#don’t lose sleep tryna figure it out

[lavaalishaa]

✨🤍.

[resident-gay-bitch]

Saw your post so came here. My Prongsfoot HC is that James has been in love with Sirius since the first time they met but bc he grew up isolated it takes a good long while for it to hit that this is 'I want to marry you' love and not 'your my best mate' love; and then he realises that it's always been like that and now he's freaking out and withing 2 weeks of realising Remus and Peter knows and Remus is laughing bc Sirius had told Remus that he lived James some 3 years ago and James was to oblivious to realise the difference to romantic and platonic love

Peter starts giving James advice the second he finds out. Don't scream it in his face but like give him flowers and chocolate and find out if he likes you first. Which is great advice except James has been doing that since he was 13 and he's losing it bc this could make or break everything and how long has this been going on and what will Sirius think.

So he decides that the one thing that'll calm him down is to get Sirius a super giant birthday present so he gets Sirius his bike and starts adding magical touches and he's working at it for like 2 years and then Remus and Peter find out and are tryna convince him to show Sirius and James doesn't know how to and then one day things happen and Sirius stumbles upon it when he's drumk and James decides that he wants to know how Sirius feels about it so he takes him there and Sirius didn't even remember seeing it so he has no idea what James showing him and James forces himself to show Sirius and then Sirius sees it and wants to ride it and James sits with him and James shows him that it can fly and Sirius is so happy he throws the worry of James liking someone else out of the window and just kisses James.

And then the prank Remus bc 'you knew and you didn't speed the process up and just tell us'.

(And my I just wrote the plot for one of my fics right here-- I was struggling to write the plot b4 and properly figure it out. The only diff is that the fic is absolutely from Sirius perspective and lots of these things are only talked about)

Anyway, what's you fav Prongsfoot HC (romantic pairing)?

Hi hiii! I think this is so sweet honestly. I love the idea of James being in love with him from first year.

I too kinda have that hc. Like I imagine they both fell for eachother quite young but due to the intensity of their friendship and pre-existing platonic love they were both unable to recognise that their love was romantic at first until something happens and it just kinda hits them and then they start being unsure how to act about it because they don’t want to be obvious that they’re in love by being close to the other all the time but they know that if they stop being close to eachother it would be weird. They’re just dumb complicated idiot boys who are blinded by love.

I think the bike thing is so cute too. Like James being the one to give sirius the bike is adorable. And I love that this is a fic idea for you, it will be killer, I’ll have to read once you’ve got it done!

One of my favorite prongsfoot headcannons kinda correlates to this a bit. I imagine I’ll write this into a fic one day too but who knows. It’s where maybe they fell in love romantically as kids and didn’t recognise it or maybe they gained their feelings over the years slowly, but either way they were both oblivious to their own feelings for a very long time because their friendship has always been so unlike any other. They just are extremely close and do a lot of things that couples do already so obviously they don’t recognise that.

But I imagine that after Sirius runs away, he’s very depressed and refuses to leave his room or talk or anything. He won’t eat, just sleeps and cries a lot and doesn’t know how to accept a lot of help from effie and flea, but he accepts it from James. And so all summer James sits on sirius’ bed beside him and runs a hand through his greasy hair, he lets sirius sleep and cry into his lap, he reads to sirius or tells him fun things, he’s the only one who can get sirius to eat and drink, helps sirius to occasionally shower and change his clothes, and he’s the only one sirius talks too. And eventually somewhere in there, the lines start to blur.

Like sirius would be crying and James would promise that he’s loved, sirius would struggle to look at his own reflection and James would promise that he’s beautiful. They’d sleep together every night because sirius can’t be alone, and they hold eachother. And then eventually James would switch from kissing his forehead every night or every time he cries to kissing sirius’ cheeks, or the tip of his nose, and then multiple kisses, and eventually his lips. And when it happens, they don’t even need to say anything. James just kisses him and sirius falls asleep as he usually does, and they wake up the next day and nothing has changed. It’s all exactly the same except they now kiss, and they know they belong to eachother. It’s so subtle the change that effie and flea don’t even realise it’s happened until sirius starts becoming himself again, because having James like that heals a little part of him. James has seen him at his worst and still loves him more than anything. And it’s only when James gently kisses Sirius goodbye the first day that Sirius has managed to go outside and hang out with someone without relying on James that effie and flea realise. And when Sirius is gone, they just give James a hug and congratulate him on it finally happening because they’ve been waiting for them to realise they’re in love since they were little kids.

Anyway, that was a lot but I LOVE THEM

[annikuh]

I’m at work so obviously I’m thinking abt my nepherits LMFAO wondering abt their anatomy more. below is a LOT of rambling and talking to myself, but I need to talk to a rubber duck, ya feel?

so something weird for me is that they don’t have any blood, which makes figuring out certain aspects difficult.

a majority of their bodies’ systems work. their bodies can heal themselves and scar. they need to eat and sleep and blink and breathe and drink water (albeit at WAY slower rates). they can feel pain, though have really high tolerances, and textures and pleasure. they can cry, they can feel nauseous. I think they can gain and lose weight and muscle. but they can’t taste, feel temperature (except at VERY high temperatures; they’d know they were on fire, and they’re able to feel a tiny bit of warmth from like REALLY scalding hot tea), reproduce, and aren’t affected by alcohol (save for at REALLY high doses).

they also don’t take on the afflictions of the bodies they go into. like they won’t need glasses, they’d be able to walk normally and force the bodies to do whatever they need it to do (e.g. even if a person wasn’t a good fighter or athletic, it doesn’t really matter bc the nepherit is). I don’t know if they can grow their hair…I mean like they don’t really have a need for it bc they aren’t affected by temp.

but I’m tryna figure out how they’d handle injuries. they can take damage and die in battle, and would have to anticipate when a body will have taken too much to keep going. organ damage would of course fuck them up—if they’re stabbed through the chest, it’s still gonna be game over, but they wouldn’t fall over immediately; they’d have a short amt of time to get a new body. but when they take that new body, they’d still have to be able to fight; it’s what they were made to do—take a new one and keep moving. but what happens when they take a new body that’s injured? they can’t take a dead body, but they were likely fighting that body they’re taking—it’s not in perfect condition. in wartime, they’d be able to use quick judgement to tell which body they’d need to grab. they’re not gonna go for a guy with a snapped leg yknow?

the nepherit body functions naturally move slow, so they’d be able to survive longer with injuries, but it would be silly for them to be able to walk around with a hole in their chest for very long. the body they take probably wouldn’t be stabbed clean thru bc the human would fall over dead, but still.

they puppet the body but they’re still IN it. a broken bone or a torn ligament would affect how the body moves. if the body the nepherit takes had chronic pain or a syndrome/disease, would it transfer over? would they be affected if they got brain damage? nerve damage? they’d for sure see stars if they slammed their head against the ground, but if the body had some sort of cognitive disorder, I don’t think that would transfer over.

it’s rare, but if they take the body of someone with a limp or crutches, id assume they wouldn’t be affected much by it anymore since—again—they can make the body do what they need it to. I don’t think they’re able to get sick (the flu, a cold, etc.) and they deffo can’t bruise, but can feel soreness and aches (though have an easier time powering thru).

but also, would medication do anything? other substances don’t, but if they needed to take some meds for an injury…would it work at all? would they need an extremely high dose to feel anything, like how they have a high pain, temp, tolerance and can feel high heat? I don’t think psychiatric meds would do anything (not that they exist in the time period), but like…would they even NEED meds? would they be at risk of infection, for example? how seriously would poison affect them? they could power thru, but obvi it’s gonna fuck their shit up.

I DO know that they don’t sunburn tho (thank you Reddit). apparently it’s another blood function, so they’re safe from that, but they can take some sun damage, as we all can (but my twins are p covered up, so they’re ok). basically white mfs, so they’d be p susceptible, but they’re not gonna get cancer or anything.

but also, what sense does this make? why would the Necromancer make them like this? he’s obviously a little out of his fucking mind, but still. maybe these are just things he completely overlooked—more of a big picture kind of guy.

they’re organic vessels, but they’re also magic. they’re basically slowly dying corpses & their systems move slowly, thus why they’d feel extremes; they’re not as sensitive bc they’re basically dead. he’d consider the core things they’d face in battle of course. he’d need the nepherits to withstand a lot of pain; he’d need them to make the body work for them quickly; he’d need them to withstand different temperatures. he’d also need them to feel pain, otherwise they wouldn’t realize when their body is taking fatal wounds. he’d need them to feel textures and other sensations, of course, it’s just core for functioning and being alert (they don’t feel heat but they feel burn or frostbit they’d need to know if they’re being sliced open or their bones are breaking. they’d need to cry for eye safety.

but other systems are whatever. they don’t need to taste—they’re eating for energy and that’s it—so he wouldn’t care to address it. the alcohol thing would just be a matter of ignorance too, like they’re fighters, they’re not gonna be drinking, but their body systems just don’t process it as well, so they need a lot to feel anything. reproduction is just like…they’re way too fuckin cold for anything of value to survive & they can just be made by the necromancer so it’s like…whatever, they don’t need that.

some others are just tied to the nepherit essences. like they have their own innate brains and abilities within their essences, which is why they have emotions & feel like psychological-controlled sensations much easier. they’re still, at their core, clones of the necromancer, which means they still come with his brain and his kind of emotions, and he’s VERY sensitive and extreme with it. very borderline & sees like nothing wrong with it, so he doesn’t feel the need to do anything with that. & that rage would be critical for their fighting too. & so that would inherently overpower the body’s abilities to some degree. they can feel sensations similar to blushing and can feel pleasure (since that was something he also probbo overlooked LOL) and such much easier since they’re real psychological. there are still limitations on things that rely on the body, like they will run out of tears & it’ll take longer for the body to make more, so sometimes it’s just tearless sobs. & (tmi) they can fuck and shoot blanks, but the body still takes longer to regenerate those fluids, so theoretically they can fuck every day but they may not have a lot of fluid to work with each time.

I should do a whole write up on the necromancer—why haven’t I done this yet? braindead.

I DO think, though, that if some of these things aren’t practiced often, it gets harder. like during the war, they were taking new bodies ALL the time, but Jax doesn’t do that as often now—they don’t have to. they could theoretically stay in the same body for decades, maybe even a century if they take good care of themself. so when they take a new body it’s awkward. it takes them a little while to get used to it, like wearing shoes that are too big.

I think they fuck around with the big stompers bc it makes the adjustment easier for them (& they’re used to it). they were all probbo trained to adjust to different heights (within a certain range), and Jax was just best at like a 6’ height, & the consistency makes a new body easier to live in.

ok thank you rubber duck, this helped my thoughts a little bit. I will, at some point, do a write up for the nec, but I’m workin on other shit rn so it’ll be a moment.

[loslivinlife420]

B

Well I’m on tumblr again to make a post never to find the person it’s meant for.. Soo… My friend, my best friend, my dearest friend, my day fuckin one, it’s like 6 a.m. right now, your probably sleep, but of course I’m not.. I’ve been thinking about you a lot all day actually and I shouldn’t be, I’m losing my focus again. I tried to find someone to talk about what’s in my head but no one came. But anyway none of this is your fault, it’s my own mistake that I kno I can’t fix. I’m falling into a fantasy world in my head and my fucked up beat up broken ass heart Is falling… for you.. Ughh i fucked up and it’s cause I have damn near zero self control. The pressure of my mind is weighing down on my chest. So ima just try my best to write down what I need to, to look back on later in life. This is all for me. You have always been there for me as a best friend should right? That’s love. You were there for my darkest hours, and recently you been around for some of my pretty brightest days. That’s love. And I’m so thankful your back in my life after a few year hiatus. But regardless I’m starting to see you differently now.. and idk how I should be when your around now. Something like we said might happen, we always were talking about it. Something we knew might happen if we made a jump. You told me you’d break my heart but baby it’s already torn apart a long time ago and I see that maybe theres a lil bit of glue you have for me. Maybe you did jinx it but idk. So I think about the night we were together in my room after my bday and I’m just tryna figure you out how it got to this. Before I get into it just kno.. I’m just a man that has no idea what i really need in this life. But I kno what feels good what feels right and I kno what I want. Lately these past few days I want you lik all of you, like more then talks chiefin a pretty joint I rolled, or ridin in my car listening to some of our favorite songs. Even chilling in the back having your baby girl luna run around the house, scaring away the dogs lol. That all bring me pure pure happiness and joy. Anyways I don’t think it’s just lust here I think its more connected then that, whatever that might be. I mean I’ve known you for 13+ yrs before all this happened. I have never been more turned on then I was with you that night.. if you only knew how I truly feel about it.. you might think I’m crazy.. but I wanted to make love with you all fuckin day that day lik I wish I was kidding but I’m not, your touch was something else not like other girls but maybe that’s just our connection idk. But I got hooked, your pussy had me in a different zone for real. From the taste of your skin to the way you move your body had me wanting to keep that moment as long as I could. Everything about the time we shared that night had me feeling amazing. And you just literally texted me ugh I’m not gunna reply rn sorry to much going on I’ve been drinking a lil. I wish we can go back to how things were before that night but honestly that’s the biggest lie. We been teasing each other since then and I have a feeling you want it too but the plan as of yesterday was to go back lik how it used to be. Before you laid next to me had my dick hard as a fuckin rock, grinding your ass on it had me ready to bust but I held on. before we fucked that night before you were moaning my name in my bed before I showed you some of the love I have to offer you. Even tho we were going at it for like hours, just kno that was nothing compared to what I actually wanna show you. I satisfy you therefore I am also satisfied. But I have so much more you don’t even kno. And you probably never will now because we don’t wanna lose each other or w.e. and it’s like a different thing I have going on internally. If you knew how I imagine us being together you’d probably wouldn’t believe it. I’m writing all this down not so I won’t forget or anything cause I probably won’t even when I’m old and dry. But maybe I’m writing this to show you later on in life so you can see the love has always been here at this level for a long time. I love you..

