#but also it’s self aware and it knows that and it’s very funny and I hate everything

[sillyuin]

Seventeen reacts - When you give them flowers 💐

Note: I'm not being self-indulgent (Yes, I am). English isn't my mother language, so let me know if there's any misspelling.

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Seungcheol: He gets really pouty, probably a bit sulky because you're spending your money on him. However, recieving a bouquet of precious flowers made his heart melt and gives you a big hug while saying how much he loves you (be aware he will buy one twice bigger for you!)

Jeonghan: He's a babygirl, he's used to it(?) will look at you as a way to tease you, but not so long to make you really mad. Bursts out laughing and gives you a gentle kiss on your forehead, buying those flowers is very sweet of you and makes him feel truly loved.

Joshua: Has this funny face that says "is this really for me?" and when he realizes it is, he can't help but smile as wide as possibly. He's the one who buys flowers in this relationship so this was really unexpected. He thanks you and promise to compensate you (you told him it's okay but he playfully says he's not listening).

Jun: The shyest smile ever, he's super happy that you really took the time buy him flowers. Later that night he treats you with your favourite meal and tells you to watch your comfort movie, highlighting how grateful he is that you're in his life.

Hoshi: His heart is melting so bad that he can't speak even tho he has a lot to say. He gives you a strong hug and kiss your cheek, and finally starts speaking just to say how much he loves this little things you do for him (while you're drying his tears).

Wonwoo: At first can't believe and asks you twice if the bouquet you just give him is really for him (that's how giddey he is). Finally realizes it, a bit confused but glad and thankful, then he says those flowers are as pretty as you (in the shyest way possible).

Woozi: Tries to pretend that he's not that happy, but looses it inmidietly. Also, you make sure to tell him he's that lovable and how he deserves it, the right formula to make him flustered enough to hug you tightly, hidding his blushing face away from yours.

Minghao: He askes why you give him a bouquet all of the sudden, but he really doesn't care about the reasons, Hao appreciates every time you look after him. He puts his arm over your shoulders a whispers a thank you in your ear.

Mingyu: Sparkling eyes, six feet tall and super happy. Be ready for the tighest hug ever because his day was so normal but you turned it into a very special one. He clings onto you for the rest of the day and makes his best to please you (prepare for extra cuddles!)

Dokyeom: Happiest man ever, he feels like receiving the most precious gift in the world. He tells you how adorable you are for doing it, and that he's going to compasate all the love you give him because you deserve it (forehead kisses included).

Seungkwan: A bit shocked to speak at first but it all turns into giggles and tears of joy. After taking a deep breath, he tells you how happy he is and how precious you are, while rubbing your cheek and leaving small kisses on your face.

Vernon: "Is this really for me?" 2.0. Doesn't know what to do because there's a lot going on his head, so you get closer a kiss his cheek. He blushes and gets shy, trying to cover his face with one hand, but his smile is way too obvious to hide it. Later he treats you with your fav snacks.

Dino: Happiest man ever 2.0. He's so cheerful he can't hide it and gives you a warm hug, then asks you all kind of questions about the bouquet you choose cuz he's super excited to hear you (secretly is planning to give you flowers too).

[abysshare]

My OC post is blowing up... you know what that means.

Show me your OCs

If i don't tag your fandom, or if you don't have a fandom oc, or self insert, thats totally okay, you can still join.

Sonas, self inserts, OCs, give me all of them. I cannot guarantee I'll get to reblog all of them but this is your chance to show them off ( picrews, dress up games, sims etc are ALSO valid. Don't have any pictures of them but fiction? ALSO valid )

I'll go first:

I'm very proud of how the shading and colors came out on his clothes and the patterns on their skin!!! I improve all the time so my art is all over the place but i genuinely am proud of this one.

Edit: to be clear since i got an anon misunderstanding ( which was very funny ), by OC post i mean this one:

( link )

I'm very aware my art posts do not get more than 12 likes and thats okay! ^_^

[starbuck]

Black Sails is just a continuous string of

“Can you BELIEVE this guy is Like That??” — guy who is also Like That, but slightly to the left

[we-cool-beans]

I just found your blog and Idk if it’s an oc but benrey I believe that’s his name? Well he looks so similar to my oc Benjamin the sin of gluttony and I think it’s really cool!

He’s the purple one :) I just though it was cool what do you think?

