#day 23 may also be late but it's fine. been busy lol

[overdevelopedglasses]

Tojoctober Day 22 - Stamina

(So step on up to the plate)

Alt title is from “Time to Make History”, P4G's Battle Theme

A question is posed to the group: Who has the best stamina??? 

(No spoilers!)

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“Alright then!” Majima stands up from his seat, slamming his drink onto the bar, drawing the attention of all of the occupants in the room. New Serena was a lot more packed than normal, and a cheery atmosphere was in the air.

“We’re really doing this, Majima-san?” Majima looks down at Kiryu, who was seated next to him at the bar. If anyone else was looking at the dragon, they’d think he’d be worried, but Majima knows the man better than most.

“We’re doing this, Kiryu-chan. Oi, you four!” Majima shouts, drawing the eyes of Saejima, Akiyama, and two others who Majima thinks he remembers the names of… Tanimura’s the one in the blue jacket, and Shinada is the scruffy guy… right?

“Who in here has the most stamina?”

“Well, it’s obviously me, brother.” Saejima laughs and takes a swig of his drink. “Have you seen me?” Saejima takes a moment to subtly flex, drawing a chuckle from his sworn brother.

“What about me?” Shinada pipes in, “I was a baseball player, you know. And I’ve kept up with my training all this time.”

“Well, it’s definitely not me!” Akiyama jokes, and everyone laughs.

“Why don’t we have a friendly competition?” Tanimura suggests. Everyone else nods in agreement. “But how do we test stamina?” Kiryu asks? “There are multiple uses for the skill, so how do we figure out rules for a competition?”

“I’d suggest a brothel, but I don’t think everyone here would be alright with that,” Akiyama says, with a bit of mischief coating his expression. “Besides, that’s a backwards use for stamina with this group.”

“Awww, c’mon!” Majima fake-whines, earning a jab in the ribs from Kiryu.

“Why don’t we do a footrace?” Saejima suggests. “We can use South Senryo Avenue, it’s pretty clear at this time of day.”

“But isn’t that a test of speed?” Kiryu inquires.

“Well, it could be, but what if we did the most amount of back and forth laps?” Tanimura answers, brow creased in though. “Whoever lasts the longest wins!”

“But that’s only one test of stamina. We've implied there are multiple uses for the shit.” Majima interjects. This was a harder question to answer than he initially thought. 

“What about the batting cages?” Shinada says, “Whoever lasts the longest in those wins?”

“Not a terrible idea, Shinada-san.” Akiyama replies, “Although I do feel like you have an advantage there…” “We’ll do the batting cages second then.” Kiryu says. 

“Alright. To Senryo Avenue?” Tanimura asks.

5 different pitches of agreement sound off, and all of the men rush out of the bar.

“Well, there’s already a problem.” Kiryu says, as they arrive at the entrance to the street, the Kamurocho sun providing some light, but not doing a lot to puncture the winter chill that had settled upon the group.

“Haw? What problem, Kiryu-chan?” Majima asks, giving the space a once over. The street’s pretty clear, as his brother had said. The ground is pretty smooth, too.

“The street isn’t wide enough, Majima-san” Akiyama saunters to Majima’s other side. “We can’t all go at once. We’ll have to race in 2 groups of 3. So… everyone partner up?”

The group splits apart, and pairs are quickly made. Majima decides to change it up from who he instinctually thinks of as a partner, and picks Tanimura. Saejima pairs up with Kiryu, which leaves Akiyama and Shinada together. The detective does make Majima a bit antsy, however he trusts in what Kiryu had told him earlier, that the detective wouldn’t sell out him or his brother.

“Alright, so… Kiryu, Shinada, and Tanimura, get ready. The rest of us, count how many single laps that your partner completes. When everyone’s done, we’ll swap and do the same thing.” Akiyama instructs.

Majima pulls his phone out, remembering it had a simple counter feature. He brings it up, and resets it to zero.

“Alright, gentlemen.” Majima walks out in front of all 3 of them. “Remember, yer racin for stamina, not speed. Get to the edge of Taihei Boulevard,” Majima points to the end of the road, “and then get yer asses back here, and on and on until ya can’t anymore. When ya think yer done…” Majima pauses, thinking for a second, “wave your arms in the air frantically until yer partner signals at you, and then get outta the way of the others.” Somehow, everyone agrees with what Majima is saying.

“Allllright then! On yer marks…”

The three men who are ready to race assume starting positions.

“Get set……”

Majima wishes he had some sort of starting gun with him. He’d shoot it at Kiryu to make him jump. As a prank… as you do.

“GOOOOOOOOOOO!”

With Majima’s shout, the three men were off. Majima has to jump out of the way quickly, as Kiryu almost barrels into him.

Majima takes his place between Akiyama and Saejima, phone with the counter in hand, as he watches Tanimura sprint to the end of the road, Kiryu and Shinada not far behind.

“Tanimura-san does realize he’s running for stamina, right?” Akiyama asks, as Tanimura is already running back towards them.

“I’m not sure. He’s really hoofin’ it though.” Saejima replies, as Majima inputs another tick on the counter.

Akiyama’s prediction was right, as Tanimura comes up to Majima shortly after, waving his arms in the air frantically. 

“Alright, alright, I get it, detective boy. Go take a breather.”

Tanimura pats him on the shoulder, then slumps against the building. “I… feel like… I did that wrong.” he puffs out, taking off his jacket to assist with oxygen intake. Majima almost opens his mouth to say that it won’t help, but shuts it when Tanimura immediately shivers and puts it back on.

“How are the others doing?” he asks, hands now crossed in front of his chest.

“Kiryu-san is on lap 5. Still going strong from the looks of things,” Saejima says. 

“That’s Kiryu-chan for you,” Majima says, smirking.

“Shinada-san is at lap 7,” Akiyama pipes in. “Can’t tell his condition from here though.” Majima sees the baseball player at the end of the street, who quickly turns to run back to the group. 

“How many laps did I get, Majima-san?” Tanimura asks, finally having regained his breath.

Majima looks down at his phone, “8. Not bad, but…”

“Fuck.” Tanimura breaths out, back slumping against the wall. The others laugh in response.

“Could do good at the batting cages though, Tanimura.” Saejima says, in an attempt at comfort.

“Yeah, if I’m this winded? I'll be surprised if I even hit a ball.”

"Don't have such a pessimistic attitude, Tanimura-san!" Akiyama replies. 

"I'm being realistic, Akiyama-san." Tanimura shoots back, standing upright.

"That borders on pessimism." Majima counters, and the two men bicker for a bit until Majima sees Kiryu begin to wave his arms in the air.

"Kiryu's done." Saejima said, showing the others his counter, which reads 16.

"16???" Tanimura exclaims. "Well, shit."

"That's our Kiryu-chan." Majima says with pride, as he rejoins the others.

"Phew… that takes a lot out of you." Kiryu says, hands on his knees, breathing heavily. 

"Ya need some water?" Majima asks with a touch of concern. He pulls a water bottle out of his coat, which Kiryu accepts happily.

"You didn't ask me if I needed water!?" Tanimura shouts.

"Yer a detective, I figured ya had some!" Majima counters.

Saejima laughs, "He also relentlessly dotes on Kiryu-san, so don't be surprised."

"HEY!" Majima shouts, smacking his brother in the shoulder, causing him to laugh even harder. Kiryu joins in the laughter.

"I always appreciate it, Majima-san," Kiryu says, "Tanimura, do you want some of my water?"

"Fuck you." Tanimura replies, sitting back down on the ground.

"Don't take it out on him!" Majima shouts, trying desperately to mask his anger.

"See what I mean?" Saejima says, laughing.

Shinada finally arrives, tapping out. Akiyama inputs his final lap.

"20! Nice work, Shinada."

Shinada crouches next to Tanimura, who gapes at the baseball star. “I guess you’re just built differently.”

“I mean, is anyone else here a former athlete?”

“I don’t think so. Nice job, Shinada-san.” Saejima says. “But, I guess it’s our turn.”

The pairs swap roles, with Akiyama, Saejima, and Majima all lined up at the start. Kiryu stands in front of them.

“Alright. Same deal as with us. You know how to get yourself tagged out of the laps. Just do the best you can.”

All 3 men nod.

“Ready…”

Saejima and Akiyama take their stances. Majima tosses his sheathed tanto to the side, causing Tanimura to jump slightly.

“Set…”

Majima takes his starting stance.

“GO!!!!!!”

The three men blast off from the starting line, and begin running up and down the street. Majima becomes keenly aware of the burning in his legs, but continues to push on. He does notice Akiyama tag out after 6 laps. Lightweight. Majima thinks.

“How ya doin', brother?” Majima shouts as he passes by Saejima on his 9th lap.

“Doin' alright. What about you?” Saejima responds as they pass each other again in the next lap.

“I can easily keep goin'!” Majima shouts on Lap 11.

“Don’t push yerself!” Saejima pushes Majima in the shoulder lightly, and then watches Saejima tag himself out. It’s just him.

Majima takes stock of his physical condition. His lungs now burn as well, and while Saejima just said he shouldn’t push himself, he’s on lap 14 now, and if he can get over 20 laps, he wins this section.

Well, at least him running all over Kamurocho a bunch since 2005 was now paying its dividends. 

He counts the laps in his head, and while he thinks he's at 20, he doesn’t want to run more laps to make it certain. He jogs back on what he thinks is Lap 22. 

“What’s my count, Tanimura? I’m pooped.” Majima slumps against a building, accepting the offered water bottle from Kiryu.

“24! Majima wins this round.”

“Fuck yeah.” Majima says, weakly putting a fist into the air.

The batting cage round essentially goes the same. Tanimura did predict his performance, as he taps out very quickly. Almost everyone also predicted Shinada winning the baseball round, but Majima came in a close second.

“Well, now we have an issue. Who has more stamina, Majima or Shinada?”

“Well, we needa third round, then.” Majima says. “We can’t pick it, though.” he gestures to Shinada and himself.

“I have an idea…” Kiryu says, and Majima sees a rare sight: Kiryu’s face is the one creased with mischief.

That’s because of course, he drags everyone to Karaokekan, pays for a room, and they all now sit around the screen, with Shinada and Majima holding two mics.

“So, who's up first?” Kiryu asks, Majima noticing the excitement beginning to glimmer in his eyes.

“I’ll go.” Majima stands up, and picks Get to The Top, singing in his own crazy way. While he visualizes a multitude of dance moves, he just focuses on the vocalization. The room cheers once he’s finished.

“Alright, Shinada-san. What do you have?” Akiyama pipes in as Majima takes a seat.

Shinada stands up, and belts out a pretty great rendition of Machine Gun Kiss, sitting down to another round of cheering.

“Alright, from here on, it’s a judge of quality as well. If we think you can’t do it, you’re out. We’ll be as impartial and fair as we can.” Kiryu instructs, and the other 4 men agree. “So, Majima, you’re up next.”

The quality judge is a harsh one. He can’t just pick random songs and scream anymore.

That means…

Majima scrolls over to the 80s hits, and picks the one he knows.

“Wait, Majima-san, you know that song!?” Tanimura asks with wonder in his voice.

“What’s that suppose ta mean?” Majima snaps, but not as harshly as he has before. Tanimura doesn't snap back, the song starts, and Majima almost slips into his 80s mindset with the song, but he resists. He finishes with a flourish, to uproarious applause.

“I think that passes, right everyone?” Tanimura shouts.

3 voices of agreement, and Majima sits with a smile.

“Shinada, you’re up.” Kiryu gives Shinada the mic that works. Shinada, not to be outdone, pulls up a song the gentlemen are pretty familiar with. Shinada also does a couple idol poses, giving the boys a good laugh. He passes the quality check, and Majima is up again.

“Ya have another one in ya, brother?”

“Course I do!” Majima says with a bit of an exasperated huff, and scrolls over to Pride From Despair.

“You sure you know this one, Majima-san?” Kiryu asks with a bit of concern.

“Ya don’t know all of my tricks, Kiryu-chan.”

Turns out, Majima had also learned the actual lyrics to the song, in the time since he and Kiryu had done this together. Kiryu watches in awe, as the other men, minus Shinada, shouted along. Majima ended, passed, and sat back down.

“Well, Shinada-san? You have one in you?” Akiyama asks.

Shinada sits for a second, and ponders for a bit, finally letting out a huge breath of defeat.

“Nah… Majima wins.”

[lexijaynex]

🦩DAY 16 (9/28/23)🎀

Okay! I’m online, I logged in at 1:43p, got my first private and he did a decent show! I’m doing it from the bed and it’s nice, I think I’m liking it. Idk, it’s definitely bringing out the more sensual side of myself lol. Anywho I’m 18 minutes in at $21, so hopefully it’s fast like this!

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Alright I’m 1hr 22mins in and I’m seeing the BS lol. It’s 277 ebonies online so it’s slowing down, and I’m getting a lot of raunchy people! Lol like i didn’t know people got down this bad in the afternoon, but as long as they’re paying I don’t care, but chile they ain’t payin, so they gettin the block!

I had one dude want a*al from me in private chat, which is fine, both of my chats cost the same ($9.99, which I think I’m gonna put my private back to $11.99, because I’m getting more of those in and out folks. Idk how I feel about it yet tho, because I really don’t even have to do much, and I still get coin so idk), but he wanted a*al in the first minute. I didn’t even feel like explaining because it’s written on my profile how I move through a show like that, I just blocked him. I said like, “well since you can’t read I’ma help you out,” and blocked him. It was just the way he requested it, he was just very rude. All money ain’t good money, and I don’t take money from everyone. It may be bad for my business, but if you’re not adult enough to show me an ounce of respect, I have no respect for you or your money. Even though people are paying, I just don’t feel like I have to accept just any ol’ kind of fonky ass treatment, I will take your money and block you. Grow up and treat people right. Get a new account and act right; come back with some BS you get blocked again. Like I’m very low tolerance, even in my personal life, I just don’t feel like I have to deal with anyone who treats me poorly.

Also there were so many guys coming in and writing like Watt-pad paragraphs. I didn’t even read them, I just blocked them or was like “sounds cool,” if they talked about a show, but then they’d just leave because they wanted me to indulge them more. Maybe it’s a flaw I have to fix, but I’m just like a “get to the point,” type of person. I’m not reading your scenarios and responding to your fantasies…you’re getting off on me for free. Or the little tricks like “let me see your outfit,” or “can I see your legs,” like come on lol. I have presets or the block button to deal with that. Now don’t get me wrong, it doesn’t make me mad or anything, it actually concerns me, because how many girls are just entertaining this BS for free, thinking they’re gonna get a show out of it? And I’m only so confident in my ways because I’ve been there, done that. Inside the club and online, they pull the same Tom foolery every time. Like sure flirt a little, laugh, respond, that’s perfectly fine, but I’m not giving it all away. I’ve indulged many customers that way, then they’d think we were friends or got too comfortable and stopped paying me. You have to command the money, or they get lost in the sauce, and then you’ve wasted your time. Just be careful :)

Anyways it’s moving slow and I have some errands to run before I leave my staycation. When I get back, I’ll go ahead and cam, probably late night until payout, so that will be up tomorrow!!

Thanks for reading! 💕

[shesawriter39049]

|Breakdowns & Bugatti’s| M|

     *****  Headcanon’s for my OT7 AU*****

Genre: Rich Kid AU/ Drama/ Suspense/ Smut/ Angst

AU SUMMARY : The story of 8 heirs, who also happen to be the children of some of the most powerful, and well known political figures in The Big Apple! This is a candid look at all of the sex, lies, drama, scandals, couture and boujee affairs that are caught both on, but more importantly off camera!

OR: Gossip girl meet’s HTGAWM? Essentially if GG was on HBO, darker, and had more depth within it’s plot! Which is no shade, I love me some Gossip Girl, but realistically looking back a lot of the “Drama” wasn’t that...deep lol! But we still loved it all the same!

Note:  The first chapter is called “The Kim’s of New York” So these headcanon’s are solely the Kim boys & the OC! ALSO, I just tried to find the most discrete gif for the Y/N there is NO ethnicity for ANY of my OC’s! Also, it’s set to be a OT7 intertwined plot but the smut with the OC will prob only be 3/4 members deep!

***The sneak peek for part 1 which is Namjoon X Reader will be linked***

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Name: Namjoon Kim

Age: 21 Birth place: New York, New York

Current Residence: West Village, New York/ Songpa-Gu, Seoul Korea

Profession: Heir, College student, Entrepreneur, Art lover, Smartass, Heartbreaker (Closet fuck boi) 

College: NYU (Incoming Junior)

Degree: Aiming for a Master’s in Journalism & Political communication. Endgame :Political Journalism

Preferred Degree: Opinion, Trade, or Art Journalism, or a Museum Curator   (Namjoon actually anonymously runs a pretty popular art based travel blog)Namjoon also dabbles in that Soundcloud life making beats under an undisclosed name...however that’s just a hobby....so he says...

Business Type:....Co-owner/founder of an exclusive, invite only, dating service....do with that information what you will!

(Bonus Question ) Licensed Business?: LMAO….sure

Net Worth : 10 Figures

Dating Status : Closet Fuck Boi! Wait, is that not an option? Okay fine. He’s single...ish…Kinda? Well to be fair it depends on the time of day honestly! Is it a Sunday? Are we going to Brunch at Society Café? Or, is it Friday night and he’s going to the “Press Lounge”? More importantly is it election season and and does his father need him to not look like a hoe!? This is all crucial information, I need meticulousdetails honestly! So for the time being I guess I’ll have to pass on the question!

Aesthetic : Tom Ford X Hugo Boss X Valentino X Dior X Tommy Hilfiger = Couture Business Casual! I.E Namjoon always looks like he’s going to some business meeting with Elon Musk, and Jeff Bezos! Even if it’s like...noon on a Saturday and your going on a day trip to Nappa...He’s still in calfskin loafers and a disrespectfully tight button up. Namjoon’s giving like...hot college professor PornHub realness...Yup His whole “Scholar Student” Aesthetic is a whole ass kink and baby boy knows it! 

Political Tie: Father, Joshua Kim, New York Senator

Parents : Father : Joshua Kim, (New York Senator, son of Billionaire tech Tycoon Sang Woo Kim) Mother: Christine Kim : Luxury Event planner

Siblings : Only child

Political Party: Democratic

Actual Political Party: Liberal Daily : Matte Black Porsche 911/ Satin Red Ferrari 458/ Bugatti Veyron Matte red

Name: Seokjin Kim (Jin Kim)

Age: 23

Birth place: London, England

Current Residence: Upper Eastside, New York/ Chelsea London

Profession: Existing, Retired Editorial Model, Entrepreneur, Occasional influencer (When he feels like it) IE, the influencer that never really asked for the titile...he’s just rich and living his life! I mean let’s be real who isn't curious to see how the -1% lives?!

College: University of Oxford

Degree: Maybe he has a Master’s in Business...maybe he dropped out!

Preferred Degree: Culinary Arts...or honestly...just chillin...maybe eventually open his own modeling firm or something down the line!

Business Type:....Jin casually runs high stakes poker matches...and that’s all you need to know for right now….

(Bonus Question ) Licensed Business?:...Again...that’s all you need to know right now…

Net Worth : 10 Figures

Dating Status : Single, and not in the mood to entertain….unless you’ll like...walk yourself out after then maybe...Oh also it’s a requirement that you’re aware there’s more luxury brands than Gucci and Louis Vuitton. Show up in anything straight monogram and Jin’s going flaccid on command!

Aesthetic : Chanel  X  Dior X Cavalli X Dolce X Fendi  = On Duty Runway Model! It truly doesn’t matter if he’s going to brunch, the movies, or sitting front row at Galliano! Jin always looks like he should be front row at Galliano! Whilst also effortlessly looking 10x’S pretter than half of the bitches in Manhattan even on his worst day! Androgyny at its finest, well Jin and Judge Parks son are kinda tied in that department!

Political Tie: Father, David Kim, Mayor’s Chief of Staff/ “Ghost” press secretary

Parents : Father : David Kim, (Retired Corporate Attorney, son of Billionaire Oil Tycoon Hyun-Son Kim) Mother: Lisa Kim, Co- owner of Hotel Shailla, daughter of Michael Lee, Millionaire Entrepreneur )

Siblings : Taehyung Kim (20), Hae Jin Kim (29) Deceased...( Allegedly)  

Political Party: Democratic

Actual Political Party: Honestly, Jin could give less than a damn

Daily : Matte Pink Aston Martin One, White Bugatti Chiron

Name: Taehyung Kim (Tae Kim)

Age: 20

Birth place: Rome, Italy

Current Residence: Cobble Hill, New York/ Pairs, France (When he’s not in school...or just on the weekends)

Profession: College student, Painter, Podcast Host, unwarranted fashion critique/ Stylist! Tae lowkey thinks his IG feed is the reprise of “Fashion  Police” Joan Rivers bless rest her soul..she would’ve loved him!

