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deoidesign · 1 month

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Hello! I just discovered your blog and I immediately became captivated by your webcomic, but I'm unsure where to read all of it. I know it's on Webtoons, but I can see it hasn't been updated for a while, and you still post about it.

Are your physical novels just prints of the webcomic? Are they a continuation? Is the story complete? Thanks in advance!

Hi there!

Glad you found me and are enjoying my comic!

It's only on webtoons, and the story is not complete yet! We're 2/3 of the way through right now. It's currently on hiatus, and it's scheduled to come back in about 2 months!

I'll explain why it's been so long if you're curious, but also for my followers who might also be wondering about it under the cut. Sorry, it's pretty much just me complaining haha

I took a month off I took 2 months to get the books printed I took a month to prepare my next comic and I took 2 months to write the rest of the series (I knew the character arcs I wanted, but not the time periods or mysteries!!!) I've been working on actual episodes since then

I had to take some time off because of some pretty extreme burnout due to the sheer amount of work it was to draw over 800 pages and write 6 complete stories in a year and a half... I was getting sick almost weekly due to the overwork, it was really really bad honestly. I was having to work 60+ hours every week just to keep up...

The nature of the comic itself is also difficult... Each of the arcs is a complete, self contained story which can be read (ideally) without context, and my arcs need to be about 10-13 episodes each... And since I have an exact number of episodes to work with, it's even harder.

It takes a ton of planning and a ton of refinement, and working week to week with no breaks I was forced to put out second or even first drafts, so I just wasn't happy with the work I was doing... And to do that for the rest of the series? I wouldn't be proud of the work I did.

Plus... To be entirely honest, webtoon has treated me quite badly IN MY OPINION... They deprioritized me before I launched (I had to beg for more promotion, I'm not exaggerating), they outright denied me the opportunity to even ask for a raise, I don't make any money on fast pass and they pay me less than my partner makes working at trader joes. My first editor left me completely hanging, my second editor (who I loved) was fired... And they told me I wouldn't get a third season before my first season even finished. So it was just repeatedly completely demoralizing.

I'm sorry it has taken so long, it'll have been 10 months by the time I come back. But I realized... I won't get promotion either way. I won't get more episodes either way. I won't get more money either way. So to finish everything, to make it feel good, to make it something I'm proud of, I chose to take longer to make it better.

I am fully aware I will lose a significant amount of my readership for this and it might genuinely affect my career moving forward. But it's what I had to do! So I'm sticking to my guns on it, and I'm confident long term it'll be worth it. It never could have been this good if I didn't take this much time.

#asks #steakandpeanutbuttersandwiches #I'm SO sorry youre new and you asked me such a benign question and I responded with... this... LMAO #I swear to god I tried to make it as short as possible #theres just a lot auauuaghkhgjk #basically. way too much work. not enough money.#so it either is gonna be good and take longer or be worse but come back faster #and I chose to take longer #so.#I'm really sorry and I wish that this decision didn't also come with the... pretty much guarantee that it will negatively impact my career.#I will lose readers. I will lose potential readers for my future work. it looks bad on me as a creator to take such a big break. etc. etc.#but it's good. it's so good. you have to trust me it's like the best stuff Ive ever written #it. ok well to be honest #it'll probably feel extremely simple and extremely natural #but it's been SO much work LMAO #I am not exaggerating I have written over 200 pages of scapped ideas to get to where it is #I'm sure it won't make sense why it took so long while reading but you gotta trust me LMAO #ideally it doesnt even 'feel' different right. cause its gotta be cohesive with the whole thing #but there is SO MUCH TO WRAP UP #THERES SO MUCH #and to make that feel natural in this little space oh my GOD it is so hard #ok omfg I'm doing it again I'm going on way too long again IM SO SORRY #YOURE NEW HERE AND IM DOING THIS IMMEDIATELy #this is like 90% for my followers who I know are curious about this and I'm just using you as a jumping off point to talk about it #cause I don't really like to make standalone posts very often #I likely will make some kind of official announcement about it when the date is extremely set in stone #right now I think it's still only tentatively scheduled so it could still change #and I'll say something more... refined and restrained... then.#but for now this is like. actually everything. I think #I'm sure I forgot something but whatever lmfao

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vimbry · 3 months

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"likes don't do anything" they do

"there's no algorithm" there is

"well nobody uses the for you tab" I do

"reblog all art and fics you see" there's no thought put into that. if this does work on people, then it's just pity engagement borne out of guilt rather than genuine interest, which is arguably worse than having none, because it's totally hollow.

