#but it doesnt help that he's so freaking blunt

[unexpectedbrickattack]

old. man. yaois.

tiny gnome has very good senses and smells everything so much and so strongly. help him.

actually. going to keep this contained in the post and not in the tags bc its kink stuff and i think it should stay behind a readmore oop

spreading the 'old man engages in freak behavior' agenda...its not even freak behavior it is so tame for other shit i am writing w them LMAO musk is like whatever. its WHATEVER ! (its good) but my homebrew gnomes are based off of rodents and they have heightened senses of smell and hearing because of it and i think it is so funny to give my fave characters the most benign, yet debilitating kinks. Like bro im fine dw also u need to not be right next to me bc im going to go feral and i dont have it in my soul to explain why

i think its sooooo silly to have him already devote so much of his time to peppino and this business and now hes like god. what is that stickman meme picture of someone gripping their leg so hard its bleeding? thats gus hes like in his own hell. i think i wrote it before that peppino is sooooo aware of like. being a sweaty man and it makes him uncomfortable and he tries to avoid it but its like an inevitable facet of life and he deals w it the best he can. hes not smelly hes sweaty n musky and so working in the back w a hot oven means he ends his shifts absolutely drenched and miserable.

and gus is like👁️👁️ but hes a respectable man (tm) and he doesnt openly gawk n fawn. But. He is not shameless; he absolutely steals a shirt or two when he can and works w that for a while. he steals a shirt, keeps it, then rotates it w another shirt and when peppino is like WAA! My shirt !!! where did u disappear to??? Gus has to pretend he didnt snatch it away for like a month like the squirrel he is.

it (the thieving) would start before they get together and he would get caught a little while after they get together. like hey. not that i think that you think im stupid. but um. for like two years my shirts would disappear when u came over. like. after a couple of months it stops being a coincidence. so like. explain urself maybe?? and its definitely like a New feeling for gus, who is generally regarded as a dom (albeit a sweet one) to feel bashful about this but like in timid way that doesnt usually come naturally to him LOL. and i like the idea of peppino being an anxious little freak about soooo many things including sex, but when he gets more comfy w someone hes way more of a dick and blunt asshole (affectionate) and he absolutely would bully gus about this.

okay thats all i got just imagine my vision of gus and his little tail shooting straight up bc hes huffing this fucking shirt before he passes out for the night okay? and avoiding brick the next day bc beast to beast communication is real, okay? for me? thank u ....

[dysaniadisorder]

to adventure time post but i genuinely love finn & huntress wizards relationship. its so much more mature than all finns other relationships its like a testament to him growing up. i mean the whole show is because it grew up itself as it went on but like,,, having finn become utterly obsessed with people (bubblegum, FP, susan) and all of it blowing up in his face every time- falling apart, a weird publicity to it all, everyone always knowing what he's going through and having so many opinions on it .

when huntress wizard & finn being a Thing is introduced its literally introduced as something he was doing alone . you know just personally. getting upset when jake tried to treat it like all his other relationships, like a lovesick kid, like it's the gossip of the town. not only that but finn just being casual. when he thinks she's rejecting him he doesnt freak out or break down he just sorts of accepts it and goes to contemplate it on his own. he wasn't even able to find a relationship again until he understood how he hurt phoebe and actually apologized to her. him not wanting to overstep did end up with some beating-around-the-bush miscommunication and they probably wouldn't have ever gotten together if jake hadn't pushed it, but thats also to be expected from two seventeen year olds. them dating is not a Big Deal. if i remember its not even full confirmed for a while, just implied that its common for finn to go hang out and adventure with her sometimes like Jake with Lady. she shows up & spends time at his birthday with all his lifelong friends as if she'd always been there, just part of the group now (not to mention this combined with bubblegum + marceline just suddenly and casually dating during this time and it never being quite covered, because things things just sort of happen. people just grow. its not everyones business.)

and HW is the first person to really emotionally connect with him like that & help him through his issues (helping him take a big step toward recovery after Ferns death) because like... she just likes him. he just likes her. its as simple as that. hes not laying on the floor agonizing over her or writing giddy sappy poetry and they're not boring into each others pasts with a need for information and context. i think how blunt & straightforward HW is also helps with the sheer amount of deception & miscommunication in the past.

and can you fucking believe they find each other in every universe ??? even in farmworld finn grew past his terrible decisions and has a family & even though HW is dead he's made it so no one forgets her & the warmth she brought. Hunter sticks around & helps Fionna without hesitation for what is, again, just a simple liking that she at first doesnt even seem to reciprocate. forgive me for straight up making a this girl character is sooo good for this guy characters development post but they're so sweet it makes me sick what a simple but deep love

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trey parker x autistic!reader hcs

wc: idk lol

cw: talk of meltdowns, autistic trey idk how it happened

doesn’t suspect u have autism but hes not very smart when it comes to that so he thinks ur just quirky lol

when u first mention being autistic in passing he thinks ur joking

but u keep bringing it up and while u are joking sometimes (he thinks) ur also serious ab it

so he asks if ur actually autistic

and u laugh in his face

cuz why would u say u are if u aren’t

but u explain yeah i am autism

hes like wow i didnt even know ! ur so high functioning!

record scratch

obviously u tell him ab how fucked up functioning labels are and explain that the spectrum isnt a straight line

and he listens so well cuz he just wants to know everything about u

and he feels bad for offending after knowing for like 5 seconds

ur not mad at him obvi and u like being able to info dump

over time he asks more questions about ur autism

like ur traits and special interests and stims things like that

one time he was talking to u about ur stims and he was soo surprised

“yeah all the hand stuff is stimming”

“what really thats an autism thing?? i thought u were just a fidgety asshole”

“oh yeah that too”

u make jokes about him being autistic too

cuz i mean . have u heard him talk

hes so blunt and stubborn and he hates people

one night hes kinda self conscious so hes like

“do u really think im autistic”

“?? if i did being autistic is not a bad thing”

“no i know that its just…idk forget it”

and ur like :( poor baby just wants to learn about himself

“i do have a little suspicion, but i think you should research and think about it on your own”

“……will u help me”

“of course baby :3”

u show him all ur fave resources and let him explore on his own

u tell him ab how when u were researching ur own autism u would write down all the traits and circle ones u have and then write down stories from ur life as like “evidence” of those traits

he finds this very intriguing. gets his own notebook

takes the raads r test and is like wow over 100 :) i passed :)

this is turning into autistic trey headcanons whatever

hes a little in denial ab it tbh

hes just upset he went this far into his life without knowing something so important to him

u comfort him saying that whether he is or is not autistic doesn’t change who he is at all and he doesn’t have to change the way he does things if he doesnt want to

that helps bc it did feel like a big change to him and it scared him

okay now i wanna talk about meltdowns

really good segue btw (unrelated why TF is segue spelled like that really fucked up)

uve told him about your meltdowns before but u havent had any really bad ones in a long time so he hasnt seen one

but one day he comes home and hears loud banging coming from the bedroom

goes to check on u and it looks like someone robbed the place

just absolutely trashed

and ur on the floor curled up with your face hidden shaking and crying

he is NOT prepared has no idea what to do

he knows for sure not to touch you but beyond that hes helpless

“are you…okay..?”

“nonononono get out you cant see me like this”

he hesitates but does as told, doesnt wanna freak u out anymore

eventually u come out, sulk over to him on the couch all sniffly and red

sit down next to him but dont look at him, just rubbing ur hands on ur legs in a soothing motion, watching the movement

he gets a little more comfortable, spreading out so u can curl into him

and u do exactly that, hiding ur face in his chest and grabbing at him wherever ur hands can reach

okay i need to stop cuz it’s making me wanna write a full oneshot

now we will talk about pda autism :3

if u dont have pda (pathological demand avoidance) autism u can skip this part but i have it and this is for ME

u tell him about it and how difficult it makes doing tasks for u

cuz ur brain can interpret the stupidest shit as a “demand” and it sometimes makes it physically impossible to complete a task

it comes up one day cuz hes recommending u to watch smth and he says smth like

“u have to watch this i think ull love it”

and ur like oops sorry i cant for at least 7-10 business weeks , that sounded like a demand

but anyway when he hears ab pda autism hes like . thats a thing????

launches into investigation mode writing in his little autism notebook

ok that’s enough of that

he can tell when ur getting overstimulated like instantly

cuz ur triggers are very similar to his

and even if they weren’t hes very observant when it comes to u and ur moods

will leave literally anywhere if either of u are getting too overstimulated he does not care

he just feels like u understand him in a way that a lot of people dont

most ppl will say they get it but u like GET IT

and ur like yeah thats the autism

okay im done i’ll probably write that meltdown oneshot soon bc i am one melty little guy . i do not stop beating my head in over pants

