#episode 2x03

[alex51324]

More episode 3 rewatch!

Crowley saying, "it's different when it's someone you know," when Elspeth declares her intention to sell Wee Morag's earthly remains to Mr. Dalrymple.

If you haven't been paying attention, you might think that up to that point, Crowley has been putting forward a pro-body-snatching agenda--and that certainly seems to be the impression Aziraphale has picked up.

But he isn't. What he was trying to do was get Aziraphale to see the complexity of the situation: that sometimes--often, really--the choice isn't between a Good option and an Evil one.

Elspeth can rob graves, or she and Wee Morag can starve--both of those options are bad!

And surgeons like Mr. Dalrymple can either remain ignorant, or they can develop their skills using stolen corpses, which both endangers the (often desperately poor) people who are stuck supplying the corpses, and compounds the grief of the (also usually poor!) survivors of the stolen corpses. Neither of those is a good option!

But Aziraphale doesn't get that--he just makes a binary flip from "stealing corpses bad!" to "stealing corpses good!" And he certainly doesn't get as far as beginning to question the structural reasons why some people end up always having to make choices where none of the options are Good. (As Crowley is trying to get at, when he talks about Elspeth's chances compared to someone born in a castle.)

Choices like, uh...go-along-to-get-along with a fundamentally corrupt system, or Fall to Hell*.

(It occurs to me now to wonder whether Aziraphale has a copy of Huck Finn in the bookshop.)

[rodpower78]

It's not just this bad day. It's a lot of bad days and... I'm doing the best to keep it all together. You know, that's what is expected of me. Cool, chill, funny.. exceptionally good looking, well dressed Lexy... but inside, it's like I'm drowning. Everything is up to here and I'm doing my best to stay afloat, but it's impossible.

Lexy Cross

[eddiediaaz]

karen wilson in every episode ↳ 2.05 — awful people

[din-jarring]

javier peña in every episode of narcos

sweat

"sweaty javi," you said? here ya go, sweatheart, one sweaty javi comin' right up! 👅💦

[rocktheholygrail]

1x02 || 2x03 || 3x04

[mischas]

SETH COHEN & MARISSA COOPER, The O.C. "Even regardless of Ryan, the Seth-Marissa dynamic was cool. They were next-door neighbors, and yet they were strangers, and there was an awkwardness to it. I thought that was a nice dynamic that I could have seen more of. " - Adam Brody

[aliceinpixels]

"do I scale the wall and enter at her window?"

[marvelfanlife]

Criminal Minds | Jennifer Jareau | 17x03 'Homesick'

[bisexualfbiagents]

Mulder and Scully | Blood (2.03)

[pagannatural]

2.03 Bloodlust

-Sam flirts with Dean by telling him (and the Impala) to get a room. Meanwhile he’s looking at Dean like this and the two of them are, literally, getting a room.

-Sam tells the bartender “we’re looking for some people” and the bartender says “sure, hard to be lonely.”

Sam blinks wide, grimaces. Dean looks at him, assessing. Sam looks down and then at Dean while he says “yeah, but, um…” slowly, then he regroups and pulls out a fifty, “that’s not what I meant.” There’s a sexual implication to being lonely and looking for someone at a bar, and the brothers share a very loaded look about it. It’s like this bartender accidentally hit on a truth.

Sam has been lonely for Dean. He’s been trying to get Dean to talk to him and spend time with him since their dad died, and Dean has been shutting Sam out emotionally. Sam knows Dean is lonely for him too, even though he won’t say it.

-Sam notices something is off when Dean says he’s been itching for a hunt. He and Dean also make prolonged eye contact after Dean kills a vampire and his face is spattered with blood, and Sam notices Dean is unsettled. They give each other strength just by staring into each others eyes. Sam’s always paying attention to Dean.

-Dean also notices right away that Sam’s off and asks him if he’s okay. Noticing Sam, for him, is less watchful and more like noticing the orbit of his own moon. Gravity’s off, something’s up with Sam.

-Sam went from correcting Dean every time he used Sam’s nickname to “he’s the only one who gets to call me that.” It’s so possessive, like he’s saying I’m his not yours. Dean notices and smiles to himself. Then he says “Sammy remind me to beat that buzzkill outta you later” you’re gonna do what to him later?

-Sam’s development from telling Dean he has to let him go to identifying him as the only one who can use his nickname is also the change from Sam seeking distance to Sam acquiescing to being Dean’s.

-Dean tells Gordon a story about killing a monster at 16 while Sammy waited in the car. He didn’t need to mention where Sammy was, he wasn’t a part of the story, but he has a condition* that makes him talk about Sammy to strangers whenever he’s not there (*wretched, soul-crushing love).

