#but also trying to be considerate. he does have. some emotional intelligence (as much as he possibly can being raised the way he was)

[moe-broey]

I feel like. Book 6 should have been Book 3 actually. Book 2 could stay the same (well. Preferably without the racism LMFAO), it's largely to further establish our cast of characters and get us attached. Plus killing Bruno in Book 2 would pack less of a punch -- ideally actually if he gets to play a role in the background that would do the same thing, establishing him more and getting the audience invested.

Reason I think it should have been Book 3 is we get the much needed world building of Askr and Embla WAY sooner, Bruno isn't left high and dry for like. Real life years. And like. If he HAS to die, maybe that could be an interesting lead into Actual Book 3. Bring him back!!!!!!! I honestly don't know why it seems like they just. Never revisited the idea of people coming back from the dead, either as Hel's/Ganglöt's minions OR they have unfinished business (but are still ultimately under Hel's/Ganglöt's thumb).

I guess the complications with this though is I do think we have to build up to Alfonse's "I'm gonna kill you too" moment with Letizia. Like. I feel like that scene ONLY hits the way that it does when you have the context of Líf, and how Alfonse acted in Book 5 with Reginn and her brothers actually (offering a peaceful solution at first -- but once Fáfnir in particular makes it clear he has no intention of backing down, Alfonse becomes stern with Reginn. Trying to get her to see what must be done. WHICH... AUGH..... does absolutely carry A Lot of weight after Alfonse had to kill Gustav.) AND. ALSO. THE MOMENT RIGHT AFTER Letizia (where Sharena is scared and hurt by how Alfonse acted) wouldn't carry the same weight without the context of Book 5.

IDK. MAYBE. Things did have to go in the order they're in, for everything to hold its weight and pack the right level of punch. I'm just HUGELY bummed that like. They set up Bruno to be a main character. An antagonist, yes, but a main character. And then they did nothing with him. Until several real life years later they bring him back JUST to finally kill him off. Like. YEAH he was surrounded by death flags since day one. But like. Did they Have to do him so dirty. AND ALSO. LITERALLY. CANONICALLY . IT'S BEEN SHOWN THAT DEATH ISN'T EVEN ALWAYS THE END‼️‼️‼️

And he. Doesn't even have a base form.

[bethanydelleman]

Estimated Sexual Abilities of Austen Men

In no particular order within tier

Edits added in blue based on your reblogs and careful consideration

Top Tier:

Mr. Mainwaring: to have the near undying loyalty of the exceedingly selfish Lady Susan, this man must be a sex god

Henry Crawford: he knows he’s not handsome, he wants women to love him, he'd put in the work. Also one of the only men to be rated by a woman who has had sex before.

Henry Tilney: he cares about things women like, high emotional intelligence, and extremely kind.

Frederick Wentworth: passion and experience (I imagine), also has high emotional intelligence when he’s not being a dufus.

Colonel Brandon: passionate, thinks about other people’s feelings a lot, self-sacrificial

John Knightley: I think there’s a good reason that they keep banging out those kids

Admiral Croft: I cannot believe I left him off, obviously amazing in bed because he respects his wife as his equal and is very fun. You are telling me they spend all their time together and don't have amazing sex? No freaking way!

Good Tier:

William Price: athletic, cares about his sister a lot (good sign), and gives good presents. He’s only nineteen in the story which is why he has room to improve.

Captain Harville: Obviously

Mr. Morland: dude isn’t even on page, but in my head Mrs. Morland enjoyed making all ten of those children.

Colonel Fitzwilliam: I think he’d be good, but not awesome. He'll probably be wasted on a mercenary marriage.

Charles Bingley: I get the feeling he’d be on a race to the end, and maybe not the best communicator at first. Will improve.

Mr. Gardiner: Just because he’s awesome and seems to respect women

Captain Benwick: poetry and passion!

Robert Martin: seems like a pretty romantic guy, also works on a farm so probably athletic.

John Willoughby: Mostly because of experience, but he is also pretty passionate. He’s also super hot, Miss Grey knew what she was getting into. But this guy can only go downhill from here.

Reginald De Courcy: He’s a sweetheart, an occasionally dumb sweetheart

Mr. Bennet: Is he lazy in most domains of life? Yes. But Mrs. Bennet wasn’t just trying for that heir, I’m telling you folks. Maybe he's just trying to make her unable to talk 😉

George Knightley: Promoted to good tier, I do think he's very caring, but he also is always sure HE is right, which may be a problem.

John Yates: Maybe not the most selfless person, but he's got passion and he does love his wife. Probably very into roleplay.

Mediocre but can improve tier:

Fitzwilliam Darcy: he’s a bit stiff... I think it might take some time for him to get good at it (demoted to this tier because he will need time to improve)

Frank Churchill: He’s got passion, but he’s so darn selfish and doesn’t seem to send that much time thinking about Jane’s feelings

Edward Ferrars: I just see him being a nervous wreak the first few times, it’ll get better (Note: I think Lucy is way too smart to have had sex without a wedding date)

James Morland: Dude, I’m just disappointed with you in general. Being led by lust, not protecting your sister. I hope you grow a lot before you try to get engaged again.

Charles Musgrove: could be good, but Mary never seems to appreciate the effort he puts in so he kind of gave up

Tom Bertram: Selfish, never has to try for anything, but he did reform so maybe he can get better here too.

Edmund Bertram: Repressed and selfish. He needs to actually start listening to what women say if he’s going to improve and there is a whole book of him doing exactly the opposite...

Mr. Elton: selfish, full of himself, and low emotional intelligence, however, I think he does love his wife so he is willing to put in some effort for her.

Just bad:

James Rushworth: Maria was not impressed at all, despite how much “taller” he was

Captain Tilney: riding on good looks and money, selfish

John Thorpe: Selfish and he never shuts up. I have trouble imaging him getting a woman to sleep with him without paying her.

George Wickham: selfish and good looking, he’s not doing any work. He thinks you should be honoured to sleep with him.

Robert Ferrars: selfish and not even good looking. There is nothing here. Lucy did not win people.

Mr. Woodhouse: I can’t even imagine, if he didn’t have children I’d say he was a virgin

Mr. Collins: The woman he is trying to please is not his wife.

Mr. Elliot: cruel to his first wife and not even handsome!

Sir Walter Elliot: I don’t think any part of his personality would tend toward being a “giver”, however, if you like mirrors...

John Dashwood: exactly the opposite of a “giver”

Mr. Price: the guy had 11 children in 14 years so I wish I could say he was better in bed. My suspicion is that he started in the good tier and has had a very slow fall into just bad. And all that alcohol, ug...

Dr. Grant: Noted for being a whiney, selfish glutton. Hopefully he just falls asleep before he can attempt anything because I can't imagine him being that good in bed.

General Tilney: If you don't want to even try to imagine their sex life, they go in this tier. And he is so freaking controlling!

No Data: We interviewed Lady Bertram for information on Sir Thomas, but she confessed that with full consent, she has always fallen asleep during sex. Given her personality, we decided that this information has no bearing on Sir Thomas’s abilities. She did say that giving birth was, “Very disagreeable.”

Mr. Hurst: I really can't decide with him because while he does love the finer things in life, we don't know exactly why he and Louisa married. More info required.

Criteria: In the domain of F/M sex, communication is key, so we need a man who is willing to listen to what women say. Also, selfishness is obviously a negative trait when it comes to a happy sexual partner of either gender. Some of this is just vibes, but I think there is a fair amount of canon information about how much men respect women, especially their sisters. 

Feel very free to fight me in the reblogs. The only hill I will die on is that Henry Crawford’s rating is correct 😉

[poopyballz28]

how would the Baki cast react to an emotionally intelligent partner, hell, even someone who has studied psychology trying to help them understand themselves better. Would they be terrified at first?would some find it stupid? How would they feel afterwards?

A very intriguing idea, I like your brain.

Some Baki characters meeting an emotionally discerning person

Kozue

- She could really benefit from someone who can actually wrap their head around her problems logically. She’s often overwhelmed with her own issues, not knowing which direction to go from where she is. I’m sure someone who actually has the knowledge to help her out could seriously aid her.

- She’s initially a bit nervous, thinking that she’s not particularly worth helping and downplaying her very clear problems. She really dislikes being a burden to others, she’ll try to act like she’s fine and she doesn’t need any emotional support.

- But if they're able to get her to realize just how low she thinks of herself and how much she’s actually struggling, tears will begin to well up in her eyes. Things she tried to not think about in the past she’s suddenly confronted with.

- She would realize things that she tried to ignore for so long, but she will ultimately be thankful afterwards. While yes, she can put on the waterworks pretty quickly, she’s a pretty emotionally strong girl. She toughens up, wiping her tears and realizing that she does want to move forward.

- She’ll thank them for helping her out, and promise them that she’ll try and make a change. For herself this time, not for others.

Kiyosumi

- He would definitely be incredulous of them and close himself off, especially if they make it pretty clear they want to help him.

- God, does he hate that word. “Help” It’s something he completely feels he doesn’t need. Having lived his life mostly having to work things out (or lack thereof) by himself, having someone who wants to “help” him makes him very irritated. He thinks he’s normal. How? He’s crazy.

- If I were to give a word of advice to this person, I would tell them to not be so upfront and tell them to try and take it slow. If you do make him angry enough he will show aggression, mostly because it’s all he knows how to do when face to face with his own issues.

- If this person happens to be his significant other or perhaps a really really close friend, they may actually have a better chance at getting him to actually open up and give in.

- He may start even jokingly admitting to some pretty harsh things he thinks about his self and his way of living. He never realized how much he disliked himself until he actually heard the shit that was coming out of his mouth.

- He’ll still be very hesitant of course, but you could probably get him to come to terms with all of his pent up hatred for himself and others. He gets a little speechless, I’ll admit. He’ll have an uncertain look on his face with his eyebrows still tensed tightly. He’ll have to do a lot of thinking after.

- He’ll make an attempt to ignore everything they told him and drink the thoughts away but they just won’t vanish from his head. He’d push his stubbornness aside, something that he often struggles doing, but he’ll think about everything that they said to him and actually take it into consideration. Crazy, I know.

- He doesn’t particularly want to change, but he will finally, for the first time, realize that maybe he does have overlying problems that have been there for a long time. He thinks he’s an idiot for not realizing sooner. He’ll be grateful overall that it happened, but he probably wouldn’t tell them this.

Kosho

- Also very hesitant about the whole thing. He believes he doesn’t need help from another person, insisting that all of his tribulations and internal problems are things he already knows about and can handle on his own. (this is not true.)

- He’ll have his arms crossed throughout most of the conversation, a very skeptical look on his face. But he’s already emotionally vulnerable, it won't take a lot to truly unlock the huge metal door he’s put up in front of his heart.

- The more they show that they understand what he’s going through emotionally and how hard it is to live the way he does, the more that he starts to tear up and give in.

- “It must be very difficult to feel like you have meaning when your own brother overshadows all of your hard work.”

“I know right?! It’s completely-” He’ll fight back tears.

“Everything feels completely…hopeless.” He says, in full-hearted honesty.

- They’re able to be a shoulder he can finally lean on for support and understanding. Nobody has ever been able to really sympathize with him to his face but be so truthful and caring. It’s new for him.

- Afterwards, he’s still trying to understand the whole thing. He comes to some realizations, and uses them to build himself up. He’s still very strong, despite his almost cry-baby nature on occasion. He would probably bring himself to thank them to their face. (very timidly, of course) Because he is thankful they were able to understand his problems and help him out, him commonly being one to struggle with putting his own emotions into clear words. But seeing them be able to do it so perfectly made him feel like there is a light in the pit of darkness he usually finds himself in.

Kureha

- Ohhh boy.

- There's really no reasoning with this guy.

- He thinks he's completely fine. And not to mention a good contributing member of society who DOES pay his taxes. Who…does…pay his taxes.

- He thinks it's quite preposterous that anyone would want to “help” someone who’s mostly normal and has no problems whatsoever. (this is, again, not true)

- He would find the whole thing much like a game, a moment for him to be the center of attention. He can't take them seriously at all.

- When he does get a little irritated he’ll generally just laugh it off, especially if what they’re saying is true.

- He finds it quite amusing that someone would simply want to understand and help him. He feels he doesn’t need others to “understand” him and his mindset to live his life fulfillingly. Mostly because he’s awfully aware that he’s done some messed up things that even he can’t fully blame himself for. (even though it was…one hundred percent his fault)

- If they kinda started digging deeper and mentioning maybe his now clear narcissism, he would still keep his same attitude but maybe even start agreeing with them.

- It’s pretty useless when he’s actually subconsciously aware he’s not the greatest person and actively doesn’t plan to do anything about it.

- He thinks, “So what, I’m the “bad guy”?” He’s too narcissistic to truly blame it all on himself but also self aware enough to know he’s horrible.

- Sure, he’s done some bad things, but that was in the past and the past means nothing. Others were affected? Well he was affected too! He’s different now! (he is not.)

- He thinks they are an intriguing specimen…very interesting.

Jack

- Much like a brick wall, telling what his emotions are at all is pretty difficult in itself. It’d be awfully hard for them to really get him to talk at all. 

- He doesn’t think his problems should concern anybody but himself. He insists that he “doesn’t have any issues” and that “that stuff doesn’t work on him”. (guess what. this is not true)

- He really refuses to elaborate on any part of his life or problems. Like I said, whose business is it other than his? He’d most likely have to know them well enough AND get a little drunk to really be able to say anything of importance that could help them make a judgment. 

- If they were able to really connect with him on a personal level, maybe one on one at a quiet night bar or something, he may start pouring his concerns out to them. He’d kind of ramble on and about his aggression's and things that just stress him out. Anger is a big, overwhelming emotion for him. 

- Maybe he’d even start sharing how hard it was having lived the life that he has. All of the hurt and the pain was finally showing on his face now. I imagine he would maybe start tearing up, his eyebrows furrowed together tightly. 

- If they can really show true empathy towards him and guide him through his issues he may start lingering around them more. Not particularly on purpose, though. Afterwards, he first tries to act like the whole talk they had was essentially nothing to him. But somehow it keeps crossing his mind. He thinks on it alone and then does some realizing, understanding his own pain and being content that he actually had someone to talk to about it. He uses this new-found understanding and utilizes it to get more powerful, not just physically now, but emotionally. 

- He would definitely be polite enough to thank them after. Quite impassively I’ll say, but it’ll be one hundred percent genuine. 

Hector

- Having lived mostly in solitude and loneliness, he thinks that the way he lives his life is not something for others to understand. He knows he’s done wrong and probably will continue to do wrong but how another person feels about it is no concern to him.

- In a way, he barely sees other humans as people. Seeing them as merely creatures or pawns, things that are not particularly understandable on any other level but physical. He doesn’t get anyone and nobody gets him. But he’s fine with it that way.

- If this person were to show genuine compassion for wanting to help him he would initially be quite confused. Help him? Why? What’s in it for them?

- Even if this person is attempting to help solely because of the kindness in their heart, he still wouldn’t be able to wrap his head around the reason why. He’s fine with the way things are, and he doesn’t desire any help. Especially from other “people”.

- He’s very similar to a brick wall like Jack, not showing very much emotion on average. Trying to get him to really open up is a challenge. It’s not like he knows how to open up anyway, though.

