#but don't think i haven't forgotten how her brother is treated

[laurapalmerz]

i think we as a society should talk about audrey more. next to shelly and laura, she's one of the most mischaracterized throughout the entire show. an endlessly fascinating case of existing often just as ship material or stripped down to aesthetics instead of exploring the rather horrendous abuse that she and her brother have faced living in the horne household.

the fact that her father plays a pivotal role for a while in terms of her self worth is really depressing, especially given she doesn't receive much attention from him in the first place. her jealously of laura stealing the attention away from him at parties also foreshadows a lot of what she'll go on to experience as she gets older. it was unfounded, since it wasn't as though he was favoring laura as a "daughter" over audrey, but was attracted to her from that moment onward (as we find out in laura's diary when she's eventually hired at one eyed jacks). this lack of attention and care toward her might explain why she behaves the way she does and has a tendency to seek out comfort in the arms of older men (see her attraction to cooper and that one guy she eventually gets with, jack? i think his name is?). her family despises her. not a lot of people take her seriously. she's ignored and shoved off until she enters one eyed jacks and is used as leverage as blackmail against her father, who nearly has sex with her unknowingly. it breaks her further to know that her father had a relationship with laura, that it was potentially him that could've killed her (before her real killer is revealed) all because she was going to expose his secrets rightfully. there's layers of complexity to her that people blatantly ignore because "uwu aesthetic!! she's SO lana del ray coded". i cannot tell you how many times i've perused youtube edits or amv's of twin peaks and seen audrey set to songs by lana del ray (who is a known zionist and racist). one of which being "lolita" which just makes me wanna vomit because that song misses the ENTIRE point of the novel but that's a discussion for another day. she's not two-dimensional, her struggles are just as valid as laura's and she deserves to be respected as a character. she's not a sex symbol, she's not an aesthetic, she's a girl who just wanted to be loved by her father, but ended up in the margins as he sought power and relationships with underage girls at a business he and his brother ran off to the side illegally. no one loves her, and thus she acts out, even though she doesn't want to.

[elliaze]

Weightless

Parring: Joel Miller x fem!reader

Warnings: Joel and reader are neighbors, age gap (Joel is 10 years older), no!outbreak, reader has 23 years old, Sarah is here but only mention, neighbors-to-friends-to-idiots-in-love-trope?, protective!Joel, they are head over hills to each other, but Joel think he's to old for her, mostly fluff but with a little heart-break,

Summary: Joel goes to the bar when Y/N is working and then something happens.

Word Count: +2700

Divider by @cafekitsune

MASTERLIST

Y/N was twenty-three when she fell in love. 

Or had it lasted much longer? 

It was hard to tell, because Joel Miller had been in her life almost from the beginning. First, as an annoying adult neighbour. She loved to play pranks on him when she was a child. He had always threatened to tell her parents, but she knew that had never happened. Later, as she grew up, that same annoying neighbour suddenly became an exceptionally handsome neighbour. It had been a time when she had paid no attention to boys her own age, thinking they were complete idiots. It was also a time when she had gone from being an ordinary girl next door to being Sarah’s babysitter, especially when Joel and his brother couldn’t take care of the little girl. Y/N remembered how she would blush every time she passed Miller, especially when he started talking to her about something other than how his beloved daughter was doing. She thought that her crush on her older neighbour was just a result of her teenage years. She thought that would pass.

A few years later, it didn't. On top of that, everything got more complicated because she and Joel started to be friends. He didn't treat her like a child, although he could, especially since he saw her in every, even the most embarrassing, moment and witnessed her running around the yard with two pigtails and pink tights that always ended up dirty with mud. She knew that she could rely on him, sometimes much more than on her so-called friends. And she wanted it to work both ways, but sometimes she had the impression that there were moments when he looked at her through the prism of the age difference.

“Beer and a hamburger for my favourite customer,” she said cheerfully, placing a plate of food and a bottle of alcohol on the table. Taking advantage of the fact that she finally had a free moment during her shift, she took a seat opposite Joel. “Hard day?”

“Tiring, and I really don't want to go home so soon because…”

“Sarah's staying over at a friend's” she finished for him, recalling her morning conversation with the girl. “She mentioned something to me, that they'll be watching movies and eating sweets. It is quite a pleasant prospect.”

“Maybe you should follow her example and rest yourself.”Joel pointed at her and took a quick sip of his beer. “Which shift is it? Eight? Nine?”

“Ten.”

“Even better. Honey, you're too young to work yourself to death.”

“I guess it's a good thing I have the whole day off tomorrow. And I'm going to lie around and do nothing, but only after our breakfast together. Because I hope it's still relevant?”

“You ask as if you haven't dropped by our house and eaten the fridge in years.”

“Hey!” She laughed and pulled a pen out of her apron. She threw it at the man, who leaned back at the last moment and snorted with laughter. “That's called slander, Miller. Watch out, or I'll tip you twice.”

“I could even pay triple for your company.”

Joel winked at her, and she blushed at his words anyway. She tried to cover it up by fixing her hair, but she still thought he must have noticed. Whatever that meant, she must have forgotten about it, because the door to the bar opened and a drunk man entered. The smile fell from her face as she recognized him as a customer she genuinely hated. He always hit on, even harassed, all the waitresses. Normally she could handle him, but now that she saw that he was clearly drunk, she had a bad feeling.

“What's going on?” Joel asked with concern, then glanced over his shoulder at the new man who had just taken a seat a few tables away. “Who's that? Do you know him?”

“Unfortunately. He's one of our customers who... Let's just say he really likes to pick on all the girls at work. I hate him, but I have to serve him.”

“I'll be here if anything. Just let me know and…”

“Thanks, but take care of your burger. I'm not going to serve him anyway because he's drunk.”

“Just be careful, okay?”

“When I'm not,” Y/N replied teasingly and stood up from her seat.

She slowly made her way to the occupied table. When she turned around for a moment to see if Joel had listened to her, she shook her head in amusement. She could have expected that the only person he listened to was himself and did only and exclusively what he thought was right. At least that's how she preferred to explain his intense gaze on her, so as not to get her hopes up too high. 

However, getting the client turned out to be much more difficult than she thought. The initial texts and comments might have seemed funny, but when his behaviour began to become aggressive and intrusive, she began to lose patience. It wasn't the first time she had been in such a situation, so she knew how to behave. She had learned a long time ago that being a woman, she was doomed to this type of behaviour. She could endure a pat on the butt or other such gestures, but when he started calling her names and raised his hand to hit her, she completely froze in place. Not only that, but she was paralysed and if not for Joel's quick reaction, she would probably have ended up with a mangled face.

Miller pushed her back and grabbed the drunk man by the collar of his shirt. He lifted him up, and as he continued to argue and fight, Joel struck him first. It all happened so quickly that all Y/N could do was watch in shock and fear as the two men exchanged blows, chairs were overturned, and table decorations were smashed. Eventually, however, it all passed, and Joel walked over to her and grabbed her by the arms.

“Hey, talk to me,” he said calmly, as if he hadn't been in the fight just minutes before. “Y/N?”

“Everything's okay,” she assured him, and to confirm her words, she patted his shoulders. It was then that she saw how bloody and raw his hands were. “You're hurt! Oh, my God, Joel!”

“It's nothing,” he waved his hand dismissively. “Are you closing up now? You've got enough to survive for one day.” 

She just nodded.

Their trip was silent. Y/N could feel the fatigue and emotions of the last few events creeping up on her. She longed to go to bed and forget about it, especially since she was going to have to talk to her boss about what had happened when she got back from her day off. She had already informed her about it over the phone, and she was genuinely surprised because she had no complaints.

Joel parked his car in the driveway and turned off the engine. She looked at the windows in her house and saw that the light was on in her parents' room, which meant they were probably getting ready for bed. They had long since stopped waiting for her when she came back from her evening shifts, especially when Joel was the one who came to pick her up.

“Thank you for what you did.” Joel began to shake his head, as if her words were unnecessary, but she turned to him and put her hand on his shoulder. “It's true, Joel. I thought I was doing pretty well with him, but when he raised his hand to hit me, I completely panicked, and if it weren't for you, I would have…”

She didn't even want to think about what would have happened if she had been there alone.

“Any other guy would have done the same thing.”

“Maybe, but you didn't hesitate for a second. Whenever I need your help, you drop almost everything and help me. I hope you know how much that means to me.”

“If you’re trying to get me to make some tearful confessions, you’re doing a pretty good job,” he joked, and she shook her head in amusement. “Go home. Get some rest.”

“Oh no! Joel Miller, you saved me today, so let me repay you.” The man raised an eyebrow at her, and she pointed to his mangled hands. “Now it’s my turn to help you. You know I’ll treat those wounds like a professional nurse.”

“I know, because you’ve done it with Sarah so many times. Fine, but then you’re going straight home for a good night’s sleep.”

“I’m a grown woman and I can take care of myself, you know?”

“It’s hard to tell when you were running around the yard with two pigtails and pink tights just a few years ago.”

She rolled her eyes and got out of the car.

