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[wolveswhiteassnow]

[drowzy-denny]

•BMTH last night did not disappoint at all. •They even played there old tracks Chelsea Smile, Diamonds aren’t forever, etc. . . . . . . . . #BMTH #Concert #hammersteinballroom #BringMeTheHorizon #ChelseaSmile #Sempiternal #Antivist #DiamondsArentForever https://www.instagram.com/p/BtQjX9bFli3/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=icih9gzwv2py

[matteohudson]

Now Listening: Bring Me The Horizon - Suicide Season. #bringmethehorizon #bringmethehorizonsuicideseason #thecomedown #chelseasmile #itwaswritteninblood #deathbreath #footballseasonisover #sleepwithoneeyeopen #diamondsarentforever #thesadnesswillneverend #noneedforintroductionsivereadaboutgirlslikeyouonthebacksoftoiletdoors #suicideseason #2008 #2008album #metalcore #nowlistening #nowplaying https://www.instagram.com/p/CH1KG55jnje/?igshid=ilauxpbd9iq1

[jagerboy904]

⚰️ . . . . . #bringmethehorizon#diamondsarentforever#heavymetal#darkgrunge#hellodeath#yourlifeisalie#deathisapromise#deathaesthetics#farmaesthetic https://www.instagram.com/p/B6I0VnblWDc/?igshid=fk8vsma1lm4u

[riggsmortis-blog]

We will never sleep Cause sleep is for the weak No we will never rest Til we're all fuckin' dead #bmth #bringmethehorizon #diamondsarentforever #suicideseason #jeffreestarcosmetics #thirsty #delicious #platinumice #dollface https://www.instagram.com/p/BybRA4Glhdu/?igshid=aejdlk4dkirn

[metalhead684]

Diamond's Aren't Forever ❤❤❤ #bringmethehorizon #olliesykes #metalcore #Lyrics #songlyrics #musicquote #music #metallyrics #metal #metalhead #songquote #diamondsarentforever https://www.instagram.com/p/BrYsucRhLk8/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1b5l9x6jy87ku

[sufiyanazlan]

The saddest people I've ever met in life are the ones who don't care deeply about anything at all. Passion and satisfaction go hand in hand, and without them, any happiness is only temporary, because there's nothing to make it last forever. Never give up on you what hold on to and what you are doing now. . 📸 @lynaadani . #lifequotes #lifeisbeautiful #vscocam #goodvibes #diamondsarentforever #workhardplayhard #passionfirsttherestwillfollow #heroremaja (at Sunway Pyramid)

[gullychris]

#diamondsarentforever # fuckjewelry #fuckdiamonds #fuckgold # fuckyourriches #sincewhen #realtalk #rt #fuckmoney

[glazeplatypuss]

I said it before and I'll say it again. If you think you're alive then you're better off dead. (: #bmth #diamondsarentforever #blackonblack #onblack #metalhead #metal

[altpress]

@bringmethehorizon's "Suicide Season" turns 10 years old today - we'll have this one on full blast 🤘 . . . #ap #iamap #altpress #alternativepress #bringmethehorizon #suicideseason #chealseasmile #diamondsarentforever #metalcore #visiblenoise #epitaphrecords — view on Instagram https://ift.tt/2NajtdL

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[accordingtoangelica]

#Diamondsarentforever

Well, it has been a minute; however, a lot has happened in that time! This is a throwback blog I wrote months ago but never posted. This particular scenario changed me and helped shape me into a better version of myself, someone who is aware of exactly what I want.

I’ve realised relationships aren’t forced, they’re simply a case of what’s meant to be will be...so here goes nothing...

After approximately 1.5 years of being single and predominantly meeting men who either only want ‘one thing’, like the thrill of the chase, then lose interest or play mind games, I finally thought enough was enough.

I deleted every single dating app and every trace of any man I have dated, including whole threads of messages (thanks to my girl for the tip lol).

I just thought, what is the point? I am single, living my life; I have a stable job and a solid group of friends and family who love me. Men have brought far too much drama to my life and I just kept letting them in. I am an emotional person and I was finding that I had to be closed up to every male in order to date. I find that very difficult. Whilst I am always cautious, I am an open person, so I struggle to be cold and I felt that if I were to continue to ‘date’ this is what I had to do.

I also have the worst anxiety before any date. As much as I am confident in my appearance and with who I am as a person, I always got the weird stomach flips in the pit of my belly. I knew that I had to keep my heart locked away at all times. It was nerve wracking and I hated the feeling.

I was bored one Saturday night and well, you guessed it, I decided to download a dating app. I set myself a time limit of about two hours and if all I got was inappropriate photos after the first hello, jerks who asked me to meet up that night or dirty old men; I would delete the whole thing and be done with it.

I created a quick profile- it was honest, straightforward yet made me seem kind and approachable. I wondered why I had bothered as most men just trawl your photos and make their decision from there. I am sure if those same men took the time to read my profile, they would see that I am NOT a one-night stand girl and that I will block you if you contact me whilst married or in a relationship- and more than likely, they would not message me.