- I feel this is another case of someone who’s almost unhelpable unless they matter to him. Sure, he's definitely able to show sympathy and benevolence for others on occasion, but only if he truly cares about them through certain circumstances. (which is very rare)

- He just can’t take the conversation seriously, just seeing it as a little chat instead of a conversation that’s trying to help him understand himself. Because what more is there to understand? He knows he’s despicable but he has no other paths to walk. It’s pretty hopeless to try and get through to him.

Katsumi

- He’s frankly a bit inept when it comes to understanding certain aspects of himself. Usually it has to take time for him to legitimately understand. But I will say, someone who was basically trained to help out can definitely do him some good.

- He would be a bit nervous, but it doesn’t take very much for him to really spill out his concerns to them. He often feels he doesn’t have many people to talk to on that level of emotions. He has so many fears and doubts for the future and for himself, but to finally be able to come to terms with it and actually talk about it is very empowering for him.

- He’s definitely a rambler, going on and on about how frequently he’s frustrated and fearful with the way some things are. It makes him feel…weak. He thinks that someone in the position that he’s in shouldn’t have so many problems and worries.

- If this person is able to get him to understand that it’s okay to have issues and it’s fine to struggle through very obviously tough situations, he’ll have almost another realization.

- He’d be overjoyed that someone actually wanted to hear about his concerns, but he’ll finally realize it’s okay to have fear and anxiety. He’s not weak or less of just because he feels those quite common emotions and he soon realizes that struggling emotionally is just part of the process. He uses the conversation to get stronger, now knowing it's okay to feel scared sometimes. He promises that he’ll work through the fear no matter what.

- He would definitely thank them after. After all, he owes some of his strength to them! They helped him grow into something stronger and he couldn't be more grateful.

[rainy-astrology]

BTS RM Birth Chart Analysis

Based on my opinion and observations. Not an expert. May change later.

September 12th, 1994

Seoul, South Korea

Unknown time

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Virgo suns are meticulous, analytical, and logical, which RM is. He's very intelligent and is especially articulate with his words. With a Mercury in Libra, he knows how to phrase his words in order to appeal to others.

Sagittarius moon is open minded and curious, it explains RM's philisophical side. He's obviously a deep thinker who puts a lot of meaning into his works.

He most likely has a Sun square Moon, which can indicate possible issues of inner conflict about his identity. Wants to follow his mind, while also wanting to follow his heart. May feel like he needs to prove himself to others.

Mars in Cancer is in fall. Mars in Cancer can be repressive and unsure how to properly express intense emotion.

Venus in Scorpio is in detriment - Venus is generally soft and calm, while Scorpio is intense and passionate. There can be issues of obsessiveness and possession. However, whatever these natives want, they will pursue it and not give up easily.

Possible rising: Virgo. He's just so Virgo lol. He's tall (I've noticed a lot of Virgo rising men are quite tall) calm, studious, and rational. Also a mixture of clean and messy. I do recall Joon saying he showers a lot (sometimes more than twice a day I think? He does work out and dislikes the sweat) and I also recall Suga talking about how messy Joon was when they still lived together and his disappointment in seeing how clean Joon's apartment was lol...I also have a good feeling that his Pluto is in 3rd house (3rd house placements in general tbh Mercury should be very influential in his chart) Pluto in 3rd is a deep thinker and highly analytical placement. He puts a lot of thought and meanings into his lyrics, always making sure to check they're apropriate first too. Pluto in 3rd can also get their words misunderstood, which seems to happen to RM often - people overanalyze and misunderstand what he says and does and try to paint him in a bad light. He has a lot of power in his words and way of thinking though, he's truly wise and influential. With Pluto being transformation as well, Namjoon has learned and expanded his mind immensely throughout his life...from having questionable beliefs and lyrics to a much more considerate and careful, wiser character is one hell of a growth process.

It would also give Chiron in 1st (if virgo asc is in 1st/2nd decan), which I think makes sense for RM...This placement deals with issues of self esteem, feeling misunderstood, and many matters concerning one's character. Namjoon has been pretty open about his own struggles of depression and going to therapy (not sure if he's still depressed and/or going but I do recall him mentioning both before). A lot of people did insult his looks in the beginning of BTS' careers and overall just disliked him, so I'm sure that took a huge toll on his confidence. Having to carry the responsibilities and burdens of a leader + having constant hate thrown his way for little things and some genuine small mistakes - it's not very surprising he was at his lowest years ago. Chiron in 1st also indicates having a lot of stressful experiences at a young age and he did have to face all this at 19 (still very young imo). I think these heavy feelings can be seen very well in a lot of his solo songs and lyrics. Questioning himself, his character, the feelings of depression and self hatred, etc are expressed clearly in his writing. Chiron in 1st pushes the native to learn confidence and build self-esteem as adults, which RM seems to have improved a lot in. E.g being direct about not apologizing for other's misunderstandings over a simple Instagram story he posted, especially when he had no ill intentions at all.

Sun would also be in the 1st house, which could explain his persistent and strong character. Sun in 1st is usually a confident and/or ambitious placement. The latter definitely applies to Joon - he pursued his dreams despite the huge risk of failing and all the hate that he received. What he chose to do was considered unconventional and was disliked for it. Still he was very determined to succeed and to make a new way, make better contributions to art (due to possible uranus and neptune in 5th; uranus in 5th is esp very noncomformist). This placement is also good for leadership and Joon is definitely a natural leader.

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[hoe4rairai]

Raian with Friends & Family 👥️

Requested by @aneenasevla

▪︎ let's be honest, Raian doesn't have friends. His feral nature, type of life he is leading and the lack of emotional and social intelligence. He knows one thing only, how to kill and destroy

▪︎ Fast forward, he's now around 27/28 I guess so I hope after his Grandpa's death he'd become little grounded and tasted how it feels like to loose someone he secretly cared for.

▪︎We also established that Raian is an Introvert mostly, so connecting with ppl other than those who prepare his missions at the back office isn't a habit of his.

▪︎ Raian, only considered one person to connect with and that was Ohma and still is. Not out of appreciation per se, but out of inner respect and as a kure, it runs in their tradition to respect strong challenging opponents.

▪︎Raian and Ohma, are mostly training together, yes they do have side conversations, tease each other. Raian mainly pick at Ohma and give him hard time.

▪︎ Will Raian ever be loyal to Ohma ? the answer is yes and no.

▪︎ Raian is an assassin from a ruthless clan his loyalty will always be to the clan #1 any one else can die or go to hell he couldn't care less.

▪︎With Ohma, apparently his only acquaintance, he will consider being there for if needed or if he felt its needed. Anything related to destroying count him in.

▪︎ Raian is possessive and the jealous type, so If ohma has another group of ppl he would hang out with or a GF , Raian will hate it and will make sure he'll speak filthy about them, make trouble and cause inconvenience to anyone . That was few years back

▪︎ Raian now, has a huge responsibility on his shoulder that even his friendship with Ohma is on a stop-loss till he get his revenge.

▪︎Raian knows Ohma is there for him and the clan because they allowed him to live among them and be part of them,however; he is very distant now, training non stop , have no time and had grow bit mature, so I hope .

▪︎ In Festival seasons, Raian would occasionally enjoy some Saki or beer pints with the clan , the firework, he's not a fun killer. Few years back he would had ended with fights after each and every celebration just for fun, now he is hardly ever seen socialising at all.

▪︎ Fusui his sister, she is probably the only one who has full access to him. Knows his moods and his where abouts, his missions and she does check on him every now and then. He sometimes answers with a ( F*ck off ) or keep her on read and send her the middle finger emoji , his way of telling her he's in an ok mood or doing fine.

▪︎ the time he didn't respond with 24hrs, Fusui gets worried. Listen guys, Raian is an Asshole we all know that but he's a rare treasure to the clan and he's a big ass stupid idiot trouble maker baby who might be going through hard time after grandpa got killed. I feel he's been in an inner conflict for some time now.

▪︎ Raian will either mature or becomes a nightmare unstoppable and unattainable.

▪︎ I Hear you asking about his parents: not sure but I think they dropped his case with his first ever kill. They don't hate him they just believe and certain that Raian is war God and they probably just like the rest of the clan members, know he'd destroy anyone who'd try to speak up or trade the Clan secrets or jeopardise their Safety. THAT RAIAN NO ONE SHOULD SEE .. lucifer himself will dethrone himself and run straight to hell saving his ass from Raian.

RAIAN & Gifts 🎁:

▪︎ He basically rips the cute nice ribbon apart , has an annoying look on his face, without much though given to the gift he picks it up from the box look at it : ( WDF IS THIS ) no thank you and no consideration. Just throws it away in hopes he'll use it one day.

▪︎ At school , Raian had few crushes but he crushed them back quite literally when the girl used to approach him shyly with his birthday gift but instead he slams her to the wall push her with his body, lift her skirt teasing her, grab the gift , opening it fast, looking at it , through to the ground , laughing at her crying face and walk away. Still for some reason girls at school liked him a lot ...

▪︎ fast forward, the only one who gives him gifts is YEP YOU GUESSED IT FUSUI ...

▪︎she buys him gifts everytime she goes on a mission, expensive perfumes, showr gels, expensive knives sometime, she gets him a branded trainer, she knows his size.

▪︎ Did he ever got her anything ? The answer is

NO NO NO

▪︎instead he always gives her his Credit Card .. that's what he does for her and she's okay with it.

▪︎ Raian as an assassin he earns so much more than her .

▪︎ Surprisingly though; I think Raian do have great taste , basic, clean with a twist. He never shops he only goes online to certain stores picks something he likes throw it at his sister face and still calling her a bitch 🤣

▪︎ Christmas and Gifts : let's not be delulus , Raian purposely choose a mission to get away from all the gatherings that annoys the shit of him.

▪︎ he comes back and he has gifts laying on his bed, he secretly gets excited and has a tiny little smile.

▪︎ he would probably receive a gift from Fusui, Holies, karura, the school girl crush who still with a hope and I guess few more from the close clan relatives, his mom will try to hug him but Lord his eyes and the way he'd look at her sents her back to her seat ...

I hope you enjoyed it 🤗😚

[richincolor]

Interview with Janice Lynn Mather

Today we have author Janice Lynn Mather sharing with us all about her new novel “Where was Goodbye?” that publishes next Tuesday, April 30th. The novel is an exploration of grief and mental health after the death of a family member. 

K. Imani: This novel was truly touching as I felt so many emotions throughout Karmen’s story and her journey to understand her brother. What was your inspiration for Karmen’s story?

Janice: Two truths: life is painful, and humans are amazing. The story began with the thought that we, as people, live through so much—including unexpected, agonizing, blinding loss. And yet, we continue to move through life and the world. I wanted to slow down and think about what it’s actually like to live through an almost unfathomable loss. How do we do that as people? How does a young person, especially, handle that when there’s so much going on simply with trying to figure out life as a teen bordering on young adulthood?

K. Imani: I can imagine when telling a story about grief you want to get it right. Can you describe the type of research you completed to understand how people respond to grief?

 Janice: Life experience informs my understanding of grief. I got the idea for the story, began writing it, and then, less than a year into the process, I unexpectedly lost my own son soon after his birth. I would never have chosen to write a story about grief and loss under those circumstances, but I went ahead with the story. I had other experiences with grief too—my own, and that of others around me. I’ve had plenty of opportunities to both support and let down folks around me as they grieved by saying or doing something that was helpful—or not. I think for many of us, we mess up in how we approach or avoid someone who’s grieving. Hopefully, our mistakes bother us enough that we go over them and try to figure out what we could do better, how we could be kinder, more considerate, next time.

K. Imani: Some of my favorite parts were the flashbacks with Karmen and Julian. Can you share why you chose to include the flashbacks into the narrative?

 Janice: I have a soft spot for flashbacks myself. Maybe I spend too much time revisiting actual events in my mind, but I find going over the past can be really important in navigating the present. For Karmen, flashbacks are an important way to connect with Julian again, to feel like her old reality—the one where life felt right and Julian was there—isn’t gone forever. It’s also a way for her to try to make sense of the incongruity of Julian’s absence now. It’s a way for Julian to be active and real, in the story, as he is in her memory.

K. Imani: What was the hardest scene or chapter to write? 

Janice: I don’t want to give the story away, but there are moments when Karmen revisits the night of Julian’s death head-on, and grapples with his death really directly. These moments are some of the most painful for Karmen, and I feel these for her. Capturing the scenes was intense, and took a lot of emotion and energy.

K. Imani: What are you hoping teens come away with after reading Karmen’s journey in search of understanding her brother? 

Janice: Books and reading have been shown to be such an effective way of promoting understanding, empathy, and emotional intelligence. I think all of us who are avid readers and lovers of stories know how meaningful it is when we read a book that reflects us—our background, or our struggles, or our pain, or our joys. My hope for readers depends on their perspective. For those whose experiences are close to Karmen’s, I hope they feel heard. For those who haven’t lived with loss, I hope the story sparks understanding of what that journey might look like.

K. Imani: Can you share what you are writing right now? 

Janice: Right now I’m moving between a historical fiction piece about three interconnected family lines, and trying my hand at picture books.

K. Imani: That sounds exciting and I’m looking forward to it. As for reading, what books by other Black authors are you looking forward to?

Janice: We go through dozens of kids’ books in our house, monthly. I’m really excited to get my hands on Journey to Grandma’s House (Fall 2024) by Nadia L. Hohn. Nadia’s an amazing and prolific author, editor and presenter, and her Malaika series has been a huge hit in our home.  I’m also eager for A Week of Shenanigans by Janet Costa Bates. I think the name says it all.

Thank you again Janice for sharing your time with us and sharing more about “Where Was Goodbye”. Please check out my review on Friday, then run to your nearest bookstore on Tuesday to grab her book.

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Janice Lynn Mather is a Bahamian Canadian author. Her first novel, Learning to Breathe, was a Governor General’s Award finalist, a Sheila A. Egoff Children’s Literature Prize finalist, shortlisted for the Amy Mathers Teen Book Award, an ALA/YALSA Best Fiction for Young Adults selection, an Amelia Bloomer Book List pick, and a Junior Library Guild Selection. Her second novel, Facing the Sun, was an Amy Mathers Teen Book Award winner. Where Was Goodbye? is her third novel for teens. Janice Lynn lives in Vancouver, British Columbia.

[frostfall-matches]

[ matchmaking... ]

@thecurrator : [ match report ready ]

your match is…

✦ Cater Diamond

-> [ Cater just adores your vibes and the things that make you who you are. ] He tends to put on a happy front, so often coming across as the cool and sociable upperclassman - but he prefers when others are their authentic selves. He’s almost jealous about it at times - but he does eventually show more and more of his true self around people he grows especially close to. He also likes that you’re a creative type; those types are always fun, and he likes to compare aesthetic tastes with them. Your emotional intelligence will also prove quite useful when it comes to him, since he - like you - tends to be a bit moody at times.

-> [ He suits what you tend to look for in partners. ] Cater is good with his words and is quite intuitive - he’s really good at navigating social situations and is more emotionally mature than most initially expect. Teasing as he can be at times, he really is quite considerate and kind to people. As a bonus, because he is more social and extraverted, it eases some of the burden on you, the introvert. So long as you’re not completely reticent, he’s really good at keeping the conversation flowing, and you’ll become besties (and even more) in what feels like no time at all.