#if I make art of my ocs who I'm personally fond of and spent a few days drawing just right and it gets 3 reblogs then it gets 3 reblogs #it's rational to feel a little disappointed sure. but I can't do anything about that. it's just luck #and I got Very lucky accumulating a few thousand followers on my main-turned-art-only blog off the back of when m.oomin was very popular #(tho realistically many of those users are probably inactive/passive followers now)#and having this number of people tuned into my posts Still only gets me a couple dozen notes on original stuff.#every 3 years or so something might blow up. like that bugs bunny comic lol. and I did Not expect it to #especially bc it happened about a year after I shared it as well.#it can happen any time. so don't feel discouraged when your art doesn't get noticed right away #the one advantage this website has is that there's far less of a fomo culture compared to other socials where trends come and go in a week #and people will still interact with older posts. especially bc it's easier to find what you want through the tagging system. sort of.#there's really no way to predict this or aim for large engagement! oh unless you're specifically catering to the current hot topic #like d.unmeshi is wiiiildly popular right now. I've seen comics get 5-digit notes in under 48 hours 'cause more eyes are on it.#but if it's not something you personally like and you're only creating things for the attention then you're gonna be unhappy #and people will inevitably move on.#I'd much rather swing my art back around every few months or so until it finds someone it resonates with #than make people who were never planning to engage with it feel bad for no reason

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massivementalitynut · 8 months

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My Valentine's Day comm of Adam from @iwanttobeaseme

#adam taurus #rwby #<3 #was originally planning on something more villainous and bloody but realised Valentine's Day was coming up #So I ended up feeling soft and wanting to show him some love (This gives off such gentle giant vibes and I adore it so ;w;)#He may have a lot of haters but there are people who still like him (at least 4 xD)#Ribbon colours are a small Easter egg reference to the main girls from RWBY ^^#I was all over the place with which design to go with his eye but stuck with unmasked and unmarred #cause I think I've only seen one fanart of him like that #(and also I wanted to see him happy since we never really get to see him smile but for really short moments in the show >_<;)#ok I'm done rambling in the tags (congrats on making it this far :3c)#It's still early right now but I could not wait (and who knows when you'll come across this so Happy Valentine's Day everyone~)

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edge-oftheworld · 19 days

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help i'm listening to an orchestral arrangement of holiday by green day and i can't deal with it

#it's so disgustingly high up. the melody. that it sounds like pirates of the carribean #like. do you not get the memo to give the melody to anyone but the violins?? give it to the cellos or the trombones smh #other than that musically it's really good. BUT the reason i'm on here #is because i need someone less sleep deprived than me to queue up holiday and then more (by 5sos) and tell me is it the same chord #that holiday ends on and more (and bobd) start on??#if so. you know what i'm gonna do #i'm gonna fix this #and i'm tired enough that i feel like i can do better than anything i hear right now #was singing along to my cd in the car on the way back from orchestra and just. singing high harmonies like i'm delta goodrem #because apparently i learned everything i know from her? checks out #but the point is. that's not the main melody #in holiday. or it straight up sounds like pirates or some video game soundtrack #anyway the video is by epic orchestra. you can look it up #they didn't get the memo on how to write bass parts for orchestra apparently. fuck off i learned on teeth (song)#green day #holiday #boulevard of broken dreams #5 seconds of summer #more #silver arranges 5sos #thinking of making it some choose your own adventure between easier/more and holiday/bobd where they can swap next songs #and musically it works perfectly #help i'm listening to their bobd arrangement now and i swear it sounds like on of the triumphant end scenes from pirates #i don't watch enough movies bc it sounds generic movie soundtrack happy. which is stupid. it's boulevard of broken dreams #it's meant to be SAD. just cause it's in a major key ffs #sorry i should shut up and go to sleep #you can ask me about this later #i will post any demos that i make. you might not remember by then #because if i had the word 'soon' in my vocabulary...#just as well no one is relying on me

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yo9urt · 1 month

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i know やった is not considered to be part of the onomatopoeic/mimetic word family but it almost feels like it could be

#mine #it's so strong! something about the combination of A sounds #and the way the pause in the middle makes the ta feel more charged and excited like firing off a cannon #great word for when things go right. one of my new favorites for sure #speaking of japanese im thinking sooner or later im going to try pmd explorers of sky in japanese...#i figured thats the best place to start because i know the explorers games back to front and could play them with my eyes closed #so ill be able to really immerse in and learn new stuff (hopefully)#plus i imagine the combat portion will have a lot of repetitive vocab like Pokemon was paralyzed!#Pokemon is scared and ran away! etc so the repeat exposure will help a lot #i fired it up for just a sec to check if it worked and it does indeed because the title screen had kanji with furigana #and then the ingame menu was all hiragana which i guess makes sense cause kids game #i hope i can read it lol i've been working on my kanji for some months now and once you get used to them you really get used to them...#but i'm sure it'll be a fun time

