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peachyfnaf · 20 hours

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haven't exactly watched the show in over a month but hearing what's going on. It's like everyone in it wants to ignore moon's health, plus fans just acting like he should die because of this.

he needs help first and foremost. not like a second death

FOR REAL- THAT'S PRETTY MUCH WHAT'S HAPPENING. EVERYTHING IS GOING WRONG AND NOT IN A FUN WAY, NOT ANYMORE. Not to mention that ever since his hallucination of Solar, Moon has been acting so incredibly out of character it's legit frustrating me. Hell, everyone's been out of character. He would not fucking say that. She would not fucking say that. None of them would fucking say that.

Imma use this ask as an excuse to rant about things that are making me Peeved now lmao.

First off, HERE'S THE THING, some people want this version of Moon to die rn? That, I get. I understand. Because this Moon fucking sucks. This Moon is so out of character compared to the one from like a month ago. He's acting like a villain about to twirl his damn oily mustache all like "I need to kill Ruin and Bloodmoon muahaha!1!". WHICH I COULD JUSTIFY IF HE WAS DOING IT FOR THE SAKE OF HIS FAMILY/DUE TO SHITTY MENTAL HEALTH. BUT NO. HE'S DOING IT OUT OF PRIDE AND THE SELFISH WANT FOR DEATH. HE'S NOT EVEN DOING IT FOR SOLAR ANYMORE.

And that just makes NO FUCKING SENSE because not only was New Moon's whole thing that he was going to be better, literally THE ONLY THING OLD MOON WANTED HIM TO DO WAS TO KEEP THE FAMILY SAFE AND HAPPY. AND NEW MOON IS DOING THE EXACT OPPOSITE OF THAT. I'm so upset rn jdkfhdsf

And then not to mention the way the other's are treating him- Sun is off my shitlist as of today due to the crisis he's having because, for some reason, the choice to whether or not we're killing New Moon is solely in his hands??? Wack. But. Earth and Lunar. Earth and Lunar. I'm not favorable to them right now at all. Earth, according to her, is supposed to be good at reading/understanding people, if not a "therapist". She should understand that Moon said what he said out of a place of fear, anger, ect. Not from his heart. She has every right for it to have hurt her, but for her to basically disown him? Also wack. The only thing I like about her rn is how she seemingly crushed Bm like a bug lmao. And Lunar? God, Lunar was just so unnecessarily bitchy to Moon in that one ""heart to heart"" episode. That "Fuck him!" pissed me off so very much. Dude, that is your brother who is going into a mental spiral over the death of someone he loved. That is your brother. Wack as hell.

AND not to MENTION everything going on w/ Monty- I literally love them 90% of the time but them deciding to NOT LISTEN TO PUPPET when she told them to NOT RESCUE EARTH ALONE literally made me sigh in frustration/disappointment. That is the one thing, the ONE THING she told them not to do. And Monty did it anyways. And Puppet is a MULTIDIMENSIONAL BEING WITH POWERS/ABILITIES/MAGIC FAR BEYOND ANYTHING MONTY COULD UNDERSTAND, AND THE ONLY THING SHE ASKED FOR MONTY TO DO, WAS FOR MONTY TO TRUST HER. And they Didn't. They didn't trust her, and they went alone, and now they're paying the price. Sighs.

No one is talking to each other. There's too much happening at once, aka the story is so bloated. This arc simultaneously feels too rushed and too slow. I'm so fucking salty. And now I'm gonna go eat food and draw sdkfjhds

#ty for this ask harper it gave me an excuse to Rant SKDJFHFDS #tsams #the sun and moon show #tlaes #the lunar and earth show #tmgafs #the montgomery gator and foxy show #yappin about smtn tag #and im gonna make a New tag for when i am salty/angry in case peeps wanna block it lmao #the duck is seasoned. (salty)#< there we go. i think im funny. fkjhdsf

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starbuck · 2 years

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by far my WORST ~mental illness symptom~ is being unreasonably sensitive about being reprimanded for something i didn’t do… someone will make a general criticism aimed at no one in particular and my brain is like “i don’t do that” and i have to be like “okay, so they’re not talking about you” and my brain’s like “no, you don’t understand, i DON’T do that!! how dare they say that??????” and i’m like “okay, but some people do do that and they’re allowed to make that criticism” and my brain’s like “but i DON’T, tho!!!!!!! why do they want me to die???????” and i’m like “YOU LITERALLY AGREE WITH THIS POINT, WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?????????????”