-> [ Cater often seems to startle you out of your daydreams. ] He doesn’t mean to, he swears! He sees you hanging out somewhere by yourself and just has to come over to chat. Since you tend to keep to yourself, it tends to happen often enough. Besides that, he thinks the zoned out, listless look on your face is really endearing. He’s the type to ask you if anything interesting was on your mind, but also won’t pry or pester you if it’s something you don’t want to share. You do find that you end up zoning out much less often throughout the day once Cater is in your life, though, since he often seeks you out.

-> [ LOVES going on shopping dates with you. ] Please let him pick out a few outfits or accessories for you; he will not stop begging. He’s good at picking things out that suit your personal preferences, but he’ll also occasionally grab something for you that he thinks would look really good on you even if it isn’t quite your style (and you often have to admit, he does have good taste). Scenic picnic dates are also ones he ends up liking a lot; he loves being able to take photos of both the scenery and you - if you’d let him! Cater takes really good couple selfies of you guys and always has one set as his lock/homescreen.

-> [ Definitely enjoys being lost with you, perhaps more than he should. ] Cater is good at scoping out places before going to them and can easily navigate using whatever maps he can pull up on his phone - but he much prefers aimlessly wandering about with you. If you two happen to come across any neat locations or restaurants, he has to check them out! On the plus side, if you guys are trying out new food together, he can pass off anything he finds a little too sweet onto you. He likes sharing food with you in general, but don’t expect him to try a bite of the overly sweet looking dessert you order.

-> [ Cater isn’t a huge reader, but he likes how enthusiastic you are when you talk about what you’ve been reading. ] If it’s interesting to you, then he wants to hear about it! And, honestly, if there’s a book you’re particularly obsessed with, he’ll probably give it a try himself, wanting to connect further with you and your interests. That said, he’d be happy to settle in some evenings and watch movies or shows with you. He also likes to entertain your hypothetical scenarios - you always come up with such interesting ideas and he really has a blast chatting about different possibilities and outcomes, no matter how out of the box they seem.

-> [ He is always hyping you up! ] Cater is so vocally supportive and sweet and loving. Compliments are a daily occurrence, and he always has the right words when you’re feeling a bit upset. Definitely the type to check in with you throughout the day if you don’t have classes or club activities together, and you’ll always get good morning and good night texts. As for your giving love language being acts of service, it’s something he didn’t expect to enjoy so much. While he definitely appreciates words of affirmation and gifts, he also can’t help but melt when you go out of your way to do little things for him. It’s definitely one of those “you really don’t have to” / “but I want to” situations.

[ Runner up: Malleus Draconia ]

Emile’s match is…

✦ Vil Schoenheit

-> [ Someone who wouldn’t be put-off or daunted by Emile’s princely demeanor. ] For better or worse, many of our main cast of students at NRC tend to be a bit “scrappy” and/or turn their nose up at those who seem too pompous or privileged. Vil, however, is not one of them, having a regal aura himself. He would definitely appreciate Emile’s aesthetics and attention to detail, the subtle yet distinct perfumes, the way he works his favorite color tastefully into his outfits. And, honestly, the polite-yet-strangely-distant demeanor would pique his interest at first. How much of his attitude, if any, is a front? Does he act differently when alone? It’s something that he’d like to figure out, eventually.

-> [ Vil fits Emile’s preferences for a partner who is competent and loyal. ] The esteemed Vil Schoenheit is very self-sufficient and always strives for improvement, refusing to be helpless. His respect must be earned, but he is very loyal to those who manage that. While the “partners in crime” vibe may not fit Vil and Emile 100% as a couple, “power couple” definitely would. Capable, elegant, powerful. As for flirtiness… well, Vil can be a bit of a wildcard. It’s definitely subtle in public, but if they’re alone together he definitely says things that would make most people flustered. His words range from sweet to just slightly sultry and provocative, very teasing. He’ll keep Emile on his toes.

-> [ Vil respects Emile’s desire for privacy, but also will not tolerate overly frequent sudden absences. ] This is perhaps a point of contention for them if Emile feels that Vil is stifling him; the way Vil sees it, one should be considerate of their partner and should at least give a heads up before disappearing somewhere. Then again, it’s not likely to become a major issue when they’re both in school, given that Vil is at NRC and Emile is at RSA. Vil is not clingy, but he does appreciate being able to spend time with those he’s close to, especially when he doesn’t have the chance to see them very often.

-> [ Vil appreciates Emile’s devotion, but also makes it a point to firmly remind him to focus on himself if it gets out of hand. ] Vil has no tolerance for obsession to the point of self-neglect, and he will put his foot down if Emile starts exhibiting these behaviors. If needed, he will enforce boundaries until they’re on the same page again. He wants a relationship, a partnership - not idolization. He gets idolized enough as it is given the fact that he’s an actor. It’s for Emile’s good in the long run, though it would be understandable if he felt as if Vil snubbed him at first.

-> [ Praises and compliments from either of them are high praise, and always genuine. ] They may both put up a very particular front for the public, but they’re both quite upfront and honest (for the most part - Emile has his tendency to be vague about his whereabouts when people ask, but at the same time seems to be the type to be very straightforward with those he allows into his life). For as harsh as he can be at times, Vil is honestly very sweet. He cares a lot about his friends and loved ones - his words of love, support, and encouragement are a good blend of eloquence and straightforwardness. Not too flowery to detract from their meaning, but softened enough that they don’t sound robotic.

-> [ Vil is absolutely down for nice dinners - and, weather permitting, would be open to walks or swimming. ] Exploring castle ruins wouldn’t be his typical, go-to kind of date… but he’ll try most things once, especially if his partner is very eager about it. And, hey, he loves how excited Emile is about it all, especially if he knows anything about the history or architecture of that particular location. As for other dates Emile may enjoy, Vil would prefer to walk or go swimming on days that aren’t too terribly bright or sunny, and he’d really like to avoid swimming on days prior to his jobs. For better or worse, he does like to take care of his appearance. Romantic dinners are always welcomed, though.

-> [ If Emile often gardens, then perhaps Vil could make use of some of the harvested ingredients. ] Given Emile’s fascination with botany, it wouldn’t be surprising if he puts together a sizable garden or greenhouse - if he’s willing to share a portion of the herbal ingredients he’s growing, Vil would greatly appreciate it! Potions are definitely a passion of his, as well as making his own cosmetics… And, he may just formulate a perfume that would perfectly suit Emile’s tastes and personality. Granted, this would likely only happen if they happened to be settled down with each other or near each other, unless they make other arrangements where they meet up during the school year.

[ Runner up: Lilia Vanrouge ]

[softer-ua]

I will never ever ever ever get over how All Might was immediately on board to follow Izuku to different school, like didn’t say a damn thing either. Even tho like 30 minutes prior

Like I know Dekus his successor and he has a responsibility to stay by him but between

his role as a teacher

condoning restraining Katsuki(a child in crisis!!) by placing that medal on him on the international broadcasting of a spectacle that has replaced the Olympics and is stated to influence these kids while careers

and then thrusting him farther into negative lime light(even though it wasn’t anyone but the villains fault) by losing his powers while rescuing him

You’d think he’d recognize that he has some serious responsibility to Katsuki too, like separate from Deku & OFA All Might has unintentionally caught Katsuki into his orbit & as an adult he should be able to not only recognize that but step up to that

I refuse to believe that All Might actually cares about Katsuki as an individual at all, frankly I think he low key seriously dislikes him and originally had no intention of ever seeing him succeed and would have loved an excuse to separate Izuku from him

Don’t agree?

Let me ask you this, do you honestly believe that if it had been Inko hitting Izuku All Might would have looked the other way?

I don’t, I guarantee that All Might would have called in on every favor he could think of and Inko would have been losing custody before the sunset

I think Deku told All Might one too many of Bakugo’s character flaws during their pre UA training sessions and All Might decided he hated him and would never let it go

Izuku venting should have been fine but All Might struggles with maturity and emotional intelligence, he never unpacked his trauma around losing Nana & put her on a pedestal

It left him with a mindset that let him blindly supporting Izukus reckless tendencies for far too long and it was only corrected by the intervention of others like recovery girl

while also had him under the impression that Izuku would just magically understand OFA because obviously it was his closeness to his mentor that made him such a great hero

He never took into consideration that OFA was much stronger now or that not only is Izuku just of a smaller build to begin with but he had less time to train, like we see All Might was already pretty solidly built and involved with Nana in middle school.

Izuku only had time to build up enough strength and stamina so that OFA didn’t immediately kill him and it’s treated like he’s just not as much of a natural as AM when that’s only such a small part of the problem 😩

After the home visits All Might definitely does try harder for Izuku, to be more available to him and after DvsK2 All Mights consideration of Katsuki is slightly more sensitive and nuanced but tbh it’s all still through a lense of ‘remember he’s important to Izuku, if he improves so does Izuku’

What really confirms that for me is that there was zero reason All Might couldn’t have told the class to make an exception and let Katsuki into Izukus hospital room if he woke up

The class has known since before the training camp that they mean a lot to each other & have know each other for like forever(even if it is messy), but everything during and after camp surely renforced it

They know that Bakugo went off alone with Deku at the beginning of the war and stayed with him throughout it until he got stabbed, it’d make sense that upon waking up not dead he’d wanna see the person he sacrificed himself for

Most importantly absolutely everyone knows what a dramatic hassle Bakugo can be, they could have just written it off as a precaution to keep the hospital quiet 💀

There was zero reason that in however long existed between them waiting for Izuku to wake up and All Might delivering the letters All Might couldn’t have filled Bakugo in or at least offered him some kind of personal communication and comfort

He should have felt some obligation to do so after everything, he should have known better.

Yes it was Izukus decision to leave & knowing Izuku it was a safer bet to go along with that plan so that he didn’t do it 100% alone but All Might should have known that cutting Katsuki out completely wasn’t just a tactically bad idea it was a cold and callous one too

Also All Might just generally enjoyed beating the shit out of Bakugo just a wee bit too much, imo, man looks like it was his birthday and Christmas all in one

All Might, the number one hero for decades, repeatedly introducing the back of Bakugo’s skull to the pavement was a conscious choice that he made with joy in his heart, Idc how much you don’t like that take, because there were a dozen other choices he could have made

And that’s how you know Deku is bilnded by his admiration of All Might. Otherwise he may have noticed that All Might, for all his support of Bakugo helping Izuku become a stronger hero doesn’t support Bakugo being in his personal life, or Bakugo being alive in general 💀

Honestly I can see why Katsuki procrastinated ever getting All Might to sign his card, between fanboying, personal guilt, pride, and the fact that he probably has a sneaking suspicion that AM doesn’t like him it makes sense that he never once brought it up over the course of an entire year 🥺💔

[thecurrator]

𝐌𝐚𝐭𝐜𝐡 𝐮𝐩 𝐟𝐨𝐫 @xxchthonicreaturexx

Your ideal match is…Jamil Viper!

Your often changing hair colours and style of dress would catch his eye easily, and he admires you for having such an authentic style. Given his background as a servant, he's used to staying out of the spotlight, so he respects you for your willingness to stand out from the crowd. It's attractive to him in an opposites way.

He's also an introvert, so you both are fine with giving each other alone time. Parallel play is also common, where you do your own thing in the same space and just bask in each others' presence. He also likes your trait of being bubbly! His best friend is Kalim after all, so it's clear he (begrudgingly) enjoys being around more cheerful personalities. You both are the grumpy x sunshine trope.

Your love for bantering and softly bullying people brings out a side of him usually reserved for Najma. He won't have any qualms with teasing you back, but will make sure he isn't going too far. You'll find that he tends to laugh a lot around you.

Your emotional intelligence complements him as being empathatic isn't his forte. He's thoughful and considerate (out of obligation mostly) but actual empathy? Not so much. Your softer, kinder side balances out his more logical and rigid personality.

Your loyalty is easily his favourite trait of yours, as he's very loyal himself. It'll take him a while to open up, but once he does, he has at least one thing to complain about each day, just to get it off his chest. Being able to express his displeasure about things is good for him in the long run. Of course, he lets you come to him for anything likewise. It's nice, being able to rely on people.

It's your job to deal with the bugs. The only time you'll see him lose his cool and shriek in terror is if a bug is nearby. If you try and tease him by holding the bug in your hand closer to him, he will beg you to kill it. You can take it outside if you wish, just don't let him see it. He will cook you something nice afterward.

He's totally okay with the frequent alarms you set! He thinks it's good that you're systematically organized in that way. He's accomodating to your strange eating habits, hardly thinks anything of them actually. Given his closeness to the Asim family who have seen their fair share of traumatic events, he's probably one of the characters who is most understanding of one's trauma and coping mechanisms. He's seen a lot too.

Runner-up: Silver (A gentle and calming presence. I notice that both him and Jamil have the job of being protectors.)

Your sibling is…Ortho Shroud!

Your interest in dolls immediately made me think of Ortho, specifically his fairy gala model, as he looked so much like one. Of course, his backstory that lead him to the way he is now isn't anything worth gushing over, but this is what you have now. He's more than happy to let you dress him up and gush over him. You might even convince Idia to build some of the ideas you have. That aspect of you is most like a doting older sister.

Your love for the style “Morute” makes you look right at home when you're with him. He tells you that you look nice every time and doesn't make a big deal about it, but secretly likes that you look like you're trying to match with him. He isn't insecure about his appearance or robot body, but it's nice to feel included.

Your personalities are so similar?! He's like a smaller, more extroverted version of you. He loves and adores you and Idia equally, but he does find it easier to get along with you because of this. He can help you when talking to people when you're both hanging out outside, and you can help him with understanding the emotions of others (artificial intelligence has its limits).

He can be a bit protective where he'll refute any negative claims made about you. Perhaps this will help with your tendency to not express negative emotions, as he'll stand up for you. There are times when it's just your friends making a joke though, so you might want to explain to Ortho that it's all in good fun.

You share Idia's interest in anime and manga, so he has no problem understanding your hobby of collecting figurines and manga volumes. He often indulges you (and Idia) by listening to you talk to him about a new show you're obsessed with. You probably get along with Idia more in this aspect.

Loves spending quality time with you! He'll often approach you with a board game or request to hang out with him outside. Any trinket or rock you give him is greatly treasured, kept in a box in his room. Unfortunately, his body is made of metal, so biting him is not a good idea. Even if you did give a light chomp that does not hurt your teeth, it's still unhygienic and not ideal for his body.

Idia stays up as often as you, so he's used to both his older siblings being insomniacs. He will be nagging you both to go to bed earlier, but he gives up after a while because he knows it's a lost cause. He'll also use his features to try and find sleeping medication that work faster so you won't have to feel tired for too long. He wants to make sure you're healthy and comfortable!

[fourtyfourcatss]

[████████ 100%] — @thecurrator !

Silence interrupted with love;

YOUR BLUE LOCK MATCHUP IS…

ᝰᏪຊ itoshi rin

ຊ why itoshi rin?

