I've been feeling kinda funky lately with irl stuff to the point where creating is tough to do. But it's a vicious cycle-you don't create because you feel bad, but you'd feel better if you created.
I suppose for me though, it's more like life events sap any belief in getting this story out there, and that leads to negative thinking and I spiral into the unhealthy artist monologue of "man no one cares, not even I'm enjoying this so why do this etc etc" talk your brain does when you can't do your creative hobbies as much as you'd like.
Anyways, TLDR my cat is missing, school is a doozy since my car just went boo boo, and I'm in a transitioning state between schools and homes, I'm debating if I should even go to school and just learn a trade etc etc. So I'm going on hiatus while I figure this junk out. I can't wait to see what my mutuals and peers have made while I'm gone :3c
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Alr so while reading Regimen I just kept thinking about how Tord thinks of Tom and. Just.
Paul and Pat: sir do you want to kill him or fuck him?
And how Tord is such a sore loser.
Tord: make things interesting ;)
Tom: *makes things interesting in a way he wasn’t expecting supposed to*
Tord: D:<
HAHAHAHAHAH YEAH I GUESS THATS HOW IT IS
You can see from my ew Stay AU I actually have a favorite way of writing Future Tord/RL where he’s still a horribly homicidally inclined megalomaniac, but sane enough to at least be coherent and caring to people who matter (to him).
For Regimen however, I literally thought to myself “Hey, what if RL but no therapist.” Now we have this mess of a roachrat.