-L

[humblenolifer]

After doing some digging I remembered how it all started. It was the Super Bowl night when I caught him making large bets. I broke down saying how I could never be with someone who gambles and that him doing those things was not who I thought he was.

I remember him saying that that night changed his perspective of everything. I wonder in what way though.

Maybe I hit a bad spot? I compared him to Kenny, told him how was basically like Kenny. Obvisouly he’s not but maybe I hit too close to home.

After that night, everything was different. I didn’t think much of the things I said but I guess he did.

So the things I said are either gonna make him or break him.

Is he getting his shit together or is he giving up?

Today I found out he’s been staying at Danny’s house. I wonder why? Maybe at me tu he has to put on a front but at Danny’s he can freely express himself? Is he even staying at Danny’s tho? Maybe he’s just been sleeping in his car or something.

I don’t think I said anything wrong. It was just the way I said and when I said it.

Today when I was venting to my mom she kept trying to give me solutions and tell me to get over it. I was annoyed cuz I knew all that, I just wanted to express it. Maybe that’s how Andy felt?

I hope he knows I mean well.

At the end of the day, I was genuine and honest. The only thing I’d lose if we break up is our snap streak lol.

Sigh tomorrow can go either of two ways:

We sit down. It’s silent. We make small talk. He tells me “I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately. You’ve been there for me blah blah and I want to be the best version of myself for you blah blah. But I can’t be the best version of me if I know you’re there waiting on me blah blah. So I think it’s for the best if we break up for good blah blah. I love you blah blah I hope you can forgive me blah and hope we find a way back to each other blah I will never forget you bullshit.”

Lmfao I bet myself a whole LV card holder if I get that word for word.

Another possibility is:

“We sit down. Small talk. He says “I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately and I realized what you said is true. I have been blah blah and I have blah blah. That’s something I need to work on blah blah. And I will work on it for us. I know that I’m not on the best path right but I’m trying to figure it out and I’m so lucky to have someone like you by my side while I figure it out. I’m gonna try my best to figure it out while still giving you my love. You’re the one I want to be with forever and I’m gonna keep fighting for us. I love you.”

Who knows? Life might throw me a curveball if hit me with exactly both of those things. I get what I wanted right?

What do I do about hieu tho if we get back together? Lol. Sorry I might have to ghost him. He was nice ig. Idk pretty sure he was tryna fuck but don’t blame him. Me too.

Man I wish I could tell the future. There would’ve been way less tears.

Today I asked him if what he was gonna tell me tomorrow is bad news. He didn’t respond. Lol.

I feel so dumb. Remind me not to fully trust a guy ever again lol.

I hope I heal from this quickly. I have things to do.

[twenytwenytwo]

Nov 9 2022

Quick details: The Volvo is alive again. My sleep pattern these days seems to be sleep 4 hours straight, then hour by hour for the next 4. Anxiety low-zero, mostly zero though. I don’t think about anxiety all day basically, but sometimes am unrelaxed, unfocused.

I feel, as I’m sure others do, like I have to get my “shit together”. Like I gotta figure it all out, get my life in perfect order before I can allow myself to relax. I feel like I have to gaze over each department of my life, and feel “Yeah!!” otherwise something is off, like a barely crooked picture on the wall, irritating you from afar.

Perfect order to me would be a combination of feelings and circumstances.

1. I’d have a band of guys I love hanging out with; good friends basically, who I make great music with that is tight and dangerous.

2. A job that is well paying and not taxing on my mind. I still feel attracted to blue collar sorta jobs, despite embarking on the videography journey. I like doing video, I just wish there was no aspect of it that encouraged me to be cool or the best, that sorta vibe. Chimney sweeping sounds simple, kinda fun, and like it doesn’t matter in this relaxing way. Nobody cares, nobody is tryna be cool and getting the head in a knot.

3. A sexy girl who is crazy about me, and I’m crazy about her. I want to fuck. I want to have fun and relax together. Have kids and a home. A grassy property with a studio, some ocean, firewood, chickens n shit. Maybe have some like minded neighbours, who can come over and jam, or sit around the fire in the eve.

Feelings would be excitement, discovery, enjoyment, satisfaction. Potentially vague there, yeah, but oh well.

These are things that make me perceive life more fondly, make me feel like I am winning, and thus put me in a generally better mood where I’m focused on things I like.

“The hardest thing to do in life is focus on your dreams, the easiest thing to do is complain.”

Perhaps all this time spent philosophizing, going for endless walks, trying to articulate my thoughts is just another form of complaining. I’m focused on what’s wrong and not on what I want to/should be doing, like when you’re complaining.

The best thing I can say, while I continuously go off into tangents, is that all that comes into your life should be accepting your invitation. I feel like I’ve forced things into being in my life so far, coerced, tricked, deceived, to get my preference. Why is that bad? Because it’s unenjoyable, anxiety encouraging. In fact, the place that approach comes from is anxiety, and ultimately fear, fear that unless we muscle things, things won’t go our way. It lacks imagination and confidence. If a circumstance is to be, trying to force it to persist longer than it wants to is exhausting and sucks the colour from life. Nothing should take muscle, or coercion, otherwise you will not enjoy because that process takes all your energy.

I’ve learned this in my relationship with Ethan, and my relationship with Izabel. I used muscle to preserve them, which simply postponed the inevitable, and made me anxious and fearful. The anxieties of this past year were all about the immense pressure I put on this circumstances to give me everything I wanted, and secretly thought that losing them would be catastrophic. Ultimately, I lost them, and lived out that mental catastrophe, unaware of what psychological processes were unravelling within me, unaware of what I had been sowing, and now reaping. I was so anxious to be a success, in the vague sense.

- interupted

Tangent: The powerful human desires are like beasts who can be put to work. If they have no task, no ultimate goal, no hamster wheel to run in, no load to pull, they get annoying to experience, because they are roaming the woods looking for something rip apart out of boredom.

Tangent: The desire to be famous, or just kinda huge and superior, “wow they’re so ____, I wanna be like them, and be friends” is the desire to feel like you’re part of a community that values you. To have a role that those around you respect and value, and to feel like (as a result) people wouldn’t hesitate to talk to you, or think fondly of you, or invite to their party or whatever. The desire for fame, cultural significance, is a desire for safety and love from your fellow humans, to be part of something beautiful and life enriching. To celebrate life together and laugh without a doubt. Why are we so bad at identifying that? Perhaps it’s a result of increasing atomization in the world my generation grew up in, rise of useless roles, cubicles, and that cultural icons best illustrated the feeling of value, connection, and celebration of community and wonder. Why is it that we want to achieve that through fame? Perhaps because there’s no way to really “get” friendship, whereas you can (not really tho) “get” fame. It’s a singular checkpoint in the mind whereas friendship is a constantly changing thing, without a clear checkpoint, or point of “got it!”.

[anthony-louis-johnson]

By the way, I know I'm days late. But in advance, more powers to one of my own favorite albums ever made, Through The Storm. What hardly inspired me to work on that album in 2019-2020, I ask? I know I sound crazy and annoying, but here it goes: Number one was me picturing myself in a crowd [full of ex-fans of whoever our soon-to-be former favorite entertainers are] someday and wanna be like "Y'all know you can just talk to me instead of dismembering our formerly favorite entertainers [plus their families and babies], right? Let's become a new companionship and hang out while we're at it. Believe me, I also know people will call us out for claiming skills to suspect people and I'm losing it." Number two, entertainers [that most of us are formerly fans of] coming home/hotel/condo/motel to stress and absolutely nothing special after fame, paparazzi, court, money, drugs, alcohol, etc. Number three, I was figuratively looking at myself either in a mirror or a portal to where I just wanna get older and move on, and I thought "How could I claim to move on but I let that same past havoc come back and haunt me in my sleep?" Within all these instrumentals on the project, I feel like this was one of my versions of each soundtracks to both reality, spirit mediums, humanity, and social media, etc. I questioned a lot of fandom and vanity besides music too. And I'm still gonna be questioning these things to this day, just so you know. My favorite tracks from my one of my own pieces so far: • We Don't Care • Climate Change • Baby Needs Some Shoes • Tryna Get My Attention • The Upper Hand • Goners • Lonely Smiles (Parts 1 and 2) • Strong Towers (Part 2: Gold Medal) • Still A Rookie • Gimme Love And thanks to everybody for sharing this piece. #TTS2years #ALJmusic #8902 #StayWise2023 #Bandcamp https://www.instagram.com/p/Cj-8c7ap5Zh/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[divinegrey]

THE VANISHER SERIES PLAYLIST

the sum of all my songs that i've put on my playlist for the vanisher series, organized in no relevant order other than alphabetical, followed by the lyric that made me associate it with the vanisher series (minus one that doesn't have any lyrics). enjoy.

AFTER THE STORM // mumford & sons ~love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears

AS THE WORLD CAVES IN // matt maltese ~ oh, girl, it’s you that i lie with, as the atom bomb locks in

CONTROL (LIVE FROM WEBSTER HALL) // halsey ~i’m meaner than my demons, i’m bigger than these bones

CONTROL // zoe wees ~i don’t wanna lose control, nothing i can do anymore

DEMONS // hayley kiyoko ~ please forgive me i’ve got demons in my head, tryna eat me tryna feed me lies until i’m dead

DEVIL IN ME // halsey ~i don’t wanna wake it up, the devil in me

ENEMY // imagine dragons ft. jid ~tell you you’re the greatest, but once you turn they hate us

HAUNTING // halsey ~i’m begging you to keep on haunting me

JONESTOWN (INTERLUDE) // post malone ~it happens every time, it sounds like suicide

LIKE REAL PEOPLE DO // hozier ~honey just put your sweet lips on my lips, we should just kiss like real people do

OCEAN EYES // billie eilish ~burning cities and napalm skies, fifteen flares inside those ocean eyes

PARADISE // coldplay ~so she ran away in her sleep, dreamed of paradise

PAREIDOLIA // tsuki & first person ~sometimes i see you in the streets, or at least i think i do

RUN (BONUS TRACK) // hozier ~beneath her sky, her punishing cold, to slowly learn of her ancient misery

SUN GOES DOWN // lil nas x ~it’s hard for you when you’re fighting, and nobody knows it when you’re silent

TALES OF DOMINICA // lil nas x ~hope my little bit of hope don’t fade away

UNSTEADY // x ambassadors ~but if you love me, don’t let go

WE'RE GOING TO GET THIS FIGURED OUT // tsuki

WORK SONG // hozier ~no grave can hold my body down, i’ll crawl home to her

[iguessweallcrazyithinktho]

Chris Evans masterlist

Chris Evans HC

Going on a road trip with Chris and kiddos (headcannon)

Being married to Chris Evans would include(headcannon)

Chris Evans Imagines

imagine chris seeing you with a kid

imagine chris talking about the day you got married

imagine:chris broke up with you before you could tell him your pregnant

imagine:you and chris divorced and have two kids together/maybe it not to late to get back together

imagine chris talking about your twins

imagine chris seeing you for the first time

Imagine Chris seeing you with a kid after 2 years of being broken up (fluff)

Imagine Chris seeing you in a beautiful dress at an award show

Imagine your son thinking your so beautiful and he doesn’t want Chris to see you

Imagine Chris finding out his 3 year old has a boyfriend

Imagine your kids finding out that Chris is captain America

Imagine Chris being your neighbor and you wondering why didn’t put on pants.

