[230408] taemin (bubble): it's cold today, but the weather is clear and the atmosphere is clean. please celebrate my brother's birthday together. 🙏🏻(source)
dying at the theological implications of jesus christ superstar, which tells the story on the most raw, human level it can, with none of the miracles, and the whole time, every character and the audience are like, "this doesn't make sense. i don't understand. why is he doing this? i thought he just wanted to help the poor, fight the romans, #bekind. what is the point?" the absence screams. the unspoken answer is too big for any character to face. they can make sense of loving jesus but cannot understand him loving them back, not in the midst of all this brutality and betrayal that he says is inevitable. "if he said he loved me, i'd be lost, i'd be frightened, i couldn't cope, just couldn't cope." it's so huge that it would demand change beyond what we are prepared to see. i usually find "could we start again please?" the most skippable song, but on a recent live viewing, i was just like "wow wow wow." to go back to the start, fresh, the blood on your hands wiped away. if only there was some way that could happen ... but often we stop "before it gets too frightening."