Did you know anyone
can be a graveyard
if you dig deep enough?
Did you know at the edge
of every scalpel
there is a prayer? Imagine
this simple vivisection:
I make an incision
from chin to collar
bone. I drop
a small white pearl
down my throat
& like a song
a hive of writhing bees
spills out.
- Brandon Melendez, Alprazolam.
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The line is drawn on the body perfectly, meticulously — cold hands don’t shake once as their latex-covered fingers grip the marker. The air is frigid, and beneath the one in control, the body twitches. It won’t be able to feel anything under all that anesthesia, and it’s been put under for a long while now, so the reaction is strictly biological, but he hesitates nonetheless. You can never be too careful.
The next moment is silent, still, absent of any suspicion that anything could be alive in the room. The one in control grins — for it is a miraculous thing to be granted this opportunity — and sets down the marker. He picks up the scalpel next to it, both the odd shade of crimson red for different reasons, satisfaction settling in him as it gleams in the Gray Room’s lighting.
The one in control feels adrenaline from the ends of his fingertips to the heels of his feet as he makes the smooth, red line straight down the subject’s chest. The sharp edge splits the skin and opens it, and the blood immediately rushes out. He watches in morbid fascination as warm rivers of blood flow down to the dip in the stomach, rolling off the ribs with a beautiful vibrancy.
He reaches his hands into the ravine it makes, gloves stained red and blood slicking up his arm and filling the room with that repeating shlck, shlck, shlck. The predictable shiver of pleasure he always gets slithers into his brain and activates something he rarely feels, but in moments like these. He takes a deliberate breath and pulls himself back together not even a second later; he can take care of it later tonight, if he’s lucky enough to be able to remember the feeling.
He can’t help but wrinkle his nose in disgust at the way the intestines slime together, the familiar squelching of bloody fluids. It always gets everywhere — point in case, disdainfully, as it slips from him when he tries to place it on the plastic covered counter — and the inevitability only adds to his disgust.
He shudders. In this line of work, very few things truly disgust him. This never fails to. There’s a reason why humans aren’t his favorite subjects. Rabbits, small dogs, even raccoons — they’re the easiest to handle. Humans are… probably the worst.
Regardless, this is what The Master asks for. What The Master Wants, The Master Gets. He will carefully package every part of this precious, beautiful body, from all ten carefully pedicured toenails, to the billions of billions of strands of hair upon the subject’s head. It’s what he’s asked of him.
Besides, he'd be lying if he said a part of him — a rather large part of him (eight inches, to be exact) — didn’t enjoy it. There was a thrill to the chase. An excitement to the cut.
@nosebleedclub april xv. vivisection
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I'm reading the scene where Arya and Eragon are sitting around the campfire and talking for a long time, just after killing the group of soldiers, and it's all very nice and touching and interesting, but I love how Arya is just constantly fidgeting the entire time. Girlie can not sit still.
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Sing For Me (Your Fatal Flaw Is Your Gilded Hubris)
A small piece inspired by @chocoenvy's playing god series but also their writing in general. I got an error when I attempted to send it in through an ask so I don't know if it got sent through or not so here it is in post form.
Pretty little songbird
With broken wings
A melody that shatters
A voice that no longer sings
Silenced by cruelty
A delusion of lies
Fracturing mirrors
Of spiderweb scars
It is not the light that shelters
Not the winds that follows
Or the earth that steadies
Nor the storms that soothes
It is the dark that hides
The ice that guards
Steadfast and strong
The wolves of winter prowl
Fervently devoted
Even steeped in madness
They are not blind
They see and they hear
They answer the call
With little hesitation
Ruin the foolish idols
Bring the heretics to their knees
No mercy left for the merciless
An eye for an eye
You have sown this sin
So you must reap your punishment
Atone for the crime that can not be forgiven
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we dissected salamanders in class today. did you know the eggs have to travel half way up their abdomen, loose in their belly, to get from the ovary to the oviduct?
