I made this a couple days ago but only added more to it today! i now consider it finished.
This a little based on an Ocelhira fic I read that is set during the 9 year gap ( "I hope they never understand us" by theArchduchess) where they’re trying to work together and the girls argue like every chapter.
Kaz is an emotional bomb and doesn't understand how Ocelot can keep his composure when he supposedly has a 'special connection' with Big Boss. What he doesn't know is that Ocelot has a lot going on behind the scenes.
He's also hard headed and stubborn when it comes to his ideas/decisions to make money + gets angry when Ocelot refutes his ideas and thats basically how the animatic starts
Hiii!!! What have you been up to lately? Any new blorbos?
hi hi hi!! i accidentally become obsessed with a book that has no fandom but also finally got the jedi: survivor game so am about to return to being obsessed with cal kestis (he’s great).
it’s winter break for me so spending all my time reading, playing video games, bookbinding, catching up on sleep, and occasionally writing
“She has a sweater on, but her lab coat only provides so much warmth, and the breeze has since picked up, whipping her dark hair around in front of her face. Numbness burns at her nose and cheeks. She imagines Neil must be laughing at her from where he sits, watching her stubbornly hold herself upright in the night while autumn wind threatens to tear her down any second.”
Oks so something you need to know about me is that I began my English studies when I was 10 years old which I believe is the normal age for non USA kids idk but you also need to know I was very slow at it like really slow…it took me 5 months to understand what the verb “to be” even was and when it came to vocabulary I would just not grasp it at all. My teacher at the time would find this slowness cute and funny and would humiliate me in front of the class everyday, she would pick me every single time to go to the board to write sentences fully knowing I wasn’t able too. Something as simple as “my name is juju and I’m 10 years old” was very difficult and very hard and her methods didn’t help me, so much so I refused to learn English
Im telling you this bc I feel like that was her plan all along, she didn’t want me to learn English bc she saw the future and saw what I was doing with it, she saw me writing corny ass fics about gay boys and being delusional over a man online, she was trying to save me, she wanted me to lead a normal life and she failed…I’m sorry teacher Eva my spite for you just somehow made me stronger
Anyways I headcanon that after his games he sometimes terrible ringing in his ear and he has had mild motor problems with his right arm (especially in the direct aftermath of the games)
Helloooo! Hope you're doing well.😊 I just caught your post about wanting to go back to your Landslide era and just wanna say... why not? You can do little prompts, a one-shot, a missing scene, whatever you feel like! Publish it, don't publish it, world's your oyster and you make the music etc. You're not done just because the main story's done!
Thing is, I think writing anything should be about that feeling you described in your tags. That fun feeling of liking your story, adoring these characters, having things sing on the page for you. The love should be there, you know? And for me a lot of the time the love is in keeping things small, in not doing huge projects all the time, and in having a few people to bounce ideas and creative things with. I love that one-shot energy of crafting something I can see the end of! And it creates space in my head for bigger things, too, because the bigger things I do start are ones that bring a lot of joy to the table -- and I can only welcome that joy when I'm not forcing anything in particualr to happen!
Sooooo go back to that era in which you loved your writing fiercely, and try to capture that in a new little seed! 🌼
eva please know you are an absolute gem and one of the kindest people i’ve ever had the pleasure of talking to and that your message has single-handedly made my day :’)))) because you are absolutely RIGHT! what’s holding me back from going back to that fun except truly just myself?!?!
i feel like there’s just so much i can talk about and so much gray area to write in that i could experiment with and just !!!!! ngl this message has made me want to open up the laptop and start writing RIGHT NOW lol! 🤣🙌
natia i’m coming back for you queen 🫡
(please know this message has meant so much to me in such a short span of time between me just reading it and now, and i can’t thank you enough for your constantly kind words bc this made me so happy!!!! ����🫶)