#chuck + guilt

[shallowseeker]

Devastation: Metatron calling Chuck out on his nihilism, SPN 11x20 "Don't Call Me Shirley"

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METATRON: It wasn't just the saps who were praying to you. The angels prayed, too. And so did I – every day. CHUCK: I know. METATRON: You want to sell the best-selling autobiography of all time? You explain to me – Tell me why you abandoned me. Us. CHUCK: Because you disappointed me. You all disappointed me. METATRON: (Stands up and looks at CHUCK with wet eyes.) No, look. I know I'm a disappointment, but you're wrong about humanity. They are your greatest creation because they're better than you are. (CHUCK starts to look more guilty as he looks at METATRON.) METATRON: Yeah, sure, they're weak and they cheat and steal and...destroy and disappoint. But they also give and create and they sing and dance and love. And above all, they never give up! But, you do! (CHUCK looks devastated. METATRON continues to look at CHUCK with a tear rolling down his cheek. CHUCK puts on his glasses, clears his throat, and starts typing with determination in his eyes. METATRON looks heart-broken.)

(CHUCK starts to look more guilty as he looks at METATRON.)

[skin-slave]

I wanna say something and all I ask is that you read the whole thing before burning me at the stake.

There are always horrible things happening. There are always ppl who are suffering and dying. There are always corrupt politicians. There are always human rights violations. There are always tragedies. There is always misinformation and exploitation. War is always looming on the horizon or busting in the back gate. The world is always fucked up.

That fact does not mean that the lives affected matter any less than our own. It does not mean that we don't do what we can to help. It does mean that we cannot afford to put our lives on hold while a horrible thing consumes us.

I'm sure that, if your parent/sibling/partner/best friend had a medical emergency, you would gladly do whatever you needed to do to be there. I'm sure that you would sacrifice sleep, skip meals, call in to work, and be by their side until they were stable. You can afford to do that when those emergencies are infrequent and relatively brief.

You cannot do that with the world's emergencies. They are not infrequent. They are not relatively brief. You have to sleep, eat and shower. You have to pay your bills. You have to survive.

Daily life goes on.

It feels unjust. Of course it does. How can you possibly go about the mundane like nothing's going on? You Don't. You go about the mundane like there are horrible things happening. You make the adjustments you can sustain without sacrificing your well-being. You make drastic changes for as long as you can, when you simply can't take it anymore, and then you step back, take a breath, and go grocery shopping. You have to. If you don't, you won't survive the horrible thing.

No one who is going thru a horrible thing wants you to self-destruct. There's so much good you can do over the course of your life if you maintain that life. Adding your name to the list of casualties will prevent all of that good from happening. You have to survive.

And that includes the things that seem optional, bc those things aren't actually optional at all. You need to laugh. You need to watch movies and love your pets and go for walks. You need food that tastes good and clothes that make you feel confident. You need that show you'll regret not seeing. You need to get takeout and take naps. You need to have the weight lifted frequently, so you can heal the parts of you that get worn.

If you aren't living as well as you can, while making adjustments you can afford to make, you will not survive.

Please survive.

[resentful-reads]

Camp Damascus by Chuck Tingle

[blahwithasideofblah]

One reason Dean Winchester became a bad father to Jack Kline is Dean's own beliefs about being a father vs a brother became a self-fulfilling prophecy. Both times he explicitly acts as a father, he hurts his children (or fails to stop them being hurt). His guilt confirms what he learned from his own dad, which is that fathers cause fear and hurt. In this essay I will

[goodheartt]

with all the bullshit i've been through this past month, i cannot tell you all enough how much of a joy this new blog is. thank you all so much for supporting my passions/hyperfixations. thank you for listening to me ramble about sunny, ramble about the characters. thank you for having an interest in what i am passionate about. it means the world to me, and it really is refreshing.

[melodythebunny]

contribution to the siblings angst post - Chase and Becky (or now Mouse) in the mousebraingirl au. These once close siblings are now on opposite sides. Mouse no longer has memories of Chase's identity or her identity as heroes. Chase also deals with the angst and trauma and guilt his own father is going through plus his own emotional state. Amazo Lad trying to keep Wordman from being too violent towards villains. Him also trying to reach out to his sister.