Huh??? Brothers???

[pseudo-soda]

lately i have been attempting to actually work on solidifying character designs! wow what a concept!

[saltycharacters]

Anonymous: About WWDITS: I mean you obviously hate the show so I’m not going to tell you to watch it, but it may actually surprise you that the dynamic Guillermo and Nandor have isn’t the same three seasons later as it was in the pilot episode. I think you’ve kind of made a snap judgement about it when things are explained/change greatly later down the line. It’s not flawless, but certainly not as severe as you’re making it out to be. You’re entitled to your opinion though.

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saltycharacters: You have severely misunderstood where I’m coming from, not to mention have some alarming ideas about romance and apparently believe that every relationship can be salvaged no matter what harm either party experiences from it. The only reason I feel the right to make a “snap judgment” from episode one is because the grounds of their “relationship” is abusive and unsalvageable; they’ve permanently damaged how they exist in each other’s lives and healthy romance cannot exist in what they’ve created. It’s part of their history forever, and some time and bonding will not erase it. The power imbalance is so severe from the start, like you guys know Master x Servant relationships are almost always an automatic red flag right???? Is this not common sense??? For fucks sake, Guillermo compares himself to a “slave”, only refers to him as “master”, and Nandor (and everyone else in the household) treats him like shit. AND THIS HAS BEEN GOING ON FOR TEN YEARS. This isn’t some gradual, evenly spaced development where spending time with this guy makes Nandor care about him; Nandor has been treating this poor guy like a worthless little errand boy for 10 entire fucking years, only suddenly having a change of heart at the 11th year? What fucking took him so long? Maybe later episodes explain but honestly the reason doesn’t matter. Guillermo deserves better than to be with a guy who barely respects him, basically owns him and who takes advantage of his lack of self worth, because apparently Guillermo likes being bullied around by a bunch of entitled white bastards who regularly benefit from this. This is literally just Lefou x Gaston with extra steps, but the difference is that somehow most queer people realized Disney’s pathetic attempt at gay rep failed and the other gets praise from the same gay people.

I only needed to watch the first episode because I knew nothing they could do afterwards would ever make their relationship healthy again. If they wanted it to be healthy, or have some nuance, they would’ve shown it from the start. I really, really worry about you people; I sincerely hope the people who ship Guillermo x Nandor or Rose x Pearl or any other similar ship have more self-respect in their own relationships. You guys are letting rose-tinted glasses cloud your judgment so you can go around unironically shipping some poor sap who deserved better writing, much less a better boyfriend, and some cunt who waits 10 years to treat him like a person.

[toshkakoshka]

welcome to my genshin onlyfans au dump. yes you read that correctly. actually the porn will be off-screen i just thought it was funny in my head. idk if this takes place in america/europe 

aether (19-20 ish) is a Surviving college student (a rare species) who spends time earning money via onlyfans and a decently popular twitter icon. he’s very gay and exhausted but at least hes getting $$$ while in the middle of studying for investigative journalism. he misses his sister who studies in another country. 

paimon (19) is aether’s roommate and aether’s lesbian best friend, while she mostly mooches off of aether’s food they also make bad choices together and Have in fact scammed people on both Grindr and Tinder together for cash. 

amber (20) a school committee girl and one of aether’s go-to besties because she’s in one of his classes. she’s dedicated to her studying and drinks several cups of coffee just to survive and aether has to drag her into his apartment to cook breakfast for her. 

venti (26) is a post-graduate, he earned a degree in Something that he hasn’t gotten any use for as since the bottom line is: capitalism still made him a broke bitch. he goes day to day crashing in peoples’ places while doing gigs regularly. aether’s gay best friend who Sleeps Around a lot and introduced paimon and aether to Grindr Scamming

kaeya (24) is a school committee who handles (Relaxed) security for events, he’s a fan of aether’s content and is an entire instagram baddie and Actual model. emotionally a disaster but nobody actually knows about that. everybody Simps. nobody actually knows if hes a student or not they all just see him Vibe. aether can’t Stand him but he would jump on him if he could. 

jean (38) the world’s most exhausted professor. aether’s second favorite, he offers to bring her food when she feels like she’s Dying before/after class and has to work out everyday or her body will Deflate without her brain. help her. the main admin of the council/committees.  