When she entered the Millers’ house, she felt at home. Sometimes she even considered this place her second home, because she spent almost as much time there as she did in her family's house. She didn't know what it had to do with it, but Joel's house had always been an oasis of warmth and love for her. She loved her parents and the fact that they provided her with everything they could, but because she was raised alone, she often felt lonely there. Here, she always knew she would find someone to talk to or watch some stupid movie. Mostly it was Sarah, whom she loved taking care of, but Tommy and Joel would show up just as often. She especially loved the moments when the four of them spent time together. To some, she might have been an outsider to the Miller family, but with them, she never felt that way. 

Y/N quickly found the things she needed and went back to the living room, where Joel was waiting for her on the couch. He was sitting sprawled with his head up, and she stopped for a moment to watch him. She had long thought he was handsome, but she had the impression that with each passing year he looked even better. She could see that he was as tired as she was, but even now she could imagine sitting on his lap, wrapping her arms around his neck and pressing their lips together. Her infatuation was dangerous, and she was fully aware of it. But she wouldn't be able to break what connected her to Joel. She preferred their strange, friendly relationship to nothing.

“Don't fall asleep, old man,” she said jokingly, walking over to the couch he was sitting on. Joel straightened up, making room for her next to him.

“I'm not old enough to be called that.”

“I'll remind you when I see first grey hair.”

“Mine or yours?”

She laughed merrily and then began to bandage his hands. The only sounds in the room were quiet hisses and moans, but Y/N still had the impression that Joel could hear her loudly beating heart. She did everything she could to focus on her task as much as possible, but the man's proximity was definitely distracting for her. She suspected that it might have something to do with what had happened. Emotions still clung to her, even if she had already come to terms with it. 

But now she seemed to feel Joel's presence next to her more strongly. They had been in such situations more than once, but at this moment she was holding back with the last bit of willpower not to do something stupid.

“It's done,” she said after a short while with complete satisfaction. “I hope it heals quickly.”

“After such professional help?” 

“Professional and completely free,” she emphasised, and began to clean up all the things. She wanted to get up, but Joel grabbed her hand and stopped her in her tracks.

“Leave it and sit down. You're exhausted and you just bandaged my wounds. You don't have to clean up yet.”

“Oh, okay,” she sighed quietly. She leaned back against the couch, defeated, and felt a shiver as their shoulders touched. “Are you thinking about something specific?”

“No. What about you?”

“Nothing specific either.”

Joel snorted and looked at her with amusement. She thought she was crazy, because otherwise she couldn't understand how she leaned over Miller and placed a short kiss on his lips. She wasn't even sure if she should call it a kiss, because their lips only touched lightly before she pulled away. But those few seconds allowed her to get to know his taste, and she knew that nothing tasted as intoxicating as his lips. It wasn't her first kiss in her life, but for a moment, that's exactly how she felt.

“I'm sorry, I shouldn't have,” she began with flushed cheeks.

Then something happened that completely surprised her. Joel didn't answer, but grabbed her by the waist and pulled her closer. Then he connected their lips together in a longer and definitely confident kiss. Without thinking, she opened her lips wider, giving him better access and at the same time allowing him to take control of the whole situation. She felt like her ears were buzzing, and her heart wanted to jump out of her chest. The whole world had stopped, and her biggest dream was coming true.

She tangled her fingers in his hair and moaned quietly when he gently bit her lip. Joel grabbed her by the waist and sat her on his lap. Holding her hips tightly, he guided her to where he needed her the most. He growled right into her mouth, and then his hands moved up. Y/N felt a shiver run through her body as she felt his touch on her. But she wanted more and cursed everything that they were still wearing clothes at the moment. When she thought about it, her fingers almost immediately went to the buttons of his shirt. When she unbuttoned the first one, she waited a moment, because as much as she wanted this to continue, she had to be sure that he wanted it too.

Joel didn't push her away, but continued. His hands quickly found their way to her shoulders. He pulled the straps of her tank top to the side, so that the outline of her breasts and the black bra she was wearing were visible from under the material. He kissed her jaw, then her neck, and she gasped loudly as he sucked in the extremely sensitive skin by her ear. At the same time, she unbuttoned the buttons on his shirt, until she could finally feel his warm skin under her fingers. His chest rose and fell, and she traced short patterns on his torso and sides with her fingers. She ran her nails down his back and slowly moved her hips forward and back, feeling the bulge in his pants, which she was sure was starting to bother him more and more. 

“Joel,” she murmured in his ear as she felt him squeeze her breast, then slip his thumb under the material of her bra. “Please…”

She didn't know what exactly she was asking for. She wanted him to finally take off her shirt, so she could feel his touch better. She wanted to feel his hands and lips all over her. She was completely lost for him and didn't think about whether they were doing the right thing or what would happen next.

But the last thing she wanted was for Joel to pull away from her.

“We can't,” he said in a hoarse voice, resting his forehead against hers. He held her around the waist, but not as tightly as before. “We got carried away.”

“What?” she asked, not believing what she was hearing.

Miller smiled and, as if nothing had happened, sat her back down on the couch next to him.

“Go home and rest. We'll talk some other day.”

He kissed her on the cheek, then stood up and headed up the stairs to his bedroom.

She didn't quite know what was going on, and it took her a few good minutes to pull herself together and get things in order. Her ears were still ringing, she could feel his touch on her body, but she couldn't get over the fact that she had been pushed away at the most crucial moment. She clenched her fists tightly and promised herself that tomorrow they would sort it all out. She had to know if this little moment meant as much to him as it did to her.

[pessimisticpigeonsworld]

"https://www.tumblr.com/tbos-main/738719535451013120/for-the-scene-you-posted-that-is-from-the-other?source=share"

"I don't dislike Rhaenyra, I really don't. But it is BAFFLING to me that her struggles are 'I'm just a princess, I'm not even queen :(((( My life SUCKS :((('

Alicent's fans have the most mediocre opinions about Rhaenyra because they are only capable of victimizing Alicent. Also, during episode 7, when the eye incident occurs, Alicent and Rhaenyra haven't been friends for over 9 years. Alicent's only actions after the time jump are to pick on Rhaenyra and her children. Why should Rhaenyra care about Alicent? Alicent's speech in that episode is pure hypocrisy; she had already let Larys get away with murdering two people and stayed silent because it benefited her. Justice and duty can be forgotten as long as it benefits Alicent.

Alicent is also not the eternal victim that OP believes she is..

People who think Rhaenyra's struggles are "but I wanna be queen :(" really don't have good media comprehension. If we look at everyone else in HOTD the same way op is looking at Rhaenyra, then literally all of their struggles are "but I want that privilege!"

Rhaenys and Corlys want the throne or their blood to be on the throne. Viserys wants to be able to chill in his room with his figurines with no responsibility. Daemon wants to be Hand, the heir, or the prince consort. Alicent wants to chill with privilege and no responsibility at first, then wants her blood to be on the throne. Aegon wants to be prince with no responsibility or consequences. Helaena wants to chill alone with bugs and her kids. Aemond wants to be king.

Literally every person in this show wants to stay privileged but on their terms. That's not actually their issues and struggles, but if we're dumbing down Rhaenyra's story, everyone gets dumbed down too.

Rhaenyra has been demeaned and treated as less than because of her gender her entire life. She was forced into a marriage with a gay man who couldn't give her children while a majority of her worth still lay in her ability to give birth. Viserys never actually went out of his way to support her until his literal last day, he does the bare minimum to protect her or her children in court. She was abused by Alicent for a decade at least until she was driven from the capital. She was usurped, her children murdered, and was murdered by her brother. She is so much more than wanting to be queen, TG stans just hate to see that.

As for Alicent, she only cares about "duty and sacrifice" when it benefits her and/or her family. She clings to the morals of the Seven until it's her faction going against them. She's obsessed with her and Rhaenyra's former friendship until she can use it to try guilting/manipulating Rhaenyra.

In Driftmark, Rhaenyra was right on about Alicent. Alicent has been far from the saint her fans view her as and far from the martyr she thinks she herself is. She has abused Rhaenyra and supported Larys, allowed Aegon's bullying of Aemond and Criston's of the Velaryon boys.

Alicent should be asking herself where duty is and asking her faction where their sacrifice is. Rhaenyra has done her duty, she married who her father told her, she had children to be her heirs and Laenor claimed as his own as well (even though she had a lot of trauma surrounding childbirth). She has served on the small council despite how the men on the council don't respect her and Alicent constantly undermines her. Rhaenyra's only crime is refusing to sacrifice herself to serve the men around her.

Op purposefully twisting the events of the show to support their view that Alicent "always defended Rhaenyra" and "only did what she was told" is so frustrating. That view deliberately ignores that Alicent stopped defending Rhaenyra in episode five, the same episode where she chose to declare war on Rhaenyra. The ten year gap was her acting entirely independently from Otto. It also ignores how Alicent raised her children to hate Rhaenyra and her children, that's not defending Rhaenyra or doing what she's told, since Alicent had the most control over her children's lives.

