.

I forgot.

I KNEW THEY WERE GONNA DO THIS TO ANNE’S NOTE.

‘What’s wrong?’

‘Everything! Gilbert is going to propose to Winifred!’

SAME MARILLA SAME. MARILLA’S REACTION IS ME.

DIANA AND MARILLA ARE THE WHOLE FANDOM TBH.

GILBERT’S AT THE STORYBOOK HOUSE. I’M FINE.

NO. I’M NOT FINE. NOT REALLY.

THE NOTE IS STUCK UNDERNEATH GILBERT’S SHOE.

ARE YOU KIDDING ME.

ARE YOU. KIDDING. ME.

ARE YOU KIDDING ME?

ARE? YOU? KIDDING? ME?

ARE. YOU. KIDDING. ME.

ARE. YOU. KIDDING. ME.

ARE? YOU? KIDDING? ME?

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

WHY?

WHY?

WHY?

WHY?

WHY?

WHY?

WHY?

WHY?

Excuse me for five minutes while I have a mental breakdown. 

*elevator music plays*

Okay, I’m back!

‘I remember...the pain...all too well when I went to find you. But this? I can’t imagine’.

This is too much. The pain. The pain.

THE ANNE AND MATTHEW SNUGGLE. OH IT’S SO BEAUTIFUL. SO BEAUTIFUL.

GIVE THEM BACK THEIR BABY.

I’M SO ANGRY RIGHT NOW.

YES MATTHEW. YES.

YES!!!!

NO.

NO. 

NO.

MATTHEW.

DON’T HURT MATTHEW.

NO.

OH HEAVENS, WHAT IS HAPPENING?

THE INTENSITY OF ALL OF THIS.

ANNE WANTS TO STAY BUT SHE CAN’T.

YES, WRITE A LETTER.

GIVE HER BACK TO THEM.

This is too painful, I can’t watch anymore.

Honestly, I don’t know what to do. I can’t watch anymore.

I’m so exhausted.

EW. GILBERT’S GETTING READY TO PROPOSE TO WINIFRED. YUCK.

WE DO NOT LIKE TO SEE IT.

HE TOOK THE SEASHELL FROM THE STORYCLUB. WATCH AS I CRY.

OH NO.

OH NO, OH NO, OH NO. OH NO. OH NO.

ANNE’S GONNA THINK GILBERT READ HER NOTE AND STILL DOESN’T LOVE HER.

WHY DON’T THE WRITERS JUST KILL ME? IT WOULD BE LESS PAINFUL THAN THIS.

YES ANNE, ASK.

ASK HIM.

ASK HIM.

DIANA BEING ANNOYED AT GILBERT, WHAT A MOOD.

This Hazel and Bash convo has me all in my feelings.

WHAT.

THE HANGED HIM.

THEY HANGED HIS FATHER.

THEY LYNCHED HIM.

NO WONDER HAZEL IS LIKE THAT.

IT’S ALL FOR THE LOVE OF BASH.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

MY WINDSCRIBE HAS RUN OUT.

BRB GONNA MAKE A NEW ACCOUNT.

MADE ONE.

LET’S GO.

ANNE’S BROUGHT GILBERT FLOWERS AND HE’S OFF WITH WINNIE. MY BABY.

BASH AND HAZEL. MY FEELINGS.

MY POOR BABY ANNE.

I JUST WANT BASH AND HIS MOTHER TO UNDERSTAND ONE ANOTHERS POV.

KA’KWET CAN SEE HER PARENTS. OH MY FEELINGS.

THE INDIGENOUS MUSIC.

THE SHIRBERT PARALLELS.

HE’S GOING TO PROPOSE TO WINIFRED. NO.

HE’S REALLY GONNA DO IT, HUH?

KA’KWET.

THIS EPISODE.

THIS EPISODE.

I HAVEN’T BEEN THIS EMOTIONALLY DRAINED SINCE 3X03. I’M GONNA NEED THE REST OF THE DAY TO RECOVER TBH.

[catboytheorist]

In which I scream about Loki (2019) #1

Okay I’m just going to put my every reaction onto this post to save your dashboards from endless loki posting. SO

The front cover:

Why the fuck does he look so evil on the front cover. Tbh I know his face is just like that but also. We just had a redemption arc I can’t go through the whole again so soon

A rainbow in the background. Gay????

He’s just playing with Thor’s hammer which I LOVE because it’s so dumb and so loki to just. toss it around like it’s all a joke. Also, in War of the Realms Omega he says “Perhaps next time, I should borrow Mjolnir. I imagine I’ll be worthy enough any day now”. Tbh I don’t love the idea of Loki being worthy in an actual sense (I know he lifted the hammer in the axis event and that one time Odin just made him worthy to prove a point to Thor, but I think we can all agree those didn’t really count). Still, can’t wait to see where they go with that.

