innocence’s goodbye - a s2 c!clingyduo poem
transcript:
broken toys and scratched up knees
bloody wounds and broken screams
little kids in big boy boots
big boy pants and big boy suits
hand in hand, schoolyard friends
standing watching the world end
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swap homes for bunkers and sticks for swords
days of play fighting now no more
scars that bandaids cannot fix
friendships that cannot persist
blood stained sneakers, eyes gone gray
fun new exciting games to play
like build-a-tower, lose-an-eye
betray-a-friend, time-to-die
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braceface, snotty nosed
little kids all alone
dark room, evil grin
let him go or let him in
playtime's over, whine and cry
time for innocence's goodbye!
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A Broken Compass (A C!Tubbo Poem)
It's a dreadful thing, A broken compass
The glass cracked and the needle sent spinning
It makes you want to cry, almost
The way you're reflected back in the shining surface covering it, splintered into multitudes as you watch the needle
Spinning, spinning, always spinning
It used to point north, then to home, then to your best friend
But now you're up north, your home is no more and your best friend was in exile
It's pretty, the glass
Shining like a bottle catching the sun
Shining like a star
Shining like fireworks
You consider prying the shards from it, making it into a weapon against your own small frame
But you never do, you only watch as the needle continues to spin
It's cold here, bitingly so
You used to live in a house with others
You remember that, with a dull ache in your very soul
You used to live many places with many people
People you used to love
But now all that's left is your compass, still spinning
It's outlasted the walls, the van and your family
You hope you never lose it, like how you'd hope to never lose a loved one
You don't have loved ones anymore
You had a lover once, for tax benefits of course
You had a son, who loved to draw and laugh
One is dead and has taken the other away, hiding him where you'll never find him
You think the world is ending, but your little compass is still spinning
You've lost the compass now, dropped it into lava by accident
You couldn't help it
You screamed and sobbed as it sank, melting into the magma in a cave deep underground
It doesn't spin anymore
But your mind does
Spinning, spinning
He comes to you, planning a home for the two of you
Somewhere safe
L'moonburg
It's sweet on your tongue, a promise that maybe something will turn out okay
But then the green-eyed monster comes
He doesn't look like a monster
You've heard he's beautiful
You don't believe it
You know beauty, flowers and sunlight
Blonde hair and a red and white shirt
Two toned skin and a soft smile, crown perched between horns
The green-eyed monster isn't beautiful, he only takes beauty
So you kill him
You kill the monster that destroyed so many things you loved
But he's brought back
So you do what you have to
You press the button
You hear sirens now
You know the world is ending now
Your head is spinning now
Spinning, spinning
Spinning like a broken compass
You think about the boy you've known for all your life, you think about your platonic husband
You think about your son
You hope, with a painful twist in your gut, that he'll be okay
Then everything goes dark
And you're broken
Like your compass
It's a dreadful thing, a broken compass.
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Silence / A C!Tubbo Poem
my best friend is friends with my killer my husband works with the man who allowed it my son eats eggs raw and my landlord cuts deals with god
I break down in the comfort of silence where sobs can echo through a lonely mansion
where my life always manages to come up short in small little ways to remind me of how little I’m worth
where I hide dead flowers and my rotting existence under the covers of a wide expansive lie
where my husband never seemed to find them but my son always does
I break down on a bed big enough for two but seemingly only fitting one. just one.
I lay down and let my tears soak into the mattress
I lay down and witness my body curl into itself collapse into the edges as if it's ready for an explosion in the making
I lay down and feel scared for the first time.
My best friend made amends with my killer but I seemingly cannot and my husband meets him on weekends. he crosses the street from time to time.
My husband works with the man who I trusted to stop it while I’m forced to look at him every day and pretend I don't see fireworks and pretend I don't want to blow him up with fireworks pretend I don't want him to blow up pretend I don’t pretend I don’t pretend I don’t
The door downstairs opens.
I hear him, my lovely him, call my name. I hear my son. They love me. They love me. I pull myself out of bed and dry raw tears with my sleeve; I love them. I cannot deny this. I can never run away. I love them. Wholly and truly. I hear them call my name downstairs.
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