#feeling v weird about myself

[the--highlanders]

thinking about jamie being gay just makes me feel shrimp emotions honestly like. first of all in the spirit of doing whatever you like with canon I can just. say he's gay. but also there's so much textual evidence which makes him so easy to read as queer. and THEN I think interpreting him as gay adds extra layers to the fact that his initial character brief leans pretty heavily into the (hyper-masculine, heteronormative) character trope of the romantic highlander, but his on-screen character undermines/subverts that trope in a lot of ways.

like it's fun from a shipping point of view AND a textual point of view AND an analytical point of view. just. *chef's kiss* truly the character of all time

[gregmarriage]

i fear i may have pavlov dogged myself into being anxious, every time i get an email

[ladyinshiningarmor]

am i regretting going into a career field where i have to make choices all day long with the consequence of making a critical mistake regarding someone else's health if i get it wrong? perhaps

[merrilark]

idk what it is, but sometimes a toasted pb&j sandwich at night hits just right.

i think i'm gonna have one with some tea. and maybe i'll hunker down with a book.

[kashmirichaiwithmehr]

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[muninnhuginn]

having to make myself just pull back a second and go for "simplest explanation that fits all the facts and isn't accidentally inferring beyond the facts we do have".

[ghosts-of-love]

hmm wondering whether it will be a good idea to take a break from tumblr for a little while

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[satellitesunset]

myle.txt

[c6jpg]

I give up on the new artifact domain scara is just gonna have to make do with this 2pc/2pc set bc I can't beat it's stats with the crap this domain is giving me and I'm actually quite okay with his current damage anyways. also I'm behind on my gilded/deepwood farming and I kinda rather be doing that instead lol

[arobats]

thank fuckin god for grocery delivery, im having a Bad Pain Day and the only things that help with the nausea of it were things i was out of, bc i figured id get them myself this weekend

[countlessrealities]

Request or randomized kisses meme || No longer accepting

@advnterccs sent: 15. Kiss in the Rain { To your Morty from my Morty uwu }

{15. Kiss in the Rain}

Morty's heartbeat was echoing in his ears. It wasn't as loud as it got when he was extremely anxious or on the verge of a panic attack, but it was still insistent enough to make it impossible for the teen to ignore it. He was trying hard not to let it affect his behaviour, but he couldn't stop the light shaking of his fingers.

Hazel eyes darted towards his boyfriend, who was sitting next to it on the threshold of the French window that led to the backyard of his house. Above them, the sky was covered by dark crowd and the humid smell in the air betrayed that it would be start raining soon. He hated lying to his other self, but Rick had been adamant when he had told him that neither of their counterparts had to know about the hopefully short trip they would go on.

The teen dropped his eyes in his lap. He understood why his grandfather had forced him to promise that. It was a long shot and it really wasn't worth to give the other two false hopes, especially when they could have ascertained quickly enough whether or not it was a real lead. Yet, it still felt wrong.

"Uh, h-hey, I need to...T-There's something I need to tell you," he started, hoping that his voice wasn't as tight as it was sounding in his ears. "I...R-Rick and I are going on, uh, an adventure. I-It's the usual shit...w-well, kind of, but...w-we might be gone for a few days an-and...I wanted to let you know. An-And I wanted to say bye before we leave."

He swallowed, trying to ease the knot in his throat. Was he sounding weird? Too dramatic? He didn't want his boyfriend to get suspicious, but he couldn't help it. He was nervous, afraid even. And yes, his and Rick's adventures got scary and they sometimes still scared him, even after everything he had faced and done, but this was different.

Since that close encounter with that Rick...their original Rick, and damn if he still wasn't struggling to wrap his head around it...the Ricks had been acting weird, even before they had replaced themself with a robot. Now that everything was out in the open between the four of them? He could see how deep the abyss of obsession their two adventure partners were risking to fall in was.

