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valoale · 8 months

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Do I really need this degree or should I just disregard the societal norms as we know and go off to live as a hermit

#im tired grandpa #WeLL tHaT’s JuSt ToO DaMn BaD #I’m doing one of my finals today and I’m too tired to even care #can’t stay awake no more #I need to sleep for a month maybe that’ll fix me #I’m desperate at this point #to be honest #AI is gonna replace me anyway so why bother #vee talks

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4ce-of-2pades · 5 months

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(Leo speaking to Hephaestus:)

Leo: I used to think I was creative. I used to think I was smart. I used to take pride in the things I invented. But it’s just you, isn’t it? Everything I’m good at, everything I like about myself, it’s just your powers I inherited. If I wasn’t your son, I wouldn’t be able to do any of this. I wouldn’t be good at anything.

Leo: I thought that I had earned this. That I had learned when my mom taught me about machines, that I had built my abilities myself. But it’s all just shortcuts and fakery. It’s just god magic. It’s not real. It’s not mine.

#like it’s one thing if your power is water attack or turn into bees or something inhuman #but I imagine a lot of demigods have crises like this one #with powers that enhance qualities they already had so they’ll never know who they would have been without a god making them ‘better’#like if Annabeth’s power is her intellegence? she can’t even take credit for her own mind (by this logic)#for a non-charmspeaking Aphrodite kid with a less unnatural level of making people like them?#when you can’t tell what is and isn’t magical affects then how do you know anyone would ever like you for your normal non-goddy self?#what about Hypnos kids who wish they didn’t constantly feel tired and could manage to Do more with their lives?#like imagine your special magic godly enhancement is Cannot Stay Awake and it’s a struggle to complete even simple tasks. thanks I guess.#there’s probably examples I’m not thinking of #but powers that enhance rather than add??? it’s like there’s parts of your identity that don’t belong to you #at least that’s how I would feel about it probably #percy jackson #heroes of olympus #leo valdez #hoo leo #pjo hephaestus

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dimsilver · 3 months

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#y’all know when it’s a Doing Things Day?#well today I slept in way less than I wanted to and then decided I can’t take a nap to try to reset my sleep schedule #so I went and did some sight singing of choral pieces with friends (lamentations of Jeremiah/o vos omnes and Armistice 1918 took. me. out.)#as in they went so well (helped that half the people had done them before)#and then picked up two things from buy nothing #returned my friend’s wrench set #convinced another sister to come to weekend warrior with me #got some shoes I needed and two nice shirts at the thrift store #got art supplies I needed at dollar tree and ran into a deacon from my church there and had a nice chat #went grocery shopping #ran into an old friend who lives in another state in the grocery store??#called my boyfriend for a while while washing dishes #touched up a painting #read my first Terry Pratchett book (Equal Rites - it was amusing and enjoyable but not super special to me)#(I know there’s so much more! just dipping my toes in)#made dinner and prepped some extra things for future meals #spent hours going through little things I’d saved and pasting them into a journal #now going to read and annotate Life Together before bed #is this what it’s like when you get up and stay awake????#is this what y’all do?

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palms-upturned · 3 months

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#meg talks #tmi gross medical stuff ig #oh but also #emeto warning #menstruation warning #tried to put on my hip brace and the compression or the way i moved made me spasm so bad i puked #i can’t keep fucking doing this man im nearly out of leave time #and im so physically exhausted it’s a struggle to stay awake even after like 10 hours of sleep #and my period has been going for like a fucking month straight #what is going ON #‘’you have long covid’’ ‘’you need to see a gyno’’ ‘’you need steroid shots’’ ‘’you need physical therapy’’ ‘’you need a wfh job’’#‘’you need a ground floor apartment’’ ‘’you need to eat better’’ ‘’you need new meds’’#‘’you need to take more regular vacations to rest’’ ‘’you need to stress less’’#well where the FUCK do i get the money for any of these things #like what am i supposed to do abt any of these problems without money. or a college degree ig but that comes back to money #i just want a wfh job where i can be part of a union… or even union staff… i don’t want to give up the fight…#sigh.