Amazo lad landed on top of a building. Both mentally and physically tired from today's battles. For once things in fair city were quiet. Aside from normal civilian life going on. Amazo lad sighed. He sat down in relief. Wiping the sweat from his brows, he removed his visors.

He was glad whenever he could get some alone time. It gave him time to think. to reflect. Being a hero was taxing, especially when it was up to him basically to keep the order and peace.

A he had a run in with Chuck the evil sandwich making guy. He was trying to destroy another sandwich shop. Something about stealing his secret sandwich recipe. Amazo lad had it covered, even when it seemed like Chuck was getting the upper hand. The young hero had managed to de-escalate the situation

He had gotten the shop owner and Chuck to a mutual agreement when Wordman stepped in. The older hero was the act first ask questions later type. And even then he didn't seem to care about asking for any sides of the story. He wouldn't even listen to his own son telling him everything was fixed already.

It had hurt Chase when his father unintentionally ignored him.

He had been like that ever since...

'Becky...'

Thinking about his sister made his heart hurt. How long was it since he last heard that name? Nearly four years now. It seemed like forever ago when they were a happier family.

'its all my fault. I shouldn't be a hero.'

He didn't hate Mouse. She was Becky, even if she didn't remember much prior to becoming a villain. His sister under the control of a malevolent mouse. He knew his dad blamed himself for the accident.

Chase was the oldest child. He should have helped his father. He was a minute slow. Too slow to save his family. They didn't deserve this. He couldn't even stop it from happening. Just standing there in shock, scared and afraid.

'nothing but a coward charading as a hero'

The sound of his sobs broke his thoughts off.

Yes, he was a hero. A hero served and protected. But who helped Heroes when they needed help? Who was going to help him?

Down there he was Amazo lad. Up here he was just Chase Boxleitner.

A boy who just wanted to keep his family together.

[keithal]

in the good supernatural that lives in my head amara is released from wherever chuck locked her away and she and dean aren't forced against their wills to be attracted to one another romantically. that said, they are still bonded together by the fact that they have that prisoner/savior relationship and shared the mark of cain. instead she looks at chuck who she realizes never loved her and then to dean, who loves his brother to a frankly concerning degree, and says "that's what i want." and so she replaces chuck with dean as her brother <3 this goes absolutely terribly

[measuresderepo]

It’s so Gally.

[thegcng-arch]

gonna hop in the shower before my friend comes over <3 hoping to write more later (':

[bigfuckingcrab]

Finally played The Murder of Sonic the Hedgehog and while the boss fight made me want to go derail trains in real life it was the cutest shit I've ever seen and now I just want an entire catalogue of Sonic point-n-click adventure games about Sonic and friends desperately trying to just hangout like normal people but something always inevitably goes horribly wrong

[sk3l3t0n444]

i want all of these

[cynicallyscorned]

the tale of cynic and his mother is a very unfortunate one, because while she wasn't outright abusive to him, her actions were still cruel, and still so severely impacted cynic in a way that is irreparable.

so even if she comes to her senses and wants to try to salvage that relationship later on in life...

it ain't happening.

[howabhwmwn]

Howard and Jimmy hugging. Howard and Jimmy quietly talking about Chuck. Howard telling Jimmy he doesnt need to forgive Chuck. Jimmy making Howard laugh. Jimmy and Howard being friends.

[cauldronofmorning]

Sorry I can’t get over that take that said Jimmy got too much sympathy after “you never mattered that much to me”.

[lakemichigans]

i love amara idc........ her fate is so tragic. in the span of a few days she makes the toughest decision of her life (betraying her brother for the sake of the world she's come to love), then gets betrayed by the one man she thought could never betray her because they're cosmically connected (dean), got absorbed by god, ripped from god's body, and then reabsorbed by jack (her great-nephew who she was so sweetly excited to meet). let her out!!!

[goodheartt]

it still blows my mind that there's so many people interested in what I think about these silly little characters from sunny and i just. my heart is warm. thank you all for being here