Also from War of the Realms: Omega, the shield he gives Drrf on the front cover!!!

The bridge is relatively familiar, like I know it’s one of the famous American ones (Brooklyn Bridge??) Anyway, hopefully this means some Midgard action and also there better be some fucking Verity Willis content or I’m gonna sue

BLACK FINGERNAILS. Still love it. In fact they kept the whole design and I’m absolutely nutting.

Also just a quick note on the variant cover because you know this bitch bought that shit: I know variant art isn’t always plot relevant, but would be fun if it is? I love that Loki’s grinning and the rest of the Asgardians are. Somewhat perturbed. I do prefer the regular art though, which tbh I usually do.

The contents:

I have very mixed feelings about the whole Loki being king of Jotunheim thing. Can’t really put my finger on it but honestly I’m just not that interested in Loki being that tied down. The fact that there’s a brb note on the throne is reassuring though. Also, is this meant to be angsty? Like I’m not confusing MCU Loki and 616 Loki but Loki has weird family feelings nonetheless, as seen by the super fun daddy vore scene. But anyway I’m not really feeling that vibe at the moment, and I think I’d like to.

Please do not draw Loki’s face like that.

Otherwise I love this suit he’s got going on and also the new symbol on his little face helmet thing? Love it.

Also, presumably the new symbol is meant to be jera, a rune that largely means cycles and changes in fortune, so I guess maybe there’s something in it about all the redemption arcs we’ve had going on in the recent past (which I have mixed feelings about).

Every time Loki flirts with a girl he has to also flirt with a guy, or be a woman while he does it. Like I know he’s bi but like. Where. If you make him straight Kibblesmith I’ll break into your home and piss on your keyboard.

Sigyn is mentioned!!! Is she going to be a character? I doubt it but I’m thrilled to just see her mentioned for the first time since. A long time. Anyway

!!!!!!!!

Okay but, both Loki and Thor as kings, the casino scene, Loki’s weird Odin projection thing saying that Loki will end the world... this is literally AOA Axis in reverse and I’m DYING

Oh fuck Loki’s just super fucking smashed (now hungover) what a fucking icon.

This is going to be my excuse for whenever I’m too fucking pissed

Is this the angst? The tasty fucking angst I was looking for?

I’m SCREAMING I love this of course Loki is a bad fucking king, it’s too much responsibility and he has to just. sit there. It’s boring. He’s not made to be a king and this I basically every confirmation I need. Incredible. Kibblesmith you’re ualid again. 

This whole thing is fucking ridiculous, Thor’s just like “Please. I’m begging you. Please just take this seriously for once in your life.” And Loki’s like “I’m deadly serious” as he builds fucking Olaf from Frozen

Olaf has just vored someone. 

Are we really doing another future Loki storyline? As much as I loved AOA I feel like its been done and I was really hoping to see something different? I don’t know, I really do enjoy Loki’s moral quandaries about ending the world and all that, but also what is the conclusion to this going to be other than that the future is not definite? Maybe I’m judging this too early but also, please do something different. I’m begging. (Not really).

So in the final page, are we meant to assume this is Loki, future Loki, and he’s worthy of Mjolnir? If so it could be an interesting twist on AOA. Still have my misgivings about being too involved in AOA. Still excited to see where it goes.

In the soon to be letter column: “Loki is a story about the kids who try to do everything right and still get punished for it”. Okay it’s cheesy but mentally ill kid me is crying.

Conclusion: I’m in love, I’m in love, not sold on the artwork entirely, but loving the story so far. I hope there’s more angst, I hope Kibblesmith does something quite different from AOA, and also please marvel GIVE US BACK VERITY WILLIS. Thank you. 

And yes I will be writing in a letter about Verity. Because I’m that bitch.

[roleplaylogs]

Grofflin

A nice Grofflin RP where Jon goes to visit Lin in Puerto Rico

You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!

You both like Jamilton, Whamilton, Hamilton RPF, and grofflin.