#hate it hate it HATE it!!!!!!!!!!#cuz it makes me hostile towards people and opinions i agree with #this is my gut reaction to soooooooooo many things #luckily i’m aware of it so i know to take a few hours to disengage and let it run its course rather than blowing up at people over nothing #EVENTUALLY i come around and calm down #but it just sucks that it happens at all… it’s very frustrating #this goes back to childhood… it’s awful #and i don’t think there’s any way to make it stop… i just have to be aware of it and manage it as best i can #if i let it have its way it would have torn apart every single friendship i have by now #that’s how bad it is #and logically i KNOW how stupid and immature it is - but i very honestly can’t control it #i mean. i can control what i do with it (which is sit it in the corner for time out until it calms down)#but i can’t make it Not Happen just because i know it’s stupid #it’s not me #it’s the other me #that’s when the distinction between ‘me’ and ‘my brain’ is so helpful #we’re different people

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strawberrygiorno · 1 year

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if there's one piece of advice i want to give to people playing disco elysium for the first time it's to not worry too much about passing all the skill checks. yes, succeeding at them is great. but also, sometimes failing the check gets you the better result. sometimes it doesn't matter much if you pass or fail, things will continue in more or less the same way. sometimes the game will have mercy on you if you fail the same check multiple times and give you a new way out. one of the great things about this game is that failure is often just as rewarding as success, so seriously, don't worry about it.

#disco elysium #brought on by me watching a let's play and getting frustrated that the player is playing very safe #embrace the failure it's part of the experience #sometimes failing a check sucks but even then it'll still give you some neat dialogue at least #u can learn a lot by failing checks #it's usually at LEAST funny #literally like the only check i ever savescum on is the one to get kim to dance #bc i have read all the dialogue that happens if u fail that and i can't call him a slur. i just can't.#but i still think the dialogue after that failure is worth reading

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girl-bateman · 19 days

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One of those nights again where I try to remember things and gets facts in order while my brain hurts because of how much it wants me to stop

#cant sleep 👎#also im googeling the same symptoms over and over again even tho i know its gonna be the same results every time #like doing more research will somehow magically change anything #i think the most frustrating part is the not knowing #bc that means im not really entitled to anything im feeling ? and that im basically just overreacting for fun #i was very upset for a moment bc my parents neglected me growing up but i mean..#if i dont remember or know that anything bad happened bc of that neglect. well then do i even have the right to be upset ?#it feels like accusing them of a crime i was never witness to. just to create drama or something #but from the bottom of my heart! its not like that at all! i truly feel very bad and im just trying to make sense of that feeling #i used to say it was a good thing that i cant remember so much of my past. bc you know. the brain protects u for a reason #but now i don't know ?#not knowing if there are legitimate reasons for my weirdness or if im just being crazy sucks ass #feeling like i can't trust my own reality always has me unnerved #i miss being happy and carefree🥲 i think deep down i knew something like this might happen. i should have never compromised my peace #but now here we are 🤷‍♀️

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plinkcat-gif · 8 months

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when i voice my discomfort brought on by something related to my neurodivergency (overstimulation, headache brought on by specific thing) or my allergies i need everyone to understand that it’s either relatable or funny

#i’m so sick of one of my friends being like ‘oooh i’m so sorry man :(‘ like idk me too. but i live with it every day idc anymore #like i am very self aware. i know what’s happening to me and why and i don’t need pity for it i need to make light of it #it’s just like ok. how do i even respond to that #i think i would appreciate more like ’ouch dude. smth similar happens to me when’ or like #‘damn that sucks. that’s so fucking funny that your body does that tho lol’#this person is also like a huge people pleaser tho lol. a lot of their behaviors irk me #like we’re still besties it won’t change that and i have voiced my frustrations with them but they’re not bad enough to impact our rship at #all lol #OK. that’s all

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running-in-the-dark · 3 months

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got a new hard drive (had to, no space left 😔), so I'm using that as a reason to completely reorganise my files (mostly shows, movies etc)

I'm having such a good time 💖

#not sarcasm! it's so fun #the only thing that sucks is that I managed to break sonarr somehow. didn't touch a thing but okay sure #I'll figure it out #I've got to wait for a couple cables that we had to order anyway before I can start moving stuff around #I've been sooo frustrated with how chaotic everything has been so this is gonna be great #but yeah I've had to delete so much stuff already (not at all because I've been downloading too much John Larroquette stuff or anything...#😬😬)#and I've been complaining about it every day so my husband bought me a new hard drive 🙈#still not enough space but it'll do for now #I always think 'oh I'm not a data hoarder! I don't have nearly as much stuff as those guys on reddit or wherever!' but like. it's not #because I don't WANT to save all of it #I only have *checks* 16 TB now with the new hard drive. I'd absolutely get a bunch of 20 TB ones if I could but no instead I spend money on #dumb shit lol #anyway yay I can stop deleting movies! very exciting #lol if anything I'm a hard drive hoarder.... I've got 7 internal ones and 3 external ones now.#yeah I just add new ones and don't remove any #I don't even wanna say it because I'll jinx it but. I've never had a hard drive fail. in over 20 years of having computers. I'm scared it's #gonna happen but 🤷 so far it hasn't lol #well one external one started failing but it went gradually not all at once. so I was able to move everything off of it first #and I mean I have backups of everything that's important! but not any of the media stuff 😬 it wouldn't be awful but it'd definitely make me #sad because I'm sure there's things there's that I couldn't find anymore #personal

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spacedoutwitch · 6 months

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Day 16: Chains and Swift. While I was struggling for ideas, I actually did get to this yesterday and just forgot to post it. But, uh, today was busy, in a way that resulted in a Really Bad Brain Time, so. Probably gonna be another batch update tomorrow. See you then.

