#casualy suicidal

[theghostofaname]

Sometimes when I am standing on the platform watching my train come in, I look up at the driver and worry they might think I'm about to jump in front of the train. I try to do whatever I can to reassure them, pull out my phone, look distracted. I know its dumb, most people don't think about suicide every day. I wouldn't think this way if I didn't have that little tug on my heart drawing me to the track, if no part of me wanted to die. But I guess I still do.

[wildragon]

I don't know if it's only me but I'm hella lucky in Pokemon Violet: I encounter 8 shiny while casualy try to complete the pokedex. It's WAY more than all I met in the main series (2 in saphire (Zubat and Linoone) an 1 in sword (Quilfish)) (excluding fix red Gyarados in silver and soul silver).

So the shiny I catch are: Golduck, Dreepy, Lechonk, Fidough, Finizen and Hawlucha.

Sadly, the two others commit suicide while I tried to catch them: Hoppip with Momento and Heracross hurt itself in it's confusion. :'(

[zaruba-needslove]

'Love' how a certain bull is excused for allying with a hag who loved misery and treating random civillian casualies as negligible cos who cares if random civs die in game cos only players' deaths are permanent the other 'npcs' will be revived again anyway, even after latter revelation reveals that no... not all civ casualties gets revived if there's not enough 'fuel' to allow those lives be restored. All because cow-san lost his buddy and lost his mind. Who cares if cow kill one infected human-Jyamato hybrid victim or thousands of them because 'it cannot be helped' so ya gonna justify killing them cos you can no longer save those victims.

It fine he let thousands of people get turned to bubbles cos yeah game of desires is bad who ask you to play in it you is bad and selfish too. Not realising ppl dying and going missing mysteriously may be reason for families to join desire game to get dead people back.👌

But of course let's not forgive tanuki for losing his mind and make bad decisions (and indirectly cause more dead people) cos their sister/family is 'dead'. Since how can cow's sins be worse than the tanuki's, right? Suicidal/depressed cow is more important than suicidal/depressed tanuki, kay. 😃

Cow is forgiven now because he help Tanuki's sister become human again who cares about the rest of the people who still remains part of the tree, leave that burden to sparrow cos not cow's fault for filling the tree with human-Jyamato fertilizers 😃

Cow is fine cos he knows he do bad things and he'll carry that sin 5ever as if tanuki and sparrow and fox and mama fox also don't feel the same

Cow will always remind me of fruit basket who just carpet missile thousands of acorns cos who cares ppl die their bosses are bad eggs 😃

[adoptedchild-and-skelefamily-rp]

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[giangig-blog]

L’utilità di ubriacarsi il venerdì sera per dimenticare le pene della settimana

Siamo giovani ed è nostro sacrosanto diritto sballarci almeno una volta a settimana.

Non dico che sia moralmente giusto o eticamente corretto, ma i disagi che la vita porta sette giorni su sette sono mastodontici.

Lavoro, gli studi, relazioni amorose, debiti, depressione, idee suicide, il traffico, gli errori arbitrali, il PIL, gli altri essere umani, quella stronza che risponde ad un tuo messaggio una settimana dopo che le hai scritto. Sono tutte pene casuali che, se mischiate tra di loro, diventano micidiali.

Di solito, la sera prediletta dalla massa per dar sfogo al cervello è il venerdì, anche se personalmente preferisco il martedì. Più per un fatto logistico che altro.

Parte con una semplice birra con gli amici al pub e finisce con il ritrovarsi inconsapevolmente la mattina dopo nudi sul pavimento del cesso di casa propria.

E' una teoria confutabile, ma è piuttosto provata.

LA MATEMATICA E' UN'OPINIONE, MA L'ALCOL E' UNA SCIENZA ESATTA.

Il fattore determinante è l'egocentrismo personale che fa da base per altezza al dopo sbronza che avrai il giorno seguente.

Il risultato finale sarà devastante.

Molti vomitano, quasi tutti hanno malditesta per ore, solo alcuni ne escono indenni.

Il mio non vuole essere un invito a diventare dipendenti da alcol e prendere parte agli incontri degli alcolisti anonimi che fanno il lunedì, ma una sera a settimana non penso possa fare male a nessuno!

Ce lo meritiamo!

Se comincia a diventare un'abitudine, forse hai un problema, ma chi non ne ha?!

Penso che il fumo delle sigarette possa essere peggio.

Non c'è niente di male a sentirsi vuoti dentro per una notte.

Mettere se stessi davanti a tutto, lasciare fuori lo stress e la pressione. Spegnere quelle cazzo di luci.

Fare in modo che l'energia della notte scorra nelle tue vene per un paio d'ore o qualcosa di più.

La realtà fa schifo e la finzione può farti stare meglio, almeno finchè la sbornia non passa.