After blocking several losers, I was approached by a man who was a bit older, but seemed kind and genuine. He was not really my type to be honest, but he had kind eyes, a beautiful smile and approached me in a polite way. Within minutes, we exchanged numbers and we were chatting via text for most of that night, the next day that followed, the texts were flowing. We got along great. He was sensitive and giving, successful yet humble, a divorced father of two.

Each day that passed, I learned more about him. He had endured a lot in his life and I was empathetic, he was also empathetic of me and my life, although I gave away very little as I was still cautious, wary of my heart being broken again. He told me that women had used him, just as I had been used by men, but for different reasons. We were both Cancerians so we seemed to understand each other.

I did not know where it would lead but I enjoyed his company and his time over the phone and via text, so much so that I would smile every time I heard from him.

I overlooked the fact that he was a father of two almost teenagers when normally this would be a deal breaker for me. At the time I did not really want to date someone with kids because I didn’t think emotionally, I could handle that. Especially given the volatile relationship he had with the mother of his children.

Still I was interested in getting to know him; I was intrigued and fascinated by how caring and considerate he was.

Fast track two weeks and things started to get quite deep. He took me out to dinner, told me how much he appreciated being with someone he felt he could trust and who he knew would not take him for granted. He confided in me about things he had never told anyone and I welcomed it. I felt special, wanted and needed. He made me feel that way and it was nice that a man was appreciating me for more than just my looks.

He started to open up to me more and more, but with that, he seemed to become more and more insecure.

He made some pretty life altering promises which he later realised he could not live up to and confessed them to me a week later in an attempt to be honest.

Whilst I appreciated his honesty, I wondered why people so often promise you the world then do not deliver. Why make such a huge promise without thinking that maybe there is a chance, you may not be able to keep it?

He was fickle and kept cancelling on plans with me whenever he did not sleep well or had other business related stuff go bad.

He trusted me very quickly and things moved pretty fast I will admit, but I was not really phased by it as we both felt the same way, I personally felt as though I was taking my time in getting to know more about him, and frankly, I was enjoying the journey.

I called him out on his behaviour several times. I was sick of being cancelled on at the last minute given the less than reasonable excuses he was giving me.

Although his texts were elaborate and detailed whenever he did cancel, he did not seem very self-aware in that he did not come to the realisation that although he was not using me per se, he was still expecting me to be ok with his unreliability.

I felt insignificant, like just a “thing” he could just cancel on, on a whim. It was hard to take given that all other times he made me feel special and appreciated.

I would not condone this kind of treatment from a friend let alone someone I was dating. I started to get annoyed as each time I called him out the apology never seemed sincere. He was so self-absorbed that after a while he started to make apologies like “I am sorry you feel that way”.

I knew all too well that wasn’t a real apology. It is like saying, I have done nothing wrong, and I empathise with the fact that YOU are the one with the issue.

I allowed it to happen twice and then the third time it happened where he made plans with me only to cancel on me half an hour later in order to make plans with someone else, that was the final straw. Yes, it was my fault for giving him so many chances however; given his hardships, I made allowances and gave him more chances than I would most.

“I’ll take care of you,” he would say to me, over and over “I want to take care of you and protect you”- this coming from a man who whilst financially could support several small African villages, could barely take care of himself emotionally. I did not want a man to buy me or support my financial needs- it is just not who I am.

I NEVER set out looking for someone serious in the first place, but somehow this man encouraged me to open up my heart, I pretty much handed him the key, and because he seemed kind and appreciative, I let him in considerably.

It kind of hurt more than, if I were being used for my body and dumped because for once I invested my heart into something which ended up feeling like 5 weeks’ worth of mind games.

I have not heard from him since, which to me indicates that he feels no accountability what so ever. I do not really care anymore and my mind feels clear for the first time in weeks. My rosacea has drastically improved because I no longer feel stressed, and my moods are no longer up and down.

I do not know where my journey will lead or whether I will end up with the baby I have always wanted and a career that fills me with passion. All I know is that I want to be happy and not have to question the person I finally give my whole heart to, if that ever happens.

I also do not want to lose hope or the kindness and love in my heart and become cynical, but I feel to an extent I have become that way, just waiting for a man to do something wrong so that I can shrug and say to myself “I told you so”.

What I learned from this experience is that no matter how someone makes you feel in a moment or how sincere they come across, it’s important to stay guarded and embrace the circle you already have.

Those people will be there for you no matter what. Also, no matter what anyone says, take care of YOU- if you do this, you will not ever seek this through others. The right person will fit perfectly in your circle if it’s meant to happen ☺️

[bandluver-blog1]

I'm glad you cannon see my eyes XD Believe me. I just slept about 4 hours. Like every. Fucking. Day =.= #Emo #Emohair #Emocut #Beanie #Cc #cannibalcorpse #Bmth #bringmethehorizon #L #Deathnote #Otaku #Headphones #Eyeliner #Deathmetal #WEWILLNEVERSLEEP #CAUSESLEEPISFORTHEWEAK #diamondsarentforever #Spam #XD #Rawr #Bored #Noidea #Instawhore