[horsegirlalexkralie]

...tell us more about this au and jay being passed around like a blunt. If you dont mind.

absolutely i love my bullshit nonsense aus thank u so much for asking . gonna put it under a readmore bc its long and it gets raunchy. kids dont look

i see it like a hills have eyes/texas chainsaw sitch where brian and alex "inherited" a house somewhere bc they lizzie bordened their way out of the town they grew up in and got married legally w alex on the books as the wife - they raise livestock and kill for fun and eventually take tim in bc brian finds him out in the fields stumbling around covered in blood. amy hires them to have her parents killed and ends up sticking around to murder dudes who beat their wives.

jays an independent journalist on a roadtrip to research like. god even fucking knows what. but his cars a piece of shit so it breaks the fuck down of course in the middle of nowhere and he stands around kicking it and yelling in the rain until a truck stops and the most handsome guy jays ever seen steps out and offers to help haul it to his place. he'll at least give jay a ride, theres no service out here. (he doesnt really give room to refuse.)

so jay rides out to this guys brothers? place? brothers? wifes? the guy doesnt really talk. and theres a girl on the porch, and shes pretty and blonde and she tells him to come in and have a drink- jay asks if shes the brothers wife and she laughs and tells him shes the sister in law. "or something like that". and he didnt really ask what the drink was, but its like? sweet tea? but wrong? but these nice people in alabama wouldnt fuck up sweet tea. jay smoked a joint in the car. thats it. and the brother comes out and hes better looking than the guy with the truck, almost, which like where the fuck did he go? he said he'd get jay a phone- but theyre taking him out to the kitchen- the brothers wifes cooking and she wants to meet him, and shes pretty too, tall and smart-looking, deep voice- big fucking knife in her hand- and is it jay or is it getting kinda fucking dark in here.

idk i think it wld be fun if they made a game of "letting him go" and just letting him get halfway down a hallway before somebody else drags him into a bedroom lol . brian lets his darling little wife and her meat cleaver wear him out and cuts the rope on his wrists- thats enough for tonight, isnt it? he oughta be going. and jay crawls, stumbles bleeding and disbelieving out into the hall - clutching the railing and hyperventilating and putting one foot in front of the other and - amy snags her arm in his. you arent going so soon, are you mister? oh gosh youre hurt ! come here, let me clean you up- and she ties him back up and asks if hes ever tried makeup and asks if hes ever tried s&m and asks if he wants to see a dead body and when his mascaras running and the dead girls dress she put him in is ripped and stained and half-on she tells him if he really wants to go that bad ... she cant really stop him ..... only for tim to scoop him up in the hall and pull the skirt up to fuck him over the railing, stoic as anything, knife at his throat

and theyre gonna kill him but they all keep putting it off bc hes cute and maybe stockholm syndroming the tiniest bit and maybe definitely was a freak to begin with and keeps getting hard when theyre doing fucked up shit to him and complimenting the human furniture

[droodlebug]

who's the oc that lives rent free in your head the most? tell me about them🤲

BUD !!! I got excited and drew him he really is my Default guy i draw when im doodling

AND a quick little walking sprite i made when i was briefly thinking about teaching myself game development lmao

His Full name is Bud Roase he is so gay and trangender (no-op) and picked his name on super purpose. Bud is a demi-god of light and thus is quite a few hundred years old. He had the bulk of his power stolen from another god that then went to create the isolated race of starlings that Sterling is a part of. He found Sterling lost and offers to help him get back home, omitting the part where he's wanting to use this as a chance to kill the god to get his powers back.

He's really autism and generally has an air of teasing flirtatiousness. He talks pretty monotone and straight to the point. Over his time alive he's picked up a lot of random hobbies and his most current is boating. He's really attached to the distant family he has from his sister from when he was mortal and keeps in touch as that weird uncle who doesnt get older ever.

He is so willing to steal stuff. There is a cannibalistic weird little guy who has beef with Bud bc he didnt let the freak eat his baby niece. It takes Sterling to help him reconnect with a love of the world again as he's been alive for too damn long just fucking around and he lost that. He's lost in the world in general. He's always planning but never getting anywhere.

I like to project onto Bud a lot he is sweet he's transgender he's blunt but so caring he loves people and love as a concept but doesn't think he is worth having it and does not know how to handle it when Sterling shows more than superficial interest in him. He is also concerned about the power dynamics in place since. While it was not him that made Sterling's people exist, it was still his powers that made it happen. i like him. hes got dilemmas. i spin him around in my head like a toaster oven. here's another a Him ft a genuine smile for your time

[slicznymartwy]

*crying sobbing choking throwing up*

UGH GOSH. The soft Billy ask!!!! OH YOU WRETCHED THING, MAKING ME FEEL THINGS LIKE THAT!!!!! *sobs into hands* oh billy….poor poor billy….my little silly Billy…..once again, the way you write is just, simply lovely. Terribly subtle, clever, or maybe I’m just naive and silly! But, I just simply can’t help but feel he’s so sweet in his heart of hearts…..he just doesn’t know any better!!! Him saying he wants to, um. Ejaculate upon her teeth *wheezes*, yeesh Billy lol. But! He says that cause he has no idea how to say “you have a beautiful smile!” Or “you’re teeth are very pretty and white!” He just DOESNT KNOW!!! All he knows is BLOODY SEX. He reminds me of a little kid…in the way that, should a child grow up being told over and over how bad they are, they act out that way, they become what you tell them, you say they’re bad, and they believe it, cause how can they know any different? But when you tell a kiddo they’re sweet and pretty and good job and all these good things, they act that out, BECAUSE THEY BELIEVE YOU!! Billy only literal experience with people is just, people freaking out about him, around him, and pointing at him with aggression and fear and hate, he has no idea he could even be anything else, he has no idea that’s possible for him.

This boy is so autistic, in the way that….his, his botched up speech….is like mine. In my mind, I’m normal, all my thoughts are loud and swirling and racing, and when I decided on the correct wording, I say the words if I’m able to. I think I’m normal enough in that moment, I’m trying to be, but when I hear myself or see recording of me…..I’m so, blunt, and sporadic, and just OFF, my speech is chopped up into random quips, things that make sense to me but from the outside perspective, isn’t terribly fluid, like Billy. He’s thinking fully, but his words just come out, different. Gosh I love him so much. (I can translate my thoughts through writing far more smoothly I believe)

Poor billy…..I wish I could tell him, that he isn’t his thoughts….it’s just his brain, which is an organ, it’s just this particular organ malfunctioning, it just has conditions, like, someone with a heart condition or high blood pressure or an autoimmune disorder….it’s just…..it’s just SYMPTOMS. I wish I could, like you said, pat his back, rub his back oh so gently, comfort him and somehow convey to him, just cause he has all these horrible thoughts, doesn’t mean he’s horrible, doesn’t mean he IS his thoughts….I want to teach him and show him how I handle myself and try to control myself, and ignore my own thoughts, so he can see it’s possible!!

Oooogh!! I have SO. MANY. FEELINGS! AAAH!! I love the way you write how he communicates!! It just makes so much sense for him! I liken him to, groot, honestly. You know from the guardians of the galaxy? His vocabulary is VERY limited, he can only really say the words, “I am groot” but he’s literally speaking…normally, as in, his thoughts and meaning is normal, he just doesn’t have the words to say them, but rocket understand how he speaks, and can have conversations with him. That’s how Billy is!! Just, his language is limited to sexual vocabulary at the moment. Ooooooh, I would love to teach him about butterfly kisses and Eskimo kisses….I would hope they would make him warm and fuzzy on the inside! Melt boy! MELT!

hi !!! this is so sweet, i’m so glad you like my writing enough to send me this !!! thank you <33

i like writing a softer billy. you say it really well, he’s just deeply sick. i think maybe he’s experienced trauma growing up, and this is just how it manifests in him. he doesn’t realize he doesn’t have to be dirty billy. he thinks that’s all he is, so that’s all he lets himself be.

speaking of languages and physicality, i also partly feel like he would interpret non-sexual physical touch as being sexual, so i would definitely be interested to see him receiving something like a back rub or an eskimo kiss and realizing it can stop at that. touches can be platonic, not everyone is a sexual monster (definitely him projecting that).

as evil as he is, i want him to get better too. maybe it’s too late for him, but i think he deserves it a little bit T T

[cleromancy]

I absolutely enjoyed reading your analysis and take on why people tend to put most of the blame on Tim rather than taking into account that other characters are just as culpable. You really help me understand why Jason stans might resent Tim for victim-blaming Jason more than the other characters (although it is still them showing their double-standard thought process at the end of the day). In truth, no one is innocent in the situation. Everyone is culpable to some degree for blaming a child for his own demise, and its frankly disgusting.