You: [1.29am] I miss you. LMM

Stranger: It’s late, Lin, you doing ok? I miss you, too. JG

You: Yeah, I just miss you! LMM How are you doing? LMM

Stranger: I’m alright, glad you’re not feeling incredibly sad or whatever. JG

Stranger: I’ve been awake far too long, ugh. JG

You: I mean, I'm putting on a brave face, but I'm not like incredibly sad, more mediocre sad. LMM But I'd rather talk about you. Insomnia? LMM

Stranger: Funny, I’d rather talk about you. But you’ll end up telling me eventually, I’m sure. JG

Stranger: Definite insomnia tinged with the usual anxiety. I think I miss the stage. JG

You: I miss the stage with you on it. LMM

Stranger: Yeah? I miss spending time with you in general, but especially on and around stage. JG

You: We were so good together in the play. LMM

Stranger: We really were, even if we didn’t really interact. I really enjoyed comndeering your dressing room. JG

You: Some of my best memories from the show was hanging out in that dressing room with you. LMM

Stranger: If you wanted to come all the way out to Pittsburgh you can come hang out in my trailer with me. JG

You: I wish I could, Papi, but I just flew out to PR. LMM

Stranger: You’re in the Motherland and you’re moderately sad? Lin, sweet thing, what’s up? I’d come down to you but we’re filming all week. JG

You: I don't know, maybe I'm just in a funk. My family are all still in NY and I'm in a boujee hotel room that just feels weirdly sterile and I miss you so bad. LMM

Stranger: Sounds kinda funky, yeah. V didn’t come? JG

You: No, we're not doing so great at the moment. LMM

Stranger: Ahhh, I’m sorry to hear that, really. I... let me check my schedule, alright? I might be able to sneak out of here. JG

You: Really? I can get you on a plane whenever you need, first class. LMM

Stranger: Really really. I miss the hell out of you and it seems you need some good old cheering up. You don’t have to do that, boo. JG

You: I know I don't, but I want to. I'm dragging your working ass out of the country, I'm gonna do it in style. LMM

Stranger: I am 1000% volunteering to leave the cold as fuck Pennsylvania city to come see you in Puerto Rico. No dragging required. But I know arguing with you is pointless... JG

You: Good, glad we got that sorted. LMM When can I book the flight for? Can they change your filming schedule? LMM

Stranger: (Delayed) So, we can finish up my stuff for the week tomorrow, and I can have til next Tuesday. So a week? That’s not bad. JG

You: A whole week? Awesome! That's great! Oh man, I'm so happy now. LMM You can help me go through my lines for the PR play! I can assure you I have forgotten every Ham lyric. LMM

Stranger: Lucky for you, I have forgotten NONE of them. We’ll get you all rehearsed and happy. JG

You: God, I'm so scared I'm gonna be shitty now. You gotta be ruthless with me, train me up again. LMM

Stranger: There is no way you’d be shitty, Lin. What with all that Disney training I’m sure you’re a better dancer. I’ll get you in top Ham shape, no problem. JG

You: Oh my god, it really put me through my paces, I've never been fitter. If you squint, and if I really suck in, you can kinda see abs. LMM

Stranger: !!! I’m going to touch them, you know that, right? JG

You: I mean, I've got no one else to show them off to. LMM The dad bod is still and always will be here, just a little fitter. I'm also a way better singer now, so, we can thank Disney and their expensive ass singing lessons for that too. LMM

You: ((Brb real quick I gotta go put some food in! Might be like ten mins))

Stranger: ((Alright!))

Stranger: You can show off to me when’re you like, Lin. I mean it. Just go full on showboat like Daveed. JG

Stranger: I love you just the way you are but the tiny improvements will only make you stronger. More formidable. I definitely cried in Poppins Returns because of you, by the way. JG

You: No one can showboat like Daveed, don't be silly. LMM You did? Fuck, that means so much to me. I tried so hard and I'm so proud of that, I'm so glad you like it. It's a love letter to the first movie, which I adored. LMM

Stranger: I know, I know but you could try! Just never put a shirt on and pretend you aren’t attractive. JG

Stranger: I did. Cried three separate times, but most of it was because I was so so proud of you. You did so well, Lin! The lamp lighters scene, oh my god. JG

You: Ha, I don't have to pretend. LMM God, you know that was a whole week of filming? Just that scene there? It's the most exhausted I've ever been but so worth it. LMM

Stranger: Shush, you’re so handsome and charismatic. JG

Stranger: Oh, I believe it. It was beautiful and magical and I want to watch you on that lamp post like 24/7. JG

You: Not a patch on you, you handsome devil! LMM I made so many pole dancing jokes, I'm almost embarrassed. LMM

Stranger: Oh, stop that. Let me admire you! JG

Stranger: Ha, I know you very well. I’m sure that almost is the key word there. JG

You: I've never made Em laugh so much than when we were filming for that scene, we had a blast. LMM God. It's like that was a high I'm now crashing down from. LMM

Stranger: G o d, you call Emily Blunt Em, I am JEALOUS. JG

Stranger: We’ll get you back up on that crest, I promise. Ham in PR is such a huge deal. JG