College: Bernard (Sophomore)

Degree:  Fine Arts (Painting/ Sculpture)

Preferred Degree: Exactly...what he’s doing...he enrolled at NYU for business. Lasted all of like...5 months before he dropped out!

Business Type:....Tae run’s a very...controversial late night Podcast  appropriately titled “Tae unfiltered”! It wasn’t supposed to be a job, lord knows he doesn't need one...However due to the steady increase in his audience the youngest Kim is on track to ending up on Forbes without his inheritance.

(Bonus Question ) Licensed Business?:...Yup!

Net Worth: 10 Figures

Dating Status : Single, and more than ready to mingle, Tae essentially had the same girlfriend all throughout high school! The pair broke up maybe 7 months ago when she opted to go to college in London. So let’s just say he has a lot of making up to do and he’s very much….open to new experiences…

Aesthetic : Guicci  X  Gucci X Gucci X  Gucci X Gucci = Gucci!? Nah, actually Tae, is fond of anything that doesn't...blend in...so Moschino, GCDS, Vetements, Kenzo, Balmain= If it lowkey looks like it could've been homemade...but it cost like bare minimum 4k! Or he just highkey looks exactly like you’d expect, like a very rich, art student who loves funky. abstract, unethical, clothing! Is he going to Coachella or to the farmers market? We may never know but that’s fine! He’s also young, and well aware that he’s fine as fuck, and that’s a whole ass problem! Tae may not have a ton of experience but he’s far from shy and more than down to learn...

Political Tie: Father, David Kim, Mayor’s Chief of Staff (Ghost press secretary)

Parents : Father : David Kim, (Retired Corporate Attorney, son of Billionaire Oil Tycoon Sang Tae Won Kim) Mother: Lisa Kim, Co- owner of Hotel Shailla, daughter of Michael Lee, Millionaire, Entrepreneur )

Siblings : Seokjin Kim (23), Hae Jin Kim (29) Deceased ( Allegedly)

Political Party: Democratic

Actual Political Party: Liberal AFFFFFFFFFFFFF

Daily : Lime Green Lamborghini Huracan/ Matte Grey Ferrari F60

Name: Yn/Ln

Age: 21

Birth Place: Paris, France

Current Residence: Upper East Side, New York/ Dubai

Profession:...Taking pictures, of both herself and other people, ugh...looking attractive? Does that count? Oh being well dressed...Self taught photographer, Fashion Blogger, Creative Director,Entrepreneur...

College: N/A ...Possible freshman at NYU or Bernard or, FIT for Photography & or Fashion

Degree: N/A... IF, she went it would be for Fine Arts/ Fashion degree for Creative Direction

Preferred Degree: Honestly, none, she lives and breathes fashion and due to her lifestyle Y/n already has the type of connections that up and coming photographers would die for! BUT...said college degree would shut her father up...so it’s a possibility! However, it’s not like he considers photography or being a fashion influencer a real job anyway...sooo she mideswell just not even bother!

Business Type:....Existing? Her main job is essentially...breathing...and occasionally taking pictures of other people! Oh, and herself as well, she get’s paid to post daily content! She runs a website called “MyJobIsToBeWellDressed” Co-owner of an exclusive invite only dating service!

(Bonus Question ) Licensed Business?: Yes and...(lmao)...for the first part, where her blog and all of that is concerned, yes...she’s 1099 the full nine! The other job however...................mmm... next question?

Net Worth: 10 Figures

Dating Status :YOLO

Aesthetic : 90’s Couture meet’s “House of Yes” @ 3 AM ( Back when luxury brands weren’t afraid to have fun and be a little risque)  Chanel X Versace X Dolce X Prada X Gucci X Galliano = Well kept sugar baby??? Or every time you see her your literally like “Dude where the fuck are you even going!!??” Baby girl is always overdressed, she showed up to go on a doggy date through central park with Yoongi and Holly in 7 inch Louboutin’s sooo..we love that! Owns literally every vintage 90′s runway archive you can think of...If you’ve gagged over it on Pinterest it’s in Y/n’s closet. She’s smooth as all fuck...that’s for damn sure, radiating the perfect blend of BD and WAP energy....she’s a bad bitch and she knows it! Fuck the entire upper Eastside knows it!

Political Tie: Father, Christopher L/N, New York Senator

Parents: Father : Christopher L/N, (New York Senator, son of Billionaire Automotive Tycoon/ Real Estate Mogul Gregory L/N/ ) Mother: Ashley L/N, (luxury) Interior Designer & Daughter of Hotel Mogul Michael L/N

Siblings: Only child...maybe

Political Party: Democratic

Actual Political Party: Liberal

Daily : Matte Black Bugatti Divo / Satin Purple Lamborghini Murcielago/ Any car that any of her friends are driving because...fuck that, ridding shotty all day!

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There they are!!

The sneak peek is linked below...part 1 is Namjoon X Reader

However Jin and Tae are briefly introduced...and they will eventually have induvial chapters as well!

SNEAK PEEK

[eldritchw1tch]

i don’t want you like a best friend: a tswift-pimms playlist

i don’t want you like a best friend: a tswift-pimms playlist 

link

this is the pimms playlist i spent more than a year working on from like, 2018 to the end of 2019! as such, it only contains music up through lover, not anything from folklore or evermore. @permets-2​ finally poked me into posting the liner notes, which I gave up on because tumblr formatting was fighting me, so please know i haven’t actually looked at them since 2019 and there might still be missing things? idk.

this playlist is absolutely dedicated to my beloved @faiasakura​, who did her own version of an all-tswift pimms playlist completely independently (we actively avoided comparing notes, lol), which can be found here!

i don’t really go here lately but i hope this is of interest to someone!

Prologue

1. Don’t Blame Me (reputation)

for you, I would fall from grace

Just to touch your face

If you walk away, I'd beg you on my knees to stay

…

Lord save me, my drug is my baby

I'll be usin' for the rest of my life

Act 1: The Q

2. Gorgeous (reputation)

a crush

Ocean blue eyes looking in mine

I feel like I might sink and drown and die

…

You're so gorgeous

I can't say anything to your face

'Cause look at your face

And I'm so furious

At you for making me feel this way

But what can I say?

You're gorgeous

3. Treacherous (Red)

something magnetic, pulling them both in

And I'll do anything you say

If you say it with your hands

And I'd be smart to walk away

But you're quicksand

…

Your name has echoed through my mind

And I just think you should, think you should know

That nothing safe is worth the drive

And I will follow you, follow you home

4. Dress (reputation)

a shared and precious secret: love, desperate and messy and everything. But also: the scrutiny, the frenetic anxiety, the fear.

I’m spilling wine in the bathtub

You kiss my face and we're both drunk

Everyone thinks that they know us

But they know nothing about—

All of this silence and patience, pining and anticipation

My hands are shaking from holding back from you

5. Tied Together With a Smile (Taylor Swift)

the pressure builds; jack’s anxiety gets worse

Hold on, baby you're losing it

The water's high, you're jumping into it

And letting go, and no one knows

That you cry, but you don't tell anyone

That you might not be the golden one

And you're tied together with a smile

But you're coming undone

6. Long Live (Speak Now)

the glory, the playoffs, the memorial cup: the golden boys of hockey, on top of the world

Long live the walls we crashed through

All the kingdom lights shined just for me and you

I was screaming, long live all the magic we made

And bring on all the pretenders

One day, we will be remembered

…

Hold on, to spinning around

Confetti falls to the ground

May these memories break our fall

7. State of Grace (Red)

the 34 days, inside kent’s euphoria

This is a state of grace

This is the worthwhile fight

Love is a ruthless game

Unless you play it good and right

These are the hands of fate

You’re my Achilles heel

this is the golden age of something good and right and real

8. Cruel Summer (Lover)

(that golden season and its dark underbelly)

So cut the headlights, summer's a knife

I'm always waiting for you just to cut to the bone

Devils roll the dice, angels roll their eyes

And if I bleed, you'll be the last to know

-

Said, "I'm fine," but it wasn't true

I don't wanna keep secrets just to keep you

And I snuck in through the garden gate

Every night that summer just to seal my fate (Oh)

And I scream, "For whatever it's worth

I love you, ain't that the worst thing you ever heard?"

9. Haunted (Speak Now)

the overdose: kent finds jack on the bathroom floor

Whoa, holding my breath

Won't lose you again

Something's made your eyes go cold

-

Come on, come on, don't leave me like this

I thought I had you figured out

Something's gone terribly wrong

You're all I wanted

10. I Know Places (1989)

kent in the waiting room, holding on hope

Something happens when everybody finds out

See the vultures circling, dark clouds

Love's a fragile little flame, it could burn out

It could burn out

…

Lights flash and we'll run for the fences

Let them say what they want, we won't hear it

Loose lips sink ships all the damn time

Not this time

Act 2: The Fallout

11. The Story of Us (Speak Now)

kent goes to the draft; jack won’t answer his calls

Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room

And we're not speaking

And I'm dying to know

Is it killing you like it's killing me?

Yeah, and I don't know what to say

Since the twist of fate, when it all broke down

And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now

…

The battle's in your hands now

But I would lay my armor down

If you say you'd rather love than fight

12. Last Kiss (Speak Now)

jack and kent, the same realization from opposite sides

So I'll go sit on the floor

Wearing your clothes

All that I know is

I don't know how to be something you miss

I never thought we'd have a last kiss

Never imagined we'd end like this

Your name, forever the name on my lips

13. Death By A Thousand Cuts (Lover)

Starting to live with the devastation and the broken heart

Saying goodbye is death by a thousand cuts

Flashbacks waking me up

I get drunk, but it's not enough

’Cause the morning comes and you're not my baby

I look through the windows of this love

Even though we boarded them up

Chandelier's still flickering here

’Cause I can't pretend it's okay when it's not

It's death by a thousand cuts

14. If This Was A Movie (Speak Now)

regrets and memories

Last night, I heard my own heart beating

Sounded like footsteps on my stairs

Six months gone and I'm still reaching

Even though I know you're not there

I was playing back a thousand memories, baby

Thinkin' 'bout everything we've been through

Maybe I've been going back too much lately

When time stood still and I had you

15. Cold as You (Taylor Swift)

the grief and pain become anger and bitterness

And when you take, you take the very best of me

So I start a fight cause I need to feel something

And you do what you want cause I'm not what you wanted

…

You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray

And I stood there loving you and wished them all away

And you come away with a great little story

Of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you

Interlude 1: Jack

16. I Almost Do (Red)

kent doesn’t know as much as he thinks he does (but jack doesn’t either)

I bet you think I either moved on or hate you

‘Cause each time you reach out, there’s no reply

I bet it never, ever occurred to you

That I can’t say hello to you

And risk another goodbye

…

Oh, we made quite a mess, babe

It’s probably better off this way

And I confess, babe

In my dreams, you’re touching my face

And asking me if I want to try again with you

And I almost do

Act 3: Coming of Age in Vegas

17. New Romantics (1989)

vegas; teammates; living in the moment; drinking, dancing, and self-destructing

We're all here, the lights and boys are blinding

We hang back, it's all in the timing

It's poker

He can't see it in my face

But I'm about to play my Ace (ahh)

We need love, but all we want is danger

We team up, then switch sides like a record changer

The rumors are terrible and cruel

But honey, most of them are true

…

Heartbreak is the national anthem

We sing it proudly

We’re too busy dancing (yeah) to get knocked off our feet

Baby, we're the new romantics

The best people in life are free

18. Begin Again (Red)

kent starts to move on

And you throw your head back laughing like a little kid

I think it's strange that you think I'm funny 'cause he never did

I've been spending the last eight months

Thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end

But on a Wednesday in a cafe, I watched it begin again

19. The Way I Loved You (Fearless)

all the drinking and dancing and dating still feel empty and hollow; he just wants to feel again; he just wants that love back

I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain

It's 2 AM and I'm cursing your name

I'm so in love that I acted insane

And that's the way I loved you

Breaking down and coming undone

It's a roller coaster kind of rush

And I never knew I could feel that much

And that's the way I loved you

…

He can't see the smile I'm faking

And my heart's not breaking

'Cause I'm not feeling anything at all

And you were wild and crazy

Just so frustrating

Intoxicating, complicated

20. The Lucky One (Red)

kent parson: the loneliest boy, so alone at the top of the world

You had it figured out since you were in school

Everybody loves pretty, everybody loves cool

So overnight, you look like a sixties queen

…

And they tell you that you’re lucky, but you’re so confused

'Cause you don’t feel pretty, you just feel used

And all the young things line up to take your place

—

Another name goes up in lights

You wonder if you’ll make it out alive

21. Come In With The Rain (Fearless)

(starting to move on is not the same as letting go)

I’ve watched you so long, screamed your name

I don’t know what else I can say

…

But I’ll leave my window open

'Cause I’m too tired at night to call your name

Just know I’m right here hoping

That you’ll come in with the rain

Act 4: Implosion

22. Out of the Woods (1989)

memories he can’t escape of a love like a car crash

The night we couldn't quite forget

When we decided, we decided

To move the furniture so we could dance

Baby, like we stood a chance

Two paper airplanes flying, flying, flying

And I remember thinking

-

Are we out of the woods yet? Are we out of the woods yet? Are we out of the woods yet?

…

You took a Polaroid of us

Then discovered (then discovered)

The rest of the world was black and white

But we were in screaming color

23. Red (Red)

Kent decides to go to epikegster

Loving him is like driving a new Maserati

Down a dead-end street

Faster than the wind, passionate as sin

Ending so suddenly

…

Remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes

Tell myself it's time now, gotta let go

But moving on from him is impossible

When I still see it all in my head

In burning red

Loving him was red

24. The Last Time (Red)

didja miss me? (something tentative; something a little bit hopeful on both sides)

Find myself at your door

Just like all those times before

I’m not sure how I got there

All roads they lead me here

I imagine you are home

In your room, all alone

And you open your eyes into mine

And everything feels better

25. The Archer (Lover)

kent tries to extend an olive branch but it’s still covered in thorns

Combat, I'm ready for combat

I say I don't want that, but what if I do?

'Cause cruelty wins in the movies

I've got a hundred thrown-out speeches I almost said to you

…

I've been the archer, I've been the prey

Who could ever leave me, darling

But who could stay?

…

And I cut off my nose just to spite my face

Then I hate my reflection for years and years

26. Bad Blood (1989)

jack’s answer to kent’s wounded lashing out

Oh, it's so sad to

Think about the good times

You and I

…

’Cause baby, now we've got bad blood

You know it used to be mad love

So take a look what you've done

’Cause baby, now we've got bad blood, hey!

27. Breathe (Fearless)

kent, driving away from epikegster

I see your face in my mind as I drive away

'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way

People are people and sometimes we change our minds

But it's killing me to see you go after all this time

…

And we know it's never simple, never easy

Never a clean break, no one here to save me

You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

…

And I can't breathe without you, but I have to

Breathe without you but I have to

28. All Too Well (Red)

despite all the pain, there’s an irresistible nostalgia for what they had all those years ago—for when things were so much simpler

Maybe we got lost in translation

Maybe I asked for too much

But maybe this thing was a masterpiece

'Til you tore it all up

Running scared, I was there, I remember it all too well

And you call me up again just to break me like a promise

So casually cruel in the name of being honest

I'm a crumpled up piece of paper lying here

'Cause I remember it all, all, all

Too well

…

Time won't fly, it's like I'm paralyzed by it

I'd like to be my old self again

But I'm still trying to find it

Interlude 2: Kent

29. Fifteen (Fearless)

a memory, a reflection

'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you

You're gonna believe them

And when you're fifteen and your first kiss

Makes your head spin 'round

But in your life you'll do things greater than

Dating the boy on the football team

But I didn't know it at fifteen

…

When all you wanted was to be wanted

Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now

Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday

But I realized some bigger dreams of mine

Act 5: Moving On, Growing Up

30. Clean (1989)

finally learning to be his own person, separate from that shared past

There was nothing left to do (Oh-oh, oh-oh)

When the butterflies turned to

Dust that covered my whole room

So I punched a hole in the roof (Oh-oh, oh-oh)

Let the flood carry away all my pictures of you

…

The water filled my lungs, I screamed so loud

But no one heard a thing

…

Rain came pouring down

When I was drowning, that's when I could finally breathe

And by morning

Gone was any trace of you, I think I am finally clean

31. 22 (Red)

friends and freedom, and real joy in that this time around

It feels like a perfect night

To dress up like hipsters

And make fun of our exes, uh-uh, uh-uh

It feels like a perfect night

For breakfast at midnight

To fall in love with strangers, uh-uh, uh-uh

…

Yeah

We're happy, free, confused, and lonely at the same time

It's miserable and magical, oh, yeah

Tonight's the night when we forget about the deadlines

It's time, oh-oh

32. So It Goes… (reputation)

[a doomed love can still be a good one]

'Cause we break down a little

But when you get me alone, it's so simple

'Cause baby, I know what you know

We can feel it

…

And all the pieces fall right into place

Getting caught up in a moment

Lipstick on your face

So it goes…

…

I'm yours to keep

And I'm yours to lose

You know I'm not a bad girl, but I

Do bad things with you

So it goes…

33. Dancing With Our Hands Tied (reputation)

[a doomed love can still be a good one]

I, I loved you in secret

First sight, yeah, we love without reason

Oh, twenty-five years old

Oh, how were you to know?

…

Could've spent forever with your hands in my pockets

Picture of your face in an invisible locket

You said there was nothing in the world that could stop it

I had a bad feeling

…

I'd kiss you as the lights went out

Swaying as the room burned down

I'd hold you as the water rushes in

If I could dance with you again

34. Wildest Dreams (1989)

[a doomed love can still be a good one]

He's so tall and handsome as hell

He's so bad, but he does it so well

I can see the end as it begins

My one condition is

…

Say you'll remember me

Standing in a nice dress

Staring at the sunset, babe

Red lips and rosy cheeks

Say you'll see me again

Even if it's just in your

Wildest dreams, ah-aah, haa

34. Shake It Off (1989)

At the top of his game, at the top of his sport, and actually happy at long last

I never miss a beat

I'm lightning on my feet

And that's what they don’t see, mm, mm

…

But I keep cruisin'

Can't stop, won't stop groovin'

It's like I got this music in my mind

Saying it's gonna be alright

…

'Cause the players gonna play, play, play, play, play

And the haters gonna hate, hate, hate, hate, hate

Baby, I'm just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake

I shake it off, I shake it off

Heartbreakers gonna break, break, break, break, break

And the fakers gonna fake, fake, fake, fake, fake

Baby, I'm just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake

I shake it off, I shake it off

35. Holy Ground (Red)

Remembering with enough distance and experience to appreciate what was, not ache from it

Spinning like a girl in a brand new dress

We had this big wide city all to ourselves

We blocked the noise with the sound of, "I need you"

And for the first time, I had something to lose

And I guess we fell apart in the usual way

And the story's got dust on every page

But sometimes, I wonder how you think about it now

And I see your face in every crowd

…

'Cause darling, it was good

Never looking down

And right there where we stood

Was holy ground

Act 6: Reunion

36. ME! (Lover)

reconnection, reconciliation, re-appreciation

I know I tend to make it about me

I know you never get just what you see

But I will never bore you, baby

(And there's a lot of lame guys out there)

…

'Cause one of these things is not like the others

Livin' in winter, I am your summer

Baby doll, when it comes to a lover

I promise that you'll never find another like me-e-e

37. This Love (1989)

an unexpected reawakening

Tossing, turning

Struggled through the night with someone new

And I could go on and on, on and on

Lantern, burning

Flickered in my mind, only you

But you were still gone, gone, gone

…

Been losing grip, on sinking ships

You showed up just in time

…

This love is good, this love is bad

This love is alive back from the dead, oh-oh, oh

These hands had to let it go free, and

This love came back to me, oh-oh, oh

38. End Game (reputation) (ft. ed sheeran as jack)

After all this time, there are things they aren’t ever going to let go of again, no matter the trouble they bring

I got a bad boy persona, that's what they like (what they like)

You love it, I love it too 'cause you my type (You my type)

You hold me down, and I protect you with my life

…

I don't wanna touch you, I don't wanna be

Just another ex-love you don’t wanna see

I don’t wanna miss you (I don't wanna miss you)

Like the other girls do

I don’t wanna hurt you, I just wanna be

Drinking on a beach with you all over me

I know what they all say (I know what they all say)

But I ain't tryna play

…

I wanna be your end game (End game)

I wanna be your first string (First string)

I wanna be your A-Team (A-Team)

I wanna be your end game, end game

39. You Are In Love (1989)

something real; something sacred; something to build a life on

You can hear it in the silence (silence), silence (silence), you

You can feel it on the way home (way home), way home (way home), you

You can see it with the lights out (lights out), lights out (lights out)

You are in love, true love

You are in love

…

You kiss on sidewalks

You fight and you talk

One night, he wakes

Strange look on his face

Pauses, then says "You're my best friend"

And you knew what it was, he is in love

40. Change (Fearless)

when the two biggest hockey players of their generation come out of the closet—together—are in love with each other—it changes more lives than just theirs

So we've been outnumbered, raided, and now cornered

It's hard to fight when the fight ain’t fair

We're getting stronger now, finding things they never found

They might be bigger but we're faster and never scared

You can walk away, say we don't need this

But there's something in your eyes says we can beat this

…

'Cause these things will change

Can you feel it now?