Imagine Chris feeling like he failed as a father

Imagine Chris watching you play with his niece and nephew and he can’t help wonder how amazing you would be as a mom

Imagine Chris and your son telling the paparazzi no pictures

Imagine your son regret eating Wasabi

Imagine telling Chris that you want to make him a daddy on father’s day ~ smut

Chris Evans prompts

mamas boy 9&58

make me 48

i can’t keep kissing stranger and pretending their you 1,14&33

i forgive you 11

please marry me 32

hey just breath 29&10

92 and 84( smut)

76 and 91 ( angst, smut, fluff)

4 and 99(sad)

15 and 85(slightly angst, fluff)

quarantine proposal(fluff)

big fight (angst, fluff), breath with me (fluff) 

shoulder pain(fluff)

thirsty tweet reveal (fluff)

he’s okay (angst, fluff, daddy Chris), period(fluff)

54&56(smut) 

50,54,59(smut)

68&72(smut) 

68,69,72(smut) 

31,50,72(smut)

16,40(fluff)

Chris Evans:

exes to lover

8 letter

haters

accident happen how you think we …

heart eyes

daddy little fan

build a bear v teddy bear

baby love

falling like the stars

all way by your side

i will always protect you

rain can’t ruin the fun

give me nickname

your not a real fan

don’t touch her

im sorry

will you be there

i love you just the way you are

little valentine

best valentine day ever

admire your beauty

kick ass boyfriend

you and chris in quarantine

focus on my breathing

panic attack

sweater wearing dorks

i’m not good enough for you

moving to boston

beautiful in his eyes

have each other

strong mama

jealous chris

wear a longer skirt next time

i’m bored

that hurt my feelings

animal crossing

A place to sit ( smut)

Hot model (fluff, slightly smut)

Beautiful in his eyes ( fluff)

What!(angst, fluff)

Love me (smut)

Please forgive me(angst, fluff)

Bikini fun(smut, slight fluff)

Brazilian girl(smut)

Window (smut)

Hands(smut)

Dad’s friend (smut)

Chris Evans Fluff:

Not worth it || angst

You are the reason || fluff

Plane cancellation || fluff

Skype call || fluff

Back off, he’s mine || fluff, light Angst

Everything okay || fluff, light Angst

Social anxiety || fluff

Workout or dance party || fluff

Chris Evans Smut:

Fuck it || smut

Quick quiet sex || smut

Stuck with u || smut

Tapes || smut

His fingers are accurate || smut

Wild wet dream || smut

CEO barber || smut

Language || smut

Such a good mouth || smut

One bed || smut

Not so innocent maid || smut

Bathtub || smut

Daddy Chris:

Princess Chris ( fluff, daddy Chris)

Dance with me ( fluff, daddy Chris)

cuddle and kisses ( fluff, daddy Chris)

Late night protection (fluff, daddy Chris)

No kissing mama ( fluff, daddy Chris)

Helping daddy (fluff, daddy Chris)

Junk food convinced (fluff, daddy Chris)

3 month old talker( fluff, daddy Chris)

Twins ( fluff, daddy Chris)

Workout distraction (fluff, daddy Chris)

Reading a book (fluff, daddy Andy)

She’s growing up too fast (fluff, daddy Chris)

Little sister love (fluff, daddy Chris)

Shuts that out (fluff, daddy Andy)

Finally princesses (fluff, daddy Chris)

Busted (fluff, daddy Chris)

Bubbles (fluff, daddy Chris)

Not little anymore (fluff, daddy Chris)

New best friend (fluff, daddy Chris)

Skin to skin (fluff, daddy Chris)

Hungry baby, no (fluff, daddy Chris)

Peas (fluff, daddy Chris)

What are you doing Papa(fluff,daddy Chris)

Meeting little brother(fluff, daddy Chris)

Quarantine with kiddos(fluff, daddy Chris)

Mother’s day || dad! Chris

Memories || dad! Chris

Winnie the Pooh ||dad! Chris

Puppies || dad! Chris

Shy || dad! Chris

Bring us together || dad! Chris

Curly hair || dad! Chris

Quarantine baby || dad! Chris

Strawberries || dad! Chris

Bake a cake || dad! Chris

Sugar party || dad! Chris

Cuddles || dad! Chris

Morning with the Evans || dad! Chris

Disneyland || dad! Chris

FaceTime || dad! Chris

Pool day || dad! Chris

Big hands || dad! Chris

Not food || dad! Chris

Chris Evans oneshots:

Target - you lied and told Chris that you and your daughter weren’t going to target. He catches you both ~ Fluff

Double trouble maker - your twins break something and hide behind you, even though Chris isn’t mad ~ Fluff

Birthday special - Summary: it’s Chris’s birthday and since you both are still in quarantine, you want to give him a little show at home ~ smut

legal | Request : you wrote some dad figure!tom x teen actress!reader, can i get one with Chris Evans? maybe reader has been emancipated for awhile now n despite the fact that she’s been raising herself for a long time now, she still needs that parently guidance and maybe chris gives her that??? i hope that’s ok!! -🌙 ~ Fluff

Twins - I have a request, I was wondering if u can do a request, where the reader is African American and he and Chris are expecting towns, but they revel the news to Chris’s parents and your parents and also both of y’all grandparents?? ~ Fluff

Work this out - Can I request chris or henry tried to work through there divorce but end up with cute moments working it out ~ fluff

Princess - your Andy princess ~ smut

Surprise - I had another idea, what if Chris was being interviewed and you and your guys daughter who’s 4, came and surprised him, but once your daughter saw Chris she runs up to him and yells daddy!! - Fluff

Fort - Summary: it’s a rainy day and you, Chris, and your son build a fort ~ Fluff

Slobbery kisses - Chris wakes up to sloppy kisses by his baby ~ Fluff

Can’t sleep without you - Hi! can I request something where Chris and the reader had an argument and Chris goes to sleep in the couch, but in the middle of the night, the reader go to sleep with him there? Thanks! ~ slightly Angst, Fluff

Make up - Just after that quick one about fighting and sleeping separately could you do a quick imagine on the make up sex pls :)) ty ~ smut, Fluff

Tough guy -Can I ask for an imagine about the reader fighting with her husband Chris, about his family and the fight ending in rough sex? ❤ ~ kinda dark, smut

Giraffe slippers - Chris can’t get over your son’s giraffe slippers ~ Fluff

Switzerland - Summary: you, Chris and your son go on vacation to beautiful Switzerland ~ Fluff

Velvet - I found these prompts. They’re perfect ~ Fluff, implied smut

I’m scared, but I love you - Can u make where on how will cevans admit to a girl that he likes (or falling for) her and the girl is scared bc of the risk of dating him (privacy, fame, hate) and chris tells her he’s scared too but he’s willing to take a risk bc he can’t afford to see u w/ anyone else ~ Fluff

Interviewer - Summary: your a black interviewer and Chris couldn’t keep his eyes off of you. - smut, Fluff

Red dress - Request: After the oscars or whatever awards with Chris Evans, reader wearing a really sexy dress and even sexier lingerie ~ Fluff, implied smut

Softy -Request: Imagine Chris when he has a baby 🥺 I can honestly imagine how in love he’s gonna be in the delivery room getting handed his child. That man seriously makes my heart melt ~ Fluff

Who are you? - Request: can i request an image where chris comes back from filming and has a beautiful beard, but his baby daughter didn’t recognize him ~ Fluff

Empty theater - Request: you and chris go to the theaters and find out you two are the only one in the showing. You’re pretty invested into the movie and Chris is just horny 3000. He’s tryna fool around and you disregard him until he grabs your hand and puts it on his crotch and says in that insanely attractive Boston accent, “feel how hah’d you got me??” shweaty🤤 ~ smut

What moving in with Chris is like ~ Fluff

Long hair lover - Request: Can you write an imagine where Chris came back from filming red sea diving resort and his baby daughter is crazy in love with his long hair? ~ Fluff

Mean girl - Request: Hi, can you write one where the reader runs into a mean girl from school at supermarket and the girl start to brag for just saw Chris Evans. She doesn’t know that the reader is his wife, so the the mean girl has a little surprise when Chris find his wife at the line or something. ~ Fluff, slightly angst

Episode - Request: Hey are you taking request? I’m dark skinned chocolate and I’d love for Chris to comfort reader during a depressive episode. She’s the life of the party and she’s a new actress, not popular but she met Chris through mutual friends and he’s realized she’s been isolating herself lately, so he stops by her apt. to check in on her. She feels like she’s losing her mind. You can add smut. 😉 reader usually feels better after an episode buts its a serious battle and having support helps tremendously.😊 ~ Fluff, smut

Romantic day - Request: So Chris was asked in an interview if he ever had anyone do anything romantic for him and he had a hard time remembering. Can you write a fic where his girlfriend does something romantic for him? Like on a tooth rotting level of fluff. ~ fluff

Piglet - your daughter dress up as piglet from Winnie the Pooh ~ fluff

Bathroom and mirror - Request: Hey, I was wondering if I could request being at a party with Chris and he goes to the bathroom and you follow only for him to lift you on to the sink and eat your 🐱 then bend you over and fuck you hard watching you in the mirror ~ smut

Pink ribbon - Request: Okay but like I had this imagine in my head, like Chris is recording a video of his babygirl which is two months and he’s recording a video to help people with wants happening in the world to make then smile and then you hear a “grrr” and he’s like yes my daughter did learn how to growl before speaking thanks to dodger ! And he’s like so in love with the cutest bean to ever live ! And wife!reader be like watching this as she growls,dodger being proud! -🥺💕 ~ Fluff

Migraine - Request: Take as much time as you need 😜. I was about reader working at home on quarantine and she has this migraine so Chris takes care of her?? Could be a drabble, hc, blurb, whatever you wanna make of it ~ Fluff

Childhood bedroom - Request: Reader and Chris having sex in Chris’s childhood room when they visit his parents for a holiday (whichever you want) and Scott walking in on them ~ smut

Boomerang - Request: Can I request Chris Evans x Reader age gap where its her 10 high school reunion and back in high school she was over weight and was teased for it. Now she isnt and is engaged to Chris, but at the reunion she gets told by like an ex boyfriend an ex friend that Chris will leave her if she gets her weight back. Chris over hears this and is upset by it. Also could they make a remark like she is gaining weight again but she is pregnant like three months with a tiny bump (Maybe smut) Thank you ~ Angst, smut

Period - Request: can you do one abt chris when his girl is on her period ~ Fluff

4am car ride - Summary: at 4 in the morning Chris wakes you up to go on a car ride ~ Fluff

No Oscars - Request: Concept: reader consoling chris after he comes back from the oscars without any wins ~ Angst, fluff

Morning with the Evans - Summary: morning with 6 kiddos, 4 going to school. ~ Fluff

Wanna help? - Request: Hi there! What about Chris is in his bed reading a book as his wife were doing her routine of moisturizing her body and he start staring at her and she asks if he want to do the job for her. ~ smut

Mommy isn’t hot she’s warm

Message therapist - Request: I’m a massage therapist. I would love to see a wondering with CE and a therapist. She gets a one in a lifetime opportunity to massage the one and only, he sees her small stature and does not think she’ll be able to help him, but he is pleasantly surprised. He takes one look at her, and get simplicity and naturalness intrigues and consumes him. He’s on a mission to make her his, she’s wary. She’s wary because of her past and of what his intentions are. And doesn’t trust him right away. @creae7881 ~ Fluff

America’s ass - Summary: you make Chris celebrate that ass on its birthday `~ Fluff

Mechanic - Request: Hi! Wondering if you could make a story where Chris falls for a girl that’s a mechanic. I’ve been looking to pictures of the car Downey gifted him. She can be the one who built it. Thanks ~ @arabescapr ~ Fluff

Angry at you - Summary: Chris has to do some work and his daughter wants to play, but he can’t. She doesn’t like that. ~ Fluff

Virgin till married - Request: Hey! I really love your five and am a huge fan of your writing! Is there a way you could write a Chris fanfic in which the reader is a virgin and wants to save herself for marriage and it’s their honeymoon and she is gonna have sex for the first time with husband Chris.😙❤ It can be fluff and smut. Thank you! ~ smut

Secretly - Request: I have a request for Chris. Where the reader is a beautiful black plus-size woman and she and Chris are secretly dating, and one day they are spotted out and Chris panics and he has an interview and the interviewer asked him “who’s this girl u were spotted with” and Chris says I don’t know he personally she’s just a fan, and the reader watches the interview and gets heartbroken so she blocks him and changing a the locks to her house, and Chris finds out that she watched the interview. For the plus size request for Chris. I have to send another ask for same request because I didn’t have enough room to finish, but the reader starts avoiding and ignoring Chris, and Chris tries to get the reader to talk to him by showing up at her work, or bringing her flowers or her favorite food but she declines until one day she gets home and he’s on her doorstep and she starts walking by him ignoring him and he asks her just to talk to him please. Can there be a happy ending. ~ @briannab1234 ~ Angst, Fluff

After the show - Request: I’m sort of obsessed with the idea an anon sent in about the reader being a singer and her performing on stage and then him getting her home! I don’t know if you’re doing that already but if not can I request it for Chris Evans pleaseee ~ smut

Midnight return ~ Fluff, dad! Chris

You+me=perfect - Request: Hi! Just discovered your blog a few weeks ago and fell in love with your writing. I know requests are closed, but when you have time, could you do one where Chris and Reader (age gap) like each other and they know and everybody knows but when Reader makes a move he rejects her because since he wants a family he thinks reader is not ready for that. Please happy ending, 2020 is already too stressful :)~ Angst, Fluff

Your producing ice? - Request:Writing idea? Yk that game that Chris played with Jimmy Fallon where they poured the ice water down each other’s pants. Yeah yeah yeah. Just imagine going to give Chris a bj in the dressing room or something and there’s ice In his pants -🥺 but confused ~ smut, Fluff

Wine and sunset - Summary: you and Chris have been together for 3 years and now you got married to him. You both are on your honeymoon. He can’t help but keep his hands off of you. ~ smut, Fluff

No kissing ~ fluff,dad! Chris

At last I see the light - Request: Hi, can you please write Chris Evans x reader when he’s on the Graham Show and the other guest is a singer he have a crush on, she perform a song she recorded for the ‘We Love Disney’s album and he’s just in admiration please?  ~ Fluff

Another princess?! - Summary: your pregnant and you and Chris finally figure out the gender of your baby. ~ Fluff

[cringesideblog]

here’s my dnf playlist and a complete song by song track-list and why I put them on it.

heatwaves- on here for very obvious reasons. i don’t think I need to explain. but here are some lyrics anyway. “Sometimes all I think about is you, late nights in the middle of June.”

