#but its hard to decide what to do at ehat time

[ijjstlostthegame]

Hobby (ggrey JD drabble)

Floyd is honestly amazed by his brother's work, genuinly hes impressed, building a bunker this big and efficient mustve been hard and took lots of dedication, he is absolutely enamoured by the functionality of this place

But also very annoyed

Dont get him wrong this place is amazing, but boy is it buikt like a maze, he has no idea wgere hes going half the time

And right now hes been looking for his eldest brother for half an hour to no avail.

He hasbt seen John all day and he just wanted to check on him but now hes considering giving up and waiting for his brother to just show up naturally from wherever he is.

That is of course until he found hinsekf passing by a slightly ajar door with light emmitting from it, and the sound of humming could be heard.

"found you" he said to himsekf before approaching the door and knocking on it, manners always come first of course.

The humming ceases and floyd heard shifting inside before JD emerged from the other side, his brother looked surprised to see him at the door.

"Floyd? What are you doing here? I thought you were hanging out with branch today" John asks.

"yeah, well Branch went with clay to introduce him to princess Poppy, you know" he answered with a sly smirk on his face that his older brother read clearly as hesmirked back at him.

"i see i see" John says with a smirk, then they just stand there in silence for a good 5 seconda that felt longer, John clears his throat nervously.

"well... Woukd you like to come in?" he asks sounding unsure of himself, floyd smiles at the invitation, he really never had that much time to hang out with his brother alone.

"sure!" he replies, "if you don't mind of course"

"no no itd fine, i dont mind" JD replies, a nervous edge to his voice that Floyd doesnt miss.

John gets out of the way and bak into the room so floyd could enter.

"this is my workshop" JD says as floyd follows behind him, "I make stuff here"

Floyd looked around in mesmerisation, the workshop had a lot of things, a lot of tools and materials, an abstract painting here and there, but what caught his breath was the amount of wooden sculptures that sat on shelves covering the walls

He never knew John had a knack for carving wood, these sculptures were amazing he resisted the urge of just grabbing one and keepingbit forever

"i never knew you could do this" Floyd says looking back at his brother who wad sat infront of a station, focusing on what Floyd assumes is another work or project ofhis brother's.

"yeah, its something i picked up to pass the time" JD answers as Floyd gets closer to see what he's working on, "i started with carving lots of wooden stakes" JD explains as he points to a big pile of stakes discarded in the corner, "but a year ago i decided that maybe feeding into my paranoia isn't the best option so i stopped doing that and started carvibg otger things" he does ome finishing touches and lifts a tiny figure of Floyd, a younger Floyd and hands it over to his brother, "then thatjust spiraled into all of this" he finishes gesturing towards the room.

Floyd inspects the little younger him in his hands in awe.

"woah... Its so detailed, this is amazing"

John smikes warmly at the compliment before taking back the little Floyd so he can finish his work.

"thanks, i got a good reference i guess" he says pointing to a picture frane on top of the desk, it was a picture of him and all of his brothers togerher, well... All of them excoet for John...

Floyd stares at the picture for a bit, maybe a long time, as he swears that he has an exact copy of said picture with John Dory standing at the far right, but here he just seems to be... Removed from it, Floyd spares one concerned glance at his brother before clearing his throat.

"well ehat are you working on right now?"

John doesnt look up from his work, completely concentrated.

"I'm making a sculpture of all the family together in the past" John answers, Floyd smiles about to ask more before he was cut off by john, "this is the final pieace and I'll be done"

Floyd's smile drops

Cause JD saying that Floyd's figure is the last pieaxe means that nothing more will be added after it, abd looking down on the actual thing, there seems to be a lack of John Dory in there.

Which is stupid cause JD said that hes making the whole family, but hes excluding himself.

Again.

Floyd looks back at the picture frame before getting a determined look on his face.

"Can you teach me?" he asks and John pauses, seeming thrown for a loop.

"what?"

"teach me! This hobby seems very fun i wanna have a try at it" he pushes on abd John stares back at him in surprise.

He looks surprised that Floyd wanted to spend more time with him

Floyd was about to speak again but a small smile cracks on JD's face.

"You want me to teach you?" John asks the smike growing, "I mean- yeah! Sure I'll teach you", Floyd thinks that this is the first time hes heard JD so excited in years.

John gets up and brings more would and another chair and set it next to him.

Floyd sat down and the lesson began

While he was doing that he also found himself falling into conversations with his brother, getting to know him more, it was fun, really fun

And at the end of the day, a new figure of Floyd's making was added to John's little project, a smalk figure of his eldest brother smiling and standing right there with them, as it always shoukd be

[onmymasa22]

U know what im doing? Im making a decision to the next decision. Thats it. Thats all i can do. One decision to the next. I decided to go to art school. It brought me great friemds and learning about myself and growth. Enoah brought me passion for old people with special needs. I dated guys, i stopped dating guys. Just one decision to the next. I just go with it. Thats my theory. I cant jusge ur decisions, so stop judging mine.

Just make a decision to the next decision.

Do things that way.

Stop being so ypughe. Ur hurting, its obvious. But what if fhe ppl around u were hurting just like u. What majes u think u were the only one who was hurting. Everyone is hurting, maybe more than u, maybe less than u. Ur nor the judge tho. U have no idea ehats going on in other pples lives. But u deserve kindness wnd they

Ill be like a real person in the world. Have an apartment i can live in year round. Be apart of everything. Do everything.

Why is it that when u have adhd, growing up ur way more mature than everyone ur age, and yet when u grow up, ur way less mature than everyone ur age...