Alicent isn't a perpetual victim, she's victimized by the patriarchy (show only), but quickly becomes a perpetrator of abuse and a constant supporter of the patriarchy. She sacrifices her own daughter in the name of Aegon's ascension. She hates Rhaenyra for not bending to the men around her and punishes her for it. Alicent benefits from bending to the patriarchy by second half of the season, and doesn't stop until she causes the Dance. She may work for the betterment of the men around her, but she does it of her own freewill after marrying Viserys.

[utilitycaster]

1/2 I was thinking about the Creator Hammer its intended function, which feels way closer to Predathos than Ascension based on my understanding. Like TRQ erased the old god's name and face when she ascended, but there was still a role for her to fill. But Predathos (and the thing in Tengar if it's not just Predathos) more or less created a vacuum of divine domain until TRQ'S ascension. Even the old god didn't seem to absorb those domains? And we don't know what would happen without any gods left

2/2 And I feel like that distinction is kinda crucial - it's wild to see some people treat the hammer as 'just' killing the gods (which. already has huge implications) but actually getting rid of the domain entirely feels like a step even further, and if the gods didn't already have a right to freak out at the idea of being killed, I think this really cements a reason for them to be concerned, idk!!

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Hey anon! So actually I've been wondering about some aspects of deity lore/cosmology and I hope we get more answers because, to be honest, I'm not sure what happens here.

It's implied that the nothingness that destroys Tengar is Predathos. We also know that Predathos does not seem to take memory and name when it destroys something; Aily and the other entities of light are still able to say Edun's name after he goes away, just as Ethedok and Vordo's names can still be said. This is in contrast to the Raven Queen, who in ascending did erase the prior god's symbol and name (and aspects from memory, though to varying degrees - Asmodeus does recall in EXU Calamity that he was a brother, but acknowledges the name is gone). I think her rites of ascension likely added that aspect, especially since we know her mortal name was forgotten and made impossible to read. Finally, we know new domains can be created as Vecna ascended without eliminating another god, and simply added himself.

So with that information I think the distinction the gods are making between Aeor and the Raven Queen isn't necessarily one of preservation of domains but rather intention. The Raven Queen was not trying to kill a god out of spite or fear or hate, but out of a sense of obligation towards the station. Which does translate to the preservation of domains in this case but I think the point is that Aeor seems to be killing for the sake of killing and not for some higher goal.

Perhaps this isn't correct to bring in Worlds Beyond Number, particularly since Brennan is working, with I'm sure plenty of leeway and freedom, within Matt's worldbuilding here, but I do feel like the way he talks about the witches and their domains [note: haven't listened to the latest episode no spoilers please] is worth mentioning. The witches are proposing killing one of their number (Erika's PC, Ame), and when Ame brings up her domain, they note that if she dies, her domain doesn't disappear; it simply isn't tended to.

I go back and forth on how much the domains of the gods of Exandria matter because we know there is overlap - Nature is a very big thing that encompasses aspects of Death, Storms, Sun, and Moon. Corellon and Moradin and Erathis all share parts of the creative process and it's implied Pelor does too. Agriculture is part of civilization.

If all the gods were killed? Perhaps it would destroy the world, but if some were I think they would simply lose that overlap. I don't know if there is a tipping point - and I do believe there is one (and it's indicated some Exandrians who might know, such as Keyleth, believe this too) but it's also possible that the domain still exists, but the magic and potential within it is gone. If both Melora and The Raven Queen are killed, for example, perhaps there is no longer an afterlife for anyone, but death will still exist.

When Asha says that Aeor will destroy everything I don't think it's a domain thing - I think it's just her noting that Aeor is already consuming a huge number of the planet's currently limited resources. The apples are going to Aeor and not to the starving beggars nor the animals. I think it's just a statement, in terms that a hungry nature goddess would use, that this is an exploitative empire taking advantage of their position of power amid war and natural disaster and that it will eventually exhaust the natural resources Exandria has to offer and die out itself: "This thing, this will be rock and nothing else. Three generations, four, they're going to end it for everything." Taliesin out of character in Cooldown then says Asha/Melora is speaking on behalf of life on Exandria, generally. I don't think it's that nature or storms or death or dawn will cease to exist overall, per se; I just think that they believe that if the only power left on Exandria is Aeor, all life will starve and die out not long after.

[bestofsophieturner]

I don't have Twitter, I think it's a toxic cesspool, you can rarely find positivity there, and it's hard to find it while walking past tons of hate, so I haven't looked at Twitter for a long time. I've had enough with Instagram, although it's getting on my nerves more and more and I'm thinking of sending it like Twitter. I'm not surprised by the stupid and toxic fans of joe and I don't even want to know what exactly they write. They are just worthless and envious. They cannot accept the truth that joe is not perfect, that he is a disgusting cheater, that he is a psychological abuser. Look at the latest rumors that his new permanent girlfriend may be pregnant, and the divorce is not even finalized and the issue of custody is still being resolved, this is the kind of scandal, if it is true. And by the way, this is not the first rumor about his girlfriend after the divorce, who was maybe pregnant and the other is more younger. And his fans swallow even such trash and try to fight back and justify joe. That's why they attack Sophie, they try toslander her so that joe can be better in the public yeys. But I'm sure all their attempts are poor. And it's so funny that they think joe is more popular than Sophie. It's funny, she's famous all over the world, she's a popular actress, and he's just a mediocre musician with his brothers, his fans should kiss Sophie's feet and worship her like a goddes, if it wasn't for her there wouldn't be a jonas brothers reunion and if it wasn't for Sophie joe now although he might not be popular, he is popular only because he was the husband of Sophie Turner herself and always followed her by the tail to all her events, but she was at his events only a few times, much less often than he was at hers, and he always called her to some of his interviews, etc., so that she would appear at least for a moment and increase his views, etc. etc. That's why his fans are poor mind. Without Sophie, joe was forgotten with his not very popular group, they seem to have had only one hit, nick was more popular solo. That's why joe is who he is now only because of Sophie and it pisses me off how he treats her and treated her, I never loved him, but I put up with it for Sophie's sake and now I'm glad that she's free from him and that she's thriving now. It's just a pity that because of the children she won't be completely free and she will still have to deal with him, and I really hope for a higher percentage of custody for her. Wait when the divorce and custody will be completed. That's why he and his fans are nothing but worthless and stupid. Sophie is so beautiful and her new hairdo suits her very well. Waiting for a promo for Joan. Sorry for so many words, accumulated over a very long time. Have a good day!

Hi !

Twitter can be a very toxic place, indeed. I don't use it that much. I barely post. I only check the Sophie Turner hashtag to read the news. I mean the movies announcement for example first started on Twitter.

I don't really want to talk about the pregnancy rumors. It only started because of a picture she posted on Instagram. I find it extremely weird when people (fans) start commenting on people's body. Honestly, they should talk about the fact Stormi started dating a minor, then married him and had a child with him. That's such a weird thing.

Oh yes, he was very much a fan of Game of Thrones and while I understand being overjoyed your girlfriend is on the show, it was always weird. Like his birthday cake on which he was sitting on the Iron throne and Sophie was just there by his side. And he was very happy going to LV shows with her. (I remember his family suddendly wearing LV when they started dating). He was her plus one at the MET gala too. Nick kinda did the same with Priyanka. But he seems far more respectfull towards her. But I don't know much about them.

The Jonas brothers got back together because Nick wanted to. It's Sophie being closed to her brothers that inspired Joe to accept. I remember him saying it in an interview. And Sucker was so damn successful because Danielle, Priyanka and Sophie appeared in it. Even the brothers know it. Their fans obviously less so when they claim Joe made Sophie popular. They probably don't even care that the Jonas brothers have a hard time selling the tickets for their concerts. It just shows they're not as popular as they were when with Disney...

For Sophie, I like her new haircut too. It looks pretty. And it changes a lot from long hair. I believe we have to wait this summer for promo if Joan really gets released in September.

[creative-kny-fics]

i legit just asked but i hope it’s okay with you if i ask again. could u do lee!genya and ler!sanemi? where they are on a mission together and sanemi discovers the fact that he’s ticklish?

Well, actually Sanemi already knew that but let's do what not ahdkhalsyeksjs

Warning: This fanfic contains tickles. Also remind them that I don't speak English, so if they find any errors, let me know to correct it. I hope you like it!

Ler: Sanemi Shinazugawa

Lee: Genya Shinazugawa

'Sanemi, I have a surprise for you that I know you'll like very much' 'Eh?', Sanemi listened carefully, he knew that the boss was a kind man, but he felt that he was not worthy of receiving that surprise.

'I'm sorry, Oyakata-Sama, but... I don't think I can accept your gift', a small blush formed on his cheeks, he was embarrassed. 'Nonsense, tonight, the surprise will come to you, wait for it. I won't take no for an answer', Kagaya smiled and Sanemi accepted without further protest.

Night came, Sanemi looked at the moon, what surprise would it be? 'Aniki...?', recognized that voice, Genya?! What was he doing here?!

'What are you doing here?!' 'Himejima - San spoke with Kagaya - Sama, I'm not sure but they told me to come to this address today, aniki... I'

'Don't say anything, I told you I don't have siblings, you shouldn't even be here', Genya walked away a bit, Sanemi crossed his arms and walked away, glancing at his brother, he didn't want to tell him that, but if treating him like this would keep him safe, then he would.