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s-ccaam-era-crepe · 6 months

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unnormalize staying up late btw

#camera talks #kinda being serious and I can’t really explain why bc it’s literally midnight and I should be sleeping rn but #from a young age I was taught by kids around me that staying up late to do anything but hw #was cool and the longer you were awake the more you could brag about it in the morning #not cool actually bc now I’ve entirely fucked my sleeping schedule and it’s part of why I feel so bad all the time #would write more but I have to sleep now #anyways seriously unnormalize it. let kids (and people in general) get their sleep #it’s not healthy otherwise

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littleoblivions · 2 months

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i can’t fall back asleep 🥲 this is hell 🥲

#i’m being dramatic but i’ve been awake for over an hour and i can’t fall back ASLEEEEEP #i don’t have to be up for 3 more hours otherwise i’d just stay up at this point

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narugen · 3 months

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GWUH i love when comments tell me how i might have prolonged certain aspects of my fic but then reassure me it Gets Better to read (very important to meeeee).. thank u to user swirling wind of repetition ur comment made my DAY!!!!! (crying)

UGHHELDEWOSKPENEPEJDPSKEKDKE SOMEONE TOOK THE TIME TO WRITE ALL OF THIS IM SICKKKK IM SO TOUCHED

#egg boils #comments #<- was that my tag #UGHHHHH THIS MAKES ME SO HAPPY.#I ALSO GOT MORE COMMENTS AFTER THIS AND I. WE FRUCKINB CRODEEEE #FAVE #save #also smth abt the angst is that it was literally the basis of the fic bc i wanted hoshina to be comforting her each time and i know his own #thoughts must’ve been so frustrating to read MY BAD REALLY like what is ur problem girl but also #<- thinking abt it i did make hoshina confess First Verbally which is woah. in its own sense bc all this while he would only initiate to #comfort or help his captain…. but when he doesn’t have that excuse of reaching out anymore n she’s the one who takes care of him instead 🤔#i guess that also helps him gain a bit more confidence and see where he truly stands beside her #like yeah flowers r cute and all but the confirmation she wants him and will stay by his side too.. (something she said previously and Then #proceeded to do so when she found him in the dojo) WHICH BTW. she figured out smth was wrong w the text messages but never got the chance to #find out properly bc she’d always miss the timing. girl who’s been staying on base recently and KNOWS where hoshina wld go when he can’t #sleep but never catches him bc she’s either too late or he never shows up (choosing to lie awake in bed instead)#ARGHHHHHH MY HSMN #hoshina afraid to take the first step but he does it anyway DOES IT ANYWAY BECSUSE HE WONT LIVE FOREVER AND i think with the raid on #tachikawa base and other significant deaths it gets a lot more Obvious

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agent-troi · 4 months

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fringe, 2036:

today at kroger, 2024:

the future is here

#they had other flavors too but i only got this one #i tried one and it’s ok it kind of has what i always imagined was the texture of a chocolate m&m #i can’t drink coffee to stay awake like everyone else bc it tends to make me nauseous and more tired long term #so maybe finally this will help me stay awake and focus lmao #fringe #coffee

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theminecraftgay · 5 months

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Disabled guy shows signs of disability, is shocked. How could anyone have predicted this?

#I’ve been horribly sick for like a week now #I can’t even push comms bc I know I can’t stay awake long enough to draw #this is. not fun.#blah blah blah #vent #also fuck you to the security guard who made me being sick about him when he didn’t even need to be in my space #get out. you’re checking fire extinguishers. not unlocking the gallery doors. that’s my job. fuck off #‘you’re wearing a mask and in a very large open room and covered your face even more when you coughed BUT you’re gonna kill me-#‘anyways time to go outside TO SMOKE’#ughhh

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robotic-maid · 1 year

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How things are going again… update I guess? Still can’t figure out how to read more on mobile. I’m just typing this out so it can leave my head.

#nights are really hard for me #mornings are also really hard for me #I think my jobs burning me out #and I haven’t been able to sleep very well much at all #I’ve only been getting 3-5 hours if I’m lucky because my nightmares are really bad so I usually just stay awake #I mean I have to get up at 4am anyway so what’s the point #do you know how it feels to be in pain but you can’t cry because your body’s grown so used to it?#so it feels like crying because it’s Wednesday again #which I can’t justify because tommorrow is Thursday and that is your new normal #your new normal is working so hard you don’t have the time to see your dog and your cars ac is out and you spend all your money on the room #you sleep in 15 minutes away from the office you are stuck at more than 11hoirs a day #you ask your job to adjust your schedule and they say they can’t without cutting your hours and you need the money to survive #it’s too much #but feeling this way or not feeling this way won’t make a difference because the only other options will make your living situation harder #I’m so tired but I don’t have any better options right now so I have to keep waking up and working #I feel horrible spending time with me friends because I get tired after an hour and I worry that I’ve become #too flaky or something #I can’t stay up late and I’m already stressed out so I just can’t keep up with everyone and I don’t want to be a drain #I wish my heart would just stop some times #my meds stop me from hurting myself or crying or sleeping too long but these feelings always come to me when I wake up #I’m disappointed I woke up again #I don’t want to keep doing this I don’t know how long I can keep going #my body is breaking down like my car is breaking down #I don’t want to keep doing this I need more than a day off work a week I want to see my dog I don’t want to be poor but I don’t want to #wake up just to spend all day in an office getting yelled at while my coworkers come in and leave before me #I know I can do this I know I need to keep doing this I know there’s nothing better for me than this #I shouldn’t say these horrible things out loud because they’ll just wear me down faster #there’s nothing that will help me I need to help myself #this is en endurance test and I need to keep it up because if I fail I will lose so much more than I have #I wish I could cry I wish I could break down and scream but what would be the point? it won’t help it won’t fix anything m