Really cute story on how my parents met before actually meeting:

My mom went to Neve Jerusalem in the early 80s. She saw an article for the "brother school" to Neve, Ohr Sameach in 1983 and kept it. Exactly 10 years later, she was set up with my dad, they fell madly in love in three dates, and got married. When my mom moved her crap from New York City to Chicago, my father opened a box and saw this article and picture. He showed it to my mom and was like "look!" She was like "oh my gosh, those are guys from Ohr Sameach, do you know any of them?" My dad was shocked and he said "that's me in the middle!" So yah, my mom held onto a photo of my dad ten years before they met in real life... crazy.

Something i wish i couldve told younger me: thanks to your adhd, right now u are way more mature than kids ur age, ur spending so much energy on just trying to be normal and not bother anyone, so having friends is difficult. When you become an adult, though, u will be way less mature than people ur age. And that isnt an insult. Once you know and accept who u r, you will be just a sequin of a girl. You will forever be young in your heart and mind. And that will attract the best people and the best experiences. So for now, know it can be hard, but u will live an extraordinary life.

I just wanted to tell u, u asked me what changed from the forst year to right then at the end of the third year. And i have a better answer now. At the end of the first year, our teacher meir applefeld gave us an assignment to draw.

Hi, sorry this might be a megillah, but i just need to get it all out. At the end of this past year, shai azulai spoke to us. He asked us to do a drawing and i finished quickly and so he came over and talked to me for a few minutes till others finished. He asked me what i felt my first year vs how i fekt now. I didnt really know what to answer other than that in the first year, everything was new. At the end of this past year, i dont know why, but ive become obsessed with painting trees. Rachel keeny gave us a watercolor class and i had a hard time in the etching class with dalia, and i was emotional and started painting lines and then just started painting trees from my mind with black ink. I remember in the first year, u asked us to make a landscape. It felt impossible. I thought- ask me to draw an apple that i have infront of me, awesome, a table, fine. But ask me to draw something from my mind, to completely make it up? I had no idea how, and i was scared of my own mind. But two years later, its not as scary. So this painting waited two years. I think i just wasnt ready. I needed more time to bake. But now, im a day or two from finishing

I feel sad. I feel like the whole world is spreading negative energy. I feel negative myself

Maybe today ill just paint trees.

Cuz thats wyat ill do when im sad.

Ill paint trees.

If you're crying today, you are not alone.

If you're saddned today, you are not alone.

If you feel numb to the pain today, you are not alone.

If you feel relief today that these people aren't suffering anymore, you are not alone.

If you're going to a funeral, you are not alone.

If it's too much for you to be at a funeral and you just need to hug yourself today, you are not alone.

If today your life goes on pause and you are having trouble doing anything, you are not alone.

If you smile and laugh and live your best life today because you need to, you are not alone.

[ellie-says-nop]

Although it's been about 8 years since my attempt, 8 years that I decided to stay, I still have no life plan. 3 years ago I sort of started living again. I went back to university, I made friends, I went to therapy, I came out to a lot of people, i worked on my relationship with God, i started doing something, working towards something.

Now I feel lost again..

I mean I wasn't feeling amazing, I was going to therapy twice a week... but I had I guess hope..

That what I am feeling.. fuck..

I'm feeling hopeless...

I don't feel like I'll ever be happy, I'll be in a relationship, I'll never be able to come out, I'll never be able to just enjoy life, I'll never be able to just be me, I'll never get to experience romance, I'll never be able to experience someone wanting me, I'll never be able to just be.

And I thought ibwas ok with that.. but I guess not... recently it's becoming more clear that I won't be able to get away from that.. not without hurting my family.. and I can't do that.. its the whole reason I stayed... if I hurt them anyways ehat was the fucking point?

So it's hard to not bury myself in a pile of fanfic, not to completely fixate of on a dumb fictional couple to forget how hopeless I feel.. even though I still feel it.. constantly and idk what to do... there is nothing I can do to change the situation..

No amount of putting myself out there is going to make me actually try for a relationship bc I don't think I'll follow though.. bc I'll hurt my family if I do... I've seen it with all my siblings... there's no amout of self acceptance to make me come out.. my mom cried bc I said I wanted to look for a suit for men bc I couldn't find a suit for my brothers wedding. She didn't mind me wearing a suit but she cried when I said I was going to look at the men's suits...

I cant move out bc we can't pay for our apartment without my income.

My parents can't move back home since my dad was just diagnosed with cancer (it's the first time I acknowledge or say it)

Someone has to take care of them and that is the reason I stayed to not be a burden and help.

So yeah

I'm tired

[loopynal]

How about the yandere Bakugou Izuku and Shouto with a laidback darling like “oh you kidnapped me that’s cool want some pizza?”

Ouuuuuu <3333

Good request! All of the characters will be aged up! They are all pro hero’s!

My request box is still open so feel free to send in anything <3

Enjoy~

Warnings ⚠️ occasional explicit content, yandere, Kiddnaping.

If you’re uncomfortable with any of theses topics please scroll past

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How would yandere bnha boys react to a laidback darling.

Bakugo, Katsuki

He kidnapped you because you don’t know how to take care of yourself.

Your a college student, finials are a coming up, so, you had pulled a couple of all-nighters.

You may have over estimated your ability to stay awake.

3 days straight, barely eating, and when you did it was either coffee or a quick junk snack.

As always he was stalking watching over you, to make sure you’re safe, how could he not? You’re just too soft for this world.

He wasn’t totally sure but you looked like you hadn’t slept at all in the past few days.

And he could practically see how malnourished you were!

