#dean and cas loved each other

[drulalovescas]

WHAT THEY TOOK FROM US

"The only thing I think we have left, Dean and me, is each other. If Dean says it's time to go out in a blaze of glory, win or lose, so be it. I'm in. But then ... (smiles at Dean) that's just how I roll."

[spn 5x4]

"A part of me always believed you'll come back."

[spn 7x17]

"I forgive you, Cas ... I love you."

[spn 8x17]

"That's where Dean spread your ashes. After we burned you."

[spn 13x6]

"I lost Cas and it damn near broke me..."

[spn 13x20]

"according to your plan, the world loses you, and me-- I-I lose you too, and that is unacceptable to me, Dean.”

[spn 14x12]

"But still beautiful. Still Dean Winchester."

[spn 15x20]

DELETED BUT NOT FORGOTTEN.

[naturegirl555]

Do y’all ever just think about how in the script it’s said that dean spread castiels ashes by a windmill in a meadow with a garden near it cause he thought that cas would like it there. Also the fact that Sam says that’s where DEAN spread your ashes after we burned you. Like shut up. I think about this way too much for it to be sane.

[cthulhum]

and dean winchester thought he was unlovable and didnt deserve happiness he hated himself and thought eveyone would eventually leave him and then a literal fucking angel fell in love with him. like loved him more than anything else in the world.

[valeron99]

Tit for tat.

Rising for rising.

[acecroft]

SUPERNATURAL 7.04

[angelsdean]

dean and cas love and trust each other unconditionally. they give and they forgive easily. there is never a debt to settle. never a score to keep. i'd rather have you, cursed or not. i prefer trusting, less dumb less ass. i'll go with you (again and again and again). i forgive you, i need you. of course i forgive you. of course i wanted you to stay. i've got you. i love you. etc etc. they are best friends first and foremost. they can talk to each other and be real. they know when the other is lying about being "fine" and they call each other out on it. and then they listen. they get angry sometimes, and miscommunicate often, but they are always approaching everything with the desire to understand, to work together. they worry. they make bad choices sometimes out of a desire to protect the other. keep each other out of a situation and out of the loop. take on the burden for the other. all these flaws and wrong choices are still rooted in love and care. they care SO much. that love and care is at the center of everything they do.

[annmariethrush]

Reading really good fan fiction always leaves me a little starry eyed and overwhelmed thinking about how these characters love each other in every universe. because every alternate universe, no matter how close to canon or how completely divergent, it’s still them somehow and they’re still in love, despite all odds in that situation and all the differences from their original characters. We get to watch every version of them love each other and it makes me feel very full and lucky

[azrael08]

Really Random but cute Sabriel headcanon.

Sam and Gabe are literally in sync, like they somehow always think and act the same as each other without realising it. There have been many times where Sam has been explaining a plan for a hunt or whatever and him and Gabriel say the same thing at the same time. Usually Sam will just get a little flustered and cough and move on, but Gabe usually points this out by saying “Jinx you owe me a coke!” Or “Great minds think a like.” So even though this happens a lot Sam and Gabe are oblivious to how much this happens. Another example, Gabe will be feeling a little antsy and want to go on a walk outside and maybe grab some food, so he gets up and heads towards the bunkers exit only to find Sam there as well intending of doing the same thing. So they go together. They walk instead of taking a car both wanting to ‘Enjoy to scenery’ and when they get to the nearest restaurant or diner they both get the same order of food (that either being salad to which Gabriel will say “Just felt like a little extra green” with a shrug or they order something sweet to which Sam will say “It just sounded really good”) and afterwards they both coincidentally take some extra time to stay in town and look around some of the shops and share stories with each other.

But they’re not trying to be the same on purpose, like I said they’re both oblivious that they same the same thing, and think the same ideas, and do the same actions somehow always being so in sync.

Maybe Dean and Cas would eventually point this out to Sam and Gabe, but they will be all like “C’mon Dean/Cas, your over exaggerating, sure we might jinx each other sometimes but it’s not that common🙄” And Dean and Cas are just left to endure that night as Sam and Gabe move perfectly around each other in the kitchen making dinner and repeat the phrase “I was just thinking the same thing!” 12x and day.

[shallowseeker]

My fave thing about Jack on rewatch was realizing how internally unlike Sam he is, despite the symbolic, structural blocks of being a “gifted kid.” Emotionally? Nah.

Not if you’re paying attention.

I feel like @dawg-motif really helped me puzzle that out re: Jack’s valuation of blunt honesty and need for space and processing. And after that, it’s like Jack’s entire arc clicked into place for my brain.

There is such a temptation in fandom to assume he’s a copy-pasta of Sam because of his “doomed child” motif, or that he’s like Cas because of his literal-mindedness and sass. But emotionally? Not even close.

Or worse, there can be as assumption that his “performing!Jack” is how how he actually feels about things... Falling for Jack’s sunshiney ditzy act is like falling for Dean’s mythical Marlboro man act.