he holds me close and calls me his little monster because of how much this (me and him, him and me, us) scares him. it scares me too
i'm flaying back pieces of skin, offering him slivers like organs like facts about how salamanders mix their oxygen-rich blood with their oxygen-poor blood and its inefficient but its alright because they can breathe through their skin
and he keeps taking them gently and smiling and is slowly fitting them together like something worth cherishing and it should hurt but it doesn't. its never been so fucking easy to peel back a tangle of veins and give them away.
i'm crazy, this has got to be crazy, he's interlocking our bones with every word and every touch and i want it but i'm terrified. the ribs on a salamander don't surround anything, but if this doesn't work its going to take breaking all of mine to remove him from where he's grafted himself into my chest
salamanders lose their gills when they move onto land. they don't ever get them back. do they realize as it happens how much is changing?its not that i want to stay in the water, but what if once i leave its too late to come back. the call of void equally opposed by the fear of the unknown
it's good, somehow its so good but i keep anticipating my scalpel to hit rotten flesh (is it pessimism or prophesy) listen to your gut, but mine only trembles (is it warning or anticipation)
i don't know what i'm doing, peeling back muscle and viscera to say here is my heart, fragile as a liver
after this is free fall
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Donate me to science,
I want to be dissected—
pulled apart, examined—
have my body go to use
and feed some minds
before the soil.
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I’m just pre-warning you all I’m going to be insufferable when Taylor Swift’s new album drops tonight
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Mary Oliver describes a hummingbird as floating in “Lilies” and I was trying to think if I agree. The first accurate verb that occurred to me was “glide” but that is a technical word for birds, meaning something specific. “Slide,” is a word close to “glide” does not work, because it implies a surface to me, and the air is not a hard surface. “Whir” is an option, but it does not translate the amount of distance implied by “float,” which is a quiet word. Since hummingbirds are shockingly loud up close, “whir” does not work. The replacing adjective has to be quiet or silent without introducing an adverb. There’s also the visible distance provided by “float,” where that perceivable whir of the wings is altogether absent.
All in all, “float” isn’t the word I would use when describing a hummingbird’s flight, but it does communicate both a distance and soundlessness that other verbs do not.
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“You will care for somebody, and you’ll love him tremendously, and live and die for him. I know you will, it is your way, and you will and I’ll watch.”
- little women
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I'm not trying to sound like 'ooooo I'm not like other fangirls' or whatever but I have genuinely never had an actual crush on a celebrity or a fictional character in my life so why...... am I thirsting™ for Porsche now huh? I'm a simple nerd please I don't need this in my life I was doing fine leave me alone
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PLEASE DO DISSECT THE FRAMES TO THAT POEM
i mean. we all know i give in to peer pressure very easily so... okay. under the cut :)
btw this is 800 words. sorry.
i'm not going to dissect every frame because some i don't have any worthwhile comments on, but some slides gave me mild brain rot and those are the ones i want to talk about
FRAME TWO: "to all this wickedness" against tk going down the high five line.
so, this poem was originally written in russian, right? so its translated, right? so there's multiple variations of this poem, right? WELL. one of the translations for this line is "to the evil of my life" and it punched me in the mouth because obviously the roster is a creation of the organization's management. so if the team and its players are a representation of management, then the management that is creating a team built to crumble is the evil/wickedness referenced in this slide.
hopefully this "built to crumble" narrative ends with danny coming in as gm, but for now (particularly this past season) the team is falling apart around travis and there's no one to blame except the terrible management that put it together.
FRAME THREE: "to you" against the team in a celly
what struck me about this frame is that the "to you" was placed on the fans and that op chose not just a picture of travis with his teammates, but a picture of travis celebrating a goal with them.
granted, there's not much space to place the "to you" unless it's against the ice or on the players, so maybe op didn't put that much thought into it, but i feel like it's important. because the picture was taken after a goal, the fans are up and cheering and that's all you want as a player right? to be apart of something that makes your fans cheer?
idk i just think it's important because the placement of the text makes you pay attention to the fans, so you realize that he's not just doing this for his team (because everyone notices the fact that he's in a celly with his teammates and everyone knows that he's playing hockey for his team) but he's also doing this for the fans who love him.
