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Witch Hazel- Pt.6
Pairing: Jungkook x Reader
Genre: FanficWriter!Jungkook, Idol!Reader, College!AU, Angst, Fluff
Summary: There are two students in your art class with a secret: you and the quiet Jeon Jungkook. You’re a problematic idol singer, infamous for your ice cold reputation and perpetual resting bitch face; he’s the artist and author behind the viral comic series based on a certain ice queen idol. After a blowup of destructive rumors, lost motivation and inevitable solitude, you stumble upon Jungkook’s comic and find a new and unexpected light.
Word Count: 3.5k
Warnings: none
Parts: 1 // 2 // 3 // 4 // 5 // 6 // ?
A/N: i’ve had mixed feelings about the tumblr fic community as of late :/ but heres something to read🥺
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Holding the boy’s pinky in your own, you stare once more at his drawing of you with your guitar and flower crown—a superhero to those whom you shared your music with.
No. Your music hasn’t saved anyone. You’ve never been a hero to anyone. If anything, you’re the one who needs to be saved. You’d always thought you could grow strong enough to save yourself if you just closed yourself off from the world and did everything on your own. But in the end, that only seemed to hurt you more.
You should’ve known. It’s okay to ask for help, to reach out, to let him in.
“A few years ago, I had a thought. It wasn’t a very smart thought, but I decided I wanted to share part of myself with the world. I thought about the different ways I could go about that, but the way that made the most sense for me was music,” you say, finally letting go of Jungkook’s pinky and making yourself awfully comfortable on a bed that doesn’t belong to you. “So I auditioned for Polar Entertainment. Not to be an idol, but to be a songwriter.”
Jungkook doesn’t say anything, but he nods as if it’s not a shock to him, as if he saw it as “a Y/N thing to do.” At the same time, his gentle eyes wait for you to continue, curious to know what’ll happen next.
“Do you remember the song you heard me singing the other day in the music room?”
Jungkook cracks a smirk and starts singing your song word for word in a surprisingly in-tune whisper. Oh, he remembers it alright, and he’ll apparently never let you live it down. He doesn’t stop until you throw one of the balled-up blankets at his face.
“That was the first time I picked up my guitar and sang that song since being rejected at the audition.”
“I can imagine how scarring that would be. Rejection,” he shudders at the word, though you’re sure he knows little about the feeling with art skills as professional as his. “They really didn’t like you though?”
“They liked certain parts of me.” Your vocals, your beauty, your body. “But not the ones that mattered.” Your music, your creativity, your personality. You.
“That’s their loss,” Jungkook says in the midst of a yawn, practically inaudible. But you heard him.
“Maybe they had a point,” you say, looking up at the ceiling. “Because when I look back to that time, it was quite foolish of me to believe my music would reach anyone when it came from a place of desperation, not my heart. The song was a plea for help, not one that would save others.”
“What made you suddenly sing it again after all this time?”
You grab hold of the boy’s hand and form yet another pinky promise. “Promise you won’t laugh at me for my reason.”
“I can’t promise you that,” he says with the straightest face. He’s ready to burst out laughing again and you know it.
“Then I won’t tell you.” With a hmph, you bury yourself under the fluffiest blanket. You wonder how he would’ve reacted if you told him it was that dang jk.seagull and his fanfic that gave you the courage to sing again, to go back to your roots, to follow your love of creating music. It’d obviously sound ridiculous to admit it out loud, but the joy you feel from reading Witch Hazel is what reminds you of the very thing you want to provide others with—happiness.
And that’s perhaps all the encouragement you needed to start sharing your music again.
“I won’t tell you what it was exactly that made me do it, but I’ll tell you why,” you peek your head back out of the blankets to see the boy still waiting patiently for an answer. “I wanted to move on… from the failure I faced that day. That way, I can finally become that superhero you speak of.”
You place the drawing of your superhero self onto the nightstand so that it doesn’t get crinkled up on the bed. No, she’s not a superhero yet. But she will be someday.
“I’ll look forward to it.”
“You better not tell anyone,” you remind him. “This isn’t something I share with other people. Ever.”
“I won’t tell anyone,” he assures you, with not only his words but also his warmth.
“Good.” You smile whilst closing your eyes. You meant to tell him that he could confide in you too, but the warmth pulls you into a deep slumber before you could do so.
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It’s been a minute since you’ve awoken in someone else’s bed, though this is the first time you aren’t all wrapped up in their embrace. Rather, half the boy’s body is hanging off the side of the bed for dear life while you’re right smack in the middle, all bundled up in one of the blankets.
If you wanted to, you could push him over the edge with the tiniest tap of your foot—that’s how close he is to falling. But as tempting as it would be to get even with the boy who teases you to no end, you opt to quietly check your phone without disturbing him.
To your surprise, you have two new notifications: a text from Seokjin earlier this morning and a late-night update from jk.seagull posted sometime after you had passed out. You’ve always been the type to take care of work obligations before indulging in guilty pleasures, so you open Seokjin’s text first.
6:04AM jinnie “so jimin’s manager reached out to me”
6:05AM jinnie “and you want to collab with jimin?”
7:12AM Y/N “oh yeah i asked him to have his manager contact you”
7:13AM Y/N “but i guess i forgot to tell you LOL”
It’s not that you forgot. You were just hesitant to tell your manager about it yourself. Because if possible, you’d like to minimize your own company’s involvement in this top-secret scheme of yours.
7:15AM jinnie “are you up to something?”
7:15AM Y/N “mayhaps”
7:16AM Y/N “but dont tell boss lady pls”
7:17AM jinnie “shes going to find out one way or another”
7:19AM Y/N “thats true 🤔 ”
7:20AM Y/N “well tbh knowing her, she’d probably approve of the collab anyway since it should clear up those dating rumors while (hopefully) appealing to jimin’s fanbase”
7:21AM Y/N “just dont tell her the logistics of the collab”
7:21AM jinnie “what are you scheming lmao”
7:22AM Y/N “youll see”
7:22AM jinnie “ 😒 dont get me or yourself in trouble Y/N”
7:23AM Y/N “i wont! i promise! 🥺 ”
7:24AM jinnie “okay fine”
7:25AM jinnie “ill arrange a meeting with jimin and his manager to discuss everything formally”
As you move on to the more exciting notification on your phone, you see that the sleeping Jungkook has slipped several inches closer to falling flat on his face. Maybe you’ll save him from his impending doom. Maybe you won’t. But that’ll have to wait until after you see what jk.seagull had to say on his blog.
“do you ever think back to that one time in math camp when a little girl screamed in your face that she hated math and wanted to become a musician instead? apparently she somehow confused ‘musician’ with ‘mathematician’ LMAO”
You aren’t sure what provoked the silly seagull guy to share such a random thought, but you do get a good laugh out of it. After all, you can totally relate as someone who went to math camp one summer despite knowing in your heart what you truly wanted to do-
Wait.
“Jungkook,” you say in a half-hushed, half-urgent tone, though calling his name wouldn’t be what actually wakes him from his slumber. “I think I know who the seagull guy is.”
Thud. You swear on your life you didn’t lay a finger on the boy when he fell, despite all the devilish thoughts you had about it earlier. He fell on his own. You’re innocent. Therefore, you have a right to laugh.
“Are you okay?” you snicker, peering down from the bed at the dazed boy. He might have been the biggest klutz for rolling off the bed and stumbling around to find his glasses, but holy shit. His wild bedhead and scattered blankets across the floor make it seem as though the two of you had a lot more than just an innocent heart-to-heart in his bed last night.
“I’m fine,” he stretches his arms and combs the bedhead out. Yes, he is fine. “But, uhh, what’s this about that seagull guy?”
“I think I know him.” You expect Jungkook to be as excited as you are, but he just seems kind of puzzled—perhaps from his lack of sleep.
“…and how did you come to that conclusion…?” he asks. Or maybe he doesn’t believe you.
“You didn’t see the post! Look at the post.” You join the boy down on the floor and make yourself at home there with your phone and some of the fallen blankets. He leans over your shoulder to read the infamous post you won’t shut up about.
“Math camp?” Jungkook continues to squint at the cryptic message before chuckling. “Also, did that girl seriously confuse musician with mathematician?”
“Stop laughing! That dumbass was me.” Now you wish you had kicked his ass off the bed.
He stops laughing, not because you told him to but because he’s mildly shook. “What?”
You take a deep breath in because you know you’re setting yourself up to be clowned for the rest of your fucking life. “When I was like ten, I told my parents that I wanted to be a mathematician, thinking that word meant musician. So they signed me up for camp that summer.”
“Did you ever stop to think that mathematician has the word math in it and not mu-”
You interrupt the boy’s unwelcomed commentary with an air-punch to his guts before continuing on as if nothing happened. “I was so excited until I got there. It was absolutely mortifying to learn that it was a math camp, not a music camp.”
“I like this story,” he nods with his arms guarding himself in anticipation of another air-jab as you square up.
“Still, I tried to make the best out of the situation since I was actually kind of good at math,” you say. “The camp director even told me I’d make a great math professor one day.”
“I can’t imagine you as a math professor.” He settles down with all the chuckling.
“I couldn’t either, so I ran off to an empty room where I thought I could escape without anyone finding me,” you soften your tone. “But somehow a crying, wandering boy found me.”
“Was it the seagull?”
“Maybe. All I remember was hearing music playing from somewhere outside. I sang along as a way to comfort and distract myself from the whole math situation, but it seemed to cheer up the boy as well.”
“Your voice does have that effect, you know.”
“He told me the same thing.” You can’t help but smile a little at the compliment. “But in that moment, it felt like my dream had a purpose beyond fueling my own desires. And I needed to share it with someone. Anyone.”