Jenny- again this is kinda obvious. “I wanna ruin our friendship, we should be lovers instead, I don’t know how to say this, cuz you’re really my dearest friend.”

TALK ME DOWN- this one just has the best friends pining for eachother vibe. “I wanna sleep next to you, and that’s all I wanna do right now.”

Dark paradise- kinda has dream smp vibes. but also you could argue heatwaves vibes. “Everytime I close my eyes, it’s like a dark paradise.” “There’s no relief, I see you in my sleep.” “There’s no release, I feel you in my dreams.”

Sweater weather- yeah you know why. you absolutely know why. “All I am is a man, I want the world in my hands. I hate the beach but I stand, in California with my toes in the sand.”

Drop the Guillotine- idk man just vibey. give it a listen you’ll get it. it’ll click. “You sure know how to drop that guillotine on me, though you would never wanna see me bleed.”

Can I call you tonight?- thats on their only for of communication being through the phone huh. (major heatwaves vibe) “powers out and I can’t turn the fan on, so can I call you tonight? trying make up my mind, just how I feel.”-“I hear your voice on the phone, now I’m no longer alone.”

Lemon boy- oh my god this song. geogre do be seeing dream as his lemon boy. “I helped him plant his seeds and we’d mow the lawn in bad weather.”

Yellow- DREAM IS LITERALLY GEORGES YELLOW SHUT UP RIGHT NOW. “Look at the stars, look how they shine for you.” “For you I’d bleed myself dry.”

Like you do- first of all I love this song, second, this has dream being a little too attached vibes. The whole song is just them. “Lost in the blue, they don’t love me like you do, those chills that I knew they were nothing without you, and everyone else they don’t matter now. You’re the one I can’t lose, no one loves me like you do.” “Since I met you, all the gloomy days just seem to shine a little more brightly.”

I saw you in a dream- mega heatwaves vibe. “When I’m awake I can’t switch off,” “I saw you in a dream, you came to me. You were the sweetest apparition, such a pretty vision.”

Maybe you’re the reason- did someone say pining best friend who doesn’t know that they’re in love ? this song. this song right here. “I keep looking for something, even though I know that it’s not there. Maybe you’re the reason. And anytime I try to figure it out, you’re the only thing I can think about.”

The king- DREAM SMP VIBE. “You like me, well obviously, so why you tryna leave when you know that I’m the king?” “Other lovers give you no luck, cuz I’m the only one who’s made you fall in love.” “Playing with your heart cuz you gave me the throne.”

Sweet- an adorable song truly that actually fits them so well. “Watching the, video that you sent me- you know that I’m obsessed with your body, but it’s the way you smile that does it for me.” “It’s so sweet, knowing that you love me.”

Apocalypse- um okay here me out, apocalypse au?? yeah i know it’s cute as shit you’re welcome. “Your lips my lips, apocalypse.” “When you’re all alone, I will reach for you, when you’re feeling low, I will be there too.”

Fear of the Water- don’t come for me this ones kinda sad, beautiful song though. “If this was meant for me why does it hurt so much, and if you’re not made for me why did we fall in love?”

Dreaming of you- two words, heat. waves. but also yeah good song for them in general. “Want you all the time, and now I’m dreaming, dreaming, dreaming, dreaming of you.”

Wires- uhhhhh dream smp vibe, dream villain arc n all . “If he said help me kill the president, id say he needs medicine.” “He said that I should take it in, listen to every word he’s speaking.”

Midnight love- it’s girl in love so, you already know how it issss. “I know I don’t want to, be the one that you run to, when you’ve got nowhere else to go, when you need some love.” “I always give in to give you it all.” “I can’t be your midnight love, when your silver is my gold.”

The beach- SUCH A HEATWAVES SONG JUST LISTEN. “I feel it burning me, I feel it burning you.” “I think I can see the beach, I know what’s underneath. I need you here with me,”

Cherry flavored- the neighborhood just.. they have a dnf vibe. “Cherry flavored conversations with you got me hanging on. Down to earth from all the waiting. Take me somewhere beyond.”

Pretty boy- geogre is a pretty boy. point blank period. “Even if my heart stops beating, you’re the only thing I need with me.” “Pretty boy, you did this with me boy.” “As long as I got you, I’m gonna be alright.”

Bad idea- girl in reddd... but like imagine them casually hooking up and not knowing their in love tho. also I feel like they would definitely think that their relationship is a “bad idea” bc they’re stupid. “It was a bad idea, to think I could stop, was such a bad idea, I can’t get enough.” “Darling your so pretty it hurts.”

Line without a hook- ICONIC!! dream definitely does not think that he deserves george. “You can hold my hand if no ones home.” “All my emotions feel like explosions when you are around” “Oh baby I am a wreck without you.” “She’s a, she’s a lady, and I am just a boy. She’s a, she’s a lady, and I am just a line without a hook.”

Say you hate me- mega dream smp vibes as of recently. with the whole removing geogre as king. “I guess that your friends where right, from the start when they thought that I was a bad guy.” “Can you just say that you hate me? Or that you will never love me?” “Never meant to make you leave, never meant to make you cry.”

Cherry bomb- reminds me of how dream cheated on fundy with geogre. “I’m too close to crushing, and I’m too close for comfort I’m rushing.” “I ask how shes so mellow, she tells me her shades are in yellow.”

This side of paradise- I mean, like, kinda heatwaves vibes, but also just them. “Ask me why my hearts inside my throat. I’ve never been in love I’ve been alone.” “If you’re lonley come be lonley with me.”

Linger- geogre literally has that boy wrapped around his finger and I can’t not see it in this song. But when you look into it HELLA dream smp vibes, lyrics can be switched for either perspective here. “You know I’m such a fool for you, you got me wrapped around your finger.” “I thought the world of you, I thought nothing could go wrong, but I was wrong,”

august- i don’t know what is but this song is for them. it just is. “To live for the hope of it all. Cancel plans just in case you'd call” “So much for summer love, and saying “Us” Cause you weren't mine to lose”

I was an island- i just love the idea of them being hardasses and not thinking they need anyone until the other comes into their life and rocks their world. kinda dream smp vibes “I was a fighter, and I was so brave, but I lowered my sword when you held me and swore you’d stay.” “I was a wolf, dear, apart from the pac But you answered my cries in the dead of the night and told me that you had my back,”

Golden- k this one feeds into the “you’re literally the sun in my sky I’m not worthy” feel “I know you were way too bright for me I'm hopeless, broken” “I know that you're scared Because hearts get broken” “I can feel you take control Of who I am and all I've ever known Loving you's the antidote”

Strong- ummm okay but the “we’re better together” dynamic is them “I’m sorry if I say I need ya, but I don’t care I’m not scared of love.” “when I’m not with you I’m weaker is that so wrong? Is it so wrong, that you make me strong.”

Fly out west- the whole, I need to see you, you’re all I think about, stuff gets me. also heatwaves vibe. “Well tell me do you know? You’re all I dream about. Take it from me I’m too dumb to recognize your doubt.”

Cruel summer- them and summer, you dig? “I don’t wanna keep secrets just to keep you.” “I love you and that the worst thing you ever heard?”

Nothings gonna hurt you baby- I put this one on here because of how protective dream is over geogre “Nothing’s gonna hurt you baby, as long as your with me you’ll be just fine. Nothings gonna hurt you baby, nothings gonna take you from my side.”

Cardigan- young love, the kind of lover that makes you feel like you are the most important thing in the world to them “when you are young they assume you know nothing, but I knew you-“ “and when I felt like I was an old cardigan under someone’s bed, you put me on and said I was your favorite.”

Cry baby- them being in that weird stage where they recognize that it might be more than just senseless flirting and they might have feelings but also being paranoid that they’re the only one with feelings uh- “I can taste it my hearts breaking, please don’t say it. That you know, when you know.” “I know I’ll fall in love with you baby, but that’s not what I wanna do baby.”

Speak now- literally the fundy dream wedding. i rest my case. “I hear the preacher say speak no or forever hold your peace.” “Dont say yes runaway now.”

I love you so- this song is cute on the surface but kinda sad once you look into it. it’s kinda about a codependent love that isn’t going well. “I gotta get away and let you go I gotta get over, but I love you so.” “You were cool and I’m a fool so please let me go.”

In conclusion I’d really appreciate if you could check it out :) <3

[newtonsheffield]

Hey Molly!! Hope Friday is treating you well this week..

I was listening to Lorde's new record, Stoned at the Nail Salon and I couldn't help but imagine a stoned Anthony and how Kate would react to finding straight-laced, responsible Antony, high 😂😂

Also, how is Sir Gregory settling in?

Hello!

Monday is treating me... Alright.

I've been approved to move into a new house so that's good but also kinda sucks because now I actually have to organise to move, and I just... don't want to?

Now, I was tryna figure out what would lead to straight laced Anthony getting high, and then it struck me: The time Anthony fell off the roof.

Sir Gregory is... a lot of work. I love him obviously, but he is hard work. I will be relieved when he starts to loses his puppy teeth, as will my arms.

Okay! my friend @readandbemerry was also interested in this! concept!

Kate really couldn't see how it had spiralled out of control so quickly. She'd left Anthony propped up in bed, protesting heavily, insisting that he should be making her a cup of tea despite his fractured ribs, and she'd returned to find Anthony a little slumped in his seat, his eyes glazed.

"Our medication's kicked in I see, you should try and get some sleep while it's working." She hummed setting his tea down beside him, smoothing his hair back from his forehead. Anthony startled looking at her so oddly she pulled back herself.

"I'm sorry, but who are you?" His words were a little slurred, his brow furrowed and Kate couldn't help but laugh.

"Very funny. They haven't turned you into much of a comedian have they?" she settled on the bed beside him, careful not to jostle him, her hands still running through his hair in the way she knew he liked when he was upset or sick.

"How did you get in here?" His eyes were still cloudy, regarding her carefully. Kate felt herself frown.

"Would you believe me if I told you I walked?"

Anthony frowned now, his eyes flicking over her. "You're very pretty, Miss, but I don't know who you are, and for the sake of your baby you probably shouldn't be climbing into bed with strange men."

Kate felt her heart stop, "That's not a very nice thing to say to your wife, the mother of your child, Mr. Bridgerton."

Anthony's eyes widened his head shaking comically. "You can't be my wife." Kate felt her stomach clench again, anxiety gnawing at her stomach.

"You're way too pretty to be married to me." His voice was awestruck is eyes raking over her, getting a little stuck on her chest. And Kate couldn't help but laugh, the ridiculousness of sweet, sensible Anthony, high as a kite on pain medication, in awe of his own wife a little overwhelming.

"I promise you, honey, we're married." She gestured to the wedding photograph hanging opposite the bed. Anthony leaning forward to look at it. He let out an odd laugh.

"Holy Fuck!" He turned towards her, practically yelling. "My wife's fucking hot. What are you doing slumming it with me?!" he leaned against her touch now, humming as she ran her hands through his hair. Kate fought to hide her smile.