He was growing angrier by the second you can’t even take care of yourself!

You put school and your grades above everything, even your health.

He couldn’t have that.

So, on your way home when you ran straight into his chest he held you firmly against him, pressing a rag over your face.

Honestly, he probably didn’t even need the chloroform, you were so malnourished and sleep deprived that you practically passed out from the shock immediately.

He prepared for you to struggle, cry, scream, punch, kick, fight, anything.

But when you woke up, you only asked for your textbooks?

He refused you saying that you wouldn’t need them anymore, he could easily provide for the both of you.

He again, expected you to protest.

“Huh? But what about my collage debt?”

That’s what you’re concerned about?

He laughed saying he already paid them off.

The two of you had met when he was in his last year at U.A. your school had done a week long exchange program.

It didn’t take long for you to consume his every thought.

You two grew close very quickly in your short time there and even exchanged numbers.

The two of you still kept in contact.

He finally asked.

“Why aren’t you scared?”

You tilted your head at him confused.

“Why would I be? I mean- I trust you. Sure you were a bit forceful but... we’re friends right?”

You just solidifyed his obsession.

Honestly, you just vibe the whole day. No school, no tests, no work.

Plus Katsukis cooking is to die for!

He buys you anything you want considering how well behaved you are.

If you ask for anything electronic he takes off any form of communication apps just in case.

Since your so well behaved if you ask nice enough he’ll take you on walks around the local park.

If you’re ever lonely if you ask enough he’ll buy you a pet as long as you don’t give them more attention then him.

He’s never letting you go, but it doesn’t seem like you mind too much.

Midoriya, Izuku

He would ‘save’ you the second your in any type of danger.

You had been a fan of his since his debut, almost immediately going out to buy a pair of DEKU™️ themed shoes.

You met him on the train on your daily commute to work almost a year after his debut.

You still had the same shoes, now paired with a deku themed hoodie.

You died and went to heaven when he took a seat next to you.

You took a double take.

He sensed your nervousness and tilted his head to look over at you.

His eyes lit up when he saw his merch on such a pretty girl.

“Hi there! I like your shoes!”

You looked like you were overheating at this point.

“Hi! Ah thank you~”

He had to hold himself back from gushing about how cute you were.

The two of you chatted more and slowly you got more comfortable around him.

So when you informed him that your stop would be coming up in a few seconds he quickly wrote his number down and slipped it into your bag without you noticing.

You caught his interst.

Izuku couldn’t get you off his mind the rest of the day so when he got a text from you around lunch he was ecstatic!

The relationship bloomed from there.

He knew your schedule by heart.

Which means he knew how late you worked and that you walked home.

He always tried to get you to take the train or a more popular road but you never listened.

He got off of work early today and decided to admire you from the shadows on your walk home.

He would be forever glad he was there that day.

You were jumped by a group of men and neither of you wanted to know what would have happened if he wasn’t there.

He didn’t even bother knocking you out he just took you to his apartment dropped you on his bed locked all the doors and left to go ‘take care’ of the low life’s who thought they could mess with what’s his.

It was almost morning by the time he got back to his apartment he took a deep breath and held it excepting to run at him or scream.

When he opened the door he was instead met with soft breathing.

There you were, as beautiful as ever snuggling into his pillow in his shirt.

He almost came his pants as his eyes traveled you body.

He had to physically stop himself and instead went to go take a shower.

You didn’t even question anything, you just asked if you could grab some of your stuff from your old apartment.

He was over the moon.

The whole day he would just be clinging to your side as you grabbed anything you needed from your old apartment.

Takes you out on a bunch of mini dates in the park.

The public is obsessed With your relationship.

Anything you want you got it immediately.

Need to go clothes shopping? On it.

A new phone? On its way.

Craving chocolate? Already in the kitchen.

HE SPOILS YOU SM.

Please pay him back in cuddles.

He melts.

Knows exactly what you want even before you do.

He gives you the most freedom but don’t take it for granted.

Todoroki, Shoto

He would strike out of jealousy.

You had been invited out to a local bar by a couple of your colleagues at work.

You agreed naturally.

You had worked under Shoto as an assistant for years now and yet, you only ever had eyes for him.

He didn’t care at first when you went out he would be watching the whole time so there’s no risk of you getting hurt.

What he didn’t expect was for you to willingly go off with a drunk stranger.

The man had talked to you for a bit before asking if you wanted to go somewhere warmer as the bar was quite cold.

You were too gullible for this cruel world.

One of the reasons he fell so hard for you.

So he followed the two of you, his rage building with each step.

When he saw the same man pin you against the cold brick wall of an ally way he snapped.

“That’s not how you treat a lady. Why don’t you let her go and we can do this the easy way?”

The man couldn’t tell who he was from the shadows and even if he could he was too drunk off his ass to make the right decision.

“Heh? Ehat could you do about it ‘eirdo besides tfhis little lady an’ I were just having a some fun.”

Shoto let flames erupt off of his body in waves once he had you behind him and safe.

The man wa slept burnt half to death and left to die in the snow.

When he had you back to his apartment you were to dazed to protest as he tied you to the head bord.

Not that you would’ve.

Almost a week passed.

He still hadn’t untied you out of paranoia. He would feed you and make sure you drank enough water. 

You thought you were going to die of boredom.

But you need him to trust you right?

When your ropes came undone and slipped off when he left you almost cried.

Would he be mad?

So you spent the next few hours trying to tie yourself back up.

You had started to cry out of frustration not hearing the man enter the room.

“Y/n? What are you doing?”