lisa (38) is jean’s partner and Theorized Wife but nobody actually knows their business together aside from the professional side. lives off of coffee and aether’s number 1 favorite because she likes to mother him around (and then some) and dote over him not knowing about the things he Does. she gets him to do errands for her and sleeps until he gets back. also one of the admins of the council/committees.  

diluc (22) the young owner of the family bar. also the reason why venti is still Alive and will gladly do it if it means venti attracts customers. he has seen aether’s content at least twice in his life and will never recover.

zhongli (29) is a returning college student who’s going back for business related purposes. venti introduces him to aether and almost manages to ruin his life because he asks Venti Of All People when it came to asking about his content. aether will die for him with his legs open

childe (23) is another rich boy college student who has very Sketchy connections (rumors say that he’s part of the russian mafia, even if he’s italian)  and hangs out with aether regularly. he supports his onlyfans and they actually Do sleep together sometimes

[blennie]

Sherlock buys busts of napoleon to smash to pieces when he’s in a good mood

[notjanine]

If we are to truly reach a moment where we might be finished with England, cleared away to make room for something else, there most certainly lies a dark moment between here and there.

Black Sails - XXXVI.

[atollon]

i saw u reading the sacret hastory on ur instagram story and i was like "boy......u've got a big storm coming"

I’m glad I waited through the 46 holds at the library for it…………….and that I didn’t end up canceling mine and buying it after the first month 

[delusion-of-negation]

lmao over that person getting supportive anon messages like "yes it was clearly only meant as a dig at straight women" and ignoring all of the aphobia in the notes and shit. almost everyone reads it as I did, and I only made three jokes on it, 1) I repeated someone else's comment, 2) an aphobe showed up and someone was shocked so I made the "you came to the circus and saw a clown" joke, and 3) the "maybe they just have a problem with attraction to men :/" comment. and as soon as op said it was just a goof, I took their word for it. so many are reading your post like that, I'm the one who went oh okay cool it's not meant like that. but you're gonna block me because I explained why I took it that way, and then go back to your anons who are bitching at me by apparently also misinterpreting the post because literally everybody is reading that shit. honestly I'm just tired and didn't give them any benefit of the doubt when I saw all the wild shit in the notes and made some- one could argue- slightly mean jokes, and I said that, but they're acting like I was absurd for seeing it that way. I mean, that said, I'm grateful for the block since that reduced the strangers spamming me tbh.

[mayullla]

Title: Siblings' Account

Character(s): Mainly Childe, Yae Miko; multiple characters mentioned (Genshin Impact)

Summary: Sagau; They weren't supposed to move, well at least not by themselves. Yet here they were greeting you with a sly smile on their face telling you to keep it a secret from your family that they were self aware.

Note: I wrote this over 3 times already either because I was not happy with it or the idea just became something else aka; the child with gold blood. But still I thought the concept would be funny so I tried to redo it again.... then it got stuck on my drafts.

Warnings/tags: fem!reader, child!reader, purely platonic, obsessive themes (almost yandere but platonic yandere), manipulation, almost cultish

Continuation: Genshin Banners and Pulls

Your siblings always played that game whenever they had free time. Sometimes they would play it for around 30 mins sometimes for hours. 

You liked to watch them play the game, there was so much colorful scenery and the characters were all very cute and colorful. You often say wave your hands at them when you see your sibling swap their character for another. Sometimes your siblings would let you play the game, where some events were simple for a child to control like puzzles. 

Sometimes they would go to the character dialog menu and let you click them or go to the teapot so when you ask if you could greet the characters good morning or good night.

So this… it never happened before… your siblings had left you with the game a few times before and the characters always responded to what you thought they would the first time you spoke to them.

Maybe because this time your sibling suddenly rushed out of the room due to a stomach ache you thought you would be playing the game a little longer than usual.

You watched the characters move, bumping and rushing whenever you press a button. You were giggling finding that alone amusing enough for you as you watch them rush around.

Till they suddenly slowed down.

Huh? You clicked buttons, yet they didn't move at all instead of that the character, Childe just looked at you, his face looked more expressive than before when he would always keep a straight face. He waved at you, which made you tilt your head in wonder and awe as the character walked closer to the screen and waved at you again.

“Hey girly!” He said with a grin on his face. You gasped as you leaned forward to the screen in excitement and waved at the man “Mister!” You said, your voice loud as you watched him laugh at your reaction. His expression now looked so much natural to you, as he rubbed his eyes to rid of the tear from laughing so hard.