You: You gotta meet her sometime, I will set it up, she's awesome. I also met Jon Krasinski and almost died, that man is a confirmed god and he and Em are perfect together. LMM You're right. I just need my personal hypeman by my side. LMM

Stranger: You shut up right now, I’ll just end up quoting the entirety of Devil Wears Prada right into her glorious face. I need to meet her. JG

Stranger: You’ll have me for a week, but I’ll always hype you, Lin. You’re legitimately the most talented, kind, bright man I know. JG

You: I'll make it happen. LMM Oh, stop it. I wouldn't be where I am without the support of you, you mean the absolute world to me. LMM

Stranger: I knew I loved you for a reason ;) JG

Stranger: You’d be so great without me, you’ve got a team of hypemen, Burr I will always be the loudest. JG

You: Hell yeah you will. God, I can't wait to see your ridiculously cute face and smush it in my hands. LMM

Stranger: Oh, it’s ready to be smushed, hasn’t happened in far too long. JG

You: You got that right, I'm gonna smush you so hard. LMM Which, in hindsight, sounds incredibly inappropriate. LMM

Stranger: ... I’m not mad about it. JG

You: Me neither. Groffsauce so cuuuuute. LMM

Stranger: Why are all the best men tragically straight? Ugh. JG

You: Uh. LMM Yo. LMM You talking about me? LMM

Stranger: You, Daveed, every other straight guy in theatre. JG

You: Oh my god, this is priceless. LMM You think I'm straight? LMM

Stranger: ... ok, so I’m wrong, then. How wrong am I? JG

You: Super wrong. I'm super not straight. LMM

Stranger: The whole V thing threw me off. I mean the willingness to throw yourself at me should’ve been a clue but that was more wishful thinking. JG

You: Yeah, I guess the whole married to a woman thing does make me seem a bit straight. But I am a theatre kid, so... LMM Remember when I made that Heights promo with you in it? I had the biggest crush on you. LMM

Stranger: So you’re bi, or bi adjacent, then. That’s... wow. Ok, my worldview just shifted a little. JG

Stranger: I remember that so well, it was so damn entertaining and cute. I’ve been practically wrapped around your finger since. JG

You: Yeah, I just don't really care about gender, I'm just attracted to everyone, basically. LMM Thank god, because I wrote KG3 for you. LMM

Stranger: Yeah, yeah that makes so much more sense. Either way you were out of my reach. JG

Stranger: You did not — really?? Why didn’t you tell me that before? JG

You: I swear I've mentioned that before. You know, like I wrote GWash for Chris? You were in mind already when I was writing. LMM

Stranger: I know you wrote Washington for Chris, but also damn. I guess it just blows my mind every time I hear you say it?? JG

You: Well, yeah. I had a big ass gay crush on you at that point, so why wouldn't I try and rope you in to my project? LMM

Stranger: Well, fuck. How could I say no to you, Lin? It’s literally impossible. With those big, bright eyes and all of those words. JG

You: Ha, insert say no to this reference here. LMM You think my eyes are big and bright? Aww, shucks, ya making me blush! LMM

Stranger: You’ve got such doe eyes, and those lashes, Lin. I’d murder someone for lashes like that. But you’re incredibly handsome. JG

You: Don't do murder, that's bad. LMM [delay] Well, your uh, flight is booked! LMM

Stranger: I’m not going to murder... maybe. JG

Stranger: Oh, thank you! You really are too much. JG

You: I know, I know. Get told it on the daily. LMM I'll get a car to pick you up from the airport (not because I'm lazy but I don't fancy getting mobbed if I come meet you). LMM

Stranger: I don’t blame you not wanting to get mobbed. Am I going to be staying with you? JG

You: Of course. This is a big suite, it's got two bedrooms! LMM

Stranger: Then you’ll see me in the suite! We’ll have a lot of fun practicing your lines at all hours. JG

You: And staying up watching old movie musicals like we're at a slumber party. LMM

Stranger: Too bad I can’t braid your hair anymore. JG

You: You were always so good at that. LMM Face masks though...! LMM

Stranger: It’s the Pennsylvania Dutch in me. JG

Stranger: Face masks! And manicures. Bet your nail beds are a mess. JG

You: They are, you gotta sort them out. LMM Anyway, it's late, we should sleep. But I will see you at my crazy fancy suite. LMM

Stranger: I’ll fix ‘em up. But ok, yes. Sleep. I’ll see you in a handful of hours! JG

You: Lin definitely didn't sleep much that night, far too excited to see Jon the next day. He worked a little the next morning, keeping an eye on the flight tracker for Jon's plane so he knew when it arrived safe, and got a driver to go pick him up. So, the fame might have changed him a little, but it was worth it. He looked up when he heard the key card he'd had given to Jon at the front desk clicked in the door and got up, a huge grin on his face. "Hey! It's my favourite heartthrob!" He said, running over and practically jumping at the taller man to hug him.