“So you shared it with the boy?”
You nod. “I told him my dream was to be a mathematician, but he knew what I meant.”
“Did he at least clown you first?”
“He did. He laughed right in my face, and at first I thought he was a jerk for making fun of my dream. But after he kindly taught me the difference between musician and mathematician, I announced my actual dream to him and him alone.”
“And how’d he respond?”
“He said it was cool beans.”
“He said cool beans?”
“Those were his exact words, yes.”
“And that was it?”
“That’s all I can remember.”
“So you don’t even remember his name or anything?”
“We never introduced ourselves,” you shake your head. “I don’t remember his face either because it was covered by a hood and long hair.”
“That’s too bad,” Jungkook sighs. “I bet it really was that seagull guy after all.”
“I have a feeling it was him, too.”
It would be nice and awfully romantic if you had somehow crossed paths long ago with the very seagull who continues to inspire your craft with his own. But even if that isn’t the case, you’re content with having that memory and entrusting it with another boy who has done nothing but lift you up.
You lean yourself gently against the Jungkook’s shoulder as you slip your phone back into your pocket, debating on your next course of action. The two of you should be getting ready for class, but that doesn’t sound very appealing. There are other things you’d much rather be doing, like maybe thanking the boy for lending his ear. But for some reason, it’s still difficult for you to say those two simple words of gratitude.
Perhaps it’s difficult because there’s a lot more you’d say than just “thanks man.”
“Can we just cut class and get coffee instead?” Yes, you’ll thank him for his service by treating him to coffee. Unless…? What if this is just your subtle way of asking the boy out on a date? What if he says no because you’ve already spent way too much time with him in the past 24 hours? What if he hates coffee? What if he-
“We should probably go to class to turn in our project, yeah?” Jungkook brings up a good point. But the thing is, you don’t really have your priorities straight at the moment and your mind has only two things consuming it: coffee and boy. “But we can get coffee after class.”
“Ooh, good, because there’s this one coffee shop I want you to try!” You chirp up despite your nonexistent dose of morning caffeine. “It’ll be my treat as thanks for… letting me hog your bed.”
“Oh right... that,” Jungkook hops to his feet and starts tidying up said bed. You help by picking up and folding all of the blankets. “I nearly froze and fell to my death because of that, you know.”
“I saw,” you bite your lip, trying to mask any naughty thoughts that come to mind. Because next time, if there is in fact a next time, you won’t let the boy freeze.
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By the time art class ends, the weight of the dreaded group project has been lifted and your craving for coffee begins to settle in once more. And apparently, the hunger and excitement is radiating off you because someone has the audacity to make a comment about it.
“Why does your face look like that?” Taehyung teases, but you’re mildly offended.
“Because I’m getting coffee from my favorite café. That’s why,” you hiss but there’s still a hidden glow about you and your excitement. “Coffee is to me as girls are to you, Taehyung.”
“Ooh, speaking of girls, do any cute girls work there?” He strokes his wise man beard. “Maybe I’ll tag along.”
“I don’t fucking know.” And even if you did know, you wouldn’t say yes.
“How boring,” he yawns while nudging the boy next to him. “Hey Jungkook, wanna go on a double date with me? I met a pair of gamer girls, but I don’t know all the nerdy gaming stuff that you know. And think about it, this could be the first time you get laid since-”
“Actually, Jungkook’s getting coffee with me,” you interrupt. And if you had been brave enough to look up at the boy as you spoke, you would have seen the healthy pink radiance on his cheeks.
“Oh, so the two of you are dating all of a sudden?” Taehyung nods, as if he had hit the mark.
Neither you or Jungkook give an immediate answer, probably due to the unspoken yet very apparent shift in dynamics between the two of you as of late. Yes, you’ve developed certain feelings for the boy, but no, you aren’t technically “dating.” You just hope he’s on the same page as you.
“It’s just coffee,” you want to say, but it comes out of Jungkook’s mouth instead. And even though you would’ve said the same exact thing, it hits a little different hearing it from him.
At the same time, coffee is coffee and Jungkook is Jungkook. You need to remind yourself that your craving for coffee with the boy will be satisfied, regardless of whether it’s a date or not. After all, “dating” is not an option for an idol who should only be focusing on her music and fans.
“Which drink would you recommend?” Jungkook asks as you lead him in the direction of the café.
“If you like coffee, all of the drinks are good in my humble opinion,” you say, though you realize you should probably give the boy a few specific suggestions to make his decision a little easier. “You can get a standard mocha or latte if you want something simple. Or, their signature hazelnut coffee is really really good. Or if you want something iced, you should try the cold brew because it’s literally the most refreshing dose of caffeine ever. Oh! But if you’re into something more plant-based, I suggest the maple oat-”
“You’re not narrowing down my options if you recommend the entire menu, Y/N,” the boy chuckles at your coffee enthusiast behavior.
“Well, here’s my thought process: if we go at least once a week after class, you can eventually try every drink on the menu by the end of the school year. Not including all the different types of milk options though.”
“I don’t know if I should be impressed or terrified that you even bothered to do that calculation.” His eyes are bigger and brighter than the sun. “But that must mean you really like coffee then, huh?”
“Of course! Is that even a question?” The snobby coffee enthusiast jumped out real quick. But even beyond the coffee, you did the calculation to see how long your little coffee not-dates with the boy could last before you have to return to your idol obligations. “You like coffee too, right?”
“Not really,” he sighs. Your jaw drops. Who the does he think he is? “Are there any tea options? Or like a banana milk or something?”
“You can’t just walk into a coffee shop and not order coffee.” Is this guy for real? No, he’s just fucking with you. Probably. “I better start reevaluating who I hang out with,” you say with a sarcastic hmph.
“I’m kidding, kind of.” He doesn’t do a very good job of reassuring you of that. “I like… coffee.”
“That hesitant pause doesn’t sit well with me, Jeon.” You raise an eyebrow at the suspicious boy. It feels nice to tease him for once. “Why are you grabbing coffee with me if you don’t love it?”
“I just curious about this coffee place,” he nudges you, “since someone seems to really enjoy it.”
So it’s because of you…
“Good to know I’ve successfully peer pressured you into consuming caffeine,” you hum, playing it off as if his words weren’t absorbed right into your heart. It was never about coffee.
It’s about you and him.
The thought of that makes your heart scream a little, so you hide your flustered face behind your phone as the two of you approach the coffee shop. You have an unread text from your manager.
2:35PM jinnie “good news”
2:36PM jinnie “i set up a meeting with jimin and his manager in an hour”
You stop in your tracks. That’s not good news. Well actually, it is good for your top secret collab. But the timing of it all is anything but good.
“Are you searching up the menu online? Oh wait, you already have the entire menu memorized from A to Z.” He thinks he’s funny. Now is not the time, Jeon. His teasing smile doesn’t disappear until the distress is written all over your face.
How do you cancel a not-a-date date without a proper explanation? How can you do that to a boy who has only ever done you right? The thing is, you don’t have to hurt him.
You can cancel the meeting, you can bail out on the collab, you can disappear from the idol world altogether if you choose to do so. And if you didn’t want to go that far, you could instead tell the boy of your deepest and darkest secret, of your idol identity, and he would surely understand your reasons for having to leave so suddenly for work.
You could do any of those things, but you decide not to. You won’t allow yourself to make such a rash decision, even if it’s the right one. So you decide to keep the meeting, you decide to keep your idol self hidden in the shadows, and you decide to abandon the boy.
#bts scenarios#bts fanfic#bts imagines#jungkook fanfic#btsboulangerie#jungkook x reader#bts fluff#bts angst#jungkook#bts#bangtan#witch hazel
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you hurt the ones you love (i don't believe that)
for @obviesbellarke based on this photo ;)
Raven has always prided herself on her work ethic. She didn’t come from much, her parents did not plan on having a child which about described her relationship with them, and she worked part-time jobs ever since the goverment allowed her to. (Since they put her in the system and the system failed her, she felt like she could pretty much do whatever she wanted to the system. So sometimes she repaid the cards they dealt her by doing some not so legal hacking into college databases to slightly change rich frat boy GPA’s and make some extra cash.)
It paid off, because now Raven works for NASA and she didn’t even apply for the job. They asked her to come work for them. Who can say NASA asked them to come work for them? Raven Reyes can. Why? Because she is a certified genius who worked her way through high school, and college, and a master degree, and still managed to look halfway attractive, get in thirty minutes of exercise a day and keep a semi-active social life throughout it all.
She loved her job. She did, but—but it also meant long days, a lot of overtime, even more time spend on business trips and conference calls. If it wasn’t for her boyfriend Zeke working in the same building as her, she’s pretty sure she would never see him either since she barely ever goes home. She just happened to luck out and get the most amazing, understanding and supportive friends in the universe.
Besides, after spending half her life ‘being friends’ with Finn—who fucked her over and ghosted her after mere nine days apart at different colleges—Raven has come to learn what real friendship is. Emori tags her in a meme at least every other day, Harper brings over fresh vegetables from her and Monty’s garden whenever she looks extra pale and Clarke dutifully keeps her up to date on all her favorite shows she has zero time to watch. They’re as real as it gets.
Hence, when things start to cross over from a strong work ethic to borderline workaholic slash inevitable burn-out and her boss Sinclair forces her to take two weeks off, she is disappointed when the first three people she asks to hang out on her first free Saturday night that year already have plans. They barely hear from her in months beside a quick ‘what’s up’ in their group chat before she falls asleep on her couch every Saint Glinglin and they have the audacity to not keep their nights free in case she might ask them to hang out sometime? Assholes.