You looked at him with a face similar to ‘🥺’ and ‘😭’

“Th-the roAps c-came undone when you left and- and- and I couldn’t get them back on.”

He almost melted from happiness.

He regretted leaving you tied up for the past week.

Constant snuggles.

Lots of love.

Would be the most hesioto let you outside.

Just give him puppy dog eyes and you can get at least a half an hour at the park.

KISS HIS SCAR KISS HIS SCAR KISS HI-

This boy is touch starved and constantly needy.

Could never yell at you especially when your this well behaved.

He loves you more than anything and you know that, so what’s the point in running if you love him just as much?

[hughiecampbelle]

Vanish (Steve Rogers Oneshot)

Character/s: Steve

Word Count: 1,148

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A/N: 1.) I love him 2.) He looks very smexy in that gif 3.) I'm just writing for therapy I guess. It's not my best, but it's as good as its gonna get for the time being. School is killing me and idk, things have been lonely. It's frustrating and I feel stupid for both feeling all this and letting it get to me, y'know? Anyways, I quite like the storyline. I hope you like it too, and if you're feeling the same way, know that I'm always here if you wanna talk or vent or whatever you need :) Feedback is always appreciated 💜💖💜

Summary: No one understands why you did what you did except Steve

Gif Credit: @theavengers :)

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The job, the life, the take with little give, it tore you apart. Limb by limb, piece by piece, until there was nothing left to hold, to stand, to be. Nothing left. The cemeteries of others left for you to hold, to keep, to care. Flowers and rocks atop headstones. Never enough. Always demanding more. The city, the world, a cat stuck in a tree. Watching others wear their uniform with pride, with the ease and awe you could only dream of. A sense of grace, a caution with their words, an effortless way of existing. Why was it so hard for you? When had the Cape become so heavy? The flashing lights so blinding? The right thing so wrong? Slandered, overlooked, dragged through the mud. Your steps too quick, too slow, your decisions that not of a real hero, your motives questioned, your intelligence questioned, your entire fucking existence questioned.

No one could ever be proud. No one could ever say a goddamn thank you.

No wonder you turned out the way you did. Your name a joke in the media, the headlines, between the ones you called family. Up and left. Disappeared. Nothing, not even a note. As if you were never there in the first place. It was better this way. You wouldn't have to drag out your apologies, burden everyone by calling them in, or telling each of them the same story over and over again. You wouldn't be questioned, or guilted, or face any anger. Sometimes it was better to go into shock. Let the adrenaline take over. Numb their wounds, their hurt, their pain. Let them think and say what they wanted, you wouldn't be around to hear it. Abandoning your duties, your teammates, the entire world. You were at your breaking point, drowning demands, in expectations you did your best to live up to. But your best wasn't good enough. It never was. Sometimes it was better to live in ignorance, in bliss. They'd get to you eventually. Word would spread. You'd be turned into a villain. There'd be interviews, and press conferences, and a global search for the one who abandoned their post.

Let them waste their time, their breath, their effort, the same way you did.

He knew. He knew before it happened. The faraway look in your glazed eyes. The hesitation. The second thought. The flinching. He didn't know what it was, though. The tone in your voice unrecognizable, your words of someone else. You hadn't just lost those pieces of yourself, they'd been crushed, absolutely destroyed. You were giving up, caving in, believing what it was everyone was saying. And then, you were gone. A ghost. Expecting to see you as he turned a corner, catching himself wanting to call your name, ask you for advice, for help, for everything. Glancing at an empty doorway, swearing you were standing there, saying something that'd surely make him laugh. Instead there was nothing. The absence of something. The regret, the grief, the frustration at himself for not putting the pieces together. You spoke without words. Always had. A language he was still learning. Complicated, and delicate, the art of saying so much in silences, in unease and avoidance. He tried, he really did.

But he couldn't stop you. And he couldn't stop them.

Civilians like vultures, tearing your image apart. Media stars slandering you because there was no one else to stand up for you. Your good name shattered, bursting at the seams. Inside, and outside. You'd expected the push back. He hadn't. The rage, the annoyance, the name calling. Rash. Impulsive. Stupid. That's when they were being nice. Horrified you'd turn your back on them, never questioning why. This wasn't the easiest way to live, to exist. He'd thought about it a lot, but what else was there for him? Who else could he be if not a super soldier? You, though, you had options, you had wants and needs outside of a catchy alias and a photo opportunity. You were young, you had your life ahead of you. It'd be a damn shame if you let it go to waste. He fought with them as best he dould, hush their disgust, the disgrace, reminding them not too long ago they turned to you, called you one of their own, saved them more times than they were allowed to forget. Bitterness and blood on his tongue, he was tired of biting it all back. Couldn't they see they were part of the problem? They were falling into the same habits that made you want to scream?

He hoped you were happier there than you were here.

And you were. You were at ease now, at peace, choosing a path for yourself instead of following one that'd been laid out. No more secrets, no more lies, no more lives in your hands. You had one life to live, you weren't going to waste it being miserable. Going where you wanted, being who you wanted, nothing to hold you back. The urge to reach out never quite dulled, not even after all these years. You missed them more and more every day that passed. A call, a text, showing up out of nowhere. With ehat, though? An explination, an apology,ban awkward hug? Maybe too much time had passed, maybe you weren't allowed to call them your family anymore. To them, you were a stranger, but you never stopped thinking about them, keeping up with all their triumphs. Across each screen there'd be another report of the man with his shield or an iron suit saving the day. There seemed to be a new member with every report. Eventually, they forgotten all about you. The media, then, you assumed, the team, your name nothing more than a reminder that even if you played the part well, it didn't mean you were a real superhero. Let them think what they want, there was no use in changing their minds.