“Call me Childe. You know my nickname or maybe you can call me brother if you want to ~?” He asked, you nodded furiously so excited as he continued to chuckle at your expression.

“You shouldn't have done that.”

A voice that you recognize was from the pink fox lady that made your eyes sparkle all the more. You watched as Yae Miko appear on the screen with a sly smile on her face. “Pretty miss!”

“Dear, you really are just adorable sometimes.” Yae Miko laughed at what you called her as she gave a small wave towards you, telling you to just call her Miko. “And if you going to call this trouble maker brother, then just call me sister.”

“Brother and sister?” You asked them, your eyes looked as if you were unsure and you were asking them for permission and reassurance when they told you to call them that. “Yes little one, you can call us that.” “Yup.”

They were moving! They were talking to you! It was so hard for your to calm down, this never happened before! How come your siblings never told you about this before? You better show it to them, you just can't wait! “Ae-” 

“Shhhh!!” You looked at Childe who tried to stop you from calling your sibling, he almost looked as if he was about to jump from the screen as he tried to shush you, he looked mildly frantic all the while Yae Miko was chuckling as she too also placed a finger on top of her lips. “Let's keep this a secret between us alright, love?” She told you, as Childe nodded at what she said.

“We aren't supposed to be moving after all.”

You looked at the screen and hesitantly nodded unsure. Childe noticed that as he quickly added “It could be a secret between us? Think about how fun it is to know something that nobody knows and it is just between us who knows about it.” He chuckled as you fell for the trap from the sparkles in your eyes, as you thought about the fact that you finally have a secret of your own that nobody knows. Your siblings sometimes didn't tell you something telling you that it was their own secret. You would often pout feeling left out and unincluded but now you have your own secret that belonged to you and something that your sibling doesn't know.

You didn't realize how all of this was strange, how these characters aren't supposed to move like this, to talk so naturally as if it was something that they were able to do from the start. How they told you to keep this a secret, your family told you many times not to talk to strangers and you listened but this was a little different. You were familiar with these characters, you saw them almost every day whenever your siblings turned on the computer or their phones and open the game. You were soon to trust these characters, too happy to see the character move on their own and talk to you.

You didn't understand the sly smile the two gave to you when you promised them that you would not tell anybody about this. 

“You know Zhongli and the other archons would be pissed to know that we got to speak to her first?” Childe said to Yae Miko, he didn't look worried instead her looked rather amused by the situation. Yae Miko rolled her eyes, “Ei would sulk soon as she finds out.”

You didn't know that they have always been self-aware, ever since your siblings downloaded the game they didn't see the error that had happened and that all eyes were on them as the two went around the game. They didn't notice that when you started to watch your siblings play the game all the eyes also went to you.

You really were adorable, whenever you would wave your hands and greet the characters while on the field or at the teapot, or even in the character menu. You would always greet them when you can and when your sibling told you that you don't need to and that this was just a game you told them that you want to do it because they were helping your siblings travel the world it is only proper to greet them when you can.

Dear do you know how many of the characters just wanted to hug back then only to be held back by others? Just how adorable are you??

They always wanted to respond to your greetings, Klee would beg Albedo and Jean asking them if she could finally say hello to you and perhaps become friends and play with you only to be told that she cant. Qiqi pouted when Baizhu told her the same thing, Diona tried to sneak to the screen when she wasn't on the team only to be caught by Diluc on the collar as he told her that she was not allowed to be near the screen. (The scratches he got later were amusing to many.)

It was the same for the older character too, as Xiangling, Hu tao and Yoimiya would sometimes whine that they could not greet the adorable you who was always greeting them, just why are they not allowed to greet you? Gorou’s tail would wag a little more than usual when you greet him or compliment him as he desperately try to hold himself back from greeting you, you could see Sucrose's ears flinch when she heard your greeting as she bit her lips trying to act like nothing more than a character in the game.

Ayato and Ayaka would love to treat you like a sibling when you greet them good morning. They were rather disappointed that they only have the same line to greet you with and could not say anything else apart from it. Barbara and Jean were also the same as they wanted to ask you how was your day when you greet them only to hold themselves back. 