Stranger: Jon definitely didn’t sleep until he was on the plane — thankfully he was one of the lucky ones who could conk out on flights — he was just too excited to see Lin. There were nerves festering in the pit of his stomach that he had long since thought dead. As if getting confirmation that Lin wasn’t straight changed anything between them. It did not, but he couldn’t get those damn butterflies to settle down as he keyed his way into the suite. He didn’t have a moment to even set his bags down before he had to drop one in order to huddle Lin against him so they didn’t topple over. He was laughing brightly, unable to help it, as he carelessly dropped the rest of this things to get both arms around the ball of energy. “Hello to you too, Lin! Let me get in here,” he said, still laughing. But it was easy to shuffle them a few steps into the suite so the door could close behind him. “Look at you,” Jon sighed, getting both hands up onto Lin’s shoulders. “You look so good, lithe. Like you have a whisper of abs.”

You: It was so crazy that Jon was here, and Lin could actually hug him, it was like a dream come true. He'd really needed someone or the next few weeks would have been unbearable. He beamed up at him as Jon looked at him, nothing but true, unfiltered happiness in his eyes. "I do! If I suck in and you squint!" He said, before hugging him again. "God, you've like, totally beefed out. Mindhunter really did a number on you, huh? Look at how in shape we both are, I'm so proud," he rambled on.

Stranger: “Beefed out, god yes please keep telling me that. They have me working out far too much for my liking, but if you like it then we’re good.” Jon couldn’t help but get a little lost in the sound of Lin’s voice and the bright spark in his eyes. He ducked a little so he could duck his head to Lin’s shoulder. “You look great, so great. A sight for sore eyes, that’s for sure. Pittsburgh is so dull especially because it doesn’t have your spark.”

You: Lin hugged him tight, pressing his face against Jon's hair for a moment. God, he smelled good. Focus. "Are we just gonna compliment each other for the whole week? Because I am so good with that!" He pulled away eventually and picked up a few of Jon's bags. "There we go, I'll show you to your room, kind sir," he put on his English accent that he now had perfected from Poppins. "Follow me!" He went off in the direction of the other bedroom next to his.

Stranger: Jon couldn’t stop laughing, the happiness just pouring out of him from being close to Lin again. “I could spend all damn day telling you how awesome you are.” Gathering up his other things, he trailed after Lin slowly, looking around the suite with open wonder. “Listen, if you don’t talk like that all day, I’m going to be so disappointed.” Tucking his bags into the closet in the bedroom, Jon tossed his keys and wallet onto dresser and immediately went to the window to get a look at the view. “This is actual paradise, I hope you know.”

You: Lin put his bags down on the bed before going to stand beside him at the window. "I know, right?" He sighed happily. "Mi pais es tan hermoso," he said fondly, before looking up at Jon. "That means, my country is so beautiful. Now, you gotta make a choice. Jack the lamplighter voice, or Puerto Rican Lin!" He joked, rolling his Rs in an exaggerated fashion.

Stranger: Jon reeled Lin into his side pretty easily, his arm settling around his shoulders. “I don’t honestly care which Lin I get because I still get you regardless. But now I know now why you love this island so much.” Leaning toward the window, as if that would get him closer to the view of the sea, Jon was beaming. “How is this place even real? I’ll have to go exploring.”

You: Lin leaned easily against him, fitting snugly against his body. Oh man, this was nice. "I'll have to take you on a tour," he promised, looking up at the wonder on Jon's face rather than the view. It was arguably more beautiful. Not arguably. Factually. "But I wanna just hang out with you first for a while. Order room service, maybe a bottle of champagne to celebrate..."

Stranger: This closeness was what he had missed the most about Lin — about how well they fit together and how warm Lin was. Turning his face to look at him, he was only a littler surprised to find Lin already looking at him. A slight blush overtook his face and he laughed quietly. “You can give me a tour tomorrow morning. I am so down for staying in and seeing champagne-happy Lin.”

You: "I am such a lightweight now, I hope you're prepared to handle me!" Lin grinned and pulled away from his side, only to grab his hand. He didn't want to be separated from him, and honestly, he was a little touch starved at present. He grabbed a menu that Jon could read over his shoulder, practically leaning back so Jon's chest was pressed against his back. Was it hot in there? "What are you feelin?" He asked, reading over the desserts. He had a sweet tooth.

