#everything just. feels very heavy

[lgbtlunaverse]

I'm a little bit insane about how in novel canon the whole xiyao ending where Jin Guangyao wants to die with Xichen, who accepts, which then makes jgy change his mind and pushes him away at the last second isn't actually explicit. A lot of adaptations chose to make it so but in the novel this is all VERY up for interpretation.

Here's what actually happens in the text: Lan xichen stabs jgy, jgy moves away from lan xichen, xichen follows him, wwx realizes jgy is about to open the coffin and calls "watch out!" to lan xichen. Jgy unseals nmj, pushes xichen away, nmj kills jgy and they are both dragged into the coffin which is sealed again.

Here's what wei wuxian, our narrator, thinks is happening: Jin Guangyao wanted to lead lan xichen to his death out of revenge for stabbing him. Lan Xichen, unaware, simply followed Jin Guangyao to try and stop him from getting away. Wei wuxian's warning came too late, but Jin Guangyao- for an unknown reason- changed his mind at the last second and pushed lan xichen out of danger before lan xichen had any idea of what was going on.

Here's what most fans as well as the teams behind several adpatations think is happening: Jin Guangyao leads Xichen to nmj's coffin to die with him, Xichen accepts, because of this acceptance, proof xichen still cares for him, Jin Guangyao pushes him out of harm's way. Wei Wuxian just doesn't get that gay people who aren't him or Lan Wangji exist.

Here's what ALSO MIGHT BE HAPPENING: Jin guangyao wants to die in a different way than he is currently dying. Maybe he's afraid of what'll happen to his body after his death like he was scared for his mother's, maybe he wants to confront nmj one last time now that there's nothing more for him to lose, maybe - if he can't take her body with him- he'd at least like his final resting place to be where he buried his mother. Lan Xichen thinks he's trying to get away and follows but Jin Guangyao, who despite everything doesn't want him to die, pushes him away. Xichen doesn't know what happened until it's already happened. What he would've wanted if he had known remains up in the air.

Or, alternatively: Jin Guangyao's reasons are as above, but unbeknowst to Wei Wuxian, Xichen DOES know what jgy is about to do and either misinterprets this as an invitation to all die together, or inidividually decides he, too, is done, and wants to join his sworn brothers in the grave. To Jin Guangyao this has nothing to do with Lan Xichen, and he still doesn't want him to die, so he pushes him away against Lan Xichen's wishes.

Every single one of these interpretations is unhinged and they are all supported by the original text. It's like a choose your own adventure of tragic gay endings.

[flowercrowngods]

i need someone (steve) to take one look at mike wheeler after being told that this kid readily walked off the quarry at twelve years old, and see past his walls and his bullshit and see the kindness and bravery that lies beneath the trauma and depression (and puberty). i need someone to take one look at him and see that he’s not doing fine at all — and hasn’t for a while.

[moenmomentsthemoe-en]

[sysig]

Sorry, I can’t, I’m just too cute today 💕 (Patreon)

[aroaessidhe]

2024 reads / storygraph

Raven Stratagem + Revenant Gun

books 2 & 3 in a military-political sci-fi trilogy

space empire setting where reality & technology relies on an enforced cultural belief and calendar system

the ghost general taken over Cheris’ body and gone rogue, the rest of the hexarcate is trying to assassinate them while they try to change the oppressive systems of the hexarchate

I don’t know how else to explain things in here without spoilers (if I even could explain..)

[hxhhasmysoul]

wouldn't it be nice if the author of the fics finished them. the author is me.

[lunarharp]

lazy scribbling of my baldur's gate 3 characters

[orphyd]

Made it through another week…

[starlooove]

I rlly liked red hood the hill bc besides the gift it completely ignored everything else with the batfam which to meeee I’m taking it as the hill has been overlooked by the bats forever (see Orpheus rising) so yeah nobody there gives a fuck about those people and jason knows better than to bring that shit over there

[hella1975]

YOU'RE NOT LISTENING TO LUCY DACUS SHE LITERALLY SAID QUIT YOUR JOB CUT YOUR HAIR GET A DOG CHANGE YOUR NAME CHANGE YOUR MIND CHANGE YOUR WAYS GIVE THEM TIME GO BACK TO SCHOOL GO BACK TO SLEEP TELL THE SECRET YOU CANT KEEP BEGIN BE DONE BREAK A VOW MAKE A NEW ONE CALL ME IF YOU NEED A FRIEND OR NEVER TALK TO ME AGAIN BUT PLEASE STAY PLEASE STAY PLEASE STAY PLEASE STAY

[sysig]

A complete lack of catharsis (Patreon)

[painterofhorizons]

Criminal Minds Evolution... Rant, under the cut. Aka here's random things I dislike about it and because CM played a bit role in my creative life I'm making it everyone's problem here.

So... It's on German free TV the first time and I'm poking in and... Let's just say I'm not the targeted audience. Sigh.

When they first said they would do another season I was very excited. Not so much verbaut I enjoyed the past few seasons, but because I enjoy the series overall, have done so since I was a teenager. So the team getting back together was something that made me happy (they could have just made it a road trip to Italy vacation movie with everyone having good food chilling at the pool movie for my taste).

Then when Evolution aired and I've second hand seen it here on tumblr, I was already ugh. Very gruesome, and covid centric. And let's face it, we have all gone through years of pandemic, and it's exhausting as fuck, and I don't need to see that shit on TV in my recreational time as well. I can't stand that with any movie or series. It was okay on 911, I don't remember it was made huge there. Like it was the setting, but not so much the theme? It felt like that, and it was okay. In Evolution (or the episode of it that's running rn) it's like BAM IN YOUR FACE HERE IS EVERYTHING THAT SUCKS ABOUT COVID IN CASE YOU DIDN'T NOTICE.

Anyways. I'm not the target audience for this theme. Which is okay. But there's more reasons this season feels ugh.

David Rossi has a different German voice actor. Which probably has good reasons, but it breaks my ears.

The characters all feel very very ooc?! Garcia what's wrong with you? Rossi? Emily? Like Emily for real?? And why AGAIN break Rossi with another dead wife? Are the writers that lazy, really? Couldn't they come up with ANYTHING different? Did they hire a noob to write that?

So, yeah

Just a few random big no no's that disappoint me about the new season. I'm not sad I didn't watch it until now, and I don't think I'll watch it completely. I'll stick with season 1-7ish.

But I really had hopes. Not high hopes. But hopes. Small hopes for a few nice team scenes. Instead we got ooc gruesome covid shit.

Woohoo. 😐

@sheeplessthings @thornhands if you guys didn't watch it yet - spare yourself and don't watch it.

[yioh]

i wanna find more books like little mushroom but whenever i google for recommendations similiar to it, google just gives me more danmei LIKE no the only thing most of these books have in common is they’re all gay and are chinese novels ….. i want post apocalyptic poetic storytelling with existentialism threaded through the pages giving me a slow aching feeling that i can’t forget about 😭😭😭

[ink-the-artist]

currently sick i forgot to add this to the last ask but your art, to me, is indicative of the beauty you seenin the world and i think it sso fucking amazing how much you see and appreciate. your brain is gigantic and wrinkled like a pug. u are amazing

advbsghf like a pug 😭 thank u this is so nice. i dont always respond to nice asks bc Im not sure what to say so i just keep them like letters lol but i get very romantic about a lot of stuff (especially when my mental health is being normal) and I'm rly glad that comes across in my art

[imwritesometimes]

the "I already bought tickets to go see Indy again next week" moodboard