#diagnosis i care too much

[augustheart]

sometimes i remember moments from tv shows and my stomach starts hurting

[chubbychiquita]

potentially helpful spreadsheet of fat friendly healthcare providers listed by city ☺️👍

[fernlessbastard]

hot take moment cwilbur is literally just psychotic as all hell and i think people got way too comfortable villianizing the shit out of a man who was clearly portraying signs of severe mental illness. cwilbur was like im so fucking paranoid and scared and i think everyone is out to get me and hurt me and ive spiralled to the point i cant reach out to the people closest to me because im so afraid and lost in this spiral and im having constant panic attacks and hurting myself because i dong know what to do with myself and the only way out for me is to die. and everybody was like EVIL MAN WHO ENJOYS HURTING OTHERS AND IS ABUSIVE ON PURPOSE AND A VILLAIN AND SHOULD NEVER BE TRUSTED AGAIN. and then he came back and was like im still deeply troubled and afraid but im desperately trying to make up for the wrongs i did in the past and the people i hurt in my own way and communication is really hard for me but i hope people know that im truely sorry and i love them. im going to try my hardest to fix this in the only way i know how and then respectfully remove myself from the situation because i feel thats the kindest thing i can do to the people ive hurt. and people were like ABUSER ABUSER ABUSER EVIL MAN ABUSER. like girl

Yeah no based true real no questions asked

I'd hope I manage to portray Wilbur the way he deserves in my content, cause that man is heavily bpd coded and he just needs therapy and someone who genuinely loves him but also can handle his bullshit (which has exclusively and reliably been Quackity like, canonically)

But yeah no completely agreed. The man has issues and has definitely fucked up a lot but at the end of the day he really does need love and care and patience, but also boundaries (and therapy and meds, obviously)

[cupidl0vesy0u]

Finally went to normal psychologist who didn’t ignored all my symptoms because of stereotypes-

Sooo turns out my parents or I weren’t wrong for suspecting I might be autistic. I am! With some high suspicion of adhd too…

They won’t write it in any of my documents, just that I have symptoms and suspicion from psychologists…. It’s mostly because of weird laws in some countries.

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

“i’m an ally to disabled people!” mhm ok so you’re still masking then? oh you’re not? interesting

[piplupod]

feels like the isolation is a gushing wound and going to the centre is just a small bandage. i think perhaps i am not really ever going to feel okay unless something miraculous happens. i am retaining some semblance of sanity now that I'm leaving the house and socializing with non-family more than once a week, but i am still hurting more than I can really tolerate and I don't know what to do about it. there doesn't seem to be a fix for this that I can enact.

[lottieurl]

sic transit gloria mundi / burial

[grmpgm]

ok executive dysfunction is kind of ruining my life actually

[vogelmeister]

been feeling mixed on some of my friends recently

[depressedplatypus]

shoutout to all the fellow ocd havers out there having a Struggle(TM) after a new panic attack or trigger. stop the avoidant behavior and searching for reassurance. it’s not going to ever fix things. acceptance of your intrusive thoughts is the goal. you got this.

[kosmicvoid]

i honest to god dont think over diagnosis is real at this point. like nobody has actually been able to give a reason for why that's a thing except for the purposes of fakeclaiming people with like. autism or adhd. the only real argument it has going for it would be better characterized as misdiagnosis tbh

[xamaxenta]

mmmmmmmmmm self esteem doko

[running-in-the-dark]

well I can already tell this is gonna be a bad night

today has just been fucking weird and hard. I'm in a bad mood. everything feels bad. (probably not helped by me not taking the new antidepressant last night so I wouldn't sleep all day)

the plan was for my friend to come over this weekend to help me pack. she did that last time and it helped a lot. (my husband could help, obviously, but he's in charge of other things that also need to get done. plus he's very bad at putting things into boxes.)

but the rail strike is still going on so it's likely that she won't be able to get here (or get back in time). so now that's suddenly a lot more stressful and the one thing that I thought would make it go okay is gone.

and I also have to like. at least reread my thesis a few times or whatever to study for the oral exam on Friday. which will make me want to die. because it is bad. so. that will be bad. and the thought of being asked questions about that piece of garbage for 30 fucking minutes is so horrifying that I genuinely do not know if I will be able to get through it without taking my Lorazepam beforehand (which I know is a horrible idea, and my psychiatrist told me twice that it's a bad idea, and I know it would just make me unbelievably stupid. but holy shit that is the scariest thing I can imagine.)

and of course instead of doing anything useful I'm now just sitting here feeling like shit (like last night, only worse)

[byanyan]

ㅤat this point, they're beyond wasted and vibing out to music that's too loud with several substances on standby for when the buzz starts wearing off. happy new year!!

[toomanywordsnllines]

Me: *goes to get checked for ADHD*

The therapist, 20 minutes in: ... Have you looked... Into autism?

*Session continues*

The therapist, at the end: ... Yeah I'm... Going to talk with some colleagues who specialize in autism... Hope you don't mind...

[alongtidesoflight]

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