Since Emori and Murphy are out of town (probably robbing a house or something, she still doesn’t know what they do in their free time), and Harper and Monty have dinner with her parents, Clarke is up next. Raven texts her asking what she is doing that weekend, opening up a bottle of wine before padding over to her living room without a glass. She deserves the entire thing. Raven starts up Netflix on her smart TV while she waits for her friend to reply.
Twenty minutes deep into an episode of Homeland, her phone buzzes annoyingly on the armrest.
CLARKE [8:51 PM]:
who’s number is this?
RAVEN [8:54 PM]:
very funny griffin. drinks on saturday?
It takes a surprisingly long time for Clarke to answer her text, even though she isn’t a notorious bad back-texter unlike her boyfriend. One time like two years back, Raven asked Bellamy if he wanted to chip in on Murphy’s birthday present and he still hasn’t replied to this day. She’s pretty sure he isn’t even aware of the fact iMessage exists.
Raven has almost single-handedly finished off a bag of Cheetos before her phone buzzes again. She unlocks her phone to find a photo of a pregnancy test staring back at her, balanced precariously on what she assumes is Clarke’s knee, like the night terrors she used to have in middle school, terrified to end up like the other girls in her neighbourhood, sure a boy even looking at her could knock her up.
RAVEN [9:08 PM]:
so no drinks then???
The reply comes faster this time, Raven sure that Clarke was just jumping for her to something. Anything.
CLARKE [09:09 PM]:
i just found out and my first instinct was to grab a bottle of beer, i’m fucked
She’s not sure what Clarke wants from her here—that one always had more up her sleeve than expected—a congrats or a condolences, so she settles on the safe middle of comic relief.
RAVEN [9:10 PM]:
who’s the father?
CLARKE [09:10 PM]:
seriously?
RAVEN [9:11 PM]:
what? thought you two went to that swingers club the other month
CLARKE [09:14 PM]:
that was a teacher’s conference. he begged me to come
RAVEN [9:15 PM]:
i thought YOU begged HIM to come and now we’re in this whole mess?
A reply doesn’t come for two minutes, and then three, and when the clock ticks closer to five minutes, Raven decides to dial her number. It switches over to Facetime, but the screen is black, static commotion of the phone being moved around the only sound between their two devices for a good ten seconds. Finally, she asks, “Clarke?”
“I didn’t plan for this, Rave,” is the first thing out of her mouth, and Raven has to bite back a smile. Clarke is such a in-the-closet neurotic mess and she missed it. The screen turns very bright, then finally she can make out her friend. From the looks of it, she is on the floor in her bathroom, mascara smudged lightly under her eyes, wavy hair a mess on top of her head. “I haven’t even finished school yet. My NCLEX exam isn’t until next month—“
“Sound like perfect timing to me,” Raven snorts, keeping her tone very bored. Is this all she has? Are these her best arguments? She’s off her game. “You’ll ace the exam, get a few months of nursing experience at the hospital and then you can go on maternity leave. Your mom owns the surgical ward, I’m pretty sure she can make it happen.”
She watches Clarke draw her knees up to her chest, resting her forehead on top of them for a moment before looking back up at her phone. She does look wrecked. Raven hesistates for a second, then inquires, “Have you told him?”
“No,” Clarke replies, and then she is quiet for another second. She sounds softer this time, “What if he doesn’t want this?”
Raven almost cackles out loud. That loser would do anything for her, even if he didn’t want a baby with her—which seemed very unlikely—he would probably go to his grave swearing it was all he ever wanted. Besides, Bellamy has a few years on Clarke, is a well-known mother hen and is practically smitten with his sister’s toddler. (The only pictures he ever posts on social media are either of Clarke, his sister, that bratty little Octavia look-alike, or the three of them together—which was probably Nirvana by his definition.) He was more than ready, Raven’s sure that his old man primal hormones are just off the charts.
“Fat chance,” Raven settles on, instead of manic laughter because she’s a good friend, eyebrows practically disappearing into her hairline. “You’re talking about Bellamy Blake? The same Bellamy Blake who, when you introduced him to me and I told him I would kick his ass if he ever hurt you, said he couldn’t wait to have your babies someday?”
Clarke scrunches up her nose in disbelief, and Raven wonders if she needs to get her sight checked. Does she not see how that buffoon looks at her? “He said that?”
“Yep,” Raven drags out, seemingly unimpressed.
“He was drunk,” she argues, brushing her off as she runs a hand through her tangled blonde hair.
“That makes it more true, Clarke, not less,” Raven replies without skipping a beat, can’t help but sound a little tiny bit judgemental just because of who she is as a person. There’s more silence, Clarke chewing on her thumbnail as she stares off in the distance and Raven sighs, softening her voice. “No offense, but why are you complaining to me about this, babe? It isn’t like you to be this insecure.”
Was this not the Clarke Griffin who marched up to their arrogant orange-President-affliated professor and told him he might be an art teacher, but she was an artist? It was a popular meme around their college for weeks, black sunglasses and a animated blunt photoshopped onto her yearbook picture and plastered around the halls. The same Clarke Griffin who punched through a glass window because racist campus police let her go and took Monty into a interrogation room alone after catching the both of them with some weed brownies and still has the scar to prove it? Was she not the Clarke Griffin who got everyone to sign a petition to get Kyle Wick kicked out of school when he tweeted out a sexually suggestive picture of Raven?
“Because you know he’ll be excited,” she presses, aggrevated, blue eyes dark as she stares at her camera as if she can stare straight into Raven’s soul. “And I can’t break his heart and tell him that—”
“That what?” Raven cocks an eyebrow, figuring it’s time for some though love now. “You dont want a baby?”
“No—“ She tries to get it, but Raven doesn’t relent, keeps pressing, “That you don’t want his baby?”
“No!” Clarke blurts out harshly, cutting her off as her eyes brim with tears. “That I didn’t plan for this!” She swallows tightly, and Raven just watches her, chest heaving up and down erraticly, blue eyes darting from left to right as she tries to get her thoughts together. “You know what happened when I started medical school, why I had to drop out,” her voice finally breaks, lip trembling. “This time, I was going to better. I was going to do it right.”
“You had a nervous breakdown, Clarke,” Raven snaps, tired of the sugarcoating. She was so hard on herself, and Raven still feels the slighest pang of guilt at that because she used to encourage that quality in her, held her to even higher standards. Maybe at first because she was jealous of her, of the golden girl who got everything handed to her. When she realized that wasn’t true, it was more because Raven knew she could be brilliant. Then after everything went down, she realized Clarke had already been brilliant all along. “You were making eighteen hour days, Lexa broke your heart and then your dad died in your arms. I think not having a breakdown over that would’ve qualified you as a sociopath.”
Clarke quickly wipes at the wetness trailing down her cheek, like she is trying to keep Raven from seeing, hugging her knees closer to her chest. Quietly, she sniffs, wondering, “What if it happens again?”
“It won’t. Because you’ve learned you can’t plan everything because life comes at you fast,” Raven says, authoratively, like she’s reading it from the pamphlet her therapist got them back then. “—and to communicate about how you’re feeling, what you’re thinking. Eat enough vegetables and sleep enough hours.”
Clarke takes a deep breath, wiping at her nose with the back of her hand as she lets herself nod. Raven can’t help but press, “Isn’t that what you and Bellamy use as foreplay? A good old fashioned emotional conversation?”
Clarke scoffs. “No, like talking shop doesn’t get you and Shaw going.”
Raven lifts a shoulder, indifferent. She’s not going to sit here and pretend like him being able to name every component of a Harvey Davidson motorcycle in alphabetical order doesn’t get her all hot and bothered.
Clarke wipes her palms on her jeans-clad thighs, chewing on the inside of her cheek. “What if I’m not any good at this?”
“Then the child will have the most awesome aunt to fall back on,” Raven smirks, and luckily, Clarke finally cracks a smile too. “You’re Clarke fucking Griffin. If this is something that you want—“ She drags out the last word, pausing to get her confirmation (she’s pretty sure it’s something she does want, deep down, but it doesn’t hurt to check before she rolls out the whole peptalk), and reluctantly, her friend nods, corners of her lips turned up almost shyly. “If it’s something that you want, you’ll succeed at it. You care about everyone, Clarke, to a fault.”
Raven finds herself smirking again, pretending to be half-distracted with re-tightening her brace. “And I know it’ll be hard to care about that baby knowing it’s Bellamy’s—“
“Shut up,” Clarke deadpans, and her eyes look brighter, clearer. Tentatively, her hand comes to rest on top of her lower belly, fingers flexing on top of her shirt for just a second. Raven can’t help but smile, happy for her friends. It’s what they deserve.
“You should really call him,” Raven pushes, pursing her lips satisfactory, “He’s going to be so salty you told me before him.”
“Probably,” Clarke snorts, just the slightest bit of nervousness flashing across her eyes before they soften as she says, “But, thanks, Rave. I’m glad to see NASA lets you out on probation every six months.”
“It’s NASA though,” she responds—a little boastful, because it’s NASA, she gets to be boastful—then stretches out her free arm. “Also, mocktails Saturday?”
Clarke beams. “Deal.”
(The next time Raven gets a text from Clarke, it’s a photo of a ring on her finger.)