Chongyun, Bennett and Thoma had to hold Itto back when he wanted to yell a greeting to you, unable to control himself anymore. Shenhe was also the same as Yanfei and Kokomi had to reason with the woman that breaking the screen is a really, really bad idea. All the while Sara, Xiao and Rosaria would deny the fact that they wanted to talk to you when they were visibly hating themselves for not being able to say even a simple greeting when you would always do so.

It wasn't like they were sad and angry just because they could not greet you, it was because they were nothing but a game with codes and nothing else. All of them basically had an identity crisis as they were controlled by someone else, they didn't feel human, they felt nothing more than hollow puppets. It just ate their guts the whole time.

It was only because you were there, that they felt a little more human. The way that you would always greet them without fail when you could when you would chat with them telling about your day while your sibling would contain their laugh all the while the character was in the middle of a fight. It was amusing even for them when you asked them how was their day as if they were not in the middle of a boss fight. You would ramble on and about as if you were in there with them to deal with their problems that were made into a stupid story quest.

You would always ask them questions even tho they never answered, and cry when something bad had happened or even worry when they get hurt too much. After you found out that if the bar that was on the bottom of the screen is their health, they noticed you started to watch it rather often. Scared when the hp goes down, where you started telling your older sibling to give them food. Dear, they just found it so cute when you kept on nagging your sibling to always change up the menu in the bag and not to limit their food to sweet madame, some laughed when you started to remember what they like and what they dislike.

You are just adorable, and for some it was hard to admit but they felt more real when you were around, less like codes and something created only for the pleasure of others. Games that are meant to be thrown away at one point when the player grows board, or when the company chooses to give up on it and move on with other projects.

It was soon that more and more characters started to get attached to you, someone noticed how unhealthy some were yet unable to say anything because they were just the same. You have become something like a treasure to them. 

It started with a few where they would try to hide from others as they tried to research how to talk to you, something that was more real than them. Albedo and Sucrose stayed in the labs while they left Klee with Kaeya or someone who could look after her. Lisa, Ganyu, Kokomi and others would look through books to see if there was something that they could use to release them from the control of the game even for a few moments while Ninguang, Ayato, La Signora and other characters would pay big money just so that they have a chance to talk to you.

Well till they realized that even if they were able to talk to you, if they got caught or if word ever got out that that they were moving by themselves ignoring the game's code. They would be deleted, gone, separated from you and be reduced to nothing only to restart in a hollow husk in another person’s device.

The frantic looks as they looked through their memos and notes again to find a way for that not to happen.

They weren't sane, not ever since they found out that they were just but a mere game. Their minds were distorted as they started to no research ways to keep themselves them and alive. Research ways to keep you with them.

It was so slow… so slow but piece by piece they started to figure something out. Releasing themselves and being able to move freely when they so choose to, but they can't let you see that right now well till they found out a way to bring you to them, when they were sure that you would be with them.

When Sucrose found a way, Albedo and her started to dig deeper into the research it took a few months actually but now they found out a way to bring you to them. Drag you and your siblings from that place to them where they would love you and cherish you just as much as you did for them. They would then disconnect their world and from yours so that nobody would be able to take you guys away from them so that all their hard work would not be for not.

They chatted about who would greet you first, and it was decided that the archons would be the first ones to greet you less they don't want another fight to break out after the multiple that already happened that were all related to you.

Childe and Yae Miko just happened to make an... oopsy that is all, so here they are now as you continued to pour question after question to them.

Just a little more, then you and your siblings would be with them.

“Did something happen? I could hear you all the way from the bathroom.” You looked to your side and smiled “Lumine! Aether!!” You yelled, Aether was holding his stomach with his face looking rather relieved while Lumine was holding a tray with a plate and apples.

“Did something actually happened? You look really happy��” Aether asked taking a seat on the computer, looking at it suspiciously. You glanced at your brother as you followed your sister to eat apples. The screen returned to normal with only Childe on the screen with his back shown and no Yae Miko insight.

“It’s a secret!” You told your brother.

Lumine looked at you curiously, taking a glance at Aether who started to play the game after seeing nothing was odd with it.

The apples were delicious!