its one of those things thats really interesting both in universe and from a meta perspective bc. blaming jason for his own death when sheila sold him out to the joker who then murdered them both, which dc wrote/illustrated/published, which they decided to do because of the results a fricking READER POLL... its so silly lmao. and by making it jasons fault the blame doesnt rest with batman, for having a robin in the first place, or dc, for writing and publishing the story. absolutely fascinating tapestry of blame and fault here on all levels

i was thinking some more about it though and i do think its got some to do with tims personality and demeanor as well. hes a perfectionist and a control freak and there are times when he expresses that if someone cant hack it to tims (arbitrary) standards they shouldn't be doing it at all, that kind of thing. and this is something bruce and dick both do as well, bruce is pretty famous for it even, but they're also both like... i mean we already talked about bruce in the last ask but on top of that hes like. scary competent and intimidating. like. hes batman! and with dick, dick is the first robin, hes *the* nightwing, dick was canonically this keystone figure for the new earth dcu hero community... hes a big fucking deal yknow. in-universe people listen to them, and for good reason, and out of universe a lot of the time reading it its like. Well they'd know! and by contrast tim does not have that kind of authority he just acts like be does... like hes made a solid name for himself by the time the reboot hits but absolutely not on dick or bruces level. so when Tim says something about like you shouldn't be doing this you're going to get yourself killed its like. who is this squeaky little toddler and why is he telling me what to do. like its like "who died and made you robin" except the answer to that is uh. Jason todd.

anyway yeah i like to rotate this as an aspect of characterization for everyone involved bc in like. the version that lives in my head the narrative doesnt present them as Right so it becomes *about* the tragedy, *about* grief and the way sometimes a story gets warped in retelling, about coping by putting sense in something senseless... but. it gets a lot less fun when youre reading something and the story itself is like "Yes this 14 or 15 year old only died bc he broke the rules he got what was coming to him & he deserved it :)" loud booing i dont care for that at all.

dick is also interesting bc hes the only character i can think of other than leslie who blames bruce at any point for jasons death, which i neglected to mention in my other ask. (its kind of a big topic and in my defense you were just askinf about bruce Alfred and tim... sorry dickie ily) like dick took more work to convince that a new robin was necessary than bruce did and dick like... dick was so angry and heartsick and guilty over jasons death and all those feelings just went *everywhere* including at himself. so its absolutely a lot more palatable coming from dick and-- i mean i mentioned demeanor earlier. tim tends to be either very blunt or very sharp and he is NOT known for phrasing things diplomatically, like, at all. dick might be thinking about the mistakes he imagines Jason making on the road to his death but what he'll say out loud is usually smth like "he wasn't ready," and its also a lot more palatable coming from dick bc you *know* hes also thinking he himself Should Have trained jason more himself or done this or that other thing.

dickies so so so good hes doing his best. i love him so much. what were we talking about

[brokensoulblog1998]

insecurity is a motherf*****, as of late it has been getting the best of me and im not proud of it at all, ive struggled with that feeling for as long as i can remember, ive really never had anyone to openly share any of these types of feelings with so writing it all out feels really good. i wanna learn to love myself the way i love other people and heal myself where its needed so i can finally be happy and move on with my life. being in a long term relationship for the past two years ive been very toxic and lashing out and i feel so ashamed for putting my loved one through my raging mood swings becasue of past trauma or getting insecure over every little thing an picking fights so i can be right. i never noticed my toxic behavior how it affected my loved one and how it ultimuatly ruined my relationship my partner my self. and honsestly since i promised my self i would always be honest here with my self i think the  real reaon i get so insecure is because ive given up on myself compelely, i stopped doing things for me i stopped taking care of myself and just started sittiing around crying and complaing about all the little things i needed to change but really never ever made that effort to change any of those things. i no longer wanna be that girl, im ready to actually put myself first and get out if this rut. i cant keep blaming him and freaking out because he like another girls picture or because he wants to stay in touch with his bestfriend thats a female like those things shouldnt make me insecure i cant expect his wjhole social life to stop just because hes with me. yes i hate that fact that for 30 seconds he looks at a pitcure of another girl and likes it but like he has reassured me so many times that im sure hes tired of doing, none of that crap matters hes a guy at that a younger guy and just because he likes or talks to another girl doesnt mean is intentions are to replace me or cheat on me cause if he wanted to do that he would have. its been two years since this ride to hell began and im ready to hop off. im ready to just let all off that go and just be together. i have to get ovet the fact theres always gonna be other girls and more pictures to like but as long as things are good at home between us and we dont let all that shit on the outside get in well be okay and i know he would never do anything to hurt me hes always been a blunt straight foward kind of guy i just worry sometimes because hes also the kind of guy to tell you what you wanna hear so youll drop it, and i hate that i think that one thing about him fucks with me constantly, but i need to learn hes not my prisoner hes my lover and if were ever gonna get out of this, if im ever gonna get out of this rut ive been stuck in i need to learn to let go and if i dont like something about myself its up to me to change it no my loved ones to tell me what i wanna hear just to comfort me. at one point in my life i knew how to embrace myself and be confident that girl is in me somewhere its just up to me to find her. i honestly dont know if anyone will ever come across this or read this or relate to this im just a girl trying to let go of all this crap i hold in and sharing here makes me feel like this will help me not do that so whoever is reading i hope you know you are not alone im lost to looking for that girl that was once happy and didnt let all her inseuriies destroy her

[peachiimilquetea]

Heyy could you do hcs for tenya iida making reader flustered? (˵ ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°˵)

pls i dont think tenya has a bone in his body that could fluster someone on purpose but definitely!

how does tenya iida fluster you?

i think most of what makes tenya iida attractive is that he doesn't know hes attractive

cliche i know

so when you ask him for help on an assignment and he comes up behind you with his massive biceps to correct your work and show you how to do it properly

you freak out internally

he doesnt notice tho

hes kinda dense in these sorts of things

i also see tenya as being a messy eater from time to time

not because hes a messy person, he just gets distracted easily because his brain runs a mile a minute

take ice cream for example

iida cannot eat a soft serve cone to save his life

but you love ice cream

so when he looks at you and licks the dripping ice cream off his hands

your brain short circuits

this happens quite often

ALSO hes like 5'10 now (imagine when he gets older oh my God) so if you're on the shorter side he does that thing where he has to lean down to hear what you're saying

especially if you're in the cafeteria or the common area at UA

as soon as he bends down you're like SBFGSJKFBSUIKGSU

iida is also very blunt

hes not the best at picking up social cues and innuendo because hes naturally not too focused on goofing off like that

so sometimes he says things that sound more suggestive than the actually are without realizing it

"tenya can you help me with this problem"

"sure ____ i can give you all the extra help you need."

BJSGFSKNSKJDSHJSKF PLS PLS I GOTTA RUN A LAP

hes not completely dense though so when he figures out that his words affect you he starts to use them more often

idk i just think the juxtaposition between his sweet and orderly personality and his playful side is enough to catch anyone off guard

you can always turn the tables on him though

[twatshag]

♤ Sakusa kiyoomi's night terrors ♤

Unfaithful. Oh it was just a dream. But why did it feel so real...

Genre: fluff to angst and then back to fluff, smut

Pairing: TIMESKIP both characters!!!!!sakusa x fem reader (in dream atsumu X READER)

Warnings: smut in dream, you cheating in the dream (you wrong for dat sis😩)

M DNI!!!

HIS POV small glimpse of your pov as well

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What a day. I sighed looking at the clock it was only 5 pm. Y/n was going to be here at 8 pm. I cleaned and already bought groceries for dinner.

I'm quite satisfied with how things looked around the apartment. As of lately y/n decided to bring me some plants and decorations everytime she visited, because in her opinion my apartment looked lifeless and bland.

I smiled softly thinking about tonight. I'm going to ask her to move in with me today. I mean I hope she doesnt mind. Maybe she'll be taken back by my sudden request or oh god what if she rejects me.. ?

I gulped trying to focus on the show I was watching and pushing back all the negative outcomes. She told me about this show during one of our phone calls and told me that I'd definitely enjoy it. She knows me so well, god I can't wait to tell her how much I appreciate her today.

As of lately I've been gathering up the courage to finally tell her that I'm ready to have intercourse with her. She's been so loving and patient this whole time I can't imagine how sweet she is for waiting up 6 months for me. I couldn't imagine if there was anyone who'd be so willing to respect my very picky boundaries but there she was.