#Some Kinda Nonsense #Honestly my brain is STILL having a bad time #Very frustrating #And it's not even for a logical reason!!! I got good news!!! I should be excited about it!!!#Where the frick is all the panic coming from!!! Aaaaaa!!!!!#Double sucks because I really wanted to get to today's prompts soon #PEAK TMA inspiration #Finally can get myself to draw the newest blorbos as dragons #But no!! Gotta feel nauseated and shaky and bad!!! Why am I not excited!!!! Why does this happen!!!!#AND it's the start of multiple events on sites I like #Can't have fun with those either because brain is too BEES >:(#Ughhhhh #It'll be fine probably I just gotta Yell in my own tags

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scoutpologist · 4 months

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really need to start taking a multivitamin again i think that would do me a lot of good

#op #tw ed talk in tags (i guess???)#i can eat like. very limited things atm without feeling gross and nauseous #not sure if it's an aut//ism thing or if i'm developing ar/fid but even food i used to like is down the drain #like pasta? not unless it's slathered in cheese. couscous? nope not at all.#even fucking mashed potatoes like bro.#a lot of fast food is good to me but i can't get fast food constantly #and my ad/hd meds make it so i'm Not eating enough every day. like not nearly enough #it's upsetting frankly i never considered that this could happen to me worse than it already was but it is. which sucks #wish i could be normal and just eat whatever and had the energy to prepare food but i don't #i'm so frustrated esp because i can't afford to lose any weight i really really can't i'm already really fucking small #if anything i'd love to gain a bit. but i can't. it SUCKS

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liauditore · 5 months

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hey! saw your post and just wanted to say that I'm getting much better at art and a large part is due to being inspired by u and other mcyt artists to improve every day. Thank you <3

SAME!! other fandom artists have inspired me so much truly, there's an unfathomable amount of talent amongst us fr. i need a little bit of friendly competition to keep me going.

and oughkfhlkgf me????? thank you so much im glad my art can make you want to draw😭😭 this is so sweet im going to explode <3 <3 <3 im working hard at getting better rn so let's all improve together 💪

#asks #for the record im okay with like. ppl expressing frustration or negativity for their own art skills.#it's a bummer but it happens to all of us (im especially prone to it).#it's when ppl especially beginner and younger artists do it with no self awareness that bothers me. like. we all feel like that man.#and what are you expecting me to do?? my options become either being all like nooo your art is good noooo 🥺🥺🫶#or being like. yeah your art sucks and i hate it #both of which feel very gross #< sorry for tacking that onto ur very sweet message i thought i'd just elaborate #negativity is ok!! we all get frustrated!!#it's when people say oh your art is so good it makes me wanna rip mine apart im just like????????

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theresa-of-liechtenstein · 7 months

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when i knocked on my conductor’s office door this afternoon she yelled ‘COME IN’ but it was locked so i imagine her reaction upon opening the door was probably something like ‘who left this upset and trembling chihuahua on my doorstep? oh, it’s just em.’

#conductor reading my thank you email before i told her what happened: oh she’s adorable!#conductor looking at me after the spring concert party: oh she’s traumatized!#like. at what point should i just accept that i probably have PTSD from what happened at my last group.#it’s been four years and it still affects my personal and professional relationships #to such a point where i’m just [gestures with disgust at self]#ugh i suck. but i will not hear a single bad word against my conductor. i owe her so much #it’s just. last year i didn’t feel anything bc i was too busy learning how to coexist in an orchestra again #and also i had a layer of stands to hide behind #i had very little one on one interaction with her #now it’s like i talk to her all the time #i’m sitting right in front of her. looking her right in the face #i’m feeding off her energy trying to translate her gestures into music #and all the fear comes screaming back even though i Know. objectively. i am safe #there’s so much disconnect bc i feel frustrated bc i think my fear is preventing me from being the best i can be #there are so many places in the rep this year where the seconds are very prominently featured #and every rehearsal she says we can come out more #so everyone is just following the lead of this scared little creature who still has #part of their mind stuck at sixteen crying in a corner at the vienna konzerthaus #we can come out more. dolce. dolcissimo. I KNOW. GIRL I KNOW. I KNOW I CAN READ THE FUCKING PART #ITS JJST ME THATS THE PROBLEM #but other than that she seems. so happy with me. she’s always telling me to keep up the good work #like sure it’s good work but it doesn’t feel like my Best work #and i want to give her my Best work because #fuck it she helped give me back my smile #just like how my violin teacher helped give me back my smile #so of COURSE i want to give them my Best! it’s the least i can do!#anyways. what a fucking day #em jumped up busker #music is about love #<- for journaling