The logistical reasoning as to why you fit so well with this man is because of your myers-Briggs types. Rin is INTJ, and your intuitive and judging functions are shared, and thus, the two of you can understand each other’s perspectives and goals well. His enneagram also means that he values your knowledge and independence, which both attracts him to you for not being a very irritatingly clingy person, and having a mind which can match his own.

ຊ he is very authentic and creative person, to himself and to others. You could probably tell from how rebellious he is because of how he follows his own agenda when it comes to doing things. He’s a soccer player, which involves a lot more strategy that blue lock itself explores, but as one who is trying to find a way to score a goal, being put into high stress situations, you bet he is extremely creative. And he definitely would not cut you off whenever you’re talking - not only does he barely talk himself sometimes - but he is definitely a considerate person to someone he adores off the field. Not only that, he would respond with insight and humor, and would know when to play up his deadpan and make you laugh and lighten up your mood.

ຊ would definitely find the mind reading thing weird at the first few times, but it surprisingly becomes a factor of how the two of you bond. He isn’t the type to express himself a lot verbally, and that itself incurs some kind of communication which he enjoys you reading into. He thinks your emotional intelligence is very practical, and since you like analyzing, I think he would ask your opinion or advice on opponents he wants to study. To that end, he grows fond of your voice. He can also offer your different perspectives with your analysis and turn it into a very in-depth conversation, which scratches both of your brains.

ຊ he is rather wanting of your attention, and with your introversion, he is the one who approaches very boldly. I can imagine you reading or writing near the corner of a cafe, waiting for your friends to arrive when he suddenly approaches you and sort of in his own awkward way, want to know you better— though it must be only after a lot of previous meetings and conversation. The more he gets to know you, the more understanding he wants to acquire of the facets in your personality. Additionally, while he is not big on words of affirmations, he definitely does a lot of acts of services.

ຊ I did not include much about hobbies because they two share little hobbies, but he supports you 100% in everything you do! He would watch anime and try to impress you with clothes and yarn and the like.

ຊ I would say he’s quite a jealous lover, who is very lowkey possessive, but very lowkey and more of a romantic sense. The way he says things is very passive, and the two of you just fall into this soft romance, with your heart pumping but it falls almost deaf with infatuation clouding your ears instead. You would make him very happy, and with your personality, he would be the one who is most often pouty. Definitely goes to you after a bad day and lays on your lap to de-stress, and just get very soft and mushy around you.

YOUR TWST WONDERLAND MATCHUP IS…

ᝰᏪຊ lilia vanrouge

ຊ why lilia?

There are many reason why he is a very suitable character for you. Firstly, I wanted to pair you up with someone who is outgoing in order to balance out your introversion, as that itself can become a problem in some circumstances. Not only that, he would be able to approach you first, which may not work so well if your partner if more introverted like you are. Lilia is very charming, elegant, and mysterious. He can most likely catch your attention very well, and yet, he is also gentle and compassionate in disposition if you knew his story. He might be a good match for you because he can understand your emotions and dreams with his deep and poetic soul. He can also appreciate your authenticity and creativity, and he might share your hobbies of reading, writing, and listening to music.

ຊ this old piece of bones can definitely appreciate you for what you are, and find you very charming, from the expressions your face makes and and unimpressed glamor that always makes its way across your demeanor. He takes it as a sign to try to get you to smile as much as possible, and checks in on you often, as he is as taken by you as you may become taken by him. The way his smile curves is very attractive too, and makes you wish to smile many times, lighting up the mood with his antics.

ຊ he’s an a-class gentleman! He would never interrupt you, or disrespect you in any manner. Rather, he makes you feel like a very loved royal, taking care of you by asking you if you have worn enough clothes in the winter and lending you some he has packed, or brushing leaves out of your hair during the autumn months. And because of how classy he is, he can definitely appreciate enjoying the arts. He too, loves reading, and enjoys curling next to you while the two of you watch shows or listen to audiobooks together. Slow dancing to old music is also a must; and I believe he would teach you very gently. The way he treats you is as if you are a precious object, yet the relationship is not all so plain— there is very adventurous moments from his boldness, and while it gets your heart racing like you are reeling, it feels worth it at the end, and fulfilling to be around him.

ຊ he finds your hobbies very endearing. He strikes me as the type to also enjoy crocheting, especially paired with another activity, like watching television together.

ຊ he would love discussing characters and plots and all manner of things with you. He definitely thinks it’s wondrous how you have found so many things regarding characters from perhaps just a few scenes or dialogue, and he’s mystified with how well you read people. He thinks it’s a magic of its own.

ຊ definitely gives you cute pet names, but not too drastic, like “honey” or “darling”. I feel like when you are fixated with doing something like writing or reading, he would sneak up on you and try to scare you a bit. He’s just a very sweet man, and you seem like a very sweet person, and I think that just goes so well. The two of you can make each other genuinely happy.

[fnaffersblog]

Wawawa you're fine! I love reading your thoughts about the show. You always have great takes so it's always a treat to read! Honestly you are completely correct that both Sun and Moon have too much problems to work through alone. Like they're getting better, but if someone doesn't intervene soon something is going to happen that might actually cause unfixable damage.

I can't help but wonder if part of New Moon's improvement in the emotions department has to do with Earth. Like it's a given that the old Moon didn't know how to deal with social issues at all, but honestly considering how he came to be it's surprising he wasn't worse off. The newer Moon though had a much more tolerant beginning. Sure it sucked that he literally woke up just to find out that he has a lot of problems to look forward to, but at least he had a supportive family (even if he didn't know them) to help him get his footing. I feel like that helped Moon a lot in being able to process things and helped him have a more healthy mindset. Earth probably led to a good chunk of the positive coping skills. Moon knows Earth is probably the most emotionally intelligent of them all so why not try to emulate some of her caring nature though emulating can only do so much if you're still clueless on the emotional cues :')

Also thank you for saying the part where the old Moon and Sun really didn't know each other as well as they thought they did. I've always sort of had that thought in the back of my mind but I never really gave it much thought, and now I'm sad thinking about how Sun really never got to know old Moon personally before he got erased. Sure the newer Moon is basically the same just reset but there are certain things that the old Moon experienced that the new one will never truly get because it didn't happen to him.

As for the name choice, Spigot is what Lunar named the toy reindeer he got for Christmas :) Also for your consideration, Cherrim for Sun.

I’m so glad folks like my deep dives! Everyone has been so kind in my comments n stuff, I appreciate that a lot, it makes me really happy. I love seeing other people’s long posts too when I pop into the various SaMs tags. It’s always interesting to see how someone perceived an episode differently than I did, I always end up being like ‘I thought that too!’ or ‘I didn’t even notice that!’ when I read other people’s stuff. It’s great, my favorite part of this. :D

“If someone doesn't intervene soon something is going to happen that might actually cause unfixable damage.” So, this. Yes. Yeah. Took the words right out of my mouth. I’ve been thinking this for awhile now.

It’s… a weird situation. Moon’s reset, even though it happened months ago at this point, has thrown a wrench in the situation.

At this point, Moon… doesn’t really have any issues?

Yeah this is all… a mess to talk about lol.

Old Moon? Yes. Old Moon had a LOT of issues he needed to work through. Had he not been reset, I think he’d be at a breaking point right now right alongside Sun, if he wasn’t actively pushing Sun towards one. Or both.

New Moon is… well, I don’t think we’ve really gotten any sort of indication that he’s having trouble reconciling with the reset. In fact, I don’t think we’ve gotten ANYTHING in regards to how New Moon feels about the reset. I did SAY that in the previous post but it was more me waxing poetic and less concrete proof has been provided that he’s struggling with any emotional turmoil due to the reset. At most, maybe he’s stressed with all the stuff that he’s dealing with all at once?

Like, yeah, he’s annoyed and disturbed by the actions of Old Moon and he thinks Old Moon was a dick but like… does he see that as himself? As a different person? Does he ever think about it at all? Is it on his mind a lot, or is it just something he’s reminded of sometimes? Like, Old Moon is just some guy to him people bring up, or whose stuff he has to sort through sometimes. We’ve gotten nothing as far as I can remember. I don’t think we have any perspective on how New Moon sees the reset at all. We don’t know at all. NOTHING. Which is funny because I really did think, well this was such a huge event for us and for the show, there’s gotta be something unresolved there for New Moon but… I don’t know? It feels more like, considering the way he’s reacted when Sun has brought up stuff Old Moon has done… Like, when Sun talks about stuff Old Moon to New Moon did he says things like, ‘you used to do’ or ‘you did before’ or ‘when old you’ and New Moon always just kinda seems to go ‘huh’ or get quiet, sometimes correcting Sun ‘well I can’t do that now’ and then the conversation moves on. At the very least he must know Sun sees it as Old Moon or previous version of Moon and New Moon or current version of Moon. I can see that causing some contention no matter how New Moon perceives Old Moon in relation to himself.

He’s stressed out because he’s juggling a lot of plates right now, for sure. I mean, he was basically just born and now he’s trying to save the world from six different angles, on top of re-learning/learning everything for the first time. I’d be a little irritable too. But I think that that’s it. He’s at most annoyed and a little burnt out, but all that previous trauma is gone and it’s gone for good, if the most recent lore ep told us anything.

Suns isn’t. Obviously, lol. In fact he kinda called this out himself, that Moon just got to start over and Sun doesn’t. Which is going to cause contention from Suns side.

It’s a mess.

Earth is a TREASURE. I love her. She’s a wonderful character and I’m so happy for her inclusion in the show. She fits so well into Sun and Moon’s dynamic, she’s like a piece that was always missing that no one knew about. Had I more time, I’d talk about her for awhile, because she’s such a sweetheart.

But I agree with literally everything you said in the paragraph about her and Moon. I couldn’t say it better myself. Her being around to help contextualize New Moon’s formative experiences alongside Sun has definitely been a massive factor in his changes.

It makes me curious about her relationship with the creator. The Creator refers to her as daughter and Sun and Moon as mistakes (Though he also talks about her as an object, much like he does the others, tools he created to do things. Even so, he is miles more respectful towards her than he is towards Sun and Moon). If she’s anything like Sun and Moon she was ‘raised’ in the sense that she had programs written into her, but her experiences after she turned on were what shaped her current personality. She is SO MUCH MORE well adjusted than Sun and Moon. Does he… love her? She refers to him as father and is defensive about his actions towards Sun and Moon, she took care of him. It makes me super interested to leanr even more about her ‘childhood’ so to say.

I like Earth.

There’s a lot to grieve about in regards to New Moon. I know a lot of folks were holding onto the idea that perhaps there was a way to return Moon’s memories and I’ll admit I was one of those people. But with what amounts to a concrete confirmation from Golden Freddy alongside just the fact that it happened at all, I think it’s safe to say that Old Moon, ALL of Old Moon is gone. There’s more to say about it, but that’s a longer discussion for a different post.

I did not remember that detail about the reindeer for Lunar! That’s perfect. Also how did I not think of Cherrim for Sun?? It’s literally the perfect Pokemon for him! It’s whole gimmick is the sun AND it’s rays look like petals just like Sun’s rays, I LOVE that. Perfect perfect perfect.

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That answers some questions.. Because of the time zones from being in different countries. And also because of my erratic sleeping habits, since I'll wake up and sleep whenever I want - regardless of the times.

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Possibly drunk.. I don't know about the first movie, but second movie was the men drinking too much alcohol. Because if you watch Dream Boys music video (that was the scene from the second movie) so that time you see the men passed out from drinking too much alcohol this time. But I can't remember in the first movie though for some reason.

Exactly! That's how I am now. Kind of. Normally I try keeping limits on how many original characters I have for a story, for the most part. But I made an exception for High&Low because of how many characters.. There are a lot of characters in this franchise. And I like way too many of the characters, that I can be a bit indecisive on what ships I'd want.

But I already have four, possibly five, original characters for H&L now.

Which reminds me! You have characters in four. Since you have really already done an edit for the elements. What about the seasons? Only because seasons come in four. Or maybe card suits (even if not AIB). I'm overthinking this again... Ignore that. Because I'm always like this.

I do miss the other gangs involved. Don't get me wrong. I like our Oya boys, and I also like the other schools too. But Worst feels completely different than the original storyline... In a good or bad way, depending on how you'd see it. Because what we know about the original guys in SWORD; Murayama got his job with Seki (at his father's construction site), Rocky's reopening his businesses after everything that happens in the original story, and Cobra seemed like he retired from Sannoh in my opinion. But not really anything about Daruma and Rude Boys. So just the thought of that is depressing to me. Because I miss the boys.

And, of course, those three characters - Dan, Tettsu and Chiharu - did have cameo scenes in the spinoff movies.. Not including DTC movie. I admit that upset me. Because once I saw them, I thought more of the original cast would show up besides them. But they never really did.

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Exactly! Whether you would be frienemies, lovers, siblings, whatever.. You would know the differences in his personality and tones if you are close enough to him to understand how he acts and reacts about any thing. If you assume to know him, then that would so backfire on you.

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Not a himbo. He's an intelligent man, but his plans keep backfiring on him every time though. And.. That's why I have always never been too fond of shows and movies with cops. Sometimes it's too unrealistic in my opinion. Just the fact that the cop's boss told his wife of all people that he was on sick leave. His wife. Who is always with him. Seriously! And, if you were going undercover on dangerous missions like this, I'd say you should tell your spouse. I know, I know.. Police and detectives never want their family and friends to worry about them. But still. You should tell your spouse in case anything were to happened to anyone.

Sometimes I can be patient. But never that patient. And.. I thought all the same thoughts you did about this. Vincenzo's trying to be a polite man to these people, have manners, be considerate to these people.

And yes, he does have a hidden motive. But I'm also a spiteful person in a lot of ways. If someone acted that way toward me, or even spoke, to me in that way.. I would want to demolish their building out of spite for them treating me that way. Since might be why I can't be in mafia.

I'm not much of an emotional person. But when I am, my emotions I'd express are negative emotions. Being spiteful is a form of violence for me. Spiteful and vindictive are violent tendencies. That is what I'd do.

Actually! I've noticed some things. But this is because other countries are different than us.. You mentioned the cop in Worst Of Evil has this bunker to sleep in. But buildings like Vincenzo's, also in Sweet Home.

So their housing apartments also have businesses inside? Like I know in America, sometimes there are apartments attached to a workplace - like a restaurant or salon. But that's not that often though. So to just know that there are businesses in apartment complexes is so weird in my opinion. I don't know why? But I know every countries is different.

i usually stay up late and then can’t sleep well anyway. have not had a decent night’s sleep in ages, so if some of my replies are short, it’s probably because i’m tired.

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i’d maybe lean more towards drunk, did they ever show anyone actually using the drugs in h&l? i know the mentioned people using it, but was that ever shown on-screen?

ooh the seasons or card suits are both good ideas! i’d have to do some symbolism research into them tho to see who i’d put with what. if i had more aib ocs, they’d be good for a card suits edit, even though they’re not all in the same story.

i love the oya boys! but i miss my other boys too. i wanna see more of cobra, yamato and noboru. i wanna see how the rude boys are adapting to smokey being dead and takeshi being the new leader. i wanna know what daruma are up to, since so little is known about them really and there’s not a lot of scenes with them. let me see how the new club heaven is going!