These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down

This revolution, the time will come

For us to finally win

And we'll sing hallelujah, we'll sing hallelujah

Oh, oh

41. Call It What You Want (reputation)

When it stops mattering what anyone else thinks

All my flowers grew back as thorns

Windows boarded up after the storm

He built a fire just to keep me warm

All the drama queens taking swings

All the jokers dressing up as kings

They fade to nothing when I look at him

And I know I make the same mistakes every time

Bridges burn, I never learn

At least I did one thing right

I did one thing right

I'm laughing with my lover, makin' forts under covers

Trust him like a brother

Yeah, you know I did one thing right

Starry eyes sparkin' up my darkest night

…

My baby's fit like a daydream

Walking with his head down

I'm the one he's walking to

So call it what you want, yeah

Call it what you want to

42. Lover (Lover)

love

We could leave the Christmas lights up 'til January

And this is our place, we make the rules

And there's a dazzling haze, a mysterious way about you, dear

Have I known you 20 seconds or 20 years?

…

Can I go where you go?

Can we always be this close?

Forever and ever, ah

Take me out, and take me home

You're my, my, my, my lover

43. New Year’s Day (reputation)

love

You squeeze my hand three times in the back of the taxi

I can tell that it's gonna be a long road

I'll be there if you're the toast of the town, babe

Or if you strike out and you're crawling home

…

Don't read the last page

But I stay when it’s hard or it’s wrong or we're making mistakes

I want your midnights

But I’ll be cleaning up bottles with you on New Year's Day

44. Daylight (Lover)

Building a new life in the daylight

My love was as cruel as the cities I lived in

Everyone looked worse in the light

There are so many lines that I've crossed unforgiven

I'll tell you truth, but never goodbye

…

I once believed love would be (burning red)

But it's golden

Like daylight, like daylight

Like daylight, daylight

…

I don't wanna look at anything else now that I saw you

I don't wanna think of anything else now that I thought of you

I've been sleeping so long in a 20-year dark night

And now I see daylight, I only see daylight

[artificialqueens]

Lemon's Misadventures in Dating, Chapter 3 (Lemon x Everyone) - Mermelada

A/N Hi everyone, I’ve been sitting on this chapter for a wee while but couldn’t quite get it right, so I hope this will do! Lots of love to you all!

As soon as Lemon had arrived home after her date with Kyne – at 9 o’clock the following morning – she flopped onto her bed and checked her phone. She opened the app to be greeted with a number of new messages.

[08:48] Hope you got home safe baby, please try not to fall in love with me now xx

The first one she read, from Kyne, made her chuckle, she’d actually had a really, REALLY good time last night. It turned out that there was actually a very easy way to get the girl to stop talking. Kyne had every reason to be cocky, and Lemon hadn’t been made to feel so good for a very long time. She had even managed to go a couple of hours without thinking of her. Speaking of her, they still hadn’t matched, which was definitely for the best, as Lemon didn’t think she could stand the inescapable mutual awkwardness if they did. But then did that mean that Juice had swiped left on her? Deciding to stop the mental tennis before it got out of hand, she pulled up the bottom message on her list, from yesterday.

[16:04] Bonjour hi, Miss Lemon! Tu parles français? Or am I needing to practice my English? :-) 

Rita. From her profile, she looked every bit the no-shit-taking dom top with a major mommy’s little girl kink, but her message was kind of sweet. The fact she had even bothered to check what language Lemon spoke was cute, she supposed, but she crossed her fingers that Rita had an edge and wasn’t all politeness and niceties. Now that Lemon had had her first taste of Tinder hook-ups, she was ready to dive in with no fear. Well maybe just a tiny bit of fear. She quickly typed out a reply, partly assisted by the internet, and sent it off.

[09:09] I’m assuming you don’t count ‘voulez-vous coucher avec moi’ as proper French 😉

Is it completely cliché and unoriginal? Yes. Has Rita probably already received hundreds of messages saying the same thing? Yes. But I’m tired and still feeling fucked out, so it’ll do. If she likes me, she’ll bite. Hopefully for real, soon…

Following on, she finally had a reply from Kiara.

[19:20] Hi girlie! I am SO sorry for replying so late, I have been working all day and all night this week ☹️ but seeing your profile made me feel better 🙂 how are you??

Double-checking quickly in case she’d missed something important, she realised that the girl’s profile didn’t say what she did as a job, so that seemed like a good place to start.

[09:13] Don’t worry at all, hon! But I’m glad I can help 😉 I’m doing okay thanks, and u? What do you do for work? x

Is a kiss on the end too forward or too friendly, she pondered, trying to remember if she’d done the same for Rita and Kyne before her. It’s done now, I’ll soon find out, I guess!

[23:56] You’re named after the wrong fruit, because you’re definitely a fineapple

The third message was from Boa, who she must have matched with during the night. She loved it. She wanted it on a cross-stitch, framed above her bed. She’d definitely made the right choice with this girl. Now, how to match her at her own game… 

[09:15] You udderly impressed me with that one!

As soon as it had sent, Lemon was hit with a massive wave of self-doubt: what if Boa didn’t get the pun and just thought she was weird? She’d always thought she was quite funny, but what if that was all a lie? There was still time to rectify it.

[09:15] Because of the cow costume, get it?

[09:15] It’s so cute!!!

[09:16] You seem really fun 😀

[09:16] And it helps that your hot

[09:16] You’re^ 

Shit shit shitting shit, that is way overboard for a reply. What the fuck have I done? Oh dear lord, well Boa, it was nice knowing ya! I don’t blame you for blocking me and running to the hills!

Some more general swiping ensued as Lemon awaited some replies, she started aimlessly swiping again through the single ladies of Ontario.

Scarlett, 29

Within 10 miles

Hmm, she looks like she has a bit of filler in those lips but she still looks hot, I like her tattoos, and HOLY SHIT SHE’S EATING FIRE fuck yeah, okay Scarlett! I’ll take that!

Ilona, 25

Within 10 miles

Okay I love her make-up, I love her style… all her photos are selfies, does that mean she has no friends? Don’t be silly, Lem, my camera roll is full of selfies and I’m just fine. I think. Hey, Ilona!

Starzy, 38

Within 10 miles

Oh wow, she’s hot. Her bio literally says, “Call me mother”. That has to be the hottest thing I have ever read, yes please!

After a few more likes and dislikes, Kiara’s name lit up at the top of her screen. Not wanting to seem too keen, she waited a monumental thirty seconds before checking the message.

[09:22] I work on a movie set, but nothing glamorous, I help with hair and makeup. It pays my rent 🙂 I am pretty tired today but I have a deadline soon so I have to keep writing ☹️ where do you work? x

Just as she was thinking of the best way to word her current, work-less situation, a reply also came in from Rita, which Lemon accidentally clicked on sooner than she meant to, completely blowing her cool façade.

[09:25] I’ve never heard that one before…

Lemon’s heart sank at the thought of her impending rejection, but a new message arrived seconds later.

[09:25] At least look up how to say it less formally, I’m not that old!!!!

Smiling at the thought of Rita not automatically hating her – not outright rejecting her – Lemon started to type a reply, but stopped when a third message appeared.

[09:26] Mais si je dis oui, es-tu vraiment libre ce soir? ;-)

Somehow, the more Lemon stared at the words, the less sense they made. She now severely regretted passing her time in French class admiring Madame Benet’s assortment of leopard-print clothing, rather than actually learning. But there was a winky face at the end, which made her heart race, even without understanding the rest of it. Highlighting the text and taking it straight to Google, she couldn’t help but bite her lip as she got Rita’s point.

[09:30] Wee wee, madame 💛 give me a place and a time xx

As much as she may have been looking forward to a good night’s sleep tonight, she still felt the swarm of butterflies flap around her tummy at the thought of Rita’s hands on her, telling her she was a good girl… Don’t get carried away yet, dummy, save it for tonight! I need a cold shower if I’m going to survive the next few hours. Before jumping into action mode, though, the first thing Lemon needed was a nap.

Rousing awake a few hours later, she padded downstairs to make herself a sandwich and a tea, continuously checking her phone with the hope tha Rita had replied. Met with silence, she then took her time to shower, deep conditioning her golden blonde hair and shaving everywhere she could, so she could at least feel better prepared than she had yesterday. Not that a grown-up adult lady like Rita would mind, of course, but it’s all part of getting in the zone, Lemon hummed to herself as she let the water wash away any anxiety she might have had about tonight. 

She already knew what underwear she would wear: her favourite black bra with a light furry trim around the cup, and a lacy black thong. She was so sure that Rita was on the same page about how the night would end, she felt like she didn’t have to worry too much about what went over it, opting for indigo skinny jeans and a beige polo-neck. By the time she had finished her makeup, it was almost 5pm, and she still didn’t know the plan. Sitting up on her bed, contemplating how she would explain to her parents that she was spending the night out again, she once again opened the app, hoping that Rita hadn’t backed down. With still no reply, she couldn’t help the frustration which bubbled inside her, she didn’t spend so long stretching to shave the backs of her thighs for nothing! Even more discouraging was the lack of reply from Kiara… until she looked at the last message sent, and realised that she’d unwittingly left the poor girl on read.

Shit, I thought I’d replied already! That explains it… now how to explain that I’m a dancer who doesn’t dance anymore and has moved back in with my parents with no ambition to find anything else anytime soon?

[16:58] You’re a busy lady! What do you study? 😊

[16:59] I’m a dancer, currently hopping from audition to audition, hoping somebody likes me enough!

The reality was that Lemon hadn’t attended any auditions for over a month. She had tried to throw herself into her work after the break-up, but had soon realised that with a broken heart came an enormous lack of drive. She told the contemporary company she was a member of that she needed a break, and they told her to not bother coming back. So here she was, hoping that one day she’d once again wake up with a flame inside of her. Luckily, Kiara didn’t push her to expand on anything just yet.

[17:04] So a bit like Tinder then! Don’t worry, I’m sure lots of people will like you enough… in dance and Tinder!

[17:05] I study film and theatre, it’s fun 🙂 but a lot of essays to write in English which takes me forever lol

[17:06] That makes me sound like an idiot!! I promise I’m not, just Québéquoise!! 

[17:06] Are you from Toronto? 🙂

Well at least if tonight doesn’t go ahead, I’ve still got a French option for the future, she sighed, running her fingers through her hair as she thought of an answer. 

[17:08] Haha, I believe you 😉 my dad is from Portugal, but I think there are 2 year olds who speak better Portuguese than I do 🥺 

[17:08] That sounds super interesting! Your job on the side must help a bit then?

[17:08] And I am, Toronto gal born and bred! How long have you lived here?

Just as she was about to put her phone down for the evening and fall into another nap, the message she’d been waiting for finally arrived, and Lemon found herself scrambling to read it.

[17:09] Sorry, lovely Lemon, work was kicking my ass all day. Does Mado’s at 8pm work for you? X

Lemon couldn’t resist one final reply, cementing her intentions.

[17:10] Sounds great, I’m sure I can help that ass feel better 😘 see you soon!! 💛💛

A/N It’s me again, your friendly neighbourhood translator!

“Voulez-vous coucher avec moi ce soir?” - Do you want to sleep with me tonight?

“Mais si je dis oui, es-tu vraiment libre ce soir?” - But if I say yes, are you really free tonight?

[mageicalwishes]

A Smashing Summer - Chapter 3

Read on AO3: here

Read the previous chapter (On Tumblr): here

Summary: “I’m egging your house for a dare, but you’re parent is a cop and now they’re yelling at me, so I told them you were my ex and you wronged me, and now you’re coming outside, so please just go along with this, I really don’t want to go to jail” AU When Simon Snow agreed to egg some posho’s house, he never thought he’d find himself here - The only thing standing between himself and a criminal charge, the word of a handsome stranger.

Chapter: 3/?

Words: 1,694

Simon

I slide down against the sofa, pulling my phone out of my pocket, with a smile.

ME (19:57): Hey, hey, hey, Bazaroo!

ME (19:57): I’m super glad you liked the scones! They’re my absolute faveee

ME (19:57): I’ll bring enough to share next time :)

ME (19:58): How are you today?

To my delight, my phone buzzes with a response, almost immediately.

BP (19:58): If you ever call me that again, I will block your number. I’m not even joking.

BP (19:58): And, I’m pretty good, thanks. Yourself?

ME (19:59): Aw :( Imma just have to keep trying different names till I find one you like, then :p

ME (19:59): I’m great! Had a pretty good day today :)

ME (20:00): Sorry I didn’t message earlier btw - It’s been a busy day! Me and the lads went into town and played some footie, and then I had to do some dumb history essay (Idk who told my history teacher she could set homework in the holidays, but I wanna fight them!)

ME (20:00): I fucking despise the Tudors. I mean, why the fuck would I care about socio-economic policies from like a million years ago! Grrrr!

BP (20:01): No worries, Snow. I understand.

BP (20:01): That is unfortunate - But, you got lucky with the Tudors, to be honest. I’d rather that, than the bloody Industrial Revolution. That is mind-numbingly dull!

BP (20:02): But, I hate to break it to you - If you think the Tudor dynasty was a million years ago, then maybe you should reconsider your subject choice. You’ll definitely fail the A-level, if that’s your level of understanding.

ME (20:03): Aha trueee. Sucks to be you :p

ME (20:03): And stfu!! I know it wasn’t actually a million years ago, you tosser! I was BEING dramatic - You should've realised, you know ALL about that, Mr. Roll-your-eyes-every-two-fucking-seconds.

BP (20:04): I’m unconvinced.

Stupidly, I scoff aloud - Drawing Nathan’s attention away from the television and over to me. He stands, trudging over, and plopping down onto the sofa besides me.

I groan, frustrated.

“What do you want?”

“Nothing. Nothing … Just wondering who you’re texting,” he drawls, the mocking amusement clear in his tone. “Got yourself a new girlfriend, or something?”

“No! I’m just talking to Penny,” I defend, my voice rising suspiciously. Fuck. I’m such a crap liar.

“You know, I know you’re lying, right?”

“Obviously,” I drone. “Just … Butt out of it, though, yeah? Please.”

“Alright, alright” he laughs, throwing his hands up in a mock surrender. “I’ll leave you be. But, if you wanna keep your little buddy a secret - I’d advise against laughing at their messages in the bloody common room, you divvy.”

“Noted,” I sigh, turning towards the door. “Don’t tell Josh though, yeah?”

“Sure, Simon. If that’s what you want, your secret is safe with me.”

“Cheers, mate.” I smile. “You’re the best.”

“I know, I know. I’m amazing. Just go and text them, you mug!”

I do (Obviously). Quickly jogging upstairs, and locking myself in the bathroom - Where I’m safely hidden from prying eyes. Laying myself down in the bathtub, I hammer out a reply, sending it off Baz immediately.

ME (20:13): Whatever, dickhead!!

ME (20:13): Also soz I didn’t answer. Nathan was being nosy lol.

ME (20:13): Anyway … You been up to much today?

Baz

Just as I’ve resigned myself to the fact that I won’t be receiving a response, my phone buzzes loudly against my bedside table - My chest swelling pathetically, as I reach out and grab it.

Typing out a response, I find myself smiling - Unbridled joy melting away my impassive neutrality.

ME (20:14): No worries, Snow. It’s not as though I’m just sitting here, desperately awaiting your every response. I do have a life outside of you, you know.

That's not exactly true ... But, he doesn’t need to know that.

ME (20:14): And, no, not really. I’ve mostly just been reading. I did try to teach Mordelia how to play chess, though - Which was fairly disastrous.

SS (20:15): Lol! Sounds good :)

SS (20:15): Who is Mordelia, though?

SS (20:15): Is that your girlfriend?

I stare at my phone, blankly - Trying to formulate a response.

ME (20:17): Seriously?

Barely a second after I've send it, my phone starts buzzing furiously - Message after message, pouring in.

SS (20:17): What?

SS (20:17): That’s a perfectly valid question!

SS (20:17): You haven’t mentioned anyone called Mordelia, I swear to God!

SS (20:18): I’d remember, for sure.

SS (20:18): It’s not exactly a common name

ME (20:19): I know that, Snow. I was referring to the girlfriend question!

ME (20:19): I thought that we had already established that, a girlfriend isn’t exactly on the cards for me - Given the whole fake ex-boyfriend situation.

SS (20:20): Bi people exist, you moron!

SS (20:20): I’m Bi. Lol.

SS (20:20): I didn’t wanna assume you were only into guys … Or that you were even really into them at all.

SS (20:21): You totally could’ve been Bi!

SS (20:21): Or straight! The whole ex-boyfriend thing was a lie, remember? - You could’ve just been a straight bro, pretending to be into dudes, to help me out.

SS (20:22): It aint a dumb question, really. So … Don’t be annoying!!

Oh. Okay.

Newly nervous, I begin typing out my response - Ensuring that I sound perfectly unphased.  

ME (20:22): Christ, Snow! You seriously have to stop sending so many texts in a row. My phone is going to have a meltdown, if you keep it up.

Hesitating slightly, I continue.

ME (20:23): But, you’re right. Sorry. I didn’t mean to make it to sound as though Gay and Straight were the only options. I could’ve been Bi … Or Straight, I suppose. But, to clarify - I’m definitely not. I’m gay.

ME (20:24): I guess that - Where I’ve known since I was eleven, and I stopped trying to hide it a while ago now, I sort of forget that it isn’t immediately apparent to everybody else. Everyone in my Family knows. Everyone at College, too. So, I just, sort of, forget that I can still be perceived as anything other than what I actually am.

SS (20:26): Hush you! I like multiple texts!! It’s easier to keep my track of my thoughts, like that. If I try to put it all in one text, I forget what I wanna say.

SS (20:26): And dw about it, it’s chill! I know you didn’t mean it like that, I was just teasing :)

SS (20:27): I get what you mean tho. Coming out was so scary … But now I sort of forget that not everybody knows. I just like to assume they do lol. It’s stopped being such a big thing, now that I can just, like, relax about it.

Unsure of how to respond, I type out a simple …

ME (20:28): Yeah.

SS (20:28): Yeah :)

SS (20:28): Seriously, tho. Who is Mordelia? You never actually answered me lol.

ME (20:29): She’s my little sister.

SS (20:30): Oh lol! That’s crazy! I didn’t think you had a sibling.

SS (20:30): You don’t give off doting big brother vibes.

SS (20:31): More like … Spoiled only child, ones. LOL! :D

SS (20:31): Is she your only sibling?

Unable to help myself, I chuckle, quietly.  

ME (20:32): Very funny, Snow. But I never said I was doting! I may be their brother, but I still have standards.

ME (20:33): And, no (Unfortunately). I have three more - Two sisters, and a brother. They’re my step-siblings technically, though. And they’re quite a bit younger than me. So, I was an only child for quite a long time.

SS (20:33): Cool!

SS (20:34): Do they all have stupidly posh names, too?

SS (20:34): And, do you like having siblings?

SS (20:35): I always wanted a brother, when I was little!

ME (20:36): Yes. Unfortunately, my family are incapable of picking normal names.

ME (20:37): And, yes. Most of the time, anyway. It’s nice to always have somebody to talk to - Or to play with (Although, I think I would’ve appreciated that more, if the age-gap wasn’t quite so wide). But, they do drive me up the wall, sometimes! Mordelia has taken to drawing all over my revision notes, recently - I’m sure you can imagine how I felt about that!

SS (20:40): Aw, yeah. That sounds nice!

SS (20:40): LMAO! THAT’S HILARIOUS! I feel bad for her tho … I’d hate to have your wrath turned on me! You'd probs make me cry lol.

ME (20:41): Yes, well. Despite what you think - My wrath was, evidently, not strong enough! She’s still bloody doing it!

SS (20:43): Aha lol! I like her! She sounds as stubborn as you.

————————————————————————————

A soft rap on the door, disturbs me from my conversation with Snow.

“Baz, Honey? Are you in there?” Daphne calls, her voice sweet and cautious.

“Yeah? You can open the door. It’s fine - I’m decent.”

“Okay,” she hums, pushing the door open slightly, and peeping her head in. “I just wanted to let you know that I'm about to start plating up dinner.”

“Alright,” I smile. “Thank you. I’ll be down in a minute.”

“Perfect. See you then,” she sings, turning and leaving the room.

Hastily, I rattle out a text to Snow.

ME (21:14): As much as I am enjoying this, I have to go now, Snow. Sorry.

SS (21:14): Aw :( How come?

ME (21:15): I’ve got to go and eat dinner.

SS (21:15): At nine ?!?

ME (21:16): Yes, Snow - At nine. I must compliment you on your time-telling abilities!  