"eh you have your charms."

"Wait, you're pregnant!" he was gesturing wildly at her stomach. "We're having a baby??? You let me-" He gestured a little crudely, "You?!"

Kate couldn't hold back her laughter. "Yes, honey, We've-" She repeated the gesture- "Quite a few times would you believe."

His eyes were staring intently at her and he suddenly looked so young.

"Cool." He laid his head back on her shoulder, apparently more than happy to accept her comfort now that he'd verified his facts.

"It feels really nice when you call me honey. Makes my heart feel funny."

Kate's own heart felt a little funny in that moment. "I love you."

His smile widened, "That makes it feel even funnier."

Silence split through the room for several moments and then Anthony bolted upright.

"I'm sorry, I need to call Ben and tell him that my wife's a fucking babe. It's just... I bet you're way hotter than his, and I need to brag."

Kate rolled her eyes, picking up her own phone.

"Hey Eddie, yeah I just need someone else to hear how stupid my husband is." Kate said tilting the phone away from her as Anthony said,

"Ben! I just met my wife! She's got the rings and everything! Why has no one told me how fucking hot she is?! And we're having a baby! Isn't that amazing?! I'm gonna be a papa! Our baby's gonna be so cute! Maybe too cute actually! Just wait!" His eyes were shining delightedly, his hair flopping around like an excited school boy and Kate couldn't help but smile.

"Kate, why are you into this idiot of a man?" Edwina's voice on speakerphone cut through the room. Anthony spun towards the noise.

"No! No take backs! She is, mysterious voice, and that's that!"

"You heard the man Eddie, no take backs."

"You two are sickening." Edwina tutted.

But honestly, Kate had never cared less.

[ugly-crying-over-bucky-barnes]

The Love Yet Known Part 3

Summary: Tommy Shelby needs to make sacrifices to ensure the safety of his family. So he concocts a plan to marry off his sister to the one and only Alfie Solomons.

             Late that summer after everything was settled with Luca Changretta, Tommy invited Eliza and Alfie to visit Arrow House in Warwickshire. Since Tommy was the one who initiated it, he figured it would be a nice, quiet few days. Charlie clearly missed his aunt dearly. The little boy was used to always having her around to entertain him. He always asked after her and became cross when Tommy said she was married, that’s why she didn’t live with them anymore.

            “Well, when is she not going to be married?” Charlie would ask.

            Tommy just chuckled and shook his head. “I don’t think there will ever be a day when that happens, my boy.”

            No one was blind to the growing affection Eliza and Alfie had from their wedding day on. In fact, it was quite a sight to see when the two were together. Such a shy thing like Eliza had a calming effect on Alfie, who rarely seemed to be in a sour mood when she was around. Likewise, he seemed to bring Eliza out of her shell a little bit. She had many friends in Camden and found herself more active in the community than she ever imagined she would be.

            Tommy never gloated, well he tried not to, but he liked to boast about how he made the match between Eliza and Alfie.

            Still, Arthur and a few of the other Peaky boys were having a hard time accepting Alfie into their sacred spaces. They considered him their sister’s husband, not a brother-in-law. They had a petty habit of writing to Eliza and addressing it with her maiden name. Arthur felt sick to his stomach if he saw his dear sister’s name next to a name like Solomons.

            Alfie wasn’t very hospitable either. He wouldn’t let go of old habits of trying to rile Arthur up. He only ever invited a few of Eliza’s family members to visit them in Camden. None of them even knew the married couple shared a beachfront home in Margate. Alfie would shudder to think if the Shelbys got an idea of inviting themselves over for a holiday.

            But all things considered, life was going well.

 ~~~~~~~

            Alfie helped Eliza out of the car. “This place gets bigger every time I visit; I swear it does.” He muttered.

            His wife laughed softly. “Well, hopefully, you don’t get lost.”

            Charlie came running outside to greet his aunt. “Auntie Liza!”

            “Hello!” Eliza beamed and stooped down to pick her nephew up.

            “Oh, love, be careful.” Alfie winced. It was a good thing Eliza wasn’t easily irritated. Because once Alfie found out she was pregnant, he became overprotective. He insisted on carrying things for her, let her sleep in as long as she liked, and had someone come in to take over any housekeeping duties that she might’ve done. Not that Eliza was keen on keeping anything clean anyway. Alfie knew he was being annoying, but he wanted to make sure that his child and the mother of that child was well kept. He felt it was his duty to ensure their safety and health.

            Charlie gave Alfie a side-eye. “Hi, Uncle Alfie.” He said in a less jovial voice.

            “You well, Charlie?”

            “Mhm.” The little boy shrugged.

            Eliza set him down and reached for her suitcase but Alfie stepped in. “I’ve got it. Go on ahead.”

            She gave him a kiss on the cheek and followed Charlie inside to find Tommy.

~~~~~~~~~ 

            At dinner that night, it was just the four of them. Tommy, Lizzie, Alfie, and Eliza. They chatted casually about things, nothing too consequential. Then, during dessert, Eliza felt it was a good enough time to tell them.

            “So, Alfie and I have news.” Eliza reached for her husband’s hand under the table and gave him a smile.

            “You’re pregnant.” Tommy finished for her.

            Alfie’s brow furrowed. “And what on Earth gave you that impression?” He snapped. He knew how important and special it was for Eliza to tell everyone about the baby, so Alfie was a bit ticked off that Tommy had affectively ruined the moment.

            Tommy glanced up from his whiskey glass. “Am I wrong?”

            “Well…no.”

            “But how did you know?” Alfie asked again.

            “Because of the way you’ve been acting around her. Anyone could tell if they’ve known you long enough, Alfie.” Tommy answered casually. “I haven’t seen her carry anything at all today.”

            Eliza just chuckled. “Well, I didn’t know we made it that obvious.”

            “You and I will have a lot to talk about then,” Lizzie spoke up.         

            “Why? Oh…oh really?” Eliza’s eyes lit up. “You’re pregnant?”

            The two sisters-in-law got up to hug one another. Surely it was special knowing there was someone else walking a similar path. After all, it’s not like their husbands knew what it felt like.

            “Well, seems we’ll be coming around much more often then, Tom.” Alfie sighed. Well, if his wife was happy, then he would drive her back and forth from London to Warwickshire as many times as she liked.  

~~~~~~~~~

            Lizzie gave birth to Ruby when Eliza was still seven months along. Seeing and holding the baby girl in her arms was such a lovely occasion. It was almost like a hint at what was to come. It would be much more surreal though, that’s what Lizzie told her.

            “It’s so strange holding her. All of a sudden, you’ve got this little life. One you’ve waited so long to hold and she’s yours to care for and love. It’s really overwhelming.” Her sister-in-law tried to explain as best she could.

~~~~~~~~~~~

            Now all there was to do was wait a little longer. The nursery was all set up and ready. Meanwhile, the midwife was on call whenever the first signs of labor came.

            In the blistering cold of February, Eliza was due any day. Alfie started to work from home just in case she went into labor and he needed to be there for her. He didn’t get out of bed as early, but he was awake much earlier than his wife on most mornings.

            It was a peaceful time where he could just bask in the warm feelings of holding his beloved wife close to him, all cuddled up in bed. Cyril keeping their feet warm at the end of the bed. His soft breathing sometimes syncing up to Eliza’s heartbeat.

            Alfie would wrap an arm around her waist, resting a hand over her swollen stomach. There, he could feel his child kicking. The emotions that overcame him when he felt that little pressure against his hand were indescribable. He was thrilled, excited, nervous, afraid. He didn’t know how he would measure up as a father. Didn’t know how his line of work would impact the life of his child.  

            Every possible worst-case scenario had run through his head since Eliza told him she was pregnant. His worst fear was losing her and the baby. Or losing the baby and having to cope with their shared grief. Or losing Eliza and having to be a single father while grieving his wife.

            The possibilities kept him up at night, practically driving him mad with anxiety. But then there were the good thoughts. The joy he would feel when he first held his child. The pride of seeing every milestone from first words to first steps.

            It was overwhelming to think about and it didn’t help that the wait was making him even more anxious.

 ~~~~~~~~~

            But finally, the day came when Eliza gave birth to a healthy baby boy. It was a relief to hear that his wife and son were both going to be perfectly fine. As Alfie climbed the stairs to see them, he felt his hands trembling with anxiety and anticipation.

            What if he did something wrong?

            What if Eliza thought he wasn’t a good father?

            What if he just wasn’t enough?

            All the self-deprecating thoughts seemed to vanish into thin air when he saw his son swaddled in his mother’s arms.

            Eliza gave her husband a tired smile. “He’s beautiful, Alfie.” She whispered with tears in her eyes.

            Alfie walked over to the bed and peered over. “Fucking hell, look at all that hair, aye?” He chuckled with tears welling up in his eyes as well. “Look at him, he’s about as perfect as you can get, ain’t he?” He kissed Eliza’s forehead. “I can’t ever repay you for giving me such a perfect gift.”

            “I think you can with a few dozen nappy changes.” She teased back.

            “Done deal.” He grinned and gently cradled his son’s head.

            “You can hold him.”

            Alfie’s nerves pricked at him again as he sat down on the edge of the bed. Eliza gently placed the newborn in his arms, looking over him with such fondness.

            “There you are.” He said softly. “Been waiting quite some time for you, mate.”

            Eliza rested her cheek on her husband’s shoulder as he spoke to their son. “What should we name him?” She asked.

            They had passed around a few names over the course of her pregnancy but none of them particularly stood out to either of them.

            “How about Asher?”

            “Is that Jewish?” Eliza asked.

            Alfie nodded. “Means blessed. Was one of the twelve tribes of Israel, back in ancient times.”

            She smiled. Truly, she felt blessed. Not just by the birth of her son, but by everything. She had found her soulmate, fell in love with him, married him, and now produced such a beautiful little boy. Her heart felt so full in her chest. “I love it. I think it’s absolutely perfect.”

  ~~~~~~~~~~         

            A month after Asher was born, Eliza brought up the idea of bringing him to Warwickshire to meet her family. Tommy was apparently arranging a dinner to bring the whole family together. That way they could catch up on things without being busy with work and the children could all see their cousins.  

            Alfie bristled at the idea. It was one thing to spend a couple of days with just Tommy and Lizzie. But to be around the whole Shelby family, it was not a pleasant thought. He almost felt as if he’d be alone, surrounded by people who didn’t quite trust him. People he didn’t really trust either.

            “Won’t be a pleasant trip, tryna get there with a newborn.” He thought of the mistake on the fly.

            “It’ll be fine, it’s not too far and I’m sure Asher will sleep the whole way there. If he doesn’t then it isn’t the end of the world.” Eliza assumed her husband was just concerned about the baby’s sake.

            “Dunno…”

            “Then maybe we invite everyone here. It’ll be a little crowded but we’ll make it work.” She suggested to eliminate the idea of traveling.

            Having the Shelbys in his space, his territory was an even worse idea. “Tommy’s place is big enough, we ain’t gonna have that many people over here.”

            “So…” She looked at him. “Then we’ll go to Tommy’s.”

            Alfie didn’t want to outright say he didn’t want to be around her family. He was afraid it might break her heart. But he wasn’t going to pretend that it was a joy to be around them either. He stifled a groan, feeling backed into a corner for sure. “I mean…if it’ll make you happy, love.”

            “I want to see Ruby and I want everyone to meet Asher.” She replied, able to hold her ground against him when she chose to. “So yes, it would make me happy.”