Almost the whole night, Sanemi was ignoring his brother, only if he saw a demon approaching him, he would kill him, Genya had no weapons at that moment and if Sanemi saw what could become a demon, he would kill him, so the night passed until be almost close to dawn.

'Let's go to my estate, you'll stay there to rest a bit', Genya nodded, he didn't say more

'Damn, Genya shouldn't even have joined the hunters corps, damn it', Sanemi got into his thoughts, he still saw Genya as a baby, he didn't know that he had already grown up, he was even a few centimeters taller than him. But...

'HELP!', Sanemi was alerted, seeing how his brother was being sucked into the ground, damn it, he had only neglected him for a few seconds.

He located the demon, laughed and killed him, then took his brother out and carried him loaded to his farm, where he claimed him.

'WHAT THE FUCK WERE YOU THINKING?! YOU COULD HAVE DIED!!', Sanemi lowered her voice, seeing how his brother curled up and trembled, he was scaring him...

Sanemi sighed, sat down next to him and patted his head. 'Let me check if you haven't been hurt, if I find any injuries I'll immediately send you to Kocho', Sanemi moved his fingers, there were no problems with his neck, nor with his ribs, nor with...

'Hey, stop moving!' 'I'm tryhihihing! Mhmhmhm!' 'That-? Ohhh~', Sanemi remembered, he had forgotten so many things, among them, that his brother was ticklish, and very

'Gyah- N-no! I'm okay hahay! Eeep! Nohohot thehehere!' 'Not here? How about here?' Sanemi quickly lowered himself to his hips, squeezing them and digging his fingers into his hipbones. 'WA- WAHAHAIT-!', Genya covered his mouth as he shook his head and squirmed, damn, why did he have to be so fucking ticklish?

'Come on, don't resist! Or is it that you want me to force you?' 'NO!' 'That you want? Okay! You asked for it,' Genya howled as his brother's fingers got under his uniform and started going up and down like spider legs, plus his brother's incredibly soft touch, it was as soft as a feather and he could never have stood tickles like that

'WAIT!! HOW?! KYAHAHAHAHAHA!! ANIKI!!! NO!!! PLEHEHEHASE!!! NOT THE SIHIHIDES!!!' 'Oh yes your sides! What's happening? Can't stand a little tickling? Wow, you really are very sensitive, how bad it must feel to be you', Genya kicked into the air and grabbed his brother's wrists, big mistake, Sanemi took both wrists and placed them on top of his brother's head, exposing him.

'You really want to die, huh? Well, here you have it!' 'FAHAHAHACK!!! ANIHIHIKI!!! NOHOHO THAHAHAT!!! RELEHEHEHASE MEE!!! SAHAHANEMIHIHIHI!!! STAHAHAHAP!!! OHOHH GOHOHODNESS!!!', he couldn't take it anymore, Genya cried, tears of happiness ran down his red cheeks, well really his whole face was red from embarrassment-

'You give up?' 'YEHEHEHES!!! ANYTHIHIHING!!!! BUHUHUT MEHEHERCY!!', Sanemi thought as he continued, on the one hand he could stop because his brother asked him to, but on the other hand, Oyakata - Sama had planned the surprise and wanted him to enjoy it, what could he do??

He chose the former, Genya's desperate pleas convinced him, and he ended his torment. Genya pulled away as fast and as far as he could, fighting to get rid of the sensations that kept tickling him.

'Cruel...' 'Did you say I'm cruel? That wasn't cruel, do you want me to teach you what it really is to be cruel?' 'NO! SORRY!', Sanemi laughed proudly, he had enjoyed his surprise too much

[theduosetter]

𝙍𝙪𝙣𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙘𝙤𝙡𝙙 ―

𝑺𝒖𝒎𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒚: Kei was never one to hold so much value to a person in his life but now that you were gone, he realized you were more part of his life than he came to know. << part two of tidal waves >>

His mind hadn't comprehended what had happened back at the gym. He walked home like he usually did with his earphones in not paying attention to anything else.

It wasn't until he got home that his brother had asked him about you. As much as Akiteru loved his brother even if he understood he wasn't one to discuss his feelings, he knew he had done wrong.

"How could you have just let her go like that?!" Akiteru exclaimed.

"If you haven't forgotten I had practice." He responded in a monotone voice. "I wasn't going to walk out just to go chase her."

Kei stood up from the steps and sat his bag down next to his shoes at the front entrance.

"Kei you're not realizing what you just did." Akiteru said. "The one person who cared a lot about you is gone. Y/n has always been there for you she never once left your side even when you turned into an ass."

"Well maybe it was time she left." He admitted, a sigh escaped his lips as he took his glasses off. "There was no point in holding onto a relationship that's been slowly falling apart."

"Are you sure that's the reason?" His brother questioned him with crossed arms in front of his chest. "And it's not a stupid excuse for your fear of loving someone?"

"What... are you talking about?"

"Come on Kei," Akiteru looked at him in the eyes. "Since you started to grow up the only person you have been friends with or have dared yourself to call him a friend is Tadashi. You never cared about anyone else." He walked closer to his brother. "Then she appeared... and all that sense went out the window. You started to get closer to her without thinking about it. If you had disliked her so much you wouldn't have given her a second thought."

Kei looked at the ground as he held his glasses in his hand. It was true to some extent. When he first met you, he was attracted to you. He did not know what it was but it just happened.

Every time his eyes fell on you, you smiled back. Only talking to him when it was necessary or a simple greeting when you two passed by one another in the hallways.

Maybe it was the fact that you weren't overbearing or annoyed him like everyone else did, except Tadashi of course. He respected you but it went beyond that with him.

"I know you still care about her, Kei."

He turned his head to the side, looking back at Akiteru again. "How could you possibly know that?"

Akiteru smiled at him knowing he was right. "If I brought up anyone else you wouldn't have hesitated to interrupt me."

"Yeah well..." He mumbled going up the short steps and heading inside to the living room.

"You'll regret it if you don't make up your mind." Akiteru called out.

Kei shook his head slightly as he pushed his glasses back up to the bridge of his nose. As much of a cold person people thought he was, it did hurt him when he saw you walking away. He wanted to go after you but his pride got the better of him.

As he passed by the blue color couch, his phone caught his attention. He stopped and stood still in front of it as his eyes never looked away from it. His arm extending out to take it and paused midway. He closed his eyes, a sigh escaping his lips.

It was sinnister of him to think about contacting you, to check up on you and seeing if you were okay when he was the one who called it quits first. Still, he yearned to hear from you.

"I don't want to say something that'll make you feel even more worse than you already do but-"

"Y-yeah I know..." You breathed out as the tears wouldn't stop falling down.

"Tsukishima needs to know what he did to you." Your sister said as she rubbed your back gently. "He never even deserve you in the first place."

Your breathing became uneven, hiccups escaped from your mouth. "I-I just... I-I want to know why I was treated so shitty by him?"

"People like him never give any answers. They do it because it's natural to them. They don't care about who they hurt in the end."

"He was so sweet..." You shook your head and looked down at her lap. "I-I don't understand... I-I want to understand."

"Y/n." She looked at you with sympathy, handing you a tissue. "Sometimes the answers you are looking for are the ones that shouldn't be looked for in the first place. Tsukishima is one of those."

You blowed your nose as you tried to calm down your rapid breathing. "How could I have been so blind?..."

"You were in love." Your sister said pulling you into her arms. "Love is something hard to get rid of. Don't blame yourself for trusting the wrong person who promised you love." She wiped away the tears from your cheeks. "He's not worth those tears."

Burying your head into her chest you closed your eyes trying to ignore the pain that you felt in your eyes and the headache that was starting to form.

All you wanted was for this nightmare to be over.

There was a knock at your door, your sister ignored it as she held you close to her. Then your phone vibrated on the nightstand. Carefully she reached over, trying not to wake you up, and looked at it. The screen lit up with messages from your friends and Tsukishima as well.

Another knock was heard coming from the front door again. A message popped up from him again.

Kei ― 8:30 PM

I tried calling you but it went to voicemail.

Kei ― 8:40 PM

Tadashi told me he messaged you and you never responded. Are you okay?

Kei ― 10:31 PM

I know you probably don't want to see me and it's late. Can we talk? I'm outside your door right now.

Her hand formed into a fist as she heard the doorbell go off. Slowly she pulled away from you and covered you up with the blanket before treading downstairs as quietly as she could.

Kei put his hand into his pockets, pacing back and forth waiting for you. He checked his phone again seeing if his message had gone through. Biting his lip he looked up at your house, his eyes landing on your bedroom window seeing the light was turned off.

The door then swung open, he stepped back but saw it wasn't you who stood in the entrance.

"What are you doing showing your face here?" Your sister questioned with such anger in her voice.

He swallowed down and cleared his throat before speaking. "Can I speak with Y/n please?"

"You really think I'm going to let someone like you who doesn't take an account of other people's feeling, talk to my sister?" She spat. "You already tore her apart what more do you want from her?"