ME (21:16): My Father insists that we eat dinner together as a family, but he was working late tonight … So, nine P.M steak it is.

SS (21:17): Aw fuck! You have steak! I’m well jel :(((

SS (21:17): But, okay, no worries! Hope you enjoy your dinner.

SS (21:18): TTYL :D

ME (21:18):  Will do! Talk to you later. Goodbye for now :)

[loveznet]

Happy New Years all!

With a new year, comes new changes to the blog. As you may have seen in the past few months, we have been trying to be more active on the blog. You all may have seen we added new content creators to our blog, not only to give more content to everyone but also to help our blog stay alive and expand. In 2019, we only had 3 admins on the blog and we were all busy with school, work, or just life in general. However, Admin Ale and I have recently gotten together and decided to make the blog alive again. If you have read any of the recent asks or the post about the new member, you would see that Admin Ale has been the one talking to you all. She is better with technology than I am and has been a major help with everything. While yes we are a blog that shares content about our lovely Nu’est boys, we also don’t want to just be bots that just reblog content all day.

That’s where this post comes in. Here, I would like to introduce the members of the blog so you get to know the faces behind the content here. We also welcome anyone to send asks to the blog about anything Nu’est related.

Here is what I asked the members:

Name

Age

What type of content do you make?

School or Work?

Nu’est Bias

First Nu’est comeback?

Favorite Nu’est song

Favorite Nu’est moment

What are your other kpop groups and biases?

And write a little something about yourself if you want!

Alrightly, time to meet people of the Blog.

Vividteals (Admin Ale)

Ale (she/her)

20 (leo)

I make gifs and edits

I’m Ren biased!!!

My first cb was overcome!!!

My fav songs are the whole re:birth album, not over you, overcome, and dejavu

My fav nu’est moment was their sengo concert

My utt groups besides Nu’est are WJSN, Hinapia/Pristin, and WayV

My biases are seola/yeonjung, eunwoo, and yukhei!

Anyways no more about me??? Hmm I really love Marvel and Harry Potter! And I love cats!!! So much!!!!!

cul-de-kwak

Heather (she/her)

13 (Leo; yep I am probably the youngest here lmao)

I make edits

Still a student

Jeonghan from Seventeen and Minkyougn from Hinapia

I totally forgot to say my Nu’est bias ajskwk It's Aron btw from my v loud username here and my favorite song of Nu’est (of all time) is Overcome and my favorite song rn is Beautiful Ghost! I became a LOVE through Superstar Pledis! I love Marvel and Harry Potter lmao!

pledisanti

Nom, she/her, 18, leo

I’m a gifmaker and student in uni

I think I’m Baekho biased???

My first comeback was Where You At!!

Daybreake is superior

I only really care about pledis groups LOL I’m Jeonghan+Dino n yaebin biased

Uhh more about me??? I really like oranges and doggo vids!!! N my twt is @PLEDISANTl (the last i is an L)

Leeminhyuk-s

Mands (she/her)

21 and I’m a capricorn!

I’m a gif maker and sometimes I also make edits

I’m on my fourth year of uni (thank god because I think I’d have a breakdown anytime soon)

My bias is Minhyun

Honestly, I’ve always heard about Nu’est because of ale but I’ve started to really get into them during the Where you at era

Favorite song is Polaris

I’m a multiu so i have lots of groups I stan… but the ones I keep up the most with are probably Monsta X, Astro, and NCT/WayV and my biases are Minhyuk, Eunwoo, and Seunghun. Other things about me, I really like to learn new languages and I love to read (even though I haven’t had the time lately lol).

happylyeverafter

Okay you all, grandma here lol my name is katya and I’m 25, crazy ikr? Most typical virgo of virgos. I’m currently working to keep myself afloat and sometimes make gifs on tumblr dot com. I’m Jonghyun biases and been a passive fan since overcome but low-key :/ that changed with nuble and Especially HEA release. Fave songs are overcome, dejavu, and bet bet! My ult since 2012 is SHINee, at the moment I also stan stv and loona. Kibum (key) is the king of my bias list.

About me uhhh I’m really into movies, especially scifi and horrors, I live in Russia so I suppose my time zone is way off haha I have two bunnies! Milkey and Luna.

magnetizedmapgie

Maggie (she/her)

23

I make gifs but very sporadically

I am an in-home caretaker and software developer!

…. I want to say all them equally, but… it’s JR

I think my first comeback was good bye bye?

It really depends on my mood but re;birth is peak nu’est for me, so probably storybook an embarrassingly large number? But atm my blog is mainly vixx, exid, ace, oh my girl, svt, winner & gugudan

pluemons

Jo (she/her)

17 (scorpio!)

I make gifs

I’m in school!

My Nu’est bias is Aron

First Comeback: Dejavu

Favorite songs: Polaris, Bass, Love Paint, and Look

Favorite Moment: When someone commented during a vlive that baekho has old man vibes (or something like that) and they all started laughing.

Other Kpop groups I like: Hinapia, Pristin, and Ab6ix

Kpop biases: Minkyeung (Hinapia) and Woong (Ab6ix)

And now for the man if the hour: me!

able-2

Able (he/him) Please don’t let me be the only fanboy here, lol

21 (Sun: Sagittarius, Moon: Sagittarius, Rising: Scorpio)

The only content I make is fanfics! I think I'm the only writer on the blog, so if you have anything you want me to write, send us an ask!

I go to uni as well but I take 6 classes, am an officer of a club, and have an internship as a Social Media Intern. So I am quite busy, lol.

I am a Jason bias!! (Shout out to anyone who remembers him) But really I am Ren bias from the beginning to end!

The first comeback that I actively took part in with the community is Overcome.

Fav songs would be Sand, Not Over You, Fine Girl, and Noona. Honestly, the list is way longer but we will stop here, lol.

My fav Nu’est moment was the sleep talking onesie video where they all played games!

Other K-pop groups are: NCT (all 21 members!!), Got7, Seventeen, Monsta X, Pristin, EXO, KARD, Super Junior…. Again, stopping the list short!

Other Bias: Joshua, Jun, Jeonghan, Ten, Yuta, Jeno Taeyong, Wonho, Minhyuk, BM, Sehun… and you guessed it, cut short!

[lavender-hemlock]

Aw.. Shit, here we go again. (Questions below the cut because I’m not an asshole like the below.) 

@kazexvoss

Get To Know Me Uncomfortably Well

1. What is you middle name?

Marie

2. How old are you?

23

3. When is your birthday?

October 7th

4. What is your zodiac sign?

Libra

5. What is your favorite color?

Burgundy

6. What’s your lucky number?

7

7. Do you have any pets?

One dog

8. Where are you from?

The US-Tragedy-A

9. How tall are you?

Hahaha.. 5′.  10. What shoe size are you?

Size 6

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own?

Probably over ten.. and more than half are boots. 

12. What was your last dream about? Asked by breaking-from-grace

13. What talents do you have?

I guess I have a talent for my empathy, art, and writing? Not sure what merits as a talent without being overzealous. 

14. Are you psychic in any way?

I’ve been called a witch because of intuition for emotions of others? Or being scary close to presuming things. 

Sadly can’t bend any spoons, stay tuned. 

15. Favorite song?

Toooo many. Music is too vast to pick just one, but I’ve been listening to Day Dreaming - Jack & Jack a lot lately. 

16. Favorite movie?

Probably the Phantom of the Opera version with Gerard Butler. 

17. Who would be your ideal partner?

Someone who is capable of respecting the flow of my energy. When I need space, when I’m all for being close. It isn’t that I’m picky or moody, but I know what I need and also don’t need them being worried when I’m just being quiet and reading a book. It’s just a mutual respect and understanding. 

Ya feel? 

18. Do you want children?

Yeah. Which is weird to think about. I’m not in any rush. 

19. Do you want a church wedding?

I think it is right for me to pursue it, but kinda no. I want a venue probably really low key done up in lights, curtains, and simplicity that doesn’t need a huge budget. Its about the bond, right? 

20. Are you religious?

Yep, I am a christian. 

21. Have you ever been to the hospital?

I have! I had a piggy bank get knocked on top of my head when I was little and my mom rushed me to the hospital. I think that was the first time I saw stars. Only time though!

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law?

Yeeeeap. 

23. Have you ever met any celebrities?

Yes! I’ve been fortunate to meet a few bands and also see the cast of Fast and the Furious. I got to go on set for the 5th movie! I was lucky. 

24. Baths or showers?

Showers. 

25. What color socks are you wearing?

Black. I hate this question. I’m looking at only one person rn. 

26. Have you ever been famous?

Kinda? Yet I think famous in this way is very subjective? I had my old (and first) RP community for like eleven years. Its not fun when everyone knows your name, I’ll tell you that. You get put on a pedestal or get called terrible things if you don’t respond. It was a whack time. I don’t miss it. I was just famous for the designs I would put for the community and being like a “veteran” member with tons of “powers” (community bling). Blegh. 

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?

Nope. I admire those that do great things and gain that attention for the work they have put in, but its a double sword. Everyone knows your business and looks at you. Seems like a ant under a magnifying glass analogy.  

28. What type of music do you like?

I like a lot of pop/alternative. I listen to generally everything except some heavy techno/bass stuff isn’t really for me. 

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?

Nope, don’t plan to. What if a snake bit my ass? How do I explain that to a doctor. 

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?

3!

31. What position do you usually sleep in?

I have to pick one!?

32. How big is your house?

It’s modest. 

33. What do you typically have for breakfast? Asked by Caewen!

34. Have you ever fired a gun?

Yes! I have been trained to use one strictly for defense over the home. What a sad world. 

35. Have you ever tried archery?

No, but I wish!

36. Favorite clean word?

Cleaaaan? 

37. Favorite swear word?

Fuck. 

38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep?

Hahahaha 72 hours. I like sleep. 

39. Do you have any scars? Asked by Sangria-Fangs!

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer?

Yeah! It’s.. okay. Kind of creeps me out tbh. 

41. Are you a good liar?

No. I would psych myself out. 

42. Are you a good judge of character?

Yeah. It took a lot of fuck-ups to figure that out!

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own?

Poorly. All of them. 

44. Do you have a strong accent?

No.

45. What is your favorite accent?

Gosh. British or Australian. 

46. What is your personality type?

INFJ. 

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?

Boots! 

48. Can you curl your tongue? Cries. Asked by Caewen. 

49. Are you an innie or an outie?

Innie. This is weird. 

50. Left or right handed?

Right handed!

51. Are you scared of spiders?

Don’t @ me. 

52. Favorite food?

Snow crab.

53. Favorite foreign food?

Italian. 

54. Are you a clean or messy person?

SO fresh and SO clean ~

55. Most used phrased?

”I dare everyday.” She says before she does something stupid. 

56. Most used word?

Ye. 

57. How long does it take for you to get ready?

Anywhere from 5 minutes to over 30 minutes. There is no inbetween in this. 

58. Do you have much of an ego?

Either the biggest in the room or the smallest. There is no inbetween. 

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?

BITE. 

60. Do you talk to yourself?

When I’m trying to focus really hard. 

61. Do you sing to yourself?

Only to myself, yes. In my car and forgetting there’s someone in the car next to me? yes. 

62. Are you a good singer?

I’d like to think so. 

63. Biggest Fear?

Snakes. 

64. Are you a gossip?

No, but I’ll discuss, not spread. 

65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen? Asked by Hingan-Fox!

66. Do you like long or short hair?

I like both!

67. Can you name all 50 states of America?

Unfortunately. 

68. Favorite school subject?

Literature. 

69. Extrovert or Introvert?

Kinda inbetween. Ask me on a random day, it may be one or the other. 

70. Have you ever been scuba diving?

No but it sounds cool!

71. What makes you nervous?

Confrontation. 

72. Are you scared of the dark?

Kinda. 

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?

It depends on the thing. If its not my place, I won’t. If they’re ignorant, it depends if its worth it. If they deserve it- passionately. 

74. Are you ticklish?

I will stab you. 

75. Have you ever started a rumor?

Nope

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?

Yep!

77. Have you ever drank underage?

Yeeeap. 

78. Have you ever done drugs?

Mary Jane. 

79. Who was your first real crush?

A boy in kindergarten who drew me cards everyday and left them in my desk each morning. ; ; 

80. How many piercings do you have?

None! Needles and I do not work out. 

81. Can you roll your Rs? 

I can’t even curl my tongue and now I get this question. 

82. How fast can you type?

90 WPM average. 

83. How fast can you run?

Fast as fuck boi. I’m just memeing now, aren’t I? Just trying to get through this. I don’t think anyone will get this far. 

84. What color is your hair?

Dark brown!

85. What color is your eyes?

Green-blueishhhh. Depends on the day/lighting. 

86. What are you allergic to?

Wax and bees. 

87. Do you keep a journal?

I used to until someone read it lol. 

88. What do your parents do?

Work? 

89. Do you like your age?

I kinda have to? 

90. What makes you angry? Asked by Caewen! Oo boy. 

91. Do you like your own name?

Yeah, I’d say its just fine. It’s mine.

92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they?

Jace and Claire. 

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child?

Happy with either.

94. What are you strengths?

Empathy, understanding.

95. What are your weaknesses?

Patience (depends), Failure. 

96. How did you get your name?

They said they just shouted it out until they figured they could say it everyday for the rest of my life and not get tired of it- and the meaning is pretty. 

97. Were your ancestors royalty?

I don’t think so. Never looked into it. 

98. Do you have any scars? Asked by Sangria-Fangs!

99. Color of your bedspread?

White.

100. Color of your room?

White, greys. I like snow and furs and lights.��

Now, after all that- I am clearly no bitch @kazexvoss. Do yours. 

[jchb32273]

Fictober 2019 - Day 6

Fanfiction - Dragon Age AO3 Link

Dang it, I will get back on track... lol! 

Here is Day 6 

Yes, I’m Aware. Your Point?

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Alistair hummed as he set up his new artificial tree in the corner of his condo. Mid-term exams were over, Satinalia was approaching, and Kylara promised to come over and help him decorate his tree before she would head home for the break.

Pity, she can’t stay here in Denerim for the holidays, he thought. But I get to have some time with her before she travels, so I am happy enough for that.

Holidays like this had always been very lonely for Alistair, so in the past, he hadn’t cared much for them. Growing up with Eamon and Isolde Guerrin, Maric’s wife’s relatives, had made them even more so.

He had just finished stringing up the lights on the tree when his phone chirped. With a smile, he flopped down on the couch and opened his text messages. However, it wasn’t from Kylara… it was from his father.

[14:22] I need you to come to my office.

                                                                                                           Why? [14:22]

[14:23] You don’t question me. I need you here, now.

                                                            But I have someone coming over… [14:24]

[14:24] Then you’d best call them and cancel. I don’t know how long this will take.

Alistair slapped the phone down on his couch. Damn you, Maric. He took a few deep breaths then picked the phone back up.

                                                      Fine. Give me 20 minutes. I’ll be there. [14:26]

[14:27] Fifteen.

Alistair closed the text message app. He stared at his brightly lit tree, the boxes of decorations, and tinsel. He sighed. Then he reopened the app.

[14:30] Hey, Kylara… Maric has called me into his office and I don’t know how long I might be held hostage there…

 Do you want to reschedule? I don’t leave until tomorrow afternoon. [14:31]

[14:31] No… I still want to see you today. I want to make the most of our time together before you leave. Maybe I can find some way to… ugh… butter him up… so I can get back here asap.

                    All right. Please don’t get into trouble with him over me. [14:32]

[14:32] I promise I’ll be on my best behavior. 😉

                                                         Text me when you get back home. [14:33]

[14:33] I will. ❤️

He closed the app, shoved his phone into his pocket, grabbed his car keys, and ran out of the condo.

As he drove towards Maric’s office, he started thinking back on his unorthodox upbringing.

His earliest memories were of his various nannies. Eamon was always too busy… and Isolde? For reasons that had never been explained, she just seemed to hate Alistair from day one. When they both decided to send him away to a private boarding school, Alistair thought he would finally be free… but the school’s restrictions had been even tougher than living at the Guerrin’s mansion. Alistair had managed to make one friend his entire time there.

Boarding school had been dull and Alistair a quiet boy. He tried pulling pranks and making a few jokes in the early years there, but no one found him funny… just annoying. So he threw himself into his studies – and quickly excelled at them – probably because there hadn’t been much else to do. Once he’d graduated, Eamon told him to apply for college, so Alistair did just that… choosing a school far from Redcliffe and the Guerrins.

College brought Alistair out of his shell. He continued to excel at his studies, but he took the time to make friends and become very active on campus. He was also glad when Cullen – his one friend growing up – had applied and was accepted to Denerim University the following year.

Then, out of the blue, it seemed, Alistair received a letter from a man claiming to be his father. He was summoned – he would have said ‘invited’, but that was too nice of a word for the situation – to Maric’s office.

He got to meet his half-brother, Cailan, that day… who accepted and welcomed him as though they had grown up together. It was hard to dislike Cailan, he just had the kind of personality that made him get along with everyone.

Maric, however, was anything but warm and welcoming. He basically told Alistair that he had been the one paying for all of his education… and he would continue to do so as long as Alistair kept top grades.

Alistair had no problem with that part. He liked his school and classes very much. He still wasn’t sure what he wanted to major in… even though he was already in his third year. For the moment, he wanted to keep his options open.

So he had his schooling, he had his band, and he had his friends. He was happy… for the most part. The one thing that he wanted above all else however… was love. He didn’t have it growing up since the Guerrins pretty much ignored him. His nannies had cared for him, but he really couldn’t call that love. Cailan was cool for a half-brother he’d known for only a year. He liked him, but that was as far as it went. Maric was his father, but he was cold and distant. He often wondered who his mother had been. Had she loved him at all? Why had she not been there for him? Was she even alive?

He’d asked Maric once, but the man refused to talk about it.

He thought he’d finally found love when he dated Ellie Cousland. Maric had introduced her as the daughter of Lord Bryce Cousland at one of his famous parties. She was thin, blonde, and beautiful. Alistair had been very taken with her in the beginning… but after they began dating, her true personality began to emerge. She was cold, calculating, and she loved manipulating people to her own advantage.

Alistair let it slide for a time, but it slowly began to wear him down. They began to fight more often than not… but what finally broke him was when he found out she was cheating on him with another man.

He ended the relationship, right then and there. Ellie tried to wheedle her way back in, but Alistair didn’t budge on it.

Then he met Kylara. Quite by accident, too. He had just finished a set with his band at his All Souls/Halloween Bash (which he had decided to throw to help get Ellie off his mind) when his friend Cullen had told him about another friend of his that might have gotten hurt accidentally. He had gone outside to see if the girl was okay… and his life changed.

Kylara was nothing like Ellie. She was quiet, reserved, sweet and smart… but at the same time, not afraid to speak her mind at times. He did feel a little sorry for her at first since others seemed to tease and ridicule her, but Alistair quickly found that he enjoyed her company. Her intellect challenged him and he found he could talk to her with just about anything.

Then there was the disastrous dinner party at Maric’s where she felt that maybe they were too different to be friends.

They were different, but it was these differences that made him realize that there was something really special about her.

Then they had shared their first kiss.

He had initiated it, yes, but Kylara clearly had enjoyed it. They went out together later that evening to a movie… where their lips met more than their eyes were on the screen.

They were only two weeks into this new relationship and Alistair found he cherished every minute of it. A smile broke on his face as he pulled into the parking lot of Maric’s office. I don’t know if this is love… but I am happy. Happier than I have ever been this last year.

He still had a grin on his face when he walked into Maric’s office.

“You’re late.”

Alistair’s smile faded. He glanced at his watch, then half-jokingly said, “Can I blame it on the traffic?”

“No, you may not.�� Maric frowned. “When you are running a business, punctuality is key. Early is on-time…”

“…and on-time is late,” Alistair recited along. “Yes, I’m aware. Your point?”

“My point is that I asked you to be here at a specific time and you were not. You waltz in here with a silly grin on your face and jokes on your lips. I am surprised that this lackadaisical attitude of yours hasn’t gotten you in trouble at school already. You are about to be a senior and you still haven’t decided on your major? How do you think you will be able to contribute to society when you just float-along in this manner?”

“Is this all you called me in for? To lecture me?” Alistair almost growled. “You could have just as easily called me on the phone for that…”

“Watch your tone with me, young man. I am your father and I still have control over your life.”

Alistair was seething inside. He wanted to yell, scream, berate… tell Maric just what he really thought of him, but then Kylara popped into his mind, acting like a balm to his frustration. He swallowed his anger and then in a calmer tone said, “I am sorry… father. It’s just… I was looking forward to spending some time with one of my friends before they left for the holidays.”

“Who?” Maric asked, suspicious. “A girl?”

“I think I can answer that question for you, sir,” Zevran suddenly spoke, making Alistair jump. He hadn’t even seen the elf in the office when he’s first arrived. Zevran moved in swiftly and plucked Alistair’s phone right out of his pocket.

“Hey! Give me back my phone, Zevran! This is none of your business!”

