#dangerously depressed

[images-that-are-only-cursed]

[fairweathermyth]

"I have left my faith. Or it has left me. Thus, my prospects seemed only a long, dark corridor without an end. I have done things in my life for reasons that seemed right and even moral in their violent immorality. And now I stand without that God upon whom I have always depended. But please do not fear for me. I have no fear myself. The old monsters are gone. The old curses have echoed to silence. And if my immortal soul is lost to me, something yet remains. I remain." - Vanessa Ives in Penny Dreadful

[dafry-shenanigans]

An antiqurian and archeologist walks into a bar...

[depressedlover2000]

[pourcap]

i know laurent doesn't think of himself as deserving of love but i do wonder if despite that, he ever let himself dream of being in love. if every now and then, he spent a night awake fantasizing about being with someone who is there for him him, whose touch he craves, who listens and understands. and then damen happens, and he is and does all that laurent has always wanted and needed and more, but he's damianos.

[martyrbat]

dc holiday special (2017)

*puts on my scholar glasses* is the cookie tiny or are his hands gigantic?

[satans-knitwear]

It is sooooo hard to enjoy things rn?? All I can do is fixate with below average intensity (for me) as some kind of comfort seeking mechanism.

[sirinoke]

"From the look on your face, you're already planning your next crazy move." "Why so pessimistic? Everything was fine last time."

[quaranmine]

if my current idea trajectory stands then chapter one of alpenglow will have just. an incredible amount of tonal whiplash LOL

[thermodynamic-comedian]

broski you have invaded my brain, I was listening to will wood earlier and heard the line "disease is in the eye of the beholder" and thought of janelias/parasight-

you can't keep this up unless you start paying rent, I've already got too many freeloaders living rent free in here 😤

OMG WAIT THAT LYRIC FROM MARSHA IS LITERALLY SO THEM. how did i never even realize,,

[etherealsw4n]

Sylvia Plath appreciation post

[thesmpisonfire]

Smth smth Mike's explosive and destructive anger that might destroy some bridges if he let out smth smth him being a creeper smth smth

[snarp]

Apothecary Diaries needs a very firm large-text disclaimer like "The author of these books did no research and is dangerously-wrong about a lot of the medical "facts" presented."

[shortnotsweet]

APPLES IN THE SKY (excerpt from THE THRILLING AND NOT AT ALL REPETITIVE ADVENTURES OF CAPTAIN MAN AND KID DANGER: “A CHRONOLOGY OF ENTIRELY TRUE AND HEROIC EVENTS COINCIDING WITH THE END OF HISTORY”) [1] [2] [3]

[ Henry’s face is unreadable. In the background, desert mountains and vegetation rush past. Smoke rises in the distance, backlighting ambiguous red shapes that could be plant life, flaming crosses, or even ominous figures. The camera cuts to the back of the car with the invalid license plate reading “HERO”, speeding towards a red horizon. Ray twists back in his seat with a smile, reflected in the lens of Henry’s sunglasses. In the review mirror, Henry’s expression is contemplative. The shot pans to a bird’s eye view of the car eating up highway miles. ]

Charli XCX’s “Apple” from BRAT (2024): “I guess the apple could turn yellow or green. I know there's lots of different nuances to you and to me—I wanna grow the apple, keep all the seeds, but I can't help but get so angry you don't listen to me. To the airport—the airport.”

PANEL NOTES:

The smoke is an implication of wildfires in the surrounding area, which Henry and Ray simply drive past because there’s nothing else to do. Maybe those days are behind them. Maybe they’re just not adept in the art of firefighting, and the bigness of a wildfire is too rural or too raw for them to even adress. I think there’s a sort of irony to it, and it’s either heroes ignoring a disaster past their prime or simple not caring; they’re speeding off into an undefined future and therefore no longer grappling with apathy, but sliding into it. Thus, the road is interpreted as a junction between natural conflict running its course and urban obligation.

This was vaguely inspired, albeit not lifted directly, from my millionth or so reread of “Cuticle Tear” by atbash on AO3. Granted, it takes place in a broken-down truck and is not needlessly melodramatic, but AO3 user atbash does more with obligatory dialogue and omitted assumptions than I could do in 20 panels or so.

Specifically, the lyric “‘cause I’ve been looking at you so long now I only see me. I wanna throw the apple into the sky, feels like you never understand me, so I just wanna drive…” struck me as somewhat in line with the feeling—and example—I got from the fic.

Of course, neither yellow or green are used in the actual color palette, but the song carries themes of intertwined identity and generational effects passed down. I think Ray has imparted a lot of the best and worst things about himself to Henry, through the means of their friendship, professional, and mentor relationship. He’s not his dad. It’s worse, almost, that he’s not, because then it would at least be hereditary.

“Apple” is my favorite BRAT (2024) song right now, so of course it’s stuck in my head; I think there’s a flippant, escapist quality to it and can imagine two friends listening to it on the highway, checking out, but also—there’s not quite a realization, more like an unspoken feeling that what you are is a product. And it’s someone else’s fault. And when you look at each other, you’re seeing something else, or maybe you’re trying to. There’s something distantly escapist and obviously upbeat about the song, but there’s a disdain there, too.

It’s hardly visible, but the license plate on the car reads “HERO” singular, which is invalid but implies they have either a fake plate or Swellview is just so strange that their town itself has exceptions as to how they’re issued, again violating the laws and conventional physics of surrounding territory. They’re a weird exception, as always, and they’re getting away with it.

Their identities are so intertwined at this point that theyre conflated, so there’s an obligatory ego flattening going on as well as an erasure of both or one of them—most likely Henry’s—to accommodate. You might call it being a teammate, although how Henry feels about it after all this time is unsure.

Ray did this to him, the good and the bad doesn’t matter; it’s the fact that he did it.

[knifekris]

every day i struggle to make choices

[shopcat]

far be it for me to judge how people go about making fan content as a trans person but i feel like if the vast majority of not the whole of it is centred around the Trans Experience being nothing but suffering and only being able to use these lenses to deal characters fictional transphobia to face and/or dysphoria that doesn't sound like you're coping with the various complex difficulties of what being trans can be like it just sounds like you're in hell 😭 like purely talking about how ppl talk about their headcanons here bc the topic at large is way too complex for me to even try and say anything about but you so seriously cannot be like "yes i love when this character is trans" and then make their existence absolutely miserable. DURING PRIDE MONTH...