Kei's eyes casted downward. He had to admit hearing someone who was close to you talk to him like that did hurt. "I messed up... I have no right to talk to her but if I can just have a minute with her-"

"No." She stated, staring at him. "I will not let you belittle her again as long as I'm alive. You broke her, Y/n cried more over you than she ever has in her entire life. How can you stand here and demand to talk with her?! Don't you have any shame? Aren't you embarrassed?"

He moved one foot forward and looked at her. "I came here to make things right. Please let me talk with her."

She breathed out, smiling not believing what she was hearing. "Why don't you take no for an answer? Y/n doesn't want to be near you, she doesn't want to talk to you damn it! Leave her alone, Tsukishima she hates you."

He clenched his jaw, "I want to hear those words coming from her, not you."

"Why don't you just give it a rest huh? You're only making things worse."

"I don't care. I'm not leaving until we both talk without you butting in." He said.

Your sister gripped the doorknob tightly. "Well then keep waiting because that's not going to happen anytime soon. And if you don't leave then I'll have no choice but to call the cops, asshole!"

Kei climbed up the porch stairs, "Listen here-"

She managed to shut the door in his face, leaving him outside alone with his anger. He ran his hand through his hair slightly pulling on the ends.

His phone vibrated, it was a message from you and one from his brother.

Y/n ― 10:50 PM

There's nothing else to say, you chose and I listened. It's time this ends.

Kei ― 10:51 PM

Please let's talk about his before we call it quits.

Y/n ― 10:52 PM

I never called it quits. You did.

Kei decided to call you instead. As the ringing sounded, his anxious state rose. Silently hoping that you'd pick up and you would be able to talk.

But it kept ringing and ringing

finally it went to voicemail.

He dialed your number again, hoping this time you would answer his call. He was about to end the call but you voice finally came through and it made his heart flutter with happiness.

"I told you to not call me." You said, sniffling.

"Please hear me out." He said. "I want us to talk, Y/n."

"Now you want to use that card? You want to finally talk after what happened?"

Kei sighed as his eyes closed, trying to picture himself next to you. "I know I messed up, Y/n."

"You did more than mess up, Kei." You bit your lip trying hard to steady your voice. "You intentionally hurt me without caring about how it would make me feel."

"I know I know― god I screwed up the one thing I enjoyed having in my life." He said. "I won't ever be able to mend the pain I caused you or make it go away." His eyes became glossy, his voice was starting to slightly break. "I was an i-idiot for not realizing how bad I was treating you. I-I should have valued you since a long time ago. I had you in my life when I didn't think how lucky I was to have you."

You let the tears silently escape as you heard his voice.

"I wish I could fix this.. fix the the ache I caused you."

"But you can't, t-that's the thing." You wiped away the tears from your eyes with your palm. "Once the person that you love hurts you, there's no going back to how you were. The whole will always be there... y-you can apologize how many times you want but will never mend."

"You're right...I'll never be able to forgive myself for hurting the person I had promised to love." He took off his glasses wiping away his tears with his sleeve. "Even though I can't go back in time I wanted to tell you how sorry I am for not acting better and treating you like someone precious in my life."

"Why are you just... apologizing now? You had all the time to make things right... why now?..."

"Because it's true what they say..." He paused for second then continued. "You never realize what you have until it's gone and it took for you to be done with me and my brother to put sense back into my head, to face the truth."

"You know what sucks?" You asked.

"What?"

You sighed, "That despite it all... everything you did. I still love you and I hate myself that I do."

A small smile formed on his lips. "I still love you too, Y/n. Even though I didn't tell you enough times... I love you no matter what."

"Is this even right... to continue?"

"Honestly, I didn't think about it. All I wanted was to see you."

By now your breathing had turned back to normal and the wet tears were now dry as if they never happened.

"I think it's now clear, with all that happened today and before. It's becoming obvious that what we had was never made to last."

His breath got caught in his throat. "Don't say that..."

"Think about it, Kei." You said almost pleading him to realize the truth. "The relationship were in didn't feel like one anymore. We were both in a routine that didn't have any feelings at all. Everyday we spend together felt like something we had to do not because we wanted to-"

He cut you off, "You're wrong. I was the one who made it seem like it didn't matter not you. I gave up halfway thinking I didn't deserve you. You did everything right, Y/n. I just didn't put enough effort to make things right knowing I was ruining things."

"Kei."

"But I know if we try again, this time the right way. It won't be like it was before... things will be different."

"How do you know?" You questioned feeling hope disappearing. "How do you know we're not bound to make the same mistakes again and again?"

"Because this time I know we can get through this." He said confidently. "I love you too much to repeat the same mistake again with you. I don't want to live every day knowing you're not with me anymore when I could have changed and made things right."

You loved him you did, despite it all. Now seeing this side of him and hearing him say those words you hadn't heard in a long time made your heart yearn for him. But you felt uncertain, afraid.

"Y/n?..."

"I want to believe you... I-I really do but I can't."

He nodded even though you couldn't see him, "Right..."

"I don't want to feel hurt, I want to feel confident in a relationship and not second guess everything or feel scared of getting a deeper hole inside of me."

Kei knew you were right but he didn't want to accept it. He did not want to let you go just yet.

"Give me a chance... please." He pleaded.

You wanted to give in, to say yes and throw caution into the wind but you were only going to make things worse.

"I'm sorry but it's time we take our own separate ways." You breathed out, slowly walking over to your balcony window and opening it up. Looking down you saw him standing there with his head tilted back and looking at the sky. "I love you enough to let you go, Kei. We both need space to grow... because we can't continue on like this."

"I never thought how much it would hurt to hear you say that." He mumbled.

"I don't want to let you go... I want to stay beside you but it needs to happen."

You were both dying on the inside, craving to run into each other's arms but you had to hold back.

Kei turned to look at your balcony seeing you were standing there, the moonlight illuminating those features he loved so much.

"It never should have come to this... I'm sorry that it did."

A weak smile formed on your lips. "We were bound to crash and burn sooner or later. But we unfortunately found out too late."

"Even now you still look so damn beautiful."

A blush crept up your cheeks making you happy and sad at the same time.

"Promise me we will find each other again, and this time we won't keep it quiet about how we feel. I don't want to live knowing our love is still there."

"I'll make sure to let you know how I feel, Kei."

He smile widely, giving you the smile you deserved to see everyday when you were with him. Tears escape from his eyes, but that smile you adored never left.

"I love you, Y/n. I love you so much... I'm sorry for everything I did to you."

You cried looking at him, trying to smile as well.

"I-I love you too." Your voice cracked. "Goodbye Kei Tsukishima."

Neither of you dared to end the call. You were too attached with hope of things working out in the future but until then you needed to let go.

Kei breathed out smiling sadly. His hand shaking as he ended the call.

"Goodbye, Y/n."

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[cucumbermoon]

Hello! I just wanted to say, I was browsing old Indeedsir posts as is my wont, and I came across your Meet the Family fic, and I really really love it and have read it multiple times. It's still open in a tab on my phone right now. I like Rebecca, she feels like a fleshed out real person and a believable Jeeves relative. I love outsider POV fics where you have to read between the lines, and I think you did that really well in that Rebecca doesn't have the information to understand straight away what she's seeing, but we understand perfectly what's going on between J and B. The contrast between her (understandable) assumptions about how a rich employer would be expected to treat her brother and what becomes clear is the actual reality is so !!!! The way she describes the way Reginald talks about Bertie makes me feral. She thinks Bertie is an idiot but we know he's just babbling because he's nervous about meeting Reg's family!! I adore the way Bertie and Reg are clearly communicating with each other nonverbally from the moment they get there. The moment where Jeeves looks at Bertie chidingly and Rebecca assumes there's no way Bertie could have picked up on it, but then she realizes he looks contrite made me want to scream!!! BEST moment (and there were a LOT of great moments). I love love love your characterization of Bertie, the way he's brilliant in his own way and shows hints of hidden vulnerabilities and is just INCANDESCENTLY in love with Jeeves. The way he tells the swan story oh my god!! (it's funny how we were just talking about that on that tumblr post recently!) Some of the dialogue made me laugh out loud.

There's so much more I want to say but I'm actually not sure how long asks are allowed to be, and I don't know if you even check LJ anymore and I honestly can't figure out how LJ works anyway, but if you ever saw your way to posting it on AO3 I would love to comment on it. I want to write a book report on it. I want to put it in a blender and drink it. I want to boil it down to a tincture and sprinkle drops of it on everything. It's SO GOOD.

Oh, wow. First of all, I am relatively new to tumblr and I don't know how to answer asks other than publicly, so hopefully this is all right! And no, I haven't logged into LJ in over a decade and I have no idea how to do it anymore!

Thank you so much. It's incredible to get any kind of feedback at all on a story I wrote fourteen years ago, but especially getting feedback like this is just incredible. I was (obviously) a much younger and less experienced person when I wrote my little smattering of Jeeves and Wooster fics, and though I have thought of them from time to time I didn't really have the courage to go back and read them again until you wrote to me.