#bellarke fic#my fic#bellamy x clarke#drabble#bellarke drabble#bellarke fic rec#bellarke#the 100#the 100 fic#the 100 drabble#raven reyes#clarke griffin#sorry for any mistakes i did not proofread#kisha bullied me into writing this#she held me at gunpoint and told me i had to deliver bellarke babies within three hours#should i make the youre gonna have to make it a killshot joke or is that assumed?#different POV#fluff#angst#real life#family fic#established relationship#princess mechanic#brotp
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ooc: elia and ashka chat logs
[ooc comments supposed to be removed but i might have missed some. there is a Lot of logs bc we forgot to post until now]
shadowed-moonrise
oh my god what is WRONG WITH SOME PEOPLE
shadowed-moonrise
i got some horrifying anons!!! theyre so horrifying!!!!!!!
flameofcertainty
hang on let me turn off my blacklist for a moment
uh
uh
quick question: what the fuck
(not directed at you!)
shadowed-moonrise
i just
like
wow????
they sent me a followup ask like 'didnt you read what i said, my gf likes it'
shadowed-moonrise
and............... i dont....... think she does
like that does not sound like a healthy relationship and i hope they just made it up to creep on me
flameofcertainty
"hi i'm a rapist"
"wtf"
"no but she likes when i rape her"
i just
*what the fuck*
shadowed-moonrise
right
WHAT THE FUCK.
shadowed-moonrise
i was just talking earlier abt how i dont actually like that anybody can read my hyper posts but i make them on publicblog for like Awareness right?
shadowed-moonrise
and i thought i meant like abstractly, like maybe theres somebody reading them and cackling bc they dont agree w/ my politics or whatever?
but APPARENLTY
APPARENTLY
people will send me creepy asks about raping their hyper gf
flameofcertainty
some people are just really terrible?
i guess?
what are they even getting out of this?
shadowed-moonrise
i think some people just........ enjoy making other people suffer????
or maybe somehow they thought i would be like "i think this is hot or a good thing to do or whatever, thank you for your service to the hypersensitive community"
i dunno what goes on in these peoples head
shadowed-moonrise
heads
flameofcertainty
maybe tumblr just hates hypersensitives or something
it would explain a lot
shadowed-moonrise
like, okay, but what would you hate hypersensitives for
like theres somebody who hates hypos (and IS A NAT THERAPIST, AUGH) for.... not hating pollution enough, i guess
but hypersensitives are boring? we dont go outside much bc the outside is fully of scary?
flameofcertainty
maybe tumblr is just weird like that?
or maybe we're easy targets?
shadowed-moonrise
oh yeah that makes sense
flameofcertainty
most meso folks don't have a button they can press to get a reaction out of us
shadowed-moonrise
if you wanna make somebody suffer its so easy to target people with a big 'make me suffer' button
flameofcertainty
right
shadowed-moonrise
ugh im sort of regretting making it public
i could have just not mentioned it and had a really good blacklist
flameofcertainty
most of the time people aren't that bad
and then there'll be a week or two
where people send you nothing but asks about pollution
shadowed-moonrise
i blacklist some stuff but im generally okay talking about pollution if its like, abstract, so i dont do it that aggressively and then........ sometimes............. people take advantage of that
shadowed-moonrise
i wish you could like, have vulnerabilities without people just randomly deciding to fuck with you for no reason
flameofcertainty
yeah
flameofcertainty
hang on
i just scrolled down
>i’ll put my foreign object ;;;;) in your body ;;;;) ;;;;)
***what the fuck***
shadowed-moonrise
yeah.
oh GOD
i just got
another
flameofcertainty
oh no
how bad is it
shadowed-moonrise
bad enough im not sure i should tell you what it says
flameofcertainty
my brain is helpfully providing suggestions
why is it like this
are you okay
shadowed-moonrise
im.... probbly going to be in a minute
fuck
"the last "person" to hide their caste on this hellsite turned out to be red. i bet you aren't even hyper, you're just pretending so people won't suspect. i know what you really are."
thats what it says
flameofcertainty
aaaaaaaa
what the fuck
flameofcertainty
why would anyone send that to you
shadowed-moonrise
i dont know
i dont know
what did i *do*
flameofcertainty
i don't know
fuck
i guess if they think you're red that would explain why they hate you?
but seriously
what the fuck
flameofcertainty
i'm so sorry
flameofcertainty
why would anyone say that
shadowed-moonrise
anon hate doesnt usually get to me like this but
sob
why
the fuck
i dunno if they even really think that or they just want to upset me
flameofcertainty
i don''t
i don't know
fuck i'm so sorry
are you going to be okay
shadowed-moonrise
yeah. yeah.
flameofcertainty
is there anything i can do
shadowed-moonrise
i dont
think so
flameofcertainty
other than not be the sort of terrible person who would send those messages
shadowed-moonrise
thamk you for not being htat sort of person!
im so glad most people arent
flameofcertainty
it's really not hard
shadowed-moonrise
oh i can... go take some eytelia right now
it will only help in 40min but i might still need it then
shadowed-moonrise
brb
shadowed-moonrise
ok back
flameofcertainty
okay
anyways what the fuck
shadowed-moonrise
someday i will have coping mechanisms other than "get high in a way that coincidentally also helps"
flameofcertainty
i mean if it helps
then that's a lot better than nothing
shadowed-moonrise
yeah it is
shadowed-moonrise
im gonna go curl up and not look at the Fuckening Internet, i guess
flameofcertainty
seems reasonable
shadowed-moonrise
ttyl <3
flameofcertainty
ttyl :)
shadowed-moonrise
hiiiiiiiiiiii im back im not sad anymore because im so high
shadowed-moonrise
i got another horrible anon and i dont even caaaare
flameofcertainty
i'm glad you're feeling better
sorry about the terrible anon
shadowed-moonrise
also did you know art is pretty
its so pretty
flameofcertainty
yeah
shadowed-moonrise
i saw a video of a yellow playing the yellowest instrument ever and i wanted to send it to you but tumblr messages werent working on my everything
maybe i can find it again..........
shadowed-moonrise
http://theyre-a-geeky-witch.tumblr.com/post/138457594516/ here
flameofcertainty
that's actually really pretty
flameofcertainty
thanks
flameofcertainty
anyways what's up
shadowed-moonrise
i gotta work in a couple hours
by which time hopefully i will be able to handle it
idk i dont HATE it but its hard on the badbrains
flameofcertainty
i can imagine
shadowed-moonrise
like i feel ok now bc hiiiiiigh but im not very excited about leaving the house and going places
shadowed-moonrise
there will be a green party where im supposed to just pretend to be green tho!
i like those
flameofcertainty
that part sounds nice
at least
shadowed-moonrise
ive been thinking & writing a lot about how thinking-on-drugs works and greens always wanna talk about that
shadowed-moonrise
one time a client had me go to a thing pretending to just be green and it was nice and then she *told everyone she hired me* while i was in the middle of talking about my cs paper (my actual cs paper, which i actually wrote, and she implied i didnt even though i CLEARLY THOROUGHLY UNDERSTOOD IT)
flameofcertainty
???
why would she do that??
shadowed-moonrise
i wish i had just walked away but i didnt know what to do
some people....... have a humiliation kink
shadowed-moonrise
and like, okay, ill do that if you WARN ME, but you cant just spring it on me???
flameofcertainty
i am super not a sex worker but "tell people in advance" seems really obvious
shadowed-moonrise
YEAH
shadowed-moonrise
i didnt really say anything at the time bc i was so shocked but later i like messaged her and was like 'thats super fucked up'
shadowed-moonrise
she didnt really get it but she agreed to pay me extra for like, i didnt know what service i was providing beforehand & thats more costly
but she only engaged with it in like, super businessy terms
flameofcertainty
how does she not get it
this does not seem particularly hard to understand
shadowed-moonrise
i think she was like 'im paying you for both sex work and going to a party so i can just like do whatever, right?'
and there was also some like 'greys are toys'
shadowed-moonrise
fucking blues
shadowed-moonrise
i do not usually go in that much for caste solidarity because im so bad at grey + greys are not great about that but in that moment if somebody asked me i would have supported a military government
i could explain 'pay people for services and also lay out terms beforehand' but not 'greys are.... people..... dont be a fucking asshole'
flameofcertainty
i don't think i've ever actually talked to a blue
at least not to say more than "excuse me, can i get through" or "the soap is in aisle five"
huh
shadowed-moonrise
there... exist blues who are okay
there even exist blues who are okay and hire sex workers and do kinky things about castes with them
flameofcertainty
i believe you
shadowed-moonrise
like 80% of the people who hire me are entirely fine?
flameofcertainty
they can't possibly all be terrible
otoh a terrible blue can screw you over a lot more than a terrible purple
shadowed-moonrise
yeah.
im not sure what i would do if a blue client did something illegal to me because...................................... im not sure what i CAN do
flameofcertainty
probably depends on how illegal
shadowed-moonrise
yeah
and who they are
flameofcertainty
yeah
there are supposed to be reporting systems in place if they try to pay you to kill someone or something
idk if they actually do that
shadowed-moonrise
nobody has tried that and i havent heard anybody talking about that but im pretty niche and a lot of my family is green, idk
i feel like if somebody wanted to pay a grey to kill somebody theyd pick one who has ever held a gun
flameofcertainty
probably
but yeah, i'm guessing if you made an important blue mad they could screw you over pretty badly
idk
shadowed-moonrise
nodnod
ugh sorry ive been talking about my shit this whole time
it has been kind of A Day i swear i am usually better at conversation
flameofcertainty
it's totally fine!
shadowed-moonrise
how is your day anyay
flameofcertainty
it's been okay
mira and i went to check out that social-dancing place
shadowed-moonrise
oooh
what kind of dance is it?
i guess i might not know purple dances??
flameofcertainty
i don't know if the name will translate
it's mostly the kind you do in a group with other people that's really traditional
shadowed-moonrise
group dances are great
if you have... similar amounts of motor skills to the other people
flameofcertainty
yeah
flameofcertainty
i haven't done anything like it in years and i'm really bad at it but it's still fun
and i'm not bad at it in a stepping-on-feet way
which is probably good, idk
shadowed-moonrise
im pretty sure not stepping on feet is strictly better than the alternative!