“It is when your father pays me,” Zevran smirked. “Now let me see…” He studied Alistair’s lock screen for a moment, then quickly drew his finger in a pattern across it. “Here we go, sir. Unlocked. Now let us see just who your son is so anxious to see. Hmm, quite a few calls to this one number… and many of them late at night too. Ooh…”

Alistair was sick to his stomach. Maric had hired Zevran to spy on him? “Please,” he begged. “Just give me back my phone.”

“All in good time, friend.” A few taps and then, “Here we go, texts.” Zevran then nodded. “It is as you feared, sir. He is still in contact with her… and it seems to be getting more serious.” He showed Maric the latest text.

Maric’s face turned red as he glanced at the messages. “Hmm… I am ‘holding you hostage’? You want to ‘butter me up’? Just what is going on between you and this girl, Kylara?”

“Nothing! We are friends! That’s it!”

“Ah, ah… don’t lie to your dear father,” Zevran cooed. To Maric he then said, I think this will speak for itself.” He tapped the phone and a message began to play on the speaker.

“Ali, I really miss you. I know I’ll get to see you again in a few hours, but I can’t help but remember your last kiss to me. So soft… so tender… You really are amazing at them, you know? No one has made me feel the way you make me feel… loved… special…”

“Turn it off. I’ve heard enough!” Maric fumed. To Alistair, he then said, “I thought I told you the day after the dinner that she was not appropriate for you! She is a nobody! A commoner! I expect you to pick someone more refined, proper! Girls like her only go after you because you have money, influence… power! Gold diggers. Money-grubbers… all of them!”

“Kylara isn’t like that! She is sweet, innocent. She likes me for who I am, not because I have money!”

“Don’t be naïve!” Maric yelled. “You will break it off with her, or so help me, I’ll…”

“What?! Write me off again as you did twenty and one years ago when I was born?! Oh, how that will hurt! Not having a ‘father’ like you in my life! Well, you know what? I did just fine without you then, and I can do just fine without you now!” Alistair turned and stormed out of the office.

Maric went to the window and looked down. He saw Alistair jump into his car and drive off.

“He’s going to be a trouble-maker, that one,” Zevran mused.

Maric sighed. “Tell me something I don’t know.”

[ghostofvixx]

Bittersweet

Words: 3k

A/n: fluff to angst sorry:(. Ive been working on this for a long time pls give it love.

It only takes 8.2 seconds to fall for someone.

Jeonghan is way much more than a simple classmate, you know it. It began when he used to save your ass over and over again back in high school, since he was your seatmate. Not only he let you borrow his homework when you hadn't done them, but also became your counsellor when you were going through a rough time with your friends or couple. Somehow, he became something more than a classmate, but less than a friend since you never saw each other outside high school. You always told him how much you owed him because of his constant support, but he always said it was nothing, that he would reclaim his reward in a future, even though both of you knew that he was way too good to do that.

Once high school was over, you knew that in spite of living in Seoul, it would be hard to see each other, so you said goodbye after giving him your phone number.

“Remember, I owe you a lot Jeonghan, call me if you need a favour."Those were the last words you told him.

After a year of not knowing anything about him, the first thing that crosses your mind when you see his name through the screen is that the moment you thought that would never come is here, and that he may be going through something serious.

"Jeonghan?” You begin, your voice low since you’re still shocked by the sudden call.

“Hi Y/N, how's it going?” His voice remains as soothing as the first day.

“I’m good! What about you?”

“Well… I’m still alive and it’s all that matters.” You both laugh. “Y/N, I know it’s not nice to ask after not contacting you for a year, seriously, but I need a huge favour and you're the only one I could think of.”

“That’s fine! After all, I told you that. What can I help you with?”

“Well, a friend of mine needs to stay somewhere until he finds a place to live permanently. Because of my situation, I’m afraid I can't help him, but I thought you could? Just for three days, I promise.”

You know it would be crazy to tell him that you will, but it’s Jeonghan, he could ask you the weirdest thing ever and yet you will still believe in him.

“Sure, I owe it to you after all.”

“Thank you so much y/n, you’re still an angel.“ He says.

You both talk a little to catch up and then you text him your direction.

Jeonghan from school❤️ (3)

I know this may seem weird, but I promise you he’s a good person.

Have fun!

And please, don’t let him out.

“Let him out?” You read for yourself. “What kind of freak has Jeonghan sent to my house?”

When somebody knocks on your door three times, the first thing you do is to grab a bat which belonged to your older sister. Then, you open the door.

You feel your heart skipping a beat. A tall, handsome boy stands by the door. His black hair is a little long and pushed back, he is wearing a black shirt and jeans. The moment he sees you, he smiles awkwardly making you stare at him for a few seconds.

8.2 seconds both of you count in your head.

“Who are you and why I can’t let you out?“ You finally ask, all of the sudden.

“I’m Johnny, nice to meet you. And I’m afraid I can’t tell you, we should get inside first.“ He says, pushing you lightly and closing the door behind him.

You look at him terrified, thinking that you don’t trust Jeonghan anymore, and definitely not the boy in front of you.

“I know this is weird, so I’ll explain.” He takes a seat on your couch, patting the spot beside him. You just decide to sit on the other couch, as far as possible from him. “Fine, I’m a trainee, under… Well, It’s not very known, you don’t need to know the name.”

“Then what the hell does Jeonghan has to do with this? And why are you here?”

“Jeonghan is a trainee under that company too.” He comments, surprised that you don’t know about that. “And I’m here to begin a strike against my managers and my CEO.”

“So I’m keeping a criminal in my house, great, that’s great, that’s awesome. Now answer me, whose head I hit with this bat, yours or mine?”

“You’ll be fine y/n, nobody knows I’m here. Besides, Jeonghan has my back. He’ll pretend to be me at practise since our hair looks alike. Great plan, isn’t it? Sehun though about it so it will flop for sure, but it will keep my managers busy for a few hours.”

“Okay, fine, you just help yourself, I’ll be in my room, hitting myself against the wall till I fall asleep and then pretend all of this is just a dream.” You say, definitely not joking.

However, when he begins to laugh, you think he actually took it as one.

[7:30 a.m] Wednesday, day 1

The next day, when your alarm sound, you don’t immediately wake up, you just sit on your bed staring at the wall, wondering if that Johnny thing was real.

You snap back to reality when you hear something coming from your kitchen.

Yes, it was very real.

“Good morning y/n.” He says, as he put some waffles on a plate. “This is for you! You have to go to the grocery store though.”

You are taken aback, out of all the things you had expected to find, this wasn’t one of them.

“G-good morning, Johnny… Um… Yes, I guess I’ll do it.” You try to sound convinced, but you are still surprised so your affirmation sound more like a question.

“You have to go to college, right?” He asks, eating what is inside is plate.

“How do you know about that?” You ask, frowning.

“Jeonghan told me.”

“And how does Jeonghan know about that?”

“It’s called common sense, y/n.”

“Okay, you have a point.”

[17:00] Wednesday, day 1

You don’t know a lot of things about Johnny, you are actually too afraid to ask. However, this type of awkward silences makes you almost ask him something.

Almost.

You are on your right, isn’t it? But you aren’t sure of how you should begin the conversation. Luckily for you, he seems to notice you anxiousness.

“If you want to ask, just do it, I can’t blame you for it, can I?” You aren’t sure of what’s his facial expression like since you don’t want to look at him, but his voice sounds soft, almost cautious.

“Y-you said that you were running a strike, right?” He nods, so you continue. “But if you’re a trainee and do these type of things you can get fired.”

“I’m well aware of that, yes.”

“Then… Why?”

“I had to take the risk. I’m sure that to them I’m being careless and just looking for attention, but someone had to do it. They can’t treat us like shit and expect us to keep working hard.”

“And you think this will work?”

“I’m a hundred percent sure it won’t, I’ll probably be kicked out, but I like to think they can’t lose their most prepared trainee and future leader of their new boy group.”

The way he talks, the way his expression seems more serious and mature than when you first saw him, the way he seems worried about something when you simply assumed that he was careless.

Those are the things that make your cheeks feel warm when you realise about them.

“What about dating though?” You ask, innocently to change the subject.

“Oh y/n, I didn’t think you cared about that.” He teases as he winks at you.

“It’s- I mean I- I heard that- It’s not what I mean, let me ask something else.”

“I’m just joking Y/N.” He smiles, trying to calm you down. “We’re not allowed to have anything that involves a relationship or similar to that, if you know what I mean.”

You nod and stay quiet.

“So y/n, tell me, did you finally go grocery shopping?”

“Johnny what the hell.”

[23:30] Wednesday, day 1

Jeonghan from school ❤️(2)

Hi Y/N~

How’s everything going?

You smile when you see Jeonghan’s message, knowing who he was asking about.

You

You have a lot of explaining to do, young boy.

He’s sleeping in the couch.

Well, “sleeping”.

You are sure that Johnny isn’t sleeping at all. The conversation with Jeonghan goes by as both of you catch up with eachother. But then, there’s a moment when another message pops up.

That Johnny boy (3)

I hear you laughing from here lol.

What are you doing awake so late? You’re a baby.

Babies should be asleep.

You roll your eyes.

You

I’m catching up with someone, sorry lol.

That Johnny boy (3)

OOH!

With who? Someone special?

Your boyfriend maybe?🤭

You

It’s just Jeonghan lol.

Boyfriend? What are those?

And also did you just call me baby?

That Johnny boy (1)

You are one lol.

You talk to Johnny more than you would have expected.

[7:30 a.m] Thursday, day 2

In spite of knowing Johnny for such a short time, you actually feel comfortable with him. Some people would call it attraction, but you are sure that it would only be one sided and that he just has a natural flirty personality.

“Do you really have to go to college today?” Johnny asks you as he pouts.

“Why are you so sad?” You smile and take a sip of your coffee cup.

“I get bored when I’m here on my own, I can’t talk to anyone and I’m afraid of touching something because I may break it.”

“That’s ridiculous Johnny.”

“I know, but you’re the only one I can spend some time with.”

You don’t want to say that you spend the whole day with him watching TV shows and movies. If anyone asks, you’d say you just felt sick.

[22:00 p.m] Thursday, day 2.

“Uno.” He says, ignoring your puppy face.

“No! Why would you do this to me?” You complain.

“Okay, let’s play another one, I promise this time I’ll let you win.”

“Now I’m tired of playing, let’s do something else.”

“Oh, is the baby mad?” He asks, pinching your cheeks. You turn your face so he won’t notice the blush on your cheeks, but it’s no use, he does it anyways.

“You’re blushing? Aw that’s cute.” If only you had turned your head back and wouldn’t have stood up to leave, you would have seen his flustered face.

“What do we do now?” You ask from the kitchen.

“We should have dinner though”

“So late? No way.” He sighs and looks at the television, thinking. “And there’s no way I’m watching TV again, I’ve had enough for today and I have some homework to do today since I didn’t do any.”

“Come on! Let’s enjoy for today! Tomorrow’s my last day here.”

“Fine, but I’m not watching more television.”

[0:00 p.m] Friday, day 3

“The things I do for you.” You sigh as you cover your body with a blanket.

Johnny just giggles and changes the channel.

“Let’s look for a good film, again.”

“Don’t you get tired of watching television?”

“Shut up I’m enjoying.”

That somehow makes you feel sad, how much does he has to handle at the same time? And how brave can you be to risk it all, only to have a break and begin a strike?

Your heart begins to beat faster once again, just like all the times you get close to him and you sigh.

“You good there?” He asks.

You don’t know when you began to feel so close to him to even joke about things, after all you’ve known him for like a day and yet there you are.

“What will happen to you once you go back?” You ask out of the blue.

“I don’t know, I really don’t know.” He says, his typical smile still in his face.

“Aren’t you afraid?”

“Afraid? God, I’m terrified.” He turns his head so he isn’t looking at you.

Your eyes make him feel like an opened book.

“Do you regret the strike, then?”

“Not a single second of it.”

And it happens so fast. You don’t know who got close to who, who crashed their lips against who or which one of you is thinking about the consequences.

Neither of you apparently.

But your lips meet. Sweet, innocently, nothing rushed or forced. Just as if it just had to happen.

[7:30 a.m] Friday, day 3.

Saying that you are shocked about what happened last night wouldn’t describe what you are actually feel.

“How the hell did that happen.” You think to yourself.

It’s not as if it was something awful, it was actually totally the opposite, and that’s what worries you. After all, he’s not a person you are used to see or you know completely, what the hell is happening?

But that’s not the thing you’re embarrassed about. It’s actually the fact that he was the one to stop the innocent kiss as he apologized. It’s the fact that once you realised what had happened, you had to run to your room since you weren’t able to even look at him.

It’s a mistake after all.

It’s more that confirmed when you wake up and Johnny isn’t there to cook breakfast.

[22:45] Friday, day 3.

You’ve been ignoring him all day. In fact, after coming back from college, you ate in your house at the same time as him, and the mood was so awkward, that you left to the library. You couldn’t stand it.

You’re back home right at 22:45.

When you come in, he’s sitting in the couch, playing with his phone.

“You’re back?”

“Yeah, finally.” You joke to make it less awkward.

“That’s good.”

You put your bag on the floor next to the couch, where you always leave it, and when you are about to make the way to your room to finally sleep, you hear some footsteps behind you. You’re about to ask when he pins you to the wall, not being harsh.

“I’m sorry, about last night. I didn’t wanted to end that like this.” He whispers, his face only a few centimetres away from yours.

“I get it, it was stupid, I’ll forget about that.”

“No, what I mean is that I really wanted to keep it going.” His face gets a little closer.

“Is that so?” You raise your eyebrows.

“I wanted to leave this afternoon, but I couldn’t, not without saying goodbye.” His words break your heart a little. “You know I shouldn’t be doing this, right?” He asks, his breath now mixing with yours.

“Then what are you going to do?”

“Not to overthink, like I did last night.”

He kisses you.

And then you kiss him.

Again.

And again.

[10:30] Saturday, last day.

You shouldn’t have done that, both of you know it. But in that moment, nothing mattered. All it mattered was the feeling, the way you felt so comfortable with him.

“I should probably get up.” He whispers from his side of bed.

“You probably should, yeah.” You try to laugh even though you knew what he really meant. “Does Jeonghan knows that you’re still here?”

“Yes, I talked to him last night after watching the film.”

“And…? Is it safe to come back?”

He shakes his head and chuckles.

“Absolutely not.”

“Then what are you going to do?” You ask, worried.

“I don’t want to take them for granted, so two things can happen. In the best of the cases I could lose my position as the leader, or probably won’t debut sometime close. In the worst of the cases, I could be directly kicked out.”

“Good luck, I guess. But mostly take care okay?”

“I will.” He chuckles.

After having breakfast, he picks up his bag, which was filled with all of his things -that weren’t a lot- and sighs while he looks around himself.

“It’s been good.” He mutters.

“Yes, it has.” You answer back.

You know you have to tell him something else, something witty so this isn’t that bitter, but you can’t.

Johnny heads to the door and you follow him. You open the door and he crosses it, but doesn’t leave immediately. He just looks at you.

“Thank you, you shouldn’t have done this for me, but I’m glad you did.” He says, sincerely.

“Actually, Jeonghan tricked me into this, but I’m glad he did, I could help after all, right?” You pause for a second. “Good luck Johnny, you deserve it. I hope I can see you on the TV as soon as possible.”

“Thank you.” He takes a bow. “Goodbye, Y/n.”

“Goodbye, Johnny.”

And then he turns around and begins to walk away, so you close the door, finishing what happened these last few days.

After all yes, you can fall for a person when you least expect it, and it only takes 8.2 seconds.

[sand-rose]

Right back at you for all the ocs! I especially love the name apocothea (I think I spelled it right?) Its super cool!!

Thank you so much!! :) Sorry this took awhile to answer, I’ve been busy with work and other stuff. But here they are! I was actually in the process of redesigning my OCs when I saw the post (thanks to Sims inspiration and wanting to update how I draw them), so it was perfect timing! I don’t have the drawings done yet but maybe soon…

Full Name: Pandora

Gender & Sexuality: Female, Pansexual (yes, punny, but also serious)

Pronouns: She/Her

Ethnicity/Species: my Balanced Ego

Birthplace & Birthdate: my mind, August 10

Guilty Pleasures: She loves taking bubble baths. Bring on the bath bombs and fragrant soaps, and the (pink) rubber ducky is a must! She also loves stuffed animals (especially pandas). And it surprises a lot of people, but she’s also an avid fan of anime/manga and video games.

Phobias: Accidentally losing one of her earrings, which keep her balanced. She’s particularly afraid of what she might do if this happens, because she loses control of herself and becomes truly evil. A past experience in regards to this also makes her uncomfortable around sheep. (Even toys or drawings of sheep. She will get a flashback and start sobbing, apologizing to the ‘poor sheepies’ until they’re out of sight.)

What They Would Be Famous For: Probably owning the only fashion-themed amusement park in the Ego World, or her fashion designs.

What They Would Get Arrested For: Being a public nuisance, like getting too hyper and making too much noise. Because honestly, if someone told her to shut up she would only get louder to spite them. She’s not afraid to get in a fight though, so maybe that too… Maybe for throwing a heel at someone. lol

OC You Ship Them With: Reim. He’s much calmer than her, but loves her crazy antics.

OC Most Likely To Murder Them: It. He gets along with Pan better than Aurora, but he can only take so much of her 'hyper hyper happy happy joy joy’ personality.

Favorite Movie/Book Genre: romance and rom-coms. The blossoming love between two people! The heartbreaking 'is this it?’ fights! The oblivious misunderstandings! Burnt dinners! The hand holding, the hugs, the kisses…! (You get it.)  

Least Favorite Movie/Book Cliche: When everything turns out to be a dream. Her Host loves this cliche. She hates it because 'what was the point of it all if it never really happened?!’

Talents and/or Powers: She’s a talented fashion designer. She likes to draw, like her Host, but when she became interested in clothes when she was younger she was frustrated that she couldn’t wear the clothes she drew. So she learned how to sew and began making her own clothes. She’s also very imaginative and ambitious.

Why Someone Might Love Them: She’s fun to be around, always a bouncing ball of energy! She likes pretty things, and considers everyone around her to be pretty in their own way. She’s the person who will convince you to try that new thing, or who will say 'Let’s go somewhere, my treat!’ when she sees you need cheering up. She’s also ready to kick ass if anyone dares hurt her friends or loved ones.

Why Someone Might Hate Them: She’s so hyper… Some people might find her hyperness endearing, but some people find it exhausting. She’s also had people judge her before based on her girly-ness, interest in fashion, and how she looks like a typical anime girl, but she doesn’t let it bother her.  

How They Change: She hasn’t changed all that much since I first created her back in middle school. She’s grown a lot more mature emotionally, I think, and she’s more careful about other people’s feelings.

Why You Love Them: She was the last of my Egos to be created, and she’s probably the best representation of who I wish I was. She’s daring, outspoken, bubbly, made a career for herself doing something she loves… I love her because even though that’s not me and probably never will be me, I still like to think that she’s cheering me on. “Don’t be afraid! You can do it!” lol  

Full Name: It

Gender & Sexuality: Male, not sure (he’s never given it much thought)

Pronouns: He/Him

Ethnicity/Species: my Alter Ego

Birthplace & Birthdate: my mind, October 31

Guilty Pleasures: He has a collection of weird t-shirts that he’s both bought and designed himself. He also has a collection of light sabers that he may or may not have bought off the Ego World’s black market that trades in Other World (Worlds of Licensed Series) objects…

Phobias: Becoming a soft goody two-shoes like Aurora… Gag.

What They Would Be Famous For: Nothing. He’s too lazy to really stand out much. And he’s fine with that.

What They Would Get Arrested For: Disrupting the peace. He’s got a temper, and when it flares he’s liable to kick/hit any object unlucky enough to be in his way. Be it a trash can, car, mailbox… He’s broken his toes for kicking a brick wall before. He’s also got problems with authority figures since he doesn’t like being told what to do, so if the police show up it would just escalate the situation. There was also the time he bombed Aurora’s house, but that was years ago, when he was jealous he wasn’t my only Ego anymore. He was a lot more evil back then, and Aurora (being the kind soul she is and understanding how he felt) didn’t press charges.

OC You Ship Them With: Apocothea. She keeps him in check and doesn’t put up with his crap, yet somehow sees the… best… in him…?

OC Most Likely To Murder Them: Pandora. She gets fed up with his gloomy outlook on life and gets cranky when he gives her attitude. They get into lots of arguments over nothing, especially with their quick tempers.

Favorite Movie/Book Genre: Horror/Suspense. He likes movies with lots of jumpscares, gore, and freaky nightmarish scenarios. They get his blood pumping and while he’s not that evil enough to enjoy people getting hurt, he likes to think about what he would do if he was trapped in that house trying to escape the serial killer. And of course, though he’s not a clown or even named after said clown, he likes Stephen King novels.