FRAME SEVEN: "the lie that has betrayed us" against a photo of travis and claude hugging
obviously he was traded so it's not that i think claude betrayed the flyers (honestly i think he would have stayed there until retirement if they had wanted to keep him) but i think it fits really well because like. claude was travis' first captain in the nhl and they (the team) probably talked about winning a cup together and travis probably got a lot of advice from claude when they were teammates and when travis envisioned winning a cup, he probably saw claude on the ice with him, yknow? and now he's in ottawa.
so it's not that i think claude himself was the lie that betrayed travis, just the vague entity of claude that travis always pictured as being next to him for the whole of his career that is no longer his to stand beside.
also i think it's funny that claude got his 300th career goal against the flyers.
FRAME EIGHT: "the coarse brutal world" against travis with a blurry nolan in the background
i won't lie, this is the frame i referenced in my tags as being the one i wanted to dissect. it just. shattered my brain.
there's just something about travis, so sharply in focus, contrasted with nolan, facing away from the camera and blurry, that broke my mind.
we all know how close they were when they were on the flyers together, but the universe fell apart and and nolan got injured and then he got sent to vegas and he's just. a blurry aspect of travis' world now.
he's out of reach. he's unable to be kept. he can't be saved.
and travis is still here, in focus, while his friend slips out of reach, and travis can't do anything to stop it.
FRAME TEN: "that god has not saved us" against a photo of travis looking upwards
i don't fully know what it is about this frame that sets something off in my brain tbh. maybe it's how he's looking upwards, maybe it's how his face looks relatively blank, maybe it's how he's the only flyer in the shot, maybe it has something to do with the empty seats behind him.
maybe it's a combination of all of those aspects. i don't know.
i debated not including this one since it's not any kind of dissection whatsoever but it feels wrong to leave out the frame that broke my mind the most after frame eight.
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I.
You may find it emotionally difficult
to dissect signifiers of personhood,
says the anatomy professor,
meaning these knuckles, these nails
still with dirt underneath them,
this stiff hand I hold as I trim
away skin to the tendons beneath,
thin ropes that, puppet-like, pull
up each finger. Their names
flexor digitorum profundus
abductor pollicis brevis
sound like a prayer counted off
on a rosary. The bodies’ palms
are all frozen open, their arms
stuck in extension as if
they are asking for something.
II.
You can’t just reach in
like an Aztec, says
the anatomy professor,
gesturing where to cut
the cadaver. I break into
the body, pick the lock
of the ribs, take the clavicle off
like a necklace. Lifting
the lid of the chest wall,
light illuminates the muscles
between ribs—stained glass
sinew into which the music
of the organ rose, lub dub
lub dub. I clip the pericardium,
pulmonary trunk & veins,
aorta, vena cavas, until
the gush of formaldehyde
subsides and I can touch
the primal valentine,
not offered up for love,
but sacrifice.
III.
Guess he didn’t make any films,
says the anatomy professor,
our cadaver poorly endowed
and ravaged by cancer.
We’re instructed to fillet
the tight skin of his penis,
peel it back like a glove
to reveal the sponge
of its center, deep dorsal vein,
dorsal nerves, and urethra.
The shaft that someone
once hungered to touch,
to fill themselves with,
now sallow & bloodless
& halved by a scalpel.
But his hair strikes me hardest,
a soft mat of curls
dark and thick as my lover’s,
whose body I return home to hold
and will not, cannot let go.
- Celeste Lipkes, Anatomy Lab.
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ACID DROPS. // a c!quackity poem.
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text below :) feel free to reblog !!