            There was no arguing that. His wife’s happiness was one of the few things that mattered to him. “Alright then, we’ll go. I won’t be a bother about it.” He promised, earning a smile and a kiss from him.

~~~~~~~~~~~

            Asher slept through most of the car ride over to Warwickshire. Eliza appeared happy to be seeing her family and to introduce them to her son.

            The sun was starting to set as they entered the estate. Alfie felt on his guard as he walked in beside Eliza, already hearing the colorful language coming in from the parlor. There was laughing and yelling coming from upstairs, most likely the children playing with one another.

            Polly saw them coming in first and rushed over to embrace her niece. “Look at you. Motherhood suits you, my dear.” She turned to Alfie who was holding his son. “And there he is. Looks very healthy. You must be very proud, Alfie.”

            “Yeah.” He smiled slightly. Leave it to Polly to get on his good side even when he was tense. “He’s a lot of work, ain’t he, but it’s rewarding.”

            Polly could see the hesitation in Alfie’s eyes. He was holding Asher protectively to his chest, his eyes scanning across the room almost looking for potential threats. She decided he would have to warm up to the idea of handing his son over for anyone to hold.

            Eliza didn’t appear to catch onto her husband’s discomfort. “Alfie, I’ll take him.”

            “S’alright, love. I don’t mind.”

            “Well, let Polly hold him for a bit.” She suggested.

            “It’s alright,” Polly replied gently to her niece. “You two make yourselves at home. I’ll get you a drink, love. Alfie would you like something?”

            “No, thank you.” He replied a bit relieved that Polly hadn’t pushed the matter.

            But then Arthur swooped in and gave his sister a bear hug. “Glad you came, chey.”

            Eliza giggled and hugged him back. “Hi, Arthur.”

            “Good to see ya. Now, where’s the little one, aye?” The eldest Shelby’s eyes settled on Alfie with a look of slight distaste.

            Eliza stepped in to try and keep the atmosphere light and festive. “This is Asher, he just turned a month old.” She reached over to adjust the little cap on the newborn’s head. His dark hair was sticking out from underneath it.

            “A month already.” Arthur shook his head. “Well, wish we could’ve been there earlier.” He gave his brother-in-law a stern look. As if Alfie was purposefully keeping Eliza hidden away in Camden Town to keep her away from her family.

            “Arthur…” She sighed. But it was too late. The powder keg had already been lit.

            “Well, mate, it weren’t the easiest delivery. Eliza had to take a bit of time to recover.”

            “If Pol had been there like she wanted then maybe it wouldn’t have been so difficult.” Arthur wasn’t standing down from the challenge. In fact, he welcomed a reason to argue.

            “Arthur, that’s enough.” His aunt interrupted. “We’ve had this discussion before but it’s over. The baby’s already born.”

            But neither man listened to a voice of reason. “She had the best midwife in Camden Town there. Are you insinuating I wouldn’t get the best for me wife?”

            “I’m saying you’ve been keeping our sister from seeing her family.”

            “She’s got a mind of her own, mate, she can go wherever she wants whenever she wants.” Alfie crossed his arms over his chest.

            “Please, will you two just stop?” Eliza begged.

            “Did she have a choice when Tommy sold her off to you?” Arthur’s voice raised and Eliza knew she had to step in before the rest of the party started to take notice of the brewing storm between her brother and husband.

            “Alright, enough. You two are making a scene and it’s ridiculous.” She took Asher from Alfie’s arms when he was caught off guard and handed the baby to Polly. Before her husband could protest, she grabbed his arm and dragged him into another empty room of Arrow House.

            “You’re just going to leave him?” Alfie spat.

            “With my aunt who I trust with my life? Yes!” She snapped in an exasperated tone. “What on Earth has gotten into you? I thought this would be a nice visit, I didn’t think I had to tell you to be on your best behavior. But apparently, I should’ve because you’re acting like a child!”

            “Your brother started it!” His normally soft-spoken wife gave him a death glare. Alfie backtracked when he realized the childish response was exactly what Eliza was talking about. “I’m sorry.” He mumbled. “I just don’t like him treating me that way. Like I’m some monster who kidnapped you.”

            “Oh, Alfie.” She sighed and wrapped her arms around his neck to pull him close. “You know Arthur and you know that’s not true. You’ve given me everything and I’ve never been so happy. But we can’t make them see that. If they don’t see it then that’s their fault.” She kissed his cheek. “We know the truth.”

            He grumbled. Of course, she was right, seldom was she wrong. It just didn’t help that when they went back to the party, Arthur would still be the same. “M’trying, love.”

            “I know you are.” She smiled. “They’re difficult. But you are too.”

            He chuckled. There was no arguing that.

            “But now Asher is sort of a buffer. You just have to let them hold him.”

            Alfie looked disgruntled. He knew intuitively that none of the Shelbys would bring harm to the child. But there was still that protective instinct that he could never totally shake. If he let his guard down, bad things happened. The only time that wasn’t the case was when he was alone with Eliza and Asher. That quiet space where everything good in the world seemed to line up. Nothing outside of their warm home mattered.

            “Alright.” He relented. It seemed reasonable that if he played along, the sooner they would be out of there.

            Eliza smiled and kissed him softly. “Try to enjoy yourself.” She said before going to return to the party.

~~~~~~~~~

            Alfie followed and found Polly was still holding Asher. But Ada and Lizzie were cooing over the baby. Tommy was sat next to his aunt, holding Ruby and smiling at his new nephew. Even Arthur was nearby smiling at Asher.

            Alfie did his best not to hover even when his son was passed from relative to relative. It seemed to make Eliza happy to see her family holding her newborn. She spoke proudly about him. The meaning of his name, his blue eyes, how much Cyril adored him, and everything else that had happened in his short life.

            After a while, Alfie began to relax slightly. Although he always kept an eye out to see who was holding Asher.

            Toward the end of the night, his son was finally placed back in his arms. Asher was fast asleep despite the Shelbys having a good time with a good amount of alcohol. Alfie gently touched his cheek with his thumb. “They can be exhausting, aye?” He murmured quietly. “Better get used to it I suppose. Don’t think they’re going anywhere.”

            Asher yawned and shifted slightly in his swaddle.

            Alfie glanced up when he heard someone clear their throat. Arthur was standing nearby, a glass of whiskey in hand. “Mind if I sit?” He gestured to the empty armchair near the sofa Alfie was sitting on.

            “Ain’t my house, mate.”

            Arthur shrugged and sat down. “So, how does it feel, aye? Must get no sleep with him. And Liza, I doubt she ever gets up. Would take a train to wake her when she was younger.”

            It was a strange olive branch but Alfie chuckled. “Yeah, it’s tough tryna get her up to nurse him. S’alright though. Never been a big sleeper myself.” He admitted.

            “Yeah, war will do that to you.” Arthur agreed after a sip of whiskey.

            They were so similar, it was a wonder that they butted heads so often. They were veterans with deep scars, liked to solve problems with their fists, hardly flinched at death, and yet fiercely cared about their kin. But bad blood was hard to wash out, especially in their line of work.

            “I’d always be up with Billy when he was that young. It’s good, keeps your mind busy.” He added.

            “They’re a good distraction.” Alfie nodded, looking down at his son. “Changes a lot of perspectives on life.”

            Arthur looked across the room to see Eliza smiling at him. Of course, she’d put him up to it, insisting that if he wanted to see more of her, he would be nicer to her husband. Arthur complained but she wasn’t hearing it. It seemed that marriage and motherhood had really taught her when to put her foot down. But sitting there with his brother-in-law, Arthur seemed to realize that there wasn’t much else he could do. Here they were, both fathers to a son, both husbands. They were too old to be the vicious fighters they were as young men. It was too tiring.

            Alfie came to a similar conclusion. They could fight about the same things that happened so long ago. There wasn’t anything new to argue about. Just the grudges they both held. Which were equally as tiring. “Here.” He held Asher out.

            Arthur looked a bit surprised but decided not to make a scene out of it. He set his whiskey glass down and cradled his nephew to his chest. “Looks like Liza when she was a baby.” He chuckled. “She had so much hair. Our mother was shocked. I hope he doesn’t cry as much as she did. God, she was noisier than John ever was.” His eyes saddened at the mention of Eliza’s twin. It felt like ages ago that they’d lost John and yet, it was still so fresh.

            “That’s his middle name, you know,” Alfie said. “Asher John.”

            Arthur got a little choked up. “He’d be thrilled if he was here.” He tried to laugh off his grief but it was obvious how much it hurt. “Don’t think he’d ever stop bragging about it.”

            Eliza came over, so happy to see the two men getting along for the first time ever. She kissed Alfie’s temple as she sat down next to him.

            A quiet lull fell over the room. The warm chatter of family radiated with the fire and drinks. Alfie felt his shoulders relax while he wrapped an arm around Eliza’s shoulders. Things could be okay if he allowed them to be. So he did.

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Like You (George Weasley x fem!reader)

𝐏𝐚𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠: George Weasley

𝐒𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲: Y/n can’t find anybody else like George

𝐑𝐞𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐭: none

𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬: lil angsty, cursing, mentions of food, gets happy towards the end!

𝐖𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭: 2,461

𝐀𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐫𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐞: this is inspired by my all time freaking favorite Doja Catsong, Streets, omg I love it, I also had a different idea for this song but as I was writing it just took a turn so I might write another one but it’ll be different, but anyways if you guys haven’t listened to Streets you should omgggg but you don’t have too!! Anyways I hope you guys like it!💗💗 I ONLY USED KATIE BELL AS DRAMA NO KATIE BELL SLANDER🤚🏼

Like you, like you

Like you, ooh

I found it hard to find someone like you

To say Y/n love life was sad was kinda far behind it, sure he’s dated boys in the past before, but the feelings never stayed. She dated boys and not men because back then her judgement never got the best of her. She did feel bad that after only a few weeks of dating she questioned her feelings, they’d gone so soon but why?

Like you, like you

Send your location come through

I can’t sleep no more

In my head we belong

Y/n always felt like she was doing something wrong when she broke up with them, it wasn’t their fault she lost feelings she just....did. Dating is hard, it’s very hard and no one will tell you that, all these other people make it look easy and fun but it’s just the exact opposite.

And I can’t be without you

Why can’t I find no one like you?

I can’t sleep no more

In my head we belong

Maybe dating was hard because your soul knew the person your with is not the person you want to be with. Maybe it’s hard because deep down you know you won’t have a future with said person and it feels like waisted time. Maybe datings hard because the person you want to be with is with someone else.

These thoughts plagued Y/n and George at night. In each other’s head they belonged together.

And I can’t be without you

Why can’t I find no one like you?

Baby, we tried to fight it

We all been there some days

Sometimes it’s not just hard for one party, sometimes it’s hard for the other party as well. Because George has been in love with Y/n for as long as he could remember, his best friend, and it didn’t feel weird to be in love with her, he tried to push his feelings down, so far down that he couldn’t feel them, yet the feelings are too strong.

Thought I need something else

And acted like I was okay

We just had to work it out

And baby, I needed space

George thought maybe if he dated someone else things would be okay instead of acting like it was okay. He needed to work things out, he gave himself space from Y/n which not only left her confused but Fred as well, he tells everything to Fred so why is he distancing himself from her?.

So when he started dating Katie Bell, it didn’t feel right. Something in his gut told him it wasn’t right and he shouldn’t be doing it, but how could he tell his best friend he’s in love with her? She probably wasn’t even in love with him, he wasn’t even Katie’s first choice.

Ain't nobody 'round here wrong

You love all yours so far away

You're pouring your heart out

I'm acting like I knew

George and Katie’s relationship didn’t last long, he refused to kiss her and only wanted to hold her hand, anytime she’d try to find way to kiss him he’d make a silly excuse to slip away. After a few months they finally split, he couldn’t deny how he felt towards Y/n anymore, he’s been denying it too long.

Late at night he would create scenarios where he poured his heart out to Y/n and she acted like she knew already, his words were moving and he didn’t stumble over his words and they’d share a fiery kiss. Every night he wished something like that would happen.

You held me so down

So down I never grew, oh

I tried to find out

When none of them came through

Before George could confess his feelings for Y/n she also dated someone for a span of months, Adrian Pucey. Adrian Pucey was well known around the school, being on the Slytherin quidditch team had its perks, but Y/n never knew why he was well known for it, other people had been on the quidditch team.

Adrian Pucey put Y/n in a corner when he asked her to be his girlfriend in front of everyone at the great hall, Y/n was speechless for a moment, of course it had to be in front of everyone, if she said no she’d be seen as a heartless bitch. Y/n convinced herself that maybe since George had dated someone else she should too.

Their relationship lasted shorter then George and Katie’s. Adrian had no idea what to do with a relationship nor how to treat a women, he was cold and mean to Y/n, he always backed her into a corner and called her names when she didn’t agree with him, so in a flurry of emotions she broke up with him in front of a decent sized group of people. She felt like he had held her down, she’s a delicate flower who’s trying to blossom into a beautiful hibiscus but Adrian was a slug who was holding her down from growing.

And now I'm stuck in the middle

And baby had to pull me out, oh

Like you, like you

Like you, ooh

George was beyond aggravated when Adrian had asked Y/n out, his Y/n, Fred tried to talk to him later that day in the common room. “Y/n is her own person and can date whoever she wants” Fred told him, “yeah, but it’s angering too see her with some prat as Adrian Pucey”. Ron had butted into the conversation to joke and say that the twins roles had been reversed and one was acting like the other, alas he was told to shut up.

Before Y/n had broken up with Adrian he tried to figure out all the things wrong Adrian was doing, he could’ve made a bullet point list of a few pages from the things he picked up on. He brought them all to Y/n’s attention, she didn’t deny them because, well, she already knew. She had no idea why she was with him. She was more than grateful that George had helped pull her out from the middle.

