#covert narcisissm

[vizthedatum]

I remember seeing the flyers for domestic violence in the bathroom whenever I’d go to urgent care.

I usually would be getting in to check if I had a UTI

It was the easiest way to get antibiotics on short notice

Or to be validated in my IC diagnosis!

Anyway

I’d think to myself -

Well I’d dissociate first -

And I’d think

That’s not my situation

They’re not physically abusive

I’m not scared of my best friend

They would never hurt me

And my body would plunge into more pain as I left my urine sample for the nurse

[thaumantic]

I really wish i could make really quick meme art like i’ve seen others do because I get so many ideas that arent funny described but, visually, would be very funny in my opinion. sigh

anyways tldr listeining to antihero by ts  is really funny when u imagine the lines being read by the red prince

[narcissistpsychopath-abuse]

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[strangedog74]

Alfred Alfer: The Covert Narcissist

Guys lol its me. It all makes so much sense.... 

The guy assumes everyone who watches this is coming there because they’re with someone who’s a Covert Narc. Everyone in the comments are there because they’re with someone. What about all the people who are researching it because they think they are one themselves? 

AHHAAHAH 

Not sayin’ im one completely, it’s all a spectrum. But this video makes too much sense guys... atleast in terms of Alfred! : ]

“They feel entitled, they feel they deserve more than everybody else, but at the same time they hold the conflicting thought, ‘I’m not good enough’, that they don’t deserve it....” (loosely quoted) “A covert narcissist may be a brilliant painter, he’s better than anybody else out there, and that he is more deserving, But at the same time he has this voice inside his head that says You Suck You Suck You Suck ....” 

And sooooooo much more! 

>: ] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-WVLZXLyO-M

[vizthedatum]

There will always be a part of me that wishes I had never left.

I had to leave, knowing that I woke up that day (and every single day prior for the past several years) choosing and falling in love with someone who was not choosing and falling in love with me.

I had to leave, not knowing whether I'd be begging to return ("I'll do anything - I'll isolate for 30 days or forever. Please, I love you. I'll do whatever you want.") or never returning again ("Hi Jon. This is Pri. I am safe. I am going to hand the phone over to a friend who is helping me. Her name is [--] and she is going to read from a script. Hi Jon. I am helping Pri. They are safe. I am reading from a script they wrote and gave me permission to read to you. Pri no longer feels safe being in a relationship or in contact with you. They will be seeking a divorce immediately. They have no desire to hear from you or speak to you except in relation to concluding your current lease, the logistics of the divorce, and ending utilities under their name. Ideally, Pri will continue to pay their half of the rent and utilities until your lease concludes in the summer.").

I had to leave, loving you.

I had to leave when I thought I would die if I left. I had to leave, hoping you'd tell me and everyone else that you were wrong. That you were hurting me. That you were sorry that you hurt me so many times. That you would get help. That you would finally go to couple's counseling with me. That YOU WERE WRONG.

I had to leave, knowing that you might never get it. That people might not believe me. That I would lose so many people in my life.

I had to leave, knowing that you'd hate me.

I had to leave, blowing my entire life up and not knowing how it would turn out.

I had to leave, questioning myself "why? this isn't real abuse. this can't be real abuse. they tell me they love me every day. there is virtually no physical violence. i've been raped and assaulted so many times before - this isn't like that, right? this isn't really real mind control. they can't do this knowing what i've been through. they know what consent is. they know what it looks like when i'm in pain. they love me. they're doing what's best for me. they will take care of me. we made vows. we're married. we're family. we're best friends. i married my best friend. i married my best friend. I MARRIED MY BEST FRIEND."

I had to leave, not knowing what I consented to and what I didn't consent to. I had to leave, disabled and in pain - not knowing if I'd flare so hard that I wouldn't be able to walk or be functional... or if I'd get better. I got so much better. Can't you see that I'm healthier now? Can't you see that you took my shine away from me, all those years, without remorse or acknowledgment?

I had to leave, knowing that you took years off of my life - that you put me in such stressful situations, my brain couldn't process it. I just wanted to stay until I couldn't feel anymore. If I stayed, there was no doubt I'd become more visibly disabled... maybe then you'd actually internalize that I am disabled (or maybe you'd just resent me more).

I had to leave, with everything I could fit in my car, including my violin.

I had to leave, just to be homeless for several weeks... and dysregulated for months.

I had to leave while fighting to be strong when I didn't want to. I DON'T WANT TO BE LIKE THIS. It's entirely too hard and too unreasonable. I don't want to be strong anymore. I'm so tired.

I had to leave while my brain was screaming, crying, fighting, pleading, yearning, persuading me... that it isn't that bad, please just stay. Go back to being monogamous. Go back to being a girl. Go back to masking. Go back to being subservient. Go back to people-pleasing. Go back to ignoring things that don't make sense to you. Go back to being yelled at for communication styles that only your partner yells at you for. Go back to apologizing profusely. Go back to your nervous system being constantly on alert. Go back to feeling like the way you touch, kiss, move, and behave are all wrong. Go back to not really being kissed even when kissed. Go back to the weaponization of intimacy. Go back to being the stupid epidemiologist who should take healthcare advice from a programmer with no experience in healthcare. Go back to trying not to mess up, but messing up anyway, then being yelled at, then trying to remember all the things not to mess up, then messing up again, then being yelled at that you don't really care/love them, then being yelled at that you're doing it on purpose, then being yelled at about how much they have to put up with, then getting so stoned or dissociated that you can think again... all the while wondering if you were the abuser all along.

I had to leave, loving and believing in you so hard that subsequently, for weeks, I told everyone that you didn't mean to hurt me, but that you did, and that maybe you'd change and make it up to me... and having everyone I confided in look at me with such sadness and pity, while I fell apart.

I had to leave, knowing that there will always be a part of me that wishes I had never left.