Thank you for reaching out, for opening that door again. I spent last night rereading my Jooster stuff from when I was in my early twenties and it felt like reconnecting with a version of myself I'd almost forgotten. I never really thought about posting my old stuff on AO3, but I'm going to consider it. I will let you know if I do. I remember at the time I intended this particular story to be a part of a series, and I actually have half a chapter each of a story from the perspective of Bertie's sister (that mysterious person!), and Jeeves' uncle Charlie that I was going to add. Maybe I'll dust those off and try to finish them! I also happen to be a huge sucker for outsider POV, so it would be a lot of fun to play around with that series again.

Finally, I am so deeply pleased that you enjoyed it. I know anyone who produces art of any kind hopes that they can make some connection with someone or bring some joy into the world, and it absolutely delights me to know that something I wrote made you happy for a while. I appreciate your generosity in writing to me. Readers like you make writing so much better. People like you make life better.

And yes, it's so funny that we were talking about the swan thing like three days ago. I had forgotten I wrote that same sentiment in a fic a decade and a half ago. I guess none of us change as much as we think we do!

Thank you again. You've made my day, maybe week, maybe month.

[coolcattime]

Heyo, it's the usual anon here. And I've been playing around with a new fic idea for a mianite season 2 Au, where world historian managed to kill dianite the first time and asorb his quintessence. Then, because mianite was always a bit weak, he dies next and is absorbed, and then the world begins to fall apart. Ianite sends the champions of their world away to seek help and uses most of her power to bring her family and dagrun into the dream realm.

The rest of the world is gone with only the dream world left. All the people in dagrun are living in an idealized dream realm where their kingdom is peaceful, no monsters, no taint, and the patron god of their city smiles upon them. They've forgotten about the chaos happening outside of the dream and dont even remember ianite.

When the heroes arrive, it's a lot like early season 2 but now suddenly there are more people there resembling the people they used to know like a captain capsize who is the captain of a merchant ship and her brother redbeard who is somehow still just a deckhand. Nadeshot and the optics are there a bit friendlier than they remember, and its all very happy and light. The first two to really notice something is off is jordan and andor, and from then, they start peeling away the mysteries of the world

Will they awaken from the dream and if they do can they do anything to help ianite who is struggling with the shadows by herself... idk i haven't thought that far

Hi hi hi!

I need to say, this is so good that I just stopped typing up something else to focus on this because I was getting distracted.

I love love love the idea of a dream world in the middle of the apocalypse, the last safe haven of a dying world created by a woman so desperate to save her family and anyone else that's still clinging on. Even if they don't know her, to know they're safe is enough.

The heroes entering the dream world is so fun, because I think adding in the Season 1 characters as Ianite trying to get the heroes to accept the dream has such potential for fun, heartbreak, and horror in equal measure. Like they're all so happy to see their friends again, that they're all okay (even though didn't Capsize… no because she's here), and they really don't want to let go of this reality. But there are little breaks, tiny little breaks where they realise this doesn't make sense or one of their friends doesn't act quite right and just for a moment they question what's going on. (This is going on the basis that the Season 1 characters aren't real, I think there's also so much horror to explore of them being the real deal and the multiverse is just breaking down enough from The Shadows growing power that Ianite has been taking people from the other world into the dream).

I imagine Andor was questioning before the heroes showed up, he remembered Ianite, though only vaguely and it's only when Jordan shows up and starts talking about her (though not the her he remembers) that he fully realises something is wrong. I kind of imagine that Jordan realises something is wrong because Capsize is acting… different. Seeing that it's a dream world, I imagine that she treats him a lot more similar to how she does the others (like with respect) and it just is off to him. And since they're both sure something is wrong and that Ianite has something to do with the situation, they decide they need to figure out what's actually going on.

And I imagine once they start questioning, the kinda scary off-putting dream moments start increasing. Not just because Capsize doesn't know how to get them to stop questioning, but because her focus is getting spread too thin in general and the shadows are slowly creeping too close.

[justagalwhowrites]

OMG! Bestie! You ace it! When I saw the countdown and the comments about the previous chapter, I decided to wait and read the two chapters in a row. It's been a struggle not to read the first one. I'm so thankful now! You left us with the honey barely touching our lips!

Bambi's so strong! 😍 I know I've said it before, but it's true, and you can see it in every chapter. Surviving what she's gone through while keeping her humanity speaks of her resilience and strength. With just how she tells Joel her past, you can feel her pain and how much Joel feels for her. It's heartbreaking.

We have a Mark now! He must have been meaningful for her to keep the nickname he gave her. Eight years is a long time. Will we see more of him? Did you picture someone in particular while writing their first meeting? I just wanted to put the same face to the character.🤔 I love the glimpses of her past. Now we know how she started trading!

Bambi being able to explore herself intimately speaks of how much she's overcome, and how she throws caution to the wind and goes to Joel makes me feel so much. As soon as I saw the SCENE was coming, my smile grew so much it hurt. I was so giddy!🤭 The whole scene is perfect! The way Joel takes care of her and how he's so sweet, thoughtful, and able to keep her there with him, it's a perfect first time for them after their pasts. The tenderness and passion between them felt so meaningful. It was such a treat! I know these moments are not the bulk of the story, but please keep them coming! I find them so well-written!😍

Thanks for the updates!

PS: I haven't forgotten who or what Bambi left behind when the Raiders took her. I'm keeping an eye on you, lol!🤣

PSS: I think I'll have the mood board ready by Saturday. These last two chapters have given me tons of inspiration, lol. What do you think about black and dark red as a color theme?

PSSS: Don't mind the time you need to answer back! I have the feeling you'll have quite a few asks to answer after the chapter you posted, and I'm not helping with the length of mine, lol!

I wish you a lovely day! Lots of love!♥️♥️♥️

Ahhhh HI BESTIE!

I'm so glad you liked it and liked reading the chapters back to back!! You know me and my love for a cliffhanger lol

This might sound dumb since she's fictional and I made her but I'm so proud of Bambi. She's fought so hard to be where she is and she's finally starting to have a life and recover from everything that's happened. And she's able to trust Joel so fully and ugh. I just love her.

And yes, Mark! He's going to have a fairly integral part to play in the story, he unquestionably changed a LOT about Bambi's life and we'll probably see him again (I think, the flashbacks that I have planned are the things that are weird for me in storytelling. There have already been some left on the cutting room floor as it were - Bambi's first kiss, first bull riding competition, some cutesy shit with her brothers have all been cut because they fucked with the flow of the story and I felt like they didn't serve a big enough purpose to the development of her character to include in full.) The impact he has will be bigger than one or two more flashbacks, though. He is who got her started trading and she keeps the name in part because he gave it to her but more because, when he'd encounter people who he thought were trustworthy, he'd send them her way. "Go find Texas, she's around here. She'll get you a horse but you've gotta take care of her." And to me, Mark is a young Oscar Isaac 🫠

I, TOO, WOULD JUMP AT THE CHANCE TO FUCK THIS MAN GOOD ON YA BAMBI!

And don't worry, there will DEFINITELY be more smutty bits now that Joel and Bambi have gotten to this point. Both of them haven't gotten any in a WHILE and they're both very attracted to each other. Bambi still has a lot of hangups but she's going to be a lot more physically comfortable with Joel now that they've gotten here (and we're going to see more of how Bambi was in chapter 1, too, now that she's at that point which I'm really excited about!)

You will know what Bambi was protecting soon enough! You may not like it when you find out 🫣 I promise I won't leave you hanging! This part of the story has been planned since day one and I really can't wait until everyone is in the loop.

LOVE THIS COLOR SCHEME BESTIE!!! Love the whole thing honestly, can't wait for it!!!

I love your long asks, they always make me smile. Thank you thank you thank you for being here and taking the time to share your thoughts with me!

Love you!!!

[valkyrieandstrangeridingaragorn]

“Poor guy spent a thousand years thinking his dad didn’t love him, and his brother didn’t like him. Then he finds out that they DID, and he was too stubborn to see it. And that his inability to do so in time led to the death of his mother, the one person that seemed to understand him. That would certainly be humbling.”

i am so tired, so fucking tired. the other comments aren’t good either.

https://www.reddit.com/r/Marvel/comments/xqiol7/loki_gain_all_his_5_movies_character_development/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=iossmf

I think I just lost a bunch of brain cells after reading that post 🤢They're all so wrong that I don't even know where to start.

Let's go with that comment you highlighted, you know what that is? Abuse apologism and a nice dose of victim blaming, nothing more, nothing less. He didn't spend his life "thinking" that, he spent his life KNOWING it.

They did love him? Oh well in that case how they treated him is fine, right? And again with Frigga's death? They haven't seen TDW?

Also I'm still trying to understand what the hell does that have to do with the elves attacking Asgard. If Loki loved his family Malekith wouldn't have attacked? Uh... what? 🤔 They do know it was Thor who took Jane to Asgard, don't they?

On that, "humbling" thing:

"He was humbled by the Hulk."

They seem to leave aside that Loki was a threat to Earth so of course the heroes were entitled to stop him - the difference in the series is that he has done nothing wrong, the TVA kidnapped him because he stole the Tesseract not because he invaded NYC. (Also beatings are humbling? holy shit balls, man)

But these people think the TVA are the good guys!

"He still tried to weasel and scheme his way out of it the first chance he gets."

"He was still trying to cheat and lie his way out most of the time."