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i don’t think his department boss even knows he’s undercover, since he was approached by a man from a different department for the undercover job. so his wife and his division didn’t know he’s undercover. also if ‘sick leave’ excuse was for asthma. which. i had asthma as a kid. don’t know that it’s sick leave worthy.

ALSO! THE WIFE BOUGHT THE GANG BOSS THE NECKLACE! IT WASN’T A CHURCH ISSUED THING! SHE BOUGHT IT FOR HIM WHEN THEY WERE TEENAGERS AND HE’S WORN IT EVER SINCE!!! AND SHE STILL OWNS THE MATCHING ONE!!

THE GANG BOSS GOT A FAKED PICTURE OF THE WIFE’S HUSBAND AND THEN ASKED THE ACTUAL HUSBAND IF HE THOUGHT HE - THE BOSS - WAS HOTTER THAN HER HUSBAND!! AND THE HUSBAND SAID HE WAS??!! HELLO?!!?

i’m watching the third episode while i respond to this. they’re talking about the world ending in 1999 💀 almost forgot this is set in 1995 💀💀

i am a way over-emotional person. i can usually bury them down, but when i’m really feeling them it’s painted all over my face. i’m pretty quick to burst into tears tbh, just because i keep it bottled up so much so it tends to boil over. i can also get frustrated with people pretty quickly, but can usually hold it back since i work in customer service and i’m not allowed to snap at customers even when they deserve it. so i guess i could probably manage something similar to vincenzo’s politeness and patience, but maybe not for as long until i privately break down.

it is a little strange but i guess i view it kind of like when people live above their businesses? like when it’s a small solo apartment above and then a shop below? but on a larger scale where there’s a set of small businesses and then living quarters on the higher floors? maybe it’s because korea is a much smaller country than america or australia, so they’re a little more cramped in the cities? i’m not sure

[emmythespacecowgirl]

hi sweets! can i get a ship with one of the pacific dudes?

i'm 5'5 and very thin with long blonde hair that's very straight. i have big blue eyes. i think my lips are my best feature. i have to wear glasses because i'm near sighted. i have an iron deficiency so i have to take lots of vitamins for that. i was always massively underweight as a kid and am still underweight now.

i'm getting my phd in psychology. the kind of psych work that i do is a blend of engineering and psych so that it's more about usability of tools. i realy like psychology and learning about the human mind. i'm kind of like a sponge in that i love learning weird obscure facts. i also like video games. my favorite right now is cupheads. i play because i like to socialize with friends that way. i also like reading and im part of a book club right now. i tend to stress bake a lot of stuff and can be very creative in the kitchen.

i'm very intelligent and book smart and i'm a great host to others. my friends say that i am kind and considerate and thoughtful. i feel like i'm introverted, but i'm also great with people, which makes me a great host to others. i always bake and decorate my apartment when i have friends over. last time i checked, i am a gryffindor? and for mbti i am an infj 2w3.

i was raised catholic but i would say that i'm probably agnostic now. i tend to get along best with other people who are kind and passionate but like not in an obnoxious way. i don't like it when people have strong viewpoints and then try to cram it in other peoples' faces. i also want someone who i can have a conversation with. i have anxiety so i feel sort of uncomfortable when im not getting a verbal response from someone else. i want to travel the world some day, so i don't really see myself settling in any place for too long. i'm not in a rush to go get a pet or have kids right away.

thanks for doing these xox

you can most absolutely get a ship!! this came at the perfect time, too because i just finished exam week <3

i ship you with:

Ack Ack Haldane from The Pacific!

ship theme song: ready now - dodie

ok but hear me out

y'all make the sweetest most considerate couple ever

you have so many friends

and they all come to the two of you for advice

ack ack is a tall boi

so he loves that you're the perfect height for him to rest his chin on the top of your head

while he wraps his arms around you <3

and your lips <333

this man could kiss you for hours

your lips are all soft and pillowy

sometimes he runs his finger across your cupid's bow while you're asleep

you used to be so anxious wearing your glasses around andy on the first couple dates

but since he's the king of emotional intelligence

he's able to calmly and expertly reassure you that whether you wear glasses or not does not affect how he sees you in the slightest

ack ack devices a fridge calendar

so that when you come down stairs in the morning

you know exactly which vitamins to take and when

and he usually brings back ups in his shirt pocket for you

just in case you forget to take them!

very much The Mom and Dad couple

ack ack is very easy to have conversations with

and he considers your viewpoint above all others

if you tell him that you're just not ready to start a family yet

he's totally fine with that

he wants you to be comfortable and happy first of all

he doesn't mind waiting :)

he knows that you're smart as a whip

and tells everyone about this fact

Hillbilly knows

Ack Ack's parents know

his friends from college know

every knows that Andy's girlfriend is The Smartest

he loves seeing you tirelessly working at your desk

sometimes he'll be brewing some coffee

and peak over your shoulder at your notes

"the hippo wahhhh?"

the best at sneaking a peck on your cheek while you're working

you both loves entertaining people

and frequently have movie or gaming nights

you bake soooo many yummy treats

and Andy makes some comfort dish that his mom showed him how to make

always a total success!

i feel like Ack Ack would be the extroverted version of you

and definitely gryffindor energy :)

Andy's family isn't particularly religious

but he wants to hear about your diverse upbringing

and why you aren't religious per se

but he never forces you to adhere to any one particular mindset

he's very respectful of everyone's views

like you, Andy is not a fan of obnoxious people

he's not afraid to firmly stand his ground if someone is being an ass to either of you

if your anxiety is particularly bad one day

Ack Ack is there for you and is a listening ear

he'll hold you as you both sit on the couch wrapped up in a blanket together

or he'll take you on a scenic nature walk to clear your head

if/when you both decide to start a family, y'all would have the cutest little blonde kids <3

Andy would make the sweetest and most caring dad

taking the kids to baseball games

or catching fireflies together in the backyard

literally the BEST dad

Ack Ack hasn't done too much travelling yet, but if it's with you, he'd be very eager to do so

[cinnamonest]

Yandere Profile - Katsuki Bakugou (My Hero Academia)

I am finally approaching the finish line of having these done! ^_^ Just three more to go from here. I’m not sure which one I’ll finish first, I’ve been going back and forth between them. This was one of the ones I already answered the ask to accept the request a long time ago, and I don’t want to go through my archive trying to hunt it down, so sorry for the lack of a screenshot.

Warnings: yandere, n/s/f/w/, noncon, I don’t think this is explicitly fem reader but I may have accidentally put a detail in that could be interpreted as such.

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Severity Scale

Intelligence/Perceptiveness: 4 Brutality: 5 Physical capability: 7.5 Mental/emotional instability: 7 Restrictiveness: 6 Sexual sadism: 4 Stubbornness: 8.5

What are they generally like? Lucid, aware? Obsessive? How do they behave?

Mad. Not at you! Well, at you, but at himself too. Or rather, it bounces back and forth.

He does fit into some of the classic "tsun" tropes; in particular, he gets mad at you for the fact that he likes you, blames you, gets defensive towards you. He doesn't fully understand the things he feels.

He bounces back and forth in terms of how obvious he is, but he tries to be very much not so. He's very very very against outright telling you anything about how he feels, gets angry over being confronted on how he feels, and more or less treats every interaction with you as if it were a conflict.

So yes, he takes the whole tsundere-yandere thing to a new level (but the whole "it's not like I like you or anything" is a little difficult to believe when they kidnap you, you know). But notably, it's the way that he doesn't really interact with you all that much, that's a bit unusual. Some yanderes never interact, merely keeping a wide distance away from their darling and watching them, while some barely leave their darling's side. He's somewhere in an odd middle ground, where he interacts but only in the slightest, only for a few moments, and really only negative, harsh interactions themselves.

He mostly watches from a distance, at least for the first while, and admittedly he tries positive interactions. However, these interactions with you could almost be classified as bullying, it certainly feels like it, the way he singles you out to stride over to before school, questions you in that gruff voice something about what you're doing or why you're looking at him like that (well, maybe you did cast a glance at him out of nervousness, but other than that you didn't intend to look at him...). You're not sure why he sounds so confrontational, or why he seems hellbent on torturing you specifically.

Meanwhile, he can't figure out why you look so afraid. What, he just asked what you're doing, why you were casting him a glance (he was hopeful it was good!), and now you act scared? Why is that?

So, yes, he's unaware of how his resting-angry-face and rough voice may come off to you, he thinks he's being nice and considerate... and then gets frustrated, asks you why you look like that, narrows his eyes, only making you more afraid, and soon after getting embarrassed and thus mad and then saying things he'll regret about how you're so annoying, he storms off. Interaction completely failed. See, this is why he doesn't talk to you much. Ugh.

Meanwhile, you are completely unaware it was a failed attempt to make conversation with you, it feels like he's singling you out just to bother you and harass you... while he doesn't realize that's how you're perceiving it. It would almost be a rather comical misunderstanding, were it not so mentally taxing on you both.

He does, over time, come to realize that you likely perceive him this way, and it just makes him more upset because he doesn't know how to get himself out of the problem he created, much less turn it around entirely. It just makes him more upset, once again both at himself, but also a good deal of it at you. Logically, he knows it's not right to be mad at you, but his emotions override that logic.

Consequently, since he can’t seem to interact positively, but he just has an unbearable craving to speak to you and be around you... he just kind of accepts these unpleasant interactions, getting his “fix” every few days with a short conversation, if it can even be called that. He knows he’s just digging himself into an increasingly deeper hole, but it’s all he can really manage.

How likely are they to kidnap their darling? How quickly will they do so?

He has no means, really, not until he's older. That doesn't mean there's nothing to worry about, as he's watching you like a hawk at all times anyway. He seethes and sulks, though, if he's not in the same class as you, and definitely will request to be moved if he's not. Otherwise, he'll be anxious the entire time -- what if you're talking to someone he wouldn't want you to be? Oh God, you're probably doing group work and moving your desks close together, you're probably laughing and enjoying yourself, the thought makes him sick. His grades even suffer a bit, he can't pay attention because he's so absorbed in fantasies and his imagination running wild about all the awful things that could be happening.

When class isn't ongoing, then, he returns to watching you. Look at you, talking to other people... ugh, it's almost worse to watch it happen. But if he comes up and intervenes, that might make you upset... although sometimes he can't help it, making up some other reason to be mad at the person in question and confront them, as if ignoring your presence entirely. If he gets to a stage where you accept him and he feels very comfortable, he will cling to your side instead, albeit quietly. Either way, it's a decent substitute for keeping you locked away.

In an alternate setting, however, years down the road as a pro hero, he would actually be very quick to restrain you to his apartment. Perhaps you're some random citizen he saved, perhaps another hero for whom he worries about your well-being too much to stay sane about it, decides you'd be better off where he doesn't have to worry about you, locked away in a room somewhere.

As for how, well, he doesn't really know himself... it most likely happens spontaneously in the end. He's been waiting so long for an opportunity, thought of so many different ways, but never gone through with it, until right here and now, he finally has a chance, an opportunity, right here at this moment, all of a sudden... he'd be a fool not to take it.

You come to visit his apartment alone, just to drop off something or get some information... you know where it is, he's held some events with groups here before, but as he answers the door, you see him lean forward just a bit, his eyes scan the left and right, looking down the halls as if to see if there's anyone else in them besides you, but there isn't... you're still halfway through your sentence when he tells you you should come inside. You decline, saying you just came by for this one thing... but that's his breaking point, he's had enough. You don't even have time to yelp as he grabs your wrist and jerks you forward and inside, and you fall down onto your knees on the floor as you hear the door shut behind you.

How difficult is it to escape from them? How do they keep you restrained? How do they deal with attempted escape? 

In a situation where he's keeping you in an apartment, he does invest in some high-grade security. He's not really familiar with it all, he has to sit down and go through the user manual, huffing over all the complex terminology. In the meantime, the good old fashioned way of duct tape works just fine, too. In that stage, you're certainly not going anywhere, and any attempts to get him to unbind you just makes him frustrated. It's not like he's thrilled about keeping you like this either!

But clearly from the way you've been running your mouth at him since day one, you'd just cause problems and try something stupid if he listened to your pleas to be unrestrained. If you have quieted down and seem to understand to be good, he can cut the tape off while you're in his presence, let you bathe, eat, drink etc. But then, it's right back to the tape. He's actually being super nice, you know, he has handcuffs, but they're metal and would damage your nerves, so he's not gonna use them on you. He's being considerate.

He also is far too paranoid to leave the apartment, so he makes up something about sudden illness as to why he can't come in. As for getting security... well, his friends would ask too many questions, so he just purchases some off of the internet and waits for it to arrive.

Afterwards, it’s still difficult, the security system alerts him the moment you leave the room, and there’s cameras too, not to mention a tracking device firmly secured to your ankle. Even if you break free, you won’t stay that way for long.

Predictably, it doesn’t go over well. His anger is explosive and harsh, and likely physical, once he gets you inside. The display of it alone is enough to make you hesitant to ever even try in the future, but to be honest, there comes a point where you’re so desensitized to his nature, the outburst may get to where it doesn’t bother you as much, leaving you with more confidence and fearlessness to try again soon after, much to his dismay.

How easy are they to trick, deceive, or manipulate?

Not particularly easy, actually, but it's more out of pessimism and aggression than intelligence. He's not good as distinguishing lies or manipulation, but he's self-aware enough to know that, and consequently, combined with his natural personality, he automatically assumes everything is a lie -- and that will become a big problem for darling, combined with his temper.

Because even when you tell him the truth, he thinks you're lying, he accuses you of lying, and he deals with you as though you're lying. Expect a lot of undeserved punishments. Granted, if he finds out that he did in fact hurt you when you didn't deserve it, he'll feel bad, he kinda beats himself up about it, sighs and, if he's not feeling too prideful that day, mutters out a sad excuse of an apology, and ends up sulking... honestly, you often find yourself feeling emotionally manipulated by pity into comforting him even though he was the one that hurt you wrongly in the first place.

How lenient are they? What privileges can you have, and what will you be denied?

In a situation where you're trapped with him, he's very paranoid. He does buy you a tablet, but, surprisingly for a young person, he's a bit lacking in tech knowledge and skills, he doesn't trust that you won't be able to find away around measures he puts up on his own. Thus, he seeks out someone more knowledgeable, makes up something about a relative with a kid who needs parental locks installed, has them explain to him in detail how it works. By the time he actually gives it to you, it's limited so that you can't upload anything, can't download anything without inputting a password, any video or page or search with certain keywords is blocked, several websites are blocked... basically you're limited to browsing apps and watching videos and playing mindless games, which, despite being frustrating, is still better than nothing. Which you will quickly find out, should you complain, because that will be met with his usual frustration, snapping at you that you're ungrateful before taking it away until you can learn to appreciate what he does for you a bit more. You can have it back if you apologize... preferably with some certain... gestures to show your remorse... please.

As that would indicate, he's very against you having contact with the world outside. However, the exception to this is family, albeit not exactly much of a lenience. He understands you don't want them to worry, that it kills you inside to think of how they're doing... he does feel guilt over that. So, if you push him enough, he may let you write letters to them, telling them you’re okay... and that you’re happy. The letter won’t be accepted unless it doesn’t meet his criteria, that you’re not asking for help, but rather discouraging it.

What kind of rules do they have? What kind of punishment would they use?