[deancaskiss]

dean would write cas a love song, and cas would write dean a love poem

[girlwithonegoal]

sorry but the only reason destiel even works is because wincest did it first and also better

i've been thinking a LOT about this and want to get it all out so here it is. if dean was truly in love with cas, he would not have hesitated to tell him so when he literally knew cas was about to DIE. we don't see that. we see shock, grief, disbelief (an angel loves me!), we see him trying desperately to process his best friend is leaving him but nowhere does dean say, or imply, with his eyes, or words, that he's in love with cas. of course he loves cas - cas is family - and cas is not exactly his brother, (closest is brother-in-arms), despite his insistence in an earlier episode - but he's not in the kind of soul-crushing love that cas is with him. he's not in love with cas, and can't be, because he's already in love with sam.

when dean dies, he gets as close as he possibly can to confessing to sam he's in love with him without actually crossing the line. he would never to that to sam - he would never do to sam what cas did to him - because he would NEVER do anything to make sam lose his agency (sidebar: not that cas doesn't respect dean. but his love confession is almost wish fulfillment - i'm going to confess to dean i love him and go out in a blaze of glory and then leave without dean ever even having to reciprocate because i know he doesn't love me back. and he's absolutely right).

dean has already had years and years of not having his own agency from john his whole fucking life! john did whatever he wanted to dean and dean took it because like hell was he going to subject sam to that bullshit. which brings us to sam and dean's childhood - not much is known of their early years before sam went to stanford and that's fully on purpose. we can almost see dean as not only a brother figure to sam but also a father figure. john leaving for weeks maybe even months at a time - how the hell did dean and sam manage to survive? by dean doing whatever he had to do. emphasis on whatever.

you see, john absolutely knows that dean is beautiful. whether you read their relationship as purely abusive or abusive with a sexual component - dean definitely did questionable things to get food on the table for sam, an aspect that's more in fanon that canon but reads true to the heart of the show. sam doesn't know because dean wanted a normal childhood for him. and dean would rather die and go to hell for 800 years than force sam to make a choice, make any choice, of a romantic and/or sexual nature related to him.

back to dean's death. this is again the closest thing to a love confession that dean can make - my baby brother - take out the word brother and it would be not only romantic but stunningly true - he raised sam, this child who grew up to be a man, this child who loves him - waiting outside sam's dorm for hours - can you picture him pacing in the snow, waiting for the one thing he wants but can't have??? why does that sound familiar? oh, right, because that's what cas said but in dean and sam's case it would be actually true. how cruel and unbelievably insane it is to find your soulmate in your brother, the one person you have that you love unconditionally, not just because they are your family but because you are in love with them, and you can never have them as long as you live.

re: american gothic and soulmatism. very different from crimson peak where thomas fully realizes the unhealthiness of the codependent incestuous relationship with his sister and wants to be free and happy with edith. but sam and dean don't want to be free. in their minds, they already are free as long as they have each other and only each other. not getting in all the other romantic relationships that the brothers have with other people bc it would take too long, but they already fulfill that need for each other and don't need anyone else...like i'm sorry i love my sister but i want to get married one day to someone else. if you read their relationship as purely platonic, it doesn't work at ALL.

the kripke early seasons fully leaned into the gothic horror aspect of it all and incest is definitely a part of that...dean and sam literally cannot live without each other. they can't do it! sam dies in dean's arms and dean can't even wait five fucking minutes without making a deal with a demon lmao. he can't eat. he can't sleep. their love is a perpetual resurrection; they keep killing each other and bringing each other back to life. because they don't know how to stop. they are a singular mangled fucked up entity. i read a fic once where the author described sam as hating his own body because it was separate from dean's and dean's whole presence was a phantom pain. and yeah. just yeah. they can't live without each other because they ARE each other.

seasons 1-3 to me are spn at its soul. that's it. cas only works as a side character, if he's a brother (like, purely platonically) to both sam and dean or just unrequited romantic love for dean. the trope of an angel falling in love with a faithless man who can't pray only works if dean hasn't been in love with sam the whole time.

[drulalovescas]

"... I didn't- I didn't say anything - I didn't give him anything. And- what I had in my head was, I should have said 'I love you too' and hugged him."

~ Jensen Ackles

[littlebluejaydraws]

Dean kind of wants to hit him, and he would, but the faint uptick of his lips when Cas says it makes it hard not to grin back. Map of the World, Chapter 4

ID: A series of three digital drawings of Cas and Dean, where Cas is supporting Dean with an arm around his waist and Dean's arm over his shoulders, while they talk. In the first image, Dean is facing the viewer, and is visible past Cas' head. He is looking at Cas and saying "How the hell do you get anyone to sleep with you?". In the second image, Cas is shown, looking back at Dean whose face is just out of shot. He has Dean's arm draped over his shoulders and is holding his wrist to keep him there. He is responding "Is it usually supposed to be difficult?". The third image shows the two waist up, in silhouette with their outline illuminated in orange. Dean says "Fuck you." and Cas responds "The human body isn't that flexible". End ID.

[makeadealwithdean]

12x10 - deancas being fed-up husbands and sam being sick of their bullshit <3

[valeron99]

Be Happy, my dear Angel.

[thigholstercas]

obsessed with the whole "he was my best friend too" from Sam and Dean's "is not the same" or "you don't get it" concept. because Sam loves Cas, there's no doubt of that, they are best friends, brothers in arms, family...and yet, is not the same so then Sam goes "oh" like the pieces of the puzzle somehow fit now