Part 4 - Clexa x reader "headcannons"
No idea what i'm doing. Enjoy. Cause its the last one…
You can see how i was getting done with this as the end nears.
Part 3
- You were released. Yay. The problem was, being releasead by Heda? With no consequences? Oh. Opositors didn't take too kindly to that.
- You took that to your advantage. You had to lie and say that Heda should've killed you or at least torture you. She was too soft!
- It worked.
- not on all people, of course. After all, you were a traitor to both Heda and the Ice Nation.
- there were those who tried to kill you. To rally the crowd to execute you.
- Most met their end in the middle of the night. Misteriously. Choked on their own blood.
- You never left a trace. This wasn't any different.
- Those who were still alive and oposed to you had to be swayed by you.
- They didn't trust you. But as you plead you could be useful, they relent.
- And that's when your abilities come to light.
- Sweet talking people to get information. Going unoticed as you eavesdrop om conversations. Sneaking into places you really weren't allowed to.
- It was dangerous. Yes. But you didn't care. Your life held no value. You are just a tool to be used and discarded.
- First, to the glory of Ice Nation. Now, it was to serve your Heda. To help Lexa. To help Clarke.
-Ok. At first. You are avoing the both of them. Only talking when necessary to give reports. You try to give them to Titus or maybe Indra, though you have real chances of getting out of that harmed with the latter.
- Most people are distrusting and waring of you. It makes sense. You are a traitor.
So. You are happy to avoid as much people as you can.
- Neither Clarke nor Lexa lets you.
Ot3 dynamic
- Their trope is gay mess :)
- At first, it was Clarke.
- You were outside. Layed at the ground. Staring at the stars.
- Clarke obstruct your view, only to ask
"Youre stargazing? Do you mind if i join you?"
- You only nod.
- She lays by your side.
- For some minutes. You only look at the sky. Blue almost black with little points of light. Like snowflakes when they fall and the sun hits them just the right way. Demesmerizing. Sometimes you forget that winter, the cold, can be just as majestic as it is cruel and unrelenting.
- Clarke breaks your line of thought.
- "The stars aren't nearly as pretty from the space as they are from here."
- "Really? You came from the sky, Wanheda. You are saying the sky is not beautiful?"
- "It can be." she turns her head at you. but "it doesn't compare to Earth."
- She holds her stare. This time not on the sky, but on you. And you hold your breath. Scared to break the moment. To end this. To come out of this "bubble"/dream. To think of what she means. What her shining gaze means.
- At the end, is Clarke who turns away.
- "Earth may have its flaws but it still is pretty."
- You remain silent. Still unbalanced. Still wondering and confused.
- Clarke leaves not much longer after that.
- And as she gives a last look, a thought comes to you unbidden.
- Her eyes are blue. Like the sky.
- It doesn't take long for Lexa to come to you.
- It is at the end of the day. She comes to your room. Not in her Heda clothes. Just in her normal outfit. Looking achingly like the young girl she was. So soft. With so much burdens to carry. The way her shoulders were low. Her hair loose. Her eyes demure. Open. Tired.
- She wasn't there to fight. Wasn't there to manipulate you, yell at you. Punish you.
For more that you deserved.
- You deserved it. Her hatred, anger, pain, the guilt. And yet, there she was. In front of you. So damn vulnerable. Nothing like the unbreakable and fierce warrior.
- Your heart squeezed in your chest.
- You might have done anything and everything if she asked you.
- What she does asks you, though, takes a lot out of you to comply.
- "Why?" is what finally comes out of her mouth.
- "Why what?"
- "i- i don't know..."
- "Why?"
- Why you tried to kill me? Why you didn't? Why you betrayed me? Why you ran? Why you still hurt me?
- "You always knew about Costia. You knew they had her. You were there."
- "...yes..."
- "Did she die well?"
- "Yes." your first instinct is to confort. To lie.
- You weren't there when she died. But you knew it wasn't a painless or honorable death.
- You just couldn't bring yourself to say that to Lexa. Not when she looked so damn vulnerable. Breakable.
- "Hm...."
- "I'm sorry, Lexa."
- "so am i." Again, her gaze could tear you apart. Shred your heart to pieces. More than it already was. Lexa had that power over you.
- "why didn't you kill me? You had the chance. I hesitated."
- and so did I. But that's not what she asked. She asked why.
Why didn't you kill her?
- "I couldn't bear the possibility of killing you. The mere thought made me sick. I thought i could get past that... That flaw. Weakness. But the time came and... I couldn't."
- There were few moments in which you are as truthful as this. You look in Lexa's eyes. Green as the forest.
- You always loved the nature. The sky. The florest.
-" i thought despite my inner feelings, i could push through it. I could... Do it..
I've come to care for you as i gotten to know you."
- You felt tears gathering behind your eyes.
- "And i'm so sorry that i betrayed you. Your trust. I never meant to. You deserve so much more. You are so much more."
- you kneel before her. Droplets of tears streaming down your face.
- "Lexa, you are an amazing Heda. And an incredible woman. You endured so much pain. You lost so much. And yet you stay strong, you care about your people."
- "I am sorry, Lexa. If i could go back, i would. You deserved so much more, and i just didn't give you that. I am so so sorry"
- Lexa joins you in the ground. And hugs you.