I can't help but think about how it would feel for me and her being so close together. And becoming one. I blushed deeply at the thought. After all there Is one benefit of her not living with me.

That's not seeing me blush like this tsk. I bet she'd give me that smug smile and ask if I'm okay. I rolled my eyes thinking about her smug smile.

I never really asked if she's had.. intercourse with someone before. What if I wasn't good enough to satisfy her expectations..? What if.. she rejects my offer? What if I hurt her during it ? Oh god I don't want that. My head plagued me with bad thoughts about the idea of trying to satisfy her and failing miserably.

Y/n is absolutely gorgeous, all my team mates seem to love her and hell I really hate the way that stupid setter of a team mate looks at her.

I can't help but get jealous because she seems so comfortable with him. Sometimes I even find myself comparing the alternative realities of her being with him instead.

He's easy going has no stupid boundaries and he probably has a ton of experience to satisfy her.. my heart clenched at the thought of her leaving me for him.

I pushed those thoughts back once again. I looked at the clock it read 5:30 pm. Maybe I can dose off and when she comes around I'll tell her everything that's on my mind. I can't keep on post poning things.

I closed my eyes long forgotten about the show playing in the background as I waited for her.

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My eyes shot open as I heard muffled sounds in my apartment. Just what the hell was that?

I groaned as I sat up and looked at the clock it read 6:50 pm. Could she have arrived early?

The sounds were coming from the bedroom I smiled softly as I heard her beautiful voice. A voice that's so gentle when talking to me, so soft when she notices the way I slump from a long day of practice. Everything I've ever wanted in a woman. Was mine to keep and cherish.

I peeked through the crack and I noticed someone hovering over the bed. Smiling I opened it more to see what she was doing.

"Oh god yes yes tsumu right there." I felt my heart rip out of my chest. There she laid in my own apartment,in my own bed. With him. On top of her kissing her neck and thrusting into her.

She clung to him harder than she's ever clung to me.

Her mouth hung open and the so beautiful voice was now a curse I was hearing.

He kissed her neck hungrily.

"Ya feel so good angel-so fucking good." He quickened his pace while kissing her disgustingly his tongue gracing her so beautiful skin and infecting it. "Tsumu- aghnn mmhm yes-God fuck yes- yes y-ea-s." I wanted to scream, to move and tear them apart, to burn the whole apartment down hell even to avert my eyes but I couldn't.

Everything I've loved sat there being caressed by another man. That man was not me.

That man was someone better than I'll ever be.

Her gaze fell on me. Tears perked up my eyes looking at her stone lust filled eyes.

She gave me a smug smile.. That smug smile that was always so playfully displayed looked much darker than ever. No hint of playfulness or mercy. No hint of fake innocence as it once had.

"You've always been such a burden sakusa." I flinched at her tone and the mention of my last name, while that man was kissing her neck hungirly, thrusting into her as if I wasn't even there to begin with. That I ceased to exist in his world as of now.

Everything went silent for a moment, her whimpers became muted from the way the faux blonde thrusted into her as she spoke the next words.

"I never loved you. Sakusa. Me and you both know that atsumu was always the righteous man for me. You good for nothing replaceable freak."

And with that I was pushed back into the sofa my eyes shot open as I stared at her face above me cheeks flushed red from her shower she looked so beautiful but my heart it ached from what I saw. Did he see her like this too? She shrieked and stepped back.

"jesus christ kiyo! What the hell ?! are you psychic? I was about to wake you up!"

Kiyo... a name she always called me when things were serious. But the worry and softness that concealed her voice was not enough for me to accept what I just saw as an illusion.

I stood up pushing past her acting like she's not even there. I despised her existence with all my heart yet I can't help but repeat those words in my head. She's right I am replaceable. I'm a freak and I'll never be able to find love.

"Hey what the hell?! I'm talking to you, you know mister sleepy head!" She followed me into the kitchen trying to get me to talk to her, god her presence made me want to vomit.

I grabbed a glass and poured water into it and as I began to drink it to calm my nerve down before I lost my composure that was literally hanging by a thread right now.

I felt her hand on my back and to say the least i wanted nothing but to get her filthy hands and presence out of my life right now.

"Omi..what's wrong you kn-"

"Don't fucking touch me." I hissed, venom lacing my tone as I averted her gaze because seeing her made my heart clench.

Everything that I always wanted was in the arms of someone else. But why keep me around? Why hurt me like this?

I felt her staring at me wide eyed and from the corner of my eye I could see that she looked at her hand.

"I'm sorry are my hands di-"

"They're fucking filthy you disgusting bitch." This time I looked her in the eyes. Her eyes widened at my tone. She deserved it. She did this to herself what the hell was she expecting?

me to welcome her back after she just tore my heart apart ? After she was....with him? In my fucking bed? Infecting it and my life with the pain?

"Omi you don'-"

"Get out."

"W-what? Wh-"

"I SAID GET OUT!" I slammed my hand on the counter and she flinched "get the hell out of my apartment you filthy-" not even finishing my sentence I suddenly felt cold and wet

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YOUR POV

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If there's anything that life has taught me it's that whenever someone was angry DO NOT stay around them. For the sake of the both of you.

As I entered kiyoomi's apartment having a spare he was sleeping peacefully on the sofa making me smile softly. Deciding to leave him rest until I took my clothes off showering and then coming back to the living room to wake him up.

I couldn't help but notice that he was shuffling as if he was in pain i frowned and I decided to reach to shake him awake just as I was about to do so to my surprise he just jolted awake and now here we are.

He was being extremely mean and I think that I know what was going on he was shouting at me with a tone I've never recognised before.

The advise of leaving someone angry long left my mind and the glass of water now emptied in omi's face.

He stared at the ground with such pure anger and hate shocked that I had the nerve to even do such a thing after whatever the hell he saw or heard.

I sighed

"What ever dream y/n did just know that I'd never do to you. When you're ready to talk to me about it I'll be in your balcony. I'm sorry for.. throwing water in your face but you need to understand that I had no other choice." I scratched the back of my neck awkwardly putting the glass down on the counter in case he wanted to drink one more time before facing me. And with that I left and made my way to his balcony.

Whatever he saw must've hurt him deeply for him to react that way I thought I sat down looking at the beautiful sight of Tokyo breathing in its air smiling softly at the sounds of the lifeful city.

Whenever he's ready he'll come to me.

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Back to his pov

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She... threw water in my face. Suddenly I feel more awake. And guilty. God I feel so guilty. It was just a dream.

And I thought she'd... I have to fix this.

Panicking on how the hell i was going to word off 'sorry i had a dream where you cheated and I was so sure you did it so I screamed at you ' to her I filled the glass of water and drank it going into the bedroom sighing and letting a few tears spill while changing my wet shirt.

At times like this I'd truly begin to wish that I was like everyone else.

That I wasn't a very cautious man who was so blunt and had a comeback for everything but the man that could've made her life better.

I put on my slides and my hand hovered over my balcony door. Watching her city gaze smiling softly to herself.

At times where she would come over she always insisted on drinking coffee in my balcony at night.

At first it sounded so silly because I wouldn't get to sleep the whole night but instead i slept better and happier more fulfilled.

"Staring isn't nice you know?" Her sweet voice cut my train of memories and I opened the door clearing my throat.

God how awkward where the hell do I even begin to apologise i feel so guilty and dumb for even doubting you.

I sat next to her.

"You cheated on me.." she snapped her neck so fast it felt like it broke wide eyed. Before she could even speak I reassured "in my dream."Her expression softened she nodded listening to what I had to say.

"It felt so...real.. I walked onto you and atsumu.. and you told me that I'm a burden and you n-never loved me." I couldn't face her. I couldn't even look at her because of my ignorance and insecurities it truly was a pathetic sight for her to witness me this way.

Hot tears streamed down my face as I sniffiled.

"I know you always assure me that there's no need for me to be jealous or worry about him but it felt so real. I know that you'd be better of with someone who understood you better than I did. Act better than I did..hell even not doubt you because of something like this. "

my heart clenched at the next outcome. That being Her actually leaving me. I opened my mouth to speak only to be cut off by her "can I touch you?"

I looked at her nervously nodding like a small child as she pulled me into her arms hugging me while rubbing my back.

"I'd never dream of leaving you Kiyoomi. Yet alone be in someone else's arms.." I clung to her worried that if I didn't she'd leave me.

I cried softly against her repeating apologies while she rocked me.

"Hey hey Shh omi.. it's alright I know you didn't mean any of it. Besides I can't believe dream me cheated on you and with nasty ass atsumu out of all people" she fake gagged.

Making me laugh tearfully against her chest pulling away to look at her and she cupped my face in her hands making me look deeply in her so beautiful love filled eyes. Something dream her didnt have.

