#cant fix that shit properly

[frostbite-the-bat]

do you ever randomly get like. paranoid ? about your computer

yea

[rapidhighway]

does anyone know what the hell is going on with my mouse, i was just doing stuff in blender so theres a lot of scrolling and pressing the middle button and suddenly the scroll wheel just became kinda loose and it somehow immediately switched so i can only scroll by pressing the middle button and swiping up and down and this thing is there

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

there are many benefits to knowing basic html cod- oh god oh fuck

[piplupod]

everything is feeling pretty un-epic and non-swagful I fear

[aroacesigma]

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[milo-is-rambling]

I wish I had friends near meeeeeee to distract me from my brainnnnnnnnnn

[713-4th-ward-g]

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[astrxealis]

40 mil is the highest points i've had for gw ever tbh so i am proud of myself so far <3 also !! almost rank 175 >;D

anyways hi just small update/rambles uhm. i've been more productive w school but also school ew !!! and 6.3 is so fucking soon holy shit i am not ready at all & i hope this week i can finally start omori and/or p4g <33

[tytonnidaie]

the most dangerous part of having a pet au that u never seriously work on except think abt it to ur writing playlist as u drive is that. you develop it. and it gets better. and then you really really want to write it. and you're in danger

[switchinstraps]

you’ve got to be fucking me. I watch one (1) show that my friend had interest in, but she never watches/finishes shit unless I make her, and she drops off the zoom call and goes silent? don’t tell me she’s actually upset over an anime that currently only has *eight episodes,* which I’ve only watched five of. and now I feel like dog shit and she won’t reply to any messages. what the actual shit is happening.

[toastsnaffler]

insanely busy at work today. haven't had time to pause even for a few minutes since I got in at 8:15 and its now 1pm AND I missed an entire meeting I was supposed to have with my boss bc I was trying so hard to focus on what I was doing + was so busy I couldn't even log into a pc to check my calendar but its okay she came and found me in the lab and I wouldn't have had time to attend it anyway ahhhhh

[c0rpseattack]

houhhh.

[knbposting]

aomine has depression and thats not nearly what i have so even tho we both have "lies in bed and does absolutely fuck all because our bodies hate us" eras and i cant WRITE ABT IT RN im mad. long covid is such a nuisanceeeeeee .

[ilyzuko]

no cuz what's up with tumblr now showing me a random p*rn post like every 3 posts on my dash from random blogs nd tags i dont follow weren't they like all about dep*rnifying this site

[ravio-the-cabinet-man]

(ID: three pictures of a broken ring light that is held up with teal finger bandages at the top and purple finger tape at the bottom. the first two pictures are close ups of the bandages, which are tied around the stand. the third is a further away shot of the ring light. End ID.)

fixed my tripod/ringlight.

its held together with tape and dreams, but we win these honestly.

[forestryfae]

"can people please be quiet with teh doors" "yeah you can have attention tomorrow" FUCK OFF. DIE. I CAN SLAM THE DOOR AT FUCKING EIGHT PM IF I WANT TO, FUCK OFF WITH THE TALKING TO EVERYONE THROUGH SNAPCHAT CUS YOU HAVE A PROBELM WITH ONE PERSON AND THE SECOND CUNT. man i am SO glad he sSO much better and more mature than everyone else, he totally is so much better than me for not slamming doors and he has SUCH a good handle on his emotions that when hes mad or annoyed or cranky he doesnt just straight up insult people or get bitchy or bite at them or act like a complete cunt, he totally didnt completely stop talking to a friend just cus she didnt liek him romantically, he totally doesnts it in the livingroom being crankya nd sulky and bitchy all fucking day so its uncomfortable for everyone else to sit in there.

not that anyone has any issue with it when this third guy slams the front door and slams the chair when he moves it and all that shit without being fucking angry or upset, he does it just for fun. noone complains when he and this girl literally ran like fucign idiots up the stairs and made a huge fucking racket at nearly 11. the same guy who slams the doors for fun fucking played music at full volume WITH bass for months and noone complained cus hes "sensitive". i can hear someones fucking music right now and its not that looud but its still fucking annoying, and it usually lasts until WAY past 11

but if i get angry its "attention whore" and "dont slam doors" and i dont see ANYONE and if im still angry when they come to talk to me noone wants to be around me. fuck me, im not allowed to be angry ever and when i am and its fucking righteous and fair and welldeserved im still a bitch and i need to widen my tolerance window. FUCK that

and somehow im supposed to make friends and be a productive member of society and live on my own independently?? how the fuck am i suppose dto do that when im not allowed to do shit. i cant try to be social, i cant be sad or upset, i cant be happy or someone will do their best to ruin that, i cant be angry, i cant even be fucking hungry or tired, theres noever any excuse that is good enough and its all my fault because i dont take responsibility, and no matter what im always fucking annoying everyone. noone is ever on my team either cus it entierly depends on whether or not they agree or disagree with me, whether theyre annoyed at me or not, and whether its a neccessity that isnt fulfilled that im not worth enough to be allowed to have. everything is my fault, im not given any grace that is given to anyone else because i dont fucking deserve it, i am awarded nothing for being capable of doing things that are hard for me no matter what because i dont fucking deserve it for doing the bare minimum, i dont deserve to be helped and im not good enough to get help no matter what i do, im inherently THE worst person in the world and no matter how little i care about myself and how little i feel just to make other people comfortable its never going to be enough

youd think not hitting people or breaking stuff and only slamming doors even though youre fuckign furious and could scream and bite people was on some level actually a good thing. and yet here i am being told im an attention whore for slamming a door and hiding in my room and crying as quietly as i can so noone can fucking hear me. cus im not fucking allowed to be upset and removing myself from a situation that fucking infuriates me and makes me want to scream. ud think removing myslef so i dont scream at people cus people dont like that would be a good thing but no. thats also fucking bad. not that anyone fucking cares either, staff doesnt come check on me. staff doesnt care. my parents dont care. friends dont give a shit. noones gonna come comfort me or actually help with the underlying issue or the constant repeating pattern of bullshit. nah fuck that its my fault for being angry at bullshit to begin with. im an asshole for this, noone else is at blame for being shit at communication or treating me like shit, and i just need to stop having any emotions that annoy other people. god fuck off and eat shit. what the fuck.