Sarai troppo ubriaco per pensare ai tuoi problemi.

Sarai troppo ubraico per parlarne.

L'unica cosa di cui ti devi preoccupare è buttare giù un altro shot di rum.

Il rum è un amico figlio di puttana che sparla di te alle spalle, ma sai che lo perdonerai sempre perché lo conosci da una vita.

Il giorno dopo starai di merda? Sì certo, è scientificamente provato!

Te ne pentirai? Ovviamente!

Ma fottitene!

In fondo, siamo stati creati come esseri umani timidi, con acuti problemi di autostima che possono controllare tutto, ma non le proprie emozioni...necessitiamo di un piccolo aiuto etilico...almeno una volta a settimana!

[eldritchsurveys]

954.

5k Survey LII

2651. Do you think that most people have the qualities you look for in friends/intimate relationships or do you feel alienated? >> I don’t know. I always feel alienated, but it’s difficult to pinpoint exact reasons for that. Most of the time I default to assuming that it’s me that doesn’t have the qualities required for friendships. 2652. Are you very critical: of others? of yourself? >> I can be exceedingly critical of myself; less so of others, but I can be critical of them too. I’d prefer not to be critical of anyone, but the nature of my inner monologue isn’t exactly under my control all the time. 2653. Is there such a thing as expecting too much? >> I’d imagine so. 2654. Would you rather take an hour lunch break or skip lunch and get out of work early? >> --- 2655. Do you believe that happiness is equal to fakeness? shallowness?joy? something good that happens? an attitude you have inside no matter what happens? >> It’s weird to me that happiness is the only emotion that people seem to have all these varying ideas about. I don’t think it’s any more remarkable or interesting than any other emotion, but this is the one that gets all the attention. I think it’s also because happiness got conflated with all these other lofty ideas like “inner peace” and “equanimity”, which doesn’t really make any sense to me.