"There hasn't been a day that's passed where I don't thank god that you chose me out of everyone else omi. I'd be so stupid to throw away everything that you've given me." She smiled at me so sweetly it gave me toothache "i dont care if there are people out there who have no boundaries and arent afraid of germs and hell can touch me no matter what because those people arent you. I'd never ever lay in someone's elses arms kiyo..you're the one for me you know that right?" She looked back at me searching for a confirmation that I believed her so I nodded gently "It's always going to be you omi.. okay? I'm not going anywhere and you're stuck with me sadly." She giggled while a few tears were threatening to spill from her eyes my heart clenched this time because of her sweetness and care.

"I wouldn't mind being anywhere as long as it's with you y/n" I smiled at her as I brought my hand to her face and kissed her. The taste of her lips were always so intoxicating. So addictive.

And at that I knew it'll be okay. I loved her so much, with every muscle and bone in my body. But it was okay because so did she.

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"How do you want the pork chopped?" I looked at her from my counter while she confusingly stared at me "omi... I don't eat pork." Oops I forgot that. And now I'm embarrassed that I did. "O-oh yeah sorry." Fucking idiot.. I thought to myself.

She giggled and hugged me from behind and kissed my shoulder peeking from the sides watching me as I chopped the pork. Smiling at her so familiar warmth.

"No need to be embarrassed you're not the only one who forgets it all the time you know" I rolled my eyes at her observant habit still smiling at her warmth but I wont let her slide that easy so I'll tease her "says the big baby who's clinging onto me like a baby koalo." She giggled against my back sending shivers down my spine. "Yeah its your fault that you're so handsome and cuddly." I chuckled at her reasoning she hummed as if she was in thought. "Oh yeah, Omi you wanted to talk to me about something was it me cheating on you in your dream or something else ?" She teased.

I got a bit stiff At the thought of even asking her to move in with me. She backed away from me as I turned around.

"Y-yeah.." she raised an eyebrow at me "so which one is it?" She asked eagerly crossing her arms "I-uh,," why was this so freaking hard to ask I scratched the back of my neck avoiding her gaze. "Move in w-ith me...?" I mumbled softly I felt my face heat up as I attempted to ask her that half ass effort.

She smiled that one smug smile I loved to see so much but I'll never tell her that.

"Speak up I cant hear you omi" I rolled my eyes at her and turned my back continuing with chopping up the pork. "Guess you dont want to.." I mumbled earning a small gasp from her and to leech onto me from the side hugging me tightly "no no no sorry I heard you yes I'd love that, actually I've been dying to move in with you but I can't just ask hey I'm going to move in with you so make room for me in your closet" she giggled and kissed my cheek lovingly making me smile. I looked up at her as she smiled so hard at me teeth and everything. She leaned in to kiss me.

Now or never.

"I'm also ready to have sex with you." I moved away to the freezer to grab something I can make her leaving her hangingon thin air. She almost choked on nothing blushing immediately.

"YOU WHAT NOW??" I smirked at her loud voice and shock.

"Is chicken okay?" And now her face turned sour in disbelief. Possibly redder too.

"YOU CAN'T JUST ACT LIKE YOU DIDN'T JUST SAY THAT!"

"I guess chicken it is" I shrugged smirking at her.

"KIYOOOOOOMIIIII"

At the end of the day i always knew that home was always going to be right here with her around me. I'm one lucky man to have her around me. But I've hit bulls eye with her love for me.

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Kiyoomi made you chicken soup that day. And he decided that today was the day to give you his all let's just say.. his insecurities weren't right at all about him. Even saying that he totally satisfied you wasn't enough to describe the feeling you felt. Now sakusa has grown addicted to how you feel around him. My guy is whipped and extremely horny for you.

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A/N: I LITERSLLY FELL ASLEEP IN THE MIDDLE OF WRITING THIS AHAHAHAHA anyway I feel like this isn't my best work yet but I hope that you guys liked it ;(;( I feel like there's not enough his pov content so I decided to make it his pov also this isn't my best work so I'm sorryyyy im insecure rn pls I hope yall enjoyed this thank you so much for reading !!

-kira

[tobi-momo]

hey uh me again! Could you maybe do another Todoroki one (and anyone else if you want) with a she/they reader???

Aspen! hi! dont even worry ab coming to my inbox too much i love when you pop up! also feel free to just talk :) plus we are both INFP’s, so we are automatically amazing dkfjhgdf- ANYWAYS! i am really glad you requested this because i recently just started using she/they pronouns so this may also help me a bit so thank youu :))

i was thinking of doing tokoyami as the other character bc he is just *mwah*

Type: Comfort/fluff (?)

Warnings: Insecurity, she/they pronouns, coming out, (i think thats it?)

PRONOUNS: SHE/THEY IS USED :)

TODOROKI AND TOKOYAMI COMFORTING A SHE/THEY READER:

He def notices the little things when you start questioning yourself silently

He wants to make it better he just doesn’t really know what to do?

he comes up to you and asks whats wrong bc he may be oblivious- but hes not stupid 

so when you tell him that you think you’re more comfortable with she/they pronouns he just freezes for a sec

not out of shock or out of like “wtf”

its a “that was it?” kinda freeze

like i said in the last one HE IS SO MF PATIENT WITH YOU and he understands it might take longer to accept yourself and feel comfortable with your body and gender

in fact he loves you more now that you are comfortable with yourself to tell him and trust him

he may get curious and ask you questions plz dont get mad at him hes all genuine

he knows its also very hard for you to trust other people with this, considering ppl are not the nicest towards non-cis genders but he loves you no matter what so he protecc

he will put anyone and everyone in their place if they have a problem with your iconic self

just remember that he loves you and will not leave you :)

hehe i love this MAN

i feel like he wouldn’t notice the little things at first dark shadow would have to casually bring it up and hed be like

huh?

so he starts to observe you more

and he sees how you act, how different you are 

so he will also come up to you and ask whats wrong

very blunt

i think that you would dismiss him at first, act like nothings wrong

so he bribes you with gifts and tries to get dark shadow to help

so you finally open up to him about wanting to use she/they pronouns

he backs off with an ‘oh’

you think he doesnt like you anymore so you start to freak out

but then he just hugs you and praises you bc he does love you more than anything and doesn’t care that you use different pronouns :)

dark shadow will make stupid remarks at you after as a joke but tokoyami gets mad at him for it LMAO (just a stupid hc)

hes definitely proud of you and happy for you that you were able to find yourself, and he tells you too

i feel like if someone were being an ass to you about your pronouns then they would glare at them with the most intimidating look ever known to man

and they back off

because no one messes with his pretty baby :)

sorry if this is bad lol im not the best at this

REQUESTS: OPEN

taglist: @zerohawks @combat-wombatus @hitosushi (ask if you wanna be a part of my general tag list :)

[chidoroki]

TPN ch181

(spoilers! AAAHHhhaha..my children!)

Okay, so remember in my last review when I said I was impressed how Ray, Gilda and Phil managed to narrow down where Emma might be in the matter of a couple months? Well, I take it back because it hasnt been just a few months, it's been two damn years! Oh my god, I can't imagine how hard it must've been for everyone, especially our two boys, to search for so long without even getting on single clue about Emma's whereabouts. Some of the children still doubt whether she's alive or actually in this world with them or not.

(image limit, so imagine the panels of the Goldy Pond kids discussing the lack of clues and Thoma and Lani doubting the reward again)

Thankfully, Gilda gets the idea to search in forbidden zones which is where we see her, Ray and Phil. Speaking of which, oh my poor boy. This is the longest Ray has been without Emma by his side. I thought the one month after Goldy Pond was hard enough on him, but two whole years? Damn, I can't imagine the stress and anxiety he's been experiencing. He's still so frustrated too and gets so close to Emma without even realizing it. Then, surprisingly, his beloved family steps in to help? The people he personally couldn't save now come together to help him save the one person who originally saved his life. Like, hello?? I love this! Conny, who was another sibling he had to use in order to put his initial escape plan in motion to save Emma and Norman's lives, is now assisting him in saving Emma from being alone. Yuugo, who knows firsthand how important Emma is to Ray and how close they are. Isabella, knowing her son kept his promise as he's always set out to do whatever it takes to protect his entire family. The fact that Ray's lost family members can feel how strong his bond with Emma is and they jump in to help reconnect the two of them again.. just, wow. It may be all the rayemma week feels getting to me but that's like a damn soulmate occurrence if i ever saw one!