I found it hard to find someone like you

Like you, like you

Send your location, come through (Yeah)

Damn papa, you a rare breed, no comparing

Now that they are both single George thought it would be a great time to tell Y/n how he feels, but it’s harder done than said. Anytime he’d find a lull in a conversation or comfortable silence he could feel his heart wanting to tell her, wearing to tell her but his mouth just wouldn’t move and his brain just wouldn’t function.

Y/n also wanted to tell George how she felt for so long but could never come to either, whenever they’d be apart from each other she’d have other students or friends come find her then tell her George was looking for her, he’s always looking for her. Y/n thought most of the guys at Hogwarts were just like Adrian, but when she left Adrian she realized there was many guys way different then Adrian, like George, he wasn’t like anyone she’s really seen and it took her this long to realize how rare he is.

And it's motherfuckin' scary

Tryna keep him 'cause I found him

Let a hoe know, I ain't motherfuckin' sharing

I could take you to the parents, then to Paris

Rumors began to spread that Katie was wanting George back, people said she was very sulky and quiet. Her friends said all she brought up was George and how annoying it was getting. “She spends most of her time talking about George, she’s had a few nights where all she talked about was him, it’s quite annoying actually” recalled one of her friends.

This made Y/n jealous. She tried to not get jealous but George had said he was done with Katie. Her mother always told her jealousy is bad medicine. Y/n couldn’t help the way she felt, she knows not to surprise feelings so she embraced it instead, she was jealous and she had a right to be. She waited this long, she didn’t want to share.

You the type I wanna marry (Yeah) and keep you merry

I'll put the ring on when you ready

We play our fantasies out in real life ways and

Y/n’s friend group who consisted of George, Fred, Lee, and Angelina had been talking about the situation in the Gryffindor common room, Y/n was slumped in a arm chair with her arms and legs crossed. She wasn’t pleased to hear the situation again, the students at Hogwarts grabbed onto any drama like a leech. “Are you okay, Y/n?” Angelina asked her, giving a glance to her then to the fire “I’m fine” she mumbled

No Final Fantasy, can we end these games though?

You give me energy, make me feel lightweight

Like the birds of a feather, baby

We real life made for each other

The drama started to disperse, people started to find other things to talk about. Y/n finally felt like she could breathe and she didn’t have to hear someone mumbling about Katie and George. Of course it couldn’t last forever, at lunch everyone chatted about something in the Great Hall. Katie and her friends sat more towards the front of the table while Y/n and her friends sat more towards the middle, Y/n noticed how Katie couldn’t keep her eyes from wandering. Soon Fred picked up on what was happening.

“Oi! George! Looks like a certain someone can’t take her eyes off you” as soon as it passed Fred’s lips, Y/n had tightly gripped a piece of bread she had been eating, crunching sound from the crust and crumps falling to her plate. George nudged her “are you alright?” He asked,Y/n didn’t even look up “I’m fine, do I not look fine?” She snapped. George hadn’t said another word.

Y/n felt like she was stuck in a game she’s meant to lose. To her luck, Katie came wondering over to their part of the table, you could tell she was nervous and she was playing with her fingers. She stopped in front of George “u-uhm, George?” She said quietly, almost to quiet. George looked up from his plate, meeting her eyes “yes?” He said confused. Katie played with her fingers more “i....I just wanted to say that, uhm....I miss you, quite a bit actually” she tucked her hair behind her ear and casted her gaze to the floor “and I was wondering if we could possibly....try again?” George was speechless, and shocked, sure Katie is a nice girl but she’s not his, not when his flower is sitting next to him, clearly seething. However, George didn’t want to embarrass her by saying no, he didn’t want to embarrass her like that. “Uhm...I’ll-I’ll think about it” Katie gave a silent “okay!” With a smile and walked back to her spot, a slight skip in her step.

This only aggravated Y/n more, why couldn’t George be the one to give her so much energy from just a single glance that made her head spin, why wouldn’t he make Y/n feel weightless. Why couldn’t they be birds of a feather?, maybe thinking they were made for each other didn’t really mean they were.

And it's hard to keep my cool

When other bitches tryna get with my dude and

When other chickens tryna get in my coop

'Cause you're a one in a million

There ain’t no man like you

Y/n didn’t want to cause a scene but it didn’t take a fool to notice how affected she was by what Katie had done, especially George’s response. Grabbing her bag, she stood up from her seat hastily and speed walked out of the Great Hall. Her cold and hard stare could send shivers down your spine, she looked like she was ready to exploded any second.

Maybe it was just her head telling her that George was hers, they hadn’t really talked about it for that matter. George had watched her leave the Great Hall, he kept his eyes in the direction she left still, his lips pressed into a fine line, his brain was running around with what he should do. He didn’t move until Hermione said something “well, what are you doing? Go after her!” He didn’t give it a second thought and was out the door.

It wasn’t long before George found Y/n at a spot over looking the Great Lake. Her elbow rested on a ledge with her chin in her hand, she looked a little more calm. George stood next to her, Y/n glanced at him then back to the lake. “What’s wrong?” George said, Y/n gave him another quick glance before she spoke “I thought you said you were done with Katie Bell” she had nothing against Katie, not really, she was just jealous. “I am” George said, Y/n rolled her eyes “didn’t look like it” she replied. Y/n didn’t want to hear it anymore, she turned on her heel to leave but only making a few steps before George grabbed her arms and turned her towards him “I don’t love her!” George said defensively “why are you so jealous anyways?” Y/n scoffed, she wasn’t going to admit she was jealous “I’m not jealous” she mumbled “yes, you are! Why are you jealous?” He repeated “because you’re one in a million! There’s no man like you! I want you for myself” Y/n spoke before she could think.

Like you, like you

Like you, ooh

I found it hard to find someone like you

Like you, like you

Y/n and George couldn’t believe what she had said, George often doubted himself but to hear that from someone he loves. It was refreshing. “I don’t love her” George said again “I love you” the tension was so thick you could cut it with a butcher knife. One was waiting for the other to do something. Y/n’s hands had been shaking a little, George was playing with his pointer finger and staring at his shoes, it was so unreal to them that they both were dumb enough to not see they both fancied each other.

Slowly Y/n took a few steps forward, she wrapped her arms around George’s neck and pulled him in. He buried his face in her neck “it was hard to find someone like you, and I don’t want to let you go” Y/n whispered “I don’t want to let you go either” George added. They both pulled away to look at each other, looking each other in the eyes to find something. George placed a soft kiss on Y/n’s forehead then placed his on hers. Finally they got to have each other.

[idontblushsrry]

Inuyasha Characters As Roomates

In honor of yashahime’s release i’ve decided to post this for no real reason.Can you tell who my bias is lmao. Lmk if I should do a Part 2 with the people I missed. Also I apologize I haven’t updated in like a year I have a post addressing this coming up soon. Thank you for your continued support despite the fact that I’ve been updating infrequently, I really appreciate it. Without further ado:

Warnings: Some swear words oop

Word Count: 1632

Inuyasha

You want Inuyasha as your roommate???Chile anyways...

No but fr tho in general Inuyasha isn’t an awful roommate, he pays his bills on time(ususally), doesn’t make too big of a mess but that’s just because he owns like 3 things and 2 outfits.

No, the real problem with Inuyasha is that he is LOUD

You walk outside to throw the trash away and he’s in his room screaming about a video game or something and the WHOLE neighborhood can hear him. 

People pokin they head out in concern and everything

Another time he was watching a horror movie and you guess the characters did something stupid because you hear a scream from the character and then Inuyasha screaming “WHAT THE FUCK, WHY WOULD YOU GO THAT WAY DUMBASS! THAT’S WHY YOU’RE DEAD NOW!”

Shit woke you up out of your sleep

After that incident you knew you’d have to ask him to be a bit more considerate of your eardrums.

So, you ask him to quiet down and he pouts like a child and huffs and puffs.

He does quiet down tho...for about 2 minutes until he stubs his toe on the end of the couch

God bless you and your patience but god bless his girlfriend Kagome

She’s a saint

If it were up to Inuyasha your groceries would consist of a cabinet of ramen like the man has the budget for ramen and paying his share of he bills why would he spend money on things like fruit???

This is where Kagome comes in, she comes by pretty regularly and she brings food or groceries because she of all people knows how terrible Inuyasha’s shopping habits are.

Bless her soul truly and every time she does this you thank her lmaoo

Inuyasha eventually does move out with Kagome but he does apologize for being loud before he leaves, you aren’t sure if he did that on his own or if Kagome made him do that

Kagome

She’s so sweet

Fair share of chores, groceries, she cooks for yall sometimes, truly a saint

Only 2 problems:

Ms. Girl has no moneyyy

Poor Kagome, she always tries to pay her bills on time but between trying to feed Inuyasha, helping out her family, and school the paycheck only spreads so thin(She does eventually quit school to start working more but)

Nothing wrong with this but you do end up having to cover for her sometimes.

She of course thank you and you don’t usually mind and your routine was functional for you two, until you meet problem number 2 

The loudest mf on the planet Earth, her boyfriend, Inuyasha

One day you’re in he kitchen grabbing something to eat and you hear pounding on the door like the police showed up.

You proceed cautiously because...what the fuck and you almost reach the door before you hear 

“I’ll get it!”

You’ve never seen Kagome run faster

She opens the door and you see this 5′5 mf who was banging on the door like he paid the bills

Inuyasha just has rbf but you don't know that so you think he’s making faces at you

Immediately you have a problem with him

“Hey Kagome, who’s this?”

She looks between you two before immediately rushing to introduce you to each other

“Oh, I forgot my purse be right back guys.”, Kagome left not knowing that yall were about 2 seconds from fighting

You didn’t like Inuyasha for banging on the door and glaring and he didn’t like you for glaring at him

After that you just avoided talking to inuyasha for the sake of keeping the peace

When he came over you exited stage left 

Eventually Kagome does move out with Inuyasha and she asks why you and Iuyasha had never spoken to each other

“Are you kidding me the first day we met he was already glaring at me?!”

“Ohhh, that’s just his face, he’s really sweet promise :D”

You doubted that

You liked Kagome as a roommate but you were glad she was moving out so you could find someone who could pay the bills on time.

Sango

She a baddie ngl

Aside from that, Sango is the perfect roommate

However, I hope you aren’t allergic to cats or Miroku because they’re pretty much a package deal

Also hopefully you don’t hate children because she does have Kohaku to worry about

But she makes pretty good money at her job so expenses aren’t a issue

She also isn’t home too often between her job, taking care of Kohaku and Kirara, and her relationship

She ends up spending more and more time at Miroku’s place anyways

Sango finally moves in with Miroku when she gets pregnant, yall still keep in touch tho because you’ve become good friends

And thus you say goodbye to the best roommate to ever grace this Earth lmao

Miroku

Miroku is the shortest lasting roommate on this list

Mans is a little creeper pervert and that shit gets annoying after a while

You’ll be walking out the shower and Miroku’s standing there like “hey lil mama lemme whisper in ya ear”

Needless to say you smacked the taste outta his mouth and he stopped with that real quick

He stops but you’re surprised when you see Sango come over 

Your hand starts itching with the urge to slap him again...

You meet Sango and what she sees in him is... baffling, scientists to this day still don’t understand 

Baby girl, you’re Sango do better, self love

Anyways, Miroku moves out eventually and he takes his nasty ass ways with him

Later you find out that Sango moved in with him and sje’s gon have a baby by him

But you know that’s none of your business 

Koga

If you thought Inuyasha was loud...

Inuyasha doesn’t have any friends, Koga has a wolf pack...

Parties all the time good luck homie

If you were tryna study, sleep, do work, etc. best wishes lmao

You come home and mans got 2 random people over like how ya doin   O-O

“Hello”

“Where’s Koga?”

They point to the kitchen and you head here ready to just “talk” with Koga

He turns around and gives you the cutest smile known to man and you immediately lose your will to argue

Can’t argue with a man that beautiful sorry...

Anyways besides being loud af, Koga is HYPER

Mans is up at 5 am knocking on your door like “hey you wanna jog to the gym”

“No Koga, goodnight”

‘No problem, it’s the morning btw!”