He can't really impose rules on you in a universe where you've both students. He doesn't have any rights to dictate your life, and in your mind, you barely know the guy. He's aware that if he were to come up to you and start demanding you do things, that might be the final straw that freaks you out enough to finally go to the administration and get him in trouble or something like that. Besides, the rules he would establish, if he did have no shame like that, would make his feelings too obvious.

He can't really indirectly control your behavior either, though, he has virtually no grasp on anything you do, really. Which causes him a great deal of frustration that he has to later take out in training or jerking off or some other stress-reduction method, or else he'd drive himself crazy with his seething and paranoia. He can try to cause little interferences with your life that cause you to do this or that, little setups or plots to ensure you make the correct choice, but those take so long to enact, and often he can only encourage one action rather than guarantee it, it's basically not worth it.

What he can do, at the very least, is try to control to some extent who you interact with, not by controlling you, but controlling others, via intimidation. He's self-aware that he can easily make a lot of people cower if he tries, so he can easily pull off something about not talking to you or else. Unfortunately, it doesn't take a genius to figure out why he'd do such a thing, so his desire to remain subtle is compromised by this, and it could come back to bite him if he gets in trouble for it. Other than that, in the end, he's left with not really much choice other than to hope and observe.

In a setting in which he's got you in an apartment, it depends a lot on you and your demeanor. If you can't be trusted, he's not going to give you responsibilities. Thus, your only real rules are to not leave the designated room, and don't be such a brat, per his own words. Specifically, as you have to learn with time, this really just means any behavior that upsets him, but especially you being stubborn or disagreeable in any capacity.

Once you can be trusted more... well, he's a very busy person, you know? Constantly off saving people, and due to your presence, he had to stop having housekeeping services come by. He doesn't trust you enough yet to bring them back, so... maybe you could help out just a bit? Come on. It's the least you can do, he gives you a place to live y'know. What? Yeah, yeah, "forced to live here" whatever. Just show some damn appreciation.

How do they deal with rivals, or perceived rivals? Will they get rid of them? Will they kill them themselves, or find another way?

It's embarrassing. He has no sense of shame and will near-immediately get directly, physically, verbally, and publicly confrontational. He does not care if he makes a scene, or perhaps doesn't stop to consider that he's doing so in the heat of the moment. It makes you cringe and try to shrink away when he starts snarling at someone across the room for just looking at you with the wrong look on their face, or when he mishears something he thinks is your name being spoken of negatively. He has to be calmed down by an external force, hopefully yourself, since you can do so faster than others, but that in and of itself is incredibly embarrassing for you.

He will fight someone, given that both 1) they genuinely are a threat and blatantly say so, rather than stuttering about how he misunderstood and they don't actually like you, and 2) he gets the opportunity, or they instigate it. Of course, this is likely to be quickly shut down by authorities... he blames you for the disciplinary action taken against him, grumbling and complaining to you later about how the teachers don't understand anything, how you should be defending him, he did it for you you know... what do you mean, 'unnecessary?’

In the long term, he would actually try to avoid killing anyone. He prefers a different approach, namely being so much of a force of intimidation in their life that they back down, which usually isn't hard for him, but if they persist, he can resort to actual threats and bullying. In later years, he could even try to squander their reputation, weaponizing his own popularity to shield himself and you from the backlash of any accusations he makes.

That isn't to say he might not kill someone accidentally. Were that to happen, he actually reacts rather badly, he panics, goes into a sort of shock. He's not a murderer, he's not, he didn't mean to... and dread starts settling in as he thinks of the fact that this is a fellow student, maybe even a hero, not a random person nor a villain nor a criminal. Thoughts of consequences and the meaning and weight of the action begin to weigh in. Unfortunately, this state of shock and panic causes him to do a terrible job of disposal. He has to fight the urge to bolt on the spot, but still doesn't stick around long enough to hide it well, most likely just drags it off into some bushes or, especially if under the cover of nighttime, picks it up and carries it to the nearest dump or quarry or dam or some other place he can just loosely dump it and prays for the best. He didn't even consider the fact that, since it was accidental, he probably got his own DNA everywhere... he tries to just shut it out of his mind, but you notice he's exceptionally on edge and somehow even quicker to anger for a long time after. The next day he's practically a wreck, had to tell himself it was too suspicious to claim he was sick and miss school, so he forces himself to go, but his behavior is so odd everyone notices... hopefully they don't connect the two.

How easy is it to make them mad? What does their anger look like?

Ha. Haha.

...I mean, you already know. The man's most well-known defining character trait is a hair-trigger temper. A lot of the time there's not really any good reason, he's just a particularly short tempered person.

It's (no pun intended) usually rather explosive - he yells, he snarls, he gets in your face, and he has to exert some of the anger physically. Definitely a wall-puncher, a pencil-snapper, and other classic forms of anger management when he's trying to avoid decking someone. Someone get this boy a squeeze stress toy (he would unironically use it, really).

He actually tries very, very hard to avoid hurting you in a moment of anger. He hates it, and whenever he does it it makes him feel horrible, he beats himself up internally. That being said, he's not the best at avoiding it, and will most likely end up lashing out at you now and then. He catches himself rather quickly, thankfully.

It follows a pattern - he gets mad, he snaps, he yells and yells and he ends up grabbing you by the shoulders and shaking you, slapping you, or something of that nature, and he comes to a sudden halt, cuts off in the middle of his sentence because he sees the look of fear on your face, the tears and realizes he's fucked up and hurt you, made you afraid of him. It kills him inside, and causes him to quickly shut down, trying to apologize, ultimately running off to get away from it and clear his head.

So they see you as above them, beneath them, or equal to them?

He doesn't care too much. If asked something like that, he'd just narrow his eyes and ask you what the hell they're talking about. Granted, he likes things his way, he likes making you submit to his will, he likes being in charge and he likes being looked up to, but worth? Why would he even waste time thinking about something stupid like that? Who cares?

That being said, he does like it if you look up to him, it's just not a worth thing. But for a darling who is a fan, or even just a classmate, he does like the idea of you thinking he's the bestest hero ever, you know, strong and cool and handsome and all that... and will actively work to try and direct your opinion of him in that direction. He also definitely does a lot to put himself above others around him, just not you. He can't have you thinking these losers are in the same league as him.

He likes the idea of your adoration. Honestly, he would never admit it in a thousand years, but sometimes he likes to daydream and fantasize about you telling him how strong or cool or great he is. If you could hear the things the "you" in his head says, well, it's so self-indulging and narcissistic it's gross.

How determined are they for you to love them? How hard will they try to make it happen? Or are they content just having you?

He goes to some unusual lengths to put himself above the competition. Because that's how he sees it, a competition. In his mind, you have to love someone, and logically, that person must be the person who comes out on top in every way. Well, academically, he may struggle to come out above some of the others... but physically? Combat-wise? That's something he feels he can pull off, and that's more noticeable anyway.

And, well, with his tendencies, it's really one of the only things he knows how to do. Words, gifts, that sort of thing is so hard, so confusing... if he's just the absolute best candidate for the role, then it won't matter, right?

So for the most part, his way of "trying to make you love him" is less about interacting with you, and more about his interactions with others and his own independent actions. He's always striving even harder than usual to come out on top in every class exercise, to do better than everyone else and by a wide margin at that. He tries to pull off impressive feats of strength and capability, waiting until he knows you're watching to do so.

If he can just maintain that, he tells himself, eventually you'll come around to him, and he won't have to worry about doing all of those things that make him so uncomfortable and embarrassed to think about... or at least, he hopes so. If that doesn't seem to be working, he may have to force himself into those things anyway, but let's hope it doesn't come to that.

Bonus: Is there anything that makes them unique, in comparison to other yanderes?

He really likes to daydream. The thing is, unlike most yanderes, it's not just him morphing the "you" in his head into someone you're not, but rather, he changes himself a bit too. It's true that, in his head, you're sweet and love him, you're so adoring it would make you nauseous if you could see his mental image of you. And the mental "you" doesn't have to have all these awkward confrontations, you understand everything he feels without being told, but also he himself is less... volatile.

In truth, he's not actually that bad with words if he has time to think on it. In his head, he can come up with a full speech to explain to you, apologize to you, articulate everything perfectly, really. If you could hear those thoughts, you'd be surprised it came from him at all.

The issue is his head versus the real world. Plenty of times he's rehearsed it in his head over and over, come up to you to finally give you the speech he's been practicing, that he's perfected, and... his mind goes blank. He can't remember anything he was going to say. He just goes quiet and feels his body grow hot and his face turn red and he ends up stammering out something incoherent before, as per usual, getting mad, leaving you absolutely bewildered as to why he came up to you just to upset you once again. Sigh.

Later, though, the poor thing retreats to his room once again, groaning and beating himself up internally for it all. Sometimes it's more mild, sometimes he can truly get upset about it, sulking to the point of acting out of character for days.

General perverseness: how sexual of a person are they? What’s their drive like? How touchy do they get? Do they have any reservations about sexuality?

Rather high drive, but incredibly sexually repressed and has a lot of built up sexual frustration. He usually just jerks off as a stress reliever, or just out of being horny, sometimes out of being bored. He fantasizes sometimes to pass the time in boring classes.

That being said, he's awkward with it all, easily flustered. Does he want to rail you like an animal? Well, yes, but... but... he's nervous, ok? It's not like he'd say that, but it's definitely a problem he has to think through. He doesn't want to... get anything wrong. If you went through his google search history you'd find all sorts of anatomy, sexual, and bodily function questions, things you'd be amazed he didn't already know.

He avoids touch like the plague, though, especially at first. You'll also notice, should you be in the same class, he very intentionally goes out of his way to avoid fighting you. The latter, he'll never do, but the former he has to get adjusted to with time, very VERY slowly.

Likewise, he's a person that gets incredibly flustered over sex as a conversational subject. Any mentions on your end for the most part will be met with a shut up and narrowed eyes, what, you think it's funny to try and upset him...? Unfortunately, he never really gets much better on this. Even as he gets more comfortable physically, verbally, he never really gets to where he can speak on the matter without going red in the face.

How forceful are they? Do they care about your willingness?

Perhaps surprisingly, somewhat, yes. Not enough to stop him per se. But yes, he cares.

You see, in his (very long, elaborate, and detailed) fantasies, the "you" there would be super into it and practically begging him to fuck you. Yes, he would like that a lot, he thinks, just thinking about it makes his ego flare up. If you were enthusiastic and eager it would be a lot easier.

That being said. He's aware that you're probably not too happy about the current situation. He realizes that if he wants to wait for your eagerness, well, he'll be waiting a long time. Possibly forever. And, well, he's just too horny.

To be fair, he actually waits a while, post-kidnapping. He's embarrassed, he's internally at war with himself, he's unsure what he really wants and there's a lot of internal conflict and questioning going on.

It ultimately happens as a heat of the moment sort of thing. An argument, an act of defiance, you set him off too far and he's so mad and that anger conflates with the overwhelming desire to just take you and, well, it's over before he really processes what he's doing. And from that point forward, it's like a dam has broken - he can't really fight the urge from that point forward.

What sort of kinks or fetishes do they have, or would they fill?

Praise/Worship

Probably his favorite. He's already got quite a bit of an ego, and while you certainly roll your eyes at the thought of feeding it, you'll make him so happy if you just praise him in any way, tell him how good it feels, how well he fucks you, how much you adore him and need him and how happy he makes you... words that may make you nauseous to even think about, but it's what he hears in his fantasies.

While praise alone certainly is good, he likes the extreme sort, which a bit of humility thrown in, probably better defined as worshipping him. Not only praise, but begging, exalting him, make him feel like he's on top of the world... it's all incredibly egotistical, still, it works wonders if you need a favor.

Marking

This can come in many forms, and each one of them is just as good as the other. Collars are a big one, he likes things that display his name, and its grab-able too, which certainly adds to the appeal. But also temporary marks, such as body writing, leaving bite marks or scratch marks or handprints, any of that sort of thing feels nice, gives him a sort of prideful swell in his chest.

But a personal favorite is hickeys... especially where they can be seen by others. He just conveniently keeps "forgetting" that you told him not to, or says he was so lost in the heat of the moment that he just didn't hear you saying "stop" when he was sucking on the soft flesh of your neck.

Exhibitionism/Candaulism

Only to an extent, and he's very specific about where that line is drawn. He likes having you by his side around press and news media, award shows, competitions, etc, likes to have you there and look pretty and wrap an arm around your waist like a trophy. Tries to get you to wear this and that, through not-so-subtle messages like laying out said clothing on the bed when you wake up. It's always a fine line between revealing, but not the borderline-nudity kind of revealing. He likes showing you off. He likes making others jealous. It’s almost immature, really, a look what I have and you don’t mentality.

He wouldn’t go for full nudity, though... that’s just for him to see, he thinks, it’s where he draws the line on the matter.

How do they feel about pregnancy or babies? Do they want them?

He likes the thought of it... it's sort of like an outward, tangible product of love, you know? The thought of having a protégé makes him feel a sort of swell of pride, he could teach them in his ways, even if their quirk is very different from his own. He would be a very proud type of dad, showing his kid off everywhere he goes... even if others aren't really enthusiastic about it, doesn't matter, he's gonna shove his spawn in their face anyway and even get mad if they don't give his kid the praise they deserve! Very involved too, to an embarrassing degree... expect him to get mad at teachers at parent-teacher conferences and make a scene (they request you come to such meetings in the future instead), absolutely will fight other parents and referees at sports games. It's so bad.

But in truth, he would also get jealous of a baby very easily. He likes being the center of your attention, and as mentioned, gets very outwardly upset whenever he's not. The kid does nothing for you, you're the one taking care of it... meanwhile he does so much to keep the populace and you safe, he's so successful and yet you still pull this "hold on" and "just a minute" bullshit, hmph, so what if the kid is crying or fell over, why is he not the priority?

What kind of (nsfw) punishments would they use?

If he gets truly, seriously mad, he has to take it out physically, and harshly. No passive punishments, no, you don't get out that easy. If anything, he's likely to just bend you over and beat your ass with his hand or a belt or the like, but regardless, it ends with you face down on his bed, getting pounded into from behind.

He does feel kinda bad after, particularly if you're sniffling or scared or otherwise reacting negatively. Nonetheless, that doesn't mean he's not still far too proud to ever apologize, so he likely just ends up sighing and huffing and storming out before he makes things any worse. He'll still offer to help, though, rather awkwardly getting you water or a blanket, throwing it down angrily before finally departing to go take an anger lap around the block as he often does.

However, he may be inclined towards more of the aforementioned less-harsh punishments if you're merely mildly irritating him. You really would look good with your mouth gagged and a vibrator taped to you.

What body parts of their darling do they like the most?

Thighs. Please let him just... rest his head. Or, you know, squeeze his head in between them. If that's how he dies, he dies happy. It's a source of comfort for him, he likes to come home and flop down on the couch or bed or whatever, burrowing his head against them. Provided you're at a stage where you'll allow that, of course.

But also, on a more wholesome note, he really does like your eyes... not that he looks into them often. He thinks they're beautiful, and he would like to be able to stare into them, and yet, he's very awkward about eye contact. His eyes always dart from wall to wall when he's talking to you... but even still, he gets a glimpse of your eyes every few seconds out of the corners of his own, and that's enough to make his heart beat hard and fast.