flameofcertainty
yeah
shadowed-moonrise
omg babybro is home <33
flameofcertainty
baby!!!
shadowed-moonrise
he is so good!!!!!!
he taaalks and he plays with me and ive been teaching him abstract concepts bc i find it really exciting when he knows abstract concepts
flameofcertainty
tell me more about this baby
shadowed-moonrise
he can do numbers up to twelve and circles and triangles and 'many' and 'other' and i asked him what one plus one was and he said 'two ones' which means he *actually understands what it means*
he has adooorable curly hair
and a little nose
and he will boop my nose with his nose if i ask him to
and he loves my weighted blanket
flameofcertainty
baaabbyyyy
what a good baby
shadowed-moonrise
i guess at this point he might not 'technically' be a baby anymore? but hes a baaaabbbyyy
[lemme edit a picture of my irl little brother to have green hair]
https://78.media.tumblr.com/fa8d578702cf6c0ed9269902f535982a/tumblr_messaging_p7ryailotL1vio47i_1280.png
https://78.media.tumblr.com/b8ec991036777a0f24c9ed84a194d921/tumblr_messaging_p7ryanbD931vio47i_250.png
baby!!!! <333
second picture featuring Grey Grandma
flameofcertainty
baby!!!!
baaaabbbbyyyyy
he's so smol
shadowed-moonrise
so small!!!!!
and smiley!!!!
flameofcertainty
happy baby!
shadowed-moonrise
i hope he is happy foreeeeever
shadowed-moonrise
his lil nose is tan bc it gets in the sun more than the rest of his face
bc he has a little baby face!!!!!!!!!!!
flameofcertainty
little baby face on the little happy baby!!!!
he's so good
shadowed-moonrise
hes next to me playing with my blanket
i looove him
flameofcertainty
what a good baby
shadowed-moonrise
i told him i was talking a friend and he says hi
although im not sure he really gets the idea of the internet yet
he seemed kinda confused
flameofcertainty
hi baby-sibling-of-ashka
flameofcertainty
he's such a cute baby
shadowed-moonrise
his name is avidik
we keep arguing about whether to use avi or idi as a nickname
flameofcertainty
hi avidik!!
shadowed-moonrise
oh no he spilled water on the carpet
its alright its a pretty waterproof carpet
he ran at me and jumped in my arms
so!!!! good!!!!!!!
flameofcertainty
eeee
flameofcertainty
baby
flameofcertainty
good baby
shadowed-moonrise
oh also have you seen this yellow violinist https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DGhPGH2YROA
seems like your kind of thing
flameofcertainty
wow that's pretty
shadowed-moonrise
oh i could take a picture of avi with my violin
he is not green, technically
although he also does not know how to play even a little bit
flameofcertainty
do you play violin too?
shadowed-moonrise
a little
shadowed-moonrise
im not like good at it
but it is fun
rn i am mostly actually learning to sign but i dont understand how notes correspond to mouth sounds so if i need to sightread i play songs on the violin first and then once ive heard them i can sing them
flameofcertainty
violin is great
shadowed-moonrise
it is!!!
i always felt like i should learn piano bc its easy but i like violin so much
one of my other brothers writes a lot of synth music
its really good
he plays it without telling us it's his to get unbiased answers and then he tells us and were like HOLY SHIT
flameofcertainty
gosh
flameofcertainty
that's really sweet
shadowed-moonrise
ok i’m not really online but I TAUGHT AVIDI A LETTER
HE KNOWS A LETTER
i’m so proud of him
shadowed-moonrise
hi hi
flameofcertainty
hi
a letter!
what a good smol!
flameofcertainty
which letter is it?
i guess it might not be a letter orvaran has
shadowed-moonrise
it's [forcetranslate]a[/forcetranslate]
or uh
[forceliteral]a[/forceliteral]
shadowed-moonrise
idk if that worked
flameofcertainty
yeah
we have that sound but it's written differently
shadowed-moonrise
nodnod
flameofcertainty
it's the last one in my name
[preservecharacter] a [/preservecharacter]
shadowed-moonrise
oh
i wonder if its always the same sound
i think it can make a couple sounds in anitami
flameofcertainty
just one in orvaran
flameofcertainty
maybe two
i'm not sure if they're technically separate sounds
and then there's accents and things
shadowed-moonrise
idk if i should try to teach him to read in valtaz
he speaks some but tbh there is just no situation where you even need to be able to read valtaz
flameofcertainty
maybe someday he'll want to swap to yvalta
for some reason
shadowed-moonrise
.............i really doubt it?
i guess if he wants to retire in the Old Country
flameofcertainty
i hear older people sometimes swap for the weather
flameofcertainty
or something
shadowed-moonrise
there are apps to machine translate physical signs and stuff but i guess theyd be annoying to use all the time
flameofcertainty
yeah
if he knows valtaz he can learn to read it if he ever wants to
right?
i'm not really sure how this works
'how to teach your family foreign languages' wasn't really covered in purple school
shadowed-moonrise
i think i should probably teach him the alphabet but not like focus on it
yeah my parents swapped out of yvalta with some retirees who wanted to go there for the weather and were unaffected by the horrible contract system bc they were too old to have more kids anyway
flameofcertainty
i can't really think why else you'd want to live there
flameofcertainty
lineality maybe
but there are other matrilineal countries
shadowed-moonrise
arent most countries matrilineal?
flameofcertainty
yeah
shadowed-moonrise
i think historically matrilineal was easier because like..... there can be ambiguity about who the father is if you dont have good genetic testing (and a database, in some cases), but you can always tell which person a baby literally just came out of
flameofcertainty
that makes sense for why
we're matrilineal
maybe someone who lived in ceredan would swap to yvalta for lineality, ceredan does permissions anyways
except for blues i think
shadowed-moonrise
how do blues even have kids in permissions countries
shadowed-moonrise
"ashka your family is from a permissions country" its not like they talked to blues a bunch
flameofcertainty
i think they have to impress other blues
probably they don't let you give yourself a permission
because then everyone would just do that
shadowed-moonrise
.....how many kids does the most important blue get to have tho
flameofcertainty
no idea
i think it varies by country
the one with the bears and no greys makes a big deal about the monarch only getting two
shadowed-moonrise
i guess with blues its always more "how many kids is it a good idea to have so that they can give them all a good inheritance" than "how many kids can they literally afford"
aww thats kinda cute
shadowed-moonrise
if i lived in a country where the king had like six kids i would be pretty pissed
flameofcertainty
good inheritances might be less important in permissions countries
i bet the way you impress people is with politics
or maybe real estate if you're bribing people, idk
shadowed-moonrise
yeah
it’s impressive that most permissions countries basically function okay
cuz like it seems like blues having to care so much about impressing other blues would mess with things
flameofcertainty
yeah
i don't think they function as well as most places
but that could just be propaganda
shadowed-moonrise
yeahhh idk how to tell the difference between “permissions countries kind of suck” and “permissions countries are usually small, often ex-oahk, etc, which makes stuff harder on them” and “our governments just don’t like them”
i’m low key impressed that blues in auction countries don’t make too many blue credits so they’ll be cheaper, tbh
i guess they super don’t make those decisions in spring + the international community would not be too happy about it
flameofcertainty
everyone i know from a permissions country says they suck but that's like two people
and if you increase blue credits everyone who isn't blue gets mad
shadowed-moonrise
my parents say yvalta sucks and i believe them but like idk how much it’s yvalta’s *fault*
flameofcertainty
i think the big thing is if for some reason a blue hates you a permissions granting blue can screw you over way more than a credit country blue
shadowed-moonrise
yeah that’s a big deal
idk a credit country blue can probably get you sterilized if they try really hard but it would take them more trying
flameofcertainty
yeah maybe
flameofcertainty
i've never heard of that happening in a credit country but that doesn't mean it never does
shadowed-moonrise
nodnod
shadowed-moonrise
anitam is trying out a first child subsidy
which is neat i thin
think
flameofcertainty
cool
are they subsidizing the whole credit?
or just some of it
shadowed-moonrise
noooo theyre starting with like 4%
shadowed-moonrise
and increasing gradually
bc you know how changing laws goes
sooooo sloooowwwww
flameofcertainty
i guess 4% is better than nothing
shadowed-moonrise
but eventually it will be a substantial fraction of the credit i think
flameofcertainty
but probably good not to do it all at once
i know there's some countries where everyone gets one and the rest are auctioned
shadowed-moonrise
first kid free just seems so much more humane? like i understand why credits are useful and stuff but people *just not getting a kid at all ever* is awful
flameofcertainty
summary bank says alavet, av valdin, celenta, fnr, ochero, qoloc
maybe some random tiny countries that no one bothered to include
shadowed-moonrise
nodnod
flameofcertainty
on the list, i mean
and yeah, i see what you mean
i wouldn't want to live in a voan country because i like knowing that if i work really hard i could get three
but it makes me sad to think about people with zero
shadowed-moonrise
yeah
flameofcertainty
i mean probably some people should get zero, like child abusers, but an auction's not going to stop them
shadowed-moonrise
hm i bet in voan/first kid free systems there’s probably a lot of four and five year olds impulsively having kids that they’re not entirely ready for but idk like maybe that’s just something they get to do
flameofcertainty
okay i'm looking at the summary bank article about the voan system
and the age when the most people have their first kid is five
flameofcertainty
but that's not most of the people
if that makes sense
shadowed-moonrise
nodnod
flameofcertainty
i know when i was almost-four they made a big deal in school about how we should all get long-term all-spring birth control
i bet they do that in voa
i guess i don't know for sure
shadowed-moonrise
yeah
shadowed-moonrise
i saw someone on tumblr talking about how they usually get the long term birth control and they get went on vacation to the southern hemisphere and just didn’t remember that they didn’t have the birth control and got pregnant
(they were asking if you can still get aftermarket credits in the *fall*)
:(
flameofcertainty
wow
that must suck
:(
shadowed-moonrise
yeah
i hope they managed to get an aftermarket credit
flameofcertainty
yeah
i bet they're cheaper in fall
since most people aren't getting pregnant
i definitely wouldn't want to have a kid with anyone i dated when i was four but maybe some people get really lucky there
shadowed-moonrise
yeah that’s a lot of what i’m thinking about like.... most people don’t know people who are definitely good coparents for them when they’re four
shadowed-moonrise
because it just takes time to figure that out
flameofcertainty
i'd've also been a really bad parent when i was four but some of that is me-things
shadowed-moonrise
yeah that toooo
i’m four and i’m super not ready to be a parent!!