Stranger: “I am well-versed in corralling drunk friends. Besides, you’re easy,” Jon winked overly dramatically and happily held onto Lin’s hand. The contact was beyond nice and he practically wrapped himself around Lin as they perused the menu. “I’m feeling being indulgent. No gym time, no strict diet. Just get a bunch to share?” His free hand settled idly over Lin’s hip, holding him close as if he was afraid Lin would just disappear.

You: Lin grinned when he felt Jon’s hand settling on to his hip, almost shivering at the contact. “Sounds perfect.” He pulled Jon over to the sofa where the phone was, sitting down, half in Jon’s lap as he reeled off a massive order of room service, a bottle of champagne, and he checked their mini bar was suitably stocked as well.

Stranger: Jon handled Lin into laying down on the couch beside him, his head landing in his lap. Not that it took too much convincing really. It was always easy to get Lin where he wanted him. There it was easier to run his fingers through his short hair. “This is going to be a great night, just you and me. Running lines for the play?” It was like they hadn’t spent weeks and months apart.

You: Lin grinned up at Jon when he put the phone down, gazing into his pretty eyes. “Oh yeah, just like the old days,” he said. “Aren’t you just so excited for the play? I wonder if they’ll make us stage kiss!” He put on a high school voice, bringing up their inside joke from years ago.

Stranger: Jon burst out laughing before getting himself under control. “God, what if they make us stage kiss in the play?” Jon whispered, though fighting not to giggle again. He failed. “It’s been a while since you kiss-bombed me.”

You: “I know! Oh, I miss my surprise kissing you for the internet,” Lin sighed happily. “I bet twitter misses it. I know I sure do!” He’d always made excuses before to kiss him, because he’d just always wanted to. Jon just thought it was a prank, before. Lin wished things were different.

Stranger: “You ever just want to kiss me just to kiss me?” Jon asked after a prolonged moment of silence. Looking down at Lin — bright eyed and so handsome — Jon didn’t even bother keeping his thoughts to himself. “I missed you, really. And I had been so convinced that I was living in some weird limbo with you being out of reach but not really out of reach now, are you?” He babbled a little, the words just sort of not stopping.

You: The tone changed and Lin’s expression softened, listening to Jon. “Maybe I was out of reach for a while,” he said quietly, his heart pounding hard in his chest. “But I’ve wanted to kiss you period for years,” he confessed.

Stranger: Pushing Lin’s hair away from his forehead, Jon just kept touching him idly. “You should do it, then, if you’d still like to. I’d like it a lot.” His hands were shaking even as he threaded his fingers through that soft, thick hair.

You: “Yeah?” Lin whispered, shivering as Jon touched him. “I think I’d like that too.” He leaned up from Jon’s lap (using his newfound abs), reaching up to put his hand on the side of his neck. He looked at him for just a moment, before leaning in and pressing their lips together.

Stranger: It was like Lin was moving in slow motion, Jon could hardly believe it. He shifted just enough to make it easier on Lin to kiss him. It was tentative and sweet and Jon’s heart was about to leap out of his chest and he was sure Lin could feel it. Curling his hand around the back of Lin’s head, Jon encouraged the kiss to deepen.

You: Lin closed his eyes as they kissed, just feeling how nice and sweet it was to be kissing him properly, and not for some prank. He made a quiet noise as it started to deepen, as full of noise as ever. He couldn’t keep quiet at any aspect of his life. He melted against Jon’s chest, allowing the kiss to deepen even further, pressing his tongue against the seam of Jon’s plump lips.

-- And then it got a little NSFW that I won’t post here -- 

[moonlight--cafe]

Hey hey hey, had a very stressful day but I'm here to somehow cheer myself up, I'm very much still waiting on your self ship I'm so excited about it even though It's not for me, I see you've been getting a lot of work done I feel so happy for you, yeonjun fic oh my, I live yeonjun sm I'm gonna read ur fic brb

🏃‍♀️💨

I think I'm almost done with the letter, just a couple of tweaks and actually writing it then I'm done, I'll try to paint on it too, If I can that is (╯•﹏•╰)

Me craves bubble tea ಥ‿ಥ

Thanks, I was really upset about it, I'll just find other ones so I shouldn't really worry, you made my mood about it so much better

T_T

Hey hey!

And don’t worry my self ship is nearly done, and sadly it’s not the full Yeonjun fic but honestly after I finish my overdue essay today I will be pumping out that fic. I was adding more to it yesterday and it’s got a lot to it, the general vibes were there in the teaser but honestly y’all are in for a hell of a ride 😅 and sorry for not finishing the fic sooner I got way too attached to ladybird Jun and I really didn’t want to finish it because I’m gonna miss him lmao

And oh my god!!! I’m so excited for my letter you have no idea!!!!! I still can’t believe you’re doing this for me 🥹

I also hope you get your bubble tea fix, you deserve it for all your efforts 😘

And don’t worry love I’m always here to cheer you up 💗

[boundlessdaisy]

IMMACULATE PROSE that reminded me of Wilde’s Dorian Grey in its unapologetic gothic romanticism which, yes, although that is characteristic of your typical DA novel, RARELY to this degree (I can only think of Donna Tartt to match).