As far as you were concerned, you were the best of the best.

Sometimes he caught you in the faces of strangers, the acts of others, the smallest of details. He still looked for you, wondering where you were, where you'd gone, who you were now. You'd look different, of course, but maybe nothing had changed after all. Maybe he'd catch you there, like he hoped he would every time, in the doorway looking in, saying something that'd make him laugh. He still expected you next to him, across from him, in his life. If there was a way to contact you, he never pushed it. Let you come back your own way, on your own time, if you decided to ay all. That wasn't his choice to make. He'd never push you the way they did. He couldn't. You'd finally done something for yourself, he'd never do anything to ruin that freedom.

[billwillkilldill-blog]

We found Jane Marchingburg. Kind of.

I decided to tell the group my motive. My motive being to find Jane Marchingburg, my coworker. She was last seen on Sandust on a mission to try to collect intel on Sandbirds. Her last recorded words were "These damn Sandbirds are everywhere."

We were fueled up and Watər was unlocked so she could go anywhere. Rolema overheard our plans to go to Sandmoon and invited herself to join. She said that she was a great mechanic and can be a sort of "on deck" helper. She wanted nothing in return so we decided that it would be of no harm to have her come along. We went the next day. Rolema then did something we didn't think of before. She put her hand into the scanner. Watər knows her name and her behavioral patterns. Us three were hesitant to do so at first but we did. Wiffles results came back normal. My results came back normal. The scanner could not pick up Noctis at all. She detected something in the scanner but she could not read it as she is unable to read specific text. Noctis didn't seem surprised but he didn't seem like he expected this either. The rest of the ride went off without a hitch.

Once we arrived to Sandust, Rolema revealed something to us. Something I wish she would have told us sooner. She is blind but can see the future. She has been relying on muscle memory her whole life. It gets easy when you've lived in the same place for who knows how long. She says she was born with the ability to see the river of our future branch off to different streams. Usually they all ended up converging together again- a common outcome. She did not see any common outcome. Instead, all of the rivers flew in and out of each other. Their waters turned rough and unpredictable. Only one stream made it out of the mess but Rolema could not track that stream. She discouraged us from going onto dustmoon but that didn't stop us because Wiffle said something smart.

He said that the very fact that there even IS an outward stream meant that we had to leave these rough waters eventually. Time only moves one way. He also pointed out that its much better that the rivers intersect because it meant we could choose a different path. Rolema was touched and decided to let us go. She stayed on the ship to see if she could upgrade Watər in any way. Us three put on our suits and stepped onto Sandust.

There were holes into the ground everywhere. Large, gaping manholes dug deep into the planets core. For now, us three didn't care because I was the only one who wanted to be there and the pitfalls were not my business. For the next hour or so, we just walked across the sand wasteland while talking. Wiffle really likes horses. Like, he LOVES horses. Look, I am no man to judge but horses? He's clinically insane. Horses. Jeez.

We walked for a while more before we noticed something off. Sandust is the only planet other than earth that has alien life, sandbirds? Thats what they're called I think. Whatever they're called, there were no aliens on Sandust. We figured that they were just on the other side of this small, small moon. They weren't. However, we did find a Scarsac patented shipwreck site. Most of it was singed or bent in a hideous manner. Everything about it was a mess and I hated seeing a piece of equipment from MY company tarnished and in ruin. Jane was one of the best pilots we had so how did this happen? We even accounted for the Sandbirds and how thry would interfere! Why did Jane fail? I just don't understand!

Whatever. We searched the ship only to find out that everything, electronics included, were either missing or trashed. It almost hurt me to see what had become of this small piece of the company. At least Wiffle was there to comfort me with his insane ramblings. I find comfort in his cracky but deep voice. Noctis noticed something that we didn't, however. He noticed that some electronic components seemed to be ripped out by something but others are just gone. The NavComp was taken out. Jane may be a pilot but she's no good at disassembling a ship. What the hell took the electronics out of our damn ship?!

Jane. Wr need to find Jane. We found Jane and she was in the tunnels. Thats what the holes were- they were entrances to tunnels. Jane looked scared and scrawny. Apparently, she dug the tunnels and ate the Sandbirds. Almost all of them were killed by her and the final 20 are in the tunnels being forced to breed. We brought her back to the ship and freed the final birds. She had ripped some machinery out of the ship to make light in her tunnels. She said that she just ripped all of it out. Oh, also apparently we can totally breathe on Sandust without a suit. We brought her to the ship but Wiffle and I had to pee. Rolema and Noctis both screamed. She was gone. We didn't see her anywhere. We kept looking and looking but she wasn't anywhere. When we came back to the ship, there was something there that hurt my head. It just gave everyone a headache. It was some sort of runic code, much like the one we saw. Why did she leave us?

We uh. We went to earth. We chilled for a few days and gathered our thoughts. There was no way that Jane could have just disappeared. I told Scarsac and they told me to find her. They also said that they'd be giving me more aid in my investigation. I haven't told them about Noctis or Wiffle. Rolema "unblocked" Watərs communication system. There was a lock on what Watər can and can't do that was placed manually.

There was something wrong with Rolema. She seemed bashful and shy. She called to the backroom where she told me something I won't forget.

She can see Mimicmoon.