How dare he try to get away from the TVA, he should have been happy to join and work for the fascists, right?

"Hell, he ends up betraying Sylvie when Kang gives them his ultimatum because Loki’s gonna Loki."

Loki betrayed her? Pretty sure it went the other way around, buddy. But it's funny how not even when he's being a hero he gets a pass. Also, weird that none of them judge her, she's a Loki too, isn't she?

"He acts like a generic good guy after the first episode, i couldn't even see him as Loki."

Oh right, I had forgotten Loki is in the 'villain box' for these guys. If he ever does something non-villainous they stop seeing him as Loki! These fanboys are not high on character development are they?

"Realizing that all of your schemes and plots, the greed everything you ever tried to do was simply petty and inconsequential"

"IW Loki learns that he loves his family, and friendship is worth more than greed. Series Loki learns that he wasn't as important as he thought"

"Even he only believes half of it he sees everyone he cares about die"

This is so confusing: either he doesn't care for anybody and he's 100% self-centered and scheming and plotting against them..... or he cares about them so much that a powerpoint of his loved ones suffering is enough to change him for good. So which one is it?

Also, big yikes on the "in the series he learns he wasn't as important as he thought". This is what happens when people who know nothing about psychology think of themselves as armchair therapists. Losing pride and losing self-esteem are two very different things, that a scapegoat ends up believing he's not "important" is hardly news let alone good, he's always felt inferior, the last thing he needed was for someone to tell him he was right in feeling that way.

"He gained character development in ep1"

Oh man, not this again. No, he did not. I talked about that here.

"Loki has to analyze himself and his choices after the TVA powerpoint, and he also has to analyze himself after meeting Sylvie and the other Lokis."

Why, because Sylvie is someone to learn something from? 😂😂 Learn what exactly? Come on, man, there's not a damn thing that woman can teach Loki or anyone else for that matter.

I don't get these people, it's like they don't understand what they watch or... ugh who knows. I'm tired too, dear anon 🤢🤦‍♀️

[artsartblog]

Since I'm currently working on something else Xiaoyue related, I thought I'd post some art of one of the aus I've made surrounding her.

I don't have much art for this au, but I still enjoy the au (even though I haven't thought of much that changes in canon because of this au, but I will eventually). So here's the lore for this au:

After Mk becomes Monkey King's successor, Xiaoyue feels forgotten and is pretty much ignored by the others whenever Mk is around. Though the others never intentionally ignore the elder twin, but it doesn't stop her from feeling like a shadow in her own life. Then one day Xiaoyue decides to just leave, but no one really notices except her brother Mk. This subsequently gets her possessed by LBD, who promises Xiaoyue that she'll finally be noticed by those around her and won't ever be forgotten. Xiaoyue doesn't fight the possession, actually embraces it, and lets LBD lead the way to fulfill her "destiny". Xiaoyue is fully aware of what's happening around her when LBD is in control. However, she doesn't agree with the way LBD treats others to fulfill her "destiny", which causes conflict between the two. Especially after encountering her brother.

When Mk meets the possessed Xiaoyue, he's so happy to see her. Though he's a bit confused about how she ended up with the Spider Queen and in a new outfit. Yet that confusion and happiness disappear when he realizes that Xiaoyue is now under the control of LBD. He doesn't get to ask why, leaving before the question could come up. However, now knowing LBD is using his sister, he has to find a way to stop LBD soon and get his sister back.

I could probably go through the episodes to explain what happens differently because I have some ideas on how things would be different, but I'll have to do that another time. Especially since I want to think things out and figure out ways to make it seem that it wasn't necessarily one person's fault for Xiaoyue's feelings being so negative to allow her to let LBD use her as a host. If you have any questions about this au feel free to leave them in my ask box. You can even ask about specific episodes and how LBD Host!Xiaoyue would be in that episode (can be from any of the seasons, but don't ask about s4 because I have not seen it). You can also ask about other aus or ocs of mine. I'm always down to talk about my ocs and aus!

[mangodestroyer]

Because of some bad life experiences, I've been looking into unhealthy dynamics in relationships quite a bit. I even have a list of books to read at this point (two books that I always see recommended are "The Gift of Fear" and "Why Does He Do That?" and I seriously want to give them a read).

Now, one type of abuse I want to see discussed more is financial abuse. I currently have a relative who has made it his career to be a leech. He's caused tons of drama in the past year and just keeps getting worse. He's also started acting more and more threatening. ALSO, he's gone out of his way to abuse me for well over a decade so this crap he's pulling now is just him letting the mask slip for EVERYONE.

Why haven't I left? I've tried a couple times in the past and it hasn't worked out. But this time, I've really, REALLY had it! And I also have a much more effective plan for getting out in about a month.

And yes, I'll also admit that I think I put up with it and normalized it for the longest time because... I grew up pretty much being trapped with this person. For my own survival, I had to just sort of dissociate from my feelings over it. That hasn't served me well as an adult because mania and dissociation cause me to overlook situations that are stressing me out (and they are coping mechanisms intended to protect the brain from excessive stress). But good lord, after being away from him for a few months, and now seeing him in person on a regular basis... now it's kind of hard not to get angry about it. I've forgotten how insufferable he really is!

So, he doesn't care to contribute, he takes my shit, he shows a very dishonest character, he doesn't want to do anything with his life, he's always treated me like absolute shit, and he starts doing crazy and threatening shit when confronted. Some of this is financial abuse, but people tend to focus on the threats and emotional abuse parts of it. But the financial abuse is a huge burden too.

I want to know how to avoid people like this in the future because I can NOT deal with another individual like this again. I see so many horror stories of women getting stuck with these useless men who eat all their food and never pay for groceries, lounge about playing video games all the time and refuse to work, help out with kids, or do the household chores. Leave all the bills up to the woman. Never give their girl any attention and expect them to be their mommy. Well, mommy until they need the girl to service them (but never do anything for her in return). Emotionally dump on them and again, not care about her. Sometimes, they get like this after trapping her with marriage and kids. Sometimes, they're like my brother and get weird and threatening/stalkerish if they don't get their way because they're manchildren.

What are the redflags for this? I think I can sorta see some redflags over unhealthy views of finances in my last relationship, considering they were very materialistic, seemed unimpressed with me not making lots of money at the time (as someone who was still fairly young and in college, and also, we weren't living together), and got annoyed with my needs. But that person at least seemed like someone who wanted a nice career and wanted to accomplish things in life. They probably wanted someone with lots of money while also making a good salary themselves. So it seems like I have a bad habit of going for the opposite end of the spectrum: materialistic workaholics who are more perfectionistic. Again, that might be a response to my trauma.

I don't want to be with someone who is uber materialistic and feels like their life is ruined if they can't have it all RIGHT NOW. Or treats those who make less as lesser individuals who oughta be grateful and let them have all the say because they make the money. I don't want to be a mommy for a leech either. I would literally rather ditch everything and live in some shack to avoid that (I was almost tempted to because of said relative). Finances are important to a relationship and I want someone who will be more reasonable. More like my friend, who tries to make things equal during trips (or who is willing to cover a little more without complaint if you're going out of your way for them/doing them a favor).

I just think it's strange that finances are not talked about more. It can be all too easy to control and manipulate someone with them. Even if you're the one who owns. They can still try to fuck you out of shit legally. I also live in a state with laws that have made the shit involving my brother a fucking hell! We also have terrible divorce laws here... so idk if I'd live in this state while married.

[writer-sedai]

Wheel of Time 2x1 "A Taste of Solitude" thoughts:

So much chatter from the Dark friend Social clip about the Aes Sedai ring, whether it was really black, why they would wear a black ring to announce their Ajah...guys, she's wearing it over gloves which means there was a very conscious decision to wear it to display both allegiance to the Dark One and status as a sister. I highly doubt it's ever worn outside of scenarios where everyone present is also a Darkfriend.

The Tua'thuan girl who was present at the social...was it the same child who escaped the slaughter of the caravan? Horrifying implications if so.

As much as I love Hurin, I really support the decision to replace him with Elyas. Sniffing is not a Talent ever seen again in WoT and having that skill be directly related to communication with the wolves is a great move.

Also love Perrin getting sent the images (from the wolves without realising) just before Elyas shares what he knows.

Loved loved loved everything about the Tower scenes...they did such a great job of teaching us more about the Tower and its culture while also making all the information feel natural and the characters rounded

Ihvan and Maksim's backstory! Egwene being super uncomfortable with how openly sexual Alanna is! Novice chores being turned into a lesson! Nynaeve taking up with the warders because fighting with a sword is something she can learn and she'd rather give up on the power than try and fail! (Truly such a brilliant choice on the writer's part)

I'm just disappointed that they haven't introduced Elayne via her friendship with Egwene...maybe she and her brother(s?) haven't arrived at the Tower yet?