-Dean tells Gordon he always thought of his dad as indestructible. Now he’s questioning everything about his dad’s teachings and realizing the version of John in his head is not the only one.

-Sam says he sees through Dean’s fake smile and knows how Dean feels, because he feels the same way. When Sam says that Dean’s behavior is “an insult to [John’s] memory,” Dean kind of nods and raises his eyebrows like “you have no fucking idea” before punching Sam in the face.

-For once, Sam is way off about Dean. He has no idea how Dean feels or what he’s dealing with. The idea of insulting vs honoring John’s memory is complicated for Dean right now. He’s seeing Sam being protective of John for maybe the first time ever and I can just imagine Dean thinking, I raised you, and the man you finally want to respect as your father asked me to kill you.

-Dean looks regretful after he punches Sam, like he’s realizing he took it too far, and Sam looks hurt and taken aback, his eyes searching to and away from Dean and his mouth open. And then Sam tells Dean, “you can hit me all you want. It won’t change anything.”

There are some potential layers to that.

1. They’re arguing about something else here, at the same time—whether or not vampires can choose to act ethically or if they’re inherently evil. Sam implores Dean not to kill them, believing the former. Dean wants killing to be black and white due to Dead Dad’s Last Words reasons. Hitting Sam won’t make the issue any clearer.

2. Sam’s words could be interpreted as “you can hurt me all you want and it won’t change how I feel.” About Dean. Or “whatever you do it won’t change the way things are.” Between them.

3. Sam has been begging Dean to give him something real and emotional, he’s been pushing and pushing him to get a reaction, escalating and becoming more desperate. Now Dean has responded. He’s hurt Sam, but that means he’s touched him out of uncontrollable emotion—or better yet has chosen to inflict his feelings and needs upon Sam’s body. The pain is better than nothing.

It’s hard to be lonely.

-When I first saw this scene I was shook. Dean hit his baby brother! My best guess is that Dean has never punched him like this before, outside of the context of sparring. I might be wrong about that, but the way Sam accepts the punch and turns slowly back to Dean with that disbelieving look felt too significant. I thought Sam was going to feel betrayed or scared, but Sam’s resolve strengthens, he gazes after Dean, and then he follows him.

And then things go right back to normal between them.

-Another thing Sam is missing is that Dean trusts Gordon partially because Dean can identify with Gordon. Gordon said he hunts vampires because vampires killed his sister, and Dean trusts another protective brother.

-Sam tracks the nest and Dean says “you’re good. You’re a monster pain in the ass, but you’re good.” Just like that they’re reconciled. Sam’s face is probably still throbbing, it’s been like 3 minutes.

-When Gordon pulls a knife on Sam and admits he killed his sister himself, it’s over for him. Dean is not having any of that.

-Dean punches Gordon in the face in front of Sam, then moves really close to Sam to tell him they can leave now. It’s like he wants Sam to see what he’ll do to anyone who threatens him. Dean is the only one who’s allowed to hurt Sam. He also asks Sam to punch him to get him back, so he clearly feels guilty.

-Dean’s true nature is a huge theme in this episode. He’s trying to understand who he is. Gordon tells him that he was “born to hunt” and “a killer like me.” John wrote the same things about child-Dean in his diary.

At the end of the episode, Dean tells Sam that he has the instinct to kill and would’ve killed the vampires. That’s how he was raised, it’s what John told him to do. I love how Dean is a caregiver and a killer in equal measure, he takes naturally to both violence and nurturing.

Sam reminds him he made the right choice. Dean says “yeah cause you’re a pain in my ass.” He made the decision because of Sam. He’ll kill for Sam but he’ll also decide not to kill for Sam.

Sam says “I guess I might have to stick around to be a pain in the ass then.” Dean thanks him and gazes at him intently. Even here, notice the mention of their connection being painful.

Sam is now agreeing to stick with Dean not because of what John would’ve wanted but because he’s accepting his role as Dean’s guiding light, the one thing that gives him a sense of purpose and good.

Dean’s purpose is not killer or caregiver, but protector. He’s guardian of Sam’s soul.

[sophsun1]

Queer As Folk – 2.03: Hypocrisy: Don't Do It

[mayabishopgold]

Maya Bishop | Station 19 - 2x03 "Home to Hold Onto"

[rodpower78]

*Levi and Eve having a little alone time after their special night*

Me:

*Gavin returns later*

Me:

[din-jarring]

javier peña in every episode of narcos

2x03 our man in madrid

[artfulacrostic]

memes for The Bad Batch, 2x03 "The Solitary Clone"

*SPOILERS*

[lovingherwasgay]

the shipwreck will last 3 episodes. buddienation how are we feeling about that knowing what happens every third episode of the season regarding buddie + chris as a family.