Least Favorite Movie/Book Cliche: It was love at first sight. He doesn’t believe in it, and if he sees that cliche he skips a few minutes past it or turns a few pages ahead, hopefully to a less mushy scene.

Talents and/or Powers: He’s great at video games. He actually earns money by playing video games for people who get stuck on them. They send him the game, he plays past the part they got stuck on to the next save, he sends it back. He’s been debating lately if he should start livestreaming, but his laziness in acquiring the equipment and setting up a room for it is currently holding him back.

Why Someone Might Love Them: He’s… It. lol He’s an Alter Ego who by all means should be trying to take over the world and plotting evil deeds, but either due to his laziness or from the influence of those closest to him, he just isn’t that into it. He’s just a cranky man that loves to kick over trash cans in my Sims game. lol

Why Someone Might Hate Them: He rubs a lot of people the wrong way, and with good reason. He’s not very social not because he’s shy but because he hates people in general. He comes off as rude when you first meet him, and he likes to glare for no reason. (He probably thinks it makes him look tough.) Honestly it’s a wonder people like him.

How They Change: He’s changed quite a bit since I first created him in middle school! He’s probably the most changed of all my OCs. At first he started out as a wolf demon, but after a few weeks he became my Alter Ego in a human form and stayed that way. He still has fangs, they’re just smaller. They serve no purpose, he just looks good with them! He’s also not as evil as he used to be, but like I said, I like to think that Pan and Aurora are a good influence on him.

Why You Love Them: He was my very first Ego! Way back in 6th grade I used to write and draw my own stories and share them with friends, and he got a pretty good response from them and they wanted to hear more about him. I wrote conversations between me (the Host) and him during free time in class and my friends loved reading them, and it kind of took off from there. Aurora was created next, then Pandora, and even though they were fictional characters I’d made up they started to feel like a second family to me. And they still do! lol

Full Name: Aurora

Gender & Sexuality: Female, Straight

Pronouns: She/Her

Ethnicity/Species: my Good Ego

Birthplace & Birthdate: my mind, February 23

Guilty Pleasures: She likes knitting and has so much yarn she doesn’t know what to do with it. She spoils her cat Cupcake with so many toys she doesn’t know what to do with them all. She has so many recipe books she doesn’t know what to do with them all. She’s actually a very neat person though, so another guilty pleasure would probably be cleaning. lol

Phobias: Heights, needles, and spiders (like her Host). I feel bad she shares my phobias. (Sorry, Aurora!) She’s also afraid of sharks, ever since she watched Jaws years ago and had nightmares for a week about them. She knows it's not good to be afraid of sharks and they get a bad rep, so she's trying to overcome that fear.

What They Would Be Famous For: Her cookies! She owns a bakery and while her cakes, brownies, and cupcakes are delicious, it’s her cookies that rake in the most dough. (Ha.) Every customer has their favorite, but hers is her creamy peanut butter cookies. They’re so soft and chewy, and she sprinkles peanut bits in so there’s a little crunch too!

What They Would Get Arrested For: The day Aurora gets arrested for anything is the day the world ends. She’s too pure, too innocent, to do anything resulting in arrest. She apologizes to insects when she has to capture them before setting them free! She gives away too many free samples at her bakery! She cries when she accidentally forgets to water a plant and it dies! If she ever gets arrested for anything, Pan and It may legit seek revenge to restore her honor…

OC You Ship Them With: Marcus. He’s sweet, she’s sweet! Their relationship might be normal and therefore a little boring to some people, but they love each other and are happy just to be together. They’re like an old married couple. lol

OC Most Likely To Murder Them: Not a single soul. Not even It. (Anymore.) She’s too kind for this world. An angel!

Favorite Movie/Book Genre: Generally anything except horror and war movies. She gets too nervous and scared watching horror, and gets too emotional watching battles with people fighting and dying. She tends to like comedies the most though, since they’re usually upbeat and make her laugh. She’s also a sucker for heartwarming stories. Those Chicken Soup for the Soul books? She’s probably got the whole collection, regardless of the intended audience.

Least Favorite Movie/Book Cliche: 'I had to do it. I had to kill them.’ She refuses to believe that killing is the only option no matter how dire a situation might be and will visibly get upset when she comes across this cliche. When she gets upset her face reddens and her lip wobbles, and if Marcus or Pan is with her she might rant to them about all the other options the protagonist had.

Talents and/or Powers: She is excellent at cooking, but baking is her specialty! If she’s mastered a recipe, she’ll master it again until it’s even better. And if she finds a new recipe, she will pull an all-nighter until she’s perfected it.

Why Someone Might Love Them: She’s such a sweetheart, bless her. She’s what the world needs more of: just honestly pure, good people. She’s the person who if she came across someone in need, she would give them everything she had. If you’re feeling down, she’ll do all she can to make you happy again. She’s definitely the mom friend.

Why Someone Might Hate Them: Some might consider her too good. Like It. He gets annoyed when she does things out of the kindness of her heart for no reason. He just doesn’t understand how someone can be that selfless. He thinks of her as a crybaby and she worries a lot, so that irritates him too. And others might be suspicious of her at first, wondering what she’s hiding or what she wants. But once people get to know her, they adore her and look to her for advice if they need help. Or just want free food. lol

How They Change: She’s probably the one who has changed the least. She’s always been the angel on my shoulder, the do-gooder. Someone has to keep the peace with the other two Egos around, after all.

Why You Love Them: Aurora is the one who resembles me the most, both in terms of looks and personality. There are some differences, though. She’s not shy, just quiet and reserved. She’s more comfortable with confrontations than I am, especially if it’s a matter of right vs wrong. I don’t have a problem with horror and war stuff. I wish I knew how to cook/bake. And I don’t think I could ever be as selfless as her. Basically, she’s a goody goody two-shoes, like It says. But it’s not a bad thing!

Full Name: Reim

Gender & Sexuality: Male, Bisexual

Pronouns: He/Him

Ethnicity/Species: Ego Entity

Birthplace & Birthdate: Ego World (specifically the city Venia), April 14

Guilty Pleasures: talking to his plants, liking movies that everyone else hates, singing in the shower, and he also enjoys the occasional bubble bath (thanks to Pan convincing him he was missing out on life if he didn’t take one now and then) (she was right)

Phobias: Moths. When he was little a big one got caught in his hair and he accidentally smashed it trying to get it out. It was messy and gross.

What They Would Be Famous For: Hopefully for his paintings! He does all kinds of paintings, and has even had a few displayed in art shows. He likes doing landscape art the best, because he loves plants and nature.

What They Would Get Arrested For: Not that he’s looking to get arrested, but he’s secretly always wanted to experiment with graffiti…

OC You Ship Them With: Pandora. Just when he thinks he knows her, she surprises him and he loves it! She makes him see how exciting and fun life is, and she’s always encouraging him with his latest art project and boasting about his paintings to her friends.

OC Most Likely To Murder Them: Probably It. It and Reim don’t see eye to eye a lot… Reim’s pretty optimistic, and that clashes with It’s pessimism. They don’t exactly hate each other, but they get on each other’s nerves. “You threw off my groove!” “Fuck your groove!” Yatta yatta…

Favorite Movie/Book Genre: He loves animated movies. As an artist, he really appreciates them and considers them art, so he’s constantly rewinding scenes because he was focusing on the style or shading instead of what was going on. As for books, he likes fantasy. He likes escaping to another world, and fantasy can be anything and everything, just like a painting.

Least Favorite Movie/Book Cliche: Not really a typical cliche but… He really hates noir style stuff. Noir movies annoy him to no end because there’s no color and he wishes he could restore the color so bad. He needs color! And when people talk noir style, with the witty and flirtatious old-fashioned banter. It’s just so cheesy to him… This extends to books as well. He prefers deep conversations between characters rather than quick one-liners.

Talents and/or Powers: He’s an artist, so he’s well-rounded in a variety of mediums. Painting, drawing, sculptures, photography… He enjoys painting the most though!

Why Someone Might Love Them: He’s a down-to-earth guy that has his goals set and has a plan to achieve them. He knows what he wants in life and he also knows not to get his hopes up. He does hope his dreams come true, but if not he’s got plenty of back up plans. He’s just a nice guy in general, always ready to lift the mood with a joke or a grin.

Why Someone Might Hate Them: For people like It, optimistic people can be annoying. No matter the situation, Reim looks on the bright side of things and his pleasant attitude and charming smile can make It angry. Because life sucks, and It knows it, but apparently Reim doesn’t. Reim’s not optimistic all the time, however, and he does have days where he’s a little moody or depressed, but he tends to keep to himself those days (so of course It doesn’t know that).

How They Change: Reim started out as a painting I did my senior year, so I thought it fitting to give him the painter career in my Sims game. Until that point I didn’t know much about him but watching him interact with my other characters has helped me flesh out what kind of person he is. He looked more emo and brooding in the painting, but in Sims he’s a cheerful guy who enjoys life, so I like that change in him.

Why You Love Them: He’s the character I didn’t know was going to be created. But I’m glad I did that painting of him years ago! Before I made him in Sims, I wanted to do more with his character and knew I wanted him with Pandora, but that was about it. Originally Pan was with someone else from an Other World, and for reasons it didn’t work out, but I think she and Reim are a perfect match. They balance each other out.

Full Name: Apocothea

Gender & Sexuality: Female, Demisexual

Pronouns: She/Her

Ethnicity/Species: Ego Entity

Birthplace & Birthdate: Ego World (specifically outside the town Abraxxus), November 2

Guilty Pleasures: Obsessed with Itachi from Naruto, so she has a collection of Itachi merchandise that shouldn’t even exist (her father knows people). She loves anime/manga and video games, and rock/heavy metal music. She also enjoys fan fiction (smut included, but she is picky about it).  

Phobias: This woman has no fear. You should be the one afraid.

What They Would Be Famous For: Not exactly famous, but her old classmates still remember the day the teacher was late and Apocothea calmly walked up to the front of the class and announced the teacher had been in a horrible accident and she was in charge now. She spoke with such authority that no one questioned her, and she proceeded to pass out copies of the 'worst fan fiction she had ever read’ for them to read and critique. It turned out that the teacher had been in a car accident (from speeding), and when the principal delivered the news everyone turned to her in fear. Of course she hadn’t really known… She just saw an opportunity and took it. She needed beta readers for her first fic, after all.

What They Would Get Arrested For: She’s too clever to get herself arrested. Anyone who leaves fingerprints and DNA samples is a Class-A moron. But if she did get arrested, somehow, it would probably be for making the police officer feel like an idiot. Or she would just ignore them and do the opposite of what they ordered her to do out of pure spite. Challenging authority and whatnot.

OC You Ship Them With: It. She wins all the arguments, basically, but they’re stupid arguments to begin with. They bicker back and forth, but it’s from love(?). I don’t know… Their relationship is kind of hard to explain. lol There’s not a lot of typical romance between them, but they do have their moments that say 'Yeah, they’re a couple alright!’

OC Most Likely To Murder Them: Nobody’s brave enough to even try murdering her. She’d murder them first.

Favorite Movie/Book Genre: Like It, she enjoys horror. Except where he’s the guy to think 'what would I do if I was trapped in a house with a serial killer?’, she’s the girl who thinks, 'If I was the serial killer, I’d go after them this way… That guy’s an asshole, anyway.’ She also likes murder mystery novels, but she’s always disappointed when she figures out who the killer is halfway through the book.

Least Favorite Movie/Book Cliche: 'The chosen one will save us!’ She doesn’t buy into the whole 'only this person can do it’ trope. Really? Only that person? But he’s an idiot. What if he dies? Then what? Guess the world ends.

Talents and/or Powers: I guess you could say her skill at Guitar Hero is a talent. She’s undefeated with all the Guitar Hero games (every mode, even expert). Other than that, she’s very talented at pretty much anything and everything, but especially at making people feel uncomfortable and fragile in her presence.

Why Someone Might Love Them: If you can get past her intimidating exterior, she’s a pretty cool gal. She’s kind of like Hana-chan from Fruits Basket… The things she says can come off as strange and threatening, but if you become her friend she would quite literally kill for you. She also has a younger sister named Analyse, and you can definitely tell they’re sisters from the way they look and talk.

Why Someone Might Hate Them: She’s very blunt, and if she doesn’t like you she won’t hold back on insults. Lots of people get offended when she does this, but that’s kind of the point. She can also be crafty in the way she talks to people, so sometimes they’re really not sure if she’s insulting them or complimenting them.  

How They Change: She’s changed just a little since I created her. Her relationship with It before was very one-sided, and she liked toying with him. She still likes to, actually, but it’s more affectionate now. She’s always been confident and in charge, but I think being with It has taught her that a relationship requires more teamwork and less blackmail.

Why You Love Them: Again, she’s one of those characters that displays traits I wish I had. She’s not afraid to be assertive, she loves herself for who she is, and doesn’t give a damn what other people think of her. And she gives off this vibe, like you really don’t want to trust that smile she’s wearing. Her calm but menacing demeanor really compliments It’s personality too, I think. He’s fire, she’s ice!

Full Name: Marcus

Gender & Sexuality: Male, Straight

Pronouns: He/Him

Ethnicity/Species: Ego Entity

Birthplace & Birthdate: Ego World (specifically a suburban area named Hannen), March 27

Guilty Pleasures: watching YouTube/EgoTube videos, memes, taking internet quizzes… And surprising Aurora on a regular basis with flowers and chocolate like the romantic sap he is!

Phobias: Puking and cuts on the skin. When he’s sick he gets very agitated and nervous and will refuse to eat solid food in case he can’t keep it down. (Soup and water only, basically.) With cuts, it’s not the blood he fears but the sensation of skin splitting. It stems from when he was a teenager and got a deep cut on his knee. Little nicks while shaving are no biggie, but papercuts make him lightheaded and make his skin crawl.

What They Would Be Famous For: He’s a very relaxed guy who honestly doesn’t stand out much, but his friends know him as the tech guy. Computer or game console acting up? Marcus knows how to fix it. TV or phone bugging out? Call Marcus, he’s your guy.

What They Would Get Arrested For: Like Aurora, he would never get arrested for anything. He’s too nice to do anything like property damage or fighting, and he’s never gotten a ticket for anything in his life.

OC You Ship Them With: Aurora. They’re so precious together, too good, too sweet! They dote on each other and probably unintentionally make other couples jealous. lol

OC Most Likely To Murder Them: It. Another goody goody two-shoes frustrates him even more than one. The only thing It appreciates about Marcus is that he’s not above using swear words (unlike Aurora). And maybe the fact that he’s willing to fix It’s laptop and game systems for free.

Favorite Movie/Book Genre: He really likes documentaries and informational books. He’s always interested in learning something new, and he’d much rather watch an hour-long documentary on EBS than watch the newest hit movie. He was the kid in school who always read the assigned Literature, Real World History & Ego World History, and Science books for fun.

Least Favorite Movie/Book Cliche: He doesn’t like when a side character you grew attached to suddenly dies. They make you care about them, only to kill them off! What the hell?

Talents and/or Powers: Talented with fixing all things tech. He does claim it’s his superpower! lol

Why Someone Might Love Them: When you find a genuinely nice guy who cares a lot about you, you struck gold! Aurora loves his soft, sensitive side when he’s alone with her and also loves his corny jokes. People in general like how laid back he is, as he’s very patient and knows everybody makes mistakes. He’s the guy who will walk an old lady across the street if she needs help, the guy who literally climbed a tree to get a cat out of it (sneaky little Cupcake!). Nice guys do exist, and he’s one of the best!

Why Someone Might Hate Them: Again… There’s people like It. They get annoyed with the whole 'nice guy act’, especially once they learn it’s not an act at all but just how he is. They might get jealous when they see how much other people like him, but more often than not they come around, especially after he helps them with something and expects nothing in return.

How They Change: His character hasn’t changed much, either. He’s thoughtful, kind, cheerful… He’s popular with everyone he hangs out with, because he gets along with pretty much everyone. He’s polite, open to new things and opinions, and though he admits he might be a little boring to be around he also doesn’t mind. Such a great guy!

Why You Love Them: He and Aurora are a pair of cinnamon rolls, too sweet, too pure for this world! Even though I created him long before I met Alex, he reminds me of him. lol Marcus is the perfect example for how you should treat your loved ones, and anyone you meet, really. He’s like the Mr. Rogers of the gang, I guess you could say. He just wants everybody to respect each other and be kind to themselves and others.

Sorry if this got super long, I just really love these characters. lol Also! When I was reading your OC post I found it really cool that some of our characters have birthdays either on the same day or really close, that made me smile! :D

Thanks so much for the ask again!!

[justalittlemango]

Hmmm

So uh... I haven't posted on this Tumblr for a while. A few months by the looks of it? That last post was the beginning of this year. And now it's 20th August 2021.

So what happened? Also ugh the formatting on this site. Welp, my last post seemed to be a lot about my now-ex. I'll call him Tit as I think that's an appropriate name. So yeah, he did come back sometime after I wrote that post. He came back. He seemed to have been feeling better. It was nice to see him happy and things pretty much went back to how they were before, even better if anything. Sadly that was only temporary! Well, I say sadly. Sad at the time. I don't care these days.

Something happened, he lost it over me doing literally nothing. I knew he had problems with my mental health but I don't like to be accused of all sorts when all I try to do is help. I knew at that time, that was the calling point. Cutting off ties. Because my health both mentally and physically could not deal with everything he was putting me through. I cut him off. It felt sad but I knew I had to do it. And fast forward six months later, there's been no contact between us. Thank god.

So.. that was always fun.. I lost my friends who I had met through Tit. I knew that was coming as well. I can still be mad over that, but at the end of the day, who's side are they going to stick by? Mine (someone they've only known for a few months) or his (someone they adore and known for years even.) I guess the outcome here was kind of obvious. I wish I could say I didn't care it happened, but it did hurt me. When I was already going through so much hurt just seeing that was not nice. Thankfully I was never confronted before it happened, I was just swiftly deleted/unfriended/removed and that's that.

That was the second time in a 7/8 month span that I lost friends because of these love problems. So all in all? I'm pretty fucking tired of that happening lol. Anyway, these people are irrelevant now and no longer play a part in my life. So I just need to forget about them.

So did things get any better? Yes! I met someone new. My Dommy. I joined this server in attempt to make some friends and play games with (since the friends I once did that with departed..) so I thought I'd shoot my shot there. It started off okay, I was making friends and it was fun. I met Dommy in there. There was something that caught my eye about him when I would see him chatting and stuff. We spoke to each other through DMs for a bit and played games together. It was so much fun. And the more I got to know about him the more I was like ... My god ... Because I knew I was going to catch feelings for him. Everything he was telling me about himself just made the feelings grow more and more. Like he just kept ticking my boxes in what I seek in a partner.

At first I didn't wanna catch feelings, mostly due to the fact he's 18, and I was 23 (now I'm 24 so yay). I felt the age gap would've been too weird and I wouldn't usually consider anyone that's under 21 to be a potential partner. But god it was so hard to think like that when the more I learnt about him, the more these feelings kept growing. He just knew exactly what to say. His personality and everything. He's so fun and kind. So wholesome. Positive. I find him so relatable too. I definitely didn't expect this for someone who is quite frankly, fresh into adulthood. But here we are!

Heh, let's just say I tried to dim my feelings down. And it definitely didn't work. And I remember thinking at first like, oh god he wouldn't want feelings for me I'm like 5 years older than him LOLLL. But boy was I wrong! About a month after chatting and playing games together (quite frequently too) - he told me he had a crush on me. And I remember how great that felt. It felt so... fucking... amazing. To read everything he said to me. I really didn't think he'd feel that way.. I had my suspicions on somethings but they were more just me being overly hopeful. And of course, I had to tell him I crushed him back. I had the same feelings. And ever since then it just continually grows.

26th May we decided to become long distance boyfriends. We both felt ready for it. Every day and night I got to spend with him on voice chat was SO enjoyable. It was so much fun. The love kept continuing to grow and grow. The more he told me about himself, the more he truly sounded like my perfect man. My soul mate even! And he felt the same way about it all. And now we're so clingy and romantic for each other all the time and I LOVE IT!!

Fast forward to August. We still here. We hope to meet up soon. We surround ourselves with such positive romantic energy. Inspiring each other to be our best selves. Heck, we both got jobs just so we can buy stuff for each other and visit frequently. And that's where we're at. We're awaiting the day for when we meet.

I'm so grateful for him. He changed my life around. I hit rock bottom and he full on dragged me out. Showed me that I can still love. Supported me through everything. Even with everything that happened after my ex. He was there. And still today, with everything I went through.. he had my back.

I love him so much. With everything I have. To the end of days. I've never met ANYONE like him. My past relationships don't even come close to what he and I have. And the crazy thing? He feels the same.. this is just magical. See, it would be TOO good if we were living in the same country. But alas, I am UK, he is US.. a few thousand miles away. But you know what? I'm making it my goal that we'll live together. We talk about having a family, living together, going on so many dates and just doing everything together.