The two unknowingly pass each other again but thanks to Emma conveniently losing her necklace and finding it with perfect timing, they all finally encounter each other. Everyone expresses their complete shock and relief that they had finally found Emma, and while I am happy they their search ended up a success, the mood changes fairly quickly due to our girls lost memories. She hasnt the slightest idea who "Emma" is, who these people are or why they're so excited to see her. The kids wonder if they have the right girl, as they take notice of Emma's bare neck.

One look at the necklace in her hand though and Ray finally puts the pieces together. Honestly, I'm not at all surprised he's the one to figure out the true reward, as Ray has been very perceptive since the beginning. He's also always been openly honest and blunt when things get serious, so naturally he's the one who has to let everyone know this because while it's a sad truth no one wants to hear, or even believe, they all need to realize it, including Emma. Even Ray has trouble coming to terms with the sacrifice Emma made. He understands how hard it must have been for Emma to accept the heavy price of her forgetting the family she loves so deeply and he looks so broken when he realizes that. He must be feeling so guilty that he couldn't have been there with her when she made the new promise. He still puts the blame on himself and he's so upset that his failure lead Emma to live in a world alone without the family she cares for more than anything.

I wasn't too satisfied last chapter when demon god told us the real reward and Emma's response was a simple "okay," so I'm grateful we learned more about the conversation now in this chapter. She really did want to live her family. She even knew some of them might get mad at her for keeping a secret. She says it's a selfish request, for her to place such a heavy burden on herself, but what mattered to her back then upon accepting the reward is what has always mattered to her, and that's her family's happiness and safety. It wasn't just her loved one either, but for all the demons and cattle children. This girl truly has a heart of gold and demon god himself is left surprised. Of course I wish she didn't think she was being selfish since everyone did agree to follow her as their leader but aahh.. my poor girl.

Spoiling the very end now, but we dont get one last fullscore trio hug. Of course that upsets me since I thought it would've made such a perfect ending, but it makes sense now given how everyone's reunion with Emma happened. While their happiness and relief is completely understandable after searching two years and finally finding Emma, they overreact and this visibly freaks her out. Come on guys, last time I said to gently remind her of her past, not bombard her right away. Having a ton of strangers surround you and tell you such outlandish things is quite jarring. I'm glad she takes the chance to listen to everyone, but she just doesnt know these people well enough to suddenly hug them. I imagined a hug would've happened upon her recalling some of her memories somehow and feeling relived that she met the two boys she often once dreamt about, but oh well.

Norman takes this time to step in and ease some of the tension, saying how happy he is that Emma's alive and even reiterating some of the things he said to her during his shipment scene. While this chapter soon shows how well the escapees have adapted to the human world and changed, it also puts an emphasis on the boy's true personalities that they showed since the very beginning. I've already mentioned above how Ray stayed true to himself, about him being open and honest to the others with the truth and even his own feelings. With Norman, I don't know the word for him really, but his speech about their family and his feelings remind me of ch1/ep1 where we see him trying to calm Emma down after seeing what they did at the gate. He stayed by her side and remained hopeful even though he was just as scared. Right now, I get the same vibes. He's just as upset as their family upon learning Emma lost her memories, but he still wants her to be apart of their family.

Although it seems like a very rushed way of tying up loose ends, I'm happy to hear about how well the children have been adapting in the human world. They're attending school and following their passions. They all look so happy! The entire Lambda crew is healthy and Cislo even has a prosthetic leg! The medicine made from Adam's dna was successful and also helped those children from the mass production farms. Mike Ratri and the clan are actually being helpful and trustworthy. I absolutely love Norman's comment about Ayshe not killing him! It really makes me smile and I assume that means she's forgiven him.. maybe. Her dogs were indeed able to cross over to the human world too and now there's even more! Chris is finally awake! They seriously have to fill the poor boy in on so much news though.

I get it. It took the entire story for me to understand but now I get Norman's intense feelings. He's been infatuated by this girl since childhood. He told us/Ray his feelings at age 11 then "gave his life" to give her a better chance at survival. He kept living just for the slight possibly to see her again. After almost two years, they reunite, only for about a week or two before they all cross over into the human world and Emma is no where to be seen. Another two years pass and while they all find her, she's almost a completely difference person. Yet Norman's feelings remain so sincere for her that he accepts this new Emma. He lets her know that the bright future she wished for came true. (me? speaking of noremma? even im surprised)

Her head might not have the slightest idea who these people are, but her heart surely remembers! Emma's feelings for her family were so strong that they persisted throughout these entire two years, even after she stopped having those dreams about them. Deep down, and without even realizing it, she loves them so much that it makes her cry.

“Why am I... Even though I don't know them. Though I don't know anything. Though I can't remember. Why... Does it feel warm, but also so painful in my heart? I wanted to see you.”

Seeing everyone else get emotional and expressing their feelings to her right back and having all of them accept this new Emma.. yeah, that has me in tears! Demon god truly underestimated these kids and how deep their love for each other went. Emma's family was never going to give up looking for her because, thanks to her influence, they also didn't believe anything was impossible. “Screw destiny” indeed! (also we never did learn the old dude's name or Emma's new one hm? odd.)

Did Emma get her memories back? No. Did Ray pat her head again so I could die from nostalgia? No, because I'm still here. Did we get a fullscore hug like I originally hoped? No, sadly. The ending isn't picture perfect but honestly, this is still okay. Our precious girl is finally reunited with her family again. Most importantly, they're alive. The trio are teenagers about 15/16 years old now, which amazing since they once believed they wouldn't see a day past the age of 12. Yet here they are, living happy and free in the human world without fear and killing, which is exactly what Emma wished for.

I can't believe the manga is truly finished. It feels like it all went by so quick, but perhaps that's only because I haven't been in the fandom as long as others, like if you've been here since the manga started then I applaud you and can't imagine how sad this must be after four years. The anime is what caught my attention and my love for this series only grew when I jumped into the manga right after season one ended. I must have binged all available chapters at the time in like three days, all the way up to ch129. Since then I've waited patiently week after week to see how this suspenseful story would pan out for out lovable and very large cast of characters. Each new twist and cliffhanger made my brain crazy and stressed me out but it was so great to experience them with everyone.

Also, big thanks to all of you who share your comments on these reviews of mine! Even though I started writing them pretty late into the story and at the most stressful time, it was great to hear so much feedback and experience the exciting finish with everyone. The manga may have ended, but don't let that make the fandom quiet! We still have future manga volume releases to look forward to, the live-action movie that is still set for this December along with a live-action series that was also recently announced. Most importantly, season two of the anime is still scheduled for January 2021! You can bet I'll do reactions for each episode as I normally do with other anime! The series still has so much more content to give us, especially if the anime continues to recieve future seasons over the upcoming years, so of course I'll give my thoughts on all that I can.

I give all my thanks and appreciation to Shirai & Demizu for such a wonderful and suspenseful story, for all the memorable characters and the stunning artwork. The series has truly become my favorite. That's right, I said it! My favorite. TPN has taken over Black Lagoon as my favorite series. (Revy can still keep her spot as my favorite character but I'll be damned if Ray isn't a really really close second.)

[dirt-str1der]

TELL US MORE ABOUT 2BJEB.... NOW!!!

YOU GUYS ARE INSATIABLE okay i have said all this before or idk i dont remember but the first thing you need to know about dr christoff is that hes literally gay and trans and he beats up people who say shit like christians hate gays because he literally has anger issues and also a strong sense of justice (messiah complex) which is a really amazing combination of traits to have in a gigantic man because he will fucking come at you if youre a bitch but if youre getting bullied god knows he will send someone flying for you youre fucking welcome also stop crying its unsightly. Jebster is extremely hotheaded and full of himself as you all knew already, he likes to think of himself as a guardian of sorts, and keep people from digging too deep and unleashing horrors beyond their wildest imaginations re: him keeping the keystone fragment out of undesirable hands

2BDamned on the flipside is nevadas first homosexual bicycle , he is also extremely transsexual and can unlock your secret gay thoughts just by looking at you. This isnt very relevant but just know that hes kind of a big deal. Hes in love with the unspeakable and extremely hungry for knowledge, and is perhaps the only person sensible enough to use it correctly unlike bozos such as the employers or director phobos. 2b never loses because he always plays for both sides (re: guess who revived both both jeb and the sheriff LOL and guess whos been reviving hank) , hes no stranger to unlikely / tentative alliances because he knows what people want and knows how to give it to them or at least how to help them get it. In this manner hes been almost singlehandedly puppeteering his side of nevada (SQs name has a lot of weight), when an incident occurs if docs not directly involved he’d still find a way to Know about it. His network is expansive and his goals are kind of sinister