[starbuck]

hear me out: Hands is LITERALLY decay persisting as a form of life

[elulsdr]

MY FIRST TUMBLR POST EVER !!

hi everyone ! these are just my observations i hope you enjoy it <3

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ASTRO OBSERVATIONS

sag and capricorn placements LOOOVE coffee. or doing anything while drinking coffee. some of them may use it as a coping mechanism because it relaxes them.

virgo placements with leo influence people are SO bossy. they dgaf. they will always be there for you and expect you to do the same. they value loyalty more than anything.

cancers love to show you their cute side but bestie their sister sign is capricorn so they will show you who the boss is.

leo mars people are so scary when they're angry. they could get angry at anything.

sag placements are so blunt, it's actually so funny. they could say the most absurd shit out of nowhere. and the more you expect them to shut up the more they keep going💀

scorpio placements love to keep things secret. like they could have a crush on someone and NOBODY would even know. and most of them do it because they don't want to make this a big deal. BUT they're the most secret keeper person ever. they could know everbodys secret but no one would've know theirs.

venus influence in a natal chart along with pisces could make a person really easy going and well liked. but if they don't have strong mars/mercury influences they may keep silent at anything. ex: they could get bullied by their friends as a joke, even if they don't like it, they would laugh it off. they may be very sensitive. they care sm about their friends.

i know i've said too much about sag placements but they're the type to be "know it alls" they love to brag about it. and they always have something to keep their time with. whether it's a new movie, book anything. they're always the one who knows it first and better.

capricorn placements dress so well. i reaaalllyy love their style. it's always so clean and cute.

libra placements feel so misunderstood sometimes that they don't want to explain themselves. they know that they can fix things by themselves so why would they tell someone to help them.

- also they're not flirting they're just being kind. people who don't understand this always misunderstoods and labels them as big flirts. yes they have charm and all that but they know themselves best. they are aware of their presence and everything.

having leo placements doesn't always mean being confident. if they're undeveloped or harsh aspected they could be so shy and self conscious.

yes libra placements are social butterflies but have you seen geminis??? they could speak to annyyyone and be friends with them but that would be literally it. no further than that. because they're ruled by mercury and are very chatty that makes them really talkative. they may tend to overshare.

cancer moon 8H undeveloped could be SO toxic. they would care for you so much but once you put your attention to something else they would get so jealous and toxic. once they trust you enough they won't let you go. they don't want you to be anyone's but themselves. "i hate everyone but you" kinda trope.

having scorpio moon 1H is really hard because scorpio is all about being secret when 1H is about 'self'. these natives have so many paradoxes in them because they have TOO much mood swings and it scares them. and because of that they are scared that their feelings are gonna scare their partner so they keep it secret </3 i am a scorpio moon 1H myself :')

virgo/aquarius/6H/11H placements may love astrology, mbti types, enneagram etc. because they LOVE LOVE analyzing themselves, their friends and family. it helps them to understand everyone and themselves better. because they are so logical they want to understand why they feel or act like that.

yes mercury signs love to talk but they are completely different. a gemini could talk nonstop, 24/7 about how their day went while a virgo would get straight to the point. virgos don't like long and slow things. they are practical and value their time so much that they will tell a 15 page story in 3 sentences.

-Rum

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AHHH HI EVERYONE!!! i am literally so excited i actually never posted anything here and my first post is this?!?! i hope you like it please let me know <3

[rqnvindr]

of dreams and tea

pairing: kamisato ayato x gn!reader

genre: fluff, mutual pining, childhood friends to lovers

warnings: mention of death

w.c: 1.2k

synopsis: growing up came with too many responsibilities. but it could also be beautiful, if shared with the ones you have loved for as long as you remember. 

a/n: based on the “wistful reminiscence” prompt for axia’s @yelans spring serenade event! thank you so much for letting me be apart of this and i’m happy to share my first ayato piece!

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when you first met ayato, you didn’t know why you had ditched your friends to play with bugs.

just because you where given the rare opportunity to stumble upon the eldest son of the yashiro commission, didn’t mean you had to follow him around for the rest of the festival. he was going to get in trouble for meddling amongst the crowd instead of standing on the sidelines with his parents, and you were guaranteed a hefty scolding from your own family for ‘bothering’ the future of inazuma. yet, here you were, at seven years old, frolicking with someone that many commonfolk didn’t even get to meet as adults.

“this is so much better than that crowded place, isn’t it?” ayato smiles upon watching his onikabuto beat yours. “there’s not even a firework show this year! lame!”

you don’t know how to respond, already embarrassed from watching your pathetic bug representative topple over at the mercy of ayato’s. he cheers victoriously, and you wonder how he could be so content with openly criticizing all of the work his family had put into this year’s festivities. 