- You felt a weight off your shoulders as you cry and your shirt gets wet with Lexa's tears.
- You get hurt or something akin to that. And Lexa gets worried alongside Clarke.
While Clarke fawns ovr you and take care of you (<3), Lexa only watches.
- Clarke asks you what happened.
- You very begrudginly tell briefly what happened.
- Lexa is quick to chastise you and say you shouldn't take such risks.
- You counter saying you got valueable information. It was worth the risk.
- She says looking you in the eye. Piercing green eyes. And stony face. But with something vulnerable in her. Soft.
"Not over your life."
- As the time progresses you see yourself spending more and more time with Wanheda and Heda.
- Sometimes separate and sometimes the three of you together.
- Your favorite moments were when Adrien tagged along with the three of you.
- You weren't someone that felt happy that much.
- Life to you was bland. Meek. Grey. Blue.
- Now, though, you felt your chest light and filled with this fire. Warm and confortable. Chasing the cold away.
- One day, you were with Clarke. And for some reason, the air felt stuffed. Like a snowstorm just waiting to happen.
- The stares lingered, and the touches were more intimate.
- It didn't take long to Clarke to make the first move.
- You already had sex before. It wasn't that daunting of a task.
- At the begining, you get stunned. You thought she was with Lexa.
-You seen the stares, the longing. The love.
- you resist at the begining. Thinking of how Lexa would react. Her heart. Her trust. Broken.
- "what about Lexa?" You ask amidst moans.
- "What about her?"
- "Won't this upset her? Aren't you together?" You were trying your very best. But Clarke had nimble fingers and a skilled mouth. You don't think you'd resist much more.
- "Don't worry about her. She's fine."
- You don't resist anymore. You don't think you ever could with the blonde.
- You love the squeal that leaves Clarke as you let go and throws her in the bed.
- In the next few days, you are very wary. And watch with hawk eyes every little interaction between Clarke and Lexa.
- You can't take it. You couldn't betray Lexa. Not again. Not like this. You needed to talk to Clarke.
- "No. clarke. I can't."
- "I love you."
- "W-what?"
- "I love you."
- Dumbstruck. Of all the things, you never expected this. Love.
- An inner, minor, part of you thought: Weakness.
- You were quick to extinguish that thought.
- Mostly, you were just happy. Relivied.
- She loved you. She loves you.
- You kiss.
- then. You stop.
- "What about Lexa?"
- Clarke smiles, affectionate. "She knows. She's ok."
- You don't try to refute, and allow yourself to enjoy the moment of happiness.
- Doesn't take much longer for Lexa to come to you.
- You are tense. Afraid. Fearful that you were part of something that hurt your Heda.
-"Clarke told me you are together. Congratulations."
-you gaze at her face. Waiting to see sadness. Anger. Maybe even disgust. But no. She was normal.
-Well, indeed, when Clarke said she was fine. She was.
-She talks about something. You know she does. You don't pay attention, though.
- You were appalled. Waiting for the disaster to happen. The guards to come. The blade to be unshelth. Her smile simmer down. Become less distracting. Her curves less attractive. Her hair was down. Her clothes were normal.
-She was a sight to behold.
- Lexa takes the initiative. Not because you didn't want to do it. But just because you wouldn't. Too afraid to do something wrong.
-you stop. Though you didn't want to. To ask. "No. Wait. What about Clarke?"
-"She knows and agreed."
- For a moment. Fleeting. You wondered why do they always know? Why were you always the last to get that information? You weren't used to not knowing things. Secrets.
-You don't keep on that thought though. Lexa's lips were far more enticing.
-Later, with a clearer head and no pretty distractions, you wonder about your situation.
- and as you come to the conclusion you were done being confused, angry and a bit frustrated, you call Lexa and Clarke to meet you.
- you get everything in the open. Everyone confesses. It's cute. It's awesome. It's wholesome. Yay.
- You are officially together. Congrats. You bagged Heda and Wanheda. I would brag.
- The problem though is getting together with the two leaders? Not easy.
- They are always stressed. Always overworked. Poor babies.
- At some point, you learn some techniques to relax and put those two at ease.
-They were leaders. They were the ones who'd make the shots. You were fine being in the background, just following their lead.
- Clarke has a better time dealing with her emotions. While you and Lexa tend to bottle it up.
- When the hundred get on earth, reader is 20, Lexa is 19 and Clarke is 18. (Yes, you are the oldest suck it up)
- Clarke would be your moral compass. While she understood that sacrifices and a more rough approach were needed, she tried her best to reign you two in. Most times she succeeded. Most.
- Ya'll are switches. I don't take criticism on this. It's true and that's it. Bye.
- You hunt together. It tends to be romantic and fun.
- none of you were much of a jokester, but you find yourselves joking around each other.
-Adrien is your adopted child. Maybe Maddie comes along later. Now though it is only Adrien.
Your happiness doesn't last much. Because of course not. You were never that lucky.
You hear from Nia and Rowan.
Those two come back.
Lexa kills Nia. Rowan becomes the king. You reunite. Cry. Bond.
The rebels dismantle
You guys live happily.
End.
Did i edit? Tried rereading to fix errors? No. And i won't either.
If it sucks, i don't care. Bye.
I've done my part. Now y'all go write for Clexa x reader.
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