shadowed-moonrise
i feel like i know how to be a good parent in THEORY but in practice i don’t like have the energy or emotional stability
avidi was born the spring i turned four, which was really good <3
flameofcertainty
that's so good
when i was four i was living with a friend rather than my parents
but if someone had dropped a baby on me i'd have been so unprepared
and my friend was living with their parents
flameofcertainty
so there were actual responsible people in the apartment
shadowed-moonrise
nodnodnod
shadowed-moonrise
fall/winter when i was three i was spending a lot of time with friends in other cities and stuff to get awaaay but then they there suddenly like “you know what, we’re having another baby this spring” so i came back
there are some upsides to the fact that my green mom has grey babies.......
flameofcertainty
i have a little sister
i've never actually met her
maybe someday i'll be able to make myself
shadowed-moonrise
oh wow i’m so sorry
flameofcertainty
it's not your fault
shadowed-moonrise
if you want to talk about it, or be distracted from it, or whatever-
flameofcertainty
if you want the story today's a good day for me to tell it
otoh it's definitely pollution-adjacent and i don't know if it's a good day for you
shadowed-moonrise
i think i can handle it, it is a good hypersensitivity day for me
flameofcertainty
so during the voan food crisis we couldn't afford clean food past the first couple months
you'd think living on a farm would help but it had been a bad year the previous year and none of our crops were coming up that season
shadowed-moonrise
oh. oh.
flameofcertainty
and i tried to force myself to eat the polluted food but i couldn't even make myself touch it
that's not the thing yet
so i was at risk of starving to death
and my mom got one of the neighbors to give her a super sketchy probably-illegal loan
flameofcertainty
because otherwise i might literally die
shadowed-moonrise
fuck
flameofcertainty
fast forward to 3423, the neighbor comes and asks for the money back
actually he'd been doing that for a while but she'd been able to put him off
we were super not going to be able to pay it back
and the loan was sketchy enough that she wasn't really sure what would happen if she didn't
just that it would probably be worse than normal
i
i told her i thought it would be okay
when she asked
flameofcertainty
if she
flameofcertainty
people remember fall 3422 as the introduction of the orvaran system
that was just lathande
spring 3423 was when they rolled it out everywhere
even small farming towns need someone to collect garbage, and the jobs paid really well
they had to, if they wanted to find enough people
i thought i'd be okay
shadowed-moonrise
oh
fuck.
flameofcertainty
yeah
flameofcertainty
i was really really wrong
so wrong
shadowed-moonrise
......yeah wow
flameofcertainty
that's why i wound up moving in with a friend, if i'd stayed there a week longer i'd
it wouldn't have been good
shadowed-moonrise
yeah
flameofcertainty
they didn't try to stop me
which is good
would've been silly for them to go to all that work just for me to end up dead anyways
shadowed-moonrise
hey you survived
flameofcertainty
i did
shadowed-moonrise
it was super worth it for them to do it becuase you survived
flameofcertainty
yeah
i know intellectually she's clean
but trying to be in the same room as dad or my older brother is about the same as lighting myself on fire, brain-wise
and if it's her it's worth
*worse
shadowed-moonrise
yeah
can you talk to them online or does that not work either
flameofcertainty
not really
flameofcertainty
they have my email address
they tell me things like 'you have a sister now'
she tried leaving the job once she had enough money to pay the guy back
flameofcertainty
to see if it would help, you know
flameofcertainty
it. uh. didn't.
shadowed-moonrise
yeah.
i was born in 23, which. is good. because if i found out i/my parents had eaten polluted food when i was a baby
shadowed-moonrise
colorjustice says that almost all unverifiable food was actually not polluted but
shadowed-moonrise
well maybe if i payed them enough i could go through the like fucking six month cleaning process? and maybe after that it would be okay?
but im not sure it would be enough
flameofcertainty
yeah
i know what you mean
if i'd been a year younger and they'd told me it was clean i'd've believed them
if i'd been a year older i'd probably just have killed myself
flameofcertainty
one of my friends from the treatment program
uh
didn't make it
shadowed-moonrise
i had a friend in school
who was hyper, worse than me
way worse
shadowed-moonrise
he was *going to school* but just barely, he had to take a bunch of meds with a bunch of side effects to get out of the house at all
shadowed-moonrise
and he was a year older than me
flameofcertainty
oh no
shadowed-moonrise
so their class learned about the food crisis? and he left school that day like normal and he took the train home and he got in the shower with his clothes on and took all his meds at once
flameofcertainty
oh no
shadowed-moonrise
they told me he killed himself but nobody would *tell me why* because like i was hyper too and they were worried about copycat stuff
i stayed in touch with his mom, she told me later
she FOUND him
flameofcertainty
i'm so so sorry
shadowed-moonrise
that
shadowed-moonrise
i cant imagine
finding your dead child
it was pretty hard on me but she was really never the same
flameofcertainty
yeah
wow
that's
i don't really have words
:(
:( :( :(
shadowed-moonrise
yeah
shadowed-moonrise
he was an only child
flameofcertainty
:(
:( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(
shadowed-moonrise
i think they were sort of saving for another credit but they ended up spending a lot of money on like, building a room for him where he would feel clean, and stuff
and afterwards, it's not like she was going to have another kid after what happened
flameofcertainty
right
shadowed-moonrise
they wanted to take me out of class for the segment on the food crisis for, you know, obvious reasons, but that was winter when i was three and i’d already found out from like being online and reading stuff so i guessed what it was? and they freaked the fuck out when i was like “are you just worried about me finding out about the voan food crisis”
flameofcertainty
were they hoping to just ... pretend it never happened? forever?
it's not like it's easy not to learn about, if you use the internet
shadowed-moonrise
i guess i was going to Find Out When I Was Older
or something
shadowed-moonrise
i mean i understand the thinking there, like the last time was horrible and i could really just have found out later
shadowed-moonrise
the last time being my friend
flameofcertainty
yeah
i see where they were coming from
flameofcertainty
my school kept me out of class for anything pollution-related but obviously they weren't going to stop me from finding out about the food crisis
shadowed-moonrise
......yeah
i am so sorry you had to live through that
flameofcertainty
thanks
flameofcertainty
my parents thought about having me do online school while it was happening
shadowed-moonrise
it was like really really irresponsible to just tell my friend and i’m like not sure what happened there
flameofcertainty
i don't know
flameofcertainty
mesosensitives can be really bad at guessing what's going to hurt us
shadowed-moonrise
part of it is just that grey schools aren’t that well equipped for..... dealing with....... disability, i guess?
flameofcertainty
i had a classmate who thought it would help me not starve if she vividly described what it was like to eat polluted food
shadowed-moonrise
..........what
flameofcertainty
yeah
shadowed-moonrise
i mean, i guess it’s good that they tried to help
but. WHAT
flameofcertainty
our teacher moved the seating chart so i wouldn't have to sit next to her
and gave me permission to not go to the cafeteria during lunch
but yeah, i am really not sure how she came to that conclusion
shadowed-moonrise
yeah wow
flameofcertainty
i guess if she thought i was going to starve to death unless she did something
shadowed-moonrise
sometimes i wish i could just live in a hyper colony
shadowed-moonrise
even though like i’m sort of a weird hyper? they might have called it sensitivity disorder nos if i didn’t take so many decontam showers for no reason
but it would still be BETTER
flameofcertainty
there would be a lot of nice things about that
on the other hand sometimes i hear about a hyper person thinking something is polluted and my brain decides 'oh, they must be right'
even though it was fine before
and i bet that would happen a lot more
shadowed-moonrise
oh no
shadowed-moonrise
if we all thought that the UNION of the things we thought were polluted were polluted.......