She is the only one who can see mimicmoon. Of course, no one else has tried. I asked her ehat it looked like and she said it was hard to describe. A teal planet shattered into pieces, those pieces orbiting what remains of Mimicmoon. She then smiled right after. She then told me that everyone she tells immediately forgets the description she gave. She then called Noxtis and Wiffle in. She then told them the same thing with the same result. So this means that we're special somehow. I'm excited that I'm finally special. And now, we're headed to Mimicmoon.

I am so scared for Jane. I don't know where she is but I hope she's okay. I hope you're okay viewer. It's been a while.

Thank you.

[baekhvuns]

HAIIIU its alright😭😭 i turn off notifs on my phone for every single app HSHAHSHQHHHAHA if i do turn it on i would jot be able to finish a single task🤩 i get distracted easily😔😔 i also jus took a nap omg WHEN I GOT OUT OF BED MY BACK HAD A FIREWORJS SHOW🤩🤩🤩 and i didnt even sleep for that long😔 it was jus a short nap time😟😟

ALSO BLONDE SAN i feel like his hair is the opposute of his piechart hair from answer era like,, the pie chart part is black now,, and the rest of his hair is blonde idk dO u GET EHAT I MEAN😭😭

sanie always tries so hard to hide his hair color but end up failing every singke time I FEEL BAD😭😭 ESP THAT TIME WHEN HIS HAIR WAS PINK JEKDJQIXOKWDN ACCIDENTALLY REVEALED IT ON LIVE even though we alrdy kbew it was pink we just pretended to not know bcs san<33

WHJJSJSJJS NAH IM FINE NOW😭😭 HIGHKEY WANTED TO SHOUT AT HIM AND BARK BUT I AINT THAT BRAVE our house has a mall nearby like,, literally its behind out house and since the supermarket opens earlier than the rest of the mall i jus decided to go there HSHZHSHSH,, just for a pack of mentos😭😭😭 LMFAO THEN a worker suddenly talked to me bexkkwjxjw idk how to translate it to english bcs it has a completely diff meaning but it was disgusting BEKXKAKZKWKKS he also passed by me and bumped into me oN PURPOSE WKDOWKKD THE WALKWAY IS SO WIDE AND EMPTY WHY THE HELL R U SO CLOSE TO ME😭😭😭 yea that happend BUT I GOT MY MENTOS😀😀😀

i srsly should finish my homework😟 ill brb when i finish like at least 3 more😭😭😭 I AM ALSO FRUSTRATED BCS OUR TEACHER JUS TOLD US THAT SHES NOT GOING TO TELL US WHAT OUTPUTS AND TASKS WE DID NOT PASS OR ARE LACKING IN BCS WE ARE ALREADY GROWN UPS@,@*#*@*@ WHAT DOES THAT HAVE TO DO WITH OUT OUTPUTS😭😭 WE ARE NOT THE ONES THAT HAVE ACCESS TO UR RECORD BOOK@?!?!?!? what if we passed the output but she jus forgot to record it are we supposrd to know that too?@?@?@? i sWEARRR

NEWAYS I SAW AN ATINY YESTERDAY SAY THAT BLONDE WAS YUNHOS WORST HAIR COLOR@,,-*!*@*!*@ EXCUSE ME THAT WAS THE MOST GOLDEN RETRVIER YUNHK HAS EVER LOOKED AND I LOVE IT I CANT BEKIEVE NWSKAKSKQK ALTHOUGH THE RED HAIR IS ALSO NICE,,, I STILL THINJ BLONDE YUNHO BELONGS TO THE MUSEUM HAVE U SEEN HIS PRETTY CUTE FACE WHEN HE WAS MC-ING I FORGOT WHERE JEIXJS IT WAS WITH SOMI AND AN OH MY GIRL MEMBER I FORGOT😟

hope ur having a great day as always<3 stay safe and healthy ofc mwamwa ill brb uh idk when HSHSHHAHA but ill brb<33

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HIHI

HAIIIU its alright😭😭 i turn off notifs on my phone for every single app HSHAHSHQHHHAHA if i do turn it on i would jot be able to finish a single task🤩 i get distracted easily😔😔 i also jus took a nap omg WHEN I GOT OUT OF BED MY BACK HAD A FIREWORJS SHOW🤩🤩🤩 and i didnt even sleep for that long😔 it was jus a short nap time😟😟

BDANBDSNB ME TOO 😭😭😭 this was asked so long ago but i hope u had a nice ass nap bC I KNOW I DID ☺️☺️☺️ passed out for 3 hrs straight <3

ALSO BLONDE SAN i feel like his hair is the opposute of his piechart hair from answer era like,, the pie chart part is black now,, and the rest of his hair is blonde idk dO u GET EHAT I MEAN😭😭

HE IS FULLY BLOND kinda fried blond buT YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN DBDBDB I GET WHAT U MEAN

sanie always tries so hard to hide his hair color but end up failing every singke time I FEEL BAD😭😭 ESP THAT TIME WHEN HIS HAIR WAS PINK JEKDJQIXOKWDN ACCIDENTALLY REVEALED IT ON LIVE even though we alrdy kbew it was pink we just pretended to not know bcs san<33

FHWNDHSJ HE FR DOES 😭😭 LIKE BRO GIVE UP UR FANS WILL ZOOM INTO EVERY CORNER 😭😭😭😭 we all became jared 19 and never learnt how to see or read for san so many times <3 love to see the support atiny community has when it comes to pretending his hair colour is just black and nothing else ☺️☺️