I'm not sure how a year has passed since the first episode (6 months since Fall Dara, one month time skip to get to Tar Valon...surely everything else didn't take 5 months?) but I'll accept it because the Bel Time sequences and callbacks were beautiful

Perrin lighting a lantern for Layla and Rand but not being able to give up his wedding ring, Egwene and Nynaeve lighting a lantern for Rand while touching on their grief, and of course the reveal that Rand is celebrating Bel Tine too...scattered across the world, they're still tied together by the traditions of their home

Liandrin revealed to be a Darkfriend in one of the best ways possible...heartbreaking to see the result of Moiraine's decision to set the Red Ajah on Mat when she still suspected he might be the dragon is that he's now a prisoner of a member of the Black Ajah and thinks his friends have all forgotten/abandoned him (since he doesn't know Liandrin can lie)

Donal looks soooo close to the Mat in my head and I'm so excited to see him in action this season. Happy that it seems we're skipping a second book of Mat being tainted by the dagger and going straight to him trying to escape from Tar Valon

Oh...if Mat doesn't/never realises that Liandrin is Black Ajah this gives him SUCH a good reason to be distrustful of all Aes Sedai in the future! Moiraine sold him to the Red Ajah and then Liandrin has kept him imprisoned!

Liandrin is so sinister that every scene with her makes me grip the edge of my seat...even before the reveal, being told that she's killed a novice before with her methods makes you seriously worried about what she's going to do to Nynaeve to break her block

Moiraine is such a crunchy character...how she doesn't mind putting people in danger if it serves the greater good, how she treats Lan exactly the way she did the kids in the first season (withholding all information)...she gets so much love on tumblr that it's easy to forget that she is not exactly Good

Love that without the bond Lan and Moiraine don't know how to talk to each other...nice callback to the conversation between Karene and her warder last season about how they're a strange pair, and their bond and mutual quest is really all that held them together

But still! Lan knowing Moiraine enough to know where she's gone and showing up just in time to save her! That whole fight really puts emphasis on how disadvantaged regular people are compared to channelers bc the whole time I was just begging Verin and Adeleas to show up

(I'm mostly okay with them merging Verin and Vandene but it means we're probably gonna miss the Grieving Sister on a Revenge Quest later on which really is a shame...almost nothing in the books makes me cry like the scene of Vandene wailing over her sister)

I'm not sure whether the sparks around Moiraine were her starting to break her shield, or just channeling from the others that she thought for a second was hers...I'm leaning a bit towards the former a) because Moiraine will probably have to break her shield herself before the end of the season (I don't see Ishy lifting it) and b) because it's a fascinating parallel with Nynaeve breaking her own block, and both of them using extreme emotion to reach for the source.

Really like the reveal that the battle at the EOTW only broke the seal that was keeping Ishy trapped...can't remember how that worked in the books but it's a great change if it's not. I'm assuming the broken seal Domon found was holding Lanfear in and that the poem he gave Moiraine revealed her identity

Also! Domon! I love you but where is your weird-ass beard that leaves your upper lip bare?

Uno is so good so far and Ingtar is...very attractive, I'm going to be so upset when he dies

[seraphimsinful]

I’m sorry about your situation, and I know the feeling, but that doesn’t mean you’re the problem, most people in general are and don’t know how to treat each other and all others, but as long as you’re being a good person and use your heart and your brain, you’re doing better than most, and it will be ok. You are beautiful and important and it will get better. I believe in you.

I don't even have a brain ! Lol.

But. Idk! Sorry. Ibfeel like I'm not at all a good person. Like yeah maybe everyone's right and I AM a horrible person. Maybe I always have these dreams bevause some divine intervention wants to remind me of how terrible I am. Or maybe I deserve it. I don't kno2. Things happen to me like this because I deserve to feel unhappy. I mean the moment I had a good day it was immediately crushed yesterday. I couldn't even bask in the warmth of praise. I just felt so useless and it only made me spiral from there. And now I'm sat here every time I wake up wishing I didn't. And it just sucks. I suck. I just hate feeling like this. I'm so tired all the time and I can't even be awake for more than a couple minutes without crying or without being in pain. It's like my body doesn't want to recover. I just. Feel so. Wrong. I can't be something others want for too long or else I spoil. Like a fucking pack of raspberries. You think you want them, then they're left in the fridge to rot and get pushed to the back and are forgotten . I just feel rotted. I'm not beautiful. I've never been really beautiful. It feels like such a heavy word. But my whole life I've always been the black sheep or the ugly duckling or soemthjng. My bio mom reminds me I'm ugly all the fucking time. She goes out of her way to say those things. About my hair or my face or my weight or my chest or about how I'm built. I mean I consistently got bullied. But my brother is so handsome. He's gorgeous to everyone. He's "grown out of his ugliness" according to others. Why haven't I. Why am I still ugly. I just want to be pretty. I wanna be something someone wants. ! Idk. I'm sorry. I should be so thankful for your words. I am.bhit I'm just stupid and I feel so. Idk. I just don't want to be here anymore. Or alive I guess. Sometimes I do, I really do. Them other times my chest caves in and I feel ugly and wrong. And bad. Sorry. Thank you. I wanna just say what I need or what I want outright bjt I feel so ashamed of myself and so ashamed of it that I can't. Like it's stuck in my throat. I need to be forced like a stubborn animal.

[kanerallels]

Fan Fic Appreciation Day!

I remembered that today is Fan Fic Appreciation Day, so I thought I'd make a post shouting out some of my favorite authors! This isn't in any particular order and it's probably mostly Star Wars fics, but you should definitely check all of these out! Oh, and I'm absolutely gonna forget some people, but I'm doing my best!

This got kinda long, so it's going under a cut! You can feel free to add on any fics that you'd like to talk about, of your own and others!

Okay FIRST is my girl @laughingphoenixleader!! She writes incredible Kanera fan fic-- Moonbeam: A Masterpiece lives up to the title for sure. She's so funny and incredible at writing the deep moments between Kanera! Plus she's come up with some spectacular OCs, and her way of portraying Kanera is clearly rooted in how much she adores the characters!

@chaoticdumbassrogue is so incredible at Kanera, too!! And she comes up with the BEST headcanons (I'm still low key in love with her Kanan as Mira's brother headcanon) and her au ideas are genius!! One of my favorites of hers is Cooking Lessons, which she actually gifted to me!! Super fun story!!

One series I didn't expect to get obsessed in would be the Empire Reimagined series by @musewrangler. It's very original trilogy centric, and the main characters are two Imperial officers, which definitely surprised me, so it took me a while to get into it. But then I started reading Rebellions Are Built On Hope when it was first being published, and I was won over so quickly by the kindness of the main character (Admiral Piett), and how he was very adoption oriented. My favorite part about these stories is how central a theme platonic relationships are-- I routinely lose my mind over Veers and Piett's friendship-- and how the author treats them with the same respect and care romantic relationships are treated with! (also Veers is hilarious and amazing and so ride or die for his best friend I love him so much)

An author I very recently discovered and became obsessed with is @jessicas-pi! She's one of two authors who have convinced me that Sabezra is actually a pretty awesome ship, her Quinlan Vos is hilarious, and her SWR time travel Time Heals All Wounds is slowly consuming my mind!! (seriously, I could NOT STOP THINKING about one of the cliffhangers, I was cackling like a deranged lunatic). Also she's SO funny

@hecckyeah is amazing for many reasons, not least of which is the fact that she's the first fic writer on here who I'm shouting out for non Star Wars reasons (that said, her Star Wars fan fics are AWESOME you should check them out). But! I'm a huge fan of scout and rainy, this incredibly adorable Dousy fan fic that I LOVE! (but also her Star Wars stuff is amazing and so deep and intense and I love it so much)

This collection would be incomplete without me mentioning @okadiah. They wrote one of the very first full length Star Wars Rebels fic I ever read, Blackbird, and so many other amazing Kanera stories!! Blackbird is amazing, incredibly intense, and overall just a really, really good read if you're willing to absolutely lose your mind over the tension but also DANG the message is good also Maz Kanata is there

There are two fic writers here that I'm gonna shout out, but honestly have not read enough of their stuff-- @winterinhimring and @sidesofmayo. I really love what I've read of their work so far, and I'm so excited to read more!! The former wrote an amazing RepComm series called Cin Vhetin that I'm slowly but surely tackling (don't worry, I promise I haven't forgotten!) and my favorite of the latter's was a fic that was posted on here, then ended up on AO3 with a second chapter! It's called Their First Place, it's Sabezra, and it's SUPER CUTE I'm gonna go read it properly after I post this

OOH JUST REMEMBERED ONE!! following a lover's path by @pontmercyingtil is easily one of my all time favorite Kanera fics, it's beautiful!! The Kanera is amazing and I just REALLY love the story. Plus the author's writing style is amazing!!!

There are a handful of other fics where I don't know the authors of on here, but I HAVE to shout them out anyways because I'm obsessed! (if you know the authors, feel free to give them a tag!) First is Morning Light by SweetSinger2010 (one of my FAVORITE Kanan lives aus I've ever read), & are we there yet? by iconocible (just. the feels. the angst. the V I B E S) Chess Pieces by Synapse (which I've definitely shouted out on here before but this ALSO has impeccable vibes which fit A New Dawn SO WELL) and An Unexpected Habit by Jillie_Chan (I particularly liked chapter five because Kanan and Ezra's father son relationship my beloved also you have NO idea how long it took me to find this fic)