Anyway with docs control freak tendencies and jeb’s self appointed role of nevada’s “saviour” its no wonder they find each other repulsive. Jeb’s been somewhat traumatised after seeing what dictators tend to become after achieving ‘godhood’ and he knows that 2b has no intention of letting sleeping dogs lie once he gets his hands on that power. Doc is Extremely frustrated at the fact that jeb could be a very useful piece on the board if he would. Just. Listen. For ONCE, but noooo because hes convinced himself that 2b is the worst evil ever hes never going to listen to him unless hes absolutely sure hes not being used , which is never. So they circle each other endlessly, jeb wanting to trust doc but knowing he cant and 2b having to play 5D chess to get jeb to do whate he wants anyway. Go figure

Also they have sex sometimes. This is the curse of being a gay man pushing sixty (most virile age range) youre going to meet the most annoying person in the world and then realise theyre irresistibly sexy. Disclaimer: I <3 toxic relationships. Jebs so dramatic about it too, hes always like i cant believe im doing this with you , people our age would have settled down by now and 2bs like (smoking afterglow blunt) if thats your way of asking me out youre going to have to try harder. Also 2b is jeb’s T dealer if i forgot to mention that earlier , jeb doesnt want to buy from anyone else because again he has no friends and would like to pretend that he and doc are friends

[brelione]

Barry as A Father

Request by @popeheywards​

If it were anyone else he wouldve just ignored the situation and pretended it didnt exist

But because it was you he was willing to change his life and stay around

“I swear to god-what the fuck-no,no-nope!Out!Away from the area!Smoke in the air-Im not gonna be responsible for that kid growing eight arms!”He shouted, holding his blunt far back.

“What are you doing?You cant drink that!”He took the mug of coffee away from you. “I read that you cant have caffeine when pregnant-I wont allow this on my porch.”He shook his head.

He was pretty bummed about the no sex rule but then you reminded him that you could still give him blow jobs

Him holding your hair when you’re vomiting

He’s got a bag ready for the hospital

Clothes, phone chargers, snacks, tissues

My mans is ready

But then the time comes that your water breaks and all hell breaks loose

It doesnt help that Rafe is over

“OH MY GOD ITS LEAKING-RAFE GET OUT GET OUT GET OUT!” “OH MY GOD!”He was freaking out.You were just standing there, staring at him.

He grabbed the bag and got you into the car, forgetting the way to the hospital

“LEFT OR RIGHT?”He shouted. “LEFT!”You shouted back, tugging at your hair.

“MOVE OUT OF THE WAY!”he shouted, pulling you along. “Sir-sir-sir!I understand-theres no need to shout.”The woman at the front desk sighed, having you put into a wheelchair. “IF WE DONT HURRY UP HE’S GONNA FALL OUT!”He shouted, following into the delivery room.

They ask if he wants to cut the umbilical cord and its a no from him

With his shaky ass hands????

He’s just glad its over

His hand is all bruised from you squeezing it so hard

Forehead kisses once they’ve taken the baby to get cleaned off

His heart stops when you’re holding the baby, his eyes widening

This was real life

He’s sitting in the chair next to the bed, about to cry

He’s staring at the baby, trying to figure out what part of face looked like his

He had Barry’s nose for sure

He’s absolutely terrified to hold the baby because he’s positive he’s gonna drop it

But then hes holding the baby and its insane.He kisses his forehead, watching it blink.He never thought he’d get this far in life that he’d have a baby and a wonderful girlfriend.

You have to stay in the hospital for a week because it took so long to pick a name for the boy

And Rafe makes an appearance at the hospital because he’s grown close to you during your pregnancy

Thats how he had been paying Barry for the past nine months.Baby clothes, diapers, formula, pacifiers, bottles, a crib and toys.

He pretty much moves into your house so that he can spend as much time with Gio as possible

Giovanni Jonathan Well wasnt exactly what you thought you’d be naming your first child but thats just how things happened

Barry was really good at changing diapers in the middle of the night

It was annoying but he knew how exhausted you were from giving birth

He only went to the trailer for work and would only be gone for a little bit

He had a shit ton of money from his work, now having people call him on a work phone to plan when they’d be coming over so that it didnt interfere with the baby’s schedule.

The two of you trying to teach G.J colors but always getting distracted by other things

Barry started crying when he learned how to walk

He spent a long time in the bedroom with G.J one morning, trying to teach him

“Can you saw mama?”Barry asked, eyes widening when G.J repeated the word, some drool sliding down his chin as he said it

He ran out into the kitchen with G.J at his hip

“Say it again, G.”Barry grinned when his son repeated the word, seeing the big smile on your face.

Sitting in the living room and watching Disney+ with G.J

“Captain Merica!”G.J giggled, pointing to the tv.

Somehow Rafe ended up bonding with the baby, becoming ‘uncle Rafe’ really quick

He’d stay with G.J when you and Barry went grocery shopping or out to get coffee

He was that one dad that took photos at every possible moments

If G.J was eating he had to take a picture

If G.J was playing with legos he had to take a picture

Once G.J can finally be in school you and Barry are both sad but also kind of relieved that you can finally get a break

He can aslo fuck you without risking waking up G.J

And you can be as loud as you want

Picking up G.J from school and helping him with his homework

Its usually just a coloring page but sometimes he’ll have to circle a word or two

Barry makes sure to help G.J in every way that he can, making sure that he feels loved because Barry had ✨daddy issues✨

You and Barry forming your own system where you go grocery shopping on wednesdays, he picks up G.J on mondays, wednesdays and fridays and only does his work at night

Never letting G.J find out what Barry does

Family Beach days

“Giovanni Jonathan Well- you will get sunburned if you dont put on sunscreen.”Barry warned, handing him the bottle.

G.J’s hair was long and dark like Barry’s and whenever he crossed his arms or scratched his nose he looked exactly like Barry

You and G.J making fun of Barry’s reading glasses

When G.J was twelve you became pregnant again, sighing as you stared at the test.

“BARRY!”You shouted from the bathroom. “YEAH?”He shouted back, putting down his book and waiting for you to answer. “IM PREGNANT!”You shouted back, flushing the toilet.He sighed, smacking himself in the face with his palm. “AGAIN?”He asked.

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When he's alone, Coomer has panic attacks about him and everything else outside of Black Mesa not being real, but he doesn't want anybody (or any-Bubby, huhuhuhuhuh) to know about it. Bubby sees Coomer having a particularly bad panic attack, and tries to calm him down, but he's not the best when it comes to comforting others, so he makes Coomer a bonfire. All is good.

hdjdhsks ;_;

maybe its the first panic attack he has post resonance cascade. coomers tryin to process everything suddenly being Real or at least somewhat Real and its freaking him the hell out, bc he Knows what he saw, or at least Didn't See, so how the hell are they still here and how are they somewhere else???when 'somewhere else' shouldn't exist??? the panic attack is probably triggered by walking past a mirror or smthn and like. actually seeing his reflection. not just a shitty video game texture - a Reflection. and the juxtaposition of things being Real and things being Not Real freaks him the hell out and hes Instantly in panic mode. vertigo and dizzy and cant breathe, etc. a Really bad panic attack.

bubby cant comfort worth sHIT like he tries but its. pretty hard. hes good at comforting when ppl are like, bummed out, bc his blunt kinda-rude advice often provides a weird sense of comfort n guidance. but w panic attacks n shit??? dude has NO IDEA how to deal with his OWN panic attacks so comforting others during their own??? YEAH that's not gonna happen.

coomer probably asks to be alone tho, more of a plead if anything bc even tho bubby doesnt know how to comfort he also doesnt wanna Leave coomer alone. dudes hyperventilating on the floor, cant even stand up. but coomers Pleading eventually turns into Yelling, he Cant have ppl around rn its WAY too overwhelming WAY too fucked up, his brain CANNOT handle any of ths rn. bubby eventually does leave (hating Every second of it but coomer will be Fine. dude has a killcount somewhere in the triple digits, he can make it thru a panic attack)

abt half an hour later bubby approaches coomer again, and hes a lot more calm, if anything hes just very weepy at this point. kinda teary eyed n soft n NEEDING ppl around now that his brain stopped screaming at him. he kinda shakily makes it to hs feet n gives bubby a hug (th best post panic attack bear hug he could give!) and apologizes for yelling. and bubby probs scoffs at that like No Dont Apologize I Do Not Care Its Okay. adn he rlly doesn't care like bubbys got a thick skin if anything he feels more bad that he didn't really know exactly what to Do. besides, when coomer told him 2 go away it gave bubby time to go 2 th store n grab Smores Supplies™ adn he made a makeshift bonefire in the backyard. its just a good night of burnt smores, coomer remembering WHY he didnt eat marshmallows (melted marshmallow in mustache hell). bubby may not be good at directly comforting but hes really good at distractions n helping ppl get their mind off the things that are bothering thm.