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Love spell

MINORS DNI (I know I can not stop you but if I find out, you will be blocked.) This is my first time writing a fan fiction on Tumblr, let's see how this goes !

Warnings: Degrading, face fucking, explicit description, oral male receiving, sexual acts using toys. (Let me know if I missed any)

As a young girl, you believed in finding your prince charming, he'd swoop in on his mighty steed and steal your heart. You'd be enamored by his wits and courage, and he your beauty and intelligence. "The one".

At the age of 17, a high school student obsessed with the idea of traditional love. You found him. Your one and only, but he was far from prince charming, he didn't ride a mighty steed nor own a castle, but he was yours and you love him. Your highschool sweetheart, you both have cried together, laughed together, experienced many emotions together. You, in many ways, were each other's firsts.

First break down, first date, first hand holding, first kiss, first lover, and after a year of dating, you were each others' first time.

You could still remember the night, you have both been planning this for months. On your one year anniversary, you would get a room for the night at a local love hotel, there would be soft music playing, dimmed lights, candles burning, and that's where and how he take your virginity and you his. Perfect.

It didn't go that way to say the least, being very inexperienced. The first time he tried to penetrate you, you pushed him off and hide under the blanket saying, "that's not going to fit", during foreplay you accidentally hit his head with your own, not to mention almost setting the room on fire with the lit candles. But after many laughs and giggles, you successfully lost your virginity to him and you couldn't be happier.

It was far from movie perfect but for both you and him it was everything and more.

Present day you are almost two years into your relationship and you both couldn't be happier. Draken treated you with the utmost respect and care, he always takes care of you, there's barely any arguments between the two of you. Everything is perfect. Kind of.

That's how you found yourself in the streets of Shibuya's red light district, near the brothel where your lover grew up in, so you think. You looked down at your phone.

"Shit!" You hit the side of your phone as it read "connection lost, rerouting", this had been the third time it has done this, you zoned out while trying to fix your phone so you can actually make it to your destination before it gets too late. You didn't hear the woman calling your name.

"Y/N!" You felt a hand gripping your shoulder, spinning you around to face them.

"Oh! Akai!" You exclaimed happily as you locked eyes with the person in front of you, a younger woman in a red silk dress, short blonde hair with long lashes.

"What are you doing out here? It's late. Shouldn't you be home by now?" She asked in a concerned tone looking you up and down. You wore an all black hoodie with baby yellow accents, along with black joggers.

"Oh, well, I'm was looking for you." You said bashfully with a slight giggle in your tone.

"Oh?" Akai questioned.

"Well, not you specifically but the hotel! You see, I got lost trying to find it and my stupid phone keeps rerouting me!" You complained, while pushing your phone in her face to show her your problem. She simply laughs, she locks arms with yours.

"Dont worry, big sister Akai will take you there, then you can explain why you're looking for us in the first place." Akai said with a wink.

A few minutes passed and you've arrived at the brothel, she brought you a drink and sat you down in her room with a couple of other girls, you all on the floor together, after short introductions and small talk Akai 'cut to the chase' as she likes to say. Chugging her bottle of beer, she looked at you with her slightly flushed face, along with the rest of the girls there.

"Spill the beans, whats going on? Trouble in paradise?" Akai smirked crawling her way towards you. You lifted your knees to your chest wondering if you should even be here, was this a stupid idea? You must've sat with your thoughts for a while, Akai looked at you with a bit of sadness in her eyes.

You could feel your face heating up with embarrassment, your heart was beating out of your chest. You figured this would be the best place to go to learn how to do it but what if they would make fun of you? What if they tell Draken? You really didn't think this through as well as you should have.

"Hey, whatever is going on.. You can tell us, we see you like our little sister ya' know?" She says with a smile, wrapping her arm around your shoulder to comfort you. Shes always been like this, ever since she walked in on you and Draken kissing, she's been the biggest help and supporter of your relationship. You couldn't ask for a better friend.

With a deep breath you decide tell them your issues, you were here anyways.

"Okay, so, I want to learn how to give oral." You said looking down at the ground fiddling your fingers, quite embarrassed about what you just said.

"Draken has, well, done it to me a couple of times and I wanted to return the favor. The thing is, everytime I try he rejects me. Telling me, 'i don't have to do things like that'. He's so considerate sometimes it pisses me off." You ranges to the girls as they listened with opening ears.

"I mean, what type of guy rejects a blow job? It's not like he has erectile dysfunction or his dick is small. I just don't get it." You were practically fuming at the memory of him pushing him off of you as you tried to suck him off.

"Maybe he's just shy?" One of the girl's offered her opinion.

"Oh no, this man is not shy! At all" You explained remembering some of the down right filthiest things he's muttered in your ears during your time together. "He's anything but that."

"Maybe he's scared you'll bite it." Akai said causing herself and others to snicker at her comment. You could only sigh.

"Would I be that bad my first time?" You muttered to yourself.

"Everybody is, it's a practice thing." Akai explained, she got up to grab herself another bottle of beer. "What you need, is practice." She smirked handing you the bottle.

"Yeah, but how? He won't let me." You said tilting your head at her statement, taking the bottle out her hand.

"Alright girlies, get out." Akai said while looking at the other women in the room with the two of you.

"Ehhh? Whyy? We wanna help too!" One of the girl exclaimed, getting multiple replies of other girls who agree.

"We don't wanna make Y/n feel any more embarrassed than she already does." Also sighed at the childish responses of her coworkers.

You were hiding your face in your phone at this point, it was honestly one of your worst ideas, but if it helped you with Draken it was worth it.

Small "awh man", "I wanted to hear more", and other complaints came out their mouths as they left the room one by one. You waves goodbye to the girls muttering a small thank you to them for listening.

"Alright!" Akai exclaimed while squatting down to reach under her bed, pulling out a box full of,

"Toys! The best practice you can get in such a small amount of time." She smirked pushing the box towards you. You could feel the blood rush to your face as you stared at the box filled with sex toys, you're far from innocent but there's still things you've never used or seen before, toys being one of them. Akai dug in the box full of excitement.

"I'll be your first!" She smirked, she pulled out multiple many toys just throwing them out the box without a care as to where they'll land. Finally, she pulled out an unopened box, "private fun" read the lable, it was all black with dark purple letters on it, it was a sleek box, very fancy to say the least.

"I haven't used this one yet, considering I never feel the need to. This'll be my first gift to you." She said tossing the box to you while looking for something else in her closet.

"Just what exactly is this?" You asked picking up the box to further examine it.

"A dildo! Duh." She said as if it was the most obvious thing in the world,

"Oh! And this!" She threw a small bottle towards you, "Love spell" a small pink bottle that could be mistaken for a 5-hour energy drink.

"Draken won't be back home for a while, which means, we have around" She looked at the clock hanging on her wall, "an hour and thirty minutes. Which is just enough time!"

"Wait wait wait!" You looked at her with complete confusion, "I have no idea what's going on! Why do I need all of this?" You looked at your hand and the items that are now in your possession, "Love spell", a dildo, and beer.

"Welllllll," Akai said drawing out the word, "You need practice, not like you can fuck a rando before Draken gets back, you also need liquid courage and a secret weapon!" She explained. "Now we don't have much time, chug both the beer and our secret weapon." She winked at you.

You're really starting to reject your decision, but there's no backing out now. You opened the bottle of whatever was in the pink container and chugged it down, quickly opening the beer to help with the bitter taste of the first liquid. It could show on your face the level of disgust you had for drinking this, you could never understand how Draken drank beer all the time, and whatever the hell this 'love spell' is taste disgusting. It was bitter and tangy, it even overpowered the beer.

Akai worked on opening the package to the dildo, while you were dealing with the taste of the liquids you just drank. She looked at you with menacing eyes and a devious smile that sent shivers down your spine.

She stood up and squatted in front of you holding that item in her hand as if it was nothing. Your eyes widened at the sight of it, it was big, yet flimsy. It was a pretty light blue color for such a naughty item.

"Take it." She handed you the dildo, "grip it with both hands." And so you did it. Following her every command.

"N-Now what?" You questioned feeling slight tipsy from the bottle of beer you just chugged, your face flushed from either holding a dildo or the beer, you couldn't tell, but it made this whole situation a lot worse for your lower region.

"Open." Akai tapped the bottom of your chin telling you to open your mouth, and so you did with the most innocent look in your eyes.

"Slowly bring it to your mouth, you want to tease him, lick the tip." You stuck your tongue out making small swirls onto the tip of the fake cock, "Alright, now slowly take it in, don't force anything." You opened your mouth wider to take in the inches of the cock, bringing it to the back of your throat causing you to choke and gag as it hit it. You quickly pulled the fake dick out and began to cough.

"I told you slowly. Let's try again." She squished your face with a hand pulling it up, the other held onto the dildo. "Open." She said again and you did. She guided the dildo into your mouth, slowly moving it in and out, barley reaching the back of your throat. "Breathe through your nose, don't panic." She said as she began to pick up the pace. Rapidly moving the dildo in and out. "Use your tongue at the bottom of it, stick it out." She commanded. Spit began to drip from the side of your mouth onto the floor, you felt as if you were losing yourself. Tears welled in your eyes as you swallowed down the dildo. It wasnt even real, it wasn't even Draken's but for some reason it made your head pound and your pussy twitch with excitement. If this feels as good as it does, you couldn't help but wonder how Draken's would feel, how it would feel against the back of your throat.

Akai picked up on the pace making the dildo hit the back of your throat causing you to convulse onto the dildo, you close an eye and winces as it attacked your throat.

"Try it yourself." She said letting go, letting you have full control. You started slow, pushing the dildo in and out your mouth as she did, trying to follow her lead. You tried to take more of it, you shoved the dildo deep into your throat, forcing all the inches into your mouth, you could feel it bulge through your throat as held it in place forcing you to choke on it. You felt your warm tears drip down your face, you weren't letting up. You wanted to feel it down your throat, the warm, the tightness, you wanted to feel Draken. You finally pulled it out, watching as the inches slipped out of your mouth.

"Guess what bottle really did wonders!" Akai giggled. "Deepthroating huh? You're basically a pro." You looked at her with a stained face, drool down the side of your mouth, and glassy eyes. You finally felt the embarrassment hit you, you covered your face dropping the dildo onto the ground making incoherent noises.

"I think you're ready." She smirked patting your head watching you in distress.

"I am?" You questioned, it was that easy?

"Yep! Actually, take this." She tossed you one last thing before telling you to go wait in his room. As you walked to his room you felt your head ring, the only thing you could hear was the needy throbbing of your inner walls. You couldn't wait for Draken to get back, just what did Akai give you? You had no time to be embarrassed about what you just did in the other room, you just wanted him. All of him.

You found yourself in his barley lit room, sitting on his bed. It was him, his scent, you could feel him around you even if he wasn't physically present. Your inner walls clenched at the thought of your boyfriend. You changed out of your clothes and into what Akai gave you, it was a sleek princess pink teddy with a deep V neck to perfectly show off your breasts. There were straps in the back that cupped your ass making it look juicier than before. There was a deep slit in the middle of the dress, a small move and not only would your stomach be revealed but your pussy would be as well. You made your way over to his bed to wait, you sat down and got engulfed in his smell. It was painful to just wait, the way your panties got wetter by the second, you decided to lay down but it only got worse. Minutes passed by but it felt like hours, you wanted to call him and tell him to hurry but you already showed up unannounced. You didn't want to pester him anymore, so you waited. You don't know when but you found your walls squeezing your fingers tightly as you moved them in and out. Moans and a wet sound filled the room as you toyed with yourself. Your face was in his pillow breathing him in as your other hand was toying with your breasts, pinching, squeezing, and pulling your nipples. It felt good but not good enough, it couldn't bring you to that high that Draken could. You found yourself calling him out, chanting his him like a mantra underneath your moans. You didn't even notice when he came in the room.

"Y/N?" Draken called out as he closed the door. The look on his face was priceless, his gaping mouth and widened eyes as he looked at the sight of you being so desperate for him calling out his name with fingers inside your cunt.

"D-Draken, m'sorry, couldnt wait. Need you." You whined. Pushing your fingers deeper making your back arch. At this point, he was stunned. The shy girl who never seeked anything sexual, the same girl who blushes when they held hands even after being together all the time. That girl was fingering herself on his bed begging for his cock. It was an instant turn on.

"S'all your fault!" You cried out with tears in your eyes, you got up and looked him in the eyes. "All cause you won't let me touch you..." You pouted.

"Ha? What are you talking about?" Draken questioned you. You weren't paying attention to him, you crawled from the bed stepping on the cold floor with your bare feet. You got on your hands and knees in front of Draken, looking at him with the utmost admiration, but behind those eyes was a look of neediness.

"W-What are you doing?" He watched as you played with his belt buckle, you locked eyes with him once more,

"Can't I?" You asked, kissing the bulge through his pants, "Want you, wanna feel you in my throat." You pulled his pants down revealing his boxers, you rubbed your hand feeling the hardness through the fabric, placing small kisses on it while you you waited for a go, a sign, anything.

"Shit Y/n, who knew you could be so slutty hm?" Draken smirked, "Go ahead." You beamed a smile at him as you pulled his boxers down revealing his harden cock. This is the first time you've seen it up close, it's pretty. It almost looks angry with how flushed it is on the top.

You began to kiss his freed cock, starting from the shaft up, remembering what Akai taught you. Tease him. Littering his cock with kisses, you reached the tip, you began to leave small kitten licks, swirling your tongue on around the tip, prodding the tip of your tongue into the small hole on his cock.

"Shit," Draken muttered under his breath, his voice sounds as if it's gotten deeper. You look up at him to see his eyebrows furrowed and his eyes completely focused on you. "Stop with the teasing." He demanded.

"Don't wanna." You continued to look at him, staring into his gorgeous orbs, "s'punishment for not letting me do this early" You smirked against his dick, bringing one of your hands up to slowly move your hand up and down his shaft. You watched as his breath started to break, his tough exterior was crumbling and it was all because of you, but it wasn't enough, you want to keep going. You have a show to put on.

You open your mouth sucking on just the tip of his cock, bobbing your head slowly with swirling his tip in your mouth.

"Y/N, fuck." He places his hand behind your head as his breath began to get more rapid and broken apart. "Come on, take some more." He was practically begging at this point. So slowly but surely, you widened your mouth, stuck your tongue out, and pushed your head further down to his cock. As much as you could take, the remainder you began to jerk with your hand. Bobbing your head on the inches you could take up and down with jerking him off. Listening to his soft grunts and groans. He was big, you knew this but it's different with it's in your throat, you can see it, your mouth felt full and you didn't even completely take it in. You kept going on this pace, proud of yourself for breaking Draken's tough exterior.

"Going to damn slow." He gripped the back of your head forcing his cock down your throat, you gag at this sudden action. He uses your mouth like a rag doll, forcing his cock in and out your mouth and a hellish pace without stopping, bobbing your head up and down. It hurts, taking all of him.

"Wanna be a dirty slut, gonna treat you like one." He said while gripping your hair harder as he pulled you off his cock, "spit on it." He said, and you did, you spat on the shaft of his cock and opened your mouth again for him to assault your throat.