It's my goal. Ultimate. Life goal. I don't want to die without being able to hold him in my arms. And very soon I hope, I will be able to hold him, watch him fall asleep in my arms and whisper "I love you" right in his ear. I 100% trust him. I've never been able to fully trust anyone in my life before. Not my previous partners or anything. But my Dommy? I trust him with my life.

But are there any issues?

Nope. Not really. Sometimes I still feel a lil weird about the age gap. I'll be meeting my boyfriend who's 18, as a 24 year old.. doing lovey things lol. Sometimes I worry about what others think about that, mostly his family. My family know about it and they think it's fine, as with my friends. I hope his family are the same! I mean, it's only 5 year difference. It's not that much at all. I just overthink it and it's a ridiculous thing to overthink! Because he is my soulmate. If anybody has a problem with it, then they'll have to deal with it. Cause I ain't going anywhere. And neither is he 😏 actually I think he'd get more sassy at them than I would!

But yeah. Uh. Anything else? Not really. He's a busy lad but I love that for him. He does so much for his family. He can do so much. Working, driving, going to college.. I'm so proud of him! And I think from what I know from his childhood, he deserves to have all these nice times with his family. So no, there are no issues between us. We have never even argued yet! And I couldn't imagine arguing with him.

So I hope next time I write here.. I'd have met him in person. And experience that. It would be the best day of my life.

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Anyway! How am I? I'm fine right now. I'm struggling a bit because I have no money left. Kinda annoyed I spent my travel moneys on myself (because I had to.) I hope that issue will be sorted next month when I get my student loan, and hopefully this job that I interviewed for yesterday! Interview lasted over an hour and I'm only competing against one other person. So.. if I get that.. the money gonna be sweet. And you already know I'll be investing in travelling to see my Dommy!

But I also want to try to do my driving lessons. Get my own groceries again and my weight gain stuff because my body is far too skinny! I want to try and get a gym membership too while I'm at it. I say all this, but where the heck am I gonna find the time to do all this? Especially as a full time student! But I think we got this. Driving lessons aren't urgent, and even so they wouldn't take long if I do lessons in an auto. Since I've driven before. So maybe I'll only need 10 lessons.

I want to go the gym and build my body a little bit. Look a bit more in shape for when I see my boy hehehe.

So yeah, lack of money is my main issue here. I can't afford to go out and get my own food and supplements. So until I get my moneys, my mood is going to be patchy. It'll be worth the wait though if things go all out to plan.

Anything else on my mind? Well.. being back here in B'ham! I don't particularly feel safe here. Don't get me wrong, I'm very happy to be back with my parents. And not have to pay rent on a student house.. but that does come with some negatives... Quite a few negatives. These being.. lack of privacy, not being able to make a lot of noise late at night, not feeling safe in the city, issues with bathroom/showers, and the god forsaken slow internet.

Positives though? Being with my parents, in the big city where everything is, good stores and nightlife. Few friends are here. Though not too many I'm interested in seeing. Lol. I guess I'm in the middle of everything too so if I wanted to travel out of city to see someone , I have the option to do so.

So.. yeah! A lot more good than bad going on right now and thank god. Because how this year started was awful. It was literally the hardest time of my life to get through it. And everything that happened in the summer, I'm so grateful for. And my Dommy. I'm so happy he came into my life. I feel honoured and blessed to be in a relationship with him.

I hope things go to plan. I'm in my last year of university, and will be graduating next year. So that should be exciting! And then I have plans to study at BCU next year to do a master degree in UX! Which is exactly the kind of thing I want to get into! So that's a good two years of a steady income from student finance, and hopefully this part time job! So fingers crossed these plans will work out.

Those are my goals that I see in the distance. Travel to see my boyfriend, graduate and get onto that post-grad course! My short term goals. Oh and also get a part time job. Lol. My long term goals is to honestly.. immigrate to the US. I know it sounds wild. But it's what I want. I need to be with my boyfriend. Start a life with him. And spend the rest of my life with my Dommy. I don't know when I'd ever be able to live with him.. but let's just say you need to have a strong background to be accepted as a US citizen. But with the plans I got...it should work! Having a master's degree and hopefully someone will hire a UX designer from the US and sponsor me! With some luck.

How long do I think that would take? Probably sometime within the next 5 years.. I hope. If I'm lucky! And interesting to think, in 5 years I'm 28, and my boyfriend will be 23! Which I think is the perfect time in both our lives to find a place together to live and be happy.

I feel with that, being away from my parents via long distance is going to be VERY difficult. But I'd try my best to visit them for a month or so. And of course, I still want to support them even if I am living abroad.

Ok. Here is the end of the post. I hope I don't look back at this in a few months and laugh. I know not all of this will work out, but I hope most of it will! So yeah, here's to the future! To good health, happyness, and my boyfriend of course ;)

-mangiiii

[lovemehatemenevergonnabeme17]

La Mia Seducente Fiore

So in this story, you are 21 years old who is a Baker and Ezio is 23 years old still an assassin(duh). Please pardon my lateness and I apologize beforehand if this story isn’t good, this is my first try at this. Sorry if there are errors I tried my best! Also, I will be uploading this to wattpad under my account SpookyGoof17 where I will be making one-shot books of what I write here on Tumblr. Love ya enjoy!!~

(Lol I thought this gif was hilarious as f**k)

Your P.O.V~

Today is a warm day here in Firenze. So far so good with the exception of one thing, I haven’t seen Ezio Auditore, my best friend, for the past two days he usually is walking around on the roofs where I can see him eyeing any templars, but as of lately he hasn’t even shown a sign of him being around. I have known Ezio since I was ten and from then on we have been close.

“I hope he is alright.” I huff and go back to putting cinnamon rolls into the oven behind me

“Hello?” I jump a bit at the sudden sound behind me I turn to see an old woman standing there with an empty bag in hand

“Yes, how may I help you, ma l'am?”

“I was wondering if you could help me deciding what kind of seasoning I should get to make Pork Marsala?” I giggle at how she looks around questionably around for what she is looking for

“Yes, I can.” I walk out from behind the counter and go to the spices on display

“Huh, how about some cloves garlic and extra virgin olive oil. You should also try to get some red wine it will give the pork some better taste.” I give her the ingredients

“How much will that cost?” she started getting money out

“€ 8.” I hear her sigh and pull out € 3

“This is all I have.”

“It is alright here.” I give her the ingredients

“On the house.” She looks at me and has a worried look on her face

“Are you sure. I can make something else for a meal.”

“It is quite alright, go have a lovely dinner.” I smile and push the bag towards her more

“Thank you tipo donna!” She walks out and waves goodbye

*Meanwhile*

Ezio P.O.V~

Today has been long, I went back to Monteriggioni yesterday to check up on my family. Everything has been so screwed up, except one person, (Y/N), she is the kindest and most thoughtful person anyone could ever meet. Hell, you could ask her to go jump into freezing cold water and she’ll do it. That’s why I like to keep an eye on her or at least try to if I am not in Monteriggioni training or taking care of my mother and sister.

“Ringrazio Dio al di sopra di.” I finally made it back to Firenze and near (Y/N)’s bakery

“Thank you tipo donna!” I see an old lady walking out of (Y/N)’s bakery and waving back into the store

I decide to go around to the back of her bakery so I don’t attract any unwanted attention from templars. I walk through the back door and see (Y/N) standing there back to me putting cinnamon rolls on a tray.

“Hello, bella.” She jumps and spins around towards me

Your P.O.V~

I was putting the cinnamon rolls on a tray on the front counter after helping the old woman, it became silent.

“Hello, bella.” I hear a deep voice say behind me I jump and spin around to see who it was

“Ezio!!” I blush and run towards him and hug him burying my face in his chest as he places his head on top on mine while wrapping his arms around me

“Where have you been? Are you alright? How is your family? Do y-” Ezio chuckles and pulls my chin up so I’m making eye contact with him

“You worry too much la bambola.”

“Sorry habit.” He only smiles more

“So what has been going on with you today?” He lets go of me and looks around the store

“I have helped 16 people so far today and have been selling a large number of baked goods since I opened today. How have you been elemento di disturbo?” I hear him sigh and he makes a so-so motion with his hand before turning back towards me

“You help so many people (Y/N), have any of them taking the help too far?” he crosses his arms and leans against the counter while I look down towards my feet as if they are suddenly very interesting to me.

“Well, this one woman asked to run a couple errands for her while I was on break.”

“Bella you can’t just let people walk all over you.” I blush yet again at the nickname

“I’m not letting them walk all over me! I can’t just leave them helpless.” He uncrosses his arms and is now standing right in front of me

“I didn’t mean to make you upset with me. I’m sorry, can you forgive me.” I look up to see Ezio making puppy dog eyes at me and I smile

“I don’t know… What will you do for me to forgive you?” he smirks and lopsided grin and puts his hand under my chin

“Whatever you would like me to do~.” he purrs close to my ear enough to make my face heat up

“How about you and I spend the night together and catch up on everything while relaxing?”

“I thought you would ask a more..” his face is now next to my ear

“Dirty request.” I tense for a moment then push him away

“In your dream Auditore!”

“You wound me with your words (Y/N)!” I laugh and push him towards the door

“Andiamo! I’ll see you right after night falls alright?” He laughs as well and slowly walks out the door

“Right after nightfall then at your place.” He gives a wave and disappears into the crowd

*Time Skip To Later That Night*

Men and women are getting off the street and heading towards their houses for the night. I just helped two other people before I closed the door to the bakery.

“Excuse me miss, but can I ask you a favor?” I turn around from the door to see a man seems to be around my age 20 maybe

“Yes, how may I help you?”

“I was wondering if you could help me with a couple things?” I look up to the sky and see it is blue with a tint of red and orange

“Ezio will be fine for a couple more minutes.” I thought

“Sicuro I can help you what do you need help with?” The man makes a follow motion with his hand and I follow him to a cart with boxes and bags

“Do you think you can carry some of these into my house right over there?” He points to a well-lit house with the door slightly open

“I believe I can do so.” I let the back open and climb up to grab some bags then head towards his house

After getting all the boxes and bags into his house I wipe my hands on my skirt and look back at the man.

“Thank you so much incantevole.” I look at the man in shock

“Anytime sir.” I turn to head home

“Wait.” he grabs my arm

“What?” He gets closer and in my face, to the point, I can smell his last meal on my face

“Can I ask for one more favor?” I nod and try to back up a bit

“Good. Can I get a kiss from you?”  I try to back up again but his grip on my arm tightens

“Um, sir you are hurting me.” he makes a shushing sound with his other hand

“Just a little kiss.” He leans forward and I close my eyes and look down or away

“Hey idiota get away from her!” all the sudden I am let go and pushed behind someone, I open my eyes to see Ezio standing in front of me

“None of this is your business bastard!” The man tries to swing a hit on Ezio but he blocked it and punches the man in the face

“Figlio d’un cane!” The man goes falling backwards onto the ground

“Don’t you ever try to touch her again or next time the pain with be even worse!” Ezio gets a bit red in the face from anger

“Ezio stop!” I get in between the two men and try to push Ezio back, keyword try, but all he does is wrap his arm around my waist and move towards the direction of where I live.

“I was fine Ezio the man wasn’t going to hurt me.” Ezio says nothing and keeps looking forward

I decide not to talk afterward either and soon enough we are at my house and Ezio had opened the door walked me in and closed the door after him.

“What were you thinking? You could’ve been hurt (Y/N).” Ezio’s back was to me and I crossed my arms

“But I wasn’t hurt and I was helping him.”

“Helping him with what? He looked to be taking advantage of you a bit too much for my liking!”

“Why does it matter to you, we aren’t more than friends Ezio!” all the sudden I am against the door and Ezio is looming over me with both hands next to my head

“Because I like you more than a friend (Y/N)! I don’t like seeing you getting walked over or getting taking advantage of every moment people can be given. Yes, I know you think of me as your best friend but I want you to be more than that, I want you to be my mine.” Ezio is looking at me with tears in his eyes and a hint of something else in his eyes. I stand there shocked and unable to say any words

“He likes me?!” I can feel my heart racing

“I’m sorry I’ll leave you be.” I snap out of my daze and see Ezio drop his arms and walk a bit back getting closer to a nearby window

“Please don’t let this ruining our friendship please.” I walk up to him quickly and put my hands on his face to turn to have his chocolate brown eyes look at me and do the only thing I’ve been wanting to do, kiss him.

I pull back after a couple seconds and see him still shocked by the move I just made.

“Ezio, I didn’t know you felt the same way I did but towards you.” I let my hands fall from his face and look down blushing

“(Y/N).” I look up and I am instantly greeted with his lips on my except it wasn’t like the first kiss there was more need behind this kiss. The kiss got quickly heated and his hands were on my waist. We both pulled away for air, Ezio put his forehead against my own and had a smile upon his face.

“Ti amo.” I say just above a whisper

“Ti amo anch’io la mia seducente fiore.” He goes in for another kiss and the rest of the night was a bliss.

Words:

*Ma’am

*Kind woman

*Thank you god above

*Doll

*Troublemaker

*Go

*Lovely

*Sure

*Son of a Bitch

*I love you

*I love you too

*My alluring flower

[5hfanfiction]

FROM AFAR - CHAPTER 19

Lauren (4:26 pm): Camz

Lauren (4:26 pm): how was your test?

Lauren (4:26 pm): i had a dream and you were here haha

Camila (5:11 pm): it’s the thirsty

Camila (5:11 pm): and it was good

Lauren (5:14 pm): but it looked so real, hahaha but then you didn’t answer me

Lauren (5:14 pm): camz, we’re at the dining hall, are you coming now

Camila (5:15 pm): i’m evaluating this possibility

Camila (5:15 pm): our souls were meeting there

Lauren (5:15 pm): hahahaha

Camila (5:15 pm): i’m not high, i promise lol

Lauren (5:15 pm): i can see that hahaha

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Camila (8:15 pm): are you back?

Lauren (8:15 pm): i’m at the gym baby

Lauren (8:15 pm): but i’m going back

Lauren (8:16 pm): do you need anything?

Camila (8:17 pm): no no

Camila (8:18 pm): i just wanted to know if we’re gonna see each other today

Lauren (8:18 pm): we’re gonna watch frozen hahaha

Camila (8:19 pm): oh god

Camila (8:19 pm): the girls too? lol

Lauren (8:23 pm): yes haha

Lauren (8:23 pm): it was ally’s idea

Lauren (8:23 pm): because i said i had to watch it before we go to disney haha

Camila (8:23pm): true

I woke up the next day feeling better than ever, because apparently me and Lauren were fine and that was a huge deal for me. We were acting normal, and by that I mean like our old friendship, with no weirdness whatsoever. The difference now was that I thought I could kiss her whenever I wanted, but preferably when we were alone in the room of course. The girls didn’t know about anything yet and we certainly didn’t need the whole school watching any display of affection that would imply anything more than us being gal pals.

So my plan was to get some time alone with Lauren everyday, just like we always had done only with more kisses, basically just be with Lauren in every sense of the word. I had forgotten that that day was our 3 month friendship anniversary, it had been three whole months that we set foot in America and three months we had known each other. When I look back now I realize that things happened so fast and I seemed to lost track of the time back then, because so much stuff had happened in 90 days and I felt like I knew those girls for my entire life. Ninety days and I already had an unexpected fling going on with my assumed straight friend, I also had kissed my other girlfriends, lost one of the most important people in my life and so on. Life had taken turns that I wouldn’t ever in a million years expect.

Ally suggested that we watched Frozen to celebrate because Lauren and Dinah had not seen it yet, and we had our trip to disney coming up in a few days. In fact, we just wanted to stay together that night and a movie was a good excuse to do that. I wanted to be alone with Lauren that night though, but celebrating our friendship was just as important as my will to kiss her so I was happy to spend time with all the girls at the same time, I’d just forgotten about it. We all settled in my room this time because Pam left every night and that would give us some privacy. I didn’t feel like watching anything though, so during the entire movie I just stayed close to Lauren.

We were lying in my bed while Ally was sitting to the side of the laptop screen and Dinah took a seat in my desk chair next to the bed. I was still uncertain about what I could do with Lauren when the girls were around, but they knew we had a thing going on before and they saw was kissing and everything, so it wouldn’t hurt to be a little affectionate in front of them. So as Lauren laid on her stomach, I took the opportunity to caress her back and be as close as possible. The movie ended and after a little chat the girls were supposed to go to their rooms and that would be the end of the night. Ally and Dinah were the first ones to get the things and leave, wishing me a goodnight while Lauren was behind grabbing her stuff. I’m pretty sure she did it on purpose, because just like me she wanted that time alone with me.

“Do you want to watch another movie,” I asked as Lauren was already up and in the imminence of leaving. I could tell that that was exactly what she wanted to hear. Well, not exactly, but in other words she probably just wanted a reason to stay, and even if I didn’t have the movie excuse I would totally just ask her to stay anyway, because apparently that was my thing now, the audacity and all that shit.

“Sure, what do you wanna watch?”

“I don’t know, you choose it.”

Lauren went back to her place in my bed and chose a brazilian movie about drug traffic in Rio de Janeiro and stuff like that. I remember our failed attempts to watch the whole Pirates of the Caribbean franchise before halloween, and Lauren’s failed attempt to watch Tarzan with Ally and I. The fact that Lauren wasn’t even that into Disney and romantic movies and prefered action over sappy things didn’t bother me much, only the part about cartoons because, I, Camila Cabello, am a sucker for those, while Lauren would rather see blood, shootings and car races instead of a cute animation about friendship, magic and love. But the truth is, I didn’t pay attention to Frozen and I wouldn’t pay attention to anything else with Lauren by my side.

The movie started and the room was dark. I tried to pay attention, I really did, but failed miserably. We assumed the same positions as before, with Lauren on her belly and I was next to her. At this point it was pretty clear that the kiss would happen one way or another because the atmosphere around us totally suggested it. It’s funny how you can feel those things in the air, I knew what I was feeling and I could imagine what Lauren wanted, but the fact that we can change the mood around us just because of that still blows my mind, like, you can literally change the air around you even if you do it unconsciously. But as we were about to go for it Pam came back to the room. That bitch always came back super late and when I needed her to stay the fuck away she decided to cut the night short. I honestly didn’t know if Lauren would be comfortable with her there, and honestly I wasn’t sure how I felt about it either. The girl didn’t turn on the lights and just went straight to her bed, while we pretended to be watching something.

A few minutes later, enough time for Pam to be sleeping, we locked eyes with each other for a couple seconds that seemed to last years. I was awkwardly on my side, almost beneath Lauren when she leaned in and close the gap between us.

“Shhh, try not to make kissing sounds,” I said to her as I was afraid of Pamela listening that intimate moment between the two of us.

“Sorry.” Our kisses turned kinda weird after that as our position didn’t help and the goal of not making too much noise, but they were good ones nonetheless, it was Lauren Jauregui after all.

We made out for a long time. After that we decided to just stop watching the fucking movie, there was no point anyway, and just stayed lying there enjoying each other’s company.

“What are you thinking?” I asked just above a whisper.

“Nothing much, just this whole situation right now and everything.”

“You must be very confused.”

“I am, I can’t even begin to tell you. It’s just…it’s just that you know what you want and I’m here all confused.”

“Are you questioning your sexuality?” There was no way of me knowing what was going on inside that mind of hers unless she’d told me herself, so all that was left for me to do was showing my support and giving her space if she wanted it. The sexuality was the first thing that came to my mind because it was obvious that it was probably the main issue, I’d been there before and I wanted nothing else than to help her if I could.  

“Yeah, that too.” She let out a sigh.

“You know you don’t have to be sure about anything right now, right? And you don’t have to label yourself, just try to not overthink this and everything will be fine.”

“I know.” I wanted her to feel comfortable with everything related to me, but It would be I lie if I said I wasn’t scared of her just waking up one day saying she was straight and everything was just a mistake.

We stayed there for a while and then we decided it was probably wise if she left, we had to get our beauty sleep for the next busy day. As Lauren got up to leave and I grabbed my laptop to put it on my desk, she was almost at the door when she turned back to me and leaned in to give me a peck on the lips, like, she literally kissed me goodbye when she didn’t have to, she went out of her way to show me some love. It may seem like a stupid and simple thing as I had my tongue down her throat just minutes before, but that act warmed up my heart and set the butterflies free in my stomach. It was such a simple act but it was random and unexpected and everything that I wanted from her. I don’t have to tell you what was on my mind when I put my head on the pillow that night…

A/N: hey fam, i think i have some type of writer’s block even though It doesn’t take much to write this shit, but i guess it’s gonna take longer to update it. Also, these next part of the story is full of camren fluffy and i’ll probably split it on shorter chapters, it might sound a little redundant sometimes and I’m literally dreading it, but i guess i have to tell you the good things that happened.

I also want you to know that I’m translating a brazilian fic to english and you can find it in my account, seriously is one of the best I’ve ever seen so feel free to check it out, it’s totally worth it, it’s called Crosswords, and my one shot too (something about her gaze).