IMAGE ONE:
God’s mouth is where everything goes
to shrivel & die, shrouded
in faith & devotion
as his teeth close in around you,
caging you in, sharp & slippery.
tongue soft & wet, wrapping you up
& holding you down, his throat leading down.
with nowhere else to go,
do you trust him enough
to let him consume you?
(the way so many others
think they consume him?)
he’s forcing you down
with hundreds of other souls, nothing special
about any of them.
you fall down, clinging
onto His insides but it’s nothing
He hasn’t experienced hundreds of times
before.
there’s scratches & scars
older than half the world.
you’re in his stomach & it’s full of people
just like you, scared & confused,
slowly getting eaten away
by the stomach acid.
(God’s no different & Adam was shaped
in his image, afterall. like father, like son.)
God eats at them
until there’s nothing left.
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IMAGE TWO:
God’s mouth is where everything goes
to shrivel & die, shrouded
in faith & devotion
as his teeth close in around you,
caging you in, sharp & slippery.
tongue soft & wet, wrapping you up
& holding you down, his throat leading down.
with nowhere else to go,
do you trust him enough
to let him consume you?
(the way so many others
think they consume him?)
he’s forcing you down
with hundreds of other souls, nothing special
about any of them.
you fall down, clinging
onto His insides but it’s nothing
He hasn’t experienced hundreds of times
before.
there’s scratches & scars
older than half the world.
you’re in his stomach & it’s full of people
just like you, scared & confused,
slowly getting eaten away
by the stomach acid.
(God’s no different & Adam was shaped
in his image, afterall. like father, like son.)
God eats at them
until there’s nothing left.
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ARTIFICIAL
Mom and I made
piles of color coded
lengths of artificial
tree limbs in an organized
scatter creating
pathways; white, grey
black, green, yellow,
but where is the base?
Daddy, where
did you put it?
Somewhere secret with
the Lowe’s folder.
I thought a tree
would be a
tad garish, considering.
The past is gone
Father, you are forgiven. Daddy,
it’s 11:11,
look I’m
light on my feet again.
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I love you poems that need buckets of context I love you art as a genuine expression I love you art that comes with an explanation I love you imperfect lovers felix gonzález-torres I love you songs that aren't made to be famous I love you stories with no moral I love you amateurs I love you first drafts that never get finished because it was about the idea and not the quality I love you pouring yourself into something even as you know it won't be understood I love you genius lyric interviews
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Your are so lonely, so very very lonely
You know this as you know your name
With an unwavering uncertainty.
But you think you are lonely
As you look at the empty screen
And hear others talk of their full ones
Complain about them.
But you think you are lonely
As you don't speak up
And no one seems to notice.
And you say you aren't lonely
When your mother says she's worried
When your father says he's worried
When you ask yourself
"Am I broken?"
And you think that you are lonely
Not deep down, but on the surface
When you sit at the corner.
When you stand on the empty stage
And sing to a crowd that does not know your name.
But you don't cry
Not but for the tragedies
Save for the music that comes like a soft blanket
On your very lowest days
And traps you there like lead
Like poison.
You never cry, except at movies.
Lonely, lonely, lonely.
Lonely, says the internet
You are afraid to be alone.
Lonely, it says
You make beautiful things from it
But they are all so lonely.
Everything you have ever made
Has been saturated with your loneliness
Tangible like raindrops
Leaving a bitter taste on the air.
You are so lonely you cannot breathe of it
Cold fog fills your lungs so you let yourself suffocate.
You do not know if you don't know how to stop
Or just don't want to learn.
As much as it hurts it feels right
You crave it like cigarettes, like phone screens, like air.
It feels so lovely to be alone
Your melancholy is so beautiful you cannot help it
Cannot help but to love it.
You wonder if you watched the sunrise from the crucifix
As you starved
And you wonder if you liked it
If you knew this was what you were meant for
And accepted.
You are so lonely, so very very lonely.
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