#depressing cw

[tabby-shieldmaiden]

My intrusive thoughts: “Hey, maybe the fact that your University graduate parents wanted you and planned for you was a sign that you weren’t actually a soul which needed to be here. Maybe that’s why you don’t intuitively understand yourself and your likes and dislikes. God didn’t push through to put you here, he just conceded to one-and-a-half mortals’ demands. Maybe that’s why you can’t stand the thought of who your “true self” could possibly be. Maybe that’s why you’re meant to be just a faceless member of society.”

My agnostic thoughts: “Or maybe you’re just tired and hungry and mad at everyone and dehydrated and about to start your period.”

[snarp]

Examples of people who feel that they are "normal about astrology" in the reblogs of a post about astrology-based discrimination:

Translation: "It is reasonable to judge a person by their "full birth chart", but not just their sign. I know all about this. I am a good Birthday Bigot who is bigoted against the right people."

Translation: "It's reasonable to refuse to associate with someone because of their "birth chart". There is a "worst sign" to be. It's not mine. Please trust me, fellow Birthday Bigots."

Translation: "It is acceptable to discriminate against people with Gemini in OTHER parts of their "birth chart" - but not against me. You are practicing astrology-based discrimination incorrectly. I am a better Birthday Bigot than you."

Translation: "People who say that they have experienced astrology-based discrimination are at fault for their own problems, as it is easy to recognize and avoid bigots (who never conceal the nature and seriousness of their beliefs). In any case, discrimination of this kind is a "fandom thing," not a real problem; those who claim otherwise in the post I am reblogging have clearly simply failed to be normal enough. Openly-disliking astrology is at least as bad as astrology-based discrimination. (You should never be honest about your beliefs if you think they might upset someone.)"

[prospitianescapee]

If you are in the United States and capable of becoming pregnant, or text-message people who are, please install the secure messaging app Signal.

It doesn't matter whether you or your friends would ever want an abortion - if you can get pregnant, you can miscarry. In places where abortion is banned, every miscarriage is treated as a potential murder. Don't talk about pregnancy where law enforcement can hear you.

[dumblemonchickenwing]

my stuff, gif warning, oc, depressed face cw

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

[i-am-confused-always]

what I say: “it is what it is”

what I mean: “I have cried about this for hours and have probably self harmed and contemplated suicide over this.

[ionomycin]

Welcome home

[bittwitchy]

some new sad girl guy spring dialogue for sebby!

also bonus bc its summer 13 now and i already gave him a bouquet

[lostmf]

[snarp]

Cut for gloom/crime:

Christ I wish I'd been conscious enough to extract the Fallen London app data while it still existed. I knew it was possible pretty much as soon as I installed it, because I kept encountering glitches that would not have been possible unless the app was storing most of the game data locally.

I kept thinking "I HAVE to rip this before they realize how bad they fucked up and fix it". But this was during one of my worst early bedbound periods, and I just couldn't sit up and think clearly enough for long enough to do it.

Depressingly, this was one of the things that drove home to me how seriously sick I'd gotten: this shouldn't actually have been all that hard a task. I think I could have done it if I'd had a period of a week or two where I was able to think straight and move around normally for at least 8 hours each day. But in all the time the app was up, I never managed that.

[prospitianescapee]

Also, I am sorry to be rude, but there is another reason that it is maybe not great to be the Bank of Startups, which is that nobody on Earth is more of a herd animal than Silicon Valley venture capitalists. What you want, as a bank, is a certain amount of diversity among your depositors. If some depositors get spooked and take their money out, and other depositors evaluate your balance sheet and decide things are fine and keep their money in, and lots more depositors keep their money in because they simply don’t pay attention to banking news, then you have a shot at muddling through your problems.

But if all of your depositors are startups with the same handful of venture capitalists on their boards, and all those venture capitalists are competing with each other to Add Value and Be Influencers and Do The Current Thing by calling all their portfolio companies to say “hey, did you hear, everyone’s taking money out of Silicon Valley Bank, you should too,” then all of your depositors will take their money out at the same time.

[m-aximumjoy]

Some interesting similarities between the forms of Falling Devil and Darkness Devil.

There’s the use of multiple bodies to create a singular form, the angular shapes, the mantis-leg-like appendages, the sheer height.

These two also share very strong hand motifs, which makes sense for both of them: when it’s dark, you have to feel your way around, usually with your hands; when you’re falling, you try to grab onto something with your hands.

I’m curious to see if the other Primals look anything like these two.

[stil-lindigo]

scorched earth.

a comic about a princess who died in a fire.

(this is a sequel to bite of winter, a comic about Snow and what became of her after her death.)

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creative notes:

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[spilledkaleidoscope]

Horrific Necktie

[buggachat]

“movie!adrien is just show!adrien but depressed” DO YOU GUYS NOT THINK SHOW!ADRIEN IS DEPRESSED??? 😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