it is a privilege to be able to experience all these insane things in real time. thank you for being this wonderful human being and creating a safe space with every single show. love you forever 🤍
i've actually been really curious about this for a while rb to spread or whatevs. maybe ill make a separate version for specific elements since i cant fit all 12 in one poll
at this point, its not even forgiveness- its intentional ignorance, and you know it. you're not stupid.
you just can't imagine yourself saying no. you can't imagine telling her that you're leaving, that she's hurt you far too much this time.
you stare at her across the room. she looks awfully composed, considering the things she's said. the things she's done. you feel sick.
the fact that she is there is a threat. the fact that she is this close to you has your mind screaming danger but for some reason you just can't go. you've never been able to.
so you stayed. so you stayed, and you stayed, and you knew and saw the patterns but you stayed anyway. in that way, you suppose, you handed her the blade.
how does that saying go? its like giving someone a gun and asking them not to shoot. maybe, then, you'd been asking for this. maybe you'd had it coming. you'd just thought perhaps this time, she would be different.
still, though. you stand across the room. she is holding a familiar blade. and thats bad, you think, its bad that i can recognize this hurt.
you stayed because you thought she could be better. you stayed because, deep down, you hoped that she'd pretend with you that either of you understood this love.
anyway, you don't even know why you're surprised. even before she stabs you again, the knife is still stained with your old dried blood.
i think brigid might be my goddess. i feel so drawn to her and thinking of her and seeing images of her makes my heart feel so warm like a hug. thinking about her makes me emotional right now. i want to dedicate things in my home and do ceremonies for her. she feels like a mother or a close aunt but so powerful and beautiful and loving