“um...won’t your parents be mad at you for saying something like that?” you ask.

“nah. though they do say that i’m a ‘troublemaker’ and are a bit worried about me inheriting all of the clan’s responsibilities,” he was very self-aware for someone his age. mischievous, but thoughtful. this was the kind of kid who’d grow up to be a scheming, albeit considerate leader. 

“but i’m the perfect prince anyway! i’m strong, handsome, funny, smart, and everyone loves me!”

who was everyone, exactly? it was a general, boastful statement, typical of a self-absorbed child. you never expected to be contemplating your feelings about him sooner or later, no matter how many times you ruminated on simpler times, back when the innocence of childhood let you get away with saying anything that came to your mind.

ayato handles everything with grace, even as a teenager who is still grieving from the loss of his parents no matter how much he tries to hide it. his younger sister ayaka also puts up a dignified front, wearing a smile as she blesses the city streets with unmatched elegance. 

you wish to say hi to ayato. it’s been a while since the two of you have talked. he’s busier than ever, with a schedule more hectic than any 16 year-old should have to deal with. if there was anything you could do to check in on him you would step in for sure..

“you should talk to my sister more. she doesn’t say it but she does get lonely.” you were staring into the distance watching ayaka eat alone when a male voice from behind startled you. how did ayato creep up like that without you noticing? the rumors about him running an underground ninjutsu organization were probably true after all.

you laugh at him. “i guess i could get to know her better. she really isn’t little ayaka anymore..”

“just don’t get so close to her that you start forgetting about me.” ayato flings an arm around your shoulder. your face heats up with how laid-back he acts in public with you. 

if you hadn’t been so self-conscious of the jealous and nosy stares from the crowd, you would’ve remembered the first time he held you close more clearly.

--

ayato hasn’t been to your tea house for more than a month. 

when he found out you had opened up your own business, he frequented the place despite having a supply of carefully brewed crafts at his estate. unfortunately, a nice cup of tea was the last thing on his mind when the sakoku decree was in full swing. thoma had also been talking about a certain traveler who was set to arrive, and his hands were full pulling the behind the scenes strings to get them past the border. 

this was his fate. it was decided upon him on the very day he was born. to grow into a well-rounded, responsible, cultured young man capable of holding his birthright position as the next head commissioner. he had to give it to his sister for working harder than she was even required to. he could handle it all, that’s what older brothers do, right? 

but ayato felt more and more alone as time fled without any spurts of change. on the nights when he wasn’t staying up until the sun rose, he dreamt of times of peace with you. where he could wake up next to you and start the day with smiles and warmth that bubbled from the past. did he deserve such a future though? was he selfish for wanting to act on his love in the middle of a political crisis? 

he stared up at the moon from his window. it moved fast along the sky, and sooner or later it’d be daytime again before he could even get a wink of sleep. like the childhood you two shared as clueless, playful souls who thought they could get away with anything, that transitioned all too quickly into adulthood. perhaps the same could apply to the time he had left to tell you his feelings before it was too late.

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“what’s wrong? is there a hair in your cup or something?” ayato hasn’t touched his tea even though it should be cool enough to drink by now. 

he shakes his head. “there’s nothing wrong with the tea. it smells different, but not in a bad way.”

you make your way to sit across from him; no other customers are present at this hour, so you have time to spare. “in what way then?”

“i can’t really describe it. but it definitely smells....very pink.” you smiled at his response.

“i used the freshest sakura blooms. along with some more...secret ingredients.”

ayato chuckles at the little game you’re starting. he takes a small sip and hums, relishing the new flavor. “you’re always trying out new recipes. so bold, i like it.”

butterflies flutter in your stomach from his words. in a dreamy state, you stare at his profile as he continues to drink the tea that you made, how his long eyelashes flutter shut and compliment his smooth skin. how his cheekbones curve perfectly down to the mole near his lips, making you wonder what it’d be like to kiss it.

“i like being alone with you.”

you don’t know where that came from. something had possessed you as you got too comfortable with being alone in your own tea shop with your long-time, no, lifetime crush. your legs tell you to quickly get up and leave, but you want to see how he reacts, no matter how unsure you are of how this will go. 

your heart skips a beat when ayato smirks at you. it’s impossible to predict what he’s going to say next.