after that tho i like 2 think bubby does research on panic attacks n shit. he KNOWS about them like from a scientific standpoint he knows what was put in the knowledge tubes™ in his brain but how to help someone thru them??? fuckn. no clue. wikihow How To Comfort People Pls Help I Am Socially Awkward..... DHSJSJS its just,,, bubby care moments,,

[faerielleart]

GIRL GGFJFJVGDJD OK UMMM let me see... what do you like about levihan? or do you have any unpopular opinions? or headcanons!

oh boi i hope i won’t rant too much, i don’t want this answer to be a thousand miles long i don’t want to seem boring-

OKAY let’s start

What i like about levihan: i have to start with a lil background a say that levihan is my longest ship i’ve ever had, it’s the only one who survived time and the only ship i have never stopped shipping/lost interest into, which is kinda rare for me since i switch interests a lot and go through hyper-fixations, so i tend to lose interest quickly in something once i’ve found something else to pay attention to

this, however has never happened with levihan: started shipping them when i was 12, still trash 7 years later skdjdjfjf i didnt start shipping them for special reasons tho, at the time aot was my first ever still on air anime and i was completel new to the community, plus i didnt really speak english well and the first episodes i watched confused me A LOT. However, amidst all that confusion and trying to remember names and plot points, episode 9 came, i got introduced to this character who apparently is named levi, the first information the scene gives the watcher is “this guy is a grump” based on his reaction to the crowd, the second information the scene gives to the watcher is “this person next to him, despite him being a grump, isn’t afraid to tease the shit out of him and we still don’t even know their name” which i found ??? Cool??? I immediately paid attention to this lil dynamic, then the next scene was the hairgrab scene and,,,,,, yeah my 12 year old braincells went into overdrive and i was completely sold

i just needed them to interact once and BOOM

but OBJECTIVELY i still find extremely telling, years later, how these were the first informations of these characters. In a narrative, character’s introduction is absolutely crucial to the story, you can understand millions of things just by the way a character is presented and says their first lines and honestly choosing to introduce levi and hanji together was imho very, very telling of what role they’d play in the story/what role they play in each other’s lives.

isn’t it strange that the very first infirmation we get of these two is that the grumpy one is okay with this person teasing him? that means there’s gotta be a level of familiarity among them, right? and the hairgrab? requested by isayama himself? in the official book of season one it also says that the scene was added to “show their relationship”??? i mean 2+2 is 4 where i’m from 👁👄👁✨

so yeah my dumb 12 year old brain had FORESIGHT apparently-

as i picked up the manga and read through the uprising (and got older and my english got better) i noticed more and more things about them and i just really freaking fell in love with their relationship okay it wasn’t “oh cool grumpy and sunshine who teases him”, more like “holy fuck grumpy has a sad backstory, seems unapproachable but is the kindest person ever, just wants to be a hero and save everyone, has the most tender heart, sunshine is a multi dimensional character who has fears and doubts and they work so well together despite being polar opposites but at the same time their oppositeness results in somehow them being completely in sync with each other and almost thinking with the same brain as if they were one person split in half”.

since they’re grown adults and they’re so close, their relationship has something that i always seek and almost never find in other ships, which is emotional maturity. You never see them purposely tearing each other down just to hurt the other, they work out their problems and C O M M U N I C A T E ✨ they don’t act childishly around each other, they tease and bicker but it’s completely different than full blown arguments where both parts disrespect the other just to prove their point. They are willing to listen to what the other has to say and their judgment is precious and welcomed, since the basis of their relationship is complete trust. levi is rough with words, but he means something else entirely despite what he conveys, as seen during the aftermath of eren’s first hardening experiments, and hanji totally understands what he wants to say, which is why they never reprimand him or take offense to what he says.

what i’m trying to say, i believe in a way that nothing is half-assed about how they were written in the story as a pair, despite how i disagree with certain narrative choices *ahem*; as much as i would have wanted them to have more screentime and more interactions, i believe it wouldn’t have been “in character”, lemme explain because i realize it sounds weird and my wording probably doesn’t help: their relationship is subtle and as such it should remain subtle and in the subtext, simply because it is none of our business as readers. Show, not tell, but show in a way that it is evident only if you pay attention. levi is blunt when he speaks, but at the same time his words have another meaning than what he conveys and his actions are subtle.

isn’t it obvious with how often it was remarked that the only person who is able to understand levi completely is hanji? and this is where chapter 132 comes into play with this amazing analysis post that i’m sure we all read a thousand times and screamed over it

all this “ambiguity”, all this subtlety, all this subtext, all this wordplay, words that have more than one meaning, i believe are all indicators of one thing: us readers are not able to understand comple what levi wants to say and his words result ambiguous to us and not 100% clear, simply because the readers are not hanji. but fortunately, i believe that hanji understood that levi too wants to “stay in the forest”. this is not the reaction of someone who is confused by a sentence, this is the face of someone who finally had a realization:

what kind of realization? it’s not up to us to know (tho we know *wink wink*), because we’re not hanji and we can’t understand what levi says.

plus, 心臓を捧げよ, “dedicate your heart”, can hold a million different meanings. 心臓 is heart, を is a particle that denotes the object, 捧げよ is the verb “to offer, dedicate, devote, sacrifice”, there are no adjectives that indicate possession as you can see; levi using his own left (not right) fist and placing it on hanji’s chest instead of just taking hanji’s hand and placing it on their chest is ambiguous too. i interpet it in different ways but the conclusion is one, and i can’t honestly see it in any other way. one of the interpretations i like the most is that levi is implying that they both share the same heart, which is why he used his own left hand, meaning that both of them are dedicating their hearts in that moment to humanity, because they are actively choosing to put their desires aside to live a peaceful life away from everything (as jean too has wished in chapter 127, as hanji has expressed in 126 but in 127 too and jean seems taken aback by their confession) since they’re soldiers and duty comes first.

so yeah if i have to choose something i love the most about levihan, it’s gotta be the subtlety and the ambiguity that at the end of the day, is absolutely not ambiguous at all. everything is expressed for a reason, if an author actively chooses ambiguity, in this specific case of a relationship, he intends the result not to be ambiguous. it sounds like a brain fart but i blame it on my inability to articulate my thoughts well, i hope what i want to say can be understood 😭 and in a way, this can be considered as an unpopular opinion i think?

meaning that i get that commonly someone might want an explicit declaration that leaves no room to doubt and I honestly wish for it too, but I don’t think it would be in character, and the ambiguity (if we can call it that, i’m calling it that just to avoid backlash and controversy jshfsjdjmd) in this case speaks enough volumes to me considering both of the characters we’re dealing with, the story as a whole, the interactions with other characters.

ALSO going back to their bond, i want to copypaste something i posted on twitter regarding chapter 126 and the blush: it doesn't make sense, character-wise, for Hanji to feel in any way embarassed around Levi. They have no filters whatsoever around each other. They are close, closer than anyone in the series, the author hasn't shown any embarassment between them. Back in Uprising, when Hanji was hesitant and wanted out, Levi was the one who encouraged them. So, this thing has in a way already happened, since back then they admitted to wanting to abandon responsibilities to Levi's face and didn't blush. So, in 126's context, it doesn't really make sense for Hanji to blush "only because they were embarassed at being caught wanting to run away". It happened once already and there was no blush. So yeah, the blush means something else. And that something else is definitely much, much, MUCH deeper than "embarassment". 🙌

since smartpass stories can absolutely be taken as part of the canon universe as they’re supervised and approved by isayama and published with the manga, i am adding the rain story as further proof of what kind of relationship they have. also levi being a 30 year old tsundere is adorable but movING ON

SO YEAH MY FINAL TWO CENTS ARE : i love everything about levihan and there isn’t a single thing i would change, because wanting aot to be a huge slice of life of them doing the most random things just to watch them interact doesnt count sjdjfjdjdjfjsmdm, my unpopular opinion is that i find the subtlety and the ambiguity KEY to doing justice to what they have because it’s none of us readers’ business because only they are able to understand each other and i fucking LOVE that, my headcanon is that they totally kissed once during the timeskip, maybe on the first anniversary of the battle of shiganshina, i see them not being able to sleep alone and finding comfort in each other and in a moment of weakness and vulnerability they kiss, but pretend it never happened because things are messy and they can’t afford to get involved because again, duty first, but the YEARNING™️ and the PINING™️ only intensifies after that, but they manage not to make things awkward and they are close as ever.

my GOD i rewrote the odyssey, sorry 😭