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opens-up-4-nobody · 9 months

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#hmm its been an interesting week i suppose #very busy in a good way. but that is always how it starts. i make myself so busy and it feels good and then i wobble and fall out of my body #so im feeling wary. also bc ive been under sleeping more than ususal but im not really tired but im also not boiling out of my skin with #energy. i just feel ok. so thats good. but also a demon in the back of my head is always like: then stay up all night. lets see how far we #can push this. which is not good. and in fact ive been proscribed like basically emergency mood stablizers to knock me out if i start like #losing my mind and not sleeping lol. bc i dont wanna b getting ready for something big and like completely unavailable to control my #ability to think. and ive also been proscribed birth control to get a handke on my fucked up hormones. so we'll see if that makes things #less all over the place. hopefully it works bc im so busy i kinda dont have time to like freak thr fuck out #but i am a lil apprehensive bc like i can count on my hormones to make me feel things when a lot of the time i dont have much emotional #range. so its like fuck finally i can cry abt this. or like fuck this is so beautiful. but then i also cant function sometimes #so i guess i just gotta see what happens. sigh. also the typical frustrating in having to read so much. like ppl hear im dyslexic and r like #oh do u want accommodation? like literally wtf r u gonna do to help me as a grad student? it just takes an agonizing amount of time to #understand thing. i have my computer read to me and i suffer. theres literally nothing else to b done abt it. and fucking next week i have #to teach a fucking lab abt reading scientific papers. they have to read a paper in class. fuck off. those r the types of exercises that make #me feel so fucking stupid. like do this thing right now. read it right here and answer questions abt it. and i fucking read it and retain #fucking nothing. im fucking 26 and literally in my grant writing class i have to apologize to every person before i give them feedback like #lol sorry i can barely fucking read. i fucking cant understand language. its fine but it sucks. theres nothing to do abt it. it just makes #me mad i have to teach a class that would have made me cry as an undergrad. so ill prob hold their hands thru it more than the other TAs #will. bc fuck u im not making them read a whole fucking paper in class. fuck u #plus the frustration of not being able to express myself well in thr moments. like theres a delay in my brain so i feel so dumb when im #trying to convey myself off the top of my head. like give me time and ill write it all out for u i just cant actually process wtf ur saying #to me. also i probably spaced out for a sec so i missed part of the convo lol. frustrating but at this point its just how it is. it makes me #more empathetic when i have to teach i guess. like listen ive got all kinds of fucking learning probs i just wanna help u learn something #how can i help? fucking dyslexia. god. i dont wanna prep for class this weekend. ive gotta show up like yea i kno reading papers is hard at #first but it gets easier! fuck u. its worth the suffering if i enjoy to topic but its always suffering. but thats what i get for going into #academia. thr dr who proscribed me stuff was like well sounds like u have a stress trigger and ur a phd student where life is stress... u #gotta figure out whats gonna work for u. sometimes thats a career change. not in like a pushy way just like: if what u do makes u suffer #then wtf r u doing? and hes got a point. but in contrast to what i was doing this is a massive improvement #well see if its manageable. ugh. i just wanna draw #unrelated

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patronsaint-prometheus · 10 months

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I love having autism until I infodump about something and then I just hear “why do you keep bringing that up when you know none of us give a shit?” on repeat in the back of my head for the rest of time.

#so frustrating that it happened with digimon too. I ALREADY feel dumb about liking it ok I didn’t need the double whammy #like I KNOW the comment was made years ago but it’s soooooo frustrating. I cannot stop fuckin thinking about it ever #I rant abt my interest anyway dont get me wrong.#it doesn’t STOP me from talking. nothing does I’m very loud. but it does suck all the enjoyment out of it very fast #bec now to infodump at all I gotta go into it thinking ‘it doesn’t matter if they don’t care. might as well just get the thought out’#like. ACK. NO. i WANTED someone to care. yk? I wanted someone to acknowledge that I was running my mouth off in the corner somewhere #but now even when they do it just feels like. idk checking off a box. like ah yes when Marley rants I send a quick response #after sending my response I can check off that I’ve done my task n this is over. like feeding a pet in the morning n then leaving 4 work #I know this is entirely in my head btw. but whatever #I’m gonna go back to looking at digimon images now

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grasslandgirl · 2 years

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