#but my flatmate literally just put in the gc

[hella1975]

ive looped yerushalayim by the miami boys choir and im FINALLY finishing unpacking my room this is a very very niche vibe but im enjoying it

[pretty--bitch]

Flatmate crisis

Literally i got moved from 3 flats this college year (by management) bc the first one flooded, the second one I got moved for my safety (from a male flatmate) and Im now in my third flat. I now have a therapist (bc of 2nd flat trauma) and It has brought back all the monsters that lived under my bed [Depression, Anxiety, Paranoia ect]. Up until last summer i had self diagnosed myself with bpd and avps. Truely because i had researched it and i could come up with 6 pages of "symptoms" that i relate to. Plus i know something is wrong. I have described my feelings and thoughts to my therapist and hopefully she can ease me mind on this subject. When i moved to Glasgow (100 miles away from my origin) I thought living away from home would be great! 😕 It has been the opposite of that. Having a bathroom which flooded into the bedroom, roommates that would steal a lot of my things that I was forced to put a bike lock on my cupboard, having 2 male roommates that wanted to "clean" the already spotless kitchen ~ basically move everything of mine out of it, bully and harrass me online and in real life. I reported them about 20 times and just a week before they were going to be moved, i had to be moved for my safety. And now.. Im in a flat with all girls, 2 had moved out the day before I moved in. They have a gc with them and the girls that moved out and i dont think there isnt a second in the day they arent messaging each other. Literally i feel like they cant talk to me bc they all bonded, like the kitchen looks like their kitchen? There is 2 other girls here apart from me and all i have in there is my fake flowers and its the messiest kitchen in the world. I cant even keep my food in there. If i kept my food in the cupboard id forgot about it bc of how messy the whole kitchen is. The fridge doesnt have actual different shelves for different people, the freezer is choc-a-block full and as someone who only eats frozen food for dinner this is a problem. But bc they cant talk to me, i feel like I cant talk to them😔. "why are you so distant" "why are you being horrible to the boys we are friends with" "why are you so hostile" "why do you stay in your room all the time" "why dont you keep your food in the cupboard" Like I can feel them trying to say it, but if they dont physically say it then they just give off the aura of it. I can just tell this is going to end up just as bad as the last 2 flats •