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quins-makeshift-menagerie · 1 year

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If you were given the chance to spend the day with one (or two) of your crew of OC's who would it be? :3 (All of the above is an acceptable answer too >:3

Honestly? Zeus and/or Fuji. I love the rest of the cast to bits but in reality I’m incredibly introverted. I’m like a cat, I enjoy just being in the same room as others while we do our own things. It’s why if you’re ever in any discord servers with me I’m mainly lurking lmao

Zeus’ default is relaxed and calm and Fuji’s basically a Wikipedia bf, something I already deal with, so it all works out

#plus Zeus enjoys naps and I can’t seem to stay awake for more than a few hours at a time so #would be nice to nap with them(if they allow)#archieabsol #ask

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nellasbookplanet · 2 years

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I've been watching From (terrible title, I know, but good show) the last couple of days, and wow, I haven’t gotten this strong Lost vibes from anything since actually watching Lost as a kid.

Bunch of random people stranded in an isolated location, kept from leaving by possibly supernatural forces? Monstrous, unexplainable things roaming the surrounding forest, picking off people a little at a time? Lots of inexplicable mystery tied to the very location? Delicious.

It isn’t quite as character driven as Lost (to be expected, seeing as it has a 10 episode season instead of 20 and doesn’t have the same space for filler and backstory) but it still portrays its ensemble cast in a complex way that lends even the most unlikable characters to be sympathetic and interesting, and where you can really feel that everyone in this community is important to the story, not just one single main character. It’s been ages since I was this invested in both characters and plot of a show, very much recommend, super excited for season 2!

#lost was one of the earliest strong media impacts on me as a kid #and i honestly can’t tell if from is any good or if it’s just scratching that very particular itch in me #that was awoken at age 8 and hasn’t gotten close to being scratched since #anyway i've had to stay awake at night a lot over the last week for reasons #and has been watching a lot of shows to stay awake #(I've also watched the chucky series critrole oneshots and started up with the unsleeping city)#so now I'm kind of sleep deprived and loopy which makes me rambly lol #looks like i'll get back to a more or less normal sleep schedule next week #hopefully that'll let me catch up with uni too bc i have NOT had the brain space to study for like two weeks now #nella talks #from series

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pepprs · 1 year

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not doing good. at all

#purrs #today and yesterday ive been unspeakably depressed. and no one knows what to do with me and i don’t know what to do with me. but ivs been ge #getting absolutely SHIT sleep bc of my siblings staying up late and my sisters ocd stuff which is probably part of it. I now im wide awake a #and it’s 2 and im miseravle and can’t sleep and already did sleep for 2 hours and it didn’t help and im hungry and weak #i truly don’t n kw what’s wro ng with me. i want to be happy and normal but every day i have long moments where im trying so hard not to cry #and i think most ppl would excuse themselves to go cry or take a break or like. speak up and ask for help if they’re miserable but i don’t d #do any of that. i just hold it all in until i get so tired it disappears. and then when i do snap im too miserable and ashamed to actually b #be honest about how anyone can help me which only makes me cry more. atp idk what will help. im in therapy now im about to have some time of #km eating food i like even though it’s not the healthiest ive tried resting and getting sleep and whatever. maybe im just not cut out for #any of what im doing and i just need to detach myself from reality even harder than i am already doing apparently. idk nothing im typing is #making sense i just can’t fall asleep now and im so pissed at my siblings and im pissed at my whole family for not giving a shit that im mis #miserable and easily overstimulated by noise bc i could’ve had ghe room downstairs and im still being held hostage by redacted and being #shaken awake to redacted like last night and work is killing me for the dumbest reasons. i literally cannot keep living like this #delete later

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floral-hex · 1 year

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Can’t tell if I’m so anxious because of drug withdrawal or it’s just because I have a bad brain 😓