He’s actually a decent roommate and he moves into a bigger house with his friends and calls it the ‘pack house’

He actually invites you to come move in w him and his buddies 

You tell him you’ll think about it

Sesshomaru

The king of “I’m better than you”

He has his life so well together and you’ve gotta give him props

Mans is basically Caspar the Friendly Ghost of roommates 

Does he actually live here? the lights stay on and his name is on the deed so... I guess

Seriously tho, Sesshomaru doesn’t need a roommate but he does need someone to mind Rin

You might ask, what about Jaken, Jaken is busy (following Sesshomaru) or so he claims

Sesshomaru isn’t too bad honestly he covers the majority of the expenses in exchange for you watching Rin and feeding Ah-Un

So you’re basically Rin’s stay at home nanny

But you don’t mind because she is a SWEETHEART

Ah-Un isn’t too bad, just feed 2 lizards

(Although depending on who you are feeding them bugs might be your worst nightmare)

Jaken and you buttheads all the time, it’s almost comical

The times you interact with him mainly consist of you telling him to leave Rin alone or him telling you something Sesshomaru said

Speaking of Sesshomaru you don’t see him often and the only times you hear from him are in the form of notes he leaves around the house to the degree of ‘I fed Ah-Un this morning’ or ‘Make sure Rin takes her vitamins’ 

The other times you “hear” from him are when Jaken comes by saying things like ‘Lord Sesshomaru has requested that you prepare Rin to go out’

And for a while you were like who tf does he think he is because like yea he pays most of the rent but like he isn’t paying you for this so why does he think he can order you around indirectly

The first time you see Sesshomaru, it’s late and Rin’s been asleep for hours.

You walked into the kitchen and didn’t bother with turning the lights on but then you heard the smallest shuffle and a groan

And the moonlight comes through the window at the perfect angle and it reflects so beautifully off his silver hair

He turs some and you see his face and immediately take back all the times you’ve cussed him out mentally

And the you realize you’re in your pajamas staring at this man you’ve never met before that’s sleeping on the couch. For all you know he could be some random guy who broke in

He looks so peaceful that you loathe to disturb it but you poke at him w a stick and he groans out something to the tune of “Go away Jaken”

“I’m not Jaken”

He immediately sat up and stared at you like he was trying to figure out who you were in his head for a moment 

“Don’t you want to sleep in your room?” you asked him. He stood up and begun to walk towards his room in response 

You just watched him walk away but before he turned the corner into the hallway you swear you heard him say “You should get some sleep too.”

[disaster-ace-is-me]

my favorite lyrics i've written

hi, i'm making a list of lyrics that i wrote in my songs that i absolutely love because i want to <3 (i'll be adding more as i think of them)

"i don't know what made me fall in love with the rain/was it the feeling of drowning or all my troubles washing away?" - somebody else

"i see your face in every sunset/your name tattooed on my lips" - lights with the fast cars

"so i'll stay out of empty dive bars/if you steer clear of the lights with the fast cars" - lights with the fast cars

"so as i pour another bottle of wine/i wish i never had your number memorized" - no i don't

"and since you won't be missing me/you don't know where i'll be" - where i'll be

"and as i stare out an open window/lost in this song's crescendo" - if you're listening

"but now you're so out of reach/that i'm just left to dream of you" - if you're listening

"at least let me know you won't catch me when i fall" - if you're listening

"and now the weight of my world is finally off my shoulders/and you're with some other girl and my bed is so much colder" - camera film

"hearing your voice through polaroids" - camera film

"i lurk in the dark as part of your collection/i live in the stars that shine in your reflection" - no brother of mine

"conqueror, you conqueror of my most glorious land/monster, you monster of a godforsaken man" - no brother of mine

"and i lost you when i didn't know i had you/but i guess you found yourself fine" - ephemeral summer days

"cover my wounds with believable laughter/if it's an art then i am the master" - don't feel better

"you do more than haunt with your cursed letters" - don't feel better

“stop motion pictures probably ain’t gonna work this time/looking for the old color videos back when they were easier to find” - the year

“what's left of me is the echoing of a broken drum” - the year

“the heartache needs a melody/or the music will fade away” - the year

“and i pretend i’m alright/‘cause if i lose my fury, then my vision’s blurry and you’ll start to worry” - blankets

“and you’ve never felt the pain/of having someone burst at your words with all this hurt” - blankets

“so i’ll wrap myself in blankets and try to fake it till i make it/but what if i’m breaking?” - blankets

“from up above, the stars shine brighter/i’m losing ground after soaring higher” - blankets

“your fearful grip is getting tighter/‘cause the circumstance’s getting dire” - blankets

“you had my walls broken/and left my door wide open” - cool

“bend until we break/break until we bleed” - holy tomb

“i gave you my all, you never gave me your hand” - heaven and hell

“if heaven and hell collided, i know you would stay the same/and if the earth subsided, i still wouldn’t have won your game” - heaven and hell

“your love is a war and you had me drafted/you saw my rainbow and had it refracted” - heaven and hell

“drinking champagne with all my enemies/then drowning in whiskey with all my family/i’m flying but i’m not soaring” - broken by a broken man

“what if i die without ever knowing who i am?” - broken by a broken man

“you’re damned if you don’t and you’re damned if you do/you’re what everyone wants if you’re broken and blue/i’ve been crying but do you even miss me?” - broken by a broken man

“i was on fire, but that’s all turned to embers now” - smoke

“and now i’m fine with not being the brightest flame” - smoke

“i didn’t notice i was breathing in my own smoke” - smoke

“like a small candle, i now burn with peace and serenity” - smoke

“i didn’t like dancing in the rain but now i don’t mind” - smoke

“you expected better, and honestly i did too/for the last time in forever, i’ve got everything to lose” - bruise

“it’s kinda dark in here/and this floor feels kinda weird/but it’s alright for now” - dark

“i see a light under the door/dad can’t find what he’s looking for/time might be running out” - dark

“but in the corner i found some of my old toys/so it’s alright for now” - dark

“the colors are so much brighter out here/i haven’t smiled quite like this in years/‘cause it’s alright now” - dark

“now i wear my heart on my hand/don’t you ever let it go” - pink

“you’re my favorite shade of pink” - pink

“and instead of sleeping i’m dreaming/and wishing we talked like we did before/and instead of lying i’m writing/this song to tell you that i miss you more” - i miss you more

“after all these years of tears you would think we’d learned/but we fought fire with fire and we both got burned” - remember

“you keep whispers in your locker/but rumors in your pocket” - the outside

“i still sing the songs that we made up as we went/but it’s a little hard to sing the solo and not duet” - i wanted to thank you

“i’m so glad that i could preserve your purpose” - i wanted to thank you

“and as you drive on by/i won’t say i got butterflies” - i like you

“the flashbacks blend too well with the fantasies” - won’t be today

“but nothing heals the past like time/unless that phrase was just another lie” - won’t be today

“i keep thinking that you should come home/but that’s just ‘cause i don’t wanna be alone/i keep wishing that you would come back/but that’s just ‘cause i wanna get my mind on track/and in the end i know everything will be okay/but that won’t be tomorrow/and it sure as hell won’t be today” - won’t be today

“you would think time would pass me by/a little while after we’d said goodbye” - sorry

“but you’re still here/burned into my mind” - sorry

"i hate that i feel like everyone hates the way i drift in and out of conversations" - sky harbor

"like i'm waiting for the ocean waves to/take me under, so i can drift away forevermore/and they can carry me from this old coastline/but that road isn't stable, and i don't know what i'd be heading towards" - sky harbor

"and i just took off from sky harbor/but my mind feels like it's drowning in the water" - sky harbor

"my mind takes off faster/than the planes in sky harbor" - sky harbor

"five long years of the drought/my mind was running out/of reasons to keep pushing through" - in better circumstances

"i still feel like a stranger in my own skin/but at least i can say i've got someone to face it with" - in better circumstances

"i know in better circumstances i'd love you the same" - in better circumstances

"the tables turn/you live and learn/you crash and burn/and your demons return" - time flies

"and i'm laying on my deathbed/and i can't close my eyes" - time flies

"the golden age of broken bones/and kingdoms and thrones/and journeys to the unknown" - time flies

"but then i moved on/and the nights got too long/i forgot my favorite songs/and where i belonged" - time flies

"love every last drop/of innocence on your face" - time flies

"you make me feel stranded in my own crowd" - single me out

"push all my buttons 'til my circuit's fried/and then push me aside" - single me out

"i'm holding my heart out in my hands/tryna figure out where we stand" - dangerous

"i don't know if i love or hate you/but there's no taking back the tears that i gave you" - dangerous

"who do we think we're fooling?/with you i feel so unhuman" - dangerous

"every little fight breaks me up/more than i would like, we're dangerous" - dangerous

"every path we walk is treacherous/i think we both know we're dangerous" - dangerous

"my mind's flooded with empty words/but clearly they mean something to you/blank love letters and unsent messages/that you'll never know true" - limitations

"when i was 15, nobody believed me/when i said 'nobody wins these days'/now we're all living proof that when you're broken and blue/everything you worked for fades further away" - limitations

"i write so much about moving on/but my past still circles in my head" - limitations

"and i know i could go so much father/if i didn't focus on all the expectations/but every time i try to work harder/i never seem to beat my limitations" - limitations

"have i always felt this alone/or do i just say that in all my songs?" - limitations

"then why's it hard to be myself?/look to the looking glass for help/realized i've done this before/god what was all that healing for?" - oh here we go

[genuinelydecimated]

Why am I awake while you’re asleep? (bkdk playlist)

Time: 1 hour and 1 minute.

Link: In the replies/ reblogged with link

This playlist is specific to the current manga hospital arc where Bakugou tries to get to Midoriya’s room with no regard for himself. (Honestly, I tried to reword that in a way it doesn’t come off incredibly bkdk but it just does.) This is intended to be listened through Bakugou’s perspective, however, music isn’t held by one thing, so let your mind go wild!

I would imagine that Bakugou is thinking a lot while he’s in hospital, waiting for good news on Midoriya and everyone else as he heals.

Song list, lyrics (the reason I chose them), and a little bit more notes below!

1. Talking to the Moon by Bruno Mars

“I’m feeling like I’m famous, the talk of the town. They say I’ve gone mad, yeah, I’ve gone mad. But they don’t know what I know.” “Do you ever hear me calling?”

2. Not Quite by Kane Strong

“Yeah, I got the whole place to myself. Not feeling fine.” “Oh, I know that I’m bad for your health. Not quite alright. I know this might be out of line, but I’m really not doing very well.”

3. Permanent by Paul Travis

“I can look at your hands and question who I am.” “Have I lost you? Have I lost me?”

4. I Can’t Handle Change by Roar

“I get tired and I get sick, and then I lose the strength to leave.” “I can’t help but repeat myself. I know it’s not your fault.”

5. Lay Me Down by Sam Smith

“Can I lay by your side, next to you? And make sure you’re alright.” “I’m reaching out to you, can you hear my call?”

6. Remember Who I Was by James Arthur

“See, you took this poor boy and changed his whole life. Granted his wishes and dreams overnight.” “I’m just waking up now, in the tears of the one’s I love. It’s quiet.”

7. Yellow by Coldplay

“Do you know, you know I love you so.” “For you, I’d bleed myself dry.”

8. State Lines by Novo Armor

“Are you sure, did you call, or did we ever really talk? I don’t know...” “I’ve been awake in every state line, dyin’ to make it last us a lifetime.”

9. Honey by Sad Cops

“You don’t deserve what you got. I’ve never met someone so sweet.” “Be here, with me. Be here, honey.”

10. If Only by James Arthur

“If only I could trust you rest your head and turn the light on. If only I could wish your kiss was not a falling star.” “You could see through someone like me. Tryna be free, maybe just a little less lonely.”

11. Iris by The Goo Goo Dolls

“And I don’t want the world to see me, ‘cause I don’t think that they’d understand.” “When everything feels like the movies. Yeah, you bleed just to know you’re alive.”

12. Sparks by Coldplay

“But I promise you this, I’ll always look out for you. Yeah. That’s what I’ll do.” “My heart is yours. It’s you that I hold on to.”

13. Lavender Blood by Fox Academy

“Lavender is always running through my blood. I’ve had enough, I’m cold, and it is dusk.” “Stay neat and healthy. You need to help me.”

14. Where Are You (Acoustic) by The Moderates

“I can’t sleep, not tonight. It seems like everything’s not going to be alright.” “Please come back, and stay with me. I’m begging you, I’m on my knees.”

15. The Reason by Hoobastank

“I’m not a perfect person. There’s many things I wish I didn’t do.” “And the reason is you.”

16. Safe and Sound by Christian Leave

“So hold my hand, and love me true.” “So just stay right here, safe and sound.”

In the 9th song, Honey by Sad Cops, there is mentions of dad issues? And that kinda stands out to me in terms of relations to Deku and his father figures (Hisashi and All Might), and how Bakugou knows how both of them have impacted Izuku’s life (even if we as the audience do not) and my mind has been blown. Didn’t even make the whole connection ‘til now lol.

There isn’t really an order to this playlist. I tried to do a thing where it doesn’t seem to be the same type of voice as you go through, but I don’t think that’ll be a big change whether you shuffle or go down the list.

Yeah, this is how I’m coping.

I hope you enjoy the playlist!! I tried really hard to get this finished and done before Izuku wakes up and Katsuki finds out he’s awake. Oh, and! Depending on how their meeting/chat will go after that terrible last sight of each other, I might make another one. Yes, I am in a bkdk brainrot.