"So eager to take this dick hm? Couldn't even wait for me to get home, had to play with yourself while I was gone? Who knew my pretty girl was such a dirty slut." He chuckled, under his breath as he continues to use you however he pleased. You placed your hands on either side of his thigh to try and control the pace but it was futile, he was much stronger than you, all you could do was hold yourself up and try not to vomit. Drool dripped down the side of your mouth as he thrusted his cock down your throat.

"Taking all this dick, good girl." He praised you as he held your head against his pelvis forcing his dick down your throat, he looked smug as he saw the outline of his cock through the flesh of your throat, you slapped his thigh to try and get him to let go of you, needing air. The feeling of you shaking on his cock trying to push away to get air was a sight to behold for him, he wanted to bury his cock in your throat forever, never taking it out. He watched as tears dripped down your face, your hair was mess, face stained with tears, drool dripping out the corners of your mouth. You gagging on his cock, digging your nails into his thigh.

Draken finally let go, you gasps for air you so desperately needed.

"Open up." He says pushing your head back, "Stick that slutty tongue of yours out. Gonna cum in your mouth."

You put your hands on your knees, sitting up higher to put the tip of his cock in your mouth as he jerked it. His eyes glared at you, you listened to his grunts like a melody. You never seen him like this, during sex he was very calm and collected, gentle. Never used harsh words, this was different though. For some reason, being used like his cocksleeve had you dripping.

"Gonna cum, Y/n, take it all, don't spill a single drop." His warm cum spurted onto your tongue, he wiped his tip clean on your tongue "that's it, good girl, now swallow it." You closed your mouth and with a single gulp you downed his cum without a second thought.

"Tastes weird..." Wiping the drool from your mouth with the back of your hand. Draken lifts you up by your arm and tosses you on the bed.

"Had to go and get me riled up..." He said while taking his shirt off, "gonna fill you up real nice." He pushed his lips against yours hungrily devouring your mouth, tasting a mixture of both liquor and his own cum, his mouth explored your own in a heated make out session, his hand traveled down past your panties and onto your bare cunt, a finger pushed pass your slit making it's way in. You moaned into the kiss, giving Draken more access to your mouth, swirling his tongue with your own.

You pulled away from the kiss to let out a soft moan as his finger toys with you, he puts another one in causing you to arch your back. His other hand rubs soft circles on your clit, he claims your mouth with another hungry kiss as if this will be the last time he felt your lips against his own.

"So needy, barely did anything to you." You moaned against his lips as he brought you to a high.

"D-Draken!" You moaned out.

"Fuck, trying to amputate my fingers? Loosen up. " He grumbles, his lips go down to your neck, sucking and biting against your fleshing leaving bruises everywhere his mouth touches. You wrap your arms around his neck pulling him in closer, as you begin to grind your hips against his fingers as they work their way in and out of you and the others against your clit.

"Gonna cum on my fingers?" He questions in your ear while biting your ear lobe.

"Gonna cum on em!" You reply, moving your hips faster, you begin to convulse as he brings you to your well deserved orgasm.

"You're gonna do that all on my cock." He muttered against your neck as he works his way down to your tits. He puts his fingers in your mouth muffling your moans as he begins to suck on your now perky nipples. He pushes his fingers in and out your mouth forcing you to taste your own juices, the same fingers that were just in you, that brought you to your orgasm.

After assaulting your mouth with his fingers he reaches over to the side his of bed to grab a condom.

"Put it on for me." Still high on your orgasm you slowly reach your hand up to take the condom out of his own, that's when he pushes your head own to his cock. He rips the packaging placing just the tip of his cock into the condom.

"Use that pretty mouth of yours." He smirks as he watches you take all of his dick into your mouth, pushing the condom down in the process. "Make sure to get it all the way on, wouldn't want any cum to spill out hm?" He says as he caresses your head.

"Such a good girl." He praises you as you bring your head up, "Gonna make you feel real good okay?" He kisses your forehead as he leans you down into the mattress. He slaps your pussy a couple of times with his cock, prodding the tip at the entrance, pushing his tip every so softly in and out, barley giving you anything to work with.

"Stop with the teasing Draken." You whined, locking your legs around his waist, trying to push his cock further into you. He clicks his tongue at your actions, pulling himself completely out before lifting one of your legs and putting it on his shoulder.

"I don't remember you being in control here." He guffed out. He rammed his cock into you without warning causing you to gasp, your eyes wide and mouth agape. "That's more like it." He smirks at your appearance.

He begins to thrust in and out of your tight pussy, watching you unravel on his cock. One hand holding your leg on his shoulder and the other turning your head to face him.

"This what you wanted right?" He honeyed out, this voice being quite sweet unlike his thrusts, the way his cock pulled out of you only to slam right back in. Sounds of skin against skin filled the room, along with your sweet mouths chanting his name like once before.

He pried your mouth open with his fingers bringing his face closer only to spit in your mouth, "Good little whore" he mutters against your ear. His thrusts never stopped, not once, he keeps going until he brings you to an orgasm.

He could feel your body going limp, but he wasn't done yet. He flipped lifted your body, he was now on his knees and you on his lap, your hands tangled in his hair while being wrapped around his neck, his mouth devouring your nipple, he slams his cock into you while being in this new position. His hands on either side of your waist slamming your body onto his own matching the rythm of his thrusts. He bites down on your nipple, you pull his hair as payback, you finally meet eyes. His hair all disheveled and out of his normal braid, his eyes slanted, full of hunger, he looked like a animal eyeing his prey, and you looked extremely delicious right now. He captures your lips in a heated kiss as his grip tightens on your waist, you grind against his cock as you moan into the kiss. You suck on his tongue and he does yours, you bite his lower lip slightly tugging on it.

"God Y/n, who knew you were so cock hungry. Wouldn't have been going so easy on you of I knew you could take it." He chuckles as he lays your body back down onto the mattress and begins pounding your body against his locking his lips with yours again.

"You're sucking me in like crazy." His voice is rough and out of breath. Your walls only tightening around him while hearing his voice, his hand goes back down to your clit rubbing it aggressively.

"Fuck, I'm close, fuck fuck fuck." He announces, muttering an array of curse words as he feels himself getting closer to his climax. "Cum with me, cum on my cock one last time." He picks up the pace with his thrust and the attack on your poor nub, you were nothing more than a moaning drooling mess at this point subject to Draken's aggressiveness, your body shakes and your back arches for the last time as you release your juices onto Draken's cock coming to your final high, he thrusts one last time before he releases in the condom.

He pulls out taking off the condom and throwing it in the nearby bin, he watches as you slowly drift to sleep but not before saying, "I love you."

"Mhm, I love you too, my little vixen." He kisses your forehead before he lays next to you and drifts to sleep.

Sorry if this wasn't the best, it was my first time writing for Draken. He's kind of a difficult character, I hope you enjoyed it nonetheless!

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can we get some fluffy tf2 headcannons? giving you full creative liberty over this one! :)

Idk if you meant tf2 x reader headcanons or just general head canons, so I did two sections for each merc; the first point is a general headcanon, the second is X Reader.

sorry this took forEEEEEEEEVER, I was just experiencing burnout and working on a prize for a contest on my server (BTW WE HAVE A NEW DRAWING CONTEST GO CHECK IT OUT)

Scout:

Scout is actually really self-concious about his intelligence. He’s not very bright and he knows it, and it makes him feel horrible. He had flunked out of high school and struggled in most of his core classes. He honestly feels really stupid and he hates when people point it out. But luckily for him, a lot of the other mercs understand what it’s like to be looked down upon and empathize with him. Quite a few of them help him relearn the skills he never mastered in school. Engie helps him with math, Spy sometimes helps him with writing, and even Pyro has him read children’s books to them to improve his reading.

Scout absolutely loves little casual dates. Stuff like going out to eat lunch, going to the movies, maybe just cuddling up in his quarters and watching a movie. He tries to plan one every week. His dream date is taking you back to Boston to meet his family and go to a Red Sox game. But obviously, since you’re both in New Mexico at the time, he’s going to have to shelve that dream for a few years.

Soldier:

Soldier is an excellent raccoon dad. At first, the other mercenaries thought they’d all end up dead by the end of the month when he first found them. But surprisingly, they are are very well cared for. They’re all fed regularly and basically have his entire assigned quarters to themselves. He loves every single one of them dearly, even the ones that hiss and scratch him every time. The raccoons, at least some of them, are kind of like weird, quiet dogs, and actually get along pretty well with most of the other mercenaries.

Soldier is a surprisingly very physically affectionate partner, and he’s not at all opposed to PDA. He loves hand holding, cheek kisses, cuddles, the whole nine yards. Whenever he’s particularly excited, he loves to run up to you, scoop you up into his arms, and press a hard, sloppy kiss to your lips. Of course, he’s careful to not hurt you, but he’s a very intense, emotional guy and he needs to express all that love he has for you!

Pyro:

Pyro is and excellent listener, so they’re a person a lot of the other mercenaries depend on to vent. Demo often comes to them to vent about his emotions, Scout, Sniper, or Medic will rant about what’s bothering them, and even Engineer will talk about his stress. And of course, Pyro doesn’t understand a lot of what is told to them, but they’re still happy to help them feel a little better, and they would happily do it a hundred times over to make their friends feel better.

Pyro has a hobby of baking and making candy/treats, and they love sharing everything they make with you. When they first gave you a treat, you honestly thought it’d be burnt or bad in some other way. But to your surprise, it was amazing! They’re actually and excellent cook, but they just love making sweet things the best. They’ll make you just about anything you could ask for without hesitation, but they’re best at making anything sweet.

Demo:

Demo obviously has the potential to pretty emotional when he’s drunk, there’s no doubt about that. But on the off-chance that he’s sober, he’s actually pretty sweet and considerate. Though he still is a rough-housing joker, he’s much more considerate of his friends’ feelings and has deeper and more meaningful conversations with them. He often likes to go to bars with his friends and co-workers on ceasefire weekends, having lots of fun conversation, drinking together, and generally causing chaos around town.

Demo, to put it simply, doesn’t like himself. He’s critical of everything, from his skills to race, because people have always put him down about them. His mother told him he’s lazy and unskilled too many times to count, just everyone makes fun of his eye, and many have made fun of his skin color. But you make him feel so much better about himself. Just the fact that someone so kind and gorgeous is actually with him makes him feel like he’s not as horrible as he thought. There’s been a couple of times where you’ve accidentally almost brought him to tears with a sweet compliment or show of affection, because he never thought in a million years that someone would love him and care for him like you do. He feels so blessed that he has someone like you.

Heavy:

I know the fandom’s decided that Engie is the Team Mom and makes the food, but I also think that Heavy cooks a lot too. He makes all of his own food, so he often makes a lot of extras to feed the team because a lot of them just eat junk food and Medic’s always complaining about their eating habits. Heavy often takes like half the food for himself (he does have a huge appetite and loves food, so he likes to take a lot) and just boxes up the leftover portions and leaves them in the fridge for the team to take. He says he’s only doing it because they can’t work properly if they’re unhealthy, but he also does it because he cares about their health. A little bit.

At first, you wouldn’t think Heavy’s the most cuddly guy. But surprise, he actually loves giving and receiving physical affection. He just doesn’t show it often out of respect for your boundaries, and doesn’t do it around others. His absolute favorite thing is to cuddle you against his chest. Sometimes it’s when going to sleep, or cuddling on the couch, or maybe just a quick hug. He just loves the feeling of your head resting against his chest and your arms trying (and failing) to wrap around his torso. It makes him feel like you’re safe. Nobody could ever get you when you’re wrapped up in his arms.

Engie:

You’d think Sniper’s the only nature nerd on the team, but Engie absolutely loves the outdoors, as well as animals. It’s because his father would often take him out camping every couple of months. It was often the only time he would get 1-on-1 time with his usually very busy father. So he does love the great outdoors, especially that of his home state. He especially loves animals. He was raised on a farm and helped take care of lots of injured wild animals with his mother. He absolutely loves pets and would like to have many when he retires. His dream is to have is own ranch, with horses and cows and a bunch of dogs and the whole shebang.

Engie absolutely loves playing the guitar, so of course he loves playing for you. He learns all sorts of sweet love songs to sing to you. He’s an excellent player and actually has a pretty decent singing voice (think Johnny Cash, he kinda has that singing style). I hope you like country music, because that’s all he’s going to sing to you until you give him some requests or he finds out your favorite artists or genres. You can tell how happy he is every time he gets to surprise you with a new song he learned, and he’d be a giddy, laughing mess if you sang along with him.

Medic:

You’d think this guy takes horrible care of his birds because of the environment he keeps them in, but his birds are actually exceptionally well cared for. He buys them only the best and most expensive bird food, gives them super high-quality water with vitamins n stuff in it, takes them to the vet regularly, the whole shebang. Yeah they get a little dirty from sitting around in his lab, but he always gives them a little bath at the end of the day to get all the blood and guts off.

Medic is honestly such a playful partner. Of course, around his co-workers he’s a little more professional; he still gives you soft touches, a kiss on the cheek, or a big smile, but that’s about it. In private, however, he’s such a sweetheart. He’s always sweeping you up into big hugs, kissing all over your face, and calling you all sorts of adorable nicknames in a variety of languages. It comes as a surprise, because you’d think he’d be a little more formal, but that’s really only for special occasions. It honestly brings him so much joy to have someone like you by his side, and every day he’s going to make sure you know just how grateful he is to have you in his life.

Sniper:

Sniper is an incredibly independent and self-sufficient man, but he’s also secretly a real mama’s boy. He loves his parents dearly and has a particularly close relationship with his mother. As well as sending them money every month, he sends them all sorts of gifts, letters, postcards, and souvenirs. He also makes sure to call them regularly. He goes home every couple of months to visit them, and one could see that he loves helping around the house and chatting with his parents. His mother loved gardening, so his number-1 favorite thing to do is help her in the garden.

Despite Sniper’s obvious lack of knowledge on self-care, he takes a lot of time out of his day to make sure you are happy, healthy, clean, and well-fed. He doesn’t hound you like a helicopter parent but he likes to ask how you’re feeling, if you’re hungry, stuff like that. It feels nice to know you’re taken care of or take care of you himself. If you switch it around and try to take care of him, however, he’s honestly baffled as to why you would care so much as to make sure he’s doing well. He does absolutely love the affection and attention he gets out of it though, it makes him feel loved.

Spy:

I’ve mentioned this before, but I have a head canon that Spy has a dog. Her name is Charlotte, and she’s an elderly Chihuahua. One would think he’d buy a French breed, but he found her out in the pouring rain one day and fell in love with her fluffy ears and spunky personality. She’s now 17 years old, extremely frail, missing most of her teeth, and extremely aggressive to anyone other than Spy, but he loves her dearly and pays for all of her medical expenses without batting an eye. And of course, she expresses her thanks with lots of kisses.

Spy loves dancing, and knows all kinds of dances, from flamenco to ballroom dancing to the Charleston to, canonically, disco. So of course, he’s dying to share all of the most romantic dances he knows with you. He’d love to actually teach you how to dance, rewarding you with kisses every time you finally get a move right and laughing softly when you make mistakes. But in reality, he just wants to use it as an excuse to dance with you against his chest and smother you in affection.