Morty knew that he couldn't risk putting his foot down. Not now, not when his Rick had already proved that he could just decide to deal with it on his own. He and his boyfriends were the only thing keeping the two stubborn jerks from throwing themselves over the edge, as they had done years before. He had to be there for Rick, first and foremost. It was a task he could not fail. No matter the cost.

"G-Geez, I'm making it weird, aren't I?" He made himself go on, managing a chuckle that didn't sound too forced. "I-It's just...I'm going to miss you."

Damn, that was straight out cheesy. Yet, he would have lied if he had said that he didn't mean it. Maybe it was clichéd, maybe it sounded silly, especially since it should be just a few days, but he couldn't help how genuine the sentiment behind those words was.

Suddenly feeling too restless to remain seated, Morty pushed himself on his feet, hesitating just for a split moment before offering his hand to his counterpart to help him up in turn.

Once they were both standing, he found himself playing with the other's fingers. He couldn't tell if it was just a way to distract himself or if he was biding his time. Perhaps, he was merely seeking to prolong the contact.

"I-I have to go soon. R-Rick said that I could stay a while, b-but...he's really, uh, eager to leave." And wasn't that an understatement. "S-So...I..."

His voice trailed off as the first drops of rain started to fall over them. He didn't want to think about the grimmest what-ifs, but it was hard not to, with the weight of revelation on his shoulder and a shadow looming over them all. One shaped like the guy whose actions had been the start of it all, but he wasn't the one casting it. No, it was made of the obsession of their Ricks.

Swallowing quietly, he decided to give up on words and to let his action speak for him instead. With much less hesitation than he had expected, he leant forward, wrapping his arms around his other self's neck and bringing their mouths together.

The rain was falling more and more heavily, soaking their hair and clothes, spreading cold over their skin, but Morty almost didn't notice. His attention was fully focused on the feeling of those warm lips moving against his own and on the taste of his boyfriend's mouth. The moist sweetness and the hint of bitterness left by the dark chocolate they had shared earlier.

Eventually, he had to reluctantly break away to allow them both to catch their breath. As much as he would have liked to just stay there, in his counterpart's arms, getting lost in the kisses they could have fed to each other, he knew that it wasn't possible.

"I-I love you, FM." The words were still so new on his tongue, so foreign. Not just because they had shared them for the first time just a few days before, but also because his counterpart was the very first person he had told them to in a romantic way. "I-I'll see you in a few days."

The last sentence was barely out of his mouth when a portal opened a few steps away from them and Rick's voice called his name from inside it. Their time had run out.

Morty chose to indulge himself for one more moment and stole another quick peck from his boyfriend's lips before letting go of the other's hand and stepping backwards towards the green vortex. One last smile and a wave and he forced himself to turn around and stepped inside it, before he could do something stupid as running back into his counterpart's arm and telling him everything he wasn't supposed to tell.

It wasn't a big deal, if he didn't make the whole ordeal into one. They would see each other in a few days. Of course they would.

[heirloommtomatoes]

me when i was a cis lesbian saying that people who are bisexual and nonbinary are probably the pinnacle of human existence 🤝 me now being bisexual and nonbinary

[tastyflowers]

uni application is going well

[baekuras]

i havent done more bUT at the very least i finally started dusting off my resume so i am more prepared to actually change my life than before

fucking terrifying at every step and this hellscape of a life may never end but change doesnt come from doing the same shit over and over so smths gotta give

[moe-broey]

Another big reason to blow up my Miitopia save IS because I'm always trying to mimic my artstyle w it, and like. Not only can that become outdated Very Quickly LMFAO, but also! I feel like a big focal point of my art is giving charas noses. Which feels so specific and mundane to say. But esp the nostrils, like. Somehow enhances my work so much more, and makes the faces feel more focused/balanced (plus a lot of potential for expressions too!!!! Do NOT underestimate the power of The Scrunch).... meanwhile all of my prev Miis have had pug faces LMFAOOOO SOMWBODY FYCKING SAVE THEM‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️