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w-for-wumbo · 2 months

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I have decided that this upcoming week and a half are going to be extremely not "banana bread at work dude hell yeah"

#between 3 exams accounting for 50% of my grade in my class #returning not only to work after 10 days off but returning to see the manager who caused my mind to fully mentally break #and now also the 3rd thing #I'm just spent and i dunno how I'm gonna keep moving #i picked up a second job in a funeral home too #have to go shopping for clothes after work tomorrow but it can't be too late cuz i have to come home to let the dog out #i have to do the same quickly on tuesday after work before rushing back in the direction of work #where my school is #so i maybe get... an hour of time to cram before exam #i need to order propane #i need to fix my car #i need to take care of my lawn and house #i need to grocery shop #typing it all out helps #i think I'm gonna grocery shop today #though the thought of food makes me feel really sick right now #whatever I'll feel fine by like friday probably

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medicinemane · 3 months

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Mike johnson has so god damn much blood on his hands, obviously Ukrainian blood, but also plenty of American blood

Refusing to renew something that helps vets exposed to atomic blast and Americans who were downwind of the fall out... it's just sick. I can't fucking stand mike johnson, he's one of the worst scum to ever be in congress, and that's fucking saying something

"Johnson refused to allow House members to vote on bipartisan legislation to renew and improve the program"

Fucking quivering little pimple seems to have a real MO for just wringing his hands while insisting it's not his fault, he just can't do the one fucking part of his job of putting shit up to a vote... oh boo hoo, so sad, he'll just have to unilaterally let funding expire on things instead of literally just putting it up to our elected representatives to see if they want to vote yay or nay

Single handedly make the choices but it's not his fault when they work out how they do

Murderer

#I'm sorry; I both genuinely hate the man and will never forgive him; so seeing this just adds more fuel to that fire #and I'm also genuinely pissed to hear that we aren't gonna be bothering to fucking help out people we fucked over #it's fucking sick #listen; I try not to talk politics too much and I try not to tell people how to vote cause it's not really my business #and cause I don't like arguing with people on tumblr; waste of my time #but for all the dems many many many many many fucking flaws; it's shit like this that makes me hate the gop #every last line about sticking up for rural or poor people or whatever is such a fucking lie #god bless our troops... unless it would cost money to compensate them for making them stand near atomic detonations #at every turn I see fucking simple easy decent bipartisan policy shot down but fuckers like johnson; who is the gop at this point #fuck em; can't stand em #go fucking vote if you can in whatever country you're in; try and get a mail in ballot for your sake #I'm still not gonna tell you how to vote but uh... maybe keep in mind when someone's hands are fucking caked in blood #and keep in mind what kind of company people keep in their political party #fucking murder #cause inaction is murder as sure as if he stood their and kept them from getting treatment directly #removing the funding to let these people get cancers and stuff operated on #it's the same as murder #and again; that's not even going back to him personally; like literally it was just him and him alone #holding up aid to Ukraine for months because he refused to put it to the floor #where... oh look... once it was put to the floor it passed just fine (with a fucking tiktok ban added)#(hate that site but I hate government overreach with this kinda shit more)#one of the few people in this world I think I actually truly hate #I'm never gonna fucking stomach the 'he was so brave for holding a vote' shit lie #bullshit; if he had a spine or a soul he would have brought Ukraine aid to the floor before funding ran out #just like if he had a spine or a soul he'd have brought this radiation victim funding to the floor before it ran out #almost like there's a fucking pattern here of him squirming like a pus filled pimple simpering about how he just can't do his job #can't do the one fucking thing he's supposed to do and bring shit to the floor for a vote #I have more opinions on him; but if I said how I really feel right now I think it would get me put on a list #and... sadly just cause of who I am; if I were in a room alone with him I think I'd just lay into him instead of beating his ass #but he's a fucking monster and reading this story just now... I'm almost seeing red with how much it's pissing me off

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torchickentacos · 3 months

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taylor idk who chappell roan is i think that makes me disqualified from being queer forever (←sapphic girl)

She's a musical artist! She's pretty up-and-coming right now and is seen as a wlw queer icon in the music industry, but I've never been able to get into her music even though tons of other sapphics love it. I probably just haven't given it enough of a chance. Casual is a good song though!