2656. Can you control your emotions? have you ever tried? >> Of course I can’t control my emotions; my nervous system is responsible for my emotional response to things. My actions in response to and my thoughts about my emotions are much more conscious functions, so that’s what I focus on learning to control. 2657. Imagine you are 34 weeks pregnant. You are healthy and you didn't have any major problems in your pregnancy. Would you consider flying from the UK to Germany, which takes one hour, whithout a bad feeling that something could go wrong or the baby decides to come out earlier? >> You lost me at “imagine you are pregnant”. 2658. How long do you think it would take you to jog a mile? >> A long time, because I’d actually spend most of it walking. Fuck jogging. 2659. Word assciation: twilight: Vampires. >:3 garden: of Eden. warm: Sun. stars: Moon. crash: 1996 movie directed by David Cronenberg that I’m lowkey obsessed with. mold: Cheese. gold: Favourite colour. green: Meadow. lush: That soap store that smells way too strongly even from 10 feet away from the entrance. 2660. Picture a triangle: Quick! What color is it? Picture a square. Quick! What color is it? Picture a circle. Quick! What color is it? Why do you think you saw these shapes as these colors? >> *stares blankly* 2661. What things are endless? >> I don’t know what things are endless. I don’t think we can truly measure that, although we can come up with some fairly logical theories. 2662. Are you ever subtle? >> I mean, I guess. 2663. Because we don't know when we will die, we get to think of life as an inexhaustible well. Yet everything happens a certain number of times, and a very small number, really. How many more times will you remember a certain afternoon of your childhood...some afternoon that's so deeply a part of your being that you can't conceive of your life without it? How many more times will you watch the full moon rise? How can you fully appreciate these moments, every moment, when it all seems limitless? ~Paul Bowles, except from The Sheltering Sky >> I imagine that’s not a question I’m supposed to have a ready answer to. It’s just something to think about, I guess. 2664. Do you never have an ordinary day? >> Most of my days are ordinary. For me, that is. 2665. Do you embrace every single thing you've never known? >> I don’t know what this means. 2666. Has anyone ever mistaken you for a satanist? >> Probably. It’s easy for people to see someone in all black and a metal band t-shirt and automatically assume a great number of things about them. 2667. Can stress sometimes be good? >> Yep. 2668. Write something random, just whatever flows out of your head without thinking. Forget punctuation just try to type as fast as you think: >> No. 2669. Are you a musical snob? How about a film snob? >> I’m not a snob, period. 2670. When you were in school did you learn to think or repeat? >> Meh. 2671. Do you have everything you need to be happy? If not, what is missing? >> All I need to be happy is a nervous system and brain that can create and process an emotional response that I can then interpret as “happiness”. 2672. Would you take a very casualy dropped 'maybe I should just kill myself' as a warning ssign? >> You know, it’s pretty hard to say, these days. Casual suicide jokes have become a bit more commonplace than they were in previous generations. I’ve said “I’m going to jump off the balcony” in response to just... being slightly overwhelmed by noise. Although I should probably stop saying shit like that, to be fair. There’s got to be less dramatic and potentially disturbing ways to express myself. 2673. What does the word 'ironic' mean? Can you give an exaple of an ironic situation? >> May I introduce you to a website called dictionary.com-- 2674. What did you see today that was beautiful in an ordinary way? >> I don’t know. 2675. Have you ever been on the edge of the night? >> I don’t know what that means, so I can’t say. 2676. Do you feel oppressed in some way? >> Not, like, at this moment. 2677. Who do you think shot JFK? Who do you think shot Martin Luthar King? Why do you think they got shot? >> I assume the people that were named as the killers are the killers, because I have no real reason to assume otherwise. I think they got shot because they stood for something that the shooters didn’t, and the shooters decided to take drastic measures to prevent the social change they felt threatened by. 2679. Are you aware that although only about 14 percent of the american total population is black, that about 70 percent of the people in jail in america are black? Why do you think that is? What conclusion can you draw based on this? >> Yes, I’m aware of that. As a Black person, it’s hard to avoid learning that fact at some point. As far as why I think that is, I know why it is. The conclusion that I draw is that racial profiling is a thing and our communities have always been targets for systemic oppression by some form or another. 2678. Do you think that the culture you live in is completely open to all ideas and forms of expression? >> The country I live in is definitely not completely open to all ideas and forms of expression, and that manifests itself in a variety of ways. 2680. What do you think of the character (muppet) on sesame street that has aids and should this kind of a theme be explored in children's television? >> Of course that theme should be explored in children’s television. 2681. Are you dyslexic? >> No. 2682, Can you construct a bong out of: household objects? an apple? your cat? >> I’ve participated in some stoner engineering in my time, lol. Don’t know about the cat, though. 2683. Starwars, star trek or star gate? >> Stargate! <3 2684. Windows or mac? >> Windows is what I use, for better or worse. 2685. Do you start conversations or wait for other people to start them? >> Either? 2686. How many phallac symbols can you think of? >> I’m sure I could think of a lot of phallic symbols if I put my mind to it, but I’d rather not at this moment. 2687. Would you but tickets to see the top ten american idols sing live? >> No. 2688. A bird may love a fish...but where would they live? >> I don’t see why they have to live together at all. 2689. Are you a hologram or a misfit? >> What? 2690. How are you oriented sexually? Do you agree with the people who say that everyone is bi-sexual even if they don't want to admit it? >> I’m oriented against outworld sex. I don’t agree with the people who say that everyone is bisexual, because that’s one hell of a way to invalidate the experiences of millions of people. 2691. If you are the only human on the planet of the apes do you have sex with an ape? >> --- 2692. If you aare making out with a sex someone and you reach down and find they have a fish tail instead of legs do you still fool around with them? >> *sigh* 2693. Does superman wear kryptonite condoms? >> --- 2694. Do you know exactly where you are? Do you know the meaning of it all? Do you know the distance to the sun? Do you know the echo that is love? >> The longer this survey goes, the more esoteric the questions get... 2694. Do you believe you are: extraordinary? Blessed? Cursed? Won? >> Wait, that last one makes no sense... 2695. What are you doing this weekend? >> I assume the same thing I do most weekends -- go grocery shopping on Saturday, maybe go to the park meetup Saturday afternoon if it’s happening, and do laundry on Sunday. I’m not sure what we’re doing Monday, which is part of the weekend this time because of Labor Day. 2696. Do you believe that black people should get money to make up for their previous enslavement? Do you believe that all oppressed people should get money to make up for their oppression? >> I think reparations are probably a drop-in-the-bucket type of solution; I’d rather see actual change being made in the way this country is run and the way we are treated in society rather than just be given a lump sum of money as some kind of “apology”. That’s such a capitalistic kind of apology, too, lmao. Here’s some money, take it and don’t complain. Meanwhile, we’re still gonna literally gun you all down in the streets with impunity :) 2697. What's a quagmire? >> I’m not Google. 2698. Is philosophy a science or can everyone have their own philosophy? >> Er, philosophy isn’t a science, period. Go ahead and try to apply the scientific method to a work of philosophy. 2699. Are you a big fish in a small pond? >> I’m not a fish. 2700. Would you like to read an entire novel written in stream of consiousness form? >> Probably not.

[theghostofaname]

I wonder, if given the choice to keep living as normal or erase my existence, making it as if I was never born, would I still choose the latter option, or would I choose to live?

I've wanted this since I was 4 years old, but is it still what I want? If I had the choice, would I take it?

(This thought was inspired by Atlas Ivy’s song Self-proclaimed expiration date)