#even fighting the dissociation

[fatedroses]

And some days, I just wish you wouldn't look at me at all.

[ahalliance]

how is ETOILES the most normal person out of the French currently HOW DID THAT HAPPEN

[haine-kleine]

My roman empire is the difference in how Horikoshi draws Dabi and 'Dabi'

Smirking so wide his cheeks staples are popping out exposing the muscles underneath the grafts, staring straight into 'camera', carefully controlling the way he looks and is perceived. It's not a natural way of being, it's performative. Exposing and highlighting his grotesque scars. Chin raised high, looking down at the characters he interacts with and at the audience. His gestures wide and self-assured, throwing his arms out. He forcibly attracts attention, even the negative kind, especially the negative kind. A smug and self-confident asshole.

And then he is off his Dabi hours and suddenly no longer filling the room with his presence. Gone is the oppressive evil charisma that had even the pro heroes scared of him. Now the hidden, nameless, hinted-at since his first appearance real identity is left exposed. His head turned down, avoiding eye contact, slouching. His wrists hanging limply. Arms crossed - hugging himself, a tell-tale gesture of discomfort. Curling into himself, making himself smaller. He looks younger, rolling his eyes and pouting.

Touya has run out of his social battery and doesn't want to be engaged with. He is vulnerable, the way Dabi can't afford himself to be. It's just so fascinating how his way of masking is putting on an artificially created Dabi persona.

[theotherrichardpapen]

AU where Josh manages to grab onto Nigel’s hand at the last moment that night on the train and both of them fall out. AU where Nigel has been dead the entire time but Alex Forbes doesn’t know that; where the trauma of watching his friend fall to his death combined with the realisation he was complicit in the death of another causes his mind to fracture.

He doesn’t remember making it back to his dorm room that night, only remembers waking up to the news that Josh and Nigel were was dead. All of Nigel’s things have been moved to another room, of course they have, because Nigel was gone, dead, all his fault, his fault trouble.

AU where Alex takes the train one night to the Colbie house because Nigel asks him to, because he feels this innate and intense need to try and better understand this boy he got killed; where he finds the card and the books and Nigel’s red bible, and begins to understand.

AU where the body of Susan turns up one morning, and the police question Alex about it, but there’s no way it was him, because he was late; he was late, and by the time he showed up at the cinema, she was waiting for him still, sweet Susan, with her kind eyes and kinder heart, she had waited for him and she didn’t even suspect anything until the very second before he struck gone.

AU where Alex finds the letter he wrote Nigel wrote, inviting him to his house that night, where Alex sees the Colbies arguing through the window; where he wrestles the gun from John and shoots him to kill him because he read the journals, knows that this man has been hurting Nigel his whole life and he wanted him dead protect Nigel.

AU where Nigel confronts Alex at the train yard that night, where he forces Alex to remember everything he did, everything Alex did; where he forces Alex to pull the trigger and kill off the version of Nigel he’s been carrying around in his mind, where Alex dies that night right along with him and Jack is born instead.

[anxiously-sidequesting]

You know what I love more than just heroes and villains going up against each other is when the hero and villain have a certain respect and acknowledgement to the other, have a special relationship or connection with the other, or just a general interest that's between just THOSE TWO GUYS and not anybody else Grandfather Spider Morganthe Schismist Soldier Duncan Grimwater

Like I could easily see the YW teaming up with almost any of those people (see: only GFS and Morganthe the other two are crazy) not out of maliciousness or because they switched sides but because they're just compatible with them in ways where it just makes sense. Like for example the YW fighting back-to-back with Morganthe or having in depth magical discussions with her because we understand her on a level no one else does. Like in a crazy season finale where the Savior of the Spiral would not even Dream of Ever Working With Those Ruffians but when they have to they're like so magical (no pun intended) together because they just click. Like in the original Teen Titans where Deathstroke and Robin were like fighting in Hell together and they were on the SAME WAVELENGTH despite being bitter enemies THAT'S THE SHIT I LIKE. I think maybe that's the reason why I resonate more with these guys than Malistaire because imo it's just so much more interesting and emotional when we get two people on opposite sides of the morale scale able to come together and work so fluently. This is also me saying I want a Schismist Soldier and YW Roommate Sitcom.

[e-the-village-cryptid]

matilda the musical making me feel shrimp emotions

[emrys-rusts]

Gosh I wish I could just move out for my own health's sake.

[handfulofmuses]

J / Doll / V / Pomegranate / Lanolin

it is a repeating pattern that the more a fandom hates a character the more i like them

[detentiontrack]

Actually I am grateful that the show never really addressed Anne or Sasha's trauma in s3a because then we wouldn't have gotten the fucked up fics that resulted from various author's interpretations

[andromeda3116]

and rereading windwitch and getting vivia's point of view and how she interacts with serafin, it's just. shit. this is such a well-written depiction of emotional abuse. vivia is desperate for her father's love and approval, and he seems to give it to her -- and then wrench it from her in turn. and she's left to make up excuses as to why, to fill in the gaps with what she must have done or said wrong. she knows he means best for her, he must mean best for her, surely he loves her and favors her, surely if she can be just like him then she can keep his favor and never disappoint him again, never lose his fickle favor again -- surely if he's angry at her it's because she failed him, that she wasn't good enough, she must have made some kind of mistake.

serafin never raises a hand to vivia. he never has to.

[elytrafemme]

like. dissociation and psychosis are not FUN THINGS there was actually literally never a point where i enjoyed it at all Except like the very rare occasions w two of my alters.

but objectively... okay actually post canceled because it's redundant, scrap the psychosis baby and the alter mutations for a second can we talk about the fact that i had a literal fucking Shadow Self that I couldnt talk to or really coexist with because it was blurry but like definitely was trying to sabotage and was like not me. That would just take over sometimes. and i like never found out what the fuck that was because then i met the alters.

And like. also this shadow self was literall . Like she resembled origins ranboo. also. ,Like was i on some next level kin shit or was i actually hallucinating like crazy WHAT WAS THAT

my therapist once told me that i wasn't like exactly in psychosis bc i was aware i was tripping during half of that which like God so true. but also i just fully had an Evil Mare who would vent post on my acct about choir class and try to flirt w my friends and for some reason my natural reaction to thatw as to be like. Yeah that's normal

[down-thedrain]

"this world will live on...!" girl no it wont im sorry

[chibishortdeath]

So much happening in the world and in my personal life at once and I am completely unable to do anything about any of it. I am completely exhausted. I need to move out, but I can’t.

I’ve been stuck with a headache for a few months.

[milimeters-morales]

ACAU Miles develops a sort of apathetic attitude towards bad things happening to him because of being a vigilante and the way Peter acts, but it routinely gets mistaken as him being such a positive person in general that bad things don’t really phase him that much. He’s just become detached from reality in moments like those because it’s kind of unbelievable to him in the grand scheme of things, his brain is young and eventually just can’t handle what’s going on. Eventually, Matt notices how the lack of reaction Miles has when he gets an injury or is threatened by someone is really strange, almost as if Miles isn’t even aware of what’s going on, and tries to figure out how to bring this issue up without making Miles upset or even more closed-off, and without pissing Peter off to a deadly degree. It all has a happy ending though dw

[dadbots]

August… time to get spooky.

[kbo-system]

hm. turns out trying to track vague fragments that dont want to be know is Difficult. who wouldve guessed