Lauren (4:26 pm): Camz

  Lauren (4:26 pm): how was your test?

  Lauren (4:26 pm): i had a dream and you were here haha

  Camila (5:11 pm): it’s the thirsty

  Camila (5:11 pm): and it was good

  Lauren (5:14 pm): but it looked so real, hahaha but then you didn’t answer me

  Lauren (5:14 pm): camz, we’re at the dining hall, are you coming now

  Camila (5:15 pm): i’m evaluating this possibility

  Camila (5:15 pm): our souls were meeting there

  Lauren (5:15 pm): hahahaha

  Camila (5:15 pm): i’m not high, i promise lol

  Lauren (5:15 pm): i can see that hahaha

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Camila (8:15 pm): are you back?

  Lauren (8:15 pm): i’m at the gym baby

  Lauren (8:15 pm): but i’m going back

  Lauren (8:16 pm): do you need anything?

  Camila (8:17 pm): no no

  Camila (8:18 pm): i just wanted to know if we’re gonna see each other today

  Lauren (8:18 pm): we’re gonna watch frozen hahaha

  Camila (8:19 pm): oh god

  Camila (8:19 pm): the girls too? lol

  Lauren (8:23 pm): yes haha

  Lauren (8:23 pm): it was ally’s idea

  Lauren (8:23 pm): because i said i had to watch it before we go to disney haha

  Camila (8:23pm): true

  I woke up the next day feeling better than ever, because apparently me and Lauren were fine and that was a huge deal for me. We were acting normal, and by that I mean like our old friendship, with no weirdness whatsoever. The difference now was that I thought I could kiss her whenever I wanted, but preferably when we were alone in the room of course. The girls didn’t know about anything yet and we certainly didn’t need the whole school watching any display of affection that would imply anything more than us being gal pals.

  So my plan was to get some time alone with Lauren everyday, just like we always had done only with more kisses, basically just be with Lauren in every sense of the word. I had forgotten that that day was our 3 month friendship anniversary, it had been three whole months that we set foot in America and three months we had known each other. When I look back now I realize that things happened so fast and I seemed to lost track of the time back then, because so much stuff had happened in 90 days and I felt like I knew those girls for my entire life. Ninety days and I already had an unexpected fling going on with my assumed straight friend, I also had kissed my other girlfriends, lost one of the most important people in my life and so on. Life had taken turns that I wouldn’t ever in a million years expect.

  Ally suggested that we watched Frozen to celebrate because Lauren and Dinah had not seen it yet, and we had our trip to disney coming up in a few days. In fact, we just wanted to stay together that night and a movie was a good excuse to do that. I wanted to be alone with Lauren that night though, but celebrating our friendship was just as important as my will to kiss her so I was happy to spend time with all the girls at the same time, I’d just forgotten about it. We all settled in my room this time because Pam left every night and that would give us some privacy. I didn’t feel like watching anything though, so during the entire movie I just stayed close to Lauren.

  We were lying in my bed while Ally was sitting to the side of the laptop screen and Dinah took a seat in my desk chair next to the bed. I was still uncertain about what I could do with Lauren when the girls were around, but they knew we had a thing going on before and they saw was kissing and everything, so it wouldn’t hurt to be a little affectionate in front of them. So as Lauren laid on her stomach, I took the opportunity to caress her back and be as close as possible. The movie ended and after a little chat the girls were supposed to go to their rooms and that would be the end of the night. Ally and Dinah were the first ones to get the things and leave, wishing me a goodnight while Lauren was behind grabbing her stuff. I’m pretty sure she did it on purpose, because just like me she wanted that time alone with me.

  “Do you want to watch another movie,” I asked as Lauren was already up and in the imminence of leaving. I could tell that that was exactly what she wanted to hear. Well, not exactly, but in other words she probably just wanted a reason to stay, and even if I didn’t have the movie excuse I would totally just ask her to stay anyway, because apparently that was my thing now, the audacity and all that shit.

  “Sure, what do you wanna watch?”

  “I don’t know, you choose it.”

  Lauren went back to her place in my bed and chose a brazilian movie about drug traffic in Rio de Janeiro and stuff like that. I remember our failed attempts to watch the whole Pirates of the Caribbean franchise before halloween, and Lauren’s failed attempt to watch Tarzan with Ally and I. The fact that Lauren wasn’t even that into Disney and romantic movies and prefered action over sappy things didn’t bother me much, only the part about cartoons because, I, Camila Cabello, am a sucker for those, while Lauren would rather see blood, shootings and car races instead of a cute animation about friendship, magic and love. But the truth is, I didn’t pay attention to Frozen and I wouldn’t pay attention to anything else with Lauren by my side.

  The movie started and the room was dark. I tried to pay attention, I really did, but failed miserably. We assumed the same positions as before, with Lauren on her belly and I was next to her. At this point it was pretty clear that the kiss would happen one way or another because the atmosphere around us totally suggested it. It’s funny how you can feel those things in the air, I knew what I was feeling and I could imagine what Lauren wanted, but the fact that we can change the mood around us just because of that still blows my mind, like, you can literally change the air around you even if you do it unconsciously. But as we were about to go for it Pam came back to the room. That bitch always came back super late and when I needed her to stay the fuck away she decided to cut the night short. I honestly didn’t know if Lauren would be comfortable with her there, and honestly I wasn’t sure how I felt about it either. The girl didn’t turn on the lights and just went straight to her bed, while we pretended to be watching something.

  A few minutes later, enough time for Pam to be sleeping, we locked eyes with each other for a couple seconds that seemed to last years. I was awkwardly on my side, almost beneath Lauren when she leaned in and close the gap between us.

  “Shhh, try not to make kissing sounds,” I said to her as I was afraid of Pamela listening that intimate moment between the two of us.

  “Sorry.” Our kisses turned kinda weird after that as our position didn’t help and the goal of not making too much noise, but they were good ones nonetheless, it was Lauren Jauregui after all.

  We made out for a long time. After that we decided to just stop watching the fucking movie, there was no point anyway, and just stayed lying there enjoying each other’s company.

  “What are you thinking?” I asked just above a whisper.

  “Nothing much, just this whole situation right now and everything.”

  “You must be very confused.”

  “I am, I can’t even begin to tell you. It’s just…it’s just that you know what you want and I’m here all confused.”

  “Are you questioning your sexuality?” There was no way of me knowing what was going on inside that mind of hers unless she’d told me herself, so all that was left for me to do was showing my support and giving her space if she wanted it. The sexuality was the first thing that came to my mind because it was obvious that it was probably the main issue, I’d been there before and I wanted nothing else than to help her if I could.  

  “Yeah, that too.” She let out a sigh.

  “You know you don’t have to be sure about anything right now, right? And you don’t have to label yourself, just try to not overthink this and everything will be fine.”

  “I know.” I wanted her to feel comfortable with everything related to me, but It would be I lie if I said I wasn’t scared of her just waking up one day saying she was straight and everything was just a mistake.

  We stayed there for a while and then we decided it was probably wise if she left, we had to get our beauty sleep for the next busy day. As Lauren got up to leave and I grabbed my laptop to put it on my desk, she was almost at the door when she turned back to me and leaned in to give me a peck on the lips, like, she literally kissed me goodbye when she didn’t have to, she went out of her way to show me some love. It may seem like a stupid and simple thing as I had my tongue down her throat just minutes before, but that act warmed up my heart and set the butterflies free in my stomach. It was such a simple act but it was random and unexpected and everything that I wanted from her. I don’t have to tell you what was on my mind when I put my head on the pillow that night…

A/N: hey fam, i think i have some type of writer’s block even though It doesn’t take much to write this shit, but i guess it’s gonna take longer to update it. Also, these next part of the story is full of camren fluffy and i’ll probably split it on shorter chapters, it might sound a little redundant sometimes and I’m literally dreading it, but i guess i have to tell you the good things that happened.

  I also want you to know that I’m translating a brazilian fic to english and you can find it in my account, seriously is one of the best I’ve ever seen so feel free to check it out, it’s totally worth it, it’s called crosswords, and my one shot too (something about her gaze).

[zalrb]

That is 45 minutes I will never get back {8x09 Review}

As those of you who read my reviews know, I do write in real time so whatever mistakes I made in the beginning of the post I may have rectified at the end. I am anti-Damon/anti-Delena/anti-Bamon/anti-Bonenzo/anti-Steroline and I will probably mention misogynoir, anti-black treatment and make references to other shows. If you do not like it, keep on scrolling. I also did this on my phone so bear with me. Alright. Let’s go. 1. It’s actually refreshing to see Stefan feed on a dude because it seems like we only ever see them feed on women lately. 2. Why aren’t cops interested in a string of murders happening throughout the States? They aren’t exactly keeping a low profile. Stefan massacred an entire hospital and Anger Management group. 3. TVD really fails the Bechdel test and I like how we don’t actually hear about Bonnie’s trip to Paris, just that she’s wearing a vial of Enzo’s blood. 4. “Is that it? We’re due at an event” Candice’s delivery was actually on point. 5. I’m confused now, so Sybil is on the “war path” because she wants a weapon that can destroy her and now Seline wants to kill her to make amends (did I miss something? Because I know Sybil didn’t forgive her but, like, did they declare war on each other?) I still don’t understand why Caroline would team up with Seline? Or why Caroline would care about what’s happening with the sirens? Why are they relevant now that Damon and Stefan are Cade’s servants? 6. So this year the carnival was before Miss Mystic when Miss Mystic was before the carnival in seasons 1 and 2? 7. Stefan and Caroline looking at each other did not move me at all, it’s not even like they “locked” eyes, like it’s so underwhelming. Makes me miss 3x03. Sybil and Damon actually look so much better together than Damon and Elena since Sybil looks age appropriate. 8. They are REALLY trying to romanticize 1x19, fam, it was a dance and not even a “it all makes sense” dance like SE’s 3x14 and 3x20,it’s a “wow Damon, I didn’t know you could dance like that” dance and a “suck it, Stefan!” dance. They really need to fucking chill. 9. It’s also transparent that Stefan doesn’t have a flashback to Elena even though it’s been repeated that SE was the foundation of the show. And not even that, Caroline, Bonnie and Matt do not have flashbacks of Elena and Jeremy isn’t even mentioned but oh yeah, season 1 feels. 10. “Sybil just “sirened” that girl.” Lol, compelled. 11. Bonnie and Enzo actually just look awkward, they’re very stiff and Enzo is SO monotonous. 12. “What did that woman do to you?” Caroline, my girl, it isn’t that serious. He doesn’t know why the necklace meant something to him and he’s a little upset. Maybe if Ian actually played tortured well I’d feel something but right now, I’m just like why DOES the necklace mean anything to you? You gave it to Elena because it was an SE symbol and you wanted her to have it because it reminded her of Stefan. Why would YOU have any attachment to it? And you giving it back to her in 2x08 is about the fact that you gave it back, not the necklace itself. LIKE? 13. LOL yeah Caroline’s “a love so deep and magical” speech really just sounds like she’s trying to convince herself about her relationship with Stefan because when did Caroline actually see anything of the Damon and Elena relationship? Like honestly. 14. “Take it from me, Elena Gilbert never really goes away.” Mmmmmmmmmmhmmmmmmm. 15. Oh this is why DErs are going to freak out because he broke the necklace and he said that he only gave it to Elena to protect her from Damon, lol, but this season is full of retcons anyway, so. 16. I find it strange that Caroline is more focused on saving Damon than Stefan. 17. Oh my GOD, we’re only 20 minutes in? 18. Bonnie and Enzo do not look good dancing, they look uncomfortable. 19. I’m actually getting really annoyed at seeing the same footage of Elena and Damon dancing because it’s aggravating! There’s nothing more to this episode THAN the dance. Are we forgetting that the moment it’s over, Elena is all about Stefan? SELECTIVE MEMORY. 20. Why are we acting like Damon’s humanity will crush him? He was fine with killing Lexi, turning Vicki, killing Jeremy, killing Aaron, kidnapping Jeremy, trying to kill Caroline, raping and abusing Caroline, etc. Like why wouldn’t he be fine with this? Elena won’t care. 21. Why do they keep saying Matt is stupid? How is Alaric any smarter? A fucking siren was his nanny for months. 22. The battle for Damon’s subconscious is really underwhelming because I don’t see the big deal? Why does Sybil even want Damon? And what exactly is so strenuous about what’s going on in his mind? The fact that he’s remembering someone he can’t have feelings for? 23. This entire fight is ridiculous to me because I don’t know what Stefan and Damon are fighting about? Damon is feeling and Stefan isn’t and it’s a problem? Like? This is so underwhelming. 24. Bonnie and Enzo are just … ehh sure, whatever. Fine. 25. LMAO Caroline doesn’t even seem sad about what’s happening to Stefan. But Damon got all this pity? WHAT are the writers doing? 26. LMAO Caroline leaving Stefan just reminds me of 3x07 when Stefan is like, “So you’re quitting” and Elena being like “Oh hell no, I’m just done for the day, fam.” Like Elena was IN it. And Stefan actually had the capacity to look ashamed and moved and the language was a lot more passionate, not this “we had a deal” business, are you two engaged or business partners? 27. I honestly don’t get the storyline with Damon and Sybil, like it just seems so small potatoes, like what is the POINT? 28. So Sybil giving Damon back his humanity is Tessa giving Stefan back his memory. This episode was a mess because absolutely nothing happened. Caroline left Stefan. OK? Damon got his humanity back. Sure. And Bonnie asks Enzo to be a human. Fine? WHO GIVES A SHIT? WHO CARES. WHY IS THIS IMPORTANT? I also don’t get how Sybil made Damon’s life a living hell, because she forced him to kill people he didn’t want to but he did it anyway? That doesn’t seem to be the issue, the issue for Damon seems to be that he got a taste of his own medicine by being compelled, I’m sorry I mean “sirened” and that he couldn’t say no to Sybil even if he wanted to. And the fact that he feels nothing for Elena but still sees her and feels warmth because of a necklace is like … what, is it like you get one taste of happiness but then suddenly it disappears and you’re lost and alone and … WHAT? Like be LOTR, Frodo about it where Frodo doesn’t remember what water or food tastes like or the wind, have it be like Damon remembers ALL of these things when he holds the necklace but then Sybil manages to take that away from him and so he’s tortured with remembering happiness and he’s fighting to push out Elena’s memory because it hurts him too much to feel but she won’t budge. I feel like that’s what they’re trying to do but they’re doing it poorly. LIKE EVERYTHING DELENA. And Stefan. No one seems to care that Stefan is going off the deep end, like they just take him at his word that this is what he wants and this is what he was made to do and he’s his Best Self this way. He has no humanity! Why is Caroline just like, whatever, fine, sure but Damon is the one who needs saving? WHAT? And why is Caroline acting so superior as if she didn’t turn off her humanity two seasons ago and went around the country killing people? So it’s not OK for Damon to spiral, everyone needs to bend over backwards to stop Damon but if it’s Stefan, they just let him do the shit he wants? WHAT? This is how you know the show isn’t interested in story and only interested in their fave, which is Damon. Bonnie and Enzo just keep telling each other how much they love each other without us ever seeing why that would be. Old news. This was an excruciatingly bad episode.

[thekirstenkhaye]

ALL THE LATEST

It’s been awhile.

And yes, I started with that sentence again. I’m sorry, okay? I mean, if there’s even anyone out there that I need to say sorry with because I haven’t posted anything on here for half a year. Well I guess that’s myself first of all. LOL. So, I’m so sorry, self. I let you down again on this part of your life that I didn’t really get to paid attention for for half a year.

Anyways, enough with that lousy intro and let’s head on to the explaining part of why I haven’t got to post anything anymore after the letter that I wrote for My 50-year-old self.

It started late last year. I guess it’s around August, after I won the title of Ms. PWD Olongapo 2017. Yes folks, your girl joined a contest like that. It was like a search for an ambassador and ambassadress of the People with Disabilities in our town. And apparently your girl got to bring home the crown. I mean, who would’ve thought, right? Hihi. I have had been occupied with public volunteering in regards to PWD stuff since early 2017 actually; March 2017 to be exact, since I got my PWD ID from our local government.

In fact I can post a more thorough blog about this topic if anyone would like me to do that. Or you know what, just wait for it. I’ll make sure I’ll get it in line on my drafts because I know this is important for people to know. Especially for every PWD out there in this country. I got your backs on that, folks! I’ll post something on NDPR (National Disability Prevention and Rehabilitation) Week, this July 2018.

Hence it just continued from there until as I said, won that title in July – a day after my birthday.

You’d actually notice my inactivity online right after that happening because I’ve been doing things already (that is outside my bubble) that revolves around bettering myself, more. But this time, I did it with a very dignified thought that I can do anything that I want to do if I will work on it. Now this became the reason of how I got a job. A job that I actually still have now. Cool, right?

On the other hand though, before we talk about my job, there’s something that also happened in 2017 that I didn’t really talk about online. And it’s the fact that I GOT ENGAGED.

Yes again folks! Your girl is engaged – has been engaged for over a year now actually. That’s why during the later months of 2017 to early 2018, wedding preparations have made me busy too. We were supposed to tie the knot last June, like first week of June this year. But you know, things happen and we need to be a grown up couple handling it; to I guess prove ourselves at least that we really are mature (individually and as a couple) enough to be engaged in the first place. But yeah, long story short, the wedding plans got postponed. No worries, though, it’s all for the good reasons. I’ll just talk about this more in a whole different post wherein I‘ll just talk solely about Gravity and I’s relationship. This one is about me, just me. So let’s move on from that. For now. HEHE.

For the meantime, let’s go back on talking about my job now that I got late September last year. It’s nothing big, nothing fancy, but it definitely makes me feel less of a person that’s nothing or I guess let’s say, I don’t feel like I’m left behind already from everyone. It made me feel like I’m worth something as a 20’s-year-old person. You know, the typical, ‘YASSS, I HAVE A JOB, I’M EARNING SOMETHING, I HAVE MONEY IN MY HANDS THAT I WORKED HARD FOR’. But I have to be honest, the salary that I get from the job is very minimal. Although, well, it’s still something. Sometimes it’s nice to have something than nothing at all. And yes, I won’t say here yet what job it is. Because just like the lovelife thingy, I will be posting a different blog about my job on my anniversary of working there. So! I’ll just leave this here.

Moreover..

As a result of the postponed wedding, Gravity’s visit here in the country just became a month long vacation. And it was one heck of a vacation, folks! If you are following me on Instagram, you’ll know how much of a princess this girl had become while he was here. It was so surreal. It was so nice to finally get to see him again for one. Also, it’s even nicer that that he stayed for more than just a week this time around. Hence it gave us a chance to get to know more of each other’s personalities. Because of this vacation that he had from May – June, it made us stronger than ever. As he said, and I quote, “If there’s anything this vacation did to us, it made us stronger. And you are my best friend, I want you know that and I’ll always care for you…” and so on and so on. HAHA. I’ll keep everything to us already. And yes, that made me feel like I got best friend zoned when he said that, but you know what? To be honest, I’d rather love my best friend who cares so much about me that he won’t ever give me choco-lies when I need to taste the bitter-truth of life. And yeah, there’s so much to talk about his visit I guess so I’ll just do that more on that different post together with the postponed wedding topic.

Now that we’re done with all the explaining and filling up on the times that I didn’t get to post anything on my blog. Let’s now proceed to my plans on this space. Yes, I do have a definite plans now. And no, it’s not about being a full on blogger mode. NOPE, DEFINITELY NOT. I think I’ve stressed enough on my previous posts that I do have this blog just to have an outlet. So yeah, just putting that out there again. Now going back to the plans, I’m thinking of changing the timeline on my blog. Like instead of solely depending on the year, for example, 2018, I want this blog to focus on the year of my life. The year I’ve lived on earth. Thus it’ll be like, this month, it’ll be the month of my 23rd year already, so that’s when we’ll start a different year here on my blog. Which, if ever I’ll have new things that I would want in the near future to add up here, I will do it on the next year of my life; meaning we’ll have a happy new year on my birthday, July 19 and not January.

Other than that, I have few more new stuff that I would like to share on here. For example, I’m starting a bullet journal already so, instead of just having that physically, we’ll also have that here on my blog – the templates I’m gonna use, the trackers and all that jazz. But I don’t think I can do that updating full on here already since I’m just starting on getting a hang on journaling.

I won’t be putting everything that might come out on this blog after my 23rd birthday yet. But let’s all cross our fingers though that I will get the time to do this again. Because I super dooper uber miss writing my thoughts out.

Now, I can breathe freely again. Wooh! That was such a relief, a breather or however you wanna call it. I feel so good right now. I hope you all are doing just as fine too. ‘Til next time…

Vivre la vie au maximum, folks!

                         ~Kaye

PS: I’ll be incorporating some photos in this post soon. Just wait for it. This has been sitting on my drafts for way too long already and I don’t want it to get stuck just because I can’t produce the photos that I want to go with the words I’ve written.  So for now, I hope you enjoyed that read :)