This book was a page turner in the same way that Coetzee’s Disgrace was a page turner in the sense that yes, there is The Act — there is this awful act that is the nucleus of the whole thing, but in truth the actual driving force in the plot is the masterfully convoluted inner turmoil of your terribly dysfunctional but oh so painfully relatable antiheroes. I know this is edgy as hell, plotwise, but the prose. is. so. worth. it.

Each word is so deliberate and so exact that it creates its own authority, so that the characters' feelings become the only important issue to be concerned with. I always cringe in the first few chapters of these books about edgy fucking teenagers despite or probably precisely because I'm an edgy fucking teenager myself, but with this one I came in and just enjoyed it right away.

The magnetic pull of these types of narratives really rely on that dramatic irony which Nemerever sublimely sustained throughout. It's the initial, voyeuristic delight of seeing that this situation is so fucked up but the characters very sincerely do not; then, from the same source, the dread and tragedy of knowing that something horrible is going to happen, but not being able to do anything about it. This was masterfully executed by Nemerever in this one. In a DEBUT NOVEL, no less! King behavior.

Honestly, the style is more than enough reason to pick this up. I'm not even gonna start to explain how this book made me FEEL. I literally was just sobbing. I'm 23 now so maybe that's how I was able to take more from this than I would've had at 17. Retrospectively, this made so many points about the devastating intersection between bone-deep self-loathing and love.

Anyway brb im about to write a fan letter to Micah Nemerever. Another reason to only give your money to queer writers from now on.

[kodzukoi]

OMGGGGG WAIT WHAT? $95 PER HOUR? WITH THAT I CAN EAT FOR A WHOLE WEEK SJDJSJS jokes, but woah, everyday I find out something that makes me want to quit school JDJDJS like??? how's THAT possible???

OMGMEKSKDKFKDJSJSKDK I SAW LUVBUB POST BEFORE YOUR AMSWER (she's such a queen when it comes to crochet, im jealous of her talent istg!!!!!) AND I WAS LIKE, COULD IT BE THE SAME????? MAYBE???????? IS IT POSSIBLE? AND THEN I SAW YOUR REPLY AND I WAS SCREAMING AAAAAAAAAAAA THE LITTLE KOI ITS SO CUTE I'M IN LOVEEEEEE

also the signature is making my heart run laps, I LOVE YOUR WRITING, and I'm OBSESSED with the "K" alone, it's the first letter of my name so, I can imagine it as being on a necklace JSJDJS aaaaah the talent, and the tiny little baby koi, I'm sobbing, it's so cute 🥺 I want that little fish in my pocket nOW >:)

—Koi anon !!

THAT'S WHAT I SAID LIKE SDKLFWOEIRJSLDFJ HUHHHHHHH (i don't remember the exact price he charged so don't quote me on that laksdfoaiwerjlskdjf) BUT WE SHOULD BE GOOD LITTLE PEOPLE AND NOT PUSH THE "u don't need school to be successful" agenda bc obviously school is a good thing and... and ANYWAYS IKKKKK I WAS (AND STILL AM) IN TEARS SOBBING. her>>>>>> (bub if u see this, we both love u very much and i wish to shower u w all my love and appreciation for u)

AND IKKKK IF I GET INTO DRAWING LIKE FANART AND STUFF, THAT'S GONNA BE MY SIGNATURE AND IT'S GONNA BE GREAT >:3 that pink and the k??? mwah chef's kiss (also i am accepting the "the talent" part bc i'm actually very proud of that koi fish and i- my brain did good :3)

GONNA DESIGN A NECKLACE FOR U NOW YEP YEP BRB-

[siobhansadlcr]

Orphan Black 5x08

Long rambling ahead because I’ve been crying for hours and I’m a mess. Feel free to message me with your comments and opinions, or if you just want to cry. We need to be each others’ emotional support system during this difficult time. Also, spoilers.

Devastated. Shattered. Heartbroken. Angry. I am falling apart over here you guys. This episode killed me. I knew that it was coming but I still held a sliver of hope in my heart. I realised my hope was void as soon as the episode began though. S’s calmness, the heartfelt scenes with her, Felix and Sarah, and the whole S/Rachel/Ferdifuck reveal all pointed in one direction. 