WHJJSJSJJS NAH IM FINE NOW😭😭 HIGHKEY WANTED TO SHOUT AT HIM AND BARK BUT I AINT THAT BRAVE our house has a mall nearby like,, literally its behind out house and since the supermarket opens earlier than the rest of the mall i jus decided to go there HSHZHSHSH,, just for a pack of mentos😭😭😭 LMFAO THEN a worker suddenly talked to me bexkkwjxjw idk how to translate it to english bcs it has a completely diff meaning but it was disgusting BEKXKAKZKWKKS he also passed by me and bumped into me oN PURPOSE WKDOWKKD THE WALKWAY IS SO WIDE AND EMPTY WHY THE HELL R U SO CLOSE TO ME😭😭😭 yea that happend BUT I GOT MY MENTOS😀😀😀

BRUH THE CASHIER?????? SOCIAL DISTANCING BRO WHATSGOINGON ????? AT LEAST U GOT UR MENTOS fuck every one there 🔫🔫

i srsly should finish my homework😟 ill brb when i finis like at least 3 more😭😭😭 I AM ALSO FRUSTRATED BCS OUR TEACHER JUS TOLD US THAT SHES NOT GOING TO TELL US WHAT OUTPUTS AND TASKS WE DID NOT PASS OR ARE LACKING IN BCS WE ARE ALREADY GROWN UPS@,@*#*@*@ WHAT DOES THAT HAVE TO DO WITH OUT OUTPUTS😭😭 WE ARE NOT THE ONES THAT HAVE ACCESS TO UR RECORD BOOK@?!?!?!? what if we passed the output but she jus forgot to record it are we supposrd to know that too?@?@?@? i sWEARRR

FBWKFHSJHFSKFJSK UR LIFES SO CHAOTIC FJWJFHEK 😭😭😭😭 i love this front row seat to ur life absolutely <33333 BDANDBKS UR GONNA THROW HANDS AT THE TEACH

NEWAYS I SAW AN ATINY YESTERDAY SAY THAT BLONDE WAS YUNHOS WORST HAIR COLOR@,,-*!*@*!*@ EXCUSE ME THAT WAS THE MOST GOLDEN RETRVIER YUNHK HAS EVER LOOKED AND I LOVE IT I CANT BEKIEVE NWSKAKSKQK ALTHOUGH THE RED HAIR IS ALSO NICE,,, I STILL THINJ BLONDE YUNHO BELONGS TO THE MUSEUM HAVE U SEEN HIS PRETTY CUTE FACE WHEN HE WAS MC-ING I FORGOT WHERE JEIXJS IT WAS WITH SOMI AND AN OH MY GIRL MEMBER I FORGOT😟

YUNHOS WORST WAS BLOND????? HA.HA. WHAT A LIE SAURRY BLOMD YUNHO IS LITERALLY HIS BEST LOOK???? ATINYS bLiND NO FR HE BELONGS IN THE MUSEUMS + BLUE YUNHO TOO FBSBDBD HE LOOKS SO PRETTY WITH BLOND IT SUITS HIM SO WELL BLOND BELONGS TO HIM

hope ur having a great day as always<3 stay safe and healthy ofc mwamwa ill brb uh idk when HSHSHHAHA but ill brb<33

BDNABDN YOU TOO!!!! C U WHEN THE FIC DROPS 😭😭😭 IN MY ASKS TMR THENFBFN

[perfectionistincrisis]

Life these days!