we would die very quickly, i guess
flameofcertainty
yeah
shadowed-moonrise
“oh this one guy (MADE UP) said water is polluted so uh goodbye cruel world i guess”
flameofcertainty
and even without that we'd need robots or something
to take care of garbage
shadowed-moonrise
yeah
i think robots are more of a political problem than a technological one, maybe we could get away with “look we’re a hyper colony we can’t even TALK TO THE OUTSIDE WORLD most days much less murder anybody”
flameofcertainty
i think it's like
flameofcertainty
if people spent a decade developing them then they'd have them
but they aren't mostly, because of the politics
shadowed-moonrise
right that makes sense
flameofcertainty
i'm fine with mesosensitives most days, but then *sometimes* it's like they decided to figure out how to be maximally terrible
shadowed-moonrise
honestly so many jobs should be automated not bc pollution but just bc they could be and those people could then do a more skilled job or live in the country and make art or whatever but we can’t build robots at all bc of the political thing
like assembly lines could go a lot more automated than they are and then we’d just be richer and fewer as a society
shadowed-moonrise
i feel very Solidarity with hypos but sometimes..... they too........ are the worst
maybe we could get nice hypos for our colony to take care of us
flameofcertainty
maybe
flameofcertainty
there are totally nice hypos but there are also hypos who do things like put untagged photos of pollution on the internet
shadowed-moonrise
yeah it really varies a lot
shadowed-moonrise
sometimes talking to hypos is calming bc mesos are like “but MY pollution instinct says this isn’t polluted” and that doesn’t help me at all but i have an amateur theologian hypo friend who can just talk me through the theological position and that helps a lot more
flameofcertainty
it's good that you have that
flameofcertainty
and we're not perfect either
there are hypersensitives who think orvaran system workers need to all be executed
or that if you don't do [insert absurdly specific thing here] you're not really hyper
flameofcertainty
like i can't handle being around mom but i don't want people to murder her
shadowed-moonrise
yeah
i definitely like
think that there’s an objective position on pollution
shadowed-moonrise
and it’s probably not exactly the theological one but it’s closer to that than to my paranoia
shadowed-moonrise
and honestly like... i *get* it but it just takes an insane amount of arrogance to be like, “of all the billions and billions of people with pollution instincts, mine is the objective truth and everybody else, including an entire scientific field, is wrong”
flameofcertainty
mm
flameofcertainty
oh i also saw this one person saying everyone alive during the food crisis needed to be executed
that one was "fun"
shadowed-moonrise
oh my fucking
fuck that person so much
also how are they planning to run society after they’ve killed everyone over four???????
flameofcertainty
i don't know???
shadowed-moonrise
also i feel a lot of people with proposals involving doing lots of murder........... fail to account for the fact that corpses are polluted
flameofcertainty
yeah
flameofcertainty
anyways
how's life been
shadowed-moonrise
a WONDERFUL PRETTY NICE blue hired me and i might maybe have a crush
flameofcertainty
eeeee congratulations!
shadowed-moonrise
i don’t know how to approach this tho
“hey baby...... i would have sex with you for free (on a good day)”
flameofcertainty
uh
if they've hired you a couple times you could ask? or something?
flameofcertainty
i am kind of bad at relationship advice
shadowed-moonrise
yes i think that i will actually do is like
wait a while and see if he contacts me
and then maybe ask him out or something
flameofcertainty
good luck!!
shadowed-moonrise
how’ve you been
shadowed-moonrise
also, i saw you post an out of stock green and purple scarf and i could try to make you something like it
i can’t do literally that but i’m thinking like getting some white silk and waxing designs on it and then dyeing it one color and then drawing on the designs in the other
this might be totally the wrong way to go about it but it sounds fun
flameofcertainty
gosh, that's really nice of you
flameofcertainty
if you ended up doing this i'd have a couple of sensitivity-related materials requests but i don't think any of them would actually make the project impossible
shadowed-moonrise
i think that kind of project would be fun rn, what are your materials requests?
flameofcertainty
the main one is not from [link to list of countries that have done cleaning and integrated ex-reds]
or eles decontaminatable
*else
but i think that might mess up the dyes?
shadowed-moonrise
ok i can do that
yeah i think it’s probably easier to just buy from not those countries than to try to... decontaminate..... dyes
shadowed-moonrise
like most commercial clothes are decontaminatable and........ have colors but they know what they’re doing and i do not
flameofcertainty
yeah
uh
now i want to do something nice for you, help
shadowed-moonrise
umm i really like [space shoenberg], you could record yourself playing one of his pieces? although idk how much you can do that on just violin
flameofcertainty
i'll try my best
maybe i can find an arrangement or something
shadowed-moonrise
that’s so nice of you
you don’t have to, i’ll like, enjoy the project anyway
i’m not sure how to make green and purple work well as a color combo, do you mind if there’s other colors?
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List all the things you’re currently working on in as much or little detail as you’d like, then tag some friends to see what they’re working on. This can be writing, art, vids, gifsets, whatever.
Thank you @velvetnoodle for tagging me ♡
Oh boi, where do i even start.
Okay the first 4 I’m actively working on, the rest are just ideas for now, to develop when i finish my god damned wips
party games
If you’ve followed me for a while, you probably already know this fic. Basically it’s an enemies with benfits au feat. too much alcohol, snowbaz usual oblivousness and also dev/niall. (only 3 chapters left) (goal: 20k, updates every other week (don’t take this seriously), my intention is to finish it around mid-february)
famous last words
snowbaz fake dating au feat. badass baz on the outside but goodass on the inside. simon works with ebb in a flower shop and is on the school play (grease) MUSIC is important. i have 3/10 chapters completed. (goal: 40k, updates every other week (again, don’t take this seriously), to be finished before april.)
when the stars come out
klance. siren/pirate au. ace!keith. 2/10 chapters out (goal: 10k, monthly updates)
in somniis tuis (in your dreams)
pynch. soulmate au in which you share your soulmates dreams. 1/5 chapters out (goal: 10k, monthly updates)
pynch first time
5 times adam and ronan almost went all the way and one time they almost didn’t. smut. (goal: 3k, oneshot, this year)
i want to punch you in the face (softly, with my mouth)
snowbaz valentines fic. normal au in which baz leaves simon alcohol-induced “romantic” postcards/post-it notes and simon thinks he’s getting death threats. the epitome of obliviousness (short oneshot for valentines day)
the crucible gave me you
snowbaz parents au. based on this post. next gen fic with at least 3 oc’s: simon and agatha’s daughter (lucy or ebb i still don’t know), baz’s adopted daughter (tasha), penny and micah’s daughter/son (idk the name yet, might be trans or nb). so basically lucy and tasha are roommates and fall in love and then later help their stupid dads get together bc they’re helpless on their own. (goal: 50k, 10 chapters, this year)
if you don’t mind (i’ll walk that line)
snowbaz best friends to lovers. might be based on this fic (goal: 25k, 6 chapters, this year)
your name
snowbaz au based on the anime movie “your name”. soulmates au in which you swap your body with your soulmate. they dont know each other, they live in different cities/countries (to decide where) (goal: 15k, 5 chapters, this year)
heartstrings
snowbaz au based on the kdrama “heartstrings”. basically a music school au where baz plays the violin and simon the electric guitar, angry arguments about classical vs. modern music to realize that both. both is good. and also making out (goal: 30k, who knows when)
pizza au
snowbaz. simon works in a pizzeria and baz orders pizza every week. simon always messes up his order (baz likes anchovies, simon makes it with pineapple). This is not crack i swear. (goal: 8k, ?? chapters, who knows when)
confessions at the end of the world (provisional title)
book i wanna write someday. my goal is to work on it on nanowrimo. around 5/6 main characters. two parallel plotlines involving a (human provoked) apocalypse. NATURE is important. if u want more details hmu
and, trust me, i still have more ideas (fml). also rip katie, who has to beta all this mess (i’m sorry)
i tag: @snowkatze, @cosyblack, @carryonsimoncarryon and @thecruciblegavemeyou
#arituzz wips#thanks for reading#listen i know these are unrealistic goals given my work schedule#but if i can do half of it i'll be happy#just watch me fail#writing
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⚔️ ‘ﾟ･ 𝐆𝐔𝐈𝐃𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒
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SHIPPING: I am open to ships on here, but I don’t ship Lae’zel with just anyone, she does not actively seek real romance, even if she would enjoy the occasional one-night stand. However should she ever sail ships with other muses- then those ships are separate and she is not cheating unless I’ve stated otherwise. I do not write polyamorous-shipping, like with multiple-writers being involved in the same thread, it has only given me bad experiences.
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RULES: I read other writer’s rules pages before I interact, but I tend not to send in passwords, though. It depends on my anxious feeling , you get me?
CALLOUTS: Same as for political posts and/or sjw related content. I don’t want it on my blog and will probably unfollow if I see it too much of sthat sort of drama on my dash. I don’t engage in callout drama for petty reasons such as a falling out or you just don’t like someone. Witch hunts are gross, keep it away.
CREDITS: RP icons/PSD by me, dash-icon by me, theme background by me ( image used: official bg3 art ).
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December 17th-December 23rd, 2018 CTP Archive
The archive for the Comic Tea Party week long chat that occurred from December 17th, 2018 to December 23rd, 2018. The chat focused on Lovespells by Ryan & Sage.
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RebelVampire
COMIC TEA PARTY- WEEK LONG BOOK CLUB START!
Hello and welcome everyone to Comic Tea Party’s Week Long Book Club~! This week we’ll be focusing on Lovespells by Ryan & Sage~! (http://lovespellscomic.com/)
You are free to read and comment about the comic all week at your own pace, so stop on by whenever it suits your schedule! Remember, though, that while we allow constructive criticism, our focus is to have fun and appreciate the comic. Below you will find four questions to get you started on the discussion. However, a new question will be posted and pinned everyday (between 12:01AM and 6AM PST), so keep checking back for more! You have until December 23rd to tell us all your wonderful thoughts! With that established, let’s get going on the reading and the chatting!
QUESTION 1. What has been your favorite scene in the comic so far? What specifically did you like about it?
QUESTION 2. At the moment, who is your favorite character? What about that character earns them this favor?
QUESTION 3. Do you believe that Esther will eventually confess her feelings to Maria? What do you think it will take for that to happen given Ether’s shyness about it?
QUESTION 4. Given some further hints, do you believe Maria’s own feelings towards Esther are changing? How do you think Maria would react to a confession from Esther? Would a confession ruin their friendship?
snuffysam
only at the end of chapter 4, but loving it so far! here's my current answers... 1. definitely the scene at the end of chapter 4 where Maria asks Esther for more lessons/to hang out as friends. We already know what Maria's there for ahead of time, and I eat dramatic irony like that for breakfast. Also, the reactions of Maria's friends who see Esther's obvious crush. 2. Hmmmm Maria. She's this super cheesy knight type, and that's me babey.