In all, the episode was very good. I loved how things are starting to come together, how freedom for our clones is so close. The whole thing with the evidence against the Neolutionists made my heart happy. Finally the assholes get what they deserve. I was happy to see an S-centric episode (though I would’ve gladly gone without it if it would’ve ended differently). I loved that the episode showed us some normalcy, showed us all the characters just being a family and supporting each other.

Felix’s art show was really well made and I’m happy that the writers didn’t just forget about his passion for art, but actually took it and turned it into something beautiful. I loved how all the clones got to be a part of it and the concept just further proved the artistic genius that Felix is. And don’t even get me started on his speech to S, Sarah and Adele. I was full on sobbing at this point. 

“So to my galaxy of women, thank you for the nurture.” brb having a breakdown. I need this quote on everything I own

The Cophine scenes made my heart so happy. There wasn’t a lot of them but the little that we got was so beautiful. The fact that Delphine bought the painting of Cosima, and the way they clicked ‘send’ together. Ugh, just beautiful. I love that they are slowly inching towards genuine happiness. I just want them to be safe, in love and happy. At least give me this, OB. pLEASE. 

Ooh and then we have Helena! I felt a little bit bad for Gracie but honestly she had it coming. And the Neolutionists are idiots if they think that they can take down Helena. She is unstoppable and has the skill and strength of a killing machine. And now she has her children to fight for sooo I’m sorry but y’all gonna die. You do not threaten babies, ‘kay??

*Takes deep breath* okay here we go. Siobhan Sadler. My favourite character, the one I’ve looked up to and loved since day one. She’s gone, but died a fucking hero. I knew that they were going to kill her off, but watching the episode and seeing them build up the love for Siobhan did not make it easier. She had a perfect plan figured out that would ensure freedom for her family, but she knew that she wasn’t going to make it. I thought the scene of her arranging the flowers for Felix was such a beautiful scene because it was sort of like foreshadowing for a future parallel where Felix and Sarah have to arrange flowers for her (why am i doing this to myself? ;___; ) I know a reading of the letter she wrote is coming and it’s going to break me. Just seeing S writing it was so heart wrenching ugghh. Maria is so bloody good, god damn. 

Siobhan working with Rachel and Ferdifuck (yes I will forever call him this, he isn’t even worth that) added another layer to her and made me love her even more. She does whatever it takes to keep her family safe, she would sacrifice herself for her family’s happiness and that is exactly what she did. When Rachel called to say that Ferdifuck had survived the meeting, S knew that he was coming for her and that the chance of her surviving was slim, but her family’s safety was on the line and she’ll be damned if she let Ferdifuck anywhere near them. Side note: I hate Rachel slightly less now. 

I screamed the moment Ferdifuck shot her and at this point I was crying rivers and having a full on breakdown. He thought he had her. But NOPE, he underestimated Siobhan mothereffin Sadler. Her asking for the photo of Felix and Sarah in order to be able to grab the gun was such a genius yet heartbreaking move. She shot him and I have never been this happy. I loved her final words

“You know, as a woman, I’m 14% more likely to survive a gunshot wound than you are. Maybe not this one but, okay, it’s been a good run.” 

Such a Siobhan thing to say, but it killed me. Deep down she hoped she would survive, but she was content with dying. She had protected her family, her bond with her children was stronger than ever and she passed knowing that they had a bright future. The last thing she saw was Felix and Sarah smiling.

“Chickens.” cue sherry ugly sobbing. realises kira is going to have to deal with this as well. remembers kira calling s “home.” cries even more. Who needs a heart anyway?

Do I think Siobhan Sadler deserved better? Hell yes. I think the writers got a little too kill happy this season and wanted one death that would shock us more than ever, one that really hurt. I mean, yeah…sure. But I think killing her off when there’s only two episodes left was unnecessary and didn’t do much plot-wise. Ferdifuck could’ve gone out a different way (even though I’m really glad that it was by S’s hand, especially after she had been shot herself. It only proved how fucking bad ass she was and that Ferdifuck was never better than her). There’s still so many things that need to be resolved and there is not enough time for us to properly see how S’s death affects everyone and how they bounce back from it. I might’ve been more okay with it if it had happened earlier on because then I feel like it would have served a point to the story: to have the characters grow even more and take what S taught them and try to heal. Now I feel like everything might be too rushed. 

The episode was an emotional roller coaster and I am so broken. Siobhan Sadler is the role model everyone should have and no one would have been able to play her as well as Maria. She brought a depth and life to Siobhan that I don’t think anyone else could have accomplished. 

S became everything I needed in a female role model. My own mum passed away two years ago and S - as well as Maria and her music, but that’s a different story - helped me so much. I won’t go into that now though. 

Anyway. 

Thank you, Siobhan, for everything. ♡