Hmph :) So i have never..no let me write that in caps! So i have NEEEEVEEERRRRRRR (aha👌) felt this before. Like no, no its not cause i dont have a good vocabulary or something or like im not good with words or something, i mean those are not the reasons. But but i REALLY REALLY find it impossible to describe -IN WORDS- how much I feel for him. Like you know how somethings bugging you..Oh well everything bugs me.. And i DIEEE to tell him..But i cant🙃 So idk I just talk to myself maybe or like atleasr i have words i can use. But like those stuff are wordless. He means so much to mee.. And God!!!!!!! You have no idea how restless you feel when you have to keep such strong feelings suppressed within you! So normally I had some stuff to do. Like arranging my room, my clothes, my shoes, my stuff n all and i thought ill do them towards the end of vacation or in other words after my bro leaves which is like in 10 days but then i already feel like vacations ending. Now i dont mean that in a 'dramatic' way like you know, how your whole life every vaaction when its ending theres this sadness or happiness, well that depends. But like i mean there is some emotion you have towarss it and its like a "thing" like OH noo or oh yaaaayyy *dramatic* vacs almost over!!!!! Bleh -- yeah that ^ isnt there anymore. Cause like now im more of living life one day at a time. Like sure as hell i have plans/ dreams for future but when im 'living' a day at a time and you know that saying about how lifes a 'journey not a destination' - well ive been hearing it SO much since i was a kid. As in its such a mainstream quote that i just took it as something cheap and tacky w/o ever even realizing what it wants to say. I mean ok i do understand ehat it means but only now i can realize the 'depth' of it after experiencing life a bit. I think it means to say that life is ongoing, it will forever be until ofcourse we pass away. But like, then 'passing away' is the end point aka destination BUT nothing else before that is. So since passing away is certain we can ignore it and say that theres no 'destinatiom' in life. What we usually mistaken as destination are our 'dreams/ goals’ in life. But no, they are not destinations or end points. They are your targets. You want them, and yes you will adjust your life in order to focus and head towards your targets and youll be fighting for it and eventually you will reach it one day but. Your life will not end there. It does not end there. You keep living. New problems may come up. New targets will arise. So you see? Life is ongoing. May be these days youre living life but its not anywhere close to your dreams/ goals but BUTTTTT your life right now is also AS REAL as the life youre always picturing in your head. IT. IS. AS. REAL! so yeah life is ongoing. Its vacation now but yeah it wont be anymore and its not just the fact that it wont be vacation anymore but to add to that itll be SUPER hectic but yeah thats life and then before you know it therell be a vacation and then itll end and blaablaa. Life goes on!!!!! And you need to be okay with it and face anything that comes in your way with an open heart! I said face it. Means sometimes you need to accept, sometimes fight, sometimes struggle, sometimes cherish. Aha soooo ok lets get back to what i was sayin :3 Yeah so i mean its almost a month left, and for me i kind of feel like vac almost ending and i just dont really want to keep sruffs like cleaning and organisjng for the week before uni will start. So i did it this week. Also i kind of eat now. Like 'listen to my heartc typa eat. Like not apples and almonds and tea all day! So i also need to work out and so i decided this week i was going to focus on arranging my room, washing my scarves and all and my shoes and stuff and working out and eating and chilling. So well im not really done with it but its going ok. Also the reason i feel like vacation's almost over is because i finally came to know which 'rotation' i am going to start with in 4th year! So its like normally in 4th year there are 4 rotations. Surgery, Pediatrics, Internal Medicine and OB Gyne. So the females get the first 2 rotations that i mentioned above in semester 1 and the males get the last two. And in semester 2 females get last two and vice versa! Now within females/ males - you divide into 2 large groups. So 2 female groups - one starts semester 1 with surgery the other starts with peds. And similarly for males. So the whole batch is divided into 4 larges groups and at any time of the year all the 4 rotations are going on with different groups. Now lets talk about any ¼ group. So in that one group, theres roughly around 50 girls for example & they will start with lets say ‘surgery’. So now among those 50 girls, theyll need to make smaller groups of 5 members each so like 10 small groups of surgery. And now this 5 girls will be together for the whole rotation in the hospital. They go to see patients together. They meet the doctor together and everything. Only once a week there is ‘academic day’ on any specific day depending on your rotation and on that day all the 50 girls will have class at uni and like its a long day usually till 5 with many lectures by doctors. Aha so to summarize, that's how it all works! Now the thing is. People have preference. Like which rotation do you want to start with? Surgery or Peds? Haha Also, the thing is you dont get to decide! You just randomly form two big groups of equal number of girls and then they will assign a rotation randomly! But then people have preferences! Like some wants to start with surgery & some with peds. Now both has advantages & disadvantages! Surgery - ok this is hard! Its a fact, not my opinion! And it doesnt just end there! The doctors who teach surgery well let me rephrase..The “surgeons”! Well they're “surgeons” so they kind of expect you to know how everything works in the hospital right from Day 1 & they are less friendly, they teach less and expect you to know more! But if surgery is your 1st block how will you possibly know how things go in the hospital! So yeah you need to be alert always! Ok but the good side to starting with surgery is that since youre starting with it right after vacation youre all energetic and motivated and all and you can give it the attention and energy it really demands! But with time you seriously feel less motivated and its harder to study for uni! Well that is no excuse to slack off but then yeah in order to not slack off you need to work harder and harder! So thats the thing! Surgery is just easier to handle if started first but then the surgeons are the problem! Now peds. So yeah the things goods & bads of peds is the opposite of surgery! The doctors are extremely friendly and they teach but but peds is boring. Infact i personally hate peds and obgyne! So yeah! Now at first i wished i start with surgery but then with time I wanted peds. Cause like I really want to work hard for each and every block and so the timing of the rotation shouldnt matter! Whenever whatever comes, i have to face it and ace it! Simple as that. So if i start with peds I will also be able to start with friendly doctors and will have enough time to get to know how things work in the hospital rather than having surgeons who expect you to know everything on day 1! BUT BUT thats just my preference which switch from surgery to peds and anyways final say is not in my hands AND TO ADD TO THAT, more than what i preferred, i honestly left it more to Allah to give me whatever He thought was best for me. So like id say peds sounds good, but then I wouldnt like baaaaaadly want it and all like id be fine with either because im praying to Him to take care of it and help me through the entire path! Aha. So I got surgery! And i didnt feel bad even for a second. I mean. Oh surgery? Ok yeah cmon show me what you got!!!!!! :3 haha So yeah cause like now ik ill be starting eith surgery and then later peds. And like i mean just imagine like vacation started end of May and since then until beginning of this week youre completely clueless wth youll start the next year with and all is kinda confusing and then you finally know youll start with surgery. OHHHH! HOW COULD I MISSS THIS OUT. Like SURGERY!!! You GET IT????? Surgerys the REAL DEAL. i mean surgery is my thing. I never joined med school thinking ill be a ‘doctor’! I entered med school thinking ill be a ‘surgeon’ inshaAllah. AND it has never changed! So yeah! Now i never said it i think, but, i chose medicine because IN MY OPINION this is the most realistic way in which you are doing something for humanity which ultimately contributes to your religion i.e. to Allah and therefore for your own self for the Hereafter. I am aware that there are a zillion other ways to do so but i think this is number one on the list. Or if not 1 at least in the top 10! Now it doesnt end there. So first, i chose “medicine” for this reason. Now, yeah it doesnt end there. I want to be ‘involved enough’ in doing the job that i need to use to -use my own hands- to do so!!!! And thats nothing but surgery! Yeah! Thats basically what im about :):):) Aha okay so i started typing and then i keep talking talking talking and now idk what i wna say. Im all over the place looool Okayyy i need to go now! Just one thing i missed oh! Him. There's SO much of emotions stuck in me. SO Strong.. I dont think I have ever felt for him, or can ever feel for him AS MUCH AS I feel for him right now.. ❤