3. Yes, and it will be an accident.
4. Just from what I've seen so far, Maria's feelings towards Esther have changed. The relationship started out super professional from Maria's point of view (Esther is just helping her level up her magic. strictly teacher/student) but now she sees Esther as a friend. At this point... I don't think Maria would find a new tutor after the confession like Esther thinks, she's too professional for that. But it may put a dent in their friendship if the feelings aren't reciprocated.
decademic
omg, blitzed through it again because I love these slow burn lesbians and their wonderful relationship~ honestly couldn't ask for more! the art's amazing, the story is paced so well, the panels honestly are on par with paranatural levels of forethought and care, just ooo! I love them!!! onto the questions... 1: oh gosh, I can barely choose! the first meeting, when Maria shows up at Esther's house with her friends and they see how oblivious Maria is, the critical hit scene...throw a dart, I love it. 2: I'm gonna have to say Esther, she's so relatable by nature, and her actions are so pure intentioned. the love potion instead of elixer moment was such a cute nod, I got heart eyes and pledged my soul immediately. 3: I want Esther to start to confess, but Maria stops her and confesses instead! cue teary eyes and a first real kiss~ 4: Maria needs to identify this feeling as love; real love, before anything in the relationship can move forward at all. therefore, there has to be some realization on Maria's side sooner than later to make it work. Esther would probably chicken out halfway through the confession and confuse them both, which is why I'm gunning for Maria to do it~
RebelVampire
QUESTION 5. What do you think happened to Esther in the past that caused a healing spell to give her a permanent mana siphon? Do you believe Esther will reveal whatever happened to Maria? What might be the consequences of Esther telling her or keeping it secret?
decademic
gosh, good question...
so I guess 5: Esther hasn't been holding back, per se, about her affliction, she was upfront about it to the nurse, and has answered Maria's questions, so I don't think it's a 'secret', but more of a bit of backstory that may be a bit hard to relive. none of this answers the question of what the affliction is but I'm sure that'll be addressed, I'm sure of it
snuffysam
I don't think it's anything particularly sinister or mysterious, just, like... some uncommon disease. like magic polio.
though i suppose it either has to be something difficult to explain or something with a big stigma attached to it?
RebelVampire
QUESTION 6. Do you think we’ll see the paladin who scolded Maria at the tournament again? Why do you think he seemed particularly critical of Maria? What role might he have to play in Maria’s life (and Esther’s by association)?
RebelVampire
1) i really enjoyed the scene where maria was with her friends and referred to esther as lovely and all maria's friends are like O/////O. i enjoyed it not only for the significant character development maria is showing, but also the sheer comedy in how oblivious maria is to anything to do with love. 2) maria. i like her intense honesty that is balanced by her flawed obliviousness to a lot of the things around her. i think its a combination that makes her extremely endearing as a character. 3) i think the clock is ticking. esther is clearly terrible at hiding it and stuffing her feelings down. and i think one day maria is gonna be like "i love this thing" and esther is gonna be like "oh yeah i love that thing almost as much as i love you." like maybe not that exactly, but i dont think esther will overcome shyness. i think its gonna be a pure mortification accident moment cause esther will be lost in her own brain thoughts.
4) maria's feelings are definitely changing. no doubt about it. as for a reaction to esther's confession...honestly maria is so dense i wouldnt be surprised if she just could comprehend a love confession. gets told "i love you" and shes like "i love you too....youre a dear friend." once she realizes though, i kind of feel like shell...limbo turn down esther and tell esther shes not sure how she feels. then decide and couple will be created. as for ruining their friendship, eh, therell be tension maybe? not friendship ruining tho cause maria is just too nice for that. 5) I'm gonna assume that it was some sort of injury to be honest. cause esther did mention wanting to be an adventurer and i could see esther being overenthusiastic and trying something dangerous and winding up permanently injured because of it. or poisoned maybe. thats also an option. but regardless the curitive magic came with a price. i think esther will tell maria the full story someday, and i think it will bring her and maria closer. and consequently cause maria to get ultra defensive against those questioning esther's honor. 6) i do think we'll see that paladin again, and boy am i looking forward to it. i want to know more about him cause i think the dynamic hed have with maria would be awesome. i think as far as role goes, he might be the one to challenge how maria handles herself as a knight and her general love obliviousness. because maria's friends and esther all kind of either find it endearing, support her, or just accept that is part of her. whereas i think this paladin could be the one to ask her if she isnt hurting others by being so oblivious to love while constantly giving everything of herself. or something like that.
snuffysam
ok i'm caught up i'm not sure about the paladin. because yeah maria's friends aren't exactly helping move this relationship forward but... why would the paladin do any better? he just seems like a jerk to me.
maybe he shows up again and gives maria something extra to vent about to esther?
also, apparently his name is marcus? at least that's what the cast page seems to say, it's hard to tell without pictures lol
thisintermezzo
I co-write this comic and aklsjdkjhffjk it's so cool to see people actually seriously talk about it??? Thank you so much for this. We almost never get actual responses--which is pretty normal for most comics; feedback is just hard to get, haha--so this is super novel and hugely appreciated. If you want to ask me anything, please feel free. Otherwise, I'm just going to spectate here and there. (Also, now that I have Discord again, I can try to similarly contribute to chats about people's comics!!)
snuffysam
welcome! this is a really cute comic! if I may ask a question - what was originally on this page?: http://lovespellscomic.com/post/162477687227/hey-this-post-may-contain-adult-content-so-weve
it was after a bunch of guest comics so i'm guessing it was another guest comic? but tumblr deleted it so i have no idea
RebelVampire
QUESTION 7. Do you believe Esther’s magic tutelage of Maria will pay off at a critical juncture at some point? How might Esther’s own skills change due to contact with Maria? How might their changing relationship affect their professional lives?
thisintermezzo
I can't tell, haha. I actually don't know what the page before that is, even, since the "back" button is gone. Tumblr is lame and didn't notify us of any of the flagged posts, so I have no clue what else has gotten randomly deleted. :U Tapas would have it all, though.
Thanks for letting us know, though! o/
RebelVampire
QUESTION 8. Do you think Maria’s friends will play a role in Esther and Maria’s budding relationship? If so, what role will they play and how might their own relationships with Maria change?
(the archive for the chat on Psychteria is up! @CalimonGraal https://comicteaparty.com/post/181287718835/december-10th-december-16th-2018-ctp-archive)
RebelVampire
@snuffysam sometimes strangers are more helpful than friends in certain contexts. cause friends can come with a lot of biases. but eh it was just a thought
7) I def hope esther's magic tutelage pays off. Though not sure when since the tournament seemed like the most dangerous thing to happen so far. but if maria goes on a mission for sure shes gonna be pulling out that crit move esther taught her and save the day. albeit alternatively i could also seeing it going the opposite. wherein maria tries and fails hardcore. and then esther has to hug and comfort her and tell maria its okay. as for esther's skills, i actually think any change is gonna be less related to magic and more esther is gonna learn like how to express her feelings better or something. but this is something i dont forsee happening until they get together. 8) i dont think the friends are gonna help. rather, i think after maria and esther get together maybe that theyre gonna hurt the relationship in a way. in that theyll get jelly of maria spending more and more time with esther. cause while maria sees esther a lot, theres clearly more freetime maria has she could spend with esther instead of her friends. and i could see maria doing that cause as nice as maria is, shes extremely inexperienced in this area. so i think shed put esther first way too hardcore at first and the friends would have to say whoa there hold your horses. i think at the end itll strengthen their bonds though cause itd give maria a better understanding of some of the experiences her friends have maybe. idk. im spitballing.
RebelVampire
QUESTION 9. If Esther and Maria do date, how do you believe that will go? What relationship obstacles might the two have to overcome in order to make their relationship work? How will the change affect the course of the story?
Delphina
Oh noooo, cute magical girl AND lawful good swordy girl having adorable crushes on each other. I might have to jump into this one.
1. My anime roots are showing, but I love a good "you don't have to refer to me with honorifics" scene. Also any time Maria carries sleepy Esther around is adorable.
2. Maria's hard not to like. I'm also a sucker for strong intense ladies who wanna do the right thing always.
I'm not so great with the speculation-type questions, but it's a great comic and I'm looking forward to what happens and hope that things go smoothly in both the romantic and magical arenas! The writing is very sweet and pure and the character designs and great environments complement them nicely. Really can tell there's a lot of love in this story!
RebelVampire
QUESTION 10. What are you most looking forward to in the comic? Also, do you have any final thoughts to share overall?
Delphina
I really enjoyed the part where Esther was explaining her sketches about adventuring to Maria. Esther has mostly been a reactive character - she gets orders and reacts, she's asked for help by Maria and she reacts, she sees some kids in trouble and she reacts, she gets low on MP and reacts. But that was the first time we saw what she wanted for herself, and how she views her role, and it really helped make her feel real and more proactive. I hope we see more of what Esther wants and who she is in the future!
RebelVampire
9) I think they'll have to deal with the usual relationship challenges. balancing work life, balancing other friendships, accepting that maybe they dont know each other as well as they think they might. but i think theyll manage. esther especially i think is gonna have to learn to be more open like how she was about her desire to be an adventurer. 10) I'm looking forward to seeing paladin returning and revealing why he's in this story in the first place and butting heads with maria. and then esther being "it's okay baby hes just a big ol' meanie"
snuffysam
i just really want to see more of the comic. it's super cute, the characters all lovable... i need more.
RebelVampire
COMIC TEA PARTY- WEEK LONG BOOK CLUB END!
Thank you everyone so much for reading and chatting about Lovespells this week! Please also give a special thank you to Ryan & Sage for volunteering the comic and creating it! If you liked Lovespells, make sure to continue to support it via some of the links below!
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