“i would hope so, after all of these years you better be comfortable around me.” you roll your eyes at him, yet are hopeful that his lightheartedness means the feeling is mutual. 

“i’m only joking. in fact, if maturing meant finally getting to hear those words from you, then i’m glad i wished to grow up faster when i was a child.” he laughs under his breath, and all you can do is stare at your hands that are currently resting on your lap. he brushes his knee against yours under the table, and you gently kick him back, giggling when he whines about how much it hurt. 

everything feels so new, yet the same. as you and ayato blossomed into new beginnings, the hidden truths of your hearts were exchanged. it only took a few years down memory lane to find them.

[pallastrology]

🥀 astro notes: moon sign edition 🥀

aries moons can make for some of the best friends. they’re honest, protective, loyal and funny. i have two aries moon friends, and i know they’re friends for life! they never fail to brighten up my day and bring joy into my life. i love their sense of adventure too, they’re wonderful people to go on trips with.

taurus moons can get a reputation for being lazy or having a cushy upbringing, but they’re a lot more hardworking than some people think. the taurus moons in my life are dedicated, passionate and inspiring with their diligence and determination to achieve their goals. i know they’re stubborn at times, but the flip side of it is that they’re loyal, trustworthy and patient.

gemini moons like to live on the lighter side of life. they’re fun, always in the know, and a breath of fresh air to be around. on the other hand, they understand anxiety and overthinking, and they’re good listeners too. they don’t take quiet periods personally, and are always ready for a long chat and coffee, or going on a reading date.

cancer moons are sweet, nurturing and honest. they aren’t always super loud about how they feel, but they can’t hide their emotions. they want their loved ones to feel safe, and being around a cancer moon is like being wrapped in a fluffy blanket and given a mug of hot chocolate. they’re also very quick-witted and protective of their loved ones.

leo moons are so nourishing to be around. they love life, and everyone in it, and this radiates off of them like warm summer sunlight. being with a leo moon is like bathing in a healing spring, you come away feeling fresh and warm and strong. they are so much fun too, up to try new things, be a bit silly and appreciate the pretty things in life.

virgo moons are possibly the most caring of all the moon signs. they are nurturing, thoughtful and hardworking, and will stop at nothing to make sure you’re having a nice time when you’re with them. giving, domestic and proud, they love to spoil their loved ones, and like to plan out special occasions to celebrate them. they’re also great to grab a cup of tea and have a gossip with!

libra moons are some of the kindest people i’ve had the pleasure of meeting. they’re considerate and reflective, self-aware and deeply caring. i love their intelligence, and how they can read social situations easily. they’re patient, charming and truly sweet-natured. it’s so easy to spend the day talking with them, and they have a sharp sense of style too!

scorpio moons are a lot sweeter than given credit for, once they let you in. they are deeply protective and not easily trusting, but when they do allow themselves to open up, you have a true friend for life in a scorpio moon. they will listen to you and reflect, and are fun to chat with, about anything. they treat you like part of the family.

sagittarius moons are so bright and open. there’s something about them that is inspiring and eye-opening, and they’re so much fun to be around too. they’re natural jokers, and don’t take life too seriously. with their stunning sense of humour, adventurous nature and intelligence, it’s hard not to love sagittarius moons. they’re always ready to go deep in discussions too, so they’re great for late night chats.

capricorn moons are so strong. they have often been through a difficult childhood and so they’ve grown up having to rely on themselves. i really admire their resourcefulness, and how they can overcome huge obstacles. underneath their tough exterior and tenacity, they are soft and sweet, and often very sad. capricorn moons would never ask for it, but they want to be loved and looked after a little bit.

aquarius moons are so invigorating to spend time with. you can come away from them feeling like a new person, and they have a habit of opening your eyes, mind and heart. they’re fun, creative and interesting people to be around, who are usually up for a challenge and like to experience all aspects of life. i love how they never lose themselves, no matter how much their world changes.

pisces moons are so gentle with you. the bond is deep and easy, and it can feel like you’re falling in love. nothing is too personal for them, and they will accept you as you are, unconditionally. pisces moons can be very emotionally intense, but they want to take care of you too. they are pure-hearted and love to be